@@mad3ubthere will never be anyone who understands you fully, somethings you would never say even to your mother, your lover, you keep that thing inside you. But it doesn't mean we shouldn't try to make connections, it's an awkward painful thing sometimes but it's also a sense of comfort when you find someone who understands you just a bit more than the rest, those are ur best friends, lovers, close family member
*Yin and Yang. Without sadness… Happiness wouldn’t be a thing. Without night, daylight would kill everything. Without evil, good would not be such a thing. We need both opposites. There is no such thing as perfection.*
lost love of my life, we both had crush on each other for about a year and oftentimes we used to make reasons to see or meet each other but never confessing because it was fun that way and now her parents changed her school and city leaving me without any contacts . i wish it never happened
This song started in my head after helping my crush get together with my best friend. seeing them both makes me just stand there and say "damm did i do a good thing?" and yes i. did but it did hurt really hurt, i had to keep my will and emotions up high to make them not worry. i knew she would be happy with him i knew it very well. i dont mind being the shadow, in fact i would rather be there for her when she needs help and congratulate her achievements far away. Update after 2 months... - I...felt happy and sad actually the music started in my head once again. At the end of my graduation i saw them both laughing and happy... i saw how my best friend treated her. just the way i told him to... seeing him introduce himself to her parents made me heartbroken but in joy... if you get what i mean. I could just stand there again and again and just admire her for one last time before everything is gone. i know im not needed because i promised her that ill stay as long as she is happy and looks to me i achieved it... now im here in a lonely silent room wishing them a happy happy future. Its been weeks... i haven't done any progress in my life... i cant stop thinking about her... Another update dudes... i lost my smile, i lost my joy and looks like i'm not really into with this situation. Everything i see around is love and just black and white you know? My friends are concerned about me and i just could hardly reply to them im working on myself yeah thats for sure but its still missing something... i cant like working out, living healthy or just simply loving the self time of your life... yet... something is still not ready for me to keep going you know?... something is just staying there which i dont know why... it's confusing me hahaha i'm not just gonna update anything else i just keep on helping people while i walk alone in the streets isolating in one bench... al l i could see in my insta is her and bestfriend ahving the best time. And im just here pathetically doing nothing but to do self time. All i could say is "Wow congrats for them". Few day goes by and my friend cames in with a concerned look on me for looking like i haven't showed in months. They 4 were in tears of how, the "Joyful Counted" turned into a sadistic dude who works in the office 3 months with no breaks. They couldn't help but hugged me and looked at me crying of how they were sorry for me and how it concerned them alot. They stayed for an hour and they just felt sorry for me and i cant even hardly look at them. They were just in that much of sympathy they kept saying sorry like it was their fault. And i can't even say anything to them. Affter hours in the evening they learned my room while i look like i have been sitting in the chair and they didnt diturbed me atll... they just left me food and thats it.... i owe them alot for this... i just wished that i was able to take actions... right now im trying or just doing my best too.... look up and try to at least get myself together... Quick update for you all.... i met this one girl... she shines the most... i found her when i was at a coffee shop... she approached me out of the blue which confuses me because i dont know her at some point of way.... and then i realized.... she was my friend a friend of mine that i met on school... we dont meet pretty interact with each other honestly we just said hi and then to her its a frineds thing now.... she said hi and said how was i? i replied wit hthe most coldest thing on eart because i didnt had any energy but dont worry im not depressed any longer... i just lost my smile. But this one girl told me if she could add me any way because we are friends but dont have any mutuals on any social media at all and so we did. She kept texting me like shes the only one thinking about me or osme sort... but mainly she told me that she was worried about me like... i changed she said.... and so she stayed like we bonded like soulmates... she kept talkting me making me laugh at some point and mainly... for the past few weeks i slowly and slowly felt happy she made me smile again we could talk for hours and she wont get tired of me... but yeah she just makes me smile Hey dudes, its me Counted again... just updating you guys for a very a great news... my life is getting better. I have achieved it. I never thought i would never get it. My Joy and Happiness i never thought i wont get it any more. But i got it.. From her from the people i met along the way of my path... it all started when i lost her... now i got more than just one... i got close friends whom i cosnidered familly aswell.... She is healing me from my past... she loved me, udnerstood and we are in the most healthy and mature relationship... she shines just like sun... and she makes it brighter each day... I just wanna say thank you for all the comment sections who was there to tell me to keep going... and keep moving forward... i owe it to you guys alot.. i just came back right now because i was busy to my schedules i started my competitive squad... and my girl was there... so does everyone i cared. Sad update for you all We broke up, i have failed to fight for a relationship that was supposed to be my one happy story, i didn't know. She didnt trust me... our whole relationship was a lie. it was a one sided. she ddint trust me at all dudes.... i cant believe im going back t to the same place that i was trying my best to get back up with Well miss me? Still not on the happy phase you know.. its been 8 months and all i can do is just live a normal life, traumatized on every move i make that is including "love" i will never love again the same way as i loved someone back then. How long was i gone? its been a month or a year to be honest. Living a good not terrible life. Me and the old crush i had are good friends especially my best friend... i told her a lot of things about her and what should he do to make their relationship stronger. I love it, i loved the feeling of helping. They bond more better and nicer than so many things that you can imagine, it feels like i watched them grow. As a best friend of em both. Still have that feeling of being in that one position where they are happy and im just there... looking at them behind as they share laughs and joy. Don't get me wrong i respect them both. i was there if they need advices, tips and ways to make it more better. Now i feel like im just a lost soul, always there but can never find himself along the way.l
