Thank you for being so vulnerable with us in your journey to motherhood, Becky. I know it wasn’t the start that you wanted but we all want to wrap you up in a huge hug of love.
Yes, we sure do! I had a spinal headache too, but it wasn’t after an epidural. It was after a spinal tap that couldn’t be completed until I had been poked more than a dozen times. They finally did my spinal tap under an x-ray machine but because of all the holes they poked I ended up with a spinal headache. So I definitely understand, you being a little more complicated than average I was one of the first women to receive a blood patch. Thankfully it worked for me but I did not know that I was having a spinal headache so it took me 10 days to reach out. At the time I had four kids, including a not quite two year old toddler , you are not kidding when you talk about excruciating pain I’m so glad you’re on the other side of it and now it’s time for you to sit back and get to know your son. Congratulations and virtual hugs from all of your many supporters here. We love you guys!
@@RunninUpThatHillh amen!! There is no way to prepare for this time in life. Just go with the flow and pray! We have 2 grandbabies on the way. Both are first time Moms. They're like..yeah I don't need help. 🤷
As a hospital nurse of 40 years and hearing your postpartum story I can tell you that you are a Superwoman! Don't doubt your initial choices, as complications can come with even a completely natural childbirth, it's how you handle these difficulties that matter. How you and Josh handled these problems show that you are going to be the best loving parents to Baby Acre.❤
Kimberly this is not nice to new parents…. You could keep your opinion for yourself. I hope you have rest and you enjoy your baby to the max it is a wonderful experience to become a mother
HA! And shows how we are not in control, but God sure is! ☺️👍 We can plan on being in a "safe space", but as the saying goes... pride comes before destruction! This was very humbling; indeed.
Becky, thank you for blessing us with this deeply personal, emotional story. I hope that sharing it was cathartic for you. This really touched my heart. I'm so grateful that you are on the other side of it. You always shine so brightly - there's joy and excitement in everything you do. And now you can pour all of that into your precious son. He hit the parent jackpot with you and Josh. God bless you all! PS: Josh definitely wins father and husband of the year!
Goodness gracious this is literally the most honest depiction ever on RU-vid of becoming a new mother. It’s incredibly hard even under the most ideal circumstances let alone with complications. Bringing a life into this world isn’t easy but it’s oh so worth it ❤️
I watch a RU-vid blog called leave everything and wander and the man in the blog just had a spinal leak! He almost died. You are so lucky!! You are a warrior!! Your story is NOT depressing, it's honest. There is a risk anytime you puncture the spine. You have plenty of time to decide about next time. It's great that Josh was so supportive.
Bless your heart!!!!! You are a trooper!!!! Every birth story is different and after time goes by the postpartum issues will fade and the joy of that sweet little bundle will outshine the rough stuff. No guilt or condemnation. God Bless you both. We were praying for your family. Rest, heal, and enjoy the end result......baby Acre!!!!!!
I can't believe that you went through this and that you had to do it with your husband right next to you...I remember the time you Announce you were going to have a baby...I was so happy for you both i feel like I almost lost my best friend without knowing it ...I'm praying 🙏 for your little family. Your friend from the Tohono O'odham nation ..
I’m so sorry that you were in such pain! Thank God you have such a sweet capable husband to care for your little love while you healed. Thankful you are feeling better and now you can enjoy being a new mom, which I’m sure you’ll be a great one! Congratulations to all three of you!!
Becky, this is your story so you can help other women who are going through this. You have explained things so well, anyone can understand it. Much better than some doctors would explain it. Now women who have an excruciating headache after an epidural can seek appropriate treatment because of you. We are all grateful for your teaching. Keep your positive, grateful attitude! It’s so refreshing! Congratulations to you and Josh!
That after you have an epidural catheter in, maybe dont move around so much ( just take a look at any iv catheter when its in a spot where you are moving it a lot .. so much bruising and soreness . What do you think it was doing in her spine while trying to labor and get baby in the " right " position.
@@asacor9435 Tbh I've heard horror stories about epidurals. They are not what they are cracked up to be! And quite clearly this story is a case in point!
Awe Becky... I'm only 18 minutes into the video but I had to stop and comment. There's been a couple times that you've gotten emotional already and i'm sitting here wishing I could give you a hug. You have such courage to sit there and share with us such vulnerable time and information. I can see that its hard to share this with us and you are reliving those moments. You dont even have to but you do. Thank you for sharing your story........ Big hugs, big big hugs...
So glad God brought you through that. Please don't call this testimony depressing. We serve an amazing, faithful God who carries us through the difficult times. Illness will NOT win in the end, Becky. God bless you and your amazing family. ❤
Speaking for the over 50,000 people who have watched this video in the first 5 hours since you posted it, please know that we want nothing more then to give you a hug and tell you it's going to be O.K. I'm so sorry you had such a rough time, but all you need is to look at your sweet baby to know God has a plan. Prayers and Congratulations!
