no, this was not the plan for my life. 

Keep going. A decade ago I would rush home from my day job full of anticipation and excitement to see if you posted a vlog

Remember to work hard, be nice to people and try to not get lost or killed! 💚💚💚

You are EXACTLY where you need to be. Quiet the mind and kill the ego's expectations as they are endless. Much love!

You have such a fantastic mum. You have travelled a lot but she always has a warm home for you to come back to. She is an angel!

Been watching you since you were making stickers in your bedroom. You have always been able to make everything interesting.

Glad Alfie is still around

The tears we cry sat on the bed back at our parents…again..as an adult are tears like no other. Something somewhere trying to tell you you’ve failed, or the disbelief it once again didn’t work out. I couldn’t relate more. But the more times I do it and reflect, it’s always been needed. We are so lucky to have that safety net, which actually enables us to take those risks in the first place. And I’ve come to realize id always chose the snippets of love and life that I’m grieving over not having that experience. You couldn’t write the fact there is a van garage on your way to work. If that’s not the universe’s motivation I don’t know what is! Thank you for continuing to be so open with all sides of this journey. At this time don’t forget the books (even if you’ve read them over and over) A new earth - Eckhart Tolle Mind power - John Kehoe

so lovely to see Alfie (and Georgie) again! they’re looking so well 😊

I commented on the last video about the 'vlog style' content. I hope you didn't take it personally! I didn't mean it in an offending way at all so apologies if it came across like that. THIS however, I absolutely loved!! Such a nice video. You're slowly getting back to it Ben, it's great to see this full circle moment happening. :) Edit: just to add to this and what you talk about later in the video. I don't think it's that people dislike the 'deeper content' or anything like that at all. I just (personally) believe that everyone in some way or another, has/is/will go through that stuff but it's a very personal and deep journey. It also isn't easy and can be difficult and exhausting. And it doesn't make for entertaining viewing, that's the truth of it. For the vast majority of people anyway. A lot of people have difficult/stressful days and so when they open Netflix of RU-vid, you go for a bit of escapism. You've paid your dues and worked hard through the day, so you don't want to log on and watch someone who is being really deep/vulnerable all the time. You want escapism and entertainment. Again, not to say people can't go on their journeys through life and self-discovery and all the emotional heaviness that comes along with that journey, but it shouldn't (in my opinion anyway) encapsulate your whole personality and being. I guess maybe what I'm trying to say here Ben, is that I think people (and by that I mean your subscribers) appreciate that you've gone through a difficult time but I don't think that and this journey you're going on now, of trying to bring your RU-vid channel back and record great videos of your adventures can't go hand in hand. They absolutely can. You've got this mate.

Good luck Ben! It's clear that you're at a very important chapter in your life, and I trust you will attract all the happiness you deserve. All the best!

I’m the one who once commented on your tweet, “winds of change”, I’m 45 years, 4 kids and you will make me change my career, yes Ben, I want to get a Van and travel Europe and maybe who knows the world. Thank you for sharing your life, I will need help from your subscribers when I start eventually 😊

Its a blessing you have parents that love you and still support you as you figure it out. ✨☀️

It's good to see how honestly and realistically you assess your current situation, even that this point was never part of your plan for your life - if you are aware of this, you are already 10 steps further than many other people who are at exactly the same point like you currently are

Been following your journey since 2014 or so - many lifetimes lived. I can fully relate being what society calls 'successful' and making space to find the 'real you'. And, having the soft landing of your childhood home is an amazing safety net many don't have the luxury of, and yet can feel embarrassing and humbling. You've touched on your 'coping mechanisms' and addictions before - I'd love to hear more about what you're facing and how your managing. Love and light x

I feel like we’re in the same place, brother. Just yesterday I was having this day… this awakening journey ain’t for the faint of heart. But all we can do is cultivate a sense of grace in the hard moments. Keep showing up for ourselves, especially when the pain teacher is here to visit. Much love

Here for all of this. The expression of the inner dialogue of a 30 something year old realizing his full spiritual and creative potential.

It's good to see you back. Little odd at first seeing back in UK after so long out. Have to say, as someone that lives in Dorset - was that the New Forrest in some of scenes - I swear I've been to some of those spots.

