How do you this is an original song by Shabad Jones 🤍! I love you so much thank you so much for watching. I really do appreciate it. I hope you know that you are loved and important and supported in this world. 
Thank you for the song. I hope the listeners understand how mutch this relates to ocd. Obsessive thinking, thoughts that repeat over and over in our minds, the big "what if" type thinking and over thinking everything. Then the compulsions that we feel we need to do so those bad thoughts don't happens. There's many different forms of these things. But ocd is mostly over thinking everything. It makes it hard to be in relationships even. Especially if you've ever been cheated on. Cause everything could be great and we watch patterns but then things are off slightly one day and we start over thinking we're getting cheated on again and start compulsions like making sure we check on our partner all the time and make sure they are happy etc... If they don't understand or if they are cheating they'll get scared away. Possibly start calling us names and that makes it even worse. Anyway, hope you're doing well and just know you are loved. Thank you for the song.
Gosh, thank you so much for your insightful comment! You’re so very thoughtful and all the things you said are so true! Thank you for your knowledge, thank you for everything. ❤️ most well thank you for your compassionate empathy, I can truly see a wonderful person beautiful both inside and out ❤️ I hope you know I love and special you are my dearest, sweetest sweet friend
Love the melody 🎶 Also love that Ollie wants to sing with you today. 😀 Thank you for taking good care of Ollie. Please take care of yourself too. You can’t care for others if you are not healthy and strong. 🫂❤
I can only agree with you. Without health, everything is nothing. It is important to retain own strength in order to be able to give strength to others.
@@ChumbiShema you are hardly incompetent. The very fact that you pause your recordings to help him instead of ignoring him shows that you are doing a great job.
Of course you always blame yourself. Did I do something wrong? Could I have prevented something? You did everything you could and more. Incompetence doesn't really describe it. You were helpless, shocked, maybe even angry. I don't know anyone who wasn't like that in that situation. Try to accept it and process it. The little bird would cry if it saw how much you were suffering now.
I think the medical insurance industry does so many people wrong in not allowing a patient to get all the treatment they really need and just give them the minimal care possible to keep themselves legal and not responsible after taking all the money they require. My wife didn't get the treatment she really needed and it was very hard watching her slip away from diabetes.
so true sadly,,,, I am in not a great place financially now after being sent to multiple facilities, it is a shame... Also, I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your wife!!
@@ChumbiShema That's what I suspected was going on seeing how quick you went through the second program you went through. When I was a teenager I went through Teen Challenge, which is a Christian based drug rehab solely run on donations from Church's and businesses at that time. It was a year long in-house treatment program with job training, access to GED schooling, and counselling. But now it is overseen by the state and requires insurance to go through that program. I never would have been able to afford all that if I had to have insurance, especially the way the insurance companies try to give you the minimal treatment for their own costs. That's why I was suggesting possibly seeking out a 12 Step program in your area which doesn't cost anything to sit in a group of people that are also going through the exact same issues as you are. I have been fortunate to find some really great people in the 12 Step programs that really kept me from falling off the deep end, just by their willingness to listen when there was no one else to turn to. But as I mentioned, they are mostly unqualified people with some having grave emotional and mental issues, that are just lurking around the rooms seeking those to take advantage of, but usually they are pretty easy to spot and avoid. But anything is better than nothing to get you through a rough patch, and when you first show up, people usually understand you are new and don't have any expectations of new people. But that's just one resource, there are also many good books on recovery to give you ideas you haven't considered. I'll stop now since I'm not trying to write a book LOL.