SuperWoman!!! I delivered 5 sons, 3 with no meds. Was always afraid of epidurals for just that reason so I never had one. You are awesome in your strength, so you can do this without one too. This video was not depressing for a minute. Your presentation was spot on. I am 77 years old now and I think you are SuperWoman!!! I rejoice in your courage.
That spinal leak headache is no joke. So grateful you are better. Mom guilt is way to big a thing. Your story is all part of how God uses you to bless others and be such an encouragement. Thank you so much for sharing!! Keep feeling those emotions as you need to. You and Josh are a great team! 🙏❤️🙏
I'm literally sitting here sobbing with you when you were describing calling your dad to pray for you. It's beautiful that you can do that, but also heartbreaking to here the pain you were in.❤️
As a new grad labor and delivery nurse starting this coming February this was so eye opening!! I knew there were risks to epidurals but I’ve never heard of this one. Telling your story helps me realize how much we need to advocate for ourselves and as a labor and delivery nurse you have to be able to advocate for your patients as they go through this experience in order to have the best outcome for mom and baby! I am wishing you and your family comfort in knowing you are all home and healthy♥️
I wanted to reach through the screen and hug you! I found your story very positive, Josh was a partner in every way and BOTH of you know how able he is. The bond with his son grew like crazy while you know you can let go when it's necessary. About the guilt, welcome to motherhood. 😄 The best thing for that is talk, you have a limitless supply of other parents to help you get past that. Be sure to tell Baby the story, he will learn that Dad was there for him and can emulate that character for his own family someday.
You are a very strong and courageous little Mama! As a Registered Nurse, I have to say this is an amazing testimony to how capable we women truly area! You and Josh are both wonderful parents!
Becky, when you said you called your father and asked him to pray that you'll have the strength to breast feed your son I have to say it moved me to tears and I prayed in that moment for God to bless you immensely while in the throws of early motherhood.
This is the honesty that women need to hear and thank for you sharing the reality of postpartum. I think I can speak for all of us that we feel honored that you are willing to share your story and be vulnerable with us. If you need to take time off please do! We want a safe, happy, and healthy Becky even if it means we have a little less of her
I'm so proud of you mama! We as moms travel through the valley of the shadow of death LITERALLY to bring our children into the world. It's not easy physically or emotionally, but it's soooo worth it!!! God has a way of helping the pain of it all to ease over time. Otherwise it would be hard to decide on having another child. I know, I have 6, and each delivery was different! But I'd do it all again to have the littles (all grown up now) that I have!!! Again, I'm so proud of you mama!!! And thanks for sharing. You show & share things as they really are. Whether it be cooking, baking, gardening or giving birth. Keep being you, because you're WONDERFUL!!!
This is a story of a fighter! Never giving up. Becky, I had 2 natural births, the 3rd with an epidural. Each way had its own grace and humps to overcome. You did so good. So good. God has a way of taking the ugly and allowing the joys to be the main remembrance. Baby is healthy, Daddy is marvelous and Mama is healing mentally, spiritually and emotionally. Give your self room for a 5 minute cry if needed, and then recall every blessing as you hold your baby boy. Covering you all with prayer. As a nurse I'm seeing all the overcoming moments. Proud of you all, and we're all so thankful you're on the other side! Be blessed!
you are so lovely. As is Becky. So happy Baby A and Mama are healing! All the blessings to Josh as well, knowing Baby was in good hands had to ease some anxiety in a really traumatic situation.
@@MAMA-gi8cn Whoa!! She tried her hardest, couldn't sit up, not even to pump, because of excruciating pain. Used doner milk etc. In their situation they did everything to feed and nourish their child while not knowing what the outcome with mama would be.
Thank you so much for sharing your story, Becky. I’ve watched it over the past several days and just finished it today. I’m so glad you’re back home with Josh, your sweetie baby, and most importantly that the pain is gone! ❤❤❤
You are going to help so many people sharing this, Becky. We don't talk enough about the hard parts of labor and delivery, and how things can quickly change post partum. I am so sorry you had such a tough recovery, but am very glad to hear Baby A did so well during all of it. Sending you, Josh, and Baby A lots of healing, positive energy. Congratulations to your entire family!
Becky, thank you so much for sharing your story. It is, by far, the most difficult postpartum story I have heard. When you mentioned the doctor saying that your body hadn’t read the textbook, it reminded me of my experience with my firstborn. I ended up going to the ER on my third day postpartum. While I was in the ER, my husband was taking my son for his daily check since he was jaundiced at birth. The doctor came in and asked me why I was there and I completely broke down sobbing, and attempting to explain my issue. He was so good, he just patted me on the shoulder and told me that the third day postpartum is the worst. When you talked about being at day 5, I really felt for you. I really hope that sharing your story was cathartic for you. And if God blesses you with more children and you decide not to have an epidural, don’t worry, your body knows what to do. I have three grown children and each labor and delivery was different, but your postpartum story sounds much worse than the fleeting pain of delivery. Please give yourself as much grace as possible. I’m glad your body is healing and your heart will too. Sending you love and prayers.
