I am so so so grateful for all of the support! I wasn’t expecting much attention to go to this and really i was just experimenting, but i really appreciate you all! new vid coming soon, making it rn:^)
Same.. my friends just don't get it I wish n I could just end my life rn but I care to much about the ppl who don't care about me and would make it sad and I hear fighting every night for about eather my parents or my parents fighting what to do about my sis bc she just want to kill herself and I only have one friend that gets me and we have been friend for 6 years now and I hate myself bc I I have easy to many insureds and it hurts and ppl don't know most of the time it don't hurt
nah i swear, i do everything for people and no one realises. like after a while i ask them for a simple favour, but they always say no. just bro, i've literally done almost everything for you and you cant do this tiny favour.
I'm just so frustrated with myself, privately I'm a very quiet person like around family, but when I'm in school around friends I just feel like I should talk and socialize. But it's draining and I want to just shut up but my stupid mind won't let me. So I've been trying to just chill out and be myself, quiet and reserved.
I completely understand because this happens with me. I have anger issues and usually am unaware when I get aggressive. Try talk slowly and think a bit more before you say something. I promise it helps 💗
@@meriiiiee7745 Ik I have anger problems but no one thinks I do it really pisses me off when someone does something that I don’t like I feel like killing them
Ok, i must sayi feel the same. My ex best friend was perfect. Perfect eyes, face, smile, body.. I was jeulous. But still was acting the same. I felt like a slave next to her.
Vent. I get so tired of being mostly only useful to comfort or please everyone and it sucks feeling like i'm useless if i can't do it. I hate everything about myself and nothing helps with the thoughts not even the medicine that i keep having to get a high dose on. I hate how when i try to vent and get at least a "it'll be okay" i get completely ignored but when someone else says they scraped their knee everyone crowds them. Whenever i try to end my urges of running away or SH I get a sudden urge that i'll be even more useless dead because i won't be able to help. I hate my body. I just want to get a knife and cut the parts i hate the most.
Vent!! I have not a lot of problems but some problems and they are not that huge but it feels huge. I haven’t vented for a year to anyone and when I mean anyone I mean anyone. When my friends vent to me I try my best not to say “Oh I have those problems too” or say something like that and start venting myself. I just feel like I’m here just for people to come to me and vent about their problems or just to cheer them up. And yea, I’m fine with that but after a while it starts to get tiring trying to come up with words in a short amount of time and start worrying about that person when you have yourself to worry about too. I just feel like I’m going to lose it soon and I need someone to vent to but I can’t find anyone.
Your problems are valid too, and it's okay to talk about them. If something feels huge than it's huge for you and that's totally valid. You don't need to compare your problems to other people's problems because what they value and what hurts them the most is different from what you value and hurts you. It's also to not be emotionally available to be vented to. It's okay to say "I'm under a lot of pressure right now and I don't think I'm able to be vented to.". If somebody's making you feel bad it's okay to take a break from them if you can. I promise it gets better. I think that right now you need to focus more on yourself because trying to act as a therapist for everyone else is too much for anyone to bear,
Vent: i sometimes doubt myself, my looks, my attitude, my talents. i almost ended things today, i just feel so tired all the times, not physically just mentally. i feel like no matter what i do, no matter how much i sacrifice for everyone else i’ll never get that love back. i try and give so much love away, and yet i get none back. im in a relationship who i thought would be the one, and still. we’re taking a break currently but i already feel like relapsing. i cant take the pain of him talking and loving someone else other than me, it breaks my heart. there’s more i want to put but i don’t wanna seem desperate so i’m just gonna stop here. thank you for making this playlist💖
There's no reason to be sorry about venting, if you need to, please feel free to. It can even help other people who are going through or have gone through a similar situation, if any thing I should thank you for sharing your feelings!
