Opening Up About My Postpartum Journey + My Body After 3 Babies 

The "fog" was so scary to me. To realize I was not thinking and feeling as I normally did was frightening. I thought I would never be able to think clearly again. Several months ago I remember thinking you were struggling and remember thinking "hang on Delilah, it gets better". I'm so glad you're back to your old self again. Our bodies are incredible!

Postpartum completely knocked me down…3rd degree tearing, episiotomy, a lot of blood loss, broken tailbone, infection, postpartum gallstones which led to gallbladder removal surgery at 8 weeks PP, and then postpartum depression. Praise the Lord that He saw me through that trial.

i got so emotional when you were showing your tummy and talked about not comparing yourself to people 🥹thank you so much for being such a beautiful person and example for young girls and women, i really needed to hear a lot of what you said❤️

That brought tears to my eyes at the end when you told William you would go through it over and over again and that he’s worth it 🥹 I couldn’t agree more!! Babies are such a blessing, and it is such a privilege to be a mama, scars, stretch marks, and all 🤍

Ive never commented before, I but I had to (tearfully) say thank you for talking about this so candidly, kindly, respectfully, and inclusively. I clicked this video to watch during the first work out I’ve committed to doing in a few weeks. I’m 21 weeks pregnant with my third baby, and I’ve been struggling A LOT here lately with body image and weight issues. For my first two pregnancies I was a bit heavier, and I didn’t notice too many changes. My body image struggles were minimal. However, before this third pregnancy, I had began practicing mindful eating and strength exercises for over a year before conceiving baby #3. I lost a lot of weight and felt INCREDIBLY healthy and more energized; and, while I still had a mama tummy and allll the cellulite, I felt more confident and healthy than I had ever felt in my life. I entered this third pregnancy journey thinking that I would only gain weight in my belly, that I’d remain toned in the areas that had toned up already, and that I’d only gain maybe 10 pounds. After all, I was sticking to my mindful eating and pregnancy-safe daily work outs. Obviously, that was an unrealistic mindset. The body changes have been SO MUCH more difficult this pregnancy…hence why I clicked on this video once I read the title. It’s already difficult to find a mentally healthy place to reside as a woman trying to simply live a healthy lifestyle. I feel like we walk this tight rope, and on one side, we face unrealistic body standards, and on the other side, we face toxic diet culture. As it particularly relates to pregnancy and postpartum, I am finding that the health world is EXTREMELY unforgiving to mamas. Some days it’s more than I can emotionally handle, and I have to take long breaks from it all. Unless you are working to specifically alter your body- and working toward that goal is your MAIN priority in life- simple, healthy workouts and mindful eating will just not produce a toned, lean body type during pregnancy and/or immediately postpartum for me personally. I think this perhaps applies to many women, but I don’t want to project my own personal journey onto a broad public because we are all different and BEAUTIFUL whether we are toned and lean throughout pregnancy or whether we are…well…more soft and chunky. I just wish that health were not so widely associated with a certain body type. We see and have mostly accepted this healthy body image among women in general. But, it seems more cruel to push these standards to pregnant and postpartum mamas…who are already bombarded with unrealistic societal expectations, sleep deprivation, hormonal imbalances, and extreme body changes that are widely out of our control. Healthy looks different for every pregnant mama. When you are working to nourish your growing baby (prenatal or postpartum) and take care of your body from the inside out, look in the mirror and know: THAT image is the beauty standard. ❤️ Thank you for normalizing this type of rhetoric. I needed to hear it today- to be reminded of what is important- and to know that I’m not alone. Thank you.

I love when mommas are vulnerable! Makes me feel like your best friend❤️

Diastasis recti is not just a "it is what it is", because it can cause serious issues later in life, can affect other pregnancies, etc. So it's a good thing to take care of it with exercise in the future!

I had terrible postpartum rage after both my kiddos, I thought I was just angry but after talking to other moms, I found out i wasn't alone. It helped me so much!

I started balling my eyes out when you talked about not comparing yourself postpartum.. Thank you. I am 23 carrying my second baby and I can tell how my body will never be back to normal, there will be loose skin and there are a lot of stretch marks. I'm a year and a half post partum and I've never had so many negative comments about my body in my life. This pregnancy I've been more worried about my weight than the baby. With my son a lovely lady told me not to worry about the weight, just focus on the baby. This time though I've been so miserable and haven't had anyone to talk to about it I didn't even click that it was why I was so sad until you mentioned it. Thank you again.

