So glad to see that your back and doing so well Saren! I'm happy to see you made this video cause I relate to it so much. Right now I'm at the stage were I'm going to therapy (both one on one and group) and a big thing that comes up is what I'm looking for in my own transition. Right now I'm constantly dealing with dysphoria and I know that I eventually want top surgery as well as going on t but the big question is when? My therapist is ready to do a gender assessment so he can write me a letter to see an endo, but i'm always so hesitant to do it. I'm not out to anyone except one of my siblings and I think this is what is holding me back. I'm just constantly nervous and anxious about the idea of coming out to my family because i know that if I want any medical changes I won't be able to hide it from them since I do still live with my mom and unfortunately I haven't had luck with finding a job. I have no clue how they would react to the news really. I mean my mom is pretty opened minded, but I know in some cases people change when its your own kid. But I do know I need to do it soon because I'm growing so tired of hiding, so tired of hiding the fact of why I'm depressed or anxious some days. Well that was a lot lol. I apologize I wasn't going to go on a rant but I sort of kept typing. Anyways I'm happy you and the others of this channel are doing so well. All of you give me hope that eventually everything will be ok or moving towards being ok.
What you said about not making videos happens to me but not with videos, it's become one of my main dysphorias just like looking in the mirror and seeing my old self, even though I don't look like that anymore it's weird because I feel good about myself it's just odd days I feel like I haven't changed
