REN X Chinchilla - HOW TO BE ME *live* (ADHD Reaction) | THE MUSIC DEFINITION OF INTERNAL PAIN 

Reese Schwartz, this is the only reaction channel you need to watch. There isn't anyone that does this better than Mark Hector.

They really are musical siblings, like Ren always says. 2 more songs from them THIS year PEOPLE! Pumped about it.

Here I am and I held up my end of the bargain. I actually haven't been able to bring myself to watch the live version of this since losing my best friend, Jj, in December. I'm glad I watched it for the first time with your reactions because I went from sobbing to laughing to sobbing to laughing again. Chinchillas voice is so hauntingly beautiful. Their chemistry together us absolutely out of this world. I'll be here watching your Ren reactions now just so I can here "Oh fuck off". Thank you for this challenge. Thank you for doing the live version as well. I didn't think I could possibly love this song anymore. Also, relating aspects to ADHD, I didn't think about it that way as well. I was diagnosed at 5 and then again as an adult. Like fuck, I felt that as well. The dead bodies of thoughts... trying to avoid the thoughts of what I could of done, what I didn't do different. I don't think I have to relate too much more to how this song speaks to every feeling and emotion I've had since Dec. 10th. The last line though... It was a quick decision made on in the middle of the night for Jj. I had just talked to her that day and we were talking about the next semester and her interview. Her mom talked to her 15 minutes before as well. Anyways 😂😂😂 Thank you for this. I needed those tears and the laughter.... and I especially needed the live version of this. So I'll be here for more. 😂

It’s amazing he is this in love with Daisy and he hasn’t even reacted to Fingers - Live? We may never see him again after that.😂😂😂

Thank you for this! Thanks to Reese as well for having such a good request. You are loved, Hector! ❤

I first saw this a few days after my brother overdosed in the middle of the night. Watching again with your breakdown has helped me acknowledge how dramatically different things have really been for me since then. It’s been almost a year, and I’m still struggling to breathe, and more than ever, I do not know how to be myself. Thank you Mark for sharing about the movement needed, the fight or flight to make change to break out of our stagnancy. I needed this today.❤️‍🩹

20:36 Fingers (live version!). There’s one particular note in that one that will blow you off your chair.

Next one in the "Joe Saga" really NEEDS to be "Freckled Angels" from Ren. And after that "For Joe". Because in that order you get the references.

Oh Yes..Brain Squeeze Brain Squeeze Brain Squeeze Ren Ren Ren Ren ❤

The Beyonce rant had me in stitches lol

You would be glad to react to Chinchilla Fingers (Live), and then also Elements, which says "lyric video" but spoiler, it's actually her performing the song. Amazing stuff!

This is probably my favorite from ren and chinchilla. It resonates so deeply, everyone has forgotten how to be themselves at one point or another 💜💜

When I hear this song - one of my very favorite Ren songs - I think about the feeling of being lost, adrift, crushed internally from grief and loss. Not feeling like yourself because you’re absorbed by pain, by the memories and experiences you can’t get away from, and altogether they make you feel like you’re not you. Maybe everything was fine and good, then suddenly something so wrenching and painful happens that your prior life doesn’t fit. Nothing seems to fit, and it’s baffling because you desperately want to go back to the time before it all changed. You want to be who you were, and it’s terrifying knowing you can’t get there anymore. Wondering if the grief will always cloud who you are. Or at least, that’s what this song means to me. Having been through a life-changing, gut-wrenching experience I know I am not who I was. I felt unable to be me for years. Even now, I’m a different me. This song hits my soul.

There is a wonderful Chinchilla interview with Chris Liepe that is really good for anyone wanting to learn more about her.

Chinchilla "Fingers" live , go now.

If you want to hear Chinchilla go full out, check out Fingers (live). Full power Chinchilla will melt your face off

Best Duo on the Planet. Their " One Dance/Drunk in Love " busking in Brighton ( Chinchillas first experience of busking ) is Awesome.

