Dreams of wind rushing through my fur. === Follow the artist: / s0lardog Download the album: patriciataxxon.bandcamp.com/a... === 1. Furry 2. Boys 3. Cavalry 4. Frat Claws 5. Chipshop 6. Brotherhood 7. Big Wheel 8. I Do ==
Big Wheel feels like that one pic that constantly gets passed around of this sort of late 2000s vaguely anime-styled anthro wolf with his paw outstretched captioned something like "if you take his paw he can take you to a world where everybody is their fursona. would you accept?" and I mean that in a good way
I haven't seen this in the comments section yet but i just want to point out how awesome it is that so much of the percussion in this album sounds like bicycle gears clicking. It forms a musical through line that connects each song to the concept of the album, and it's also *deliciously* stimmy in the same way as track 6 of TECHDOG 2. Listening to this album feels like I'm eating pop rocks and i love it
I feel this album. Not in the emotional sense, but the tactile one. I see your brushstrokes and feel the bumps of each protrusion. I feel like I'm running my hand along it as I listen. I don't have the words. It's noise. It's a sensory moodboard. It's hypnotically autistic. It does what I wish ASMR could.
@@eshansingh1 not everybody gets the same feelings when listening to asmr. i've tried different ones, most kinda just weird me out to be completely honest
I have auditory/tactile synesthesia, which you have described rather well. I feel complex poly rhythmic sounds in my whole body! I also find ASMR lacking and sometimes feel it is irritating.
ASMR is a physical sensation felt in reaction to sounds and such. I don't experience ASMR, it sounds like you don't either, and a lot of ASMR videos are... mislabelled and usually just mean "no talking or music". That being said... this is making my autism go brr in the same way that positive tactile stimming does.
Using this album to stop a panic attack by focusing on the sensory experience of it. Also, while I'm here, Patricia, your videos about autism truma in DHMIS and furries has made me feel more seen as someone on the spectrum than my psychology graduate degree and any therapist I've hired. I cannot wait to get a job and fund your work.
I’m so hyped for the transcendental furriness I’m about to witness. Edit: Decided to return with notes about what popped into my mind on a first listen. This is being written as I listen to the songs Furry - Clicky, sharp, and poppy Boys - Pulsing lights and violin strings Cavalry - A very happy inhuman creature that loves water and studies people from a short distance, even if they’re right next to them it still feels that way. Frat Claws - Similarly clicky and poppy to Furry, but maybe a bit more mellow? Like an older version of Furry. Maybe less direct too in a way. Furry was sharp jabs, Frat Claws is wider brushes. Also I’m picturing transcending past the mortal plane into something more, something beyond. Chipshop - An underwater tunnel and lots of metal that’s been abandoned but finds comfort in the solitude. The building doesn’t weep. It dances to the tune of its own company. (Cavalry creature’s home?) Brotherhood - Further down the tunnel (Maybe we’ve been traveling down this whole time?) finding something high tech and beautiful. It lives with its own heartbeat. The tunnel was never alone. Simply absent of organic life. It’s own world is just as rich and in depth as ours. Maybe this is Cavalry Creature itself. Studying from afar and willing to be apart from humanity, rather than a part of humanity. Content with itself. The clicking returns, but calmer now. Big Wheel - I’m picturing crackling logs on an open fire turning into digital bugs. CC speaks to someone directly. They are content with being so small and so far from humanity. They ask you to hold onto yourself and not drift apart. Another person is speaking (Furry?), telling us about the beauty in the world and asking us whether well remember them when we wake up from a dream. Maybe Furry was never truly real. Maybe none of them were. Maybe they’re pieces of a bigger piece. And maybe we’re that bigger piece. The song disintegrates into scribbling as we probably wake up like Furry said we would. I Do - Snapping and thud-y popping that resembles a heartbeat. We’ve woken from the dream with a fresh outlook on life. We haven’t forgotten Furry, their clicky yet floaty personality is still there, mixed in with Cavalry Creature’s inner world, beeping and singing in tune. It’s us, the bigger piece. Not quite complete, but we’re happy with that. Currently, we are all of the pieces put together. And that’s as whole as we can be. All of our memories of this dream surround us but never leave. They’re written down in a journal for safekeeping. We’re hopeful as we watch the sunrise, hop on our bicycle, and ride into town, feeling the wind rushing through our fur. This is probably the longest comment I’ve ever written lol. But I wanted to truly experience your music. And I feel like I’ve experienced this more than any other song I’ve ever listened to.