Since I was little I always had this thing of wanting to please everybody, trying to make everybody around me happy, in 2022 I started little by little to impose more my wills instead of just accepting what others want. In February there is going to be a school event because we are going to high school, and right after that my class is wanting to go to some restaurant for dinner, and I don't want to go, I don't want to see that class anymore, I will finally leave that school and honestly I just want to get away from there, but my friends really want me to go, they even appeal a little to the emotional. "I have thought for YEARS about the others before me, I understand that they want me to go, but it is something that is very difficult for me, not because of socialization or anything like that, but I can't stand that room anymore and I don't want to see those people anymore, and there is also the financial issue, I know my parents are not in a good moment and I don't want to spend their money in a situation that I won't even like (Sorry if there are any grammatical errors, I am still learning English)
I'm honestly so tired. I don't have the trust in others to talk about my sorrows and now I all i do to combat them is cry and sleep. I'm mentally exhausted. I have so many trustworthy friends but I don't trust them. I feel bad that I don't, but I'm just not taking chances anymore. I'm always the therapist when the only thing helping me is naps and I feel like if I say anything it's bothering them, or they'll tell someone my issues. I'm reliving the same day everyday.
I've always been nice to people and if Im scared to show my opinion all the time asi always feel like I'm the wrong so basically I have to be a relatable person to be liked.
VENT! Tbh with you, whenever I want to help someone I just come off as a bit annoying every time. I feel like I push friends away from me and each other, I never mean to but I always do. I annoy my brother as well, and my self esteem has dropped to at least 0 by the last year. I tried to do something I love to feel better, I tried art but it only made my self esteem drop lower because there was always something wrong about every picture I drew, like I’d accidentally completely ruin it by adding one thing. I started cello, like my brother to see if I could have fun with it, but it just got too frustrating. But my mom won’t let me drop out and she says that me and my brother need to stay in it to be able to do something other then watching RU-vid and sitting in bed all day. So in a nutshell it was a requirement, making me want to drop out almost even more. And THEN I had the greatest idea to learn about the things you’re not supposed to learn yet at my age then! I was 9 at the time and I got curious about sex cause I never knew what it was. As I learned about that I learned about all the horrible things with it like s-xual har-ssment making me turn very paranoid at the age of NINE. I’m trying to get better about that to this day, but I’m still so paranoid about it it’s pathetic almost. That’s it, and side note: The only other living beings I’ve vented to is my cats and my dogs, so thank you for listening everyone.
Let people like that go and find someone that would really loved you and if it's your family that acts like this then i'm really sorry to hear that but you can find good friends at least. I wish you good luck
My mom recently had to tell me I'm a people pleaser, i never realized until now. She told me i focus on trying to make all my friends happy instead of focusing on my mental health. I can't say no, i can't tell them to leave me alone cause i need to fix my grades to help my mental health. I feel like everyone is bored or annoyed of me if i don't get a response from them. When my friends are sad I'm able to help, i can usually tell when they're upset, but sometimes it feels like they might not care as much about when I'm upset. I know my friends have other friends but it's annoying when i send a text in a group chat and no one responds but when someone else texts they respond immediately. If they weren't near their phone they should have still seen it right? I can't tell them this cause I think they'd be mad about it. It sucks being an overthinker with anxiety who's a people pleaser. It feels like i have to always smile and cheer them up cause if I don't they won't be there for me when I need them. I wish everything was normal and not stressful. I wish I didn't have to please people constantly, cause if I can't keep them happy then who'd want to be friends with me?
To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve. To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down, and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! -not mine. pass it arounddddd And also remember to smile Don't be sadd. cmon i dont wanna see u sad. u know. everyone loves u. dont think that ur ugly. ofc no! ur the most prettiest girl/boy in this world! so dont be sad and remember to smile everyday :D
VENT! I try really hard to be the perfect friend. I like to be almost like a ball of sunshine all the time for people who are sad. The one People can talk to and vent to whenever they need to. It’s come to the point where I put others before my own needs and it’s starting to make me feel tired. It makes me feel selfish though if I say something. I don’t want them to be upset with me because they might need me. I feel selfish talking about this but I needed to get it off my chest I’m rlly sorry😭
It's not selfish at all to tell people what you're going through! If they care about you, they'll care about how you're doing. At least that's my experience. It's going to be okay
I am that type of person who always wanna make everyone happy and cheerful even tho I was the one who always crying in my room I'm always been that funny friend in the group that always makes everyone laugh but always gets ignored It's just hurt
Can we just appreciate how hard meriiiiee made this- They put their time and energy in for this. Keep posting! Keep going, it will spike in viewers and subscribers!