As someone who struggles with chronic pain from autoimmune issues, my heart ached when you explained all the pain you endured. I never wish others to feel that level of despair and depression that comes along with never-ending pain despite trying all the available treatments. I cannot remember a day without horrible pain, and that's why your story made me cry. I hope you continue to heal and get to enjoy your health again while cuddling your sweet baby boy. Thank you for sharing your story.
Me too. Also a severe chronic pain sufferer AND had spinal leak from a spinal tap from meningitis testing. It was horrid. I was severely ill already too, while Becky was post partum going through it. We are all 3 warriors. We must pray for the good days when pain is more bearable, cherish them. While the days pain wins the battle, we just keep fighting the good fight and try keep a handle on what we can control which is our mental and emotional state. Trying to not sink into despair from severe pain. Instead focus on every good thing or memory in life, focusing on those we love, and focusing on our dreams to keep hope alive as long as we are still alive enduring. So glad Becky is doing better and recovering more and more every day. I'm glad she's slowed down and just focused on healing. We all feel that guilt while in severe pain of what we could or should be doing but absolutely cannot. But knowing we are doing the best we possibly can and that's all we can do- it's enough. God knows and knows our strength through our bodies pain and suffering. 🙏
Becky, how traumatic for you😢 Please know that there are resources out there to support you. You have made all the right decisions, unfortunately something's get in the way that are out of your control, this is not uncommon but it doesn't make it any less traumatic. You have absolutely nothing to feel guilty about, however I completely acknowledge and validate your disappointment. You will recover from this..but allow yourself time...give yourself time dear Becky 🙏🤗
Yes! My sister has a terrible chronic illness that leaves her in extreme pain. The despair from being in constant severe pain is scary to maneuver through.
I developed a spinal fluid leak 5 months after having back surgery. I endured 42 days of excruciating headaches until they were able to determine the cause and then I needed a second surgery to repair the leak. No one can understand the level of this pain unless they have experienced it themselves. I can relate to your feelings of total despair. I'm so glad that you were able to count on your loved ones for support. God's blessings to you and your new little family!
I'd love to hear Josh's version of this. His experience is completely different probably. My mom had a horrible time with her first birth. She said she felt like she needed to have another baby as soon as it was feasible or else she would lose her nerve. Thank God she did, be cause I was the fifth and final and I have a wonderful life
Literally, I was in your shoes with my first delivery as well. My daughter was also 6 lbs. No one realized how much pain I was in from my spinal leak.. couldn't hold my newborn for almost 2 weeks. BECKY I GET IT!! Now, just enjoy every moment with that beautiful blessing and keep smiling! Mom guilt is real, and I've realized it happens more than we can control.. but it's just motherhood in a nut shell! Hugs to you, and I'm happy to hear you say you're feeling improved!♡
Oh Becky! What a difficult time to experience! People are so judgmental about the perfect birth experience when it’s all about what’s best for mom and bavy❤. You are deeply loved. Do not listen to the naysayers ❤
As someone who came within hours of dying due to postpartum preeclampsia, I can tell you that I understand how scary it all probably was. I’m so glad you made it and both you and baby are safe! ❤
Same. But if it happens after giving birth, it's called eclampsia. I believe it's when the pre-eclampsia levels are not high enough for doctors to induce you. I had a seizure during my emergency c-section (due to labor stalling) and fell into a coma for a week. My kidneys were failing. They told my husband that the situation was dire. Women still die during childbirth right here in the US!
@@laylawalker8897pre eclampsia means pre seizure, it has nothing to do with where you are in the birth process. Eclampsia means you are experiencing seizures already. I didn’t have a seizure thus I had preeclampsia. You had a seizure which is why you were diagnosed as having eclampsia.
@@laylawalker8897 mine was diagnosed as HELLP Syndrome. I was in Congestive Heart Failure, liver and kidney failure was beginning… I had my seizure at home once we had had our baby. Almost died, but Praise the Lord He just had his own child a few days ago. His wife and baby did fine! Praying for you and your family!
I just want to take a moment to say god bless you Becky! Every time you choke up, I just want to give you a hug! I cried with you through this whole story. Pregnancy is hard and giving birth is next level! Bless Josh for being such an amazing husband and father!! 💕 lots of love to you all!! Thanks to ur Mom, Dad and the entire family for surrounding you with love and support! You all are soooo blessed to have each other! Here’s to a speedy recovery Mama! Congratulations on ur new little bundle of love!! 💕💕 From one traumatized Mama to other. I never did forget, and that’s ok too. Bless you Becky!! Bless you!!
I am just wrapping up my last year of nursing school, and if anything, I hope you know that you taught me something to look out for when I am a nurse. I’m sorry you went through this hard experience after birth, but I am thankful you had the courage to share!
Those of us who also have had challenging postpartum and birth experiences can very much empathize with how very raw it may still make you feel at times, as you process your experience, Becky. Be super kind to yourself and feel the feelings as they arise, as it is part of letting go what simply was beyond one's control in those first days. Postpartum migraines are very painful and debilitating, and it is wonderful to hear that you no longer have them. You have a beautiful, healthy little one who you nurtured in your womb incredibly well. Take all the time you need to simply sit and cuddle your precious baby whenever you feel inclined, because those moments of just snuggling and cuddling will be so healing and so special. Congratulations again on the safe arrival of your beloved little one.
