PERSECUTORS - "EVIL" Personalities? | All About Alters Ep: 6 | Dissociative Identity Disorder 

“Your trauma is not an excuse to traumatize others”. That hit different. If only the evil who started all of this could understand that.

I have DID. My former persecutor, Caitlyn, was watching this video. She used to be very aggressive and angry but after she watched this video, she was willing to be heard and to hear me and the other alters. She’s become a protector now and she’s happy and doesn’t hurt anyone anymore.

Brains are literally the worst. “Don’t wanna be abused by someone? Just abuse yourself first so they don’t have to”, “Scared of having a panic attack? Don’t leave your house so you always have an escape”, “Wanna lose weight and look pretty? Just stop eating.” They come up with the WORST coping mechanisms. I’m glad you’re here to teach people about things like this so they can combat it, thank you.

The worst part of this is knowing that they went through pain as a child

As a non DID person, I love this channel. I feel like I'm honestly educating myself. I've always found psychology and psychiatry fascinating, and I command you for the work that you do. This is also helping me a lot with understanding the general dynamics of trauma, which I really appreciate, because it helps me help myself as well as knowing how to truly be supportive of others. I love you guys, honestly ❤️

I do not have DID. I do not wish to have DID. I do not wish ANYONE to have DID. I do not wish YOU to have DID. But I wish that people understood that people are suffering from DID, and that it's real, and it's frightening.

I get so sad knowing someones primary role is to hold onto the memories and traumatic experiences and they can never release those thoughts

Hey, persecutor here. I'm trying to get better. It's, uh, slow going. I was looking for videos on how persecutors can like improve? And this wasn't quite that, but it was really good anyways. I uh. I definitely cried at least a little, wow. I. uh I feel really... seen. Thank you for this. -Cody

It almost feels like Jade was co-con in the way Chloe sometimes held herself and spoke, so stern and strict and yet elegant. :D And that hair and makeup combo is a smash hit!

I know Ruby hates talking to the camera, but a video from her perspective and about how she became a protector would be amazingly informative! Possibly also very helpful for other persecutors in other systems. Maybe she can write down something that another alter more comfortable with the camera could read to us?

TRIGGER WARNING: mention of self harm and abuse One of our alters who is the persecutor targets one of our littles. She'll hurt the body then make Tee front (This happened three days ago.) She blames our little for being too young, too helpless to protect the body. She blames her for the physical and emotional pain our father put us through. When our persecutor first made herself known she immediately hated Tee because she reminded of herself when she was in a bad situation. We're struggling trying to accept her when she is scarring the body and hurting one of our littles. We want to take care of the body and Tee and we want to try accept her but she makes it very difficult. ~Maddie

My 5 yr old son just screamed loudly in my ear "i love her rainbow hair"

Our primary protector is an ex-persecutor and the thing that helped her the most was our very patient friends who showed her that insulting and verbally harassing people isn’t something she has to do anymore. Our best friend in particular really helped her.

My persecutor is now my greatest protector. He understands and he even had therapy with one of my therapists. And with communication through her and him to me, it made me understand him and he is learning to relax now that we are safe.

When u started talking about how unfair and painful being a persecutor is i started crying. Im the persecutor in our system and its horrible. Thank you so much for this, youre helping so many people systems or just people who want to know about it.

The number of alters she has makes me wonder how much trauma she has went through, I can't imagine how much fear and loneliness she must have felt during those traumas... No one deserves to go through so much like that at a young age. And I give her my respect for staying strong like that. . .

We see you, we hear you, we feel for you and we're so sorry" - I'm the persecutor and as soon as I heard you I could not stop crying. This is so hard. I'm reliving the trauma as if I'm that 8 yr old right now and there's nobody to understand. I don't want to hurt our friends so I've distanced myself from them. I just wish I was dead most of the time and people would be better off without me. This is so hard. Thank u for listening.n

i felt jade's energy a lot during this video. she has such a way of making people listen to her

My girlfriend has DID, since I've learned about it this channel along with a lot of personal research I've been doing into it has help us so much. Sadly she never had support from others before (both because of people she was with before refusing to learn/help and herself not seeking that help) but we are working through it just got her a first appointment with a dissociative disorder therapist and my dream is to have her persecutors feel heard and safe. Thanks for making your channel and giving people the information they need to start understanding themselves and their loved ones :)

People who want DID remind me of "straight pride parades". Seeing people with good, ignoring the bad that happened, and wanting the good they have.

