Opening up about my addiction - IRISBEILIN 

I love you so much Iris and I am so proud of you doing this all on your own! I’m happy Irishcel is coming back better than ever! 😘❤️

The person that gave you those pills without informing you about the meth, needs legal repercussions.

I'm a silent follower and watch your snaps regularly but I felt I should comment today. You are so strong and brave to have come in front of us and tell us your story, you didn't have to but I'm sure it's a part of the healing process and moving on. I wish you all the best in your weight loss journey and would love to see monthly check in's.

I think this is the hardest I’ve ever cried watching a video on here, probably because it’s the most I’ve ever related to one. I also used to use food to cope and I couldn’t stop eating. I used to get so upset with myself because it was like I was obsessed with food. I wasn’t in control of my body. I started reading up about the gut and learned more how it works and I thank God for that because ever since I’ve started making sure I eat enough fiber every day and drink enough water. Gaining weight and watching my face get bigger was the most depressing thing ever. I’ve been in the gym like crazy and I completely cut fast food and bs from my diet and I’ve been so happy lately. It’s truly the best feeling to take care of yourself and reel yourself back after being low for so long and I’m so happy that you’ve reached that place. As far as the pills, I am SO glad you’re still here with us, that’s the craziest shit ever. I wish you could sue!!!

😱😱🤯 Meth! That “weird doctor” is wicked. So glad God kept you 🙌🏽🙏🏽❤️

We need to start a "get healthy with Iris" club so we can all encourage each other!

You're so brave for sharing this Iris! Even though we don't get to see each other often I'm sending you lots of love! You're amazing

I am SO PROUD of you for losing 18 pounds the hard way. This is one of the most honest videos I've ever seen on RU-vid. Keep up the good work, you're beautiful!

GIRL...18 POUNDS IS AMAZING!!! Look up what 5, 10, 20 pounds of fat looks like and say it’s not much. You’re doing AMAZING! If you could hear my cheers and claps for you! You are so beautiful and I’m so happy that you have found the strength within yourself to lose this weight on your own. Your willpower is awesome. Please share your meals and exercises. Diet pills are pretty much all dangerous. I work at a pharmacy that provides medications for people who messed up their bodies from Phen-Fen. I’ve only lost 3 lbs so far but at least I’m headed in the right direction. WE GOT THIS. You are beautiful inside and out. Never forget that no matter what the scales or that evil voice in your head says.

You are a WARRIOR 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️❤️TE AMOOOOO

God... I’m happy you are doing better. We see strangers on RU-vid and do not know what battles they are fighting that’s why staying positive in the comments really helps. Thank you for sharing your experience and your journey 🙏🏿

Usually people who gain weight easily are hormonally sensitive. You should get your thyroid checked to make sure you are eating right for your body type. Your insulin may be the root cause of your fluctuating weight. I am built like you so I'm pretty sure that you will have to go low carb to see consistent weight loss. Exercise is only 15-20 percent of weight loss success.... but bodies are truly made in the kitchen and what you put in your shopping cart. I've been doing KETO for the last six months and i'm down 30lbs. I can now take a full body picture without feeling hella insecure. Changing your tastebuds will honestly be your biggest challenge because in this skinny minnie culture of INFLUENCERS it seems like everyone and their mama on the GRAM can eat burgers, fries, doughnuts & pizza while being stick thin...THANK YOU FOR BEING VULNERABLE.

Praying for you & proud of you. Thank you for sharing. Something similar happened to be a few months ago. We survived you’re beautiful inside and out,

I think the pills you’re talking about are adipex those pills killed my friend. And I related so much to this video I am going through the same thing once I went over 200 pounds I gave up on myself I hate how I look and I just decided to make a change and I lost 15 pounds and I’m so happy. I’m proud of you let’s do this together

It really breaks my heart when I see women so unhappy with their weight, being in the public eye surely cannot help. 😩 It took me 25 years to love all 270lb of myself but yes I am on a weightloss journey also. I hope you find happiness in yourself Irishcel ❤❤

Me and my mom always tell each other “gotta laugh to keep from crying”

As if I didn’t love you enough already?! 😩 You are soooo beautiful! This video was so refreshing to watch, besides making me teary eyed. Lol Thank you for being sooo transparent and sharing your journey with us! P. S. 18lbs is something to be extremely proud of !

