Everything feels dull and then I have this moments of sharpness. Real feelings. Laughing with friends on a party, the pain I feel when I'm in the gym. Before going back to dullness I go to these videos to feel real for a little longer. I cry to not feel nothing.
my online friend (my only friend) who was the only person i had blocked me on everything (they never told me why and i’ll just think about it for weeks probably months and i’ll never forget about her)
@@bluehaven8472 she unblocked me this morning and told me her mom goes thru her phone but she was obviously lying but i also just want a friend to talk to so i forgive her
It’s ok. I had a friend the only person I had in my life block me n never said y just ghosted m3 it’s been a year now I still think abt her. I still have no friends since but what I’m learning it’s okay to be alone, once you learn to enjoy your own presence you aren’t really alone. Ik it hurts but it’ll get better. ❤️❤️❤️
I love that through corecore, people discover Aphex Twin. I'm going into music production, and this guy is literally my hero. Although you guys might only know him for certain tracks, he really is a very varied artist. You could go from the boiler room of hell to the top of the Himalayas if you put his music on shuffle. Corecore as a whole is a great movement, and I'm glad Aphex Twin sounds it.
One of my closest friends, one of my very very first friends killed himself not too long ago And ever since then, ive felt so fucking lonely, because he was really the only person in my life that really truly cared about me and made me feel worth it, and now he is gone And i dont know what to think
i feel like i change too much, cant stay one person for a long time. The "nothing worse than being alone with ur own thoughts" clip couldnt be more true, i change as soon as i feel any sort of human connection its like a crave it to be happy and as soon as the interaction ends and we're all on our way i just snap back to the same old lifeless me. i do not believe im being fake or disingenuous. Just a side character in somone elses story. I accept this, and i'll have to move forward come what may and maybe someday i can live the life i truly wanted
There is nothing wrong with changing a lot, I personally struggled with that for a while, it made keeping friends and relationships very difficult, but I began to understand that it may just be in my nature to change. I also noticed that despite all this change I was inacting or experiencing around me I stayed the same, I was my own constant in a world of change I was always able to love myself and be happy with just me once I accepted that that was all I had if everything else disappeared. I say all of this to you not to mean that I or you cannot add to our lives and learn to build stable realms for ourselves and the people we care about, I say this because if you want to change anything in you the first step is always to accept where you are at and who you are. I hope this helps.
At the core of everything is a deep stillness, transient, like nostalgia, yet infinite and unknowable. We live everyday ignoring it, just trying to live our lives to the fullest. But we all know it's true. Everything will come to an end one day. The entire universe we know and love will be gone and forgotten, forever, leaving us no recourse other than questioning why it even began in the first place.
they say "don't give up, you almost there/did that". did what? like bro i don't even control my addictions. i don't even know what am i doing. it feels like you already dead and pushed the "observe" button in game. what am i supposed to do?
i dont show any emotion, except smile or laugh with friends i see once a month, while in reality i just stay up till 4 am everyday and wake up at 6 just to be made fun of the things i say by people at school. So i like to be alone, and this gives me joy yet i still feel emotionless
I think a bunch of people need to realize that finding peace from simply movie characters that go through some stuff isnt enough. Saying "literally me" to a clip from the joker movie aint gonna do shit to make you happier. If you've lost someone, you dont have to move on and try and find a replacment for them. Try out new things that make you happy, gardening, reading, writing. If its a problem with friends being assholes. Leave them. Go to your local library and find a small reading club and try to introduce yourself to them.
I wish she didn’t leave me. I have no socialization. My friends all hate me, I failed my grandparents, my dad, my mom, 4 days before my birthday this year my mom told me to kill myself, my ex was my only happiness most of the time. I’m tired of feeling numb everyday, im tired of waking up and not doing anything with my life. I just want to die, But I know I’ll never have the courage, I know I’m to scared, I just want things to get better. I’m only writing this incase someone in the comments just wants to talk. Needs a pick me up, or needs to relate.
Hey man, sorry to hear that you are going through this. No one else seems to have paid any attention to your comment so I just want yo show that I know that you're going through a rough time. I am doing fine in life, im just here to tell you that I wish you the best of luck in life, and that if it wont go well in this life, then it sure as hell will be better in the next life. Keep pushing and don't give up.
I’m just numb I can’t even cry anymore it just doesn’t come out I can’t remember what it was like to be happy or not have to deal with anxiety or paranoia, I also got told by a girl I barely know I’m gonna die alone which was nice :)
Im usually a funny guy (at least thats what i think) but people don’t want to be around me. Even old friends once had some trouble with me and they never stay. Recently I decided that i wanted to help one of my female friends get better from a breakup by buying clothes and fooling around at the mall but one of her ex’s friend saw us at the mall and thought i was getting romantic with her. So then she decided to cut me off block me on everything and all i did was try to help her. But something just happened when she blocked me. It was different this time and i was filled with anger and hatred for anyone who i trusted thinking they might let me down as well. The bible helped me recover. God blessed me with happiness at that moment when i realized that i shouldnt worry over friends. Although you may be lonely, sad and full of hatred. You are never alone. You have yourself and God to keep you company. I hope everyone here gets somewhere in life.
