Soft White underbelly update interview and portrait of Matthew, a recovering "functional" heroin addict originally from San Francisco now in a rehab in Orange County, California.
Matt if your reading this I want you to know your the reason I'm sitting here in cold sweats trying to kick the damn pills. Thank you. You inspired me sir. Much love from Fort worth Tx
Watching this series back to back its so clear to see the difference in this guy. Ep 1) High, okay with it, but very high. Ep 2) A man at the end of his rope, struggling with keeping up with the addiction. Ep 3) A clean man who can think and see clearly for the first time in a long time. I've never felt more proud of a complete stranger. ❤
I don’t think those are the differences between the videos. He was never okay with it, he just didn’t dwell on the negative as much in the first video.
Matthew, that woman offered to help YOU because she saw your potential and believes in your recovery. We all heard how badly you wanted to escape addiction in the second video and we’re all rooting for you.
@@MarketDaemon as he's talked about his multiple and consistent relapsing on other channels, you can't really say he's been sober can you? In every single one it's an excuse about how this led to his relapse this time and he's going to be better, but then he's right back to relapsing just like every other addict. Yeah I guess he's recovering (over and over lol) but you can't really call yourself a recovering addict when you are still going back to drugs. Dude just likes to be on RU-vid
I agree.....we need more counselors who (unfortunately) have real world trauma and can connect with traumatized people. I think back to when I was a teenager, I would have looked at a counselor who had lived on the streets, been an addict or had mental health issues as someone who can TRULY understand what I was going through. It's hard, sometimes, to connect to or open up to someone who really has no idea what you are going through.
@@cdr861532 one of my principals grew up in the streets. He was emancipated at 16. Lived in an abandoned house until he was old enough to join the military. He was my favorite principal. He gave me many chances and i probably wouldn’t have graduated without his help. Unfortunately he smoked weed with some students and lost his job. Not a good move but still a good principle. I never got any pedo vibes off of him
I really love this mini series on Matt, I really love listening to him, and if he ever started a podcast or channel dedicated to recovery and addiction I would watch that often. He just made an hour of conversation breeze by like it was 5 minutes. Hope he is doing well
The lady that reached out saw what we all so, YOU DO DESERVE THIS! Keep kicking this addiction ass! We are all rooting for you! YOU'VE GOT THIS, WE KNOW IT!💝
@@MatthewAndrewDrake congratulations! I have 3 1/2 years of recovery 100% clean from opiates and suboxone, or any mind altering substance. I recently started a job at a treatment center. Recovery IS possible and it’s better than you could’ve ever imagined!! Just do the right thing in every single situation that life throws at you, and put one foot in front of the other. Good luck on your journey.❤️
Matt is still in a vulnerable situation, he is searching for stability. I can hear it in his voice. Everyone is trying to caution him & scare him into staying sober. Stay strong Matt, just find the strength you know you have & hold your own. You have a purpose, whether it be helping the next generation of drug users to get clean & using your story to let them know there is hope.
think the priority first and foremost should be reducing death counts, there are various opis that are far, far safer than things like H or fent, most notably though the deaths are particularly severe when it comes to fent. Buprenorphine is a very safe opi in the sense that from a toxilogical perspective, you can't feasibly OD on it to the point of death on its own, whereas fent is easily within the margin of accidental OD, which most people don't know this, but this is actually a very rare thing, where a substance is actually not hard at all to accidentally OD on to the point of death.
These videos are why I can't look away from this channel. Even if it's 1% of the people Mark interviews that get clean, it's so worth it. Even if these interviews don't get nearly as many views as the ones w hardcore addicts in the throes of addiction. I will watch the recovery videos every single time. They are awesome. Thank you Mark and thank you to the woman who financed Matthew's recovery program.
I agree on the 1% remark. It means the world to the mothers, fathers, siblings or children of the person who gets clean. It can make or break a family.
He’s exactly the sort of person I wanted to talk to when I got off heroin. All I had were preachy people who told me I had to follow the steps or I’d fail. Well, i didn’t follow the steps and I didn’t fail, so listen to yourself sometimes. I ditched a 12 year addiction to heroin after it became utterly boring. This guy is great and I hope he goes onto great things.
I’m the same way. I absolutely hated NA. Very judgmental group. Also very well said about it getting boring. What a lot of people don’t understand is that when you’re deep into heroin addiction you don’t use to get high, you use just to fight off withdrawal. Not wanting to ever experience withdrawal again is my main motivation to stay clean. As I’m sure you know full well, it fucking sucks haha.
