He is absolutely true ….. I don’t feel worthless. I know my worth and my contributions. But sadness over what is lost and will be lost is true indeed. He is such a kind and logical abs informed and non judgmental person. I wish he could speak more and put in RU-vid I feel safe listening to this man.
Try to , never let anyone make you feel low or bad.once you go through inlegtement you see through vales ,to be forgiven is better also to become the very best version of your self..love is the core.knowing you have got through more than .laugh it of.. because it's quite interesting to feel free once you go through the process of learning emostionly pain..crulty is one of the universe , to be more than ,to be the light source higher force of humanity.knowing everythng is connected spirtiully.everything is one.go slow and steady. It's all in timing and the works 🎉
I was searching through RU-vid to find ways to describe to my family what it’s like for me to live with ptsd and dissociation. This man describes it perfectly. This video will help them to see what life is like through my eyes. Thank you.
You really just spoke to me on the grief part, except I a mourning the loss of what was supposed to be...I was sexually abused as a child and had no one pretty much I could turn too, it’s still a dirty secret I keep today; one that if my family knew they wouldn’t wonder why I have emotional problems. Mourning the loss of myself, thanks for what you said about remembering who the lost person was...I know it isn’t the same as what you were saying but I connected with it.
Thank you for your videos. I have suffered with PTSD since I was seven, a dear friend and aunt-like figure in my life committed suicide nine months ago, and recently came out of a two year abusive and highly manipulative relationship with a narcissist and now have CPTSD. Thank you for validating my experience and what I am going through.
Medication is why I now I have ptsd grief and depression! I had a Neurotoxic reaction, put me in the ER for months.. I've been in bed for over a year now! All because my Dr prescribed me Zoloft for a panic attack I had over stress. Here I am now fighting for my life with a medication brain injury. I suffer 100's of symptoms
Holy crap I'm so so so so so so sorry! I don't know what to say :( I don't know if you may feel this but sometimes I feel there can be so much suffering and pain, and it all started from the smallest thing. Like just taking medicine, and now all of this. I hope you've managed to stay strong over the year you've been at the hospital. Please don't ever give up hope. I know sometimes we all get frustrated but your courage is remarkable and inspiring. Really. please take care and I hope this all goes away within the next few months for you, or gets better :)
Marissa Parker I know how this feels :( I'm trying to heal from a sickness that's hadn't left for five years and a bunch of other stuff so I really do hope you get better :) it will :)
I hope you're okay now. Don't take medication they make the brain worse and it causes psychosis. It doesnt help at all, that's why l never took meds l struggle on my own, use herbal medicine that is better.
I really struggled w/ a foreshortened sense of the future. My Trauma was ongoing and I never reached a somewhat safe place until a year ago. My life span seemed to be around 6 months--It was difficult to plan things and I became very isolated because my situation was so abnormal and not indicative of "who I was." The despair and grief I feel, that my life was stolen, and the shame I feel that I am not normal like my peers, in terms of life trajectory (Career, family). I feel tremendous anger at the perpetrator(s) I am still suffering from what they did. And they have not been held accountable--One disapeared--A very difficult situation...for he was abusive and I have no sense of whether he is living, dead or where he is. No sense of closure. He purposely wanted to continue to assert power over me--for eternity...The stress broke me/mentally strong (?), but my body absorbed the pain and stress of a heavy-weight boxer. Imagine what such a situation is like w/ the internet. Already there has been an individual sent to harass me--with the worst triggering material imaginable...Not to mention I could have lost my job because he posted it on a public page. They are desperately trying to create additional stress/hack my phone,computers/to render me impoverished and 'mentally unstable'/anxious and fearful, so I cannot fight back. All I could do was freeze (And this had grave effects on my body...The stress hormones had nowhere to go...My CNS would not allow a restful state because I had to be hyper-vigilant 24/7 --Was dealing with this absolutely alone. Where I live there are no good Psychotherapists. In Fact, the ones practicing 'books are closed'--I sought help at a community clinic that ended up doing far more damage than they should have...I bear my soul, first to an intern...Then to the LCSW...And it's really hard...She ended up cancelling the next two sessions--she never even left a message...I arrive there to be told she hadn't come in...The following session, she offered no explanation and while walking to the room said this would be our last appointment because she is leaving. Later I called her supervisor--Nothing...I called The county mental health jurisdiction--Nothing. She knew I was almost suicidal and dealing with profound abandonment issues/and acute stress...I also recently developed a chronic disease...After which, I lost my home. This was the first therapist I was able to see in 15 years...So the experience reinforced my feelings of worthlessness (I was told such statements by family members and folks who were harassing me.) Actually, I felt angry, because I DESPERATELY needed ONE human who could listen to my story...Then, they sent me to an even worse therapist...After practically bleeding in front of her (I had to tell my story to a third stranger), at the 25 minute mark she handed me a 3x3 cut-out xerox of BASIC cognitive-Behavioral strategies...Like something one would give a child--I have a Masters in psych--I thought this was beyond incompetent/However I didn't say anything and was very gracious, as usual...So yeah, are 25 minute sessions the norm now? That was the end of seeking help. Now, I'm falling through the cracks. Because I cause no societal nuisance-- My pain is ignored.
