pov: you objectify yourself (a playlist) 

timestamps!!! wet by dazey and the scouts - 0:00 sour switchblade by elita - 2:54 bathroom bitch by HOLYCHILD - 5:21 stay soft by mitski - 8:12 earned it by the weeknd - 11:27 liquid smooth by mitski - 15:33 closer by nine inch nails - 18:29 freak by doja cat - 24:45 so wet by elita - 29:22 take a slice by glass animals - 31:57 perverted by elita - 35:48 uhh by framed - 38:58 sorry for the quality idk what happened the video quality was perfectly fine before i put it into youtube maybe youtube compressed it? idk but at least the sound's good!!! enjoy!!!

Mommy issues? Codependency and impulsivity. Daddy issues? Insecurity and increased sexuality? Both? Congrats, we now have a playlist for you.

I'm hypersexual due to being exposed to sexual things at a young age(sex bots, lesbian sex, gay sex, etc...) So it rlly messed with my brain so I usually read smut and listen to inappropriate songs, as well as drawing NSFW jst too help me calm down. I also had a nightmare abt being r#ped by 100 men when I was 7 bc of a literal song called "100 men" So- also rlly fucked me up. I'm asexual and hypersexual... Is that weird? I hope it isn't!

As a persona who has been repeatedly s/a and touched by people from a young age I’ve been so used to just over sexualizing myself and I’ve just recently noticed that that’s not normal, I relate to this a lot ty for the awesome playlist, it’s hits close to home ( edit ) I was typing this right as liquid smooth started playing aaa

After being touched in certain parts by a relative when I was taking a shower at the age of 7, being forced and manipulated into having sex by a relative multiple times, getting watched taking a shower by my uncle, and groomed on discord(I didn’t tell anybody..) I just realized what I was and objectified myself and thinking my female genital parts are ‘slutty’ and said to myself that ‘I look like a whore’ even though I didn’t wanna be feminine or objective and I had gender dysphoria it’s kinda sad

TW! I js feel like if my partner doesn't sexualize me excessively I'm not loved because the only way my father showed me affection, it was in a sexual manner. That's how I send n*des to these guys who only love me for my curves. I had a partner who literally treated me like a goddess but she didn't sexualize me so I left thinking she didn't love me and I still feel guilty. I hate myself for not letting myself be loved. I get a new boy every week that js wants my body and shows their friends. I literally hate myself and I have no idea what to do now.

I don't wanna be hypersexual it's so annoying I can't stop I need a way to stop 💀

Since everyone is telling their story i will aswell. So when i was 9 years old one of my classmates was talking about giving birth and i was terrified by that. I went to the library that day and found a book that explains sex. It wasnt really graphic or anything but the idea of having sex with someone terrified me. I tried getting it out of my mind but i just couldnt. Few years later when i was in 6th grade covid happened and everyone was on lockdown. Just like every other person i spent more time on the internet and always saw 18+ content and while one part of me was like ' Hey you know you hate that , why would you even click on it to see it? ' But the other part was curious. So i started to learns more about sex , kinks and other stuff. I know way too much about sex and its actually terrifiying. I just dont understand my mind and cant stop hating myself when i read NSFW webtoons or fanfictions , listen to nasty music and enjoy it. I just cant understand my mind , thought of having sex scares me but than i enjoy NSFW content I DONT UNDERSTAND... I try to wear bras bigger than my actual size so my breasts look bigger or wear short crops to reveal some parts of my breasts because people tend to spend more time with me when i do that. Some people might call me sl#t or an attention h0e and i cant argue with that i constantly want attention from people i dont care how i get the attention but also wouldnt want to have sex with anyone am i just stupid or weird i dont know. So overall i dont like and am scared of sex but also always thinking about sex and having fantasies every single minute.... So yeah have a good day if ur reading this , know i love you and ill be here 💕

After seeing my sister....I just can't help it....I don't want to blame her, because she was a teenager...and I just so happened to walk in. I feel embarrassed and disgusting, I tried to stop so many times....I just can't. It's not hurting anyone...so I don't find a reason to stop...I use it to relieve stress, and when I can't sleep. I don't even find pleasure....it's just a addiction.

I am reading these comments and i feel happy im not the only one who feels like sexual stuff is intruding in their lives but sad at the same time its sad people go through all this me personally i was touched by my brother at a young age and it is messing with my life to this day because i am addicted to adult content and it really sucks and i hope anyone reading this has a good day ❤

Ive been stuggling with this off and on. its so tiring. im not hypersexual, but i sexualize myself to fill a void. i dont want it. but i also need it. i just feel like ill only be loved if i do it. I guess a better way to explain it is angel dust, if youve watched hazbin hotel. i dont understand what it is.