I swear this video touched me so much. I’m going through the exact same thing right now. I’ve gained so much weight within the past year & I’ve never experienced depression until now. I’ve never weighed over 160 in my life & last year I reached 204 which I never thought could even happen. Til this day, I still haven’t gotten back to 160 due to lack of consistency & self discipline. This weight gain has been holding me back from doing so many things that I want to do. I don’t want to go out, I don’t even want to be seen by anyone. I don’t want to film RU-vid videos which I really want to do as well as post pictures on IG. I feel like you’re my “spiritual animal.” 😩 WE GOT THIS THOUGH! 💪🏾

Oh my gosh, you had me crying. I'm so proud and so happy for you. You're so brave!

I have a story to tell you....I was living in downtown LA a few years ago and I was a member at the Gold's Gym down there. I decided after the gym to stop in the MAC store. I started to stroll in and, GIIRRRRRRL, the second I saw you in there I straight up stopped in my tracks and walked right back out. Why? Because I recognized you and you were even more gorgeous in person! I couldn't go in there having just come from the gym because I was scared of what you would think of me. So, while you're worried about your own appearance, know that everyone else is, too. And you are absolutely fearfully and wonderfully made. I'm so thankful for you and this video. Thank God for you! And thank the Lord those diet pills didn't end your life because there is so much more that God has in store for you. I have been blessed by this video. THANK YOU!

I would love for you to speak on your Christianity. Don't hide your light. I saw one of your earliest videos where you spoke on the love of Jesus. It was beautiful. Please don't hide your faith 🙏🏾

I'm glad you did this video. People love seeing the more personal/real side of the RU-vidrs they follow and love.

Currently struggling with my weight... very badly. You’re inspiring. 💛

Father God, thank you for restoring our sister in Christ. I thank you for showing her who you created her to be through you. You are faithful and I pray that you continue to show her that she was fearfully and beautifully created in your image Father. Her body is a temple and I pray that any thoughts of not being good enough be bound up and caste out in your name. I pray that God continues to work in and through you sister. Keep working hard. YOU GOT THIS GIRL!!!!

You're so friggin BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AND OUT.. and that's no gas.. Thanks for bringing us on the journey

I’m currently on diet pills myself because I feel like I can’t lose weight on my own, after watching this I threw the pills away our health is more important I thank you for being so brave!

This is from someone who was bulimic from the time I was 16 to the time I was 29. In and out of treatment and now 3 years in recovery. It is worth it. You're doing a great job. I gained 40 pounds in the last 9-12 months from bingeing without purging and now I'm eating well and exercising and I'm down 6 pounds in a few weeks. It's not much but it's the first time in my whole life that I've done it the right way. That matters. And this video is something you should be so proud of because you're showing others why it does.

I usually skip through these videos because people exaggerate their stories. Yours was powerful and was not take for yt. Thanks for sharing. You are beautiful and you’ll get there! If you can do something for 21 day straight you can do it for 21 years. Good luck on your journey

First of all, that big eyeliner looks fabulous on you!!! No, but all jokes aside, congrats on your weight loss and your new journey to do it in a healthy way. I know exactly how you feel about gaining the weight because I thought and felt the same way. Unfortunately, I'm still in that place. And I'm finding it extremely difficult to dig myself out. I totally relate to everything you've said in this video. I recently started considering diet pills. Funny how God works, huh? Good luck to you on your journey and I feel inspired after watching your video. Thanks for sharing.

The fact that you came on here to discuss this side of you with us speaks in volumes alone. You have revealed a strength about yourself today. You cry but you try to find some humor also to smile. Only direction to go is forward if you stumble dust it off and keep going. You have this. You're the only person keeping you from this so don't give up.

Baby girl you are absolutely BEAUTIFUL. No one is perfect. I struggled with a weight gain of almost 100 lbs in 2 years. I went into a huge depression. But, GOD gives us the strength to overcome. I love your videos, they put a smile on my face. You keep up the good work! YOU GOT THIS!

Girl I feel you.. we can do this together! My weight was juggling ever since I was 16 I was 195lbs I’m just 5.5 and bottom heavy. My whole life I heard shit like “just eat less” “go to the gym” “you are fat and ugly” I lost weight and was on 165lbs and I felt super healthy. Now 2 years ago I married, moved from Germany to California, I have nothing to do I was/am homesick, and lonely because I still haven’t met any friends. I’m back with 180lbs.. it’s a never ending fight especially with a damn depression and emetophobia. But I’ll include you in my prayers❤️ we can fight this through.