I feel you brother. She was the one to approach me, she was the one to leave me. I didn't want her to get sad so I got her together with my best friend as he had much more to offer to her. What hurt me the most was not her leaving me or her getting along with another person, it was her lying to me that she loved me I have experienced alot of things but that one stood out the most to me
@@shoty_x1693 Damm man... sorry to hear that seeing this right now... i feel like this situation is more harsher than a rejection , Like its a rejection but more complex i suppose?
@@shoty_x1693 Not alone fam. However my best friend and her seemed to flow more and I did catch them talking to each other alone at some points when we were talking. Imagine sitting in a discord call and listening to them flirt. Silence, they don't even notice you come in. My heart shattered at the thought, not only my best friend likes her but she does too. I invited her because it was easier to talk to her in my server, but hey guess it was my fault bringing it to the boi's. Lol im kidding. It does suck like hell... But hey it was a awhile back, still hurts but not as much I guess.
To the person who read this, It's been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don't see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn't think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren't perfect. It's painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don't know how much impact you have in this world and it's sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it's something so simple and little that brightens up someone's whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you're passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it's been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you're here, existing, but I don't want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It's heartbreaking that you think you're not capable of being loved.I know it's tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don't let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won't let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won't let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there's someone looking right back, maybe we can't see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that's enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you're still fighting. You're so much stronger thank you think, you didn't leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn't feel like it, when you don't feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you're one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you're heart is beautiful, that's why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other's presence. You're a star for me, maybe you don't see it yourself but I can see it, you're beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don't let your story get written by others but by yourself, it's your story nottheirs. As you can see, I say a lot of "I hope" because I have hope for you even if you don't have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That's why I hope you won't see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is purple, and I hope the next time you see the color purple you will think about my words. If someone left you than don't blame yourself, don't think you weren't enough, don't lower yourself for someone u deserve better I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it's not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You're not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what's wrong. It's everything, isn't it? There's something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it's heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can't give you a hug, that's why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn't give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn't give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can't you now?
As sad as it is, I have come to realize that things will never be the same as they were. I do not know what to make of that or what I should feel about it. This song really makes it very melancholic for me, for what happened yesterday, days, weeks, months, and years agos, the joys of childhood and being teenagers. It cannot be replicated nor replaced. I don't know if I can have something like that again and it scares me...
There is no reason to be scared, my child. Just as there will inevitably be sadness, there will also inevitably be joy. Maybe not for a few days or weeks or months, but there will be warmth in this winter we call life
Ive been dating this girl for 18 months and its been the best relationship ive ever been in by a large margin... wouldnt have traded it for the world, but ive been slowly losing myself and losing my battle with my brain, no matter how much love we have it wint be able to chanhe the fact that even in our 20's we arent mature enough for the adult relationship we have been trying to support ive learned so mucb from her now including love isnt always enough that we need space to heal from our pasts without each other so we can have a future... never posted comments in my life idk why i am now but maybe ill find this one day and smile back on my pain with love and happiness for choosing myself for once and make myself whole again❤
Commenting to remind you of this. It's truly a beautiful comment, and I hope you and her can find yourselves in this dark time so you can find each other again when you both have more experience in life. Best wishes.