In Big Wheel both voices are talking to the listener. Patricia is riding her bike on a freeway at night, the low voice is asking if the listener is there with her
This is my first album I've herd from Taxxon and holy shit. I initially kept wanting to click off, only for some shift to keep happening right as I think that and getting me back into it. By the time I got to Brotherhood I was so invested. What a comforting and beautiful album. Big Wheel gives me an insane sense of nostalgia tho I can't pin down why, and I Do is just so warm
when i was chilling in a call w/ sol as they were drawing this, they asked for some feedback and didnt know what else it was for. for it to be for your album is so cool! im hoping i get more time to collab on art w/ them with this new year.
Right? Even the way he sings is very weird (not in a rude way) and strange. Like he's not really trying to hit the right notes, just letting the words tumble out kind of awkwardly. If that wasn't intentional then I hope I didn't offend - I think it's very interesting.
@@bugjams Maybe that's what gives it it's emotional touch, I quite like that addition, raw emotion in lyrics tends to sound a lot less directed and or scripted.
I've been trying to buy a bike as my 20th birthday gift for a month now and it's too overwhelming for me, I'm using this album to try and encourage myself to pull through and make that phonecall. Trust me, I will listen to this when I ride my bike for the first time.
Update: I got the bike but now I have social/performance anxiety and can't ride my bike in fear of being perceived? Silly of me to have hopes and dreams of riding one.
At first listen, I hated this album. Then the melody from Cavalry stuck in my mind, and I had this weird feeling. I had to come back and give it another listen. Patricia, you have one of the most interesting styles of techno I’ve ever heard. To me, it just feels like a completely different sound-palette to anything else I’ve heard. Cavalry, as earworm as it first was, reached into my heart, and pulled something new out. Thank you
I think this is the most connected to an album I've ever felt, and its filled me with a lot more furry emotions then I thought I ever would have expected, it kind of forced me to accept that fully, I'm a furry. I put it on when I go to work and its the perfect length for it, although Cavalry feels like way too much energy for me to handle, every song fills me with this sense of peace that is hard to come by, the windows always remain closed for me due to the noise, but frat claws genuinely made me open them and feel this sense of relief feeling the wind in my fur and face. Its an experience I don't think I'll really ever get from something else then an album like this, your music is great, never stop pushin to go just a little bit higher.
i dont fully know if this album resonates with me yet, I can't decide. At once it is a relaxing, almost homely sounding collection that just... puts me in that sorta state of mind. It's good, for sure. I could listen to this for a good long while. But also, it doesn't feel like it was for me. Like I'm just a visitor to this room of people doing their thing that I dare not disturb, yet can't help but watch from afar and listen through the cracks of the door. (As well its just not the genre I usually listen to. I'm usually throwing myself into more intensely groovy soundscapes rather than these sublime ones.) I think it's growing on me with each listen though. Maybe I'll open that door and introduce myself. Ah jeez, what a melodramatic comment to leave. Thanks for the music Patricia. I think you're pretty cool. And to whomever else has the misfortune of reading this overly sentimental diary-comment, have a good day! Or night!
I get you. And I think there's something powerful to that mentality; the concession that something just isn't your style. You don't outright reject it because it's "bad music;" you don't deride yourself because you "just don't get it." There's nothing wrong with it and there's nothing wrong with you--you're both perfectly whole as you are and you just don't *quite* align. But maybe you could learn to, if you wanted to. And the potential for that growth is something beautiful.
This and your Flowers of Robert Mapplethorpe have made me come to realize that being furry isn't just something I'm kinda interested in, it's probably completely integral to my identity, and my art, and the way I see and experience the world. Flowers helped put a face to my particular traumas- I think we experienced- are experiencing- a lot of the same things. And while I'm not there yet, maybe someday I can be happy and this one will feel like home to me too. Thanks for the art.
