It’s hard to believe that it’s been over a year since I stumbled upon this video. At that time, I found myself watching it multiple times a day, every day. I was trapped in a cycle of despair, questioning my worth and even contemplating ending my life. I gave myself a time frame of five years to make positive changes - and I can proudly say, I’ve made progress. Yet, there are still moments when shadows of doubt, self-loathing, and regrets creep into my thoughts. But now, instead of letting them consume me, I focus and allow myself to truly feel every emotion. I reflect on the progress I’ve made and remind myself of all the new things I’ve embraced. The thought of missing out on life’s wonders saddens me: the mesmerizing beauty, the joy, the laughter shared with friends and family, and the entire spectrum of emotions. They all play a crucial role in experiencing life in its entirety. To everyone grappling with challenges: I get it, it’s hard. But remember, you possess an inner strength, perhaps one you haven’t even discovered yet. Savor the good days. Commit to a routine and stay disciplined. Start with reading a single page every day, or exercise once a week. Gradually, once a week will become twice, and soon enough, you’ll crave more. Admittedly, my reading skills mirror that of an average 7-year-old, even in my twenties. Yet now, I aim to finish a book every month. Before turning 20, I’d only read a single book, not counting comics hahah I also faced physical challenges. After breaking a bone in my back from a skiing accident at 17, I refrained from rigorous activity. Fast forward to now, and I just completed a 6-mile uphill run just for the thrill of it. And I workout every day before work. Having spent years battling self-loathing and shying away from challenges for fear of failing, I now push myself to my limits, striving for growth and savoring the euphoria of truly living. I believe in you, and in time, you’ll believe in yourself. Allow yourself that time. Who knows what you will become.
@rasmusnatvig3186 I also came across this video a year ago and just like you I watched it several times a day, certainly to feel less alone, now I have progressed, I read and exercise all day and I have adopted a routine that helps me feel better and improve. What you say in your comment touched me deeply because it really looks like what I experienced and what I am going through. Today I am better even if I still have a long way to go but I am on the good see. I watch this video every time I feel alone, I don’t know if it’s your case but cinema has helped me a lot and has educational value for me. Thank you for your comment that makes good and good luck.
Thank you, I hope you keep moving forward. Any advice on books, I know I should read something about control of thoughts. As they more often then not decide to go down hill.
It's not always about love and women We sad and depressed cuz of responsibility, family problems, financial and future that we don't talk about with anyone
@Thomas @Thomas speak for yourself bro. I definitely think im morally superior then some guy who likes skinning kids alive, and if you assume you also share their flaws, sins, and temptations, give me your location, I gotta call the FBI on your ass.
@phantom.Vergil why, like if you do feel like these characters you dont understand the movie and if you think your cool because you think you are patrick bateman or etc. Go seek some help lmao
Anyone whom got recommended this, you're automatically my friend. We all fight strenuous battles in this war we call life. It takes more courage to fight our demons day after day than it does to end it all. Stay strong, you're life may depend on it
Here I am sitting in the kitchen again, alone, at 1 AM, without light in the darkness and remembering how I used to smile so much and now don't. Wondering why I'm still enduring this all... This video frames my mood pretty well
@@zackwaffen9210 I didn't meant the "without light in the darkness"-thing metaphorical, I meant literally sitting in the dark. Besides that you are telling me what I already know. But still thx for trying.
It's kind of incredible how so many prolific movies and male characters always have such a dark and looming presence rather it be their demons or themselves portrayed as one. It's almost like a subliminal portrayal of society and the emotions men harbor and how deep they can truly go.
@@paulbraunstein2290 and then called weak when we have the courage to do so because men are supposed to be strong although crying appears as being weak which is not the case
As my man Elliot Alderson said: "Fuck society". Society as a whole is just hypocritical trash of upholding morals that are broken when the same people who preach about upholding these morals have something to personally gain. Nobody talks about it because it exposes how hypocritical, selfish, and out of touch human beings truly are. It's not wrong when they do it, but it's wrong when we do it.
And if we show our feelings we are seen as weak even. I try not to care and let them be shown, life’s too short people can think whatever they want we shouldn’t care to be ourselves.
Whenever we become vulnerable, we're taken advantage of most of the times. Harsh reality but as a man if you have to cry : cry alone, in front of your parents or someone who you really trust.
@@capmonkeyboy04 Damn okay, it became one of my favs movies along with Fight Club, I really liked it! I was not expecting the ending, and a lot of unanswered questions and really weird scenarios which I didn't understand but I got a quite understanding of what was happening, 9/10 for me.
@@dexplays3298 SAME. One of few movies where I didn’t know how the movie was going to play out and the mysteries stay unsolved for the most part. The ending scene really sold it for me. He just happened to be a kid that was supposed to be in the right place at the right time but wasnt
Sometimes when I struggle to get results and finally get them, I am not happy, I feel useless even if I had worked a lot and sticked to my plans to achieve my goals. Only now that I am in vacation for few weeks I understand that all what I did was getting mostly distracted by my meaningful life, or at least it is what I think I feel right now seeing all of my friends and classmates going out with ppl and girlfriends. I wonder if it is my fault for being lonely or it is the other people that does not want to be with me. This edit just reminds me of the dark side of my life that I can't get rid of since I understood how hard is life during my teen age. I always have been very different from the others and I think only few appreciate me for who I really am.