Yes, I agree. I had a 💩 childbirth experience and the most painful part was not allowing myself to cry about it let alone share my disappointment with others.
Having a supportive husband is such a blessing. My husband was EVERYTHING I needed in every moment for both of my births. I'm so happy that this story had a happy ending and Josh was EVERYTHING you and Baby needed in each moment ❤
I did not hear a depressing story. I heard an inspiring story that will give a lot of hope to new moms with challenging postpartum issues. Your husband had the opportunity to demonstrate how well he can take care of his family and you showed how moms sacrifice so much, including their bodies and health, for their children. I’m so glad you are doing better and will pray for you and your family’s continued health.
Thanks for being so honest and real about your post birth story. I’ve given birth to four children and have had complications with all of them. People need to understand that not all women have perfect birth and post partum experiences. Crying is natural and a way to relieve stress and you obviously had a good reason for crying. It’s over now and you can settle in to being a new mom and family of three.
I’m currently 20weeks pregnant and was so set on having an epidural..now I’m not sure 😅. I’m glad you’re doing well now and all the pain is over! I’m going to be researching epidurals a whole lot more now!
I would absolutely leave your options open, not close anything down, you do not know how things will go, some people sail through others need help. Personally I’ve had 2 births which was way before epidurals were available, I would chose to have an epidural. Every birth is different, but I think here, her doctor should have picked up the high blood pressure, because this is the reason it should be avoided. Her swollen feet before she gave birth was a sign.
Epidural for sure you have no idea how long you will labor for some people labor for more than 24 hours and without an epidural they are so exhausted from the contractions that they can't push as effective as they would. My sister in law labored hard for 28 hrs when it came time to push she didn't have the strength. Personally I had an epidural for my 3 births and delivered anywhere from 7 to 12 hours. Wouldn't think twice about it.
Wow even in all of my research prior to birth I didn't know about this spinal leak headache thing. Thank you for sharing this information. It was other reasons that I decided not to get an epidural, but now I'm genuinely shocked people don't talk about this one. Congrats to you and Josh on your little baby. You are doing so well, Becky. I am so proud and happy for you.
And not to leave Josh out, kiddos to you. My son in law had to take care of my granddaughter for several days before my daughter could. He had diaper changing down, swaddling down and taught my daughter how to do it. Josh what an awesome dad you are. Baby A is very blessed to have you both.
I’m so glad you’re talking, don’t stop talking about the birth until you feel like you no longer have birth and postpartum trauma. Talking is so powerful... I’m a mom of 3 littles, and I’ve had 3 completely different births. A women’s birth can effect every aspect of life, and I truly feel it is so important to talk about the birth, weather good or bad. Take care of yourself, and enjoy sweet baby! God bless!!
👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 you said it so well! Birth and postpartum trauma is very real and not talked about enough. And sharing our stories definitely help us heal emotionally/mentally
Yes! Not only does it help you process and heal from that trauma, but it's never talked about enough! I was diagnosed with delivery induced iih, something I had never heard of and would never have known it existed had I not temporarily gone blind!
And she has so many ppl who are listening to her story! Imagine going through this and having no one to talk to. I will definitely reach out to friends that have recently given birth more in the future. Ive always thought, oh shes just given birth she dont want to be bothered...but, sometimes ppl just need to vent.
Oh Becky, this was not a depressing story. This is a very important story that needed to be shared. Maybe this can help someone else hearing what you went through. 🙏🙏🙏🥰👣 Prayers to you, Josh and baby A.
Mom Guilt is real girl. Post partum hormones don’t help, but your willingness to honestly share your journey will help so many that don’t have the amazing support you do and aren’t told their feelings are valid. ❤
@@loricassata5259 It does definitely tone down especially as they grow older and live life, they understand more and adult conversations help so much 🙏💕💕
My son: Oh no, Becky is crying... Mama, are YOU crying?! Thanks so much for sharing with us. It can't be easy to be so vulnerable in front of the camera and I'm sure you had many of us in tears over what must've been so hard at the time. So glad both you and baby A are happy and healthy!
Becky, you are one of the most genuine and honest women I have ever "met". Thank you for sharing your story. I was crying right along with you while you were recounting your experience. I started watching you about 6 months ago, and look forward to EVERY SINGLE video. I feel so close to you, even though I've never actually met you. You are so blessed to have so much support from your husband and family during this time. I will pray for your continued healing, both mentally and physically. Soak up all those precious baby cuddles now that you're on the mend. Blessings!!!
I can only speak for myself, but having someone being honest and sharing their birth story like this was encouraging. The more you know… Thank you for being willing to share something so difficult and intimate with us.
I’m sorry it was so rough! I had one smooth delivery and two rough ones. I actually had extremely low blood pressure, which caused its own problems. Totally worth it, but in the middle of it, it feels like it’ll never end.