When the lockdown hit in 2020, my school didnt know what to do, so I suddenly found myself with all the time in the world and no plans ahead of me. For a while, I'd try exercising, learning new languages, or even just lying on the floor in my room for hours at a time, but eventually I came across an old bike in the garage, and I remembered that the nearby golf course was closed, so I made it a daily routine to bike around the neighborhood and through the empty golf course. I don't know what was going through my head at that point, but every day that I silently rode around, I felt at peace. Eventually everything started back up and things went back to normal, but I'm still looking for that clarity I had at the time. This cover art brought those memories back, and it hurts to think back on that time knowing where I am now, but its a necessary pain, and it reminds me why I keep going. One day I'll have that peace again, but for now, thanks for the reminder. ❤
The vocal melody in "Cavalry"... So solemn, especially underneath that blanket of blissful arpeggios... it resonates so deeply and I'm like almost tearing up. Thank you Patricia
If I ask you a question Will you answer so? To show those words could rise inside your starry coat If I ask you a question Will you already know? I see her in your eyes, that poem in your throat Do you feel like you’re dreaming? Do you feel as if you’ll fall? Do mountains lose their meaning when they seem this small? Can you keep me a secret? Don’t answer that, I know Out here your vessel lies transparent to your soul This freeway runs so high Its end meets eye to eye Point a claw at the terminus And watch the stars sail by The cars flow back and forth A light path to the north Red and white leviathan Her scales a glistening shore The big wheel in the sky He arcs o’er miles and miles It’s getting hard to breathe So take my paw and dive We can see the whole town from up here Feel the wind sail past our ears The whistling noise it makes So frigid and so fierce Hold onto yourself now Don’t let your body go It slips so easily through starlight’s undertow Hold close to the wind now Those shivers in your spine They bind like wires to the world that waits outside Do you feel like you’re changing? Your body knows its shape That timbre rings across your skin, around your nape Can you hear the birdsong? Can you smell the distant rain? Look inside yourself, you’ll see you’re still the same This freeway runs so high Its end meets eye to eye Point a claw at the terminus And watch the stars sail by The cars flow back and forth A light path to the north Red and white leviathan Her scales a glistening shore The big wheel in the sky He arcs o’er miles and miles It’s getting hard to breathe So take my paw and dive We can see the whole town from up here Feel the wind sail past our ears The whistling noise it makes So frigid and so fierce Can I ask you a question? I promise I’ll be brief I have a feeling you have somewhere else to be Does it feel a bit hazy? Will you be waking soon? Will you remember me, when you’re back in your room? This freeway runs so high Its end meets eye to eye Point a claw at the terminus And watch the stars sail by The cars flow back and forth A light path to the north Red and white leviathan Her scales a glistening shore The big wheel in the sky He arcs o’er miles and miles It’s getting hard to breathe So take my paw and dive We can see the whole town from up here Feel the wind sail past our ears The whistling noise it makes So frigid and so fierce
I really appreciate your art, it prevents me from being s*icidal I'm melomaniac who heard a ton of music, but your albums strike me so much differently They're almost liminal and sublime to me, listening to them feels like escaping to other dimension, where i can hide from my problems You gave me life with your art Thank you a lot
This record just shows how knowledgable in music and musical theory you are. It's unique, certainly non typical, it features many elements that should clash, yet they don't. Everything works with everything else. I love this so much ^^
It may be weird but please hear me out When I was younger and was trying to discover my passion in art, I was trying music as well. I had no shit only cheap ass guitar and fl studio. I made a few "songs" and, honestly I do genuinely like them to this day. However, they did not sound like anything at all. Not just in sound quality, yeah it is bad, no in music itself. I tried copying what popular artist did and, apart from sound quality again, I got the idea, or why artist did this and this, but it just didn't give me that kink. I thought music isn't my things and later I stuck with digital art, can't complain and actually grateful for my choices but I digress. For a bit of context, I am a huge metal fan like in that meme but I also love electronic music sometimes, plus a few other genre exceptions However, I do not recall this as anything I have ever listen to but the stuff I cobbled together as a complete noobie. And I don't recall any music making me wanna move my whole body. Not just headbang at some badass breakdowns, no, that's just the primal instincts. It's hard to explain but when I listen to this it's just like I have a lot of these moments, of bicing, feeling wind, cars rush by, fields and mountains grass smell etc, like a complete sensory overdrive, going mach 10 at sea level type of thing And i just happened to stumble upon this treasure of a music right when I had anxiety issues. Blew away like a straw house TL;DR: you got a keen listener
Reminds me of the good times, although they were 20 to 30 years a go. Memories of long summer days full adventure and creativity, cosy autumn days of blissful rain, the joy of play and being. I could just be me.