If I don’t do what everyone wants I feel so guilty I might just burst I breakdown and cry all I want is for people to be pleased with me but it’s never enough yet no one’s ever pleased but I have to hold back my tears back because I must be the happy people pleaser friend
vent: i dont know what to do anymore. everytime i find myself trying to please everyone and getting everyone to like me to the point i dont even know my true personality. what am i like? am i someone who is loud and hilarious? am i someone who is patient and understanding? or am i someone who is silent and often misunderstood? i feel like i couldn’t have made any friends without me trying to create a whole new self, to the point that i’ve also become that therapist friend in a friend group. always and always they would pour out there feelings and vent out there frustration, and i was always the one they would go to first. but whenever i try to attempt my tell my feelings they would often not respond or act as if what i’m going through is nothing compared to what they’re going through. never in my life have i even had someone who i can rely on and hug whenever i needed one. and my parents make it worse. when will this stop? when can i finally find myself? when can i stop thinking about others opinions? i cant anymore.
VENT! I'm so sick of trying to please everyone I always think of myself last. I let others make me feel sad just to please themselves even if they don't know that there hurting me. My mental health isn't the best atm but I cant really tell anyone that takes me seriously. Not to mention my self esteem is extremally low and I cant stop picking on myself. What do I do?
Okay, i understand. i want you to hear this, something my auntie told me: you live for NOBODY but yourself. please yourself because trying to please someone else only gives displeasure. i understand you, but please focus on yourself. dont please anyone other than yourself and if someone makes you feel low or upset, say it. dont be afraid to mention it. good luck my love, always here for you💗
We have similar problems, I also let people do whatever they want to me, including making me mad, sad, or uncomfortable. Its good to know I'm not the only one that does that!
I've spent so long sugarcoating all the mistakes my friends make that they think they could do anything to me and it would be fine. im tired. so tired of taking all the pain that i have put onto myself for them. I can't even blame them anymore. its my fault and if i create such disastrous situations for myself that i just cant get out of, maybe I should just die so i dont have to deal with my own mistakes. i hate myself so much. im a coward, im stupid, im reckless, im annoying, and its just part of who i am.
Please don't die! You may think it's the best solution, but think about how much you have yet to experience and how many people care about you! I've been there before and it gets better, I promise. Stay safe!
hey I really hope youre gonna feel better soon you matter a lot and its not your fault, I know its hard to tell others how you truly feel, but I hope that one day you will get the bravery to because your feelings matter and you dont deserve to be treated badly lots of love
heres a vent i wrote last weekend in my EMMO: i miss when i was happy it was like may-june were the happiest months of the whole year i got my things back for a little, i felt happier, i went to florida TWICE, but now i just feel like, gross. since then i think my mental health went📉📈📉 ive been feeling physically ill more, more shit has happend with literally everything, ive been barely fucking surviving out here like literally i almost overdosed on my ahdhd meds two days ago. like im completely fucked lmao its not okay fr anyways this has been the third vent in a row like shitt this has been a terrible weekend hasnt it im also afraid that my mom is gonna find my sketchbook and yell at me so thats nice🤭 since saturday (family shit went down it was insane), its been hard to really cheer myself up (my brothers name) has been helping a lot but otherwise the usual "just listen to boyfriend asmr until you feel better" isnt working :[ as soon as it started working bruh. i had finally found something that calmed me down. the soft voices of random va's on youtube then BOOM, shit goes down and now my depression is even worse lmao i really really need to see a fucking therapist holy shit im relying my mental health on random men on the internet talking into a microphone😭😭 anyways thats been going nicely omg about me almost overdosing🫢 so on saturday i was in my room (my pills were on my bed) and i heard them move. i picked them up to put them on my side table, and BOOM, brain goes "what if you took all of them that are left?". of course, the angel side is like "yo if you do that you die!!" and the devil side is like "thats what the bitch wants" i ended up opening the bottle and staring into it before breaking down in tears lmao also im getting hallucinations??? bitch?? i had a full ass conversation with (my ex boyfriend). in my house. in my room. he was in the corner. i was like "yo school is starting and i jusy wanted to say sorry and that i dont like completely dispise you so maybe we can have a truce or whateva" and he was like "alr bet" with a blaccent which was weird bc hes ✨white✨but ok anyways yeah how the fuck do i tell my mom i need therapy again like she told me not to ask her for therapy for some reason but i need it so fucking bad like its not even funny whispurraudios isnt gonna work forever😭😭 (LMAO I PROMISE IM NOT THAT DOWN BAD THOSE BF AUDIOS ARE COMFORTING FR IF YOUR HAVING TROUBLE SLEEPING OR ANYTHING ID RECOMMEND IT!)
