What an amazing video. Im exactly like you. Relapsed countless times and more broken each time. Thank God I got humbled enough to surrender. Sober 5 years through the grace of God and AA.
Trying to convince myself that I could drink responsibly was the biggest joke I ever played on myself. One drink was always the beginning of yet another terrible ending. I've run the experiment too numerous times to count and the conclusion is always the same. I am indeed powerless over alcohol. It feels good to be baking homemade bread this fine Sunday morning rather than laying in bed dying from hangxiety.
Great video. Addiction specialist Bitten Jonsson talks about this a lot. She talks about 3 categories of users: social users, harmful users and the addicts. An addict has the illness of addiction as she calls it, and when they come in contact with the substance, like sugar, alcohol etc., the brain lights up like a Christmas tree and they are immediately all in even though they’ve been sober for 20 years. Their brains are wired differently. The saying “ one drink is too many and a thousand never enough “ is according the her experience very accurate for them. Wishing you all the best and thanks for sharing your thoughts with us
Today is fourth day that I will say out loud that I am an alcoholic. The fact that I’ve tried so many times to take an easier path to sobriety and am still here is my proof.
The Romainian is sober and ready for dry July! I can't wait to regain my health and myself and lose the 15 pounds drinking put on me.i got stung by a large amount of wasps last week and for whatever reason, that was my bottom and I stopped drinking the next day.thank you again for your channel, you've helped me a lot and so many others! Best of everything to you✌️
Noah, I say this from a place of love. You helped me get sober. I am now in my 6th year. I hate that you are still struggling. I feel like alcohol is in my rear view mirror and I'm driving 90mph. I couldn't picture life without it. Now, I can't picture life with it. It's unmanageable and I sure hope you are able to conquer this monster. I always remember that if it's a $500 shot of premium whiskey or gas station beer, it's all shit. I (and you) deserve better. Hang in there brother!
I think this channel is nothing but his cash cow.Hes been playing his game forever. Gives a bad rap to drinkers. Go to A.A. like you were told years ago..
"I think that's one of the problems with alcohol. Is that, if you came out with alcohol right now, if alcohol wasn't a thing. And you like, 'I've invented this drink, that is gonna make you like either really happy, or really aggressive, or really stupid, and we're gonna just sell it to the masses.' People'd be like, 'Nah, mate keep your funky juice, like we don't want that. That sounds terrible." -Tom Holland, 2023
I've not had a drink for nearly 6 years but I still fantasize about buying a bottle one day in the distant future when I no longer care. But I know I wont be able to stop and the prospect of quitting will be almost impossible. Once I'm under the influence i dont want to stop until i sleep and I will stay awake watching shit on the tv until the sun comes up. Its unsustainable.
@bignoknow Thank you, I was really lucky, woke up and had some kind of dark episode, literally saw writing on the wall, script everywhere I looked and small images of people I didn't know. Took some strong painkillers from a neighbour, got my partner to fetch them. Felt like shit for weeks, all I thought about was alcohol, took years to feel normal. Deadly trap. I only drank to feel normal, happier, more lively. I only took the pain killers that once, never get addicted to any of that stuff.
I cannot relate with you more than I feel! I’m currently intoxicated and super upset with myself for the 1000th time. I didn’t cause any drama or crimes…. But alcohol is stealing ME. ME AS A PERSON. I miss me before this shit! My god! I live with a best friend and he has given me so much. I want to be sober from alcohol… but my near death assault has kept me from everything. I can’t even fathom going to work anymore but can’t afford rehab 😫
Glad you’re doing ok. I’ve been watching your channel off and on for a while. Just from afar… I was nervous/scared for you a few years back when you posted some videos in the past discussing how you could “manage your drinking” after all of the low points and rehab etc. Unfortunately for you Noah it’s a fact that alcohol and you can’t really co exist in any healthy form (from what you’ve expressed in stories on your RU-vid channel) And that’s ok just own it. I’ve known many alcoholics who never managed to get to any kind of recovery and have literally drank themselves to death. They’re gone forever. You’re still HERE. That’s victory. Seems like you’re getting better now. Best of luck to you and I’ll keep watching updates.