When I was 11 my mother overdosed on diet pills in front of me and my siblings (they were 2 and 5), her heart stopped and I had to do cpr on her. She was purple. It traumatized me for life. When I was 15 I lost over 10kg taking diet pills, when I stopped them, I gained 20kg, they ruined my menthal health to the point of hallucinating and severe incapacitating depression. As an adult I struggled with my weight, but january 2017 I became vegetarian and started eating clean, so far I lost almost 30kg and I still have some to lose, but I've never been happier and healthier. I've had my ups and downs but I never gave up. I am sure U can do this too. ❤

I'm really proud of you for being able to open up to everyone and tell everyone your personal story. I don't know you personally, but I can tell that you're a great person, a beautiful person, inside and out. Great job on losing 18lbs! I know dieting is not easy. It's a lifestyle, not just a quick fix and I see that you're doing everything the right way. Thank you for this. I appreciate it. Oh and Congrats on 1 Million!

As a plus size woman we are always the butt of jokes. We can’t be fashionable, pretty or be healthy without weight being a topic of discussion. Know that your beautiful and your voice so important.

Sooo close to 1M! 🎉🤪💗 Commenting at 999,989! 😌❤️

God is good !!! He’s showing you that you can do it without anything else , but him 👏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🤦🏾‍♀️❤️ that’s wonderful !!! I’m trying to lose weight as well. I always been slim and wanted to be thicker. I gained 40lbs I’m almost 200 and I’m having a fit 😩 I’m 5’7 so everyone tells me it looks fine, but I don’t like the way I’m looking lol so I’m trying too as well girl !! Yes you can a vlog about your journey! Don’t be embarrassed girl we all have things that were trying to work on ! You’re not allow ❤️❤️❤️

I subscribed to your channel 2 years ago because I was so happy to find a Latina proud makeup artist and I try to always watch your videos and they are so relatable but this one. This particular video brought me to tears because I have the same eating disorder since I was young, I didn’t resolved to drugs I resolved to cutting the parts of my body that I hated the most, torturing myself for not feeling pretty. I want to tell you, you’re not alone thank you for coming out and speaking on behave to the people who are trying their hardest to be better. I love you Iris

I’m also a silent follower, but I feel you girl. You are beautiful no matter what, you didn’t know what you were taking you are so strong to open up about this to us we all love you 💕

Hey Irishcel. I don't comment often on social media but this video hit very close to home so here is my long story. After an abusive childhood and major depression even after getting into my dream course of study, I ballooned to 105 kilograms (230lb) from 2016-2017. It was such a low point and I too isolated myself, never went to any special social events associated with my degree and avoided going out with friends. I would overeat to numb myself - I'd eat until I was full and then eat more to numb the pain I felt from being full to the point of being sick; all my negative emotions translated into eating. I felt ugly, I looked horrible from a health perspective and this made my mental health worse and worse. I needed some control in my life and I decided to start with my health. I started on December 14th 2017 and since then I have lost 25kg (55lb) which has now made me so proud. But one thing I was missing between then and now was God. My family issues continued to the point that despite my weight loss I hit my lowest mood. I was being used as a scapegoat for a particular family member's shortcomings and I just felt like a failure in every other aspect of my life. I kept going like this for a few months and I would ignore every other important area of my life to focus on losing weight as it was the only thing I felt like I could control. I stopped studying, went through the motions of going to uni, and I lost all passion for my dream degree. This low point was around April of this year. My mental health became worse and worse, my weight loss hit a plateau and every little thing that went slightly awry at uni would put me in a terribly low mood. It got to the point where I almost jumped the safety barriers at a train station to throw myself in front of a train after a particularly draining day of uni. The fear of where I would go after death stopped me. I had a car accident a couple weeks later and this plus a very unsympathetic family drew me further down and I kept looking at ways and times to jump off a bridge or other ways to end my life. I cried in my room in secret for days and this is when I had my own personal encounter with God. He made me realise that He had a plan for me and that I was not put on this earth for nothing - we are all put on this earth to do something great and whether we think it's small or large, it always matters. He reminded me that I focused on everything but Him and the blessings that He gave me despite my bad situations and circumstances. He made me realise that no amount of physical change was going to change my mentality and my spirit. I personally believe this gave a doorway to the enemy to enter my life to try and cut it short - from the depression to the car accident and eventually the suicidality. This was a wake up call that to kill myself at 23 years old would prevent me from becoming the great woman I am supposed to be and I was not going to waste all the opportunities in front of me. I still have my ups and downs but my mentality and spirit has changed so much to match the physical changes I've worked so hard for. I've brought myself back to praying and keeping the Word and God close by. My family situation has not changed but my strength and resilience has changed and I have a renewed perspective of life. I agree with you, the hardships build us into the beautiful and amazing individuals we are meant to be. It's not easy, but to make it through matures us in such valuable ways. From the health side of things I started strictly calorie counting with no junk food because I was scared of binging but now I've changed my mentality to a lifestyle balance. I still enjoy treats but keep it within my calorie allowance. I don't feel restricted anymore and I am back to losing weight and I'm at a point where I have a much healthier relationship with food and with myself. I can truly say I am proud of myself and I don't have an unhealthy craving for validation from my family or friends (or food). Your story brought a tear to my eyes and I'm proud of you too even though we don't know each other. I don't know if my story will impact anyone but life is a journey, it's rarely ever easy and things will find a way to go wrong sometimes. But people find strength in many things, for me it's my Christian faith, and these strengths will carry us through the toughest times. Don't let go of those strengths and don't forget them. Whether or not people believe in God, I believe we are all meant to make a difference in some way. We are all beautiful, amazing and talented individuals in our own ways, don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Irishcel I just want to tell you how strong and beautiful you are as a woman to talk about this issue, eating disorders run in my family and are generational because no one is able to talk about it. Stay strong in the fight and 18 down and many more to go thank you for being yourself in front of us. Good Luck