My persecutor came out to "meet" my friend (who knows we're a system) and was very displeased to find out I had warned them of her. She wanted to tell my friend things that I've never told anyone. They reacted by saying they would respect my privacy and not read any messages until I was back in the front. That shocked her so much that she immediately fled and I could front again. My friend and I talked a bit afterwards and they linked me this video. It's amazing, and it helped me to understand persecutors a bit better, so thank you all. And I think people would benefit from seeing a video from a former persecutor's perspective. Thank you for your amazing videos! With love from the south, USA: The Wolf Pack [Host writes]

when i look at the conments dang are there really a lot of people with DID?!? keep safe all of you🥺

I'm not even affected by the topic, but this video deeply moved me

I won't go into details of my two persecutors but one named Ruby (as well) has decided to try to heal themself from the trauma and learn to live with it and become more accepted in my system (they had got into multiple fights between my main protector/avenger and one of my other alters and would personally attack me and another headmate) and I decided to watch this, they were looking over listening and there were tears streaming down their face, we didn't realize that for years they were holding in anger and pain, hearing this made them get that load off their chest because they felt so alone with handling everything they went through, and now knowing that they aren't alone in this has helped them feel like they can TRULY try to heal as we help them work through this after 15 or so years,,, I know this is like an out of the blue comment but this even helped us figure out the reason my second persecutor is here, and I guess what could be said is we really appreciate the "we see you we feel you and we're sorry".. it really helped in this sense- core/current host

I would love to hear Ruby's side of being a persecutor turned protector. You all are bringing so much light to this disorder. Thank you!!

One of my persecutors instantly became friendlier the moment I asked for her name, instead of just calling her bitch. Since then she's become a lot nicer and less of a persecutor. She stopped self harming, destroying relationships both inside and outside of the system

DID is truly terrible when I learned I had it. I had a mental breakdown because I was so scared. My persecutor is named Edward and is so much like my biological father (my main abuser), and he does things like yell at other alters for being sad and things of that sort. One time, when I was having a mental breakdown, my protector Scarlett was trying to calm me and be there for me, but Edward was screaming and representing physical abuse done on my body for having emotions of sadness.

I have DID and one of the worst thing to think about is my persecutor. He is very frightening and scary. But I respect him like I respect my mom. Please, if you are reading this, bring light to this disorder. DID is not a board game, it is not fun, and it is not something to be underestimated and simple. Thank you for reading this.

as a non-neurodiverse person, i have to tell you all; it has been an immense pleasure and privilege to learn about this disorder through a system that is so committed to informing people on the truth. i want to thank each and everyone of you (who are both willing to be apart of the channel and those who aren’t) for being so vulnerable, allowing us to learn from you despite all you’ve been through. you all as a system and as individuals will forever have my gratitude and respect, thank you so much.

I am a psychology major and have always been interested in DID. I must say that this channel is amazing. Keep doing what you are doing. Spread awareness and encourage others. You guys are an inspiration, and you have my full support. Love you guys!

thank you. Hi, I’m the host of my system that was one of the persecutors, I just wanna say that she has gotten better since this video

I'm 16 and I've started to become aware of my own altars, I was terrified at first I would just black out for hours and come to in a different place. I came across your channel and your videos have helped me so much so thank you for speaking on such an important subject

My boyfriend, whom I love so so so much always talk about his "bad" alter when we're discussing about his alters (he really tries to control them, he doesn't like most of his alters) I never liked to see him calling an alter bad. I never talked to that alter (he controls the body very well, the times where I had contact with some of his alters were really short), but the fact that he (and as it seems, one more alter that I talked to) calls that specific alter "bad" just makes me worried. I am glad I found this video and can share it with him.

Did nadia choose the hair colour? Because I love it

Host&PrimerProtector: we locked this persecutor in a cage for years, they ran away. We don't know where they are, they are not terrible *terrible* things and we've always seen them as our abuser in a different body. Never thought of the person behind. Thought they are just evil, bad, they want to hurt us and they get satisfaction from it. Watching this video... We are wrong, we know it since a while now... /dissociating while writing this isn't funny/ As the host and protector we feel so bad because we feel like we have to look out for the people of our system and we failed. We failed for years, locking her away, not remembering her existence for the host, a big mistake. Now she is gone, we don't know where and we don't know how to fix this. I (host) just feel so bad and guilty... they were made to help me survive and I made this horrible mistake...