Bless you Becky, I pretty much cried through this video from the moment you said you called your Dad to pray for you. What a brave lady you are for telling your story to us. I’m so happy to see you in your kitchen drinking your tea! I’m not good with words but Lord please bless this family. 💕
Oh mama, I am just so sorry this happened to you! You are such a pillar of strength, and so many women will benefit from watching this video - whether they experience the same thing or just feel refreshed by your vulnerability. Thank you for sharing with us all!
Every woman's experience is hers alone - easy or hard - and we should encourage and support each other when things don't go perfectly. Easy makes us grateful and hard makes us stronger. We're here to love you through it all. Prayers for Becky, Josh and Baby Acre! P.S. Josh, good on you for being the best example of a supportive husband and loving, capable father.
THIS! We all have different stories and think it's so beautiful the way women come together in the face of birth stories and complications. Even with different experiences we rally around other women and that bond is so strong and inspiring to see. Becky's grace is so incredible.
My first child was stillborn. I was readmitted with complications after my second child's birth and unable to breastfeed him. I was bed rested for my final and third pregnancy for two months, but that delivery was terrific and I was able to breastfeed my daughter with no issues. All that to say-every pregnancy, labor, and delivery was different. God has used my experiences to help others that he has brought into my life, and I am positive that by sharing your story, you are helping so many others. You are AMAZING, and I am so proud of you!
Amen! Every pregnancy is different! I have only been through one, but have seen others go through different things their multiple pregnancies. I am so glad you are getting better, Becky. We love you and your little family. ❤
As a mother of 6, think of things like this... Josh got to bond with baby A, something many new dads are terrified of as well as having to share baby with the mom. Not only that, but he rocked it! Josh was worried about you and did everything he could do for you to get better. You both are Rockstars! You are much better for them at your best health, physically and mentally. It's normal to feel a bit like you let your baby down, but you didn't! You did what was needed so you could heal, and no one ever would think that anything you did for your health was a letdown. You are here and on your way to returning back to the best(healthy) version of yourself. I felt horrible when my first born was born at 28weeks and I went home while he spent 2 months in NICU. I think I blamed myself for a long time and tried to think of what I could have done differently but in reality, my body and my son decided when he was arriving. Emotions are always high after birth 🙄 but you will get more normal as time goes on. And it is okay to have your moments (crying is OK too), but know that I speak for many of us, we are so grateful you, baby A, and Josh are all doing well. Thank you so much for being so transparent and thinking of us through all you have gone through. Welcome to motherhood. ((Hug)) It really looks good on you. My thoughts are with you as you continue to heal.
Yes! That dad bonding is so important too. I got very sick with what we eventually come to find was a diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis when my son was 5 months old. I had severe vertigo (causing vomiting) and I could not walk without assistance because of the vertigo, I would fall. After about a week my husband said, "Look, I can take care of you or the baby but not both of you. One of you has to go!". Lol! I was so relieved because with having the baby with me I felt like I needed to care for him and not just heal. He kept the baby and I went to my parents for about 10 days. They would come visit with me of course but it wasn't the constant stress of caring for him. I could not have told my husband that I needed to be apart from the baby, I felt like a bad mom for thinking it. I was ever so grateful when my spouse spoke up.
Amen on you calling your Dad to pray for you. There is power in prayer! My Dad had an epidural (spinal as they called it years ago) for a hernia surgery. I can remember him having to roll off the couch onto his hands and knees to get up. He had really bad headaches for a long time after. They must not of known about the patch then. I remember my Mom telling me whatever you do if you ever need surgery or pain management don't have a spinal. So sorry you had to go through all this. God bless you and Josh on your new arrival.
I was crying with you Becky. 4 months postpartum myself, I cannot even imagine handling all of that pain and stress and the guilt of wanting to be by your baby. You are amazing. Don't forget to take it easy for several months to recover from birth and all the trauma afterwards, and to enjoy your baby fully 💕
There are so many women who will gain strength and wisdom because of your vulnerability in sharing this with us. So grateful everyone is doing well now. Congratulations to you and Josh and welcome Baby Acre!!🍼👶💞
Becky, do you realize how many people you helped by sharing your experience? Thank you for being open & real...no sugar coating. It is very refreshing to hear about how you lived through these unexpected experiences & your decision making under such duress. A mother's love conquers any & all things for her child. Will power & strength overcame. Thank God you are on the mend and you have a healthy baby boy. Prayers for you. One
Crying along with you during this video. Becky you are a rockstar ❤🎉. You came through this with a smile and much grace. Josh your amazing 🤩. I’m single and I want to say watching you and your husband over the last year has really helped me. In more ways than you’ll ever know. You’ve shown me a partner in life needs to be respected and also supported. I’ve never had that in a relationship 😢. So while you call this your birth video just know it’s sooooooo much more ❤. Thank you for showing us a small piece of what true love is really about. I’m so happy you are healing ❤
Becky, you are amazing! Thank you for being so open and honest. It always feels like a conversation with a dear friend when I watch your videos. Sending you and your family so much love ❤️
thank you for being so vulnerable to us.. I know you don’t have to let everyone know all of these things , but I do believe your story will help someone else. I can not say how glad I am for you to be feeling better now. YOU ARE AN ABSOLUTE TROOPER! I will ask.. will we get to see lil man? And congratulations on becoming a mommy. God always has a plan for a reason we don’t know but I promise he will absolutely use your story for nothing but good. Your amazing! Josh is amazing and I’m so glad you had incredible support.