@@AaronStark1993 yep, I was forced to go to NA by the court, twice a week for a year. I went and I stayed clean for nothing other than to get a felony dropped. If I stayed clean I’d end up with zero jail time and just an OVI on my record or I was facing the OVI plus felony possession and time in jail. The drive to stay out of jail was more than my drive to use. But I absolutely hated NA. I hated everyone there who treated me like I was less than them because I didn’t participate in their cult like chanting together and praying and stuff. After I got off probation and court was done I was back using for another 6-7 years. Finally got clean last year, relapsed a couple of times and now have about 6 months clean. Everyone around me including my counselor that I have to see to get my suboxone says I should be “throwing myself into the recovery community” AKA go to NA or AA. I have no interest in going back to a place that makes me honestly feel like using because I feel like everyone is looking down on me. I’m doing it my way, and it’s working, for the first time in 14 years I’ve been clean of hard drugs for a reason other than court and being on probation. Keeping my 3 year old daughter is more important to me than hard drugs, I’d rather dedicate my life to her to stay clean than dedicate it to NA.
Def not for everyone. Personally didn't work but they key thing that I learned from it is you need something to fill the void. So whatever that is find it and keep busy.
After I got out of detox I was doing the work trying to straighten out. So someone fixed me up with a psychologist for counseling. She asked if I had a 12 step program to attend and she had a list for me if I didn’t. I told her I wasn’t going to go to one because I had been decades earlier and is wasn’t for me. I can’t stand all the whining. She told me I would fail. When it was over she told me to make an appointment on my way out. I didn’t. Ten years later I’m still good. Been to a few meetings as support for a friend but that’s it. Nothing against 12 step programs but I’ve seen a lot of people become addicted to them in a way. Swore off therapist’s too.
Man...everytime this guy breaks down it gets to me. I am not saying I am surprised he is a good guy because I've seen all the comments and I know most addicts are still good people. But I think genuinely this guy has a ton of empathy and really cares about himself and others. I truly wish him the best and hope he is doing well.
Matthew, you deserve this opportunity to change the course of your life. You have ALWAYS been deserving. Always. Try not to feel guilty about the others who need, want and deserve help. When they are ready they will find a way to help themselves. Your energy’s focus must be on you for now and when the time is right you can help and support others. I totally believe in you. Your tender heart…moves me and many others and we all want the best for you. You determine what that will be. Sending you peace, love and strength. One day at a time… ❤️🇬🇧
@@MatthewAndrewDrake oh my goodness!!! Absolutely. You have an incredible soul. Don’t stop fighting! I’m 6 years clean off IV meth and Xanax. My life is so much brighter! And I want to see you interview in the future and see how you’re thriving
Yes you do deserve it bc u r the one putting in the work and healing! So many daily decisions u are making to better yourself! Soo many positive steps. 💗💞
@@MatthewAndrewDrake I hope you are still fighting the good fight and staying clean💜 You are such a kind soul and SO deserving of this opportunity 😊 You have such a promising future ahead and the world is yours! I wish you nothing but the best!
I hope you’re still sober and doing well Matthew (: everyone is so proud of you. I’m late to this journey as I’m new to the channel but you’ve touched so many people and you deserved this chance
@Ben Daves really? Cause on the paid forum I'm on Mark commented about 9 days ago and mentioned his unsuccessful stay at rehab. If he's back in rehab as of now, that's great, but as of 9 days ago, it didn't sound too good🤷🏽♀️🙁
I lost both my parents to addiction, my dad to alcoholism & my mom to heroine. Despite what I went through as a child I feel so deeply for people that struggle with addiction, it is not just a choice once you’re addicted. I wish my parents could of had the chance to get the same treatment or even just watch this channel but everyone’s story is written differently and I am just beyond happy to see someone who struggled with the same problem get help & get better. I know i’m late but I pray to God this man is still sober & doing amazingly. He’s so worthy of all the help he’s received and I’m so happy that we’ve had the chance to witness his story.
This is absolutely fantastic. Mark you are a HERO and the work you do with this channel is outstanding. Matthew, though I am just some rando off the internet, brother I am so proud of you. ❤
@@MatthewAndrewDrake put your recovery above all else and you will not fail. Get to meetings stay humble and take it one day at a time love from England 🇬🇧
Even if no one else who has ever told their stories to Mark gets help or gets well or gets out or moves on or lives the life they deserve to live... This story makes the whole thing worth it. I hope he knows he has so many people rooting for him.