Thanks for being so real! A lot of Christian mama vloggers make it seem like it's no struggle at all and that can be discouraging. I've had 4 kiddos and can relate to a lot of what you've shared!

I had such a difficult pp time with my first son and the repercussions affected the first years of motherhood in significant ways and I just wish I'd known what I was going through. I feel regret and guilt every day for being too depressed to be truly present for my first baby's infancy

Hi Delilah! You’re awesome and beautiful, that’s a fact. I’m a physical therapist and I don’t like to give my opinion when no one asked for it but I advise you to go see a physical therapist (if and when you have the time) because of your posture (you still have the posture of a pregnant woman ) and that’s what gives you most of the “mommy tummy” and can also give you sciatic pain and back pain. You should protect your core, especially if you want more babies. Lots of love!

Thank you for sharing this Delilah. I’m 20 weeks with my first and thankfully it’s been pretty smooth so far. This video was a good reminder for me to pray for my pp experience that is to come, to lean on the Lord for grace and mercy when it’s difficult and to prepare my mindset as best as I can. Sending lots of love your way.

Thank you for this video! I’m 1 year post partum and it’s been a JOURNEY. I love the content you share and your honesty and calm demeanour ☺️ you’re so relatable and I look forward to your new updates! You’re doing a wonderful job and your family is beautiful.

I haven't watched your videos in a while and it was just what I needed. I have never had kids, not do I want to, but I admire you sharing your story. I believe every body is a great body and it's okay to be skinny, fat, thick, anything, as long as you have healthy and loving habits towards yourselves; (especially since some of y'all LITERALY carried another human inside you... give yourselves grace.)

Thank you for being vulnerable and honest about the intuitive eating and not wanting to fall into old patterns. I feel so seen

I’m not even a mama but this video was so lovely to watch! So inspiring for you to speak about body positivity and unique bodies!

I’m almost one year postpartum after having a scheduled c section due to vasa previa. This is my one and only postpartum experience thus far so I appreciate your perspective. Thank you for talking about this subject. It is so needed ♥️

You are doing an amazing job making mamas feel good about themselves. Please don't ever stop. You have helped me more than anyone I know.

2 years and seven months after my first and only to feel like myself (physically AND emotionally!), I had never even heard that was possible so I thought I was crazy so hang in there mamas, you're doing great! Take it one day at a time!

Ok needed this video in every way!! I am 1 year PP and I finally feel seen/heard watching this. Thank you!

Oh Delilah, this was such a needed story that many of us needed to hear. I had one baby, almost 15 years ago, via C-Section. My whole “downstairs” area was swollen for a couple weeks. I hated how it looked, I thought it would never go back to normal… but by the grace of God - it did. Thank you for sharing your experiences!

Ugh any mommas that didn’t have a “traditional” birthing experience where they take baby home from hospital with them- props to you for surviving that. I get really bad anxiety just thinking about that! I had to be admitted to a hospital 2 months pp and i had to sign out AMA that night because I had a full panic attack, I couldn’t be separated from my baby! Moms are so amazing!

God bless you and your children! My 23 week old unborn baby leaps for joy inside me. What a privilege to be a mother and to experience postpartum. Thank you for sharing your experience and adding to the normalcy that should be discussion, education, and understanding around childbearing.

This made me cry, it felt so comforting hearing you talk about your experience. I am almost 10 months post partum with my first child, had an emergency c-section. I see so many people who had an easy breezy c-section recovery so I have felt quite lonely in that my recovery went very slow, I struggled a lot. I can relate a lot to your experience, felt so comforting to hear you talk about it 🧡 Thank you 🧡

Well that was awesome to hear. I just gave birth to my second daughter and I had a successful VBAC. Hearing you talk about your C-section and the postpartum experience reminded me of my postpartum experience after C-section. Two years later I am still recovering and processing the trauma. Thank you for sharing your healing ❤️

Thank you so much for sharing! I’ve really struggled with my weight postpartum but have recently learnt how to let go of that pressure I put on myself so it was really lovely to hear you speak about that! X

Your body positivity is so empowering! 💛 I'm 4m post partum with my 3rd in 3.5yrs and I certainly look pregnant still but I am so impressed with my body!

