Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) All I want for you is to stay and feel alive. Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. I need you here with me :). Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. And anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. I hope you will remember my words- becho :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)
this right here, this is the only thing keeping me going. whenever i feel sad or down i pull up this video and read your beautiful essay until i feel confident and/or fall asleep to my own tears of joy/sadness thank you so much, you’re truly a blessing to this earth :)
Ella Kurschinske two years compared to your whole life is absolutely nothing. i believe you. i love you. please dont do anything to harm you in any way whether its emotionally, physically, or mentally. i need you to do something that’ll let you poor you emotions out so you could be free from this hell that youre going through. even if you have to talk to me, a stranger, to let out your feelings. please do. i love you, dont give up. someone is out there waiting for you, you havent met them but theyre there.
Just keep focusing on the good you have in your life. Appreciate the small things that make you happy, laugh, smile. Life is too precious and too short❤️
I know things may be tough rn but I promise you i know from personal experience it will get better im not saying its gonna be easy but you just gotta make small adjustments to your life to make yourself happier and ultimately healthier and everything will work out 😊❤
When I listen to this, I feel a sort of un-known comfort. Like when I look at a grey sky. There’s a strange comfort about it, yet you can’t tell how far it goes, yet it feels like a blanket is protecting you. I don’t know, I find the rhythms have a warm sound and it’s strangely comforting, as even though the lyrics are negative, the rhythm sounds like it’s re-assuring you that everything will be ok. And it will
Rainy Dxyz :3 yes, I feel this too, I was wondering how to put it into words and you’ve done that perfectly. Thanks ❤️ also it kind of feels like a hug from someone you really like, but you know that hug will only last for a few seconds when you just want it to go on forever.
It makes me feel comfortable and like I’m gonna be okay, and when I listen to it at night it’s like a soft lullaby, and my problems seem to fade away, but then it’s morning and theyre real again
"Have you ever been so sad that you just really want to be alone. But at the same time you really wish there was someone who you can talk to." aight that's all,now imma go cry bye-bye
It’s to the point where I feel emotionless even when there’s so much pain it’s like He won’t let me look back and release it I can only cut through the barriers to be released haha sorry for my rant~
I know things may be tough rn but I promise you i know from personal experience it will get better im not saying its gonna be easy but you just gotta make small adjustments to your life to make yourself happier and ultimately healthier and everything will work out 😊❤
My parents doesn't even notice that I am at the absolute lowest point in my life. My grades are slipping. My parents are financially struggling. The boy that ive been madly in love with for over a year now wants to be 'friends with benefits' but with no feelings attached. My best friend slipped away and found new friends. I don't eat I don't sleep. I don't cry, i laugh and smile. Because it's so draining to pretend you're okay, but it's even more exhausting to be open and honest about your feelings and getting it thrown in your face. Its 1:48 AM and i think i might be depressed
Start setting goals for yourself and get results. Feel accomplished and take control of yourself. Take control of your life. It’s your life and you can do what you want with it, don’t worry about anyone else
I feel this. Everytime I get into a car with my family, there’s bound to be a fight. Usually somehow revolving around me. And when it’s not, I’m dragged into it. Then if I try to block them out I get yelled at because I’m not participating in the toxicity.
I know how you feel. You know you need help but you just wanna be alone while you cry. You have underlying depression but you don’t tell anyone because you don’t want people worrying about you. I know this because that’s exactly how I feel 😓
When I tried to commit two year ago my parents didn’t even care, they told me to get over it and didn’t even check on me. They could have lost me that night and didn’t even care. My own parents, wouldn’t care. It hurts. Hi!! I’m doing way better. Have becomed more confident and better mentally. have been surrounding myself with positive energy and positive people. Thank u for all the people who replied with advice. I can’t explain how much you’ve helped me.
I care, thank you so much for staying with us. This is a sign that you are loved and you shouldn’t leave us, you have your whole life ahead of you. Take care of yourself please, I love you.
Hey, I just want to say that God cares about you! You’re important to Him and He loves you. He loves you so much that He died for you. In Jesus you can find peace, love and happiness. I’m not trying to force nothing on you, i’m just trying to show how loved you are 🥺🤍
Days are becoming the same. Life has completely lost any spark it once had. I’m not even sad. I’m just so unhappy. I miss when the beauty and wonders of life were still enough. I miss when I felt alive and life was exciting and I was dumb enough to assume it stayed that way. I’m just so tired that I don’t care anymore.
The thing I have found with my depression is that it has allowed me to fall in love with things others tend to look over. I have found beauty in sunsets and being caught in the rain. When nights are surprising clear enough to see stars, the slight breeze on a summers day and the feeling you get when you relax your shoulders to embrace the cold. I feel I appreciate these moments more because I have fought hard to see them. This sunset could be last - how could it not be beautiful. I have understood that I cannot love myself or this life but I can love this world. Keep fighting for those moments and for yourself, no matter how long it takes.
