Rock Bottom: Depression, Anxiety, Eating Disorder | My Story (4/5)

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Hitting 17 levels below rock bottom, sharing secrets, letting myself feel, and graduating college. This is video 4 of 5. Next week's video: HOW I FOUND MY LIFE PURPOSE!
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My first time falling into the deep end, how I dealt with loss, motivation to be better, and falling right back into the deep end. Timeline: Junior year of high school to senior year of college
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@AnnieLolla 6 лет назад

I've just discovered your channel, and it has made me so happy. Thank you for sharing, we all go through some tough times, and sharing stories definitively helps.

@annabago8621 6 лет назад

Annie Lolla That's definitely not just an asian thing :,D That's a human thing.

@TheAnytips 6 лет назад

I relate a lot with your story, on November I lost my girlfriend after 5 months being on a Coma, she was my first couple, my first relationship, and we were like ying yang. The months after, it was really hard, I lost a subject on college and I was sad all the time, I was making things to not be like that, but I felt like I was pretending. Nowadays, I'm getting better, I really want to, I start with small goals, like drinking more water, having my room organized (because in those dark months it was a mess, and also I was a mess internally), in order re-organize myself. So Im taking baby steps and watch your video is a new one, thank you so much. I understand that even if I felt in the bottom of the sea, there's hard sand and I can get of the grown to return to the surface and see what will happen next in the seashore.

@jessicaankley589 6 лет назад

I lost my dad in high school unexpectedly and went through a lot of same things. Now I’m going to be a senior in college and still dealing with stuff-disordered eating, depression, anxiety... Your videos give me hope that I can become at peace with myself again❤️

@monsieurli6977 5 лет назад

That is not particularly an Asian thing but indeed Asians tend to develop this as a virtue in our early age. We don't like complain to others or dump 'emotional garbage on others' just like my mom once told me. After my cocoon was broken, I have to learn my feelings and emotions totally from scratch. Such a difficult task if you are disassociated from who you are for almost your whole life. Absolutely can resonate with what you are saying, good job 👍

@solveig98 4 года назад

Oh wow... I'm not alone... I grew up in a family that meditates a lot too and follows the thoughts of Osho and I wasn't really interested in it until this year (bc Corona gave me the time to think and have existencial crisis) and now I'm really into the things that my parents do and wanna learn a lot from them. I also started to let myself feel things, I also was just like an emotionless robot who was OK but didn't feel anything. And seeing that you went through the same thing and being lost and not knowing what you wanted to do is giving me so much hope that things will get better, I will find myself and my path, I will be able to feel without judging myself and I will be able to be a better person with good morals. I know now that I'm not alone on this process and you really gave me the hope that I needed to keep going with this process. Thank you so very much! My next step will be to seek help not only in books but probably with a therapist Thank you🙏

@HallieSea88 6 лет назад

My brother passed away, too. All my love to you, thank you for being brave enough to share your story. You inspire me in so many ways, I hope to be strong enough to Share my story and feel my pain as well. Love and light to you♡

@jellypopfm 5 лет назад

I know this video is old, but I'm so grateful that you shared your story. My whole life I never asked for help either, I kept everything to myself mostly aside from the best friends I used to have or exboyfriends. I'm going through a period of loneliness right now too and its resurfacing things I faced 10 years ago on my own, and so I'm trying to get back on track with my spirituality and I'm going to therapy for the first time in my life. I'm considering getting into meditating and yoga again too. Thank you so much!

@Nami608 6 лет назад

Two months ago I broke up with my first boyfriend after five years together and it's been hell. However, I grew up similarly to you, where my asian mother engaged her children in the spiritual. So now when my life was falling apart (in my eyes), my mother sat me down to meditate and I re-discovered a part of myself I never realised I'd missed. And all of the anxiety I'd felt in recent years and the reasons behind them became so clear and I am feeling more liberated than ever. Don't get me wrong, it's still tough, but at least now I remember who I always wanted to be and that wasn't the person I was for the later parts of my relationship. I just wanted to tell you that your videos have been helping me a lot and to hear of this similarity brings me even more hope that things work out in the end. I believe things happen for a reason, but sometimes you need a reminder. Thank you! (PS the not being able to ask for help during hard times, totally can relate! It took everything in me to ask my friends to be there for me and to let myself cry in front of them)

@helltheofficialsequel2730 6 лет назад

During the spring of 2017, i went through phases of being too emotional and anxious, following phases of emotionless weeks. I did a similar technique to yours, trying to do more activities; hang out with friends, take lessons in violin, go to a chor, and etc. When I was with my friends, I always looked happy and soon enough, in the August of 2017, I started to feel happiness again. I feel much better now and the deep-in-the-brain thoughts come only sometimes (But this time I have castle walls around me!) Thank you for sharing your story!