So, happy Mommy and Daddy resolved the conflict. Haven't decided which one you are, yet. 🐢🐢🐢

Chinchilla is the alter ego of Daisy Bertenshaw. She comes by her intensity honestly; her father is an actor and I believe her mother was an actress but is also a director.

Great reaction again. RIP to Joe Hughes our Freckled Angel 🖤

Ah, my favorite human reacting to my 2nd favorite human. ❤

You're gonna absolutely love Chinchilla's Fingers (Live for Hunger TV). Her uniqueness and voice (she doesn't hold back here)...killer combo 🙌 Truncheon rhymes with dungeon 😉

I’ve always thought of this song as one of the best songs on grief that I’ve ever heard. How loss can take a piece of you and make you feel hollow.

love your dissection. “There are bodies in the floor” always makes me think Tell-Tale Heart. The regrets, the guilt, the shame you buried and they breath so loudly, so loud you keep hearing them, they keep you up at night. Beautiful song, their harmonies and the control they have over their voices is just so so good.

So excited for this one... your reactions truly cheer me up no end. Glad your staying on this Ren train with us ❤❤

"Imagine if she went for it"... yeah, you need to react to Chinchilla's "Fingers (Live for HungerTV)" IMMEDIATELY!!

Hearing you think out loud while you dissect the lyrics is like watching a process line in a factory, I love it. I think you always hit it spot on. Your Beyoncé rant had me crying laughing, couldn’t have put it better 😂😂

This relates to both losing Joe and Callum, but also his own struggles, I think. Learning to deal with his illness, what he thought was the loss of his musical career, and the fear he would die before age 30. Powerful.

As my old mam used to say "you my friend are not as green as you are cabbage looking " fuck knows what she ment by that . Epic break down had it all amongst the mayhem a great breakdown to another ren master piece. Love seeing you bop man do an upbeat one like the hunger or power. Diolch yn fawr

Hi Brain Squeeze! I couldn’t hit the button fast enough as soon as I saw you released a video.

It's all good, Hector! We are here for you!!! We love you!❤❤

Thanks for the love you give. ❤❤ Personally I love Ren's vocals. There's a richness and texture to his voice that's dynamic and emotive. What's sonically pleasing to one person can be different to another. I do think his vocal ability is underrated particularly when he collabs with talented artists that he chooses to work with like Ruby, Chinchilla and Sam. He never tries to outshine anyone. I respect that about him.

This one is my weakness 🥹 such a beautiful, haunting & soul hitting collab from the king & queen ❤

"Now I'm just thinking of cake" 🤣 Seriously though, I can't get over how intensely they stare at each other. Luv ya Brain Squeeze!

Thanks for the reaction and breakdown, Hector! Excellence, as always. They co-wrote this track, I believe. RIP Joe. 💔 These two are meant to sing together, it is other worldly. From what I understand, they are currently working on a couple of new tracks as we speak. If you'd like more from them in the meantime, there are 2 YT vids floating around, Ren talked Chinchilla into her first busking experience. You are going to love them both! 🔥💜

Well aren't you just becoming a fucking international treasure punkin!? ❤️ I adore your words, perspective, energy, and your love for Ren. This WHOLE journey is insane and I feel I will never be able to get off the path. Kinda like riding in a Wonka Boat! Each new day is more exciting than the previous and in it, periodically, you show up. Fanfuckingtastic! Thank you for sharing and take good care! 🌻🤗🦋 P.S. It's really hard to stop thinking about cake once you've started. 😜

Love your attitude towards the slight fiasco in the rabbit hole, when it comes to conflict, all that matters is how we behave after the fact, conflict happens, people are passionate, and if we are able to move on with good grace we cant really do wrong! Cant wait to watch you react to this one, pretty sure this was the first Ren song to actually break me 💔