vent cw: strong language, abuse. I am so tired of being a people pleaser, i please my teachers, friends, parents, even those that bully me just for validation. even when i have the most tremendous fucking pain in my heart due to those around me, i ignore it and go off to please them, be their puppet, to top it all of when i try to please my parents but do something wrong they will end up hitting me. im so extremely fucking tired of this life.
As the nicest and tallest everyone loves me bc im funny and different but inside i need help i think i have adhd and im sad bc i feel my life is falling apart but when im around people i love im happy im just sad but i can stand up for myself but sometimes i need to be alone and sometimes i want to be w my family and freinds. I just wanted to be loved, i am but i feel like one day everyone i love will die then me....
TW: VENT This playlist is whatever i listen to when something happens, my best friend for 2 years that I played with all the time dumped me no matter how hard i tried to be able to play with them due to our timezones being 6 hours different. He was the only friend I had that I've been able to keep in touch with for over a school year. I was devastated, and this playlist keeps helping me calm down. Thank you, meriiiiee.
POV you’re at your limit being a people pleaser because that’s how you were raised. You were forced to be polite to everyone despite not being able to speak your mind without risking pissing them off. 😔
I can't do it anymore. A "friend" has been treating me badly but I still tried my best to be nice to him. I try to make my boyfriend happy but he just never seems to care but I love him so much. Most of everyone thinks I'm always happy even though I've actually been sent to an ER for trying to kill myself. I've tried this multiple times but I've given up.
Man I have like 2 personalities for my friends. One is kind and trying to make a joke any moment I can so my friends don't think I'm weird, then the friend group I lean on more, where I show my true weird colors because I know they are just like me.
It’s sad that this is perfect for me, I’ve been expected to be the best at every aspect of my life just because my brain has always been 4 years ahead since 3 years old, it unfair I’m still a kid I get that a super mature for 11 but I had to grow up fast or I would be punished by my peers Edit: I’ve been pushed so far that I can almost feel nothing, when I’m mad I’m not mad it just feels like it’s the right emotion to react with, I feel little to no emotion, when I do feel emotion it’s very intense leading me to do things that I can’t fix, I’m mentally stable but I just don’t know what’s going on with me
I will be honest but I'm not sure what to say so i will just try something. I don't think there is something wrong with you. You just want your childhood that you deserve. Try to do things that you like and don't think about what others sees you as. Maybe it will help you with the feelings too. Sorry i'm not really good at helping people but i tried my best. I wish you good luck in your life and things to get better for you :D
TW I never understood the word “shame” until trying to sneak peaks at the calorie count on everything I eat when in front of people. I never understood the word “embarrassment” until people started cracking jokes about how little I eat. Even though no one knows, everything around me screams EATING DISORDER EATING DISORDER EATING DISORDER Homie i’m just tired. . . I know I’m unwell but i’m also alone.
You're not alone. There are so many people struggling with similar problems and you can always count on some people even if they are strangers on the internet or someone that you know. Just try to talk about this with someone
I hate who I am, I think everyone hates me, and I wish I hated them too. I feel so conflicted on who to hate, who to care for, and who's using me. I know I've been used for years. I feel broken. I feel like I'm so fake. I want an escape. I want to feel like I can be who I actually am and I want to feel okay again. How am I meant to be okay? I want to be normal. I want to be naive again. I want to not understand the pains I feel.