Thank you for being brave enough to share something so personal and something that many people are embarrassed or afraid to talk about especially now and what society sees as beautiful. I never comment on here I just watch your videos but I wanted to take a second and say THANK YOU! For being you and sharing your journey!!

Body Image insecurities are REAL, sis. I am right here with you on that. I am SO PROUD of you - losing 18lbs!?!!? WOW! Glory to GOD

When you said 'Not no more ' I felt that ,, personally I'm small but I'm not healthy and I've been struggling with eating healthy so I would appreciate some healthy eating tips

I am going to start losing weight with you’!!!!!! Nothing will stop us!!! Love you!!!! Thanks for opening up!!!!!!!! You made me want to do it more!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This story is so touching. You are a beautiful person inside and out!!!! You are resilient and strong and you can do ANYTHING you put your mind to! GOD BLESS YOU Iris! You need not worry for the Lord is with you! You are covered by his grace! You are GREAT!

Babygirl, I’m so happy and proud of you! The Emotional and Mental weight that you left on this video, I know you feel lighter in your heart, in Spirit! I know the enemy tries to get in your head and convince you that you can never tell people because they will not like me anymore or judge me, abandon me. And it’s “Not True”! Many people, or how about “I” know the struggle of addiction and my main feelings is happiness that you discovered the lie, you can loose weight without endangering yourself and you shined a light into a dark place in this video and you are still standing! I’m excited for your journey as you go toward a new Season! Sending Much Love Your Way!

Girl, I can only imagine how hard recording and uploading this video must have been. But it is a step.forward. I feel like L.A. could be very damaging to people all this competition for physical looks and what you own is destructive. Wishing you the best and so proud you are losing weight on your own!

When you started crying i screamed “DONT CRY!!!!! I’M GOING TO CRY!!” ❤️ you!!!!!!! So much!!!!

Thank you for having the courage to share your story and being vulnerable with us to share your story and making us aware. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and I’m so self conscious and you’ve gave me so much courage 💕 I don’t follow many you tubers anymore but I follow you since your so genuine and I am so happy for you and keep going 🙏🏽❤️

Okay I saw the thumbnail and was like ," OMG she's always SO happy and bubbly, what's she talking about?" 😱😖 Watching this video, my heart legit broke for you. You are seriously so beautiful and FUN and your videos legit make me smile! I pray that your body heals from those pills! Stay strong and remember you are simply amazing!

Prayers to you on your weightloss journey. I was addicted to phentermine which is a diet pill and it made me infertile and made me gain so much weight I got to 260lbs, after my sister passed. I lost a part of me and I commend you for opening up and getting so real, so many women will appreciate this video, it's more common than you may think.

I cried all the way through this, but you are so strong and beautifull and I'm so glad you're now on a healthier weight loss journey. Wish you all the best and all the love!

