Pure as a Lamb - Baby Bugs 

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the last chorus is my favorite part like the realization of religious abuse and being forced to be perfect is so powerful and i can relate to it so much!

As a atheist who was born into an abusive Christian family this song brings back tragic memories of when i was abused for not loving a god😢

"i wasn't an object, i was a kid" resonates with me so hard. i didn't deserve that, and to all those reading, you didn't deserve it either. none of it was your fault, and i hope that you're able to heal the trauma that has been caused. you are not alone.

I’m a Christian but this song resonates with me because my ex tortured me for a year and made me into his “perfect” little child and wouldn’t let me escape and he convinced me that I would never be good enough for God and he made me think that I could never be clean and the years of purity culture that I grew up around made me feel that because of what he did I was unclean. I now know that’s not true and I’m trying to unlearn that but it’s hard for sure

"you watered your garden and i grew, but you destroyed me you grabbed me by the roots." real.

You made me who I am I read the books held mamas hand You told me I wasn’t worthy But god always has a plan They shaped and transformed me Into someone they’d liked to see A quiet modest young lady That’s who I was meant to be I’m pure, I’m pure I’m pure as a lamb I’m heavens little virgin Too holy for man I’m glass I’m fire I don’t know hate And that’s how I’ll get to the pearly gate I’m pure, I’m pure I’m pure as a lamb I pray every morning And as much as I can A whispered blessing is all I can say To keep the demons like you away Now that I am beautiful I wear what you want you saved my soul I have two ears for listening And I’ll keep doing what I’m told And I hope you’ll love me too But I don’t seem to be enough for you I’m killing myself slowly What else do you want me to do I’m pure, I’m pure I’m pure as a lamb I’m heavens little virgin Too holy for man I’m glass, I’m fire I don’t know hate And that’s how I’ll get to the pearly gate I’m pure, I’m pure I’m pure as a lamb I pray every morning And as much as I can A whispered blessing is all I can say To keep the demons like you away You watered your garden And I grew But you destroyed me You grabbed me by the roots You plucked my petals Just like the devil would do And If I’m going to hell I hope that you go too I’m pure, I’m pure I’m pure as a lamb I’m heavens little virgin Too holy for man I’m glass, I’m fire I don’t know hate And that’s how I’ll get to the pearly gate Now I feel dirty Look what you did I wasn’t an object, I was a kid And I’m scarred I’m mangled I am used And all of this because of you

Being told to stay pure for marriage and then getting SA'ed at 18 for saying no to a 25 year old man who had a r*pe kink and a penchant for body building and martial arts. This hits hard for me. ❤

Out of all your songs this one resonates with me the most, I can feel my inner child become at peace knowing I’m not alone.

This song gets me. I've always felt more like a doll to my parents than a child and it honestly really hurts that I can't be the daughter they wanted

I’m 54 and I’ve never experienced aa song that spoke my truth for me like this one. I literally wept driving down the road. I don’t know who you are brave baby bugs but thank you for this. It’s hauntingly beautiful and raw and real. You have a new fan. Xo. I pray you heal from the horror show that is a survivors reality and when our beliefs are mangled with it - what are we to do.

,,I wasn't an object, I was a kid"

The religious pain in this song is so powerful. And the last bit of the lyrics are so relatable, They outdid themselves with this EP.

the inclusion of the electric guitar at the end symbolizes the realization of abuse and the breaking up of the cycle. it's usually a "noisy" and "gritty" instrument, so adding it in disrupts the purity in an incredible way. great job!!

fun fact: this has the same chords (not progression) as an old sea shanty called 'jolly sailor bold' :3 also i love this song so much-

"You watered your garden And I grew But you destroyed me You grabbed me by the roots You plucked my petals Just like the devil would do And If I’m "going to hell" I hope that you go too." "Now I feel dirty Look what you did I wasn’t an object, I was a kid And I’m scarred I’m mangled I am used And all of this because of you" This.

