Playing Chess Until I Reach 1800 Elo - Day 116 

23:35 "Why put myself in a pin, when I don't need to" Proceeds to put himself in a pin that straight up loses a knight 😄

at 24 46 black played d5. If white responds kg1black takes the knight and is 3 pawns up.But the 3 extra pawns are trippled and isolated.

Also, it saddens me to see you apologize for not resigning. If you don't take it from me, take it from GothamChess - "Never resign!" Blunders happen all the time, all it took was one rook from the opponent like last game and your "absolutely zero chance of winning ever" would suddenly become favorite to win. Just keep on playing - treat it as an endgame / repetitional draw practice if you want - and who knows what will happen.

27:20 Instead of thinking about the game, you are once again talking how you are "dead lost" (based on being down just 2 points of material), and you start making quick bad moves without thinking about them, actually losing the game. I think you really need to stop constantly evaluating who is won or lost according to Stockfish and just play, you have lost so many games because of this. You are not the caster, you are the player, shift the focus from comparing the positions to what the best next moves are no matter who wins as if it's a puzzle rush or something.