My mum is a psychologist and when I was a child I used to read parts I found interesting of her old textbooks. I remember reading about DID (it was called Multiple Personality Disorder or something similar at the time) and thinking "I'm young enough to get this" and getting scared. I genuinely thought that if I really tried, I could develop it and it was frightening for my energetic imagination. Man, there are so many things that were wrong with that line of thought.

I love how you state (honestly) that you are scared of persecutors, but you still respect them. I find that SO admirable, they're hurting. I absolutely love this channel as well, and as soon as I can I want to send a care package. Have a good day!!

I started researching DID because i was sick of people mixing it up with schizophrenia (which my mother had) and joking about it. I've grown to respect people with this disorder. If you have DID (or any other mental disorder) I want to let you know that I am proud of you for fighting and not giving up. Love you all❤

I’ve experienced severe trauma since I was a little kid until I was a middle teenager. I remember a lot of it but, since I don’t have DID, I also remember the good things that I’ve experienced. I can’t imagine only remembering the bad. Persecutors deserve so much sympathy.

I know this is an old video but,, My old persecutor used to be very fearful, really. Fearfully angry, fearful of loss. He'd make sure I never became attached, and if I did he'd try to convince me that my friends weren't real. Over time, we came to terms with eachother. He was just as much as a person as I was, he was just as afraid as I was and it hurt so bad to know that I was so ignorant about who he was. All he wanted was to keep us safe, and over time he became calmer and understanding of the real situation. I very much consider him an older brother nowadays, and I hope he knows that I respect him and can't wait for the day where he can feel okay and safer. I hope he is.

We as a system decided not to call our main persecutor by the name he chose (monster) but use a real name instead so he would understand that this isnt how he is deemed to be

She said, “we see you” and we burst into tears. Thank you so much for this video. This meant so much.

This video freaked me out, almost made me switch to my persecutor. But the ending calmed him down. Thank you for being so helpful.

I just want to sit down with every alter in every system ever and give them the biggest cup of cocoa, a massive hug, and someone outside of their system that they know they can always depend on. Everyone deserves happiness, every alter, every system, every human, every creature. I love all of you and I want you to know that I would protect you because everyone needs a little love and protection in their lives. Hugs (or not hugs if you don't like them; I know I sometimes don't) to everyone. You are valid, and you are strong.

TW: abuse and consequences after getting out of the abusive situation. What you said about trauma, that thing you said "we replicate the abuse we received, because if we are doing it, then the abuser won't". It really resonated with me. I don't have DID or any disorder that I know of, but i have suffered abuse for prolonged periods of time before. After I got out of the situation, I started hurting myself in similar ways my abuser would. It's a hard thing to deal with. Edit, 8 months later: I started therapy some months ago and my mental health has gotten much better! Thank you so much to everyone who left kind words or a like in the comment. 🙏

I "only" have ptsd but i feel so validated and respected and inspired when i watch your videos!! You guys are great

I just found out I have DID. I had a flood of triggers in my live that disassembled my functioning fronts and became completely unraveled. I was arguing both inside and outside my head. My system became disorganized, I was raging, going blank, getting lost in what I was doing. It was very scary. One of my altars knew we had DID several years ago but kept it hidden. I'm much better than I was a month ago, the system is stabalizing.

People actually want DID!!!! Those people are crazy!!! That's like asking for trauma!

I had never even heard of DID until I met someone over a year ago and we became friends. She has a persecutor who wants out so badly he is willing to destroy the body a bit at a time. From my experiences with my friend there is nothing good about DID. She lives a life of torment and it is literally 24 hours a day. No switch off, no lunch break, just constant. It breaks my heart to talk to her and I have had conversations with the persecutor and I can feel his pain every time we speak. I wish I could do more to help her. I fear that she won’t be alive much longer. What makes it so much worse is she treats everyone else with such kindness and love. She is a very special person.