Okay I'm ready are you ready, I lied I'm not ready I'm 55 minutes late watching. I'm not cutting onions, YOU ARE. Sorry I think I'm fighting with myself again ❤

Can wait for Animal Flow, Dominoes, Penitence, Crutch, Seven Sins and everything else

Hector, your passion is infectious! This is a deep song and you did it justice! Best How to Be Me reaction imo. Chinchilla's Fingers - Live from HungerTv - will blow your mind!! 🔥💜

Love it. And what I love even more is that there are so many more Ren (and Chinchilla) songs yet to come ❤

I agree that the meaning is about bruises we buried and yet are always there and we forget who we were and who we are right now doesn't fit. Love that your discussion helped me put that into words. I missed whatever went on at RRHF chaos so shall continue to think it's decent intentions crossed with miscommunication. And, I think you'll really enjoy Chinchilla in the live version of Fingers. It is a master class in vocals and meaning. If you want fire Chinchilla check out her "lyric" video Elements (it is in no way a simple little word on screen video; it's a performance. )

For me, I think of the profound grief I went through and relate to this song, Rens music has been a massive part of my healing, great reaction as always,love your energy 😊

Love your enthusiasm Hector. This was filmed 2 years ago and they sang it together about 4 years ago.

Hector you just brighten up the grey skies with your laughter 😂 I love this song it's so hauntingly beautiful 😍👌 can't wait for they new songs coming out 😁🤘♥️

😂😂😂 Brilliant chaos. It’s….. lush….. 🤗

❤let's get you on the happy Ren train for 5 before you have a break down! Losing it or Illest of our time. Let's get ya rocking!

What would we do without you Hector! Fantastic reaction 🎉

Do you think this is REN writing from what he imagined his friend Joe might have felt and why s*icide felt like his only option? People say s*icide is a “selfish” act…I disagree. I believe that act is to stop the constant pain. Unfortunately, it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. 😢

This song is soooo haunting!!! Absolutely love this song, the harmonies, the lyrics, and your reaction, Hector! ❤

Yayyy!! So glad you reacted to this one. 😊 I love singing along to it so much, I had it playing on repeat for weeks last year 😄

if you want to hear Chinchilla really let her voice loose, check out her song Fingers, the live For Hunger TV version. 🤯🤯🤯🤯

Ive taken the imagery of the dead bodies as a part of his episodes with psychosis. But, with Ren, there is always more than one meaning!

I needed this today. Fantastic! Thank you! ❤❤

I was there for the excitment, so this video made me laugh a lot. 😂 Love your reaction to this Birthday Buddy! 💝

Another great reaction keep knocking them down ....Domino's....is a old killer song

Thank you Mark and Reese. 🙏🏼 This one is so hauntingly beautiful and melancholy. 😢

You should watch Chinchilla’s new video called “Cut you off.” You said you wanted her to go full out - she does.

Another Amazing reaction, Thank you brotha.

BrainsqueezeRENaction is back! F yeah! My favorite reaction channel, yes! lets F'n GO! Another fire reaction 😊

Yes! Been waiting for this ❤

I eagerly await your reactions. Another great ADHD one!!

Not much others haven’t said, but I didn’t see it if it was answered, Mark, a chinchilla is IN FACT a chinchilla 😂😂😂. It is a cool as hell little animal. My friend had one when I was growing up.

Yesssss baby 🤩 definitely in my top 5!!

Love Ren, Love Chinchilla, and LOVE the channel. Great work, sir.

Thanks For still being with us, Mark

Gooseflesh how I know when it's real ❤

Oh my God these 2 are power houses together!!!❤ I love this song! Chalk outlines is also my favorite and I have a chalk outlines tattoo ha. They are incredible together! Can't wait for their new work!!!

Wow, fantastic reaction! I feel like I always learn something new about how the human mind works when I watch your videos. I’m so glad you got past the RRHF drama🙂 I don’t think there are any more emotional singers then Ren and Chinchilla. These two together are fire!