OMG THANK YOU FOR TALKING ABOUT IT ALL! I wish I had seen this prior to having my son three years ago. I relate to soooooo much of this video, especially your delivery/postpartum of William! Crazy. You’re such an awesome mama.

Thank you so much for talking about your pregnancy and postpartum experiences. Your honest talks on these subjects helped me with realistic expectations for my own pregnancy, labor, and postpartum recovery period. You've also helped me to have more grace with myself though it all. While my labor and postpartum recovery were very difficult, I am always happy to answer questions from expectant moms/parents. I think it is so beneficial to share your experience with others since it's just not talked about enough. Edit: I want to add on to answer your question at the end :) My labor and delivery was not quite what I expected it would be. First off it started by my water breaking as I got into bed on my due date. I was induced and after 24 hours of hard labor, 4 hours of pushing, vacuum assist (because I was so exhausted at this point and my baby's heart rate was dropping) and episiotomy my daughter was born. About a week postpartum when my swelling finally came down my stitches had dehisced, the incision was constantly bleeding and I was feeling it. I had to go back in for a full repair at 13 days postpartum. After that I was finally able to start recovering properly.

The pain postpartum was waaaaayyy milder than I expected, but the exhaustion, oh man, I was so brutally exhausted, even after speaking on the phone for a few minutes. Love your videos, thank you so much for sharing your experience with us!

I love watching your videos when my son goes down for his nap! It’s so relaxing 😌

A thousand times, THANK YOU ! I wish this video were show at class in every school in the world. It will help future moms and dads, future friends, aunts and uncles.

You look so beautiful and refreshed! Getting this off your chest could've helped a lot. We are here for you girl! 🫶💜

The pp journey after c-section is my first and only experience, so far. Having an emergency c-section is traumatic, I am thankful my son is healthy and was saved in the process of me experiencing the worst night of my life (until he was born). Childbirth is not all fairytales, while some have the most beautiful experiences others don’t and we need to hold space for both. The pp body dysmorphia is hard, especially when you have a lot of issues with body image prior. Don’t ignore those parts of you, they become worse, always bring them to light and regulate through them. It is hard some days but you and your body are incredibly strong and loved. Thank you for sharing your 3 journey’s, I remember watching you before I had my son, and aspire to be a mommy like you.

My first child experience was very similar too yours and it was like going through hell all alone and coming back. I had a high need crying baby and It took 6 month to understand, how everything worked out. Puh that was a tough time and only who experienced this too can understand the power we as mothers really have.

Thank you for sharing ❤️ I’m one month postpartum with my first child. I had a traumatic emergency c-section and it’s wild walking through all the emotions while recovering from major surgery and caring for a newborn for the first time!

This is so inspiring! Knowledge should be shared and if you can't have community in your area it's great to find it online. Thanks for sharing Delilah!!

I love that you are doing laundry in this video! This definitely has a coffee with a friend vibes. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️

This is so helpful, I’m 35 weeks at the moment. I’ve been super nervous, this has shed so much light on PP!

THANK you for sharing! ❤️ Had my second one 4 weeks ago, it’s hard to watch your changed body and still feel connected to yourself. It’s hard to feel comfortable with this new reality in the mirrow.

Always a breath of fresh air to listen to you speak 😌 Also, same about the period after C Section being painless. Prior to pregnancy I had horrible, painful cramps- a sad scene. However, I feel so blessed to say that periods are pain free now, almost unnoticed if not for bloating.

You are absolutely beautiful💕 Thank you for being vulnerable on this topic, it helps a lot of us mamas!

I also had that happen with my bleeding after my C-section. It freaked me out so much. It was so bizarre. Thanks for sharing your experiences! Love not feeling alone.

I had almost the exact same experience with my first, a girl, grazing only and colic.. of course the loneliness was the worst. 100% agree you have no idea your state until your through the other end. That realisation gives us the ability to watch out for others with their post-partum 😊

OMG, the fogg! Such a great comparison. It was 13 months of fogg for me either, and I was expecting 2 weeks of baby blues 🤦‍♀️ I'm so thankful for your channel, for your story, for you. Me and my son Gabriel ;) send best wishes from Poland! PS William is adorable!