Hardly recognized him without the beard and long hair. Looking good Matthew keep up the hard work bro it will be wit worth it in the end. You’re inspiring me and I’m sure thousands of others out there as well to take those first steps into sobriety and a better, happier life
The photo made me think of a young Mickey Rouke before all the boxing and surgery addiction that is lol, Rumblefish or Barfly era Mickey. Handsome chap.
I'm so happy to see this follow-up.. I'm new to this channel, but discovered it through Matthew's first interview because it's a similar story to mine. As a "functional" user, I was on and off methadone for 5 years (smoking heroin for 8). I'd eventually be using while simultaneously increasing my daily dose up to 60-80mg for months at a time, then go to quitting the program entirely, to changing clinics and doctors, to being clean while only staying at 30mg and having a week's worth of carries for months at a time. I finally found the right doctor for me, and stopped using, so I had all my carries and began weaning down from 30mg. Over the course of about a year, I weaned down a few Mg each week, to 0.5mg for the last month or so, and one day just stopped taking my dose. I am proud to say I've been clean for just about 3 years now, but I also think about the struggle still being had by all the people I knew who were not able to commit to the program. I was told by my doctor that nobody in my town had "graduated" the program like I did. Which strangely makes me feel lonely in that battle. Your success so far helps me feel a little less lonely, and it comforts me to think it can make others feel hopeful in their journey wherever they might be.
I've seen all of his videos, and even though he seemed really happy or high in the first one, he looks really happy in this one. Addiction is an everyday, every minute battle, but even US addicts deserve to be happy. You never know why someone turns go drugs. I've been an addict for 32 years and in recovery for 10. Recovery is possible and everyone deserves it!! So good luck!
As someone who worked as a Detox Technician in a Detox House for years, and saw it all, I'm so proud of Matthew. The struggle of mental illness, and drug addiction is real. Wishing yku the best. You deserve it. One moment at a time.
I'm SO SO PROUD of you!!!!! I just got out of rehab. I've been 94 days clean from Heroin. I had only been doing H since last summer. I'm extremely grateful to have gotten help a yr in and not 10yrs etc. They made me RA for the womens house a month into my recovery..That made me feel so good inside that they saw the potential in me to be trusted by staff. Being RA wasn't easy but I enjoyed doing it. I'm finding myself again and like you I'm so grateful to not have to go hide to take a hit. Keep up the great work my friend. To the women who helped him get help...THANK YOU for helping others. God bless you
@@Tata-iu3fy I am doing great!! I'm 217+ days clean. I have so much to be grateful this yr this Thanksgiving very grateful to have gotten the help and that im still clean. That was my first rehab and I pray its my ONLY rehab in life. I'm not giving up or giving in after so many days clean. Thank You for asking Tata. Have a great New Year and Merry Christmas Tata 🦋🤗💕✌
Congratulations, Matthew. I seriously laughed out loud when you said you got a $50 Target card. Your sweet sincerity and appreciation of the gift touched me. You are deserving of the gift of recovery that you were given from the CO lady & not everyone has the courage to get clean, but you do! I know you’ll pay it forward. As someone else commented, I’m just some rando off the internet, but I’m in agreement that I too am very proud of you & wish you all the success & happiness in that you so richly deserve! ❤️
This is the best of your series I've seen so far. Congratulations Matthew, so proud of you. My heart is joyful and this intelligent young man is an inspiration to others. Blessings to you.
I watch these videos all the time. This brought me such joy seeing he changed his life. Congratulations 🎉🎉 Everyday gets easier. I promise 🙏. I was an opioid addict for 20 years. I have over 3 yrs clean now!!!!. Life gets amazing!!💯❤️👐👏🙏👍
It’s never to late to pursue a new career, I went back to college at 35, I’m 38 next month and studying to be a social care worker after being in photography for 10 years! I hope to work in the area of addiction
I'm stoked for you Matt. It's amazing how much you've evolved throughout these 3 interviews. Even your voice is brighter. "Matthew's Trilogy" is awesome.
Literally best thing I have seen in so long. As an addict that spends every day struggling to stay in recovery, so much of this series spoke to me and I don’t have words for how happy I am for Matthew and how in awe I am of this woman that has completely changed his life. I am so incredibly inspired by both of you. Keep making the world a better place.