Hello. I dont think i will ever comprehend how hard and painful it must be to witness someone so close to you just kill themself. But i know that it must be one of the worst kinds of pains in the world. I hope that you feel better now and that you can recover. Im rooting for you man, help yourself!
Everyone in the comments seem to be either heartbroken by someone or lost someone. My problem is me. There’s nothing people can do to me that i haven’t already done to myself
Entropy is real. You can try to tune it out by seeking temporary happiness, religion, validation etc but we all go stiff in the end. Its better to be acclimatized to mental pain, solitude, despair so that the end wont come as that much of a suprise.
Brothers and sisters,Jesus is the answer, seek Him Earnestly all of you who are tired, depressed, or anxious. and you will reap His rewards. Be patient and follow Him. He is the way, the truth, the light, He is worthy. Talk to me if you need to I’m always here. You will make it another day, my word to you❤🙏🏻 (Ephesians 2:8-9, Matthew 11:28, John 14:6)
You know what: I have been an atheist my whole life but in recent times I have longed for the things that religion offers you: A reason why you are alive and a purpose to fulfill. I just can’t get myself to believe in God. I don’t see him existing, I really can’t and I wish I could just shut off my brain, forget the years as an atheist and be something. Muslim, Christian I don’t care, I just wanna have something to rely on, know that somebody loves me regardless of the shit I do because I know that the people who love me now wouldn’t love me anymore if they knew what I was doing. I don’t know what to do with my life and honestly I don’t want the things that it offers me. I don’t want anything but to be sincerely happy and love myself but I can‘t. If this shit continues I am gonna end it.
@@jorisbuter1524 For one my friend I love you, and I want you to keep that in your head forever. In my eyes you are created by God and you have a value that you could never take away. And even though you don’t have a plan, He has a plan for you, though you don’t believe in Him, He believes in you. Two never shut off your brain for a second, always be open and skeptical but accept what you know as truth. I believe in Jesus Christ because of the reliable testimony of the 1st century followers who wrote the Gospels, who witnessed His death and resurrection and who died on that belief. The structure of the gospels and the moral soundness of its teaching convicts me that it is indeed true. And if not for God, can we truly define morality? I am always skeptical and take every question into account. But with each question verse and problem I must look at the context, and conclude what is true *reasonably*. Look into the gospels of Jesus and make that important decision for yourself. Of course I have reasoning on why I wouldn’t be Muslim, a few would be that Muhammad claims to have known the life of Jesus yet came 500 years after. The corruption of the life of Muhammad is evident in that he gained power money and a lust for women. And worst of all there is no hope in Islam, but a reaching feeling for salvation. I tell you today that if you confess with you mouth and believe in your heart of what Jesus did you’ll be saved. (Romans 10:9) He died for you, and not only will I testify for the works done in my life, but take the testimony of the gospels, the 400 in 1 Corinthians 15, and the millions around the world. Really if you are considering taking your life please reach out to someone you love or if not them, talk to me. But most of all call out to God. I called to Him and I knew He was there, my problems went away with time and effort, but He met me where I couldn’t go anymore. He is faithful, just and good. And He does truly love you. God bless you my friend ❤️
@@jorisbuter1524 for one keep in your head always that I love you and I don’t even know you, I want the best for you in all your circumstances because I know God wants this too. Number two never shut off your brain, truly if you do this then you will get no where, but consider everything in your reach. I believe Jesus Christ is the Way the Truth and the Life, that no man will get to the Father but by Him. That being said I believe this because of the reliability of the testimonies of John Hames Matthew Mark and Luke from the 1st century. This and the 400 in 1 Corinthians 15 and the fact that they all died believing in this. It’s remarkable, especially since crucifixion was a long and painful death, yet this would often be the punishment for Christians then. Why would they die if they knew it was a lie? Psychologically it wouldn’t make sense. I think God is evident in that all of creation exists, and I believe God revealed Himself via Jesus Christ to die for our sins and rise again, making us able to walk free from our sins and know our creator through the mediator which is Jesus. Jesus to me stands out from any other ideological figure as well, Muhammad when he lived gained many things that to me seems odd, corrupt and flat out evil, the biggest example being his wife which was still a child. Buddha died and was still searching for answers, and Hinduism in all honesty is confusing with 3 million different gods. These religions have one thing in common that Christianity doesn’t: and kts that they demand you to be good enough. Christian’s must acknowledge that we’re not good enough to go to heaven, reading the gospels we know this, and ultimately we are at the mercy of God. But He made you, He is patient, and he is undeniably loving. Salvation is for today, We’ve all sinned and yet Jesus came to wipe it clear. Without Jesus our sin would still remain, but He offers forgiveness and through the death of His Son we are forgiven. That we may walk in light, forgiveness, with an unshakable Hope for Heaven and the futures of our brothers and sisters. I do truly care for you, and if you are contemplating anything please reach out to someone, If there’s no one you know, then I’m here to talk as well. But most of all give it to God, He saved me in this way, and I do believe He can and will save you too. It didn’t happen over night, but eventually I was able to get out. He’ll meet you where you’re not able to go on any further. Much love, God bless ❤️
What do you do when you have nothing to do in life and almost no friends. Just nothing in life. But you wan to do something much. But there is nothing to do and even did you tried to something. For example go on a drive somewhere, but you have no car cause a recursive needs it. And it been at 3+ months since they needed it. What do you do. When you’re in that problem. It not like I’m depressed, suicidal, or just fucked up. It just like. What can I do with my time. I’m 18 in high school and I’m trying to figure out wtf to do with the rest of my school year.