TW: sexual assault and sexual topics i was sexually assaulted when i was 8 at my first ever sleepover by my first ever friend. i never saw him after that but i could never shake the feeling of his tongue in the back of my throat. little asexual autistic me went to the internet for answers as i got unrestricted internet access at 3 and found out everything from my sexuality to all my kinks. i became hypersexual at 10 to the point where my own clothes could make me aroused, though for whatever reason i could never feel pleasure from touching myself to this day. i am now 14 and i cant help but feel ashamed every time it happens. i feel disgusting, like some type of animal that cant control itself. i have no clue how to stop it and im not about to talk to my physically and emotionally abusive parents about it anytime soon. not to mention im a trans guy, which just made the hatred i feel towards my body worse. i fucking hate myself, i can never stay wholesome no matter how much i try. my thoughts always jump to the worst and amount of times ive had to literally get out of class to touch myself is embarrassingly high. not to mention sometimes when im aroused my body heats up to the point where my mom has thought i had a fever and let me stay home multiple times. i feel miserable.

never really got assaulted but i have gotten touched, i dont really sexualize myself because of that much but on the days where its bad it is. wish i wasnt born with those people.

To those reading--I do wanna say it does get better, and no matter who you are, you're valid. I've seen people mention being asexual and still experiencing hypersexuality, and I want you to know that you're valid, too. (I'm also acespec and transmasc) Having experienced this at a younger age and growing up with unrestricted internet access and being exposed to adults online who SHOULD'VE known better, it does get better eventually in terms of how i view myself and how i cope with trauma. I've come to terms that whatever it was that kickstarted my hypersexuality is not my fault (i grew up in a christian cult and was exposed to unhealthy things online before the age of 12). I'm 24 now and while i still deal with some hypersexuality issues here and there, I've healed a lot since then, and have a much healthier support system today. It does get better and you can heal. 💙 You're not gross or disgusting for feeling this way and i know you're trying.

When I see these comments, they make me so sad for some reason. I've never had experiences like you all, but no matter what just know there is people you can always talk to. Family member, friend, partner, or even a random person online.

I was exposed to sexual things when i was maybe 8-10, ever since then i've been hypersexual and struggling to stop constantly thinking about it and developed a addiction to touching myself so badly that its nearly every single single day even if in the end i feel terrible about it. It makes me feel disgusted with myself and i can't even wear certain clothes without crossing my legs because my pants are tight near my lower area normally. I'm afraid to even admit to any of this to my sister or people i can willingly talk to because im scared of judgement.

A bunch of others talking about sexual stuff and I'm sitting here just objectifying myself in a different way. Has anyone else felt as if you weren't human? Like you're just a living doll made to follow orders and be a cute little decoration? Like you have to be perfect on the outside so that everyone can admire you and the people who own you? That's what I thought when I read objectifying myself.

When I was 6, my mom and my grandmother sent me to private piano lessons. He assaulted me (I never told them because he told me they won’t believe me and of course I believed him..I was 6. Still never told them to this day). After that I’ve always gotten in trouble in school for ‘incidents’ in which I was touching someone or vise versa. Even now I send pictures or show my body to people to feel loved and I always end up feeling disgusting. I fucking hate it. I was and still am just a kid.

I'm sorry if this is an inappropriate time to say this, but as an omori fan I am overjoyed at the image selection

i been exposed to pxxn at the age of 7 and grown a addict of it. its so unhealthy and I even convinced a friend at 9 to touch themselves in front of me while they where 7 and we were both girls, Im disgusted with myself and i want to apologize to her now (I'm 13 right now). I've grown away from pxxn but now I read it like yaoi, yuri and stuff of that nature and if i dont read i get disgusting thoughts about people, and by people i mean anybody, to the point where I'm so aroused it hurts. i feel so disgusted with myself because i accidently showed something to my little sister and now I'm doing all i can to stop her from becoming like me. and anytime someone older wants to "talk'' i just let them because i lost my self-respect a long time ago and it makes me feel something for a little while, its makes me feel wanted. i just hate myself so much, i slit my wrist and yet i still breath, like god is playing a sick joke on me.