Holy smokes, this is Mathew 😯, WOW!!!!!! You look amazing 👏 and sound amazing. One step at a time, its all good. Look how much you have accomplished already. I hope you are receiving counseling, yo help especially with the survivor guilt that you are experiencing. You truly deserves this *big hugs* It's soo good to meet you again and I hope to see more interviews in the future.
Look at the kindness of others who watch this channel. I'm not surprised. Just thankful of the lady who decided to help this young man to get clean and paid for his treatment. Bravo for her kindness and generosity. So very proud of this young man. Thanks Mark❤.
I just finished Matthew's 3 interviews. I hope he's doing well, he seems like a good person and deserves to have a good life. Thank you to the subscriber that hooked him up.
I'm so proud of him. His sincerity eminates and its beautiful. Thank you Matthew! I've never had a dependency issue, but your story moves me ever the same. Keep killing it, something good is coming your way I can feel that.
So proud of him for getting clean. It's amazing to see how much empathy he has for literally everyone. I hope he lives a long and prosperous life! YOU DESERVE THIS AND SE MUCH MORE❣
Matthew,I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! Excepting that ladies offer, was one of the best decisions you could of made:) you sound like your very committed and serious about your sobriety. This lady and Mark have huge hearts (angles on earth)and it's success stories like yours that make it all worth it. You deserve a great life Matthew. I believe you will stay sober and live your best life! Bless you 🙏🏼♥
I hope he's still doing good. He seems like one of those people you talk with for an hour but feels like 5 minutes. I watch all the videos uploaded on this channel and specifically came back to this one a few times because it makes me happy listening to him. All those ups and downs, laughing one second, emotional the next...it's absolutely uncontrollable during the beginning of sobriety. He deserves everything that was given to him even if he feels differently. That person who gave him a chance is a great human being.
I love the progression this man has taken. Helping himself, he now wants to help the world. Very inspiring man keep up the good work! You are a very positive product of what drug addiction can lead to. Sometimes the despair and uselessness you feel as a drug addict or in my case alcoholic can create massive changes that extend beyond helping yourself.
I love to see people get a second chance at actually living life and not just surviving. It warms my heart to know that there are people that truly care about another. Genuine love for another soul is very rare in this fast paced society. Matt, stand strong brother. You deserve to be happy just like the next person. My whole life I've it's been drugs, alcohol & violence. So I'm saying to you now, this is your time to shine. Wishing you the best my friend.
Matthew, you made my day with your update. I'm sure so many others feel the same. You are so special and have so much to offer this world. So proud of you....keep it going!!!!
YES! Just saw this after watching the first two and leaving a comment saying that I hope he gets clean. I'm so unbelievably happy right now. I'm so proud of you Matthew!
You knocked it out of the park with that portrait, Mark. It captures his energy, he looks so upbeat. I am so incredibly happy for him. I wish he didn’t feel guilty, he’s just as worthwhile to get help as anyone else. Even his job noticed his value and worth right away, giving him responsibility. He’s got good things coming, for sure.
From one recovering heroin addict to another, Matthew I am so proud of you and excited to see what you do in the future. Trust the process. much love and strength
I just recenly went through treatment in Huntington Beach. You look great man thank you Matthew fior being honest and sharing this bit about your life. Your strength wil help others that need to get the treatment we did. Well done bro🤘
Mark you're such a great person thank you for everything you do and all the people you've helped thank you so much keep up the great work Mark not too many people would do this.
I've been sober from opioids for 8 years and I know exactly where you are coming from Matt. I didn't think I deserved recovery either, and today is so different!! You have people who are behind you!! Keep it up one day at a time!! You staying sober will help you make amends to the people you lied to and thank the person for getting you help. One day you will be able to pass it along to someone else!! Recovery is not a one size fits all, you just keep doing what you are doing. It does not matter if you are in AA NA or agnostic. You can stay sober. Sometimes it takes what it takes to get someone sober!!
I never comment but wow Matthew is such an interesting, unique, inspiring person. It's so great to see him having the strength to make such a positive change and take back control of his life.
I am so glad I found Matthew. I don’t have a drug issue myself but I can truly see how hard this is to kick. Matthew gives me hope that things will get better not matter what you are going thru. My heart broke for him in the first interview… even the second to see that he got the help he needed warms my heart. Keep going Matthew don’t give up. Mark props to you for putting these stories/interviews out there, it’s great to see this side of the world. It makes me so grateful for the cards I have been dealt. Stay blessed. Keep on keeping on!!!