I don't typically comment on channels but I am so in love with your transparency and vulnerability in this video. I've followed your channel for a few years now and I must say I really appreciated you sharing. I'm struggle with my weight and went through the shying away from social events and even social media because I didn't want to show my full body. I remember when I started to get "serious" about my diet and habits and the weight fluctuations began. I honestly believe that the only reason I refused to try pills or weight loss supplements is because I know my family's addition to drugs and alcohol (which I've compared my addiction to sugar to), I refused to allow myself to get caught up in it all. And like you, once I crossed that 200lb threshold I was done!!! Erasing a habitual unhealthy lifestyle is difficult to replace, but it can be done one day, one step at a time. Every milestone is worth celebrating and it is always a big deal. The moment I learned to love myself at 200lbs or 150lbs, I was able to start the journey to truly treat my body as a temple. I recently celebrated the milestone of working out at least 4 days a week for 3 weeks in a row... consistency! So... congratulations queen and thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I will be praying for you and know that if you have a set back, you can count on your RU-vid familia for support. Love you beautiful!

Jesus CHRIS OF NAZARETH! God is SO GOOD! He protected you through this, Irischel. Wow ! I canNOT believe this! Are you going to report this "Doctor?" WOW Thanks for sharing, its a blessing.

I've been struggling with an eating disorder for the last 6 months... and this is exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you. It is time for a change in my life. Thank you for honesty and openness.

Iris let me start by saying that I’m so proud of you. I’m on a weight loss journey too and your story really touched my heart. I had no idea what was really inside diet pills. God has blessed you hunny. You were able to rise above that and thrive!

Panamanian sister here, been following you for a while and let me tell you girl... You've come so far! and you are so brave and strong and should definitely feel super proud of the woman you are and aspire to be. 💕💕

Get it girl! 18lbs..wow. we have to go deep within.

Hey girl, i am a recovering addict. I have 3 years sober. When i was in my addiction i was super super skinny bc i abused meth and opiates. When i got clean i started eating and i gaoned like 80lbs. Its been so so hard for me. When i was a teenager i used stimulants to keep my weight down, so now that i am clean i have no stimulants and the weight just piled on. I statted working tje 12 steps with my sponsor, that has helped me so much. Im 221 lbs. I have never been this big. Now with 3 yrs clean i am starting to focus on my weight and eating healthy. Its all about balance for me. My mental health also has a big part in it. I love u sis. U can do this. We can all do this...

Congrats on your 18 pound weight loss (Throws glitter)!!!!!! I don't know you but I am so proud of you! I can see it in this video that you worked very hard for that so a congrats is mandatory! Continue to celebrate every pound loss as it is a victory in its self. As for falling off here and there, your human. It happens. Just get right back on your feet and stay the course. I'm subbing to keep up with your progress and to cheer you on every step of the way!!!! #TrustTheProcess #GirlPower #FullSpeedAhead 😊

I appreciate you for getting on camera and being so honest & open with us. I have also struggled with my weight my entire life. In 2013 I lost a total of 70lbs and kept it all off until this year. Lately I have been putting those pounds back on (gained about 20) and this really helped re-motivate myself again. *WE CAN DO THIS 👏🏼 Through God all things are possible 💗

Wow girl! losing 18lbs by hard work and eating healthy is NOT easy, i'm so proud of you, THANK you for posting this video. you inspired me so much to keep up on my losing weight journey. I have been struggling with a 45lbs for my whole life! I started losing weight two years ago and i only lost 16lbs that is so stressful and hard, but we will keep up and reach the goal, we can do it.

I am literally crying with you boo. The strength it takes to be so open and vulnerable! Honored to hear your story. Your healing is in my prayers!

You are not alone. Food|Depression|Weight the cycle...you are not alone. Congrats on your weight loss. I send you positive thoughts, vibes, and prayers on your journey. Thank you for sharing this.

Thank you so much for this! I have been battling with my weight since my oldest who’s now 15. I am now bigger than any full term pregnancy with either of my children. Tht 200lbs sneaks up on u fast! This inspired me so much! U got this! Don’t stop until ur satisfied!