my brother always plays this song whenever he's about to sleep, we both lived together on a boarding house, but sadly its been 2 months since his passing
cciovaneh, non è che mi puoi portare una vrancat di patatin con cociak e maiaiè? possibbilmendeh veloce prima che si addormentanooo..lebbirre.. AAIIH? ;)
There’s something about this song that is so calming, it just makes you cry and remember old pastimes that were happy, but now gone. It feels like a comforting presence is with you, and there is nobody here to judge you for your feelings. Just you and the song, a moment you can rarely get in life. Atleast that’s how I see it. To whoever is reading this, I wish the best for you. I know you are trying your hardest, and I believe in you. I’m sure almost everyone here does. There are greater things to come in life, although it may not seem like it, I can only tell you that even if your life doesn’t go the way you want, or if everything just seems unfair, there are and will always be good things, whether it be past or present, big or small. I’m very proud of you, and you deserve to feel loved, cared for, and acknowledged. After everything you have gone through, whether it be self conflict, relationship problems, mental/physical trauma, etc, you deserve good things in life. We all do. I may just be a stranger on the Internet, but one thing that we all can sympathize with, is the fact that all of us have struggles/struggled at some point in life. You deserve to feel happy, sad, angry, and confused. You deserve to be treated like a normal human being, because you are, we all are. To whoever might be reading this, I want you to know that I am so proud of you, I’m proud of you for coming this far, I’m proud of you for being here, im proud of you for being strong, although it may not seem like it, I’m proud of you for not giving up, atleast not yet. I hope that you’ll soon find happiness in life and others, and that you can break free from that barrier that keeps you from being who you really are. Let your scars heal slowly, but surely. I believe in you.
Your most thoughtful message puts a smile on my face - thank you so, so much. I believe in you as well, and you deserve the best things in life. Please don't ever tell yourself otherwise. Wishing you so much happiness because you always deserve to be happy.
Every time I hear this song i instantly get reminded of her, for me she looked just like this song.. just like harmony. I know you're watching me above, I haven't forgotten you🕊️.
"Come to me, all who are weary and heavy laden, and I will rest." - Jesus Matthew 11:28 Jesus loves you very much. I am healed because of him. And he wants to heal you too. just come to him He is the reason I am alive today.❤❤❤
It's my birthday today. I've been... mentally ill so to speak for the rest of passed years. But today I was reminded. I reminded myself by help of everyone else that I'm not alone. I had forgotten many good memories so I couldn't hold to them when I felt down. I felt empty. Without thoughts and memories to hold on dearly. Family albums brought those memories - not every memory, but still, I had remembered some. It's good enough for me. When I was a kid, when I was... innocent. So whenever you feel down, you have to believe that nothing is lost. Don't give up.
I've known this song for a long time and didn't think much of it. Until i realised how much this song expressed me is when at a school event, my crush told me she loves me. At that time i was happy, excited but then.. she told me she only wanted to get it off her chest and then went to sit and have fun laughing with her ex above me while watching the art performing. I went upstairs to sit just a little bit afar from them to see her looking at my pain. And she didnt. I couldn't even look at her direction, i just cant.. it felt like something was pulling my head forward. But when i actually looked, it hurts from the eyes to the chest.. the shock made my eyes suddenly watery. I tried to wipe it off but her friends that helped her confess to me saw me and tried to comfort me saying "are you okay?" "you're not jealous are you?" and i remember saying "what jealous? whats wrong?" with a fake smile that can be easily guessed. I wish at that time, i instead said the truth but its too late.. its been 3 months, she moved out of town and i can't get over her. I wanted to chat her to tell the truth but im scared she lost interest and i only disrupt her. In that span of 2 months there was no school due to end of school year's holiday. When it's finally time to go to school, i lost my smile. The boy who was the loud class clown turned into an introverted depressed mf who only wanted to sit alone and remember the moment he can't replay. Yes, i'm still loud but thats only when i'm with my friends because they made me forget her for a while. When i get back from school in the car, i immediately got reminded of her and got sad. The others who noticed me being more silent and when they asked me whats wrong i said i'm okay. They called me "emo" and i accepted it because i didn't want them to know. Often times, i caught myself having too much joy and seperated myself from others to sit alone. I've become a better person physically and worse mentally. Everytime i tried to cry when sitting alone, the tears and pain felt like it got sucked back into my chest. The only person whom i talked to about this told me to move on.. on the other side i wanted to but, i also didn't want to. If the memory is what i had left of her, i don't want to forget it. I can't be interested in other girls anymore. I only wanted her.. every night, i imagine her being the bolster im cuddling with. When i realised it wasn't her, it felt like there is a hole in my heart. Emptyness. I wish she knew my pain. Im typing this while listening to the song trying the best to cry but felt like i can't let go. I hope i won't, but i also hope i do. Everyday, i only look at her photos from insta having fun on out of town, waiting for her to notice me knowing we won't even meet eachother again in my life. I know its evil but i hope she won't be interested in other boy. I wish someday i magically stumbled upon her... someday. I want type more but i don't know what to type. There's still more but i don't know. This is the best i can express my feelings Sorry for bad english Update: guys it really hurts knowing i might not see her again. God i just wanna see her again just to hug her and tell everything. Please Another update: 3 weeks after i wrote this comment I thought i moved on, but the feeling always came back when im alone. The heartbroken still felt the same, just a little bit better i think it'll heal. I hope not. The feeling of loneliness and trust issue on people gets me everytime i think i'm getting too close to people thinking they will betray me just like she did. Now i can't show emotion Update: guys after a long journey of my "villain arc", i've come to realisation that what i'm doing is wrong. In that "phase" i trained hard until i lose my own feelings. I was a someone with no feelings, expressions and everytime i talk to people, i always talk in a bitter way. But, after a long time i finally realised that i must change. I forgave her from the start but this time, i want to become a better person. Its been 2 weeks since i've changed but i just realised it now. Now, i always sit alone, and enjoy the nature. I forgive everyone.