For me , i tried to like people because i like attention , i was always nice , i always repected ppl of their gender and pride , and i tried to be liked , but just being a " furry " is too much disgusting for them .. for me i try to be liked , and the players always hated me bc i was a furry , but they don't even know me yet , why they judging so fast.. now i changed for the worst ( i become normal like the others.. ) , ofc it's not that serious but i'm sad about it , you try to be liked but they hate you for your stylish choice.. and my brain won't stop to wanting to be a furry , but i'll stop for " them "... and a infernal laugh is stuck to your brain.. atleast mine does , just trying to let me whatever i want , but.. it's like i cannot do it , because of " them " they hated me , they insult me , they didn't like me , they killed me ( in game ) .... some time , i just wish they grow up , and stop hating.. ik i can change back , but the hate is too much.. i'm tired of this . i'm too much tired with this , i just want to be liked.. why can't they..?
Be yourself. Don't let them hurting you like this. I don't even know you but i think you must be really good person and i like you the way you are. Just be yourself for me
( Vent ) My whole life I have never liked myself. I just ignored it though and rarely took care of myself. But I have a freind group and I have all ways took care of them. At 1 point for 3 years they did not even ask how I was doing. And then it got better and I got better. But now I'm at my worst again. There not asking how I'm doing or if I ate/drank water..
I got so exhausted from my insecurities that I finally took it all out in our classroom one day. During recess I couldn't help but burst out of tears, I know it wasn't very comfortable but it was all too much. Yes, I am a people pleaser, but I can't even please myself. People ask for help from me and I never learned to say no for once. I snapped.
My whole life is just me always changing something and trying to be someone who is not me so people will love me But I am never good enough. And I will never be.
VENT COMMENT: I genuinely like studying and doing my chores, and i have always been smart, but i get very upset when i get a 9 out of 10 or lower, regardless if it is considered a good score, i feel like i HAVE to get a 10, and i have a lot of things to do, so i feel burnt out. My anxiety makes me feel so bad, like, if i am painting my nails and i shake a little bit and ruin the drawing i feel MAD, i explode when i have a little reason to be stressed...
TW vent I used to be a perfect student, teacher's pet and straight A's.. my grades are the lowest they've ever been and I feel so bad for my past self who had high hopes for us... and everything she built up is crumbling down all at once I feel like my mental health is going down every day and my parents don't believe me, this homophobic school shutting me in the closet isn't helping either ik other people have it worse but I just needed to get this out somewhere :'
Vent!! How do you become perfect for your parents? All theý say is ace your exams nothing else matters than exams. They say youngest gets to live happy and gets whatever they want but that's a lie! Being the youngest sucks..I only have a older brother he loves me alone but he thinks he's being compared to me and basically I think that too I hangout with my family so they don't suspect it..I'm sure all of you have done that! We and I mean some of us here whenever they try to explain to there parents they just don't get it and we just can't tell them we need to see A therapist cuz we get scared and parents tell us not to keep secrets so we just hide it and we're good at it....I hope you all have a good day:)
You don't need to be perfect for your parents. I don't know what it's like for you, but no matter who or where you are, you are *always* worth more than a test score. If they don't see that, then they're wrong.
damn, i kinda dont wanna please my parents anymore and have them stop pretending im a "gifted" child or some shit. they think i can do better than what im doing when im doing my literal fucking best??
this playlist is really nice!! im really tired of helping everyone its really tiring these songs somehow made me feel better thank you so much :D new sub and bell
Honestly when I started Middle School it was the worst. I'm currently about to be a freshman but still can't get over what happened. It was when online learning was still a thing. I had just come to school at the middle of the year 6th grade and I had begun to make friends with some popular girls when one day they suddenly all wanna fight me because one of them spread a rumour that I had said racist things and everyone began turning on me. Every class I was by myself no one liked me it felt like being trapped in a nightmare. 7th grade came along and it was a little better although my old friends who had stated coming to my school heard and they all left me too. I felt enraged that they just assumed what these people they didn't even know said about me was true no questions. But this time I had more support of friends and it got better. 8th grade mostly it was okay but people still held a grudge against me and now I just get pissed off whenever someone mentions what happened. I'm currently about to be a Freshman and I'm saying this now if people still bring it up I'm actually gonna lose it 😅😭