This songs like something an ancient pagan deity forced to live in human form would sing while strolling through the woods

I grew up religous, not realizing that I was being manipulated into being this "good" girl. I realized one day that things werent adding up. At some point I realized who I really was. Im just now starting to feel so gross about my early childhood. I was groomed into being this quiet, obedient, innocent little girl. I know that if they ever realized who i rreally was, they wouldnt like it, but thats on them.

i don’t really have religious trauma, but growing up in religion has left me with certain fears and feelings and hearing it so well put into words, the necessity of purity, it makes it easier

I've never been Christian. I don't really have religious trauma. But I was severely fucked up by my Christian high school. I had teachers at my high school tell me there were demons inside me and even one teacher try to exorcise me. And so many teachers blamed me for the horrendous bullying I suffered there because I wasn't "a child of God" and that the other students were "just trying to protect themselves" or that the abuse I suffered from the only person who tolerated me was my fault because I needed to sick up for myself or that I should just go get different friends, even though everyone else hated me. Like there was 2 other people in the entire school who didn't hate me and one of them hung out with someone who did hate me...alot... and the other person who didn't hate me was also being abused by the same girl that abused me. Point of me saying this song is that it's healing, in a way.

With a church I was apart of getting exposed for horrible crap this is nearly a lullaby. I’m so glad I have ur music…it helps me feel less scared and more understood.

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this hits me off so hard. I still remember all the abuse i've lived. Thank you so much, baby bugs. You help me always to threat my traumas, and become a better person :,) .

As a teen whose had a tough childhood this song (and a lot of your other music) brings out all the water works. My parents divorced when I was young and I got stuck with my incredibly Christian, dad's side of the family. Before I was in school and during my years of elementary, my dad was always working so I spent most of my time with my grandparents, who are very traditional. And while that doesn't seem too terrible, I'm just now realizing how badly it's messed me up. I had Christianity forced on me, any beliefs I had belonged to my family and were instilled using fear and peer pressure. Because I grew up with a Christian family, I went to Christian school, I still do (hopefully that will change next year). All of what I experienced with my family continued at school. I first heard of LGBTQ+ during the beginning of middle school and realized I was probably part of it, I remember telling myself that as long as believed in God and never spoke his name in vain then I'd be okay. I ended up getting my heart broken by a girl in the end of 7th grade (sounds stupid, I know, but that shit MESSED. ME. UP.) and that's when I fully walked away from my faith. Going to this Christian school and being around my traditional family has been so.. suffocating.. The only time I feel grounded and really is when I'm hurting so bad emotionally that my heart physically aches. which, if you didn't know, is INCREDIBLY fucked up. There are so many other things I could mention about religious abuse and my experience and etc but if I wrote all of that it would be a book, so I'll stick with already long paragraph I have here. Long story short, there's nothing wrong with religion but don't force it on people, it pushes them away and can be traumatizing. And last but definitely not least, a very special thank you to Baby Bugs for being a lyrical genius and making all of our trashy experiences into hauntingly beautiful music.

I was never touched innapropriately, but I can be such a people pleaser. I've done so much for others who I feel wouldn't even do the same. I respect so many boundries, yet can hardly respect my own. So this song hurt me in a different way.. And by god, it hurt. The way I actually acted like this with my friend. His friend yelled at me, and he didn't even help. His friend called me a bitch. My newest friend has self harm issues, has tried overdosing, and has told me "If I text you 'I love you, I'm sorry.' then something's wrong." I want to be a good friend. But what draws the line between that and being an idiot. Update. 6/15/2023. So I had an entire meltdown because of the friend with self harm issues. Or looking for attention issues. I just snapped after they said [Insert what they said here because I'm not saying anything about it]. I cried for 20 minutes, I think. But I'm not going to deal with it, anymore. At least for a week. Or three. Or 20. Update. 7/5/2023. So, I'm going to try talking to that friend again, mostly because I miss them. I really hope that we CAN actually talk, but what if I regret this? I don't know. Maybe, in this situation, I'm leaning towards 'Idiot.' Update, 7/24/2023. Okay so this has become my public journal I guess, zamn. Update, 8/1/2023. So uhm more details on the event that happened a few months ago.. "No. I hang up, and then they called me back, and I just snapped and started sobbing and nearly yelling profusely, and I ended up hanging up again and blocking them everywhere, and crying in bed for a bit, and I still can't tell if I'm a bad friend or not for it, but I do feel a bit guilty for it because what if I shouldn't have hang up, what if that was a bad idea, maybe I was in the wrong, LIKE EVERY SINGLE TIME ANYBODY HAS GOD D_MN HURT ME BUT I CAN'T DO SH_T ABOUT IT OR ELSE I'LL HURT MYSELF ON THE INSIDE AND THEN JUST BLOW MY OWN HEALTH OFF FOR THE PEOPLE WHO'VE HURT ME EVEN THOUGH IT ISN'T EVEN MY JOB DUTY OR FAULT FOR THEIR ISSUES ANYWHERE AND I FEEL SO DEAD INSIDE BUT I KNOW IF I TRY DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT I'LL JUST CONSTANTLY TELL MYSELF 'Oh, you're just looking for attention, you're just trying to be quirky, you're the one in the wrong!' AND I'M SO FVCKING SICK OF IT I FEEL LIKE I WILL JUST SOB TILL I CAN'T FEEL ANYMORE I HURT SO BAD BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AND AT THIS POINT I'M JUST YELLING." Update, 10/16/2023. HAHHH, The first line "I've never been touched innapropriately." Guess what? _Didn't last._ I got my @ss pinched by some fvcking stupid girl at school who hates me for no reason, I hate people so much. Sometimes I question why I even want to be GOOD ENOUGH for people. Sometimes I just want to grab somebody by the shirt and yell at them with all of my heart, I'm tired. I don't even know how to put my feelings into words sometimes. I'VE CRIED TOO MUCH LATELY, I'M FVCKING DONE WITH BEING SUCH A PUSH OVER. I SWEAR TO GOD. I FEEL DIRTY AROUND HER AND I HATE IT SO. MUCH. Edit: 10/22/2023 I feel so fvcking selfish. People say it's normal. I don't want it to be. It's not even funny. I hate these fvcking slvts.