Today marks my first listen to Patricia - Proud to say that it won't be the last. This album has reached my feelings, and I couldn't explain how... I teared up while marveling at the creativity, how every single sample works together. A live wire of ideas, rawest emotions arise. Thank you, thank you for this beautiful instance ❤
It’s very interesting how furry musicians stand out for their style and the expression of feelings that they put into their work. In no way do I belittle others. It's just that at least I really like their work.
This album feels like an adventure. A story, maybe. If I close my eyes, I can imagine myself traveling somewhere, meeting people, getting tired and upset about something, but at the end of the day, I return home, exhausted but happy. I'm definetly listening to this in the summer a few times. I've never ridden a bicycle myself, but this music gives me the experience of doing it, that ticking sound in most of the tracks sounds a lot like bicycle's wheels. Thank you for sharing your feelings in such a beautiful and open way. It made me feel calm and inspired, even understood in some way.
I started playing this album out of curiosity and now it's 2am and I've done a sketch of my fursona and it's only just hitting me that I've finished the whole album. This is visceral to listen to in the best way possible, and absolutely evokes the freedom of waking up early and riding a bicycle
First Techdog, now this - I love your music so much and appreciate every second of work you put into it. Your songs always layer like a soft film over extremely specific moments in my life that, somehow, they exactly apply to. To translate the raw sensation of a memory into tangible sound is an art form. Good dog. 🐕💚
Was having a shit day today. Had this album saved on my watch later list thingy and the cover gave me the urge to listen to it while on my bike so I went out on my bike to the countryside while playing this album, and honestly it was kinda magical, I could see myself flying down the road, crossing fields full of green with this playing in the background cinematic style. It was relaxing as hell, got my mind off my family.
Parts of the melody on the first and last tracks immediately threw me all the way back to I on Foley Artist and having that album in my mind made this one all the more euphoric. All the bright, chipper synths on this album feel like they build on from the grisly, rotting noise on Foley Artist, like crawling out of a swamp and getting back on your feet until you're walking, running, cycling away from it and the air is finally fresh again. Incredible, incredible music, my fur is truly ruffled.
Yeah, I feel like this and the Foley Artis álbums complement each other, like. If Foley was a coming out as trans, Bycicle is a coming out as furry. With Foley Artist, I've been having this image in my mind of a Fenix, 'Foley' feeling like a snow storm, 'spring' feeling like the deth of the Fenix; 'I' feeling like the rebirth and 'jailbreak' feeling like the full force of the flame. With this album, I picture a lot of ocean; 'frat claws' sounds like a sea shanty to me, it smells of salt, it sounds huge and unfathomable, the melody seems to me pirate-adjacent. Idk how to describe all of it, but I can definitely see a parallel between 'big wheel' and 'jailbreak'.
Bicycle somehow evokes the emotions of the subtle contemplation, euphoria, and pure vibes of the experience of listening to Patricia's music. like, somehow it has metavibes
It's been 17 years, and the youtube recommendation algorithm knows me uncomfortably well. But maybe it's worth it when the results point to certified hood classics such as these.