this !! literally gonna pour my entire life here please no one judge me man im ashamed of the stuff below tw: grooming, ma$turbation, sex, porn, ykyk basically as a kid i was this biggest animal and wolf lover so i would always play all the animal games i could find. when i was 8 i was addicted to an online game, except a lot of the people there were like 13-20. they also has a friend option where you can private chat others (it functioned like texting) and had very little censorship. basically yeah, i met a TON of older men on there (in their 16-20’s) all asking me to be their girlfriend (and as a kid i really wanted a relationship for some weird reason??) and i would do very sexual roleplays with them. i never understood how serious it was. i didnt even understand how sex worked but i still went along with their roleplays and what they would say. (ps they knew i was 8 😭 also one of them knows my full name out there) years later when i’m 10-11, i start playing another game where i got a boyfriend, this time he’s 15-16. he would also do these sexual roleplays with me. i think all of this grooming already started to make me more sexual as a kid. then i discovered a non-family friendly video on youtube, and i kept coming back to it. then i found my moms back massager and started placing it on my uhhh ykyk it was like this for a while (few months) then i started exploring more with videos, finding more and more and it kept getting worse. then this one time i found out about heat genres on youtube, and i got super into it (gross, i know. im ashamed too) the things i would watch and see would worsen. then one day while searching for fanart i accidentally found a porn site. i only explored a little bit of it first, but then i fully explored the site. it was a gallery of porn art. it was like this for a long time, until i had enough courage to actually go on pornhub, and i did. then i got addicted. i started touching myself with and without the massager. i was super hypersexual by then, i kept making horny jokes, weirding out all my friends and they even started getting annoyed. i’m still addicted 😔 i’ve been trying to hold it in though im trying my hardest

TW I was sexually touched by someone i know. I was 10, he was 11/12. I hate everything that happened, but i dont remember how it started or ended anymore. It kept going for a year maybe. I think back on it with disgust, it was wrong, yet we both just accepted it. I think about it sometimes and feel like clawing my skin, he doesnt ever bring it up or allude to it whenever we see eachother. Does he even remember? He has to, right? Is it not eating him inside like its eating me inside? Im on the AroAce spectrum now, but i was very hypersexual, only a bit now. I grew up with r** fantasies in my dreams and dreams about being kidnapped. Im irrationally finicky around bunkbeds and kid pools now. I used to have a heavy corn addiction but ive recovered. I dont like the idea of mutual sex, i just believe if i ever engage i should be making them feel good, not them making me feel good - the feeling of skin touching ME would just disgust me. Idk if that's the result of this event, or just that the feeling itself is too overwhelming to me. I was introduced to sex at a very young age, when YT used to be unfiltered. I only objectify myself in ny drawings. Kind of a way to cope.

i was exposed to p0rn at a young age (9) and have been hypersexual ever since. a reason for hypersexuality is r@pe or SA and i havent been through any of that, thankfully but it is weird for still feel hands on your body? people sometimes say "i can still feel his hands on me" and i havent been SA'd or anything but i think i feel like my own hands and its really weird and i wanna know if someone else has felt this

I rlly love myself, like I really do but I don’t actually have much worth 🤷

I’m not gonna dump anything here….but this, this helps me a lot

This... playlist.... makes me wanna vomit at my own reflection... in the mirror.... reminds me of thoughts that go through my head... thoughts that involved my love ones.... thoughts that make me hate myself... but they somehow come back every now and then... I hate to say that my mind can become a scary place... I hope it could stop... Cause after every time those types of thoughts of mine passes... Guilt comes after... my mind has become... filthy... dirty... I hate it.... so much.... but I'm still thankful for this playlist existing... I don't feel alone now at least... heh

All I can do is sit in the corner of my room sobbing.And knowing I can’t tell anyone

Being exposed to sexual content veeery young + sexual abuse(also very young) = me right now, hypersexual, keep objectifying myself and feel disgusted about it. I mean, tf am I supposed to do?? Like, really, can someone help? My therapist has helped me get to the root of all these feelings, but never to how I can treat them. I feel deranged.

When I was 7-10 my ex girl best friend constantly obligated me watch adult content and recreate posses we saw when youtube admit p content. At 11 i finally blocked her, i never saw her again, she moved. But even almost 9 years later i recrate the things she have done to me, like touching. I have a girlfriend of 2 years, now, she makes me feel safe but i feel disgusting having an intimate moment after reliving the things my ex friend has done to me, i cant have a good moment without thinking of it and i feel disgusted with my self cause now i objectify so much with my girlfriend. I wish ne day i could stop thinking of it.

