I'm a catacuman from protestantism. I lived many years a dissolute life of all kinds of perversion and drug abuse. Got set free from all of that 2 years ago and have been sober and increasing in sanctification. Only was led to Orthodoxy less than 6 months ago and have only been to six or seven divine liturgies. I practice the Jesus prayer throughout the day and am inundated with Orthodox teaching in books and RU-vid. That said- I struggle constantly with the most horrendous blasphemous intrusive thoughts. Frequently. Even during the liturgy which I thoroughly enjoy and never miss, my mind is assaulted with horrible thoughts! I know that once I finish catechism and get baptized I expect to be delivered probably from demonic oppression. I don't know it's kind of a scary thought, I don't believe the demons are inside of me or I would not have gained as much victory over the passions and been as into Jesus Christ and now Orthodoxy as I have been. But they certainly mess with you the closer you get to God the more they mess with you. Just take heart! None of us are in this alone and the Lord will see us through
@@Im_No_Expert_72 glory to God that you are being led to the Holy Orthodox Church. Let me say this to you though, out of love. You did NOT have victory over the passions. You have not even began to. You are NOT increasing in sanctification. you need to stop saying that, you need to stop thinking that about yourself. These are prideful thoughts of prelest, which is spiritual delusion. This is the source of your demonic blasphemous thoughts. You need to humble yourself before you can even begin the spiritual life. You are still new to the faith, so please don’t take this in the wrong way, I’m just trying to help. Stopping certain sinful actions in your life does not mean that you had victory over the passions. Passions are sinful habits deeply rooted in the soul. Also, the demons often allow you to think you had victory in order to produce pride inside you. As a catechumen, you need to start from the very beginning. Understanding that you haven’t even begun to start the spiritual life and fight the passions yet. And start every day anew.
Elder Ephraim Pray for me, that I overcome my lustful actions, that I may submit my entire life to Christ, the messiah and son of God, Glory be to the Father, The son, The Holy Spirit now and ever, and unto the ages of ages, Amin.
Holy Elder Efrem - please pray for my paternal father Kostandinos (Constantine) as he is at his last breath As no man is without sin. Most Holy Theotokos save my father Constantine Holy Apostles, Saints and martyrs of Christ pray for Constantine Holy Archangel Michael, archangels, angels and guardian Angel of Constantine protect his soul Lord Jesus Christ have great mercy on my father Constantine Lord Jesus Christ have great mercy on all our wretched souls ☦️☦️☦️
Dear all please pray for my hindu wife and all my former vaishnava associates. Their heart is taken by one dead lustful who calls himself god. Please save us pray for us elder Ephraim pray for my wife
My father come visit me.like you always do. People think you are dead but you are alive and with christ. I am your witness. I love you my father elder efrem. When ever demons surround me you come and protect me. Help me please while you are in heaven. And the messages you gave me i will tell the world. Ok father. Your child. Kokobe krstos