Vent: I'm hurting so badly, it hurts to hear them fight because I know I'm the one they're going to come to. It hurts to have to smile and nod and agree when I don't agree and when she's in the wrong. It hurts to know I'm the favorite because I bend to everyone else's standards. It hurts to know that they are just fueling my unhealthy behavior. It hurts when they tell me to think about myself but they yell at me for doing what they told me to do. It hurts saying I'm over sometimes that I'm really not. It hurts to not speak my mind. It hurts to know that I'm the only one that sees that we're all hurting. It hurts to see them get hurt even after I try to help. It hurts to think that my worth is weighed by how others think of me. It hurts to be the youngest and to see my family hurting. It hurts learning what to do and whats bad from watching my family get hurt. It hurts to know that I can't stop. It hurts that I have to pretend that I'm asleep when they fight so they don't come to me. It hurts to go to school and act like nothing happened. It hurts to be me
At school I would be picked on by this boy and I would say something mean back but then I would feel bad so I would bring him little gifts to please him and to make him forgive me so I put him after me and making him feel comfortable
Don't you sometimes feel like everyone is using you? Like everyone has high expectations of you because you're smart and intelligent but when you actually try to have friends you just fuck everything up by trying to be yourself... 😅😅😅 sorry 😅😃🙂😥😓😞😣😭
Vent sorry I’ve seen everyone get so comfortable in sharing so every day I try so hard to please my boyfriend and be the perfect girl for him but he never does the same thing back. It always upsets me because I try to talk to him and I feel like a d bag for shitting at him I’m so tired of being perfect for him I just wanna give up and fall. He’s a great guy i know he is. I just wish he did the same thing for me.
Vent: i always feel like everyone is mad at me. My friends, my parents, my teachers, everyone.... And i don't know when it turned this bad, to the point where i just want to cut everyone off and be alone with myself
It's not even after ruminating, i just immediately "know" their angry at me and hate me anytime anything happens. It makes me miserable even when im away from everyone.
"Go do the dishes!" *im tired please...* "get in your room i told you not to come out lil shit!" *i was hungry...* "im sorry..." *no you arent* *Would you just understand?*
vent, u don't have to read nor respond (: I'm just so fucking tired of having to put up a smile all the time, just so that i don't lok like I'm "angry" or "rude". to act nice so i can get people to like me. but in the end no one does anyways. in the end i was left alone. my best friend moved school recently and we became more distant than ever. i wish i would've got to spend more time with her, but i can't because i dont even have money to go out. i try my best to be the perfect person, but it feels like everything is falling apart and i can't do anything about it. and i just wanted to be close to me sister again like we used to when i was a kid, but i can't even get myself to breathe properly around her. im so used to put up an act to everyone, i feel like i can't ever unmask again. i don't even know what part of me is real and what is a part of the mask. i don't know myself.
Vent.? I’ve got a lot of bottled emotions cause I don’t talk about how I feel Cause whenever I try to talk to my friends how I feel They immediately change the topic the moment they see an opportunity to I’m tired of it
VENT!!: I'm so tired of pleasing people agreeing to them even though they forced me they have forced me to smile only greeted elders and families too. Im so tired of greeting people for nothing just to be popular but I didnt meant it so my EX friends or fake friends spreaded rumours about me that I was Bisexual and I loved nonexisting people before I knew that everyday the kids hated me and the whole barangay
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no one likes me, i always try and make people laugh, they always leave me, im not good enough..nothing i do is ever good to people.. (alt account of fnafartist6_7)
~vent~ living with undiagnosed adhd and autism for 15 years really fucked me over. im a huge people pleaser, im traumatized, i want to cry everytime someone shounds mad, or raises their voice. im covered in scars because of it. my mum has always preassured me into doing overwelming things, bc of my anxiety ("you need to do it so your brain doesnt convince you that its dangerous") but it wasn't gentle about it, just forced me out of the door to school while i was having a meltdown/panic attack. she said she would stop doing it, but he keeps doing it. she has anger issues, and projects it on to my dad, who has parkinsons. whenever we dont help her, she says she's being left alone with all the chores, and when we do, its always wrong. my whole family is fucked. so many illneses, down generations. cancer, autism, parkinsons, other nerulogical desieses, joint shit, depression, suicide, all the good fucking stuff. and i just try to make everyone happy, its always me that needs to adapt to the big events, always me being forced. i hate it, i really hate it