@kethmiubeyrathna8961 3 года назад

Hi Rowena! you ground me so much. Thank you so much for your videos

@oase248 4 года назад

Thank you so much for sharing Rowena! Your perspective is so helpful for someone that's kinda lost. ♡

@Heykay34 6 лет назад

You came such a long way you should be so proud of yourself keep doing what you are doing you have no idea how helpful your videos are! You are lovely!

@shieladaitol 5 лет назад

This is exactly my life's TITLE at the moment. 😭😭 Thank you so much for this!!

@lauraraexoxo5628 6 лет назад

I can relate a lot to your story. I've dealt with similar problems in my freshman year and I had to deal with a rather dark past too. To this day only four people (including my therapist) know about the things that I went through in those month and it comes to a similar reason (I don't have an asian background but I just...it's hard to ask for help) Thank you so much for sharing this video, even though you went through awful things, it feels...good(?) to not be alone with those feelings and problems

@sophiadebrum8281 6 лет назад

Thank you so much for sharing so much with us! It really feels like hearing an older sister telling me things that I can honestly say definitely going through with adult hood. Pushing myself out of my "funk" and because of that, has lead me into your videos and channel! Learned that patience is key and doing my best to accept it all. Thank you once again Rowena! Cannot wait to watch your last video tomorrow morning as my motivation video of the day.

@montalvovivian 6 лет назад

You’re such an inspiration soooo grateful universe put you on my feed!! Keep fucking killing it

@rivaverma 6 лет назад

You are like a friend who understands everything without having to explain :)

@AStrumxo 6 лет назад

I really needed to find your RU-vid. I'm currently trying to come to terms with a loss from 11 years ago because I'm tired of dealing with the anxiety everyday. I feel like these videos about you and your brother came to me at a really important and personal part of my journey. I feel like a lot of what I've gone through was supposed to make me appreciate life, but it did make things hard. This video reminds me we all have low points before the breakthroughs and high points of our life.

@AStrumxo 6 лет назад

One of my New Years goals is to forgive myself for making mistakes because of the pain. To not blame myself for feeling bad... and I feel like that aligns with what you're saying, too.

@monia2822 6 лет назад

I love this series. I see myself in you, yet I don't... And I admire you for sharing. This is an amazing concept. This guidance- I have never seen it anywhere else. Thank you. ALSO I LOVE YOUR CHANNEL

@MsMec29 6 лет назад

I discovered your channel a few days ago, and I am loving it. I love your videos, I love your advices, i love everything you say! You spread so much joy and hope and it is so inspiring to see that you actually went through a lot of difficulties but anyway you managed to go on and to make those experiences a part of who you are now. You are such an inspiration✨❤️💪🏼

@mia-gl8ub 6 лет назад

Hey Rowena! I just found your channel and I'm soooooo obsessed 😍 I can really rely on almost every thing you say and try every day to respect especially myself and become a better human to myself...thank you for all the work you put in your videos 💚 big hugs from Vienna 🤗🤗🤗

@NerdGlitter 6 лет назад

I relate way way too close with the struggles you've talked about in this video (almost the exact same timeline between semesters and disorders too). Unfortunately, I'm still in the "cold, dark" place, but hearing your story about crawling out of this. and stacking your semester (that's what I'm trying for next semester since I also cant be trusted with free time lol), and strategies for tackling your free time - I'm feeling really really inspired and energized! Especially w the new year coming up :) Thank you so much for sharing such a personal struggle and how you've overcome these things

@leshegolerutla2998 7 лет назад

Thank you for this Rowena.

@GlassSuperstar 6 лет назад

Another great post.

@butfirstcoffee3429 6 лет назад

Thank you for this video, me too, I can relate to your story. My past is dark and tough i just finish my law school and depression hit me this year, it was really difficult. Now i'm trying to move on, meditate, doing yoga, find peace in my mind and maybe go to therapy;