I cried with you. Your RU-vid familia here loves you! You’re so humble. Gracias por este Video 💞

So close to 1 million you go girl

Wow. That was so scary. God truly loves you. Thank you for your transparency! I lost and maintained 16 lbs I’m so happy! One thing someone mentioned was: *”Don’t live to eat, Eat to live.”* That truly keeps me going, because its so relatable and true. But, it all starts in the mind and with God. ✨✨✨

As a woman who has suffered from bulimia for the past 7 years I know how you feel, but I also know that it gets better. Rely on your family and friends. You seem to be a strong person Iris and of course we're entitled to fall sometimes, but we stand up stronger and healthier. I send you lots of love

18 lbs is amazing. U ate doing it the right way♡ i was on those pills too, they were called phentermine...they also messed up my heart....i am so glad u have shared this.

“...a brush with the devil can clear your mind, strengthen your spine.” - Mumford and Sons ❤️

Thanks for sharing your story. I can’t even handle those fat loss pills that they sell at the vitamin store cuz they always make me hella light headed, guess it’s too much caffeine in them so my mouth dropped when you said the doctor told you yours had meth in them. So glad you were able to come out on top and fight the addiction. I too have the same problem with over eating cuz grl food is LIFE and I’m still struggling with these damn 70lbs I gained during pregnancy. I lose the weight then stop working out and eat all kinds of pizzas & cakes & chips flat myself for a month and gain weight back smh but been able to keep 60lbs off so I’m working on losing those last 10lbs again. Excited to see your weight loss journey videos! Check-ins, workouts, & meal plans are all great ideas or even daily blogs on those days you’re feeling low and feel like eating a cake, talking through the camera might help you reconsider. Congrats on losing 18lbs so far! You got this chica! We both do and everyone else on a journey! Watching this video while I do my morning cardio as we speak 🏃🏾‍♀️ lol

You easily could have edited or deleted those moments where you began to cry but you didn’t. And you should be soooo proud of yourself for allowing yourself to be this vulnerable. We all love and support you so much!❤️

Iriscel, I so admire you for making this video and being brave enough to talk about something so deeply traumatic and personal. I can relate SO much to what you are describing and I am so incredibly happy for you and your progress on the road to a happier, healthier you. Te amo!❣️

My beautiful baby girl... you are so precious. I have been a subscriber for ages and i feel like i know you, so i am SO happy you bought this to light!! This stuff can happen to ANYONE! GO YOU BABE IM SO PROUD! This wouldve been so hard to film, let alone go through all this. You are such a strong woman! Please share more!!!! LOVE YOU ALWAYS ! xxxxxxx

I'm so proud of you and I advise you to get a SMART scale. One that will tell you your body fat and BMI. I still have 59 Lbs to lose, I gained 72 while I was pregnant. Yes, 72 and I have lost 13 so far! I stopped paying so much attention to weight though, and started to look at my body fat. I also take picture of my progress, because the scale hardly moves but my progress pictures are mindblowing and I see the fat going down and the muscle gain. I binge ate while I was pregnant and then found out I had Gestational diabetes! I was in the military, worked out twice a day, I was fit! I blew up. I'm embarrassed. Nothing fit! And after I had my daughter I refused to really eat and dropped 20 Lbs. Then I would binge eat at night and make excuses because I am breastfeeding and gained most of it back. We are in this journey together and I look forward to seeing you grow mentally and physically. Thank you for sharing your thoughts your story and your journey. ❤🤗xoxo

Oh girl, I'm so proud of you! I personally feel like WOC aren't allowed to have eating disorders and we feel shame when admitting to mental health issues. From my experience, it was so difficult to get care because the Nigerian and black community often didn't take mental health problems seriously especially when it came to eating disorders. The first time I ever spoke to a WOC about an eating disorder I felt so so so supported and loved and understood. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU! You're amazing and worthy and beautiful and you've done something monumental with this video.

Awwww, you had me tearing up girl! God has blessed you with this platform to reach others with the same struggles. Don't be afraid to lean on your supporters a little bit for strength when you are feeling like you need a boost here and there! We all struggle with something and sharing that struggle may have given someone that lil bit of strength or boost to try one more time. You may have saved someone's life. Sn: I would LOVE to see you incorporate a little of your exercise/foods you have that are helping you lose weight! I need some help and ideas, lol!

I am so happy you are talking about this. Not many people can be this vulnerable talking about eating disorder. And I feel so connected to you, I also deal with binge eating and it’s something I deal with every day. You look like you’re getting so much happier I am proud of you ❤️

Love you girl. I too struggled with addiction, h, to be exact.. I am clean 3 years now. Gained so much weight in recovery. I do not have a healthy relationship with food, and I am trying to live a life free of substances. My eating disorder is similiar to what you are talking about. Trying to learn to love myself which I have never done. Sometimes I just don't know where to start, but I do know where it is ends if I go back. It's funny causing looking at you I think how could you possibly be hard on yourself. Cause to me you are so beautiful and flawless. We really are our own worse critics aren't we? Sending you all my love. You are so amazing and beautiful!