I made a mistake that even I couldn't forgive. She forgave me, but not the deed. After that, I thought it would be better for her if I left, but no. You just know, I don't see happiness in life with the person I love, and realizing what I've done, it hurts.
"The Gods envy us. They envy us because we're mortal, because any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now" My fav quote, cause despite our imminent Demise, Mortality always shines brightly, there will never be another like you, and i find that truly beautiful
This song reminds me of my mom, and all the memories we shared we had little to no time to actually bond until she was on her death bed , i took care of her , she passed away a month before my bday , i really needed this
I've been donating to homeless people nonstop before I even listen to this and then I started to wonder if anyone would be proud of me.... But I am proud of myself because I am and will do my best for the joy of life.
*SPOILERS* I couldn’t take it, as a man this anime made me feel like as if I really lost my baby niece and it hurt so much because those random “What if” scenarios in my head came popping up. When his daughter died in his arms that was the final straw for me I had to cry. 😢❤
Recently just left our own country, I keep remembering my family and my own truly beloved friends when I play this music. It's just so sad that i had to leave my grandparents, they raised me in such good responsibility and I'll never forget how they loved me and how they cared for me. It's just sad to see them cry.
listening to this brings me all the way back in time i was in the same class with my crush. i never really cherished those times as i thought, maybe she’s not the one for me as all my other friends kept telling me she was a bad person. and that really affected my thoughts, looking back now we were never in the same class for the next consecutive years and it really made us distance a part. i get it, i may not be able to be somewhat “more” then friends which is why i just wanted to be friends but things still never really worked out the way i thought it would. from texting each other every single day, from late night calls during the weekends staying up playing games. i really missed those times and honestly i feel like i need to gather myself up. i need to go back into school after the summer break better then ever, get better grades and attempt to get her off my mind but i cant. i really cant, every single morning i wake up expecting a text like the the past, but the realization of it being the present never comes to me. i just feel like an absolute bummer for not being able to let go of someone i truly love even though i know the chance to become closer again is like finding a needle in a haystack.
🌇🛌💤🫂😴 0:55 eu Amo muito essa Versão cara 🥰 que tbm dá até vontade de Chorar.😭🥺💔 E Também quando Está uma tardezinha.🌇eu Coloco Na minha playlist Good Vibes no RU-vid 3:05
Siempre que la escucho me hace recordar al dia que me fui de casa y mis hermanos quedaron tristes viendo mientras me iba, y ahora siempre que la escucho pienso mucho en ellos, los extraño un montón, extraño aquellos dias que jugábamos sin parar, extraño pelear con ellos, extraño mucho tenerlos cerca.....
My best friend didn't wanna be friends with me anymore.he told me yesterday at night while I was listening to this song and i started to cry my eyes out At least it was fun when I had it I remember the time when he told me his mother died and I felt so sorry for him he was heart broken for days He would sound like he was crying when I called him He started talking to my cousin and my other friend more Didn't call me everyday like he used to Told him I love him on his birthday and he didn't say it back But I would never stop loving him I miss him so much
Dude I hope this gets at least like five likes and some comments but it doesn’t matter if I don’t get any but this song just makes me feel like going out side and like yelling I love life. Also this song just makes me feel so weird like it gives me a emotion that I can’t exactly point a finger at or explain 🥹🧐🤨🙃
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I just miss my dog really badly, they died when they were just introduced to our family 3 months ago. I still remember the exact place she died. I hope I can see her on the other side.
this song is one of my favorites and youve made smth very beautiful from it. i almost attempted last night and ive been battling with depression and suicidal thoughts ever since the 3rd grade (im 13 turning 14 in october). this song just makes me want to cry. i feel ok today. my parents to get me better but when i told my mom in the 3rd grade that i first wanted to she got mad at me and yelled. i dont have a close relationship with any of my family. only told 2 of my friends ab what i am dealing with so i dont seem like a pick me. still wanting to leave here. hopefully ill be fine. still want to do it. nobody checks up on me. my phone is always dry. but its fine yk. they will care when i leave. have a good day! remember to eat and drink water. love you guys and stay safe! dig yourself out of it! dont end up like me! have a life! get a job! have a family! have a fun life! get in trouble once in a while! be happy! something i haven't felt in a while but thats ok! just want you guys to be happy! have a good day or night! bye...!