Oh Becky- I am sending you a big (gentle) hug. Bless your heart. Having a baby is a messy, difficult business. Sending prayers that things are looking up. ex-OB nurse here!!
Me too, big gentle hugs from MS! Thank you for sharing. You’ve made tear up with you, Becky. As someone who was able to breastfeed, I’m team feed your baby. You’re doing great! None of this was a surprise to God. He knows what you and baby A need. Praying along side you and papa acre. God bless you and your precious family. You’re truly doing an incredible job momma!
Your story isn’t depressing, it is triumphant! I’ve had two kids…first was difficult in so many ways but the second was amazingly normal. While this stuff is hard, it will soon become a distant memory. You left Baby A with the best dad possible. You’ll be a wonderful mom. Learn to deal with guilt and put it aside. You are an amazing person.
Hey, I found you just over a year ago when I was 6 weeks pregnant with twins. (I didn’t know) I was sooo sick trying to care for two other babies both 2 years and under. You brought me so much happiness. Thank you for your sweet self ❤
@@RedRoseSeptember22 amazing, we have our two little boys and identical twin girls. People always stop to talk to us and look at all our beautiful children. We are a bit of a spectacle 😂 doesn’t help my husband and I are very young. I had to do lots of meal prep and planing. But we made it.
I’m just seeing this one year later. You are a very strong woman. I’m so sorry all didn’t go as planned, but you’re now great. This past year has been such a successful one for you in gardening, cooking and food preservation. Stay well and enjoy life! Prayers for your well-being. Sending hugs ❤️🥰
My 'baby' is 26 years old, but watching your videos brought back a flood of emotions from the first 2 weeks after I gave birth. I ended up with a kidney infection the day after coming home, pain, fever, chills, but that was nothing compared to all the feelings I was having, from failing to follow my birth plan by asking for an epidural after being induced and laboring for 24 hours, and then failed at pushing baby out, ended up having a c-section, breastfeeding didn't just come naturally like I thought it would, couldn't get enough sleep and even had a hard time finding time to shower! My son never slept more than 20 minutes at a time and my Mom had come down with pneumonia just before he was born so she couldn't be there to help. I was a mess and I cried quite a few times. I wish someone would have warned me that I might be a tired, emotional mess for a little bit! But eventually things fell into place and I enjoyed being a Mom and raising my child. My only complaint now is that the time went by so quickly. Try to enjoy every moment, even when he's naughty, someday you'll wish you could go back and do it all again! My son just got engaged, so hopefully there will be a grandchild to love not too long from now!
When healing from my birth of my baby boy I said you never hear about these things it’s not glamorous it’s hard no matter what. No one talks about this. You are amazing for putting up your story. I had my baby the beginning of December I was induced, 36 hour labor, pretty sure the epidural stopped working at the end, pushed for over 4 hours, vacuum birth, 4th degree tearing, and baby in the NICU for 5 days. I also feel you so much when you feel the guilt and the mourning of missing time with your baby, breastfeeding was hard (still really is for me) I’m so glad your feeling better and I am wishing you and your family the best! Enjoy your son I know I am! He is the sweetest boy and I am so happy to be his mommy and would also do it all over again. ❤
Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest. As a RN and NP who has birthed three babies I was just so in awe of your strength and resilience. Baby a is so lucky to have you as his mama. All I could think watching these last two videos is you would make an amazing nurse!
You're such an amazing person and I'm so grateful that you chose to share this with us. You've inspired me in so many ways with all of your videos! You and your family are in my prayers and I'm just happy for you guys and this new chapter of life with your son! Such a huge blessing despite the rough time. The Lord is with you guys and He is in control of everything. Being willing to extend yourself some grace isn't easy, but it's definitely important. Just know that you did everything you could to be healthy and have a healthy baby. And in the end, here you are, getting healthier every day and being able to enjoy your son! I'm so sorry it was such a tough time. With each of these videos I've cried with you and I just feel like if you make it through this time and come out smiling, then anything is possible! As you described your pain, I realized how bad my period pain is because the way you described how you were feeling is literally the way I feel during period time. Anyway, thank you for sharing your story. It was refreshing to hear the raw, real truth of your experience.
Oh Becky your story brings me to tears and brings my memories back flooding me... with my 5th child at age 37 I had all of this and I was so scared. I am so happy that you went back to the hospital and didn't ignore it. Sorry that you had to experience all this. Glad baby Acers is doing so well. Hugs from Oregon......
