PUTTING UP THE CHRISTMAS TREE - BROWNIE AFTER A BREAKDOWN - ANOREXIA RECOVERY - VLOGMAS 

banana m you sound like me!

yes, they will always be there! Thank you, Merry Christmas to you too, I am so glad the ED days are behind you!! Ahhh yes they are magical!

Elzani, you really are gorgeous!!! You have beautiful features. Anyways, looks aren't the only thing, your channel is amazing and you've helped me feel a little bit better about life. Happy Holidays!!!🎁❤🌲 xox Canada

yes that will be amazing!

I have to say, I get your point totally but when you say they get their hopes up and decisions keep failing it may be internalized by her that SHE is failing. I do hope she sees a psychologist as eating chocolate and family dinners doesn't mean recovery. Eating sweets and things is great but we all know anorexia is a mental illness too and that has to be dealt with by a professional

Dawny K In all honesty, psychologists don’t work for everyone. I tried, and only had one for two months. I recovered on my own, with my parents watching. So it is possible to recover without a psychologist, as long as you have people there to notice of you’re thinking badly

@@genius2655 I'm glad you recovered but this is uncommon to totally recover without professional help. It depends on your ED history, pysical health, mental state and more.

Dawny K i totally agree with you. I was inpatient for 2 months with multiple psychologists around me trying to help but for me it just wasn’t helping me at all because I was not determined to recover. It was only when I discharged myself against the doctors recommendation, that I was truly able to recover because I choose recovery myself and did it all by myself without any medical and or psychological attention. Recovery by yourself is totally possible but you have to be able to give your 100% to recover and for it to have lasting effects. But again everybody is different and others may need more help because they can’t take charge.

hey, thank you for commenting and that suggestion, baggy clothes are super comfy and indeed a must! I think I own more hoodies than anyone I know haha. But yes, it is incredibly hard to do things differently and I have said so so many times I will do it, my family got so fed up, you are right! But now I am giving it my all, I am still always questioning myself though. It's very confusing!

woooo, it was!! And it will most definitely be worth it!!

@@elzani6744 remember you're not alone in this! I'm in recovery too, and i know how hard it is, but we have to stay strong

hahahahah I literally couldn't stop laughing when I saw that, she is honestly so funny. I never know what she will say or do next!

Elzani she is hilarious. You should do a q+a with your family members sometime! Separate videos maybe. I’d love to get to know them! I’m sure your other viewers would love to as well 💕

I am so glad you like it! I really wanted to just show every day life and recovery! It was great to read your comment as I do always think I'm not doing well enough but also get the lost feeling too! I will most certainly keep pushing forward and challenging each day, it is so so true! Fear is good, and gets a lot weaker the more you face it!

they are so much fun, I am so glad I have them... Never a dull moment haha! Thank you, it is weird but to start with it's scary then you taste it and are like wow that's so good!! xx

Elzani they seem like a lot of fun!! yes, the taste is definitely worth it. thanks for documenting your recovery/ general life, i love your videos ❤️ lovely to see your personality coming out more as you get further into recovery, you’re amazing xx

thank you!! Ahhhhh the brownie was SO GOOD!

ahh I am so glad you like it! It was so fun putting up the tree this is literally what the whole of Christmas is like in our house haha I am very glad I am better than last year so I can enjoy it more, and I can't wait to have the best time ever woooo!! I am so lucky!

Not forced at all haha, I guess that's how weird we all are if it seems that way!

Elzani - def does NOT seem forced at all....I would imagine someone is jealous of the good time your family is having!

thank you, I love it! Wish it was a year round thing haha!

thank youuuu! I want to do even better, I will definitely keep it up! Thank you so much, have a great Christmas too! xx

Merry Christmas to you too!!

yaaaaay!

yeah we do love Christmas so much! Ever since I can remember, Christmas has been very well celebrated and it is sooo awesome!

wooo I am so glad you like them, thank you!! I hope you are having a nice Christmas too! xx

I am so glad you liked it! Thank you, Merry Christmas to you too I am sure you will have the best time ever woooo! xx

they just can't help themselves hahaha poor Dad living with a load of girls... Hey at least he has Brady haha

i'm not at all, you are too lovely that is such a kind comment xx

Elzani I just love your vlogs soo much! I’m from Australia and it’s summer here and I’m soooo envious of the beautiful winter you guys have over there in the UK!

it is awesome, and it definitely isn't the same is it the smell is incredible!! But candles are so great and Christmasy, I am glad you aren't missing out on the smell 100% haha! It was so much fun!! Hey, maybe you could get a small real tree, if they do them!

@@elzani6744 ooo small tree is a good idea! I'd make it a personal one just to put in my room, so I might have to go out looking 🤗thanks for the idea!

I will!! xxx

it is a great tree! I am glad you like it and that it makes you want to try more things, because trying things is so fun! You should deffo get a Cadbury bar, Cadbury's is the best! xxx

@@elzani6744 I'm going shopping Monday and I'm definitely getting a cadbury bar or 2 LOL! XXXX ♡ :)

I am having the most amazing Christmas thank you! I hope you are too xx

Elzani thanks :* I am a bit rocky as recovery always is but good xx

yes that is so true, Christmas is the greatest and I will eat everything I like, it is hard but once you do the hard things it becomes so much easier, so I can't wait for it to be even easier yaaaaaay I am sooo excited for Christmas and the future and LIFE! xx

I believe she is. One is 17 and the other one 14 and shes 20 or 21

It might be triggering for her..

I always question whether I am giving it my all... I feel I am but then I also feel I am never trying enough..

@@elzani6744 im no expert, but i can tell that your stuck in recovery and that ok for a period of time. but as you say yourself you can't "waste" more time on this illness since it gets your literally nowhere. your too fixated on food and almost worship it which isn't right. yes your main focus should be to work with your food but also normalize it like normal people. Normal people don't worship a piece of brownie like you and many other anorexics do as if it was your last piece of cake that you were ever going to be eating in your lifetime. Your just in the beginning of recovery and therefore you need to make every possible change in your routine that you can think of, even though it may sound scary or impossible. Your goal is to gain weight and i literally does not matter how fast or how much (unless it is very little) you gain it just has to be done. Restricting your cravings and not breaking your anorexic routine just means that you will be sticking to those bad behaviors even after your are weight restored and that would just mean that your psychological health hasn't changed at all. You have come a long way and you should be proud of yourself, but you have to make changes now, not tomorrow not next week now :)

@@annabelwilliamson8662 i totally agree :)

Elzani however well or not well it’s going you are ALWAYS giving it your all. Xxxxx

Satara looks younger

no they're not, Satara is 14, Alisha is 17!

or am I early

;)

@@elzani6744 oh hi ❤ *thankyou kyou for your comment* ❤

@@elzani6744 😁