I was sexually assaulted at the age of 7/8 by 2 different people 1 of them in which i see often the other goes to the same school as me. then when i was 11-13 i was sexually assaulted by my own kin. As a result of that im now germaphobic and hyper sexual. I often find myself over sexualizing myself, making up unholy fantasies in my head, and constantly asking for that type of attention from my partner. Furthermore I constantly feel disgusting because of the things i do, triggering my germaphobia. I just wanna be better and i don't know how. Im just constantly hurting myself

I don't really know if I'm hypersexual, but I understand the feelings of the songs. The first time I was exposed to sexual content, I was 9-11. I was so innocent, and so when I'd seen this new Gacha Life movie, I was interested. But there was something different in this one. The characters were touching each other, and the had such intense reactions. What was that about? And after that I.. spiraled. I kept getting recommended more and more, and I was so curious. Now, at 15 years old, I'm always thinking about sex. Whether it's smut fanfics, sexual songs, or straight porn, it's always there. I get aroused so easily, and it's shameful to me. Embarrassing. I have thoughts about the people close to me, and it disgusts me. And I mean *everyone* around me..

Man i reacted to sexual content from a young age a lot differently then everyone here(hope yall feel better and shtuff btw) , also good playlist🤌

The comment section is giving me a sense of belonging because I always felt weird about my hypersexuality. I started long before my period even began and I had it way before people around me. I was never touched or abused and I never had a reason for it so I always felt guilty. It's a bittersweet feeling that I am not alone.

When I was 8 I started seeing adult content on accident without my mom knowing. And then it became an addiction. I learned about sex and kinks and all that stuff when I was 9-10. And now I’m hypersexual. I’ve never touched myself, I just cross my legs. Anything can make me aroused, even my own clothes. And I feel so fucking disgusting. I hate the sick feeling of guilt after doing it. I always feel like I live in a game or a tv show. Where everyone can see what I’m doing. They’re literally watching my life. I always feel watched ever since I was 5. It’s a horrible feeling. I feel disgusted at my own reflection. It’s ruining my life.

I’m both disgusted by the idea of sex and anything sexual, yet I’m also somewhat hypersexual at the same time and it’s so confusing. I was unfortunately exposed to lots of adult content when I was 7.

I need to stop sexualizing myself to fill the void, but the voice in the back of my head won’t let me stop. I hate everything about it but the validation feels amazing :(

I’ve never been touched or assaulted but I sexualize myself to the point I cry when I have to take a shower and I can’t face my parents. what do I do? I feel so disgusting. I’m only a child.

This video and comment section might have made me realise that I, in fact, *are* hypersexual and not just "in a silly teenager phase".

TW !! ever since i was a kid i've always over-sexualized myself because as an afab person, that's how i thought people would love me. short skirts, tight shirts, all that. i'm trying to break out of the habit but god, it's really hard, i know i'm worth more than just my body but that's not what the world taught me.

My sibling had me listen to part of this, and it's weird bc I objectify myself It's like self harm and self care at the same time. It's odd.

I just love reading other people’s stories it makes me feel like I’m not alone and even tho I feel bad for everyone who goes through this I’m glad I’m not the only one.

I’m hyper sexual and I don’t know why (I’ve never been sexually assaulted or abused), thank you for this playlist.

I feel so gross. Sometimes I laugh and it's funny on other times I feel gross and terrible. I can't stop. I think of people in gross ways. My friends. There lovers. Myself. Adults. It won't fucken stop. I want to be normal. I want to stop thinking about myself and others in disgusting and vulgar ways. I feel like a creep when the thoughts start rushing in and it makes me uncomfortable. I joke around about sex a lot and I've developed a habit of constantly apologizing to people and saying "sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable" to people. I hate it.

I was exposed to sexual content at the ripe old age of 9, during the early 2010s, all because youtube was that much more lax about its content back then. I saw way too much stuff that i wasnt supposed to. Because of it, i am so overly sexual that i cant find joy in things unless theres something inherently sexual about it. This has ruined my relationship between pieces of media i enjoy and even my real life friendships. A lot of stuff has happened lately because of it, and i dont know what to do. Im barely an adult now, and its making things so much worse. I dont even know how to ask for help with something like this

At 8 one of my classmates told me abt sex. Me and other 3 girls(2 of them were my bullies) created this "club" where we would talk abt s3x and other s3xu4l things...After some time we stopped. I started watching p0rns at 9. I had a rough childhood, my parents were violent and manipulative(they are still manipulative), so one day i told my mother abt the things my classmate told me. I was in tears, i felt bad bcs i hide this thing to my mother. She always hated to see and talk abt s3xu4l things, even now that i am 17. I started to hate s3x and feel disgusted. When i was 11 i did things that i don't even wnat to talk abt bcs i feel disgusted oft myself, I hope the people involved don’t remember anything I stopped watching and in general thinking/talking abt s3x again. I started touching myself at 13, it's almost 4 years now and i've never came(i'm a v1rgin), i still find difficult yo understand my body in this things. I'm comfortable talking abt this things with other people. I've never saw anything wrong in me getting to knoe this type of things at such a young age, i bleamed my mother for not beeing open-minded, but after having read some comments i undestard that it was wrong. It's the first time that i write abt all of that and i talk abt how i feel, i've never did it even with myself P.S.: Sorry for my english