I feel like this every single time I talk to my school friends on a call, we play roblox, right? Well every single time, they wanna play a game that only they like, I don’t like it very much because it might be boring or something but I agree to it anyways because either way, I know they won’t wanna play the games I wanna play so I just go along with their choice. And I have this really horrible friend that’s always like, “ well I don’t wanna play that game, you guys can play that cause I’m playing by myself.” Like such a dumb attention seeker and we always try to convince her that it’s fine and we should just all play together but she’s like “ well I’m not gonna play that.” Like- then why are you calling us? Do ur stupid stuff by ur self. 😒
It's trying to please my parents that is killing me, they don't know my mental health, or that I sometimes self-harm (and it's usually bc of them) and they just assume I'm fine, and that I just decide to be ignorant and lazy, I wish I could just do my chores but I can't, I just can't! I don't know why, it's just so hard to get motivation to do it, and the one time I get some motivation to do my chores, it dies so soon or my parents tell me to do my chores and that kills my motivation, one time I'll never forget, I was doing my chores after a lot of procastination, and my dad was literally standing over my shoulder, staring as I try to do my chores, clearly judging me, discouraging me, he knew I was crying and instead of backing off he just discouraged me, and I can never tell them how I'm really like bc I'm just too scared, I don't know why! I don't know anything! I'm scared, and confused, my only escape is the internet, I'm nervous venting here I'll get judged, but I'm risking it, I just need to get this shit out, life is mentally tiring and fricking, just, SUCKS
2 years ago when i harmed myself, my family found out and it only made problems worse. I understand if you do it for relief or you think you deserve it, but please tell someone. its not worth it, i promise. Being constantly judged is very draining and nerve racking. Just focus on your chores nd think about things you like, think about when you’ll be free from judgement of your parents. I know for a solid fact that you will be happier, these things just take time. The motovation. Motivation is a tricky thing. Just think about the relief youll feel after you do your chores. I’m proud of you for trying and you’re doing great, i swear. You’ll feel good after you do your chores, it’ll be like a weight lifted off your shoulders. good luck my love 💗
this was commented a year ago now, but i still wanna say this. hope things get better for you, i don't know you, but it's sad to hear that you went through this, or are going through this.
VENT!!: This hits hard man I literally see myself as worthless, my self esteem is not very high except when it comes to appearance, and i seek validation from those around me I try hard to please people, even strangers and those who hurt me and no matter what i do im never satisfied with myself. oh i didn't please that person, now I'm a terrible person, i should just die. I'm tired :(
I completely understand all of that. It’s the same for me. I’ve learnt that you shouldn’t try to please anyone other than yourself. I think you should live. Not just survive, but live. Do things that please yourself and you’ll feel better. this is a safe space and I’m always here if you need to vent 🫶
Heya, we’re both going through this. It’s a pain to see the people you try so hard to please, so hard for them to make you feel validated and accepted, not being able to please them. I’m still going through this, but I realize that life only comes once. Why do we need to worry so much about others? They have their own struggles, their own worries, so why should we need them to validate us? You’ll never be the same in a period of time again after it has gone by, live it now :)
LIfe can be hard I have this problem as well (not all the time every now and then) just remember that you got to make time for yourself and know that someone else's problem isn't always your.
honestly i *was* in a bad place like a year ago. i hated myself so much, stress, insecurity, getting abandoned by people. i couldnt vent to anyone, i didnt have anyone but now, im in a better place. I found a passion for ice skating, i have great friends, i love myself, im confident, im happy. I dont need to cry for things happening in my life i truly hope everyone else finds their light and has a happier life :)))) just so you guys know, I care for you. I love you guys, so please, dont do it
Today is my birthday. I wanted to have a party because its my sweet 1. I was so worried that my friends wouldn't get along and decided to throw a small one. Nobody showed up..
vent: Thing is that im.. way too empathetic. i hate it. I love making people smile and all, but when its my role to be the victim of depression, others turn their backs. Im a good person, i try to be, its hard to explain, really. Im fed up with being everyones plaything. Somehow, even if someone i completely despise vents to me, im here for them. i- the thing is that i dont know how to explain my situation.
I understand. I’m an extremely empathetic person and I take it upon myself to make others happy so I’m happy. But when depression rolls around or when I’m upset, not many people are there besides the people that I really love, just surround yourself with the people you KNOW can support you and give you the same attention you give them. I’m always here for you if you needa chat 💗