Delilah you are such an amazing example of what a mother should be. This video is amazing! I love when u do these because like u say I feel like I'm having coffee with you. You are so genuine 💗

Thanks for sharing this! I’m currently 36 weeks pregnant with my first and a little nervous about the immediate postpartum experience. But I didn’t realize it took so long (a year!!) until you fully feel back to normal. Makes sense though with all the amazing things your body has gone through to create a baby 💕

When you said you felt so lonely during your first pregnancy and postpartum... I felt that.... Because I also just had my first baby "sooner" than my "peers" it has been a deeply isolating experience. I cannot wait for my friends to have babies and when they do I am so excited to provide them community and support

I just stumbled upon your channel by this video being recommended to me, and I am so grateful! I love the information you are sharing here, and your voice is soo relaxing and I love that you are folding laundry while filming this!!

I was in a fog for a little over a year postpartum, I remember talking with my dad at my sons first birthday about how I just had such a hard time processing thoughts, that I just always felt like I was in a dream. 16 weeks with baby #2 praying this postpartum will be easier. Doing all I can during pregnancy to be in a good mental and physical place!

Honestly, I have been avoiding this video because of my own postpartum journey. However, there is such grace in your voice. Thank you for sharing your story.

I’m not a mom yet, so I haven’t struggled postpartum with my weight. But I have struggled with self confidence regarding my weight for most of my life, and hearing a you talk about how you struggled with your self confidence over the past year made me feel so seen. Your openness about your struggles has made me feel less alone, and hearing you talk about the unique, beautiful bodies that God has given each of us and how we don’t need to compare ourselves to anyone made me tear up. Thank you for sharing your story and being such a beautiful example!☺️❤️

You are so beautiful inside and out! 🌹💐💗 Thank you for your honest video! Currently pregnant in week 9 and praying that god blesses us in this third pregnancy with our first child to hold in our arms.

Thank you for talking about this! I’m pregnant with my first and I’ve never heard anyone go into postpartum like this- it’s so helpful!

I needed to hear this so badly. I’m currently 8 mo PP. Thank you for telling me your second PP experience was really nice

Delilah, thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm 4 months into my postpartum journey with my firstborn daughter and yes, the fog, the anger and the body image issues are soooo relatable. And the loneliness, on top of everything! Sometimes it feels like I'm the ghost of the woman I used to be and I wonder if I will ever be myself again. You gave me hope and lifted a tiny bit of the loneliness 💓 P.S. Please forgive any mistake, English is not my first language.

You're amazing! Your presence on the earth and your sweet advices are essential! 💖 greatings from France

Your vulnerability is a wonderful thing to watch. Thanks for sharing Delilah 😊

I feel like if you had a podcast it's the only podcast I would listen to. I enjoy your content so much and although I am young you make me very excited to start a family. I love you videos and i wish your family lots of love and laughter

Thanks for allowing yourself to be vulnerable in this way ❤️my son turned one a few days ago and I'm still struggling with my post partum body. I don't care about the stretch marks or saggy boobs, but some days my tummy makes me hate myself. I try not to compare myself to other mums, but it's hard. I've struggled with depression/anxiety since my sons birth because, as you said, the adjustment to taking care of a little person is insane! All I can do is pray and trust that I am meant to be my sons mumma

Thank you so much for openly sharing your experience and feelings with us ! I feel less lonely now. I am 22 and gave birth to my beautiful daughter 2 years ago and it took me so long to mentally recover from it (a year and a half). But this is a gift from G.od ! Thank you for your videos ❤❤

I had a csection with my first and 4 months ago I had a vbac (vaginal birth after cesarean). WIDELY different recoveries. Revocery after my vbac was SO much better, but I was not expecting my bum to be in so much pain. I expected other things but not that. Ha. Thank you for sharing! Having 2 babies in 2 years has been a lot for my body and body image can easily become a struggle for me. Hearing other women's stories, like yours, is so encouraging to know we aren't alone.