vent!!!! when I was about 9 I used to look at ykw on the internet and that formed an addiction later on that is still ongoing. I am turning 16 in august. I thought it would make me more mature and i only wore certain dresses and i always said in my mind "it makes me look sexy". In 2021 one of my ex-friends kept telling me about a genre of prn and i kept watching it and felt so disgusting afterwards. now i have awful delusions of myself getting s/a'd by everyone around me and it makes me sick. I force myself to wear tighter clothing to show off my chest because its the only part of me i like. ive sexualized myself to older men online and i feel so guilty after, ive stopped now but it makes me feel really bad. Sexual jokes make me feel gross whenever i like them. being in school doesn't help either with the fake flirting and grabbing. My next door neighbor ansd his friend sit in front of me in my health class and they said "i want to r/pe a girl one day" this scared me so much, i didnt leave the house alone for months. this fed into my delusions and intrusive thoughts. ill never forgive them and im planning on telling someone soon

I’ve been harassed sexually and as a trans man I’m never sure what to think. I hate my feminine parts but everyone else loves them. What am I without the cherries? I don’t like them and I feel masculine but people always like when I show them off. This playlist makes sense. Thank you

I've never been sexually abused at all... Why do i hypersexualize my self? Im confused. Im glad others feel the Same way, it's nice to not feel alone in this. I have been exposed to it, i am in mental distress for different reasons... Weird.

The thing that hurts the most about hypersexuality, at least for me is the fact you know that it’s not good for you, but the validation and the pleasure makes all of tears and shame worth it. That part of your body and touching it or making suggestive comments about sex can relive so many people, but the disgust afterwords is horrible. It’s been this way for so long that I don’t even feel shame for it anymore. Only when it hurts people, but not as much as I used to feel. It’s a comfort for many people, and it is for me. I wasn’t even in the world for 3 months before my father looked at me and saw nothing but a sex toy, and then it all started. As i got older, things got worse, the abuse became emotional and physical, but he shaped me into something i hate. Myself. i was silent for an entire year with him, I let him touch and hurt me. Pleasure me. Anything he wanted to do, i didn’t even know how to spell my name right. It’s been over a decade since I’ve last seen him, but I’m turning 18 in two years, he’ll be able to legally come see me. I’m not ready for that, but I’m gonna find him. I need answers. It’s stressful trying to relieve myself so many times a day, or getting turned on by EVERYTHING, thinking griss thoughts about people. Whoring myself around and being a sex relief for people, even letting my friends take their stress out on me. I hate that I was made into a masochist and now it’s the only way I can deal with my problems. My problem fucking me when we weren’t even 8 didn’t help any better either. I just feel numb. I don’t know if there’s anything inside of me to feel at all, as if everything is just a delusion.

it's comforting in a way to know that even though i haven't been sexually abused, my hypersexuality and persistent shame due to early exposure + interest are valid.

Oh my sewing god. Reading those vent comments of people made me feel so bad for them.. On god, I wish i knew how to comfort you guys, but I can't, I feel so sorry for you, you don't deserve any that, i'm really really sorry, please don't think and let people sexualize you in a discomfortable point, you're WAY WAY more than that. I hope everyone here gets better, I'm sorry, i just can wish for that as i don't know how to help or even comfort you.

I feel crazy right now. I clicked on this playlist for just something to listen to while I do my homework but read a couple of the people sharing their stories and now I see how much I relate to them all. I always thought these things were normal and now I’m kinda stuck in my own mind but it might just be me overthinking again.

this is so good, literally the only playlist that fits hypersexuality that i've found, thank you, i needed this

Bro, I hate myself for letting pedos sexualize me:(( but I really like this playlist

I was around five or six years old when I began becoming interested in sex. It started with websites I found online from lack of parental supervision, including my cousin that encouraged my behavior through touches. Luckily nobody took advantage of me to a serious extent. Now that I’m older I realize why I’m so hyper sexual. :))

I’ve never experienced sexual trauma really, though I’ve always had more “odd” thoughts, as a kid I did nsfw roleplays aswell as purposely looking for gacha heat videos. At the age of 11, I found out about stuff like “corn” and m4sterbat!on. Though last year at the age of 12 I was severely depressed and also had a problem with sh. I knew I needed to find a better way to cope instead of sh, so I turned to m4sterbat!on to cope. Though eventually it became an addiction and got out of hand to the point where now at the age of 13 everyday I constantly feel sensual urges that just won’t go away to the point where I can’t focus. I’ve turned myself into a disgusting freak, A SLVT.