If the first song is an example of the quality for the rest of the album, then this album is going to be an absolute bop will update after my flight on how it goes
👀 once again the literal dog comes in to remind me why she’s my favorite artist. This feels like such a natural continuation of the sounds of your previous projects, I just love it and it might be my favorite work of yours yet. Just immaculate 💛. Thanks Patricia! Also, whoever made the art, amazing job. It fits perfectly and I can’t think of any other imagery that would fit better while listening 💛
You are an amazing artist and i hope you know this. your youtube content is so enriching, it makes me laugh, it makes me look forward to art school, it makes me inspired. your music is such a jam, it makes me feel like a sunny day in december, just cold enough to wear a sweater but the sun is blinding. like going back to my old daycare and eating those insanely thin apple slices with no skin. like using a disposable camera at horse camp. i just watched your DHMIS video and immediately came looking for more and boy, i was NOT disappointed
I know that this comment probably won't be seen but I feel almost obligated to gush over how amazing this album is! I'm not the best at describing the technical aspects of music but the textures of every sound just *feels* perfect. I can't ever remember music making me emotional like this upon first listen, I actually had to turn it off at one point because I didn't want to tear up while I was studying at school. Big Wheel was very touching, it felt like a cheesy ending to an adventure novel in the best way possible, especially as the piano hit, and your vocals sounded so heartfelt and genuine. These songs connected with me in a way that I can't fully articulate yet, but I hope one day I'm able to express those same feelings through art with a fifth of the charm and mastery you do.
In all honesty, this is very much *not* my typical type of music, but...this album really has me questioning that. I usually stick with music that I can work out to. Something big, energetic, inspirational, that'll get me through a tough training session. And today, I really needed that. I've been burned out, sick, sleep-deprived, just willing myself through the motions to get to bed at the end of each day. But during my bike workout today, for some reason I don't even know, I pulled up Cavalry. And I just...felt. I don't even know what emotion, just *emotion*. And for once, it was good to feel, without having to give myself a pep talk to do so. I think I listened to it 3 times in a row and kept the album going on my cooldown. Thanks for introducing me to something new I didn't know I was missing.
I'm new here, I'm just looking for some sort of cultural identity that I can hold onto, since I feel like so much of what I do is just a means to connect with other people. I don't know why but this music makes me cry but also feels like a hug Your content is somehow the most relatable stuff I have ever encountered on the internet, and I have been watching youtube for hours of my life every day for the last 10 years
This comment made me cry a little. I relate to the feeling of looking for cultural identety to hold onto, but at the same time i have a hard time because i dont think i completely fit in anywhere. I love the furry random but fail to connect to it on an emotional level like everyone else in the comments. Im pretty sure i am autistic too, but still not in the same way that i have seen patricia and her viewers here describe how it affects them. And to top it of, im still pretty Young and have a social life to tend to, without all of this. I am also new here and i love it here, but still all in all have a hard time finding myself in This beautiful community. Sorry for the long message😅❤
This is such a sensory album, it makes my skin crawl in an exclusively positive way. Usually music this electronic doesn't grasp me so intensely-I like it have nothing against it but the musical sensory experiences that tend to feel like good food against my minds teeth are that of the physical. The sounds that are something in-between music and noise that just come with existing in the real world, breathing, the leftover hum after a guitar string has been picked, the slight echo of a amateur recording studio etc. But this forces you to embrace something different. I don't really consider myself a furry, mainly because it's never been a prominent enough part of me to label myself as one and not because I consider myself terribly separate from them. I DO like drawing animal people it's sensory it's fun it's unabashedly creative in an easy, cozy way, that's generally where it ends for me. But I have always, intensely felt and identified with the word 'creature' I am a human but I am also a creature. I am a good creature I am a scared creature I am more than the sum of my parts and yet less. I am human I have flesh and blood and a brain that thinks for survival reasons but something in me is my ancestors and something in me is past the physical and something in me is always and forever too physical. No word fits those two contradictory truths for me besides creature. I am a creature. The world is not done turning me over in its creative process, nothing makes me special or distinguished from the other animals it has created, but I also possess something undeniably *more* in a way that should make fate fall to its knees. We all are. That's what this album feels like, creature music, for creatures.
If you liked this, then you may want to cheak out her Techdog series. Atliest the first 4 with the 3th and 4th as the 2 best ones. Still somewhat similar sounding too this album but also not too different.
dude i wanted to like. watch this and eat and just have it be a background listen and im 2 and a half minutes in an deliberately chewing slower and quieter so i can hear this masterpiece better what the hell
My ears are tingling with sounds, it is an experience I rarely feel. It is forcing me listen and not just hear what is going on around my brain. It is a wonderful feeling, being so aware before I go back to the numbing day-to-day. Thank you
Just found you from your crazy insightful and well-spoken video essays and suddenly I discover you're a wildly skilled musician/producer/sound designer?? easily my best new content creator find of the past year. I haven't finished listening to the album yet, but the sound design in the intro to Boys is so punchy and tangible through my dinky laptop speakers. Love your work so far and hope to see more of you in the future!