The thing is, my friend, not many people may appreciate you as a person but you know that already. As you said you know the struggles and the dark side of life since you were a teen. To your question if it's your fault or not, I can't exactly give a answer on which I would completely stand behind. Simply because I don't know you and your situation well enough. But besides that I sympatize with you because I'm in a more or less similar situation. My answer, for now, would be a combination of both : the society has failed you and you kind of have a part about your situation, so that you even came in a one like that. The thing is we as humans have *always* a part about our situation because we have a own will and own choices. Special people like you, who may be with their heads many levels above others because of experience, knowledge or simply because their are reflective and realists, don't have it easy. You will not be happy when you are 'just with people'. Loneliness is not just a result of 'not being with people', it's often deeper. But you know that for sure already. Of you really want a 'true friendship' then you need such people who are similar to you. The only help I can offer you is to learn how to accept your own person as a guest. Try to connect with people who you interested in. They may be interested on you too. In the end everyone has a person or many persons who they feel connected with. You just need to have patience. I hope I didn't drift away too much and could somehow helped you. If I couldn't them excuse me, I at least have tried. Just know that you are not alone and not unnoticed. I wish you the best.
I recently revealed the genders of my two girlfriends. It got a lot of hate and now has 30 times more dislikes than likes. I am really sad that people can be so mean. Sorry for using your comment to talk about my problems, dear twx
It's been almost a year when I used to watch this edit repeatedly. Today youtube recommended me this. I can say it is the best edit I have ever seen on internet. What a piece of art. Every second i can feel myself in it. You have perfectly added every single clip in a perfect order. You used right music for this which makes it 10/10. Thanks! Really loved this one, Man.
I watch this about 30 times a day. Guys, you wouldn't get how much I relate to these people, especially K from the Bladerunner 2049. I don't feel like being a living being anymore.
If you're reading this, I don't care what you're going through, don't give up. Yes, it's hard, but people need you, don't let them down, and don't let yourself down, do your best. Stay strong brothers.
I respect you my brother if you relate to these kind of videos. I know what you've been through, I know what you're going through, and I guess now you know what I've been through. At least you now know you're not alone. I believe in you you got this man! We will always have each other. Loneliness and hardships are the force that drives a man to be who he is. Choose wisely. Stay strong kings!
Born 1993, when I was around 5/6 me and my family had to move to Germany, Osnabruck because my Dad was stationed there for being in the British Army. We stayed there until 2001. I can honestly say from what memories are still there in my head, are the best years of my life. If I could just relive those days, just for a few hours, I would be so happy. I spend hours crying happy/sad tears on Google Earth Pro with the time machine of the maps. Seeing my old Primary School before it was demolished. Seeing the Army barracks my dad was at before that too was sadly demolished. Seeing my old childhood home which I haven't seen since we left 22 years ago. It's even more saddening with how Germanys privacy laws are. Google Street view is practically none existent. So the buildings and the streets I fondly remember are mainly just these pixelated resemblances of buildings that I still vividly remember from my childhood but i can't see how are now or was a few years ago. I only have what I remember, and the odd remnants of videos here on RU-vid which is extremely lacking and rare to find. The walks we went on, the Warner Brothers Movie Theme Park down south near Dorsten. Pony rides in the woods and picking the oldest one there who was called Boris. I picked him all the time because he liked to eat the grass a lot which made the ride last longer so I could spend more time with him. The little & big lake walk just behind the Nettebad. The traditional Christmas Markets in the town centre. Playing video games when my Dad finally came home on my Playstation 1, we would try and beat the games in one day but never could because I didn't have a memory card. Getting excited whenever Pokemon was on the TV. Friends round mine to share the big swimming pool I had. Watching Halloween Town before going out trick or treating. Finding our first ever pet, a kitten abandoned behind a grit bin while we were on a bike ride and taking her home, we named her Millie. So many memories. All lost to time. With only old VHS tapes & photographs to try and relive those memories at least just a tiny bit. Oh what Id do just to go back to those days. Nostalgia is such a beautiful but cruel mistress. I hate to love it and love to hate it. I Miss you Osnabruck. I miss you childhood. But. I have a baby daughter now. And I honestly can not wait to be the best father I can possibly be. And to make everlasting memories with her that she can look back on and smile just as much as I do looking back at the ones I made with my Mum & Dad. Oh Germany. Oh Osnabruck. Oh childhood. You were the best of days. I'll revisit you one day. With the whole family hopefully.
Hey man, I know you don’t know me and I also don’t know you, and yet the fact that you’ve decided to write some thoughts about your childhood time made me pour some tears… so Thanks for sharing Also I want to say that you’re going to be a great father, so live a happy and peaceful life with your family ✌️👨👩👧
You can't go up and you can't go down you can't go left and you can't go right you could only go forward because there is no going back in life. if you can make it through the darkness and the heaviness of the turbulent and chaotic waters that have become you, you will undoubtedly be much more of a MAN because you can only grow above water not in it. Do not drown and you'll feet will touch the sand once again.
Yeah my man is right. I believe you that it hurts, like hurts a fucking lot. But the only way is forward, also when it seems that it doesn't go forward. If it helps you, you are not alone my friend. You are not alone and not unnoticed. You have already to people behind you. Zero and me. Keep your head up and if you need to say something off of your soul. Just write it here down, it may help.
i have been addicted to your edits. this one i've had on loop. just incredible. thanks for your work. don't know if you have seen one hour photo with robin williams but i think it would make for some great edits.
These are all GOAT caliber actors breathing life into the male experience. Ryan Gosling, Joaquin Phoenix, De Niro, Edward Norton, Jake Gyllenhaal, and Christian Bale. It feels as if these scenes were made to be knit together to evoke the exact emotions we feel as we're watching this edit. Great edit and choice of music.
How could she when she'll never live it, she'll never bear it, nor endure it, or resent it. She'll never know what it's like to to look in the mirror and stare into the monsters eyes. Its's cruel and addicting and no one can protect us from it because we're MEN.