Preach it girl!! Knowing its different for every Mama and every baby too!! Thank You for sharing 😊 Im encouraged- even 2 1/2 years later I struggle with my body changes.. But always encouraged

Hi Delilah, such a beautiful video. I had a c section as well and I feel the exact same way as you do… I’m only 10 months post partum and the area still feels numbed and weird. I don’t touch it or look it at much. But it is a reminder every day of what my amazing body did to bring to life my incredible daughter. Thanks for your honesty, it’s really appreciated in a world that paints motherhood, pregnancy and post partum of only pink. Tons of love for you and your family ❤️

The concept of creating and birthing a whole human is insane and magical to me. I feel like I could never do it. Great job to all the moms out there!😫

You have a beautiful mom tummy! Seriously! Im pregnant with our 1st, and appreciate the openess, hearing the good and the bad. Blessings 🌻

Thanks for keeping it real Del, that’s what hit me like a train postpartum. It’s not rainbows and butterflies and love, it’s adjusting and struggling and sleeplessness and fog xxx

Your c-section journey is like identical to mine. Thank you for being so open. I hated touching my scar, I hated the way I looked, my weight took a while as well, I was bleeding a lot, my periods have been so heavy and passing big clots too. I appreciate you ❤

Thank you for this video!. Im approaching my daughter's 1st birthday next month and I can relate to the " angry fog" I also feel it could have been a spiritual attack on me. Trying to make me doubt my role as a new mother and just a new part of life in general. At times i let it and i could feel my heart break the times i let it affect my husband and daughter. I can say now that i am feeling so much better. I pray so much more with my daughter and truely have intentional prayer with the lord. My pregnancy was so peaceful and beautiful and the anger, frustration, and doubt hit me so hard pp . I had to really fight to open my heart again to the lord to help me fight it. About a month ago i started working out (3-4 times) a week nothing intense but just helping my body out. I wasnt happy pre pregnancy with my body and so far its been a great way for me to feel that confidence. My body is back to its prepregnacy way and I just want to take care of my body and be that healthy example for my daughter. Thank you so much for sharing these videos!! And happy late birthday to mr. William!

I totally relate to the first few months of pregnancy with a first baby. There’s no one who can relate when your younger and being stuck at home all day alone is better sweet but mentally it’s so difficult and dealing with everything else that is happening with our bodies. I’m so glad you decided to make this video for expecting moms it’s hardly ever talked about and scary to be honest

Beautiful video and so honest! I had my first baby in a country far from my home and was so incredibly lonely for about the first five months until he helped me make some mom friends here. I knew that I would bleed for quite a while after birth (only thanks to talking to another mom friend) but I didn't know how much would really change after my son was born (friends/social life, taking care of a human 24/7, my period, etc). I was quite anxious, especially with the pandemic ongoing, and now that he's almost 2 years old, I see how much my mental health has improved since then. Whew. I hope that I accept the physical help I need more for my second baby and continue to share my thoughts/things with those around me and reach out to get help when I need it. Talking to others helped a lot.

I resonate with refusing to focus on eating too healthy or working out. I worry about stirring up old habits too. Much love Delilah, proud of your recovery and self respect to protect your mental health ♥️

I had that angry fog. I’m almost 3 months postpartum with my second baby and it’s finally not as bad. Definitely didn’t have that with my first baby. Thanks for sharing.💙

Thank you for this video. I had my first baby girl almost 8 months ago now, and it has been a rollercoaster. I have found a love for her I didn’t know I was capable of, but it has also been a very lonely and isolating experience. I was very snappy for a big portion of my pregnancy and the first few months postpartum. It was not exactly that I did not feel like myself, but more like all the little annoyances and things that are normally brushed of just made me so angry and explosive. And that has had a very negative effect in my relationship with my husband, which in turn would make me more lonely and angry…

Thank you for being honest and genuine about all of this. I’m 9 months pp with my first, and the weight not coming off has been such a shock and discouragement… I also had to buy all new clothes like you were saying, and am still feeling like nothing fits or looks good. We want a big family, and the thought of gaining so much weight and not losing it is kind of terrifying. I’m hoping things will improve and maybe things will be different next time around.

Thank you for talking about your csection and the feelings of the incision, I feel the same! Currently 10 months pp (from SK), and feeling so close to being back to normal but not quite yet. Recovery (emergency C-section) was SO painful, and the worst was the other women around me who just didn’t get it, and thought it was the “easy way out”. Really just depressing.