I've put this on over a dozen times through the last month while I read. I don't have the words to describe why this album in particular is so compelling to me, it's just got some kind of quality I can only feel while it's playing and that eludes me when it's not.
NGL was not expecting a song about driving to Canada. At least I think that is partly what the song is about. Driving to the north (Canada is a northern country) Red and White leviathan (Canada is a big country, flag colors are red and white) Her scales a glistening shore (Canada has a rather extensive shorline) Also the theme of cold wind, canada is cold. So in conclusion, Canada is a dream world and dosent exist. Thank you for coming to my ted talk.
Pretty sure the Red and White Leviathan part is referring to back lights (of people moving away) and headlights (of people moving towards them) on a highway, but its still a cool interpretation :))
just finished listening to this, this is so good that i can't even articulate how- wait oh god what's that oh no gjgnfnxnsBLALARHGHCJFJS (gets hit by the beam that turns you into lin manuel miranda) hey patty its me lin i just gotta say that this albums got me feelin some kinda way where i feel phantom limbs like a tail and paws and my teeth get sharp and my nails are claws yeah im a dog thats something i cannot deny furry hamilton coming to broadway this july but seriously this album is a total gem im glad to see you makin music again like this album's production's got a silky sheen but a clickiness where it's not afraid to get mean but that isnt to say that this album is rude it's actually pretty chill if im gonna be true you experiment a lot and i really like that goin out of your comfort zone at the drop of a hat youre someone whos not afraid to get wetter 8/10 stars cant wait to hear you get better (gets changed back) ughhh what happened...anyway i quite enjoyed this one. in particular when i listen to cavalry i can feel my mane (im a hyena) and that seems to be the general consensus on that track which is great because it really is a total gem. feel kinda like i already said this for some reason but 8/10 can't wait to see you improve. Thank you
This feels like the musical resolution I wanted from the Techdog anthology. Thank you so much for all the work you do, Patty, it has genuinely helped get me thru a lot of struggles in my life, and your music is honestly one of the reasons I'm still on this planet. Much love, you wonderful pupper 💜💛💜💛
Cavalry made me cry instantly like not even 2 seconds into hearing it for the first time like a silent whistle made bugle call harking dog feeling hidden in my brain excellent dog sounds sticking head out the window wagging wind music etc thank you again
𝙔𝙚𝙨, I was very confused when I remembered the teaser when I was in the middle of looking for the next techdog release. Like "did she cancel it??? 🥺" but it's finally here!!!!!!
I put off listening to this for several months because TECHDOG hit close enough to home that it actually kinda hurt me in a way. I just got diagnosed with autism a couple weeks ago and I guess I finally felt ready to give this a listen. It made me bawl my eyes out and I am grateful for that. Your music speaks to a part of me that nothing else can, including myself. Thanks for making this.
I got through around 4 or so of the techdogs before kinda burning out and stopping. But this? this is terrific! It ties in nicely with a lot of what I'm thinking about, the transgender thoughts in my head, the fursona I'm working on, the dreams I get sometimes and a lot of the esoteric plush feelings I get when thinking about my future. It's real nice, and real hopeful. :3 edit: forgot to mention this, the vocals! Always the highlight, and real good here. She's got a beautiful voice.
I was feeling really down the last day or two and after I listened to a few special songs I started to feel way better. After already feeling a bit lighter I listened to this entirely while standing in my room and that just felt so good. I feel like this just really helped me feeling better.
I hope you'll recover quickly and never experience trauma or any sort of hopelessness Maybe і don't even know you, but here's my love and care Big hugs for you
This comments section makes a certain part of me feel understood- like other people have found words to describe how I feel when I can’t do it myself- really weird and really cool X]
I just want to say that your latest stuff absolutely goes so hard and has inspired me to get off my ass and actually make an LP for the first time in like 6 years so thanks so much for the motivation, I'm nearly done with it and techdog was the spark that I needed to actually make it happen.
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