Sometimes I forget how being happy is. I always be alone, can’t make friends, neither talking to people I can’t open up even therapy wont help me I can’t open up. It’s that on promise that will never ever come true. I see other people happy neither me because people see me happy but no im sad. Social media gave most people depression even games and those apps is TikTok, Roblox, Instagram, Minecraft But RU-vid has the most respect for people but people say RU-vid has the worst people but theirs are more worse that RU-vid. Even if your afraid of death you still want to die to escape your suffer. It’s like everyday is always the same like your drifting in the sea. There are only small people who care about someone’s feelings. Nobody cares about someone’s men’s mental health but women sometimes hate men because other men treat her badly so sometimes women are right or wrong. But remember, Jesus loves you more that anything ever, End of my speech.
I can tell you why you feel this way. During your childhood probably at 7 years old the society butlers criticized your instincts so hard, maybe not verbally but emotionally or you might have felt their own instincts that you decided they are bad and tried to suppress them, which in turn created a huge gap with self identity. Since you did not know how to communicate with society without your own instincts you had to develop ways to and yet they still did not like you because the interaction was not genuine. Humans can just feel that, I am not telling you to blame yourself or them. We all just need better guidance towards communication at a young age so we do not copy our parents so much since the exposure to social constructs is way higher these days, sadly usually what happens is that parents go a bit insane when raising children from young age since it is a new, novel thing to them. Id advise some sort of public facilities for all children within their communities to combat this dilema.
My girlfriend passed away a month ago from cancer. she was the only person I truly felt connected with and now she’s gone and I feel worse than I ever have in my 16 years of living.
im so so so so incredibly lonely i have absolutely nothing i dont have friends family dont speak to me every girl ive loved has walked out on me no matter how hard i tried i work nights 4 times a week i smile to hide everything ive been on antidepressants for 4 months and they dont work my grandma died day after halloween my only friend the only person who got me died of a heart attack three weeks later the beginning of this year i found out my mum has 5 years at most too live my girlfriend left me a week after valentines day cause she couldn’t love me anymore because i treat her better then anyone else has i have nothing literally nothing
All disconnected All discontent All auto-piloting All grieving about the past All (over)thinking Rarely anyone ever is taught or learns what it really *is* to achieve, how one achieves, all the manual, hard labor that goes into it Those who manage to self-learn those, turn into great men
Formally, corecore content on TikTok stitches together seemingly unrelated clips-whether culled from news footage, social media, films, livestreams, memes, or whatever else in the media ether-set to often somber music, to convey new meaning and emotion through juxtaposition.
I really just lost everything and you might say I haven't because I still have family and friends but the truth is she was my everything. And now its gone.
8 months ago a girl used me and then threw me away, then I tried to be with another girl and it was the same result and now I find the girl I want but I have to leave the country where I live for 3 years. my God...
Boys, I'm telling you this. No matter how alone you feel, how much you feel unloved, or that no one understands you, God is there for you. His love is what saved me from my dark place and I pray you can feel his love too. I know it can be hard sometimes to accept him--or just believe in him-- so if you need any help just lettme know, and I will happily give you my number and we can talk.❤
Change how you see the world, in any positive way, no matter how small at first. It takes practice, but the aim goal is gratitude. I'm working on this currently... Once you do pay attention, you'll begin to notice a strangers smile or kindness more and more often. Until the day will come where you are having an authentic positive interaction with a stranger. The world is a mirror