Just because others may be going through worse things, it doesn’t mean what you’re dealing with isn’t important. You’re so brave for opening up like this, and thank you for allowing us to see this side of you. I know how you feel when it comes to crying in front of people. It makes you feel weak BUT YOURE NOT. Be proud of every step you take to making you a better you. Whether it’s losing weight or opening. Stay strong chula you got this!!

You got it girl! So proud of you, 18 pounds is a huge accomplishment!

I've been following your channel for awhile but I've never commented. Thank you so much for sharing your story. So proud of you for your healthy weight loss life style and being honest about your addiction. I know this will help many. Also congratulations on 1 mil subs!💖

My goodness Jesus loves you very much Iris.... beautiful testimony 💖, I believe in your journey and I can’t wait to see more of your story. Congrats on a Milli.... tho 👀🎉🎉🎉

Walk in your Truth and don't look back! Congratulations and May God bless you for sharing such a personal topic! 💕

If I just breathe what they’re cooking I gain like 15 pounds lmao !!!!! I am dying pero si es la verdad lmao

Iris, you are a beautiful soul! You always bring happiness to my day. I’m glad that you are finding your way to happiness. I have struggled as well and I have lost 20lbs. Thank you for opening up. We all love you. 💙💙

Thank you so much for opening about your private life. I commend you for being the strong person you are today and overcoming such difficult times🙌🏻 you are a survivor and you are loved❤️

There’s a beauty that comes with baring your soul but there’s a healing that comes with it. This video is proof that you’ve healed in your journey. 18 lbs is a great milestone and to achieve it without harsh diet pills has to be so fulfilling. Healthy eating is a commitment and a lifestyle that Will take time but you are well on your way. It is easy for us to follow you and to bask in your beauty and be envious of what we perceive to be perfection. It’s very refreshing and a constant reminder that we look at human beings and not gods when one shares what makes them feel insecure. Thank you for sharing your story even if it was very hard to do and thank you for possibly saving someone’s life as they suffer in silence. You have reminded them they are not alone and someone they admire most has struggled but there is hope for great change. 😘

I’m so proud of you for being so honest. I’m with you, Sis! Starting a real journey to get it off and KEEP it off. Change is extremely hardl but nothing is impossible with God’s help. Hugs and kisses from Ohio!

Thank you for this video. I also have a very unhealthy relationship with food. I’ve been as high as 300 lbs before and totally wrecked my body. I say that I am one big stretch mark. Whenever I do lose weight, I always get depressed because no matter how much weight I lose I am stuck with the stretch marks forever. No short sleeved shirts, no bathing suits, no shorts. People always ask my why I’m always so clothed even when it’s 100 degrees outside. They have no idea. It’s so depressing.

So proud of you for being so transparent with us. Continued blessings on your journey.

You are brave and I thank you for sharing your story. It's not easy at all, but I'm here for you in spirit. We all have our struggles. Mine is bipolar and PTSD.

Girl no one is thinking u have a long way to go! We are all so proud of you, you have come such a long way already and you are on the right path. Thank you for sharing this, love you ☺️❤️

You go girl! It is not worth dying for. You can do this! I know that you can.

Irischel, you're the real MVP... you have touched my heart so much. My mom went through the same thing with diet pills. You're the bravest, strongest woman ever. I'm so inspired by your story... you have given me hope that life can and will get better. God bless you and thank you for your honesty! ❤️🙏🏾

Iris girl 18lbs is amazing!!! Progress is progress no matter how big or small it may seem. Its not a race, it doesn't matter how fast you lose weight but if that's your goal and you see that number going down even a little bit, that's progress! And you should be proud of it because YOU did that! ❤❤❤ thanks for being so open, I've been missing you, hope we start seeing more of you again❤❤❤

I know this video is old, but I still want to take the time to thank you for being real. It helps to hear someone verbalize that they have the same struggles.

Wow!!! I don’t think you realize how powerful this video is. It’s powerful because it is so relatable. You were addicted to meth laced diet pills.This could happen to anyone...thank you for sharing this ❤️❤️❤️