I don’t know why These songs are so calming I love the calm acoustic music with the sad lyrics It oddly makes me happy Edit: baby bugs music makes me want to create more characters for me to make pictures and stories in my head, I based a character off this song and I love it.

This song truly describes religious trauma perfectly

My new obsession is this song , even if I'm an atheist. But i associate this with one of my oc s ❤.love this.

"Stop being a gluttonous it's one of the seven deadly sins you'll go to hell" Im just finishing my plate mimi (grandma)

bro all these songs are SO REAL. the most relatable is “bandaids” and honestly its just so nice to have songs that i can relate to I LOVE U BABY BUGS 💗💗💗

Whattt two songs at once??? 😍

You made me who I am I read the books held mamas hand you told me I wasn't worthy But god always has a plan They shaped and transformed me Into someone they'd liked to see A quiet modest young lady That's who I was meant to be I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I'm heavens little virgin Too holy for man I'm glass I'm fire I don't know hate And that's how I'll get to the pearly gates I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I pray every morning And as much as I can A whispered blessing is all I can say To keep the demons like you away Now that I am beautiful I wear what you want you saved my soul I have two ears for listening And I'll keep doing what I'm told And I hope you'll love me too But I don't seem to be enough for you I'm killing myself slowly What else do you want me to do I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I'm heavens little virgin Too holy for man I'm glass I'm fire I don't know hate And that's how I'll get to the pearly gates I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I pray every morning And as much as I can A whispered blessing is all I can say To keep the demons like you away You watered your garden And I grew But you destroyed me Grabbed me by the roots Plucked my petals Just like the devil would do And If I'm going to hell I hope that you go too I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I'm heavens little virgin Too holy for man I'm glass I'm fire I don't know hate And that's how I'll get to the pearly gates Now I feel dirty Look what you did I wasn't an object I was a kid And I'm scarred I'm mangled I am used And all of this because of you

Tbh I’m only 11 and I love your music so much and the meaning behind everything.

I saw this on Instagram and immediately fell in love with the chorus ❤ it is as lovely as it is heartbreaking

Some more lyrics i made up: Im still and stout, just like a doll. Pretty combed hair, and a great big hope That when we're done, i can just go home yet you turn me around and take it slow Im pure im pure, pure like a sheep, following order you bark and reap. Thats all i got

I've had this on repeat for days now and it's become one of my favorite songs. It hits so close to home.....thank you for this!

despite being late to the EP release, i’m completely in LOVE with what’s been created. always am so impressed on how each and every song that comes out blows me away without fail

I don't know why but this song gives me absurd amounts of nostalgia I don't know why

i've been listening to your music on spotify since 2022 and I recently downloaded youtube i'm so glad this song exists lol❤

I found out about this song like 2 days ago and im in love

This song perfectly describes my childhood

a lot of people say this songs about religious trauma but imo its more about SA

My interpretation of this is something I've experienced with CSA, turning to religion in hopes of finding forgiveness that wasn't mine or their fault in the first place and the ending verse is realizing that it was their fault

Using this song for a storyboard for a school project! Amazing representation of religious trauma❤

Can’t believe you gave us 6 minutes of your incredible voice all at onceeeee 😭 we are well fed

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this hit a little too close to home. this is really beautiful

I absolutely love this song

This song becomes one of my favorites 💓

i'm seeing so many christian in the comments and here i am as a muslim with religious trauma and r@pe trauma feeling alone , i do not hate god , i do not hate my religion , i do find a certain pride in it but it hurt knowing my true nature and through and all what i learned , when i doubt it or go against it while trying to find peace i only hurt myself more and more , and oh r@pe..when the song started at the chorus of " i'm pure , i'm pure , i'm pure as a lamb !" i sobbed so hard because i was once pure and too holy for men. how much it hurts oh god..