I objectify myself. I've been groomed and sa'd. It seems if I sexualize myself people stay longer. Anything to keep another person. I relate to this playlist

I was groomed for 12 years, which caused me to become hypersexual. This playlist is honestly so amazing and accurate.

I never really had a father figure in my life, he would get into domestic violence with my mother, disappear and come back and repeat, and I was just torn about it. I then grew a daddy and mommy issues, I think its what people call it, but that wasn’t the only thing though. I was touched sexually as a kid multiple times too, and I both like and hate hypersexualizing myself, it’s almost like a copying mechanism to escape reality or just whatever.

I was forcibly kissed twice by an older girl i knew/was fake cousins with when I was about kindergarten age or younger and she tried to make me touch her sleeping brother's penis before our moms ended coming home and the overwhelming feelings of fear and dread I felt in that moment led to me being afraid of physical affection with people I don't even let my family kiss or hug me normally I once brokedown crying after being hugged by someone I wasn't fully comfortable with I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety I possibly have autism and I also have Passive Suicide Ideation (Basically suicidal thoughts without intent/plan to go through with it mostly because I am a coward who's afraid of pain) I often oversexual myself and fantasize about being forced to do sexual things against my will even though I know it's wrong and I often find myself crying when I do this I don't know what to do I feel so lost when I get like this and I start to hate myself and think I will never be good enough and nobody will ever love me I always feel so alone in this world and use these stories as an escape from it I stay up all night and sleep all day I don't eat properly I either skip meals or eat a lot till I feel sick when I sleep I end up going back to sleep as soon as I wake up because sleeping is my onlry real escape from the world without killing myself I know I vent to strangers online because I don't think my family would understand me or my mind my mom would probably threaten to lock me up in a mental hospital or they would tell me to stay away from them 😅.

The internet, SA, and getting into sexual role-play with my ex best friend ruined me. Touching myself, posting pretty selfies on my stories (nothing inappropriate), dressing semi revealing clothing (compressed socks, shorts, etc) is my coping mechanism to it all. I believe the only time I can ever feel happy and loved is when I reduce my self worth as a sex object. Most aspects of my life were focused on being sexual. It hurts because deep inside, I wanna be a normal person that wants a soft and gentle partner. Now living a normal life with a sweet partner isn’t enough for me.

Having been groomed multiple times before and having a past groomer {and harasser?}(i just realized he was grooming me) who visits my house (relative), i sexualize myself to the point that sometimes other people and even i can't recognize me as a child sometimes,, this is exactly how it feels

Editing this comment because the things that happened to me were really personal and now I have actual people I can go to, and I don’t feel the need to vent in public places like this anymore. Thank you to the people in the replies, they helped me realize how serious those things actually were. I’m moving away from my mom as soon as I can. Thank you for the support :)

this playlist is amazing , people always romanticize hyper sexuality, hyper sexuality is not fun or quirky, it often gets played off as such tho, i objectify myself for validation, and it is NOT fun. its led me to multiple terrible things in my life, i was exposed to such nsfw things as a child and i suppose that is the reason for it, but its nice to know i'm not alone in this.

I recently found out about hypersexuality, turns out thats why I'm how I am.

The fact I relate to this playlist because I have recently started to sexualize myself for some reason and I kinda hate it but yeah

thank you for this, as someone who is hypersexual after being repeatedly sa'd as a kid I'm glad I finally found a vent playlist I relate to.

Reading these comments are both extremely comforting (knowing theres so many other people who have had very similar experiences) and absolutely heartbreaking (so many other people having gone through these awful things), such a weird feeling

Lyrics for each song in the replies also thank you for this playlist. helps me feel a little less alone. I hope you're doing okay

I only got sexually assaulted like three times by men which actually should play a model role in my life and I often got looked at by random men, it's a struggle which every woman has to go through. I repress my hypersexuality because I saw how lots of women, even girls, get used for their bodies in the town where I'm living.

I'm currently 19 and I still deal with my hypersexuality. I've learned about things that no child should at a young age and have done things. I have parents who didn't take care of me enough. My Mother was always away elsewhere (and of which had access to objects and reading materials which was carelessly left open) and my Dad was always working. The only other adult who lived there, my Aunt, just mainly sat in her room all day instead of watching over me. I had no restricted access on the internet either. I feel so disgusted with myself and so helpless. I get my rocks off near daily and I end up feeling so drained, empty, and numb. It even lead me to discover and reach out to seek taboo content to get the dopamine going. Especially weird fetishes. I am always so lost in my fantasies and just have it on the mind constantly, even when I don't want it to be. I am so well at hiding it, apparently. They all think I'm so innocent. It hurts really. It pains me how just anything can get me to feel something. It's gross, sickening even. I just can't bare to imagine what my friends would think if they knew. I did also have some trauma that had also lead to this such as having an online relationship when I was 13-14, that lasted until I was 17. I've made stupid choices that I still regret to this very day, even if I know I'm not at fault for most of it.