Hi D: my kids are 9 and 7 now, so I’m going back a bit, but I remember those days well. Your video took me down memory lane. You’re doing a good job. Enjoy your summer- Best wishes from Toronto! PS I’ve appreciated seeing you “glasses-free” in the last couple of videos- it opens your face a little more, esp when on camera.

You look very pretty in this video 🌻🌻 also thank you for sharing, I have never been pregnant (yet) but I do appreciate mothers who share their experience, cause it makes me feel, like I'll be more ready, when my time comes. Or at least I know more about the possibilities 🌼

I really struggled after my emergency c-section. I feel like sometimes there is a lot of shame around any birth that isn't vaginal and/or unmedicated. But one of my close friends who also had two c-sections taught me the word "belly birth." That (and a few counseling sessions) helped me to heal from the shame I carried. Now I tell people I had a belly birth and I feel proud of the work my body (and excellent team of doctors and nurses) did to help deliver my amazing perfect son!

Thank you - really appreciate you being so open about your experiences in this one. 🙏

Love this video ❤ You are amazing! I love how opera and honest you are Thank you this helped me a lot ❤

10m PP with my first and subconsciously I've started struggling with my mommy tummy and comparing my body to other moms that don't seem to have a baby tummy. So this was super helpful.. loved this chat🥰

Thanks for being raw & honest! It's definitely a journey!

Thank you for sharing! I'm not a mom, but I'd like to be one one day...despite my fears. This was SO encouraging, especially when you talked about being confident in our bodies.

Gosh I love this! I have been birthing babies for a DECADE Now and no two have been the same! My body looks NOTHING like anyones I know , but I am so thankful for these beautiful loud souls that I get to call mine .

First of all - you look amazing ! I had 2 C-sections (1st one was emergency, 2nd was planned) and with the second one I felt amazing. But after the first, it took me 2,5 years to even be able to think about another baby . Like after natural births - every recovery after C-section is different.

This is such a wonderful theme for a video. Thanks you for sharing! At 16 months postpartum, even with treatment, I still have a very painful tailbone. I can't sit in a relaxing position and it is something that still makes me angry and sad sometimes... I hope it will get better. But I feel just like you when I look at my son - I would totally do the whole thing again Sending love, thank you for the important content!

this is such a raw & beautiful video. thank you so much for sharing ❤️

They say knowledge is power! Thank you for sharing 💕

5 months pp and struggling with hair loss and my weight, i know im not heavy but still feels like its not fully mine yet if that makes sense, but on the other hand i am extremely greatfull and proud that my body did that. And blessed with our beautifull daughter

Hi Delilah! I am a first time mama with a 5 month old. Thanks for sharing your story, I feel like it's so important for women to hear other women's pregnancy/postpartum journey and to normalize all the ways it happens. I totally knew I would experience hair loss but holy cow am I losing it! It comes out in clumps non-stop and I usually resort to wearing it up to avoid my hair all over the house and my baby. One thing I didn't really know how to expect was the feeling after tearing. I only tore a little bit in 2 different spots, but both required stitches. I still feel like the areas that tore are really sensitive. Especially when I wear pants or shorts that hug that area tighter. I am so proud of what my body accomplished though, 3 days in labor with only 1 hour of no contractions that entire time, but then experiencing a medication free water birth in a birth center surrounded by beautiful women and my husband. Women are so powerful! I am actually looking forward to doing it again :)

Thank you, i needed this so much right now 🥺♥️

Thank you for sharing this beautiful video! Thank you for being so open and honest!

Thank you so much, this was very insightful! I am 23 and have not been pregnant yet, but having a baby is something my partner and I have have talked about a lot lately and I just really want to inform myself right now.

You are so beautiful! I struggle often with my postpartum body after baby no.2 Thank you so much for sharing your journey it is really inspiring how you choose to view it all.

Thank you this was so comforting ❤ My second is due in 5weeks. Starting to think about the postpartum time has me almost scared, so this video was sweet encouraging to me at this time ❤

I had my second baby about 2.5 months ago and have been definitely struggling with body image more so this time around. Thanks for the encouragement, definitely needed to hear it!

Thanks for this video Delilah! I’m hoping to start my family in the next 2 years!

Totally agree with the C-section recovery. Took well over a year for the scar twinges and numbness to go away. I had a VBAC second time around and I had incontinence for 8 weeks and a third degree tear but way less painful than the C-section. Postpartum is so rough!