Bless your heart Becky. You bring such joy to us all the time and it makes it all the more heartbreaking to hear your suffering after giving birth. You’re so brave and authentic to share your story and recount your emotions throughout the ordeal as well. I hope you know how loved you are by all of us internet friends. Thankfully you’re back sitting upright in your kitchen with tea in hand now and a healthy baby in you and Josh’s life. I feel proud for you both. ❤
I will be seventy- five on Monday and in 1973 I went through the same thing you did. I relived the whole thing listening to you. Bless your heart. But back then they didn't use magnesium. They just said that they sat me up too soon after the epidural. I had had my tubes tied and I guess they weren't thinking. And I didn't have the well-trained nurses you have today. You tell your stories so well.
Oh Becky, what a hard time you’ve been through! You had way more than your share of complications and I pray you are now feeling better, enjoying time with your precious baby, and on the road to being completely back to normal. You endured a lot momma and you are one strong woman!!
Bless your heart sweet girl. I know this was a tough journey. Your husband did an awesome job. The positive side of this is that he was able to experience his own bonding time. You guys will be a great team as you parent together. Now enjoy your son and all the cuddles you can.
I just read this on March 25, 2024, and my heart is feeling so much for you! I am so so sorry that you had to go through this! I pray for you daily and will continue to do so. I look forward to your videos so much! When my kids were home, I gardened, canned, preserved, and cooked from scratch. My kids are grown and gone, and I don’t live on enough acreage any more to grow a big garden, but I’m going to try Earth boxes where I am now. I’m 69 and a retired elementary school teacher and am back to cooking from scratch again. I love your videos!!
As someone who suffers from migraines regularly I can attest it’s the worst pain I’ve ever been in. When I had appendicitis I thought it was just mild cramping bc it was so much less pain than migraines. I’m so sorry you had go through all this freshly postpartum. Sending you lots of love and prayer and for a smoother journey here on out xx
I can’t imagine having them on going. I’ve only had a few since I experienced the same type of issue from an epidural with one of my children. Basically never had any until a bad epidural an then ironically my son had it also years later when he had a spinal tap that unfortunately incited a puncture and weeks in the children’s hospital. I’m terrified of the epidural now for my 4th that is due in April, because of the horrific migraines. Sending you my prayers for enduring these regularly my heart goes out to you. I hope they can find a cure for them, oh an have a happy new year 💕
I am amazed at your strength and honesty. I was crying right along with you and still am. Being a first time parent is so hard because you are traveling through an unknown experience. God showed you not only how strong you are, but also what a great man you married. Josh got the time to bond with your son and I can imagine his thoughts and feelings as he worried about you. Don't feel guilty about not being able to spend time with your son in the beginning. Babies feel the stress of their mom and he was with someone who loves him as much as you. Enjoy every second because they change so much the first year and grow so darn fast. You are both loving and caring parents and you've already shown that. Make sure you spend time with each other and know that we, your viewers, are always here for you and in our prayers. ❤️ 💙 💜
The way you've retold your story, with such grace and strength, AND . . . you have the wonderful skills to feed your family and others if needed,. . . you are truly a TREASURE!!! Remember this and enjoy all the precious moments with Josh and Baby Acre!!
Becky, I was emotional with you the whole time I watched this! I hope it was cathartic to share it with us. You are an incredible mother, your strength is so evident even through the suffering you went through and the tears that come in reliving the experience. Praying that you get to continue resting and snuggling your baby boy!
You are not only so brave and strong, but SO lucky to have Josh! He did such a good job, brand new daddy taking a newborn home by himself so they could take good care of mommy.. such incredible and competent new parents!!
😊So the neonatal team was called. It was heart breaking but we made it! She is my only daughter and my jewel. Becky, you are a true trooper as is Josh! Baby A definitely hit the lotto with such great parents and core family. I just love the fact that you are so transparent. This will certainly help the next new mommy! 💜
Just watched these 2 Birth/rehospitalization videos. God bless you honey!!! It took me 6 years to get pregnant so I didn’t want an epidural but I did get a half a dose of Nubane. YES made me feel like butter on a hot plate and still feel the birth. God was good. I did just have one daughter that is still at 30, the center of my world. Not a day goes by that I thank Jesus for her!! You’re amazing!!
Being a nurse, it sounded like a dural leak. I know I had one! Even worst than my typical migrane. Glad you are better! Blood patch took mine immediately away! Wow, on top of preeclampsia, so sorry to hear you experienced all this. Take it easy, lots of rest, (when you can) and fluids.
Is that the hole in the spinal column that can happen with the epidural? Cause I had one... took them almost a week to figure mine out. ETA I'm in the first 15 minutes of the video.
Spinal headaches are the worst. I had one after a spinal tap and I had the blood patch and it took the pain away immediately. I had epidurals with all three babies and luckily did not get a headache any of those times. I feel for you. The headache is so bad that you cannot be upright. I crawled into the E.R. and refused to move until they helped me.
I agree. Mine occurred in the middle of Labor. Felt like someone has hit me in the head. Nurse blew off, OB Dr, knew immediately. Leak and Allergic Reaction, in middle labor, wasn't easy. Son is now 24 yrs old.