Holy shit. I don’t think I’ve ever been so “spoken to” by one of your videos before. Crying in the car outside of a Walmart right now with my boyfriend listening to this. I’m having a very very hard time accepting that I most likely have DID. Thankfully he’s very supportive as I figure it out with my psychologist and psychiatrist. Thank you so much for doing this video. I’ve never heard of self-harm explained in such a way. Thank you for doing a serious video on this subject. I feel like I’m used to all the positive videos on our pain and almost felt like I was “doing it wrong” or not being positive enough and that makes me a weak person. This was, funnily enough, the most supportive and uplifting message you’ve ever given before. The anecdote of having scars from “blacking out” is terrifying and I have the same kind of scars on my ankle and thighs. I get it. Thank you for your videos. This shit IS heavy. Which is why I think you’re so brave for talking about it. Thank you. If it’s not too much to ask, I would really appreciate a video from one of your persecutors point of views. Hearing from someone who has the same coping mechanisms helps immensely to not feel as alone. Much love, Rebecca

For years: from my childhood to the teenage years, I was fighting with my own persecutor and he held many traumas and made me remember forcefully like "Oh yeah? You are gonna lose weight? You've tried this for so many times and you will not be able to do it again." but I discovered my DID on university years and then made a couple research on that. So many people were suggesting that I needed to communicate my alters and I did that and now this 'Evil Altar' of mine stopped make me remember bad things, actually he becomes a fiery protector like I sometimes hide my main character behind him and say "I'm powerless" and he instantly says "Okay leave this situation to me, no one can get through from my anger to hurt you. You are safe with me." like he gained some kind of confident and he even can defend other 8 alters of me. Although his energy of anger keeps increasing so I decided to use that energy with the cardio and boxing stuff. I wouldn't believe that the alter who bullies me with my own weight becomes the alter that encourage me to lose weight. So, that was the story of my evil alter becomes a powerful guardian. : ' )

Felix was a persecutor in our system for years. And then he fronted for the first time. And he met my friends. He realised how much they were helping me by doing the opposite of what he was doing. He's on the road to becoming a protector now

Can we appreciate Chole's rainbow look she has in his video? So pretty!!! 🌈🏳️‍🌈

Felt jade being co conscious w the piercing stern look.

I'm a psychology student and a future therapist. Thank you so much for talking about this. I learn so much through your videos and they provide a lot of valuable insight I can use to help people with it in the future.

I don't have DID, but I do have severe anxiety, depression, and occasionally my panic attacks start to cause me to disassociate. When it happens it's like two or three parts of my brain start arguing over what to do, fighting impulses of fight or flight and even sometimes delusional thought patterns. I know it's not nearly the same, but ya'll have made me realize that there may be a way for me to approach my thoughts to try and keep calm during those times since it's like I have two irrational parts of my brain arguing for opposite outcomes and a third trying to grasp at logic between them. I doubt any of this will make sense, sorry, but thanks, what ya'll are doing is important, and I think it will help more people than just those with DID.

Hi, I'm the host of Chaos System. In our system we have a persecutor who dubbed himself The Beast after the villian of Split and he is the first alter I've ever spoken to. This always brings up fear within our system as well as friends who've heard of Split. Our Beast isn't a mindless savage, but he does consistently toy with everyone in the system. I'm the only one who can talk to him but he talks little, and if he does he talks in my voice. It's hard to deal with sometimes, and this video has helped me somewhat realise why he does this. Thank you. I wish you the best of luck

My persecutor has had trouble coming to terms with everything that happened to us, and I'm assuming he was the one watching the video because while he's not opened a line of communication he has definitely been getting better. But all of us really have benefited from the videos your making so thank you!

I have to show this to one of the other Alters in my system. They always degrade one that is Called ThreeHorn. In this video its basically describes how he acts and how he behaves. I like your videos miss! P.S. Whomever sees dis- HAve A Good day!

As a singular person, this hit me hard and made me realize that I just need to communicate with myself better and really recognize my emotions. This video hit me hard and I definitely cried a bit. Thank you for this video

I’ve been binge watching your videos for a few days now. I found your channel through one of your unboxing videos where the title was that you switched several times and I thought “is this what RU-vid clickbait has come to now? Using mental disorders for views?” But then I watched more and more of your videos and I realised it’s truly not what it is at all. The level of thought you put into your videos and your passion for educating people is incredible. The videos that you switch in show how brave you are to show the raw truth of living with DID. What really struck me was the video that you explained about positive triggers and Kyle was so blunt about how terrifying and difficult it is to be positively triggered. The way you honestly talk about this and don’t just go “oh look how whacky it is look at me switch” is so inspiring. Keep up your amazing amazing work and I hope doing this helps your healing as much as you help others. To Chloe, Kyle, Nadia, Sally, and everyone else in the system who don’t show as often, I hope you are doing well and that you know how amazing you all are.