+pathoplastic2 like you mention about shorter sense of future thinking I've had to be so in the moment hard to impossible to think of future time a lot
Sounds like horror. Deliberate. Torture. I am feeling your pain and immediately prayed for you as my tears begin.... That lack of humanity is a killer. Wish we were near. Getting a response, reaching out, has perpetuated the privative nightmare on my side as well. It sits while we are entrapped. It is not right.
@Choop, I have lived with PTSD,Major depression,anxiety,panic disorder and suicidal ideation for 22 years. It helps to have a spouse that understands or tries to understand what you may have, or be going through. Stay strong!
+Sherrie Dean Thank you. I feel like I am worthless, just a waste of resources, and I don't want to be on this planet anymore without my husband and my sons.
I really hope you're doing okay now or things have gotten a better. It's been over a year. I hope your life feels a little brighter :) Please stay strong!
7 months ago,.. I foolishly made a mistake and retired from my best job of 25 years. My job was everything to me.! I stressed so badly to return. The anxiety of the reality of my lifestyle, dreams, and goals were over. I got chronic insomnia and severe depression. The grief I have is horrible. I can't get my life back, and it was my fault. I have no mental energy to do anything anymore, I don't go outside. I have lost the desire to do anything. I just sit almost 24/7... ruminating on coulda shouda wouldas. My mental and physical health are declining.... but im like mentally paralyzed. Unable to stop this. I've called 988. Words are not helping.... im unable to reframe what they suggest. It's my life that was altered. I was so happy, healthy, and always laid back, worry free. Now I'm a wreck. Unable to sleep, stressed with depression. 911
I have been in therapy for 5 years and on medication too. But nothing has helped me. I'm so angry all the time because of what happened to me. It makes me feel very alone. One day hospital abuse will end. I haven't been inpatient in 5 years since the last thing happened to me. It went on from 2011 to 2012 I was so drugged up on medication I don't remember parts of 2011
Wow. I really hope hospitals stop relying on so much medication for treatment and sometimes choose other methods of treatment. I honestly think that if you've had therapy for 5 years and it hasn't helped, you may want to see a different therapist who understands you more. i think therapists are amazing for helping work through pain, anger, fear, sadness or anything.
worthless and hopeless i can relate but yet whats the use for i am a nothing, just a shell wading in quicksand.. i sometimes recall being a successfull contractor with nice things but after 20 yrs of abuse i am just what she said i am.. a nothing
+Choop I can relate to that. I think back on how my life used to be, what I used to do, and the people who used to be in my life. All that is gone now. Everyone has distanced themselves from me. Why? Because I reached my breaking point. Therefore I'm no longer of worth to the people who are supposed to love me unconditionally. They all hold it against me that I acted that way, that I'm human too.
× Kalbert. Who lost his wife., then family members , then became so stressed out, quit surfing and all hobbies... the made a foolish mistake at his dream career job of 25yrs... and lost it. My job was everything to me.... im a basket case now. My insomnia/ stress is chronic. The anxiety is horrible. And... the anhedonia, Depression... is crippling. .... S.I. I've already called 988. I'm trying to hang on. But, I cannot see the future they see... I only want the future I had, ... with the people I loved and the job I had....
Pills suck I wish those cruel people who prescribe them end up on the other side of the table so they can see how much they don't work. Vote medical marijuana for ptsd!