Wow, Finally a fucking playlist that i dont feel like my frustration is being Glorified. Thank you

i literally only feel good about my body if i wear tight clothes but i still hate my body so i cover it by wearing long sleeves to cover my arms and chest but when i wear comfy clothes, i feel so unattractive

I don't feel safe sharing my experience with hypersexuality here but it's kinda comforting to know I'm not alone in this, even thought it's such an uncomfortable experience. It breaks my heart to know there are so many young persons in here going through similar things I went through. I hope things improve for you all.

when i was 10/11 i discovered sexual things and kinks and stuff and became addicted to wattpad ,otome games(if u dont know what that is its like dating sims and the ones i played where 18/19+ or just 16) i shouldn't have at that age,i stayed up all night reading wattpad and the occasional boyfriend nsfw audio at age 12,anything can make me think about it anything that has the slightest relation to kink,my own clothes, i stopped wearing childish clothes cause i didnt like them (i objectified myself to the point where i w anted to look like a adult),the first time i ever touced was when i was 11 and i felt disgusted and haven't done it since. im 14 now and still feel like im being watched,i feel disgusting and vile and unworthy of love..nobody understands and i hate it it theres no awareness cause when i say the internet raised me people usually think of creepy pasta and stuff..my life is ruined and its my fault

tw for; grooming + sexual abuse rambling will b in replies

issue: i dont want to be. but i am. and i blame the ✨internet✨

this. makes me feel so seen omg

I’m so sick of my body and I’m so sick of being perceived. I hate the way people view me and I hate the way I view myself. I constantly feel like I deserve to be treated like an object like I deserve to be dehumanized. I can’t stop fantasizing about finding someone to hurt me and mistreat me. And two days ago as of writing this I was taken advantage of in a way that was deeply personal and it’s fucking with my head. I did things for this person im ashamed of. My friends convinced me to block them because I mentioned that this happened. Even after my friends have told me numerous times I’m a victim and it’s not my fault I still feel like it is. I feel like I deserve to be used the way they used me. And I don’t know what to do about that

It took me years to realize this has been what I've been feeling since I was a small child.

I hate myself because I’m 14 and already hypersexualising myself and I just want to stop but I cant

I am both hypersexual and sex-repulsed, and have been SA'd in my past. This is so real.

I don't struggle with this as much anymore and am better now kinda but as a small child I struggled with this so much. It was so hard to struggle with this alone and felt so disgusting for it. I had been sa'd and it resulted in being overly sexual. I'm so glad I got better and listening to this playlist also helps me feel not alone and validating to my inner child. Now I just comfort other people who struggle with this. Tysm

I have always been disgusted with myself about my hyper sexuality. I'm only a kid and I think sexually about everyone, during class, someone looks at me weird, my own clothes pushing against me in a way. It always grosses me out. I barely touch myself, and when I do, I feel like I shouldn't, and that I'm wrong for even thinking about it. I was sexually harassed and assaulted when I was younger, didn't think too much about it, but I became almost obsessed with the idea of sex. I finally found someone to talk with about my feelings, and they don't think I'm a bad person for it, I'm so glad I have someone, everyone should have that.

The number of young people on here reporting being exposed to sexual content in childhood is really concerning.

When you finally realize that your grandma wanting to shower and take baths with you and just generally be in the bathroom while your naked or getting ready isnt normal. She also just says weird stuff about my body, like that I 'have a nice frame' or 'baby birthing hips' or that whoever I marry will be so lucky...its just weird..

I started watching explicit content when i was young 11 or 10 ,without my mom knowing,it became an addiction and i watched it everyday,i knew about kinks and all when i was 12,and till this day im 16 and i still find it hard to stop watching them,i never touched myself cause im scared but i cross my legs and do that literally everynight bc it helps me relax,im getting very disgusted by myself anything turns me on,even my clothes rubbing on my n!pples,im really struggling and cant stop,hope anyone who knows what i can to stop plz say.