I would love to know more about how to handle meeting a persecutor. Obviously treating them with kindness is important but what else could be helpful?

This is one of the smartest, strongest woman I have seen on the internet. She is very accurate when she says you should listen all of what your alters have to say, specially the most damaged ones. This requires tons TONS of love and compassion that I can't even.... This indicates me that love and compassion are the most effective medicine there is ♥️

My name is Samuel and I’am 15 i found your guys channel not to long ago and being honest i don’t know if i have DID. Because its happened multiple times where i cant remember 2 or so days no matter how hard i tried and there have been times where i will wake up in a place i don’t remember how i got there. My friend has told me before that sometimes i seem like a different person. So i asked him if he could explain to me and from what he has told me theres the way i act carefree, laidback, and in general calm and the other ways i acted he said i was aggressive at certain times and talked different and the other times i was shy and would freakout alot. I dont know if i have DID but i wanted to read up about it before i found your channel i thought it was still called multiple personalities disorder. So if one of you see my comment i want to let you know you opened me up to a whole new way of thinking thank you.

Was the hair Nadia's choice? Lol I remember a video where she talked about wanting rainbow hair

So jealous of your makeup skills, wish I could do that 😂❤️

The way they explained (nin or chloe) she explained it so well, making persecutors listen.. You are giving hope to many❤

I'm suspecting I have DID or OSDD, and I definitely have someone like this in the mind. He's been really angry and I never was able to feel anger (otherwise I would 'black out' dissociate). After this video, it makes so much sense.

The only way a persecutor might hurt a singlet is by driving them away from a system. The persecutor of my system does exactly that because if we're alone, if everyone fears her words and her digs that no one will hurt us in her mind. Persecutors are just scared. They're scared and they need just as much help and love as anyone else in your systen

Ah yes, if Ruby feels comfortable doing so, I would love to hear what she has to say about her journey.

I’ve just begun to realize one of my child alters is (or was, I’m not entirely sure where she’s at with it) a persecutor and a lot of things make a lot more sense now.

Even for someone without DID (aka me) this was so inspiring to listen to. Thank you so much for what you do. Before I found one of your videos, I was totally unaware of this disease. I hope you all have an amazing day and keep those littles safe!

This video was really helpful for me as I myself am a persecutor alter. I know that I am doing many things wrong and that I harmed and hurt my system members in the past and present a lot and I try to change but it is so so hard. Just recently I was finally able to reach out more to some of my system members who are really understanding and kind which helps a lot but I am so overwhelmed. Thank you very much for this video. -M.

I'd love to hear Ruby's side of being a persecutor and her transition into being a protector, it'd be a really interesting thing to learn about! Love your videos, wish you all the best

I recently met my first alter and I was looking desperately for someone to help, and I found this channel. Thank you so much and for anyone curious, he is my primary protector, and his name is Harvey.

it feels. like persecutors are still in a way protectors. if they weren't there to hold these memories, what would become of your system? to all the "persecutors" remember you are soooo needed. you are so brave and strong even when you don't feel like it. and thank you for holding on to things that no one wants. thank you so much for being such a great asset to your system. never forget this. know that there are people who care and are trying to understand. and thanks to dissociaDID we might understand a little bit more each day ❤️

Felt some Jade and Ruby in here. Brilliant video.♡

I’m glad you made a video on this topic. Thanks for always sharing you impute in an organized and easy to follow way.

I have a persecutor that hates themselves so much and is really aggressive, he's insulted so many people without me knowing but we are working on it and he would come out abruptly and only say a few words and leave immediately which give me a huge headache

I wish I saw Kyle's reaction to the hair 😂

Despite the heavy and painful things Chloe talks about, she always manages to say beautiful things perfectly. Thank-you Chloe for your words near the end of your video. (And anyone else in the system who may have contributed!) I needed to hear them. As always, your dedication to help people is always appreciated and admired.