I love what he said about realizing that he can be motivated and energetic without using heroin. You are awesome! And I love hearing your story, and the ending of the story is beautiful. Good job bro.
This is AMAZING!! That lady sounds like an absolute angel. What a completely self-less thing to do. Congratulations to Mathew. I really hope he can keep his sobriety, sending all the best.
@@MatthewAndrewDrake How are you man? Been rooting for you from the beginning!!! I am also in recovery! Almost 5 years clean from meth & heroin/pills.. I am on methadone but it has saved my life!! I just want you to know that you have been such an inspiration to so many ppl!!🙌❤❤ Much love!!
WOOOOW!!! You look amazing!!! You deserve everything and more, Matthew! Soo proud of how far you’ve come and very excited to see where you go. This is the beginning of a liberating future ❤️❤️❤️❤️
This was pretty much going to be my exact post! Matthew looks amazing, and he has a great heart and mindset. I'm so happy to see this man in recovery ❤️❤️ keep going
Mathew, you are such an incredible light to this world. I cried, I laughed, my heart beamed with hope, pride and happiness for you. I am a recovering alcoholic and your story really inspires me. Thank you for being your authentic self.
Congratulations Matthew! I've watched the three videos with you and I just feel so happy for you getting - and accepting help. It seems you feel what you call "survivors guilt". You really shouldn't. You had the strength to accept help and wanting to get clean, you sure is worth it! I wish you the very best in every aspect of life!
Matt! You deserve so much happiness! You are an empath and so loving! You look amazing and your health and vitality shows through!!! Your smile is contagious… you are free to live again! I was addicted to meth for a year… my dealer actually cut me off because he said “you don’t come from this lifestyle”… 10 years later I slowly started drinking and “numbing” myself up until 70 days ago! Your story is truly inspiring.
Matthew... You moved me to absolute tears with your heart of compassion and deep gratitude for the opportunity that was given to you!!! You, are amazing. Your compassion for people less fortunate and your desire to perhaps look into immigration law, etc...Wow!! Follow that beautiful heart of yours and anything is possible for you!! Even how your mind is so beautiful about the topic of spirituality and respecting other people's beliefs, religion, thoughts...again, wow! To know you is to Love you and I'm "just a stranger", but yet we are all connected and I'm so happy for you. I've watched countless interviews and you are the only person I've ever commented on and I pray that you see this comment. Go get 'em and brightest of blessings to you along your journey. Thank you for your heart of compassion. To the woman who is an Earth Angel, thank you for your compassion and goodness...may all the good you do find its way back to you in infinite ways. Mark, thank you for each and every interview you've done and will do. I have much respect and speaking as an empath...may you find blessings awaiting you as this is highly emotional work you are doing. Bless each of you and again...Matthew...I'm so very proud of you! 🙏✨🕊 Brightest of Blessings, Aimeé
@@MatthewAndrewDrake that's so cool! I love your story and your honesty. If you're ever in the Dallas Texas area, let me know! My door is open if you ever are in the area. My wife and I would love to host you out here. Keep up the hard work of recovery, and always remember, you only fail if you quit or give up!
Matthew, you are so incredibly self-aware, humble and compassionate with a truly genuine heart for others. You are wise beyond your years. I wish you nothing but success as you move through life. You can absolutely do anything you put your mind to!
I've been waiting for this video, Matthew. Do not feel guilty. You definitely deserve to be sober. I appreciate the lady in Colorado helping you. You look really good and healthy. Stay strong and stay the course. You can do this, and you are going to realize that you are worth it. Again, seeing you sober, makes me so happy.
This is such a good success story thank you to the subscriber who always helps these people. There’s such a stigma behind getting help for mental illness. I really feel for this guy.
I’m so happy to see Matt finding some improvement. He’s so open and honest with his experience, and he’s such a kind soul. I hope he continues to succeed in whatever way is best for him. Sending love & support from Seattle!
Also Matthew, when you start thinking about using you need to just stop that thought immediately and distract yourself. You know you can spend 4 hours arguing with yourself over ‘should I? Shouldn’t I use?’ and using will always win so stop that train of thought immediately
ABSOLUTELY the first thought ….Breathing Inn nnnnnnnnn…Breathing out ….(say it aloud until you can focus ) I try to practice what I preach ,it’s easier said than done 🙏
Cravings usually will only last about 15 to 20 minutes.. so distraction is key. Those 15 minutes can and will feel like a lifetime tho. But it does pass! Suboxone will also help him to not have as many.