I learned about sex when I was like 7 and me the girl who lives next door used to pretend we were doing it, I started touching myself at 9 and I had sex with a girl at summer camp that summer. I’ve been sexually harassed and assaulted throughout my life, and that plus the knowledge and exposure of it from a young age caused me to constantly hypersexualize myself, just try to convince myself that if people see my body as my only good quality at least people see something in me. I started giving adult men pictures of my body on Snapchat just so I could feel some kind of self worth

im just 12 and the amount of older guys that used me for my body is sad:/

MAJOR TW: EATING DISORDERS(specifically restrictive ones) (id like to preface this by saying im a trans guy lol i never wanted to look like the girls i compared myself too, it was more about fitting a beauty standard) So, a year ago this month id say was when my eating disorder started. i hadnt really thought much about my body(I was on the chubbier side as a kid and preteen) until i got bullied in middle school, constantly being called fat by my friends(i wasnt even close to obese either) so i just became kind of insecure? but nothing came of it. and then a lot more things happened as i got older, and i started to get more and more traumatized. i developed borderline personality disorder, and ended up in a codependant relationship online. when that person broke up with me and cheated on me, my mental state plunged, like hard. and i started taking comfort in online vent videos, like youtube videos and tiktoks, ect. and i stumbled upon a lot of people talking about having anorexia, body dysmorphia, and not thinking they were pretty enough ect. and i....i thought to myself "god theyre so pretty, i want to look like them." keep in mind, this was not about super bone thin, malnourished anorexics(the stereotypes). they were seemingly healthy looking(lots of anorexics dont look anorexic) beautiful people. so i started starving myself to be as pretty as these "normal" people and here i am a year from now.....not super skinny, not fat by any means...i definitely am attractive. but because i place my entire self worth on my appearance, i objectify myself a lot, to the moon and back lol. I'm in my later teens and very touch repulsed, asexual too, but if someone wanted to have sex with me id probably let them because i wouldnt really believe someone would want to have sex with me if that makes sense? i dont want to have sex, not really, but if people find me desirable in that way id practically throw myself at them just for that crumb of validation. i was exposed to sexual content at a younger age but i was so numb i just? it didnt register with me that much? but it probably has some influence on why i feel like this now. other than being harassed a few times by older men(not seriously just catcalling and the like) and a few scares where i thought someone might be stalking me, i've never been sexually abused or harassed, but sometimes in a sick way i wish someone would abuse me sexually so id feel validated in feeling so hypersexual. sex has to do with everything i do somehow. i cant even read regular books or fanfiction anymore because i get bored if someones not fucking lmao its so wild I type vents on youtube all the time but usually delete instead of commenting, but im feeling brave this time lol. Thank you so much for this playlist I dont think any other playlists sums me up as well as some of the songs here :)

I hope to anyone seeing this that you can heal and recover from this

I was harassed sexually when I was 9. I hypersexualize myself and I feel disgusting every time. This playlist lets me know that other people are going through the same things I am. Sometimes I avoid my parents because I’m so disgusting. Thank you for making this

TW VENT: being hypersexual really is the worst the intrusive thoughts the addictions i hate it sm. it even effects my dreams i really do wish i wasnt exposed to such awful content, i just wish i could avoid being groomed so often. im only a kid why do i have to go through this? its so painful.

Discovered porn at the sad age of 5 it made me, this 🙁 I'm do sorry to everyone who also experienced this

I’m in middle school and I sexualize myself to the point where I am assaulted on the regular. I hate when it happens but that’s all anyone wants from me. If it’s means they will stay, they can have all of me. I hate it. I hate it all.

Wanting so badly to be touched because its the only confirmation in my mind they love me but crying when it feels like thats the only reason they love me

Idk man... I'm hypersexual.. but I dont have any trauma that has to do with sexual abuse... Edit: i will never forgive my ex best friend for that

When i was 6 i found porn by accident and when i was 10 i got a addiction to watching porn ive seen it all i couldn't stop and last year i was sexually insulted and probably raped if its considered rape he touched me in all my private parts i was scared to not listen to him because i felt like he over ruled me and if I didn't listen he said he'll do inappropriate things to me i was traumatized for life i working to be better but it keeps reminding me

I'm here silently sobbing about all I've done to myself for years up to now and how I've wrongly responded to another who's dealing with this disorder. And over the countless others really struggling. I think I doing better and I hope others do too eventually. I'm so sorry.

I used to be so pure and I didn't understand what was being done to me. It was just playing pretend back then. Now I have nightmares, guilt, disgust, and shattering body dysmorphia. I can't stand my body and mind. No matter how hard I try to find solutions, they're only ever temporary, but so is this, right? I'm sorry to see so many people struggle with this, but at least none of us are alone. You're all beautiful and shouldn't feel ashamed of what you can't control. I'm so proud of you for making it this far, and you can make it so much farther. Love you all, and you have my best wishes.