Our (ex-)persecutors would /love/ a video from a persecutor's perspective. ~Swingset System

This video really helped me understand how my persecutor thinks and feels. I know he doesn’t like talking about what goes on with him and that he just wants us to be safe and right now he fronts a lot, but that’s only to protect us from falling back into the cycle. He fronted the last time was two days ago and it was because one of our Littles is terrrified if yelling and he just wanted to get them out and stop who was yelling. I won’t explain much more but this video really opened up my eyes to the way he thinks and feels. Thank you

One of my friends has a persecutor alter that she's very afraid of because he has physically harmed not just the body but also people and animals outside the system. She's terrified of trying to confront him or talk to him because she's worried that he could get angry and hurt someone else to get back at her. Do you have any suggestions for her?

I always love to read the comments after watching a new video. You have built a community where people are respectful and spreading positivity while learning about DID and/or sharing their thoughts and experiences. I really enjoy watching your videos ❤️

Your delivery and enunciation is incredibly effective and captivating, keep up the excellent work!

A guy i know from my college told me he has the disorder and he keeps his alters that are bad locked up, he only has 4 alters, but he has called the one that almost killed someone the devil or satan and even i understand that alter was hurting, like he was holding a rock over someone about to crush them with it, and this person that was on the ground was his bully so it made perfect sense, so i felt for him, i didnt really know how it really works, but i gave him a hug and said i hope you feel better, idk if the other alters felt that, but i really felt for him because even though i dont have the disorder i have been through pain and i know what its like

i don't have DID, but i have went through periods of disassociation probably due to anxiety. looking back it was so scary, i literally didn't feel real. i didn't feel like i was a person, i felt like i was in a literal game or a dream. i obviously do not have DID, but disassociation is something i would never wish on anyone.

Amy, a “persecutor” of my system, has a strange story. She was originally created as a relatively “normal” alter to replace a protector that had gone dormant. But during a certain Summer she was fronting more often to get used to what she was and to understand the world. But from this summer she was trying to help me because I was so down, so deep in myself, in pain, and she began to develop from what I was feeling. She developed a form of complex and I went away while she was in control for a month or so. She became so traumatized that she couldn’t handle it, and then I was able to come back. But she messed up a lot of things about me, and I felt lost in myself. But we sent her away for a while because she put a little to sleep and Jamie and I just couldn’t anymore. Amy is doing way better now, but is still haunted. I don’t know if it makes her a persecutor or an alter that is just like one. That summer is hard to talk about and I blank when I try and talk about it, so I’m sorry for lack of information. -Host + Amy

While watching this video ( especially during the part she talked about how a motive for a persecutor can be controlling the abuse) im pretty sure one of my presecutors heard that because i instantly felt a WAVE of pain and discociation. We dealt with it but im pretty sure a persecutor ( whom i havent met yet) got triggered. I want to thank you guys so much. Now we have at least a lead on how to reach them and try and help them

I am a Persecutor and this was definitely eye opening for me, thank you. -Fae

transformative not punitive justice -- the time, effort, education, and perseverance this system puts forward every day is so valuable

I feel like Jade was co-con during this. I really enjoy learning about DID.

This was such a powerful video. The way you articulate your struggles and the intelligence you hold is astounding. You are so incredibly kind and inspiring. Thank you for your light! Lots of love from me, as always! 💛🌟💛

hi dissociadid system! im 12, and i am currently *very* invested in your videos. ive always been amazed and interested in mental disabilities, and wow, your explanations help me understanding this SO much. thank you for helping younger audiences like me fully understand!!

Chloe, Thank you for your openness and very clear way of teaching us about DID! I am learning so much by watching your videos! I felt your compassion when you addressed the persecutors and told them that they can heal and change! Beautiful!

When I was younger, I created this story about this villain who everyone loved but he hurt people in secret, and he looked like Ryan Gosling, but an angel called Peter made sure he didn't hurt anyone. I thought I'd made up this story but it was literally just a rationalization of my alters. I still haven't dealt with Jake directly since I was like, 12, and I don't know how to access those areas since the walls have been up for so long but I still can't watch movies with Ryan Gosling in them because of him. We definitely have a prosecutor turned protector in K though. So it's definitely possible, but his transition was because he was stuck fronting for like, 2 years. I dont want that to happen again.

Thank you for this video! Now the development of my alter makes more sense to me. She was a persecutor at first, we acted as rivals and had fights about who has control. She also hurt me sometimes. Sometimes she stopped me from hurting myself (but not necessarily out of kindness, it was more a control thing). Over the years, we learned to respect and even love each other. The quality of life rises so much if you work together

"if somebody is causing you pain, you're absolutely within your right to leave the situation. Pls take care of yourself" i'm crying TT