As a chronic migraine sufferer I can empathize with you over the pain you were in. I have more days like that than I care to admit. When your head hurts that badly it gets very depressing. I'm glad that you are pain free and can bond with baby A at home ❤️
Same. I really can’t believe they gave you what is called a “migraine cocktail” for your condition. I’m sorry you went thru all this especially as a first time mom
You went through so much especially as a first time mom. You did an incredible job. Thank you for sharing this. You are helping others know they aren’t alone.
Same! I’ve suffered chronic migraines since I was a teenager. I don’t want to say that you get used to it, but when it’s a fact of life, you almost have to. My migraines last anywhere from 2-10 days usually. The CBD 1,000 mg oil is the absolute best I’ve ever found, and it does absolutely help for migraines when modern medicine does not. Trust me, I’ve tried them all, in the meds dept.👍
Your feelings are valid. I found that ignoring my feelings of guilt after two traumatic birth experiences because I didn’t want to burden others only made them worse. So glad that you are sharing your experience, not only for others to learn from, but also for your own healing.
So true. You are on a good path because you ARE being open and honest about your experience. TALK!!!! It’s going to speed up your healing in a way that you cannot even imagine. If you were telling this story without the emotion and just “telling a story” it wouldn’t come off as real, or truthful. It is emotional but absolutely not depressing. Your story is one of hope and victory. So many have expressed their glad and grateful thoughts for the opportunity that Josh had to show his love for you and his son in such a real and meaningful way. God knew what all three of you were going to need…. I’m so happy that you are ok and that in His Goodness, he has provided for you all!!! Also, as a Mom of three adult children and their spouses, and as a grandmother of five, your Mom was waiting for your call to come running to you!!! Love your work and blessed by your story. Thank you so much!!! 0:45
As a Nurse/Teacher, mom and gma, your story isn’t depressing. It is honest and will be with you forever. Bless you for sharing it, in doing so you gave other women who might experience these same issues knowledge. I hope you realize this also gave you a strength that just trusting your body to heal itself makes you a warrior. Many blessings on your healing journey even a year later🫶🏻❣️
Hugs Becky! My first delivery ended in a c section. It was traumatic for me and I went through a lot of the feelings you expressed and I’m sure are still going through. I found telling my story helped me and I’m glad you are telling your story. It’s a lot to process. I had a second child that was also delivered c section but with no dramatic long hospital stay and I found healing in that process! Talk when you need to, it’s not depressing to hear your story…it’s your story to tell and it’s all apart of the healing process! And you were so smart to stock your freezers with meals…I didn’t do that and that is one thing I’d go back and change!! Enjoy baby!
My daughter in law blew up like a balloon overnight! They knew what she had! She delivered a 5# darling boy that made kitten sounds!! So worried!! He's 21 now and in perfect health. Take care Becky, we love you!
Crazy that not many people talk about the struggles of postpartum with epidural. You are so so strong Becky. You are an incredible person and an incredible mother. We love you and send you many hugs! 💞
So great full your back home sorry you had to endure what you did, but you have the 2 most important guys in your life may the creator bless your little family.
Girl, you've been thru it, haven't you?!? But you also have an amazing support team/family/friends/neighbors (dog-sitters included!). We are so happy to see you. You gave an honest accounting of your birth journey. There is nothing to feel guilty over, hon! Pain, hormones, things just gang up on you at times like this! You did great! I'm so glad to be one of your online...support? ...team? I am in awe of you!
Your experience will help so many people moving foreward. I've had numerous spinal cord leaks and I know every word is 100% true. I was injured after many epidurals (2 C-sections and then so many following a broken back that led to a severe spinal cord injury. I live with tremendous pain day and night. Know the knowledge you share will literally save others. Bless you, and I understand. Big hugs!❤ One day and one night at a time.
I have always been terrified of getting an epidural…and after hearing your story I am so glad I was able to have both of my babies natural and without medication!
Same! There are so many reasons to not get an epidural. Inductions are generally a bad idea as well as it can make the labor more difficult if the body just isnt ready and leads to needing more pitocin causing even more pain and more need for pain meds, artificially breaking the water, distress of baby, risk of tears, c-section and trouble breastfeeding. One intervention can often lead to exactly what happened in Becky's story unfortunately. Birth IS painful but our bodies are smart and strong enough to do it on its own.
Becky, you are such an a amazing & strong woman and mother. I can’t even imagine a fraction of what you went through - I’ve never had children. Thank you for sharing your story. It wasn’t easy and yes, I was crying along side you talking. Also, Josh is a super hero too!! I can’t imagine being responsible for a new born all on my own while worrying about my spouse. Team Acre Homestead going strong!! Sending all my love, light and strength your way. ❤ and BIG HUGS.
I have never watched a You Tube video before that made me want to climb through the screen and give someone a real big cuddle. Now you're through the worst of it I'm so happy to think that the three of you will have some family time together to build bonds. I wish you all endless joy and happiness together in 2023. Thank you for sharing your journey - you are a real warrior and a teacher. What an amazing combination! 🤩