Stop overthinking it we love these little updates keep it coming 👏👏👏

Very true! Working THROUGH our challenges (& circumstances) will always reward us with much more than running away or trying to avoid challenges!

Same boat man guy, moved states, and ended up back at home working the same job. On a hunt to build myself into someone that can make money the way I want to and to experience freedom in this world. Keep the dream alive - you have got this!

i experienced something similar, manifested a life so quick and exciting tons of money tons of life. then covid hit and humbled my ego and lost that income and that ego and didn't belive in my manifesting abilities anymore. How do you deal with that failure when your identity was "im on the internet and had a cool plan and being a traveler" then accepting a new reailty you need to move back home/get a job for a bit that doesn't fit that cool mold you used to have traveling/taking photos etc.

So glad you’re vlogging again and with your amazing Mum and family. Yes to the micro warrior training sessions! You’ve got this.

Although easy to say from afar, the journey you are on right now to build the life you feel drawn to is a fascinating and relatable story to document!

Love the vlogs again Ben! You've been missed, been following you since 2013. Stay strong and much love, you will get there brother!

Challenges of life brother, feel you. Also with parents, in my 30s trying to figure it all out. Stay strong.

So much reflection in my path of starting my RU-vid all over again... So much invitation to trust the process!

Getting up and starting again or over is hard, but SO WORTH it!!!

You're getting there.

Thanks ben! heading for a walk now, i needed it but couldny bring myself to it

I remember when you unboxed that Topo bag 🤯 feels like it was yesterday

That garden 🥹🥹 nature is in full bloom

Scratched the travel vlog itch for me! Liked this little format!

You're doing great, brother!

Watching you since 2013-14. Lot has changed

You look great, shaved, happy, zestful, it's not van life that's done that - it is just life in general. Run with this job, enlarge your skill base and you'll have the ability to earn money yourself for many years to come...., van life is putting all your eggs in a RU-vid algorithm!! And remember ...

Crazy how things can change on youtube.. I've been doing youtube fulltime for 3 years and i'm not taking anything for granted. I'm trying to set myself up so that if it all goes to nothing, i'll be okay.

These videos are giving me strength because of the vulnerability and strength you show.

I would consult an agent regarding opportunities. with someone of your background

Really appreciate you sharing your journey. Finding many similarities with my current life situation and you inspire me a lot to be positive but also work on changing the situation I am in. ❤

For what it's worth, there are lots of us (I am sure) living lives we didn't plan for, feeling scared, trying to work out finances, life plans, how to dig ourselves out of the holes we have found ourselves in. You make me feel less humiliated about not having figured it all out and I hope that perhaps knowing you are not alone, that there are people who recognise what you're talking about, offers a little comfort to your fears of humiliation too. P.S. Also your courage in trying to figure it out is inspiring and there will be lots of people cheering you on and understanding change takes time.

been following your content since the start - keep being you dude!

Times r super tough, keep ur chin up, bro.

Ben are we ever sure of anything in life? Take the dive and don’t regret but have a plan in mind. Cheers mate.😊

Ps The scenery clips at the end with the music is pure Art ✨ you are a creative Genius

We are so conditioned in our lives where we should be. So you back home with your parents. You are so lucky to still have them in your life. This time will pass and you will be moving forward with your amazing life Ben. Life throws us many challenges but it is how you deal with these challenges. Keep strong & don’t over think too much. You have got this💪🙏

Really enjoyable watch ben. Alot of balanced wisdom

Whitemoor pond at the end there.

Have you read Secret by Rhonda Byrne, very good book based on positive manifestation

So many synchronisities in your vlogs... sending love, Ben!

very wise. the value in what your saying will reach its audience- and compound from there

This content is absolute Gold brother!! A glimpse into your life!!! The heroes journey is the most relatable and greatest story you could ever share, and while a day in your life while you feel not much is happening for you, we on the other side of the screen live a different daily life so it’s interesting and insightful to see… those Le Creuset cups get those affiliate links popping bro😍 Just got a cafeteria from them ✨ Proud of you for your courage! Let go of the feelings of humiliation You are creating the life you have dreamed of brother, shifting timelines and unfolding for your highest good Love you Thank you for shinning your light 💡