Idk but its feels good not to be gloomy yknow, through all the shit everyone goes through its good to smile even if you dont feel like it, a smile can help
I've heard this piece while scrolling on Facebook a few months ago. It gave me this random sense of nostalgia but sadness... that piece was stuck in my head for a while until i came across this video. the orchestra is just so beautiful and matches the guitar very well.. whenever i listen to this piece it reminds me of the sunset on sunny and clear days, it makes me want to cry even though I'm crying at the moment while typing this to be honest lol.. I cant describe how pretty this section is because its too pretty. Its so calming it feels like I'm in the middle of the ocean just floating around with my mind just empty, nothing to worry about at all, just nothing. The feeling of the song makes me imagine the view of the sunset of my old apartment when i was little, it felt nostalgic.. very nostalgic but anyways thanks for listening to my boring rant lol and i hope you have a good rest of your day :>
The loneliest people are nicest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. Only because they don’t want to see people hurt like themselves.
"Hello. I would just like to say I'm proud of you. Wherever you've been, whatever you've done, whenever it was, it's all in the past. Everything you need is already here. Be easy and still, the world is lucky to be your home. Be patient, do not rush, as you may find yourself in the best moments. For all the bleak dones and the dids, suffering you have tolled, it will serve you in due time. The grief of a bloomed flower, the music notes of a remedy, and the essence of being, let it all be." - Some (One)
i'm using this to write a fanfic on ao3, and i gotta say, this helps. torture is involved. manipulation, graphic depictions of violence, you name it. honestly, i think i might be mentally screwed for writing the thing, and your video has helped me write it, so well done! :)
Espero que o que sinto não seja eu Pois dói muito ser tão vivo Configurar um corpo já não meu Fortemente insisto e resisto Tanta coisa mudou e doeu O abandono e a solidão onde existo O compasso já não é mais efetivo Pela dor que guardo sem alarme Não sei como ainda eu consigo Viver em Deus e sentir Ele comigo Pois sua chama divina arde Sa noite triste à forte luz da tarde Conforta como caridade o doente da alma. Ainda me sinto por enquanto vivo Eternamente místico amor de Cristo Ele vive na igreja e na oração Pois sagrado és o teu coração Seguro as chagas de suas mãos E em ser santo novamente insisto Que a cruz sagrada seja minha luz No vale das sombras que me assola És o Cristo eterno rei quem me conduz Da casa ao trabalho, mercado e escola Toda fé que em mim cresce nele eu pus Em busca da divina concórdia Viva Cristo rei e Salve Maria, mãe de misericórdia. -Kaynan de Freitas Bezerra, poeta, humilde e eterno servo do Senhor meu Deus.
i started college in 2022, expecting to leave with a degree title and nothing more. i graduated last week with that degree, but also a new passion for graphic design, a sense of identity and colleagues that are like family. man, it's been hard not seeing them everyday.
i started university now and i feel like i didnt fit in there, i feel that i have social anxiety because i didnt know what to do when someone talks me and then i start feeling nerveous and then start to flee, and everyone soon will be making friends and they know a lot of things that i didnt know (im starting as a software engineer) so i just feel so apart from everyone that makes worse the anxiety, and then i want to start to learn how to draw and then how to animate like a hobby but then i realize how much time i would have free, and that time is for studying and idk i just feel like i just need more time, i cannot process all of this everything is occurring so fast enough that i cannot even cry, i litteraly just started crying only when i was writting this because even if im just starting i just feel so overwhelmed, im just a horrible person for everything i do in the past that all my old friends are slowly abandon me and that just make me feel lonely, why im like this and cant be like a normal person
İ kinda understand what you mean , im at the last grade of highschool , having an exam that will determine basically the rest of your life is stressing finding no one to talk or socialize is really hard , cant even think about it when i go to uni but its important to remember that what we are going through is just a phase of our lifes a thing that many people has experienced like us and we will get used to it like them, this comment is 1 months old but still i hope you are doing good