Amazing video again ........ Loved it.... Thanks

Yay!!! ❤ I’ve missed you! Even though it’s just been a day! 😂 Happy Birthday to your Mom… my hubby’s B-day is tomorrow! 🎁🎂 Thanks for the time & effort you put into doing these for all of us! ❤ You’re 1 in a million!! 🫶🏼

This song is amazing. The pure art radiates from every line. Hector.. you are the Man.

AHAHA Reese you better watch it now chic!!!

What a hauntingly beautiful track. Thank you Reese Schwartz for suggesting it. Thank you Ren and Chinchilla for putting your souls into it. Thank you Mark for dissecting it for us and enjoying it with us.

MARK!!!! Goddamn yes!! You are so delightful. You are the best! I couldn’t be happier right now. I’m sooo glad you listened to the cult, I mean fans, and did the live. Omg awesome content thank you!!! Shoutout to Reese Schwartz!!!

Another incredible reaction! This song is phenomenal 💜💜

“Bars” 12:44 - that’s only one reason I f’kn *LOVE* Hector. 🤘🏼🎧🤟🏼

Awesome reaction as usual matey x

I am so excited to see this. You make me so happy. ❤ I love this song so much and live version is the best . Oh and as you know, I LOVE your reactions! You are the best❤

The part that I think you called “yummy” sounds occurs when they’re singing “and it suffocates me” think of trying desperately trying to say or scream something until finally it can be kept in no more. And out erupts “oh I can’t breathe.” It’s an absolute emotional eargasm.

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I love when people appreciate Chinchilla as much as I do ❤

Great request from Reese and thank you Hector for doing the live video……hits so differently. Such a beautiful song….its a long time since I watched that video….goosebumps and tears…..goodness knows what it will be like when they release their new tracks later this year 💜

Mark, love your reaction and breakdown to this song i love. Thank you ❤

Nows not the time for dungeons 😂 you really are my favourite 🎉

You know the rabbit hole loves you; it’s all good. 💜. Thanks for another great, fun reaction.

I'm a Ren fan. Also love 'the big push'. Everyone has their preferences but for me, Ren and Eden Nash have better harmonies.

Man, i just love you so much. I'm happy you're one of us and we're one of you. ☮️💜.

Great reaction! With the “bodies in the floor and they breathe so loudly” I picture it much the same as Edgar Allan Poe’s A Tell-Tale Heart.

I loveee watching you enjoy this! Keep being you! REN and chinchilla are truly magical ✌🏼

first time hearing this one. Love it.

Awesome bro Fire and tears🔥😢 Be prepared when you get to “For Joe”…. It will be heavier than expected

#Ren #RenMakesMusic ❤‍🔥!! 🌎💓

What a remarkable duo, so good together. This song is so beautiful but yet so sad at the same time. I enjoy watching your reactions even though sometimes you talk so fast, I don’t know what the hell you said, lol. But I keep watching, love the passion you feel when reacting to certain songs and your honesty. Keep up the good work.

I don't know whether I love your reactions or hate them urrrrrghh I love themerrrrrr I hate 'em I mean I fucking love them man what the fuck a squirrel! But seriously, I love them and I love how you embrace who you are and just make it work. I'm not ADHD but you make me feel like I am when I watch these videos. It gives me a real appreciation for what people with ADHD must go through on the daily. Please keep on doing what you do so well. Be you. Oh, and your amazing analyses too!

Bravo... Bravo...Bravo.... Titanic haunted.... Their harmony is mind blowing. Their timing was amazing. Love Love Love this one dude... Wow... You did your thing man!!!! Thanks for sharing this haunting. ❣

These two are so special! This is one of my favorite from them and so excited to watch your reaction to it!!

She is like an angel isn’t she

OMG. All the love to you! You make me smile. Call out to DiscoDoc! 😂🔥❤️

You need to do Fingers live for hunger TV Chinchilla at her best 😊