I'm glad he said that it's good to feel uncomfortable during recovery because you put yourself there... it took me a few months in my recovery to realize and admit that to myself. I blamed everyone else but me for the longest time for being in my situation and recovery didn't really start until I admitted it to myself it was my fault. He is a smart guy. I'm very happy for him, that woman that emailed him is a saint.
Its strange but i enjoyed strongest waves of withdrawal. Cause even though it was pain i was feeling my body clearly without masking pain and discomfort. It didn't last for long periods of time but it was something special.
I've struggled in the past and have long time sobriety under my belt. I'm proud of you! I appreciate the content bringing the humanity of these people to the forefront. When you're in the spiral of addiction, it's hard to feel valued or seen by society. Hang in there folks!
What a great change Matthew! You seem so different and like things are good now compared to the previous interviews. Be kind to yourself. Even if you slip. You can do what you've done here again. You're inspiring us all and are showing us how it is possible. I hope you get to sink into the precious being that is you without running from yourself. It's special and becomes rich in ways hard to imagine. Connecting with gratitude and feeling our blessings is a driving force that I believe can help us go deeper into the peace of just being... I appreciate you sharing your recovery and I am grateful for your angel who is providing blessings. I'm you're very grateful for this too. May you be happy! PS - If you feel a desire rise in you and you want to follow it but it's of the kind you're working hard to maintain control of, just remember, this too shall pass.
I don't know why or how this video and this dudes first video came into my life but I am so thankfuk it did. I lost my brother almost 2 years to this day due to fentynl overdose and damn I feel so many things, and one of the things that hit me the hardest watching this man is how none of us feel worth it, how someone has it so much worse than us... I dunno it all hit so close to me and I am just so thankful to experience this dudes sobriety in this video. I hope he keeps it up for real
suboxone was a life saver for me. you're doing great Matthew. never give up, no matter what. even if mistakes happen. you can do this. stay connected to the feelings you had when you wanted to get sober. you got this.
A lot of what you describe feeling reminds me of a lot of the thought processes I live through with chronic pain/hidden disability. Where you get called "high functioning" but you're still very much struggling. I want you to know that I see you, and you sharing this whole process helps me feel seen. Thank you
So proud of you Matthew! You deserve everything that you have received. I know how hard it is to kick a addiction. I just quit alcohol about 6 months ago. I was drinking heavily for 2 years and was drinking total of 10 years. Life is so much brighter now and I feel so much healthier! You’re doing great and your spirits are high!
The BIG difference in you Matthew, is that you truly wanted help. That was very obvious. Most say they want help, but they truly do not want it. From one recovering addict to another, I am very, very proud of you Sir, and wish you nothing but the best. God Bless you brother!!
I came here looking for an update on this guy! This is awesome! Congrats! I have so many family members that are in the place you used to be in. And I’ve learned that trying to get them to recover - doesn’t work. A person has to want it. Good for you! You deserve this
I’m so incredibly proud of you, Matthew, for accepting help and taking the steps to be healthy again. You DO deserve a wonderful life and I hope you achieve that!
Thank you but It hasn’t been easy. The last 6 months have been a rollercoaster of rehabs and relapses. But I’m almost a month clean off all substances and meds and we’re doing a one year update this week :)
Hey Matt- dont write off 12 steps completely - I feel the way u do but have found a likeminded community within AA. The power of building a web of dear trusted friends in recovery is essential. There’s every kind of “flavor” out there. Sending love and positivity ur way!
Oh but you can see he's wrestling with emotions he hasn't dealt with for years. Wrestling with the systems, the doctors, the process. Like, he knew recovery isn't a walk in the park. But if it was, he's right in the middle of it. He'll go through many different spaces, and one day I can imagine him reaching acceptance with the steps. And being exactly the kind of sponsor SOMEONE hope to get partnered with. (Edit because I'm so not clean I actually wrote "i" instead of "someone")
Hey Matthew. Yes. Your gonna see that a lot in AA and NA. Basically you gotta just take what resonates and leave the rest. I encourage you to keep walking the path-speak with people you feel you can be open with (if possible seek therapy too as it's nice to have a wide variety of perspective in terms of how to stay sober). Your body/mins is gonna be on a roller coaster for awhile. I've been there I understand. Good to see you back again on here. 😊
Agree! I'm an atheist, and I've gotten so much wisdom and recovery from being in the rooms, even tho the "energy that we are all part of' is my HP, I guess? It's all about our interconnectedness, helping each other.