OMG YAY

I'm finally trying to listen to your other songs after banging to Autotheist for several months and oh my god I adore your writing 💞

I WAS WAITING FOR THIS SONG TO BE OUT SO MUCH, I'M SO EXCITED!!

This song is pure gold 😍

This is one of the best songs

Y'all ever just sniff up water for no reason and then be like "damn, that was a bad idea. Lets do it again" ?

When a song makes you finally realise that you were religiously abused for most of your life: *oh...* Ps: This is a great song!

I love the melody, I love the text, I love everything about this song so much!! Keep going

Omg two songs in the same day we are so lucky!! Another great one!!! ❤

earlier today at school i was listening to this song, i love it so much

This is my new song to listen to over and over and over again ❤

This song slays so hard it’s genuinely insane

I don't think I've ever heard someone use their vocals like that except for myself (but I don't make music) and when I saw your Instagram post about this song and heard you sing it I knew I was a fan

Never have I related to a song as much as ths

I love this soo much! The first time I heard your music in soundcloud I fell In love!!❤

i always come back to that song

This is a masterpiece. Wow

This song is just so good.

I love this song so much

You made me who I am I read the books held mamas hand You told me I wasn't worthy But god always has a plan They shaped and transformed me Into someone they'd liked to see [Pre-Chorus] A quiet modest young lady That's who I was meant to be Little Simz Breaks Down The Meaning Of “Gorilla” [Chorus] I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I'm heavens little virgin Too holy for man I'm glass I'm fire I don't know hate And that's how I'll get to the pearly gates I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I pray every morning And as much as I can A whispered blessing is all I can say To keep the demons like you away [Verse 2] Now that I am beautiful I wear what you want you saved my soul I have two ears for listening And I'll keep doing what I'm told And I hope you'll love me too But I don't seem to be enough for you [pre-Chorus] I'm killing myself slowly What else do you want me to do [Chorus] I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I'm heavens little virgin Too holy for man I'm glass I'm fire I don't know hate And that's how I'll get to the pearly gates I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I pray every morning And as much as I can A whispered blessing is all I can say To keep the demons like you away [Post-Chorus] You watered your garden And I grew But you destroyed me Grabbed me by the roots Plucked my petals Just like the devil would do And If I'm going to hell I hope that you go too [Outro] I'm pure I'm pure I'm pure as a lamb I'm heavens little virgin Too holy for man I'm glass I'm fire I don't know hate And that's how I'll get to the pearly gates Now I feel dirty Look what you did I wasn't an object I was a kid And I'm scarred I'm mangled I am used And all of this because of you

Love this song

you know its agood day when baby bugs uploads

God your guys music is always so amazing! 💜🖤❤️

That song is absolutely wonderfull!!!l love it ❤

I just love listening to your music :3 Also i love the light pink on the angel! 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 It makes me feel more alive when drawing :3

YES!

i LOVE this song

this is so good im sobbing, thank you

I relate to this so much

Love it!!!

This is seriously SO pretty, like fr 💘 It sounds so beautiful, i love all of ur music and this one became my new favorite ♥️🌹

Wow,you have such a talented soul❤ i relate with lots of stuff in this song..

IM OBSESSED

LOVE IT 💖💕💕💕💖✨✨ AHHH I JUST CANT GET ENOUGH OF UR SONGS

I love the guitar for this song

AMAZING!!!!!

i love this!!!

THIS IS AMAZING!!!

ITS SO CATCHY 💗💗💗

SUCH A LOVELY SONG AAAAA

YESSSSS YES YES YES MY FAV

I LOVE THIS THANK U

This is PERFECT

Keep going you’re amazing and I love what you do ❤❤❤❤

FINALLY!!! I LOVE IT! YOU'RE AMANZING

There is a perfect double meaning, one is religious beliefs being forced on you with culpability by caretakers , that's the meaning she wanted to give it. And i can see also child abuse in any sense but mostly seggsual .

Babe wake up baby bugs ep just dropped

I been waiting for this it’s so good

WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

I LOVE IT I LOVE YOU IM SO EXCITED YOURE SO TALENTED 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️