Hey Ben. I'm currently going through a terribly painful break up, the king that makes life feel colorless, tasteless, hopeless. BUT this video has been so soothing, conforting, reassuring. This vid felt like a reminder that we all struggle sometimes. We all feel various shades of pain and grief. We're all in the same boat. Together. We feel the pain, focus on the good. Focus on growing and learning. That's just what I needed today and that what your video gave me! Thanks a ton

you’ve got hundreds of thousands of subscribers. what if you work out a deal with a company that makes or rents camper vans to lend you one for a specific amount of time in exchange for the advertising

Love it Ben it’s all coming to you

Ben I love these videos, they add some peace to my life and help me stay grounded. Thank you

Been watching for years and the latest vlogs, have I missed why you’re back in the UK? Why did your work end in South Africa? Are you still with Leonie?

Instead of tap water you could buy a water distiller which removes everything from tap water. Or Glaceu Smart Water is distilled water then has some minerals added back.

Loved the vlog Ben ^^, Best of luck to you 😊 (You basically said so yourself but ) You know, trying is usually enough, don't get disheartened.. I mean trying is all we can do...the rest is not up to us :) We constantly evovle, right? (if it is our goal to become a better version of ourselves anyway) So it may seem that "you're back at the start" but you aren't really...you've gained more experience/wisdom/tools to navigate life. If you think of a vertical spiral coil and you start your journey at the bottom of it, it may seem like you're going in circles but you're really moving upwards. Also, imo humiliation is not bad. We are better humans when we are humble :) take every misfortune as an opportunity to grow :)

Loving this content, thank you

Think everyone can relate to the struggle you’re experiencing. Especially through these particularly difficult times. You appear to have the right mindset and motivation to get yourself back on track keep it up 💪🏻 Only a matter of time before your living van life…😎🚐 I feel like I’ve missed a chapter of your life, that’s led you to be back in the uk. I understand you may not want to share it at this time though. Just know that we will be here to support you when you are!

You've always been an inspiration to me and happy that vlogs are more consistent. I can only hope that one day I'll have adventurous partner like you one day. Sure, these videos aren't like back in the day but we are constantly evolving. I do miss your old content at times but I am liking this newer era more. I feel like it would be cool to see an entire video 1 hour video of you, Louis, and Jeremy for us longtime fans! 😊

Ben, I don’t know what exactly happened to you lately, but one thing I know… I’ve been watching your vlogs from time to time and the once I like most are the real life vlogs you are doing. When I see the real human being - Ben, keep it up!!! I am going through rough changes last few years and I can imagine what it is for you! It’s hard, some times I feel like it will never be easy, it will never be successful… but it is just “infinite game”… just keep playing/walking/working towards your goals!

Humiliation … don’t worry mate about what others think … keep pushing on … life is tough … life is real … trust you find your path … take care …

Ben! Fucking love you bro!!

Needed this

…when you’re watching a Brit in the UK enjoy a sunnier climate than you 😯🙄 Enjoy it Ben … all those light codes Happy Jupiter Uranus conjunction ✨⭐️✨

Your a cool and creative guy ben I'm sure you will figure it out bro

Ben, remember to work smart, be kind to people and keep the dream alive 🤗

thumbnail has ep 5 in it when its 6!

This makes me smile

why no tap water?

How do you go broke, I sense someone wasn’t responsible with their $$$

Comment for the algo and thankyou for you.

Did I miss the memo? Why is tap water bad?

Being positive is good Ben, but the self doubt isn’t going to help you friend. You need to find a way to build a career outside of the internet. Lots of love mate ! Been watching from 2013/14

What happened to Pumba the Landy?

❤❤❤❤

used to be one of my favorites

allow yourself to be human bro!

Alfdog!

We’ll go splits on a Hymer with you 🤣

Have you left Cape Town for good now?

🤍

Wait, but aren’t you earning anything from your content here? Over half a million subs should translate into a good enough leverage to earn some cash?

Can't remember the saying accurately, but something like, we make plans, and God laughs?!🫤

Really enjoyable watch ben. Alot of balanced wisdom