NoKnow! Is The BringSallyUp challenge vid incomming? Pushup version right into the bodyweight squats version? Back to back!? I dare you, brah! Anyway.... Keep up the great content, sir. We're all gonna make it. Peace.
Almost all people who drink alcohol want it more. Its pure classical conditioning, getting pleasure from dopamine and GABA system so its totally normal to crave more. Non alcoholic people just can control when to stop, understand that drinking more and more leads to worse an worse day after and possible other consequences being drunk af. So they can take a considered risk because thats what it is but alhoholics cant control the risk, dnt care about it etc.
I've been in a "endless" cycle of sobriety and drinking... longest I've been sober was 1 year, I only drink at weekends or parties, sometimes once a month, other times more but the thing is, moderation is never a thing that happens even if I know I can't drink too much, I simply can't control at some point and to be honest I feel like I should not just drink but every weekend its like a supernatural force just drags me out of my house and here I go again, I don't know, it is very hard. And the thing is, I'm not even seen as a drunk by either my family or my town. The one who needs to know once enough is enough is YOU. It just destroys me, and my spirit. I hope one day I solve this once for all. I feel like its my battle. I wish you all the best! ♥
@@bignoknow thanks for the reply. yeah is is a tough live and being concerned that it might happen again when you not feel in control. I don't want to label myself as alcoholic but maybe I will to deal with it in a better way. I think deceiving ourselves is probably the worst mistake one can do. The drinking culture here is a reality, I live in a small town and everybody drinks daily and is not seen as a problem. that makes things harder but I will do it eventually. Wish you all the best as well!
Emptiness Meditation- Book Conversation with God- To be honest how I stopped was a miracle. I prayed the neural pathway of drink disintergrated- and it did- I never once since felt an urge to drink. 3 years- I use hypnosis everyday to focus on what I want- disintergrate the pathway no point focusing on what you dont want. I dont do steps or see myself as an alco- I see my self a a spirit in a body with the opportunity to live a truly joyous life. I use positive words- I try help people all the time. I see myself as the luckiest person alive.
Hello noah I watch your videos for many years now and I remember you were very open about your cytomel aka t3 dosages.. just like with testosterone.. recently i saw you saying that you take now T4 aka Thyroxine.. Because I take trt and recently started taking thyroxine myself it is very interesting to me what brand of Thyroxine are you using and at what dosage. Please respond this is very important to me. Your long time viewer/fan here. ❤
IIdentifying as an alcoholic gives me strength, it's just a statement of what I am. An alcoholic in recovery is a poignant point. I love your honesty and humility. I love the passage of time between drinks, for me it's nearly four years. You reminded me of what a shit thing drinking to excess is. bless you and may you have strength to become and be a victorious man who is an alcoholic x
I don't get how a liquid that you enjoy can be an "identification". Why can't you just be a human, once who struggles with alcohol addiction, among a myriad of other things one can be addicted to whilst still not BEING that which they are addicted to. Just a thought.
It’s not the liquid I identify as but rather the disease of addiction if that makes sense. “ Alcoholic”represents that chronic disease. I of course am many things as a human being just like everyone but forgetting I have a fatal and progressive disease has led me to drink again in the best.
I know that space all to well. Realizing that I was not making the choice but that alcohol was choosing for me was pretty scary. Wishing you the very best.
Noah (great name btw) Bill and Bob’s 12 step book helps to introduce you to some ideas and put some restraints on the monkey, but it doesn’t get the monkey off your back. Only surrendered life to Jesus, repenting being born again of water and of spirit with the infilling of the Holy Ghost gets rid of the monkey and delivers you to where working at 12 step program is no longer needed. In fact, the 12 step program is just to introduce you to Christian ideas. But like everything else, Christianity has become less and less tolerable to the world and so they’ve tried to sanitize 12 step programs of God and throw that cute little phrase God as we understand him in there. Do you want to be delivered? There’s a spiritual curse that has to be broken and only the power of Jesus in your life can do it. There is no other substitute. End of story!don’t even waste your time, buddy. However if you want to make a 12 step program your religion for the rest of your life then you don’t need Jesus to do that. But you will be a slave to that program. Choose whom you will serve.