100 Reasons to stay alive- (yes I wrote this myself lol) 1. you’d be missed, so many people love you and I promise you that 2. You have such a great future ahead of you even if it seems like you’re going nowhere 3. Hugs, you’ll have so many people to hug and hugs are amazing 4. You’ll find someone to love you more than you love yourself someday and that’s special 5. You’re someone’s favorite person, they need you 6. One day you’re gonna see the most beautiful sunset of your life 7. One day you’re gonna see how far you’ve come and you’re gonna be so proud of yourself 8. One day you’ll find people to go listen to music with in the car with your windows down and you’ll be so happy 9. Dancing in the rain 10. Meeting amazing new people 11. Watching scary movies with your friends / family 12. Without you, what would the person who loves you the most do 13. Passing a test, it’s amazing 14. Feeling alive :) 15. The satisfaction of waking up in the morning and being proud of yourself 16. Birthday party’s 17. Sleepovers 18. “I love you” 19. Being someone’s favorite notification 20. Watching dumb kids shows with your friends 21. Watching yourself grow as a beautiful human being 22. Learning new things 23. Listening to your favorite song 24. Growing old with someone 25. Getting into a college 26. Laughing 27. Walking on the beach at night 28. Dancing in the rain 29. Singing In the shower 30. Making someone laugh 31. Making someone smile 32. Beach sunsets 33. Being happy (u will find it one day) 34. Sometimes you have to go through a storm to get a rainbow 35. It’s not worth it 36. So many people will miss yo 37. There’s so much youd miss out on doing. 38. You’re gorgeous , amazing and someone thinks your perfect 39. Really nice pillows lol 40. If you end it now , you’ll let the jerks that bullied you win. We can’t have that :) {you’re a winner 😏} 41. Think of your favorite music artist, you’ll never get to hear that voice again.... 42. Going to diners at 3am someday 43. Sitting on roofs 44. Road trips :) 45. Hearing some wild stories 46. Jumping on a trampoline for hours 47. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place 48. The inside joke you have with someone (Ik you have one don’t even lie) 49. People do care. 50. Everyone will miss your energy 51. CHOCOLATE 😏 52. Stargazing :) 53. You have a purpose in life, But it’s your job to find it 54. You’ve changed someone’s life 55. Snow angels :) 56. You have the chance to save someone’s life 57. YOULL MISS ALL THE OTHER NOM NOMS 🍫🎂🍿🍯🧃🥛🍼 58. If you end it rn You’re family and friends are gonna go through your phone yk that right 59. The world wouldn’t be the same if you didn’t exists. Why would you be here in the first place if you weren’t here for a reason 60. One day your smile will be real 61. Lying on grass and laughing at clouds 62. Sleeping it’s nice 👍🏻 63. I’m so proud you’re here :) 64. You’d let Donald trump outlive you. Wtf nah fam don’t you dare 65. Being able to help people 66. Bonfires 67. Dumping your paper out on the last day of school or burning it 😎 68. Hanging out with your friends at a treehouse 69. Watching Simpsons 😏 70. Starbucks if you’re not broke 😏 71. Life is what you make of it 72. Your mother had you in her tummy FOR 9 MONTHS and popped you out like- that’s painful stay for her please lol ♥️ 73. It’s possible to turn frowns upside down 74. Finally loving yourself 75. Eating food 😏 76. You got the opportunity to experience life, use it to make something good out of it 77. You could cure cancer 78. You could prevent small things happening 79. You could make someone’s day 80. Staying up all night 81. Going surfing 82. Learning to skateboard 83. You could ruin the next generation 👀 84. One person cares for you more than they care for themself 85. Maybe one day your smile will be real, let’s wait and see :) I got the snacks 🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿🍿 86. You’ll hurt yourself and so many other people 87. You’ll never have the feeling of excitement again :/ 88. You being alive could help others stay as well 89. Pajamas like- they’re comfy 😽 90. Youre parents are for sureee gonna give your money to your siblings or they’re gonna spend it on smt else 91. Proving people wrong with your success 92. Maybe one day you’ll see every country 93. Telling funny stories 94. Laughing at the most dumb things ever 95. Eating icecream on a hot day 96. What’s your favorite movie, you’ll never get to watch it again 97. Bruh you rlly gonna leave in 2020 😐 that’s such a bad thing to leave things off like 98. You’ll see your children grow into young beautiful people 99. You could change the world 100. I love you Stay ♥️ -made by Kenzie
hey, i know how you feel. but please, do not leave yet. i love you, and I would be really sad to see you go. i know this world sucks a lot, but how about you and i handle it together step by step?
hi baby i love you and i’m proud of you. i know how it feels but i can promise you that it’ll all just work out in the end. i care about you, please stay.
hey luv I hope your doing well❤️ just know it always gets better because there is always hope please never forget that. I may not know you but you are loved 💗
I find it sad how we’ve all stopped waiting for our happy ending to come, now we’re just waiting for the end, and we’re all even willing to end it ourselves.
i wish i could lie on the sand in the beach and have my cat lying beside me while i cry and listen to this... my family is the best ... but i cant tell them because they .... care too much and they're are too .... happy
I am failing every single class. i just want to restart this year so i can get my grades messed up instead of wasting a month. im so sorry dad... i failed you once again.
Hoping for the best, sending love & hope. Hope for you to keep trying and believe that these hard ships can be something that will improve and viewed as good
same, i really wish my parents could see that the only reason i’m failing is because of my mental health. but they don’t see that, and i’m sure to be safe so they don’t see that. that their daughter is slowly falling apart.
I didn’t expect this to hit so differently... like the original version made me feel almost nostalgic, but this just took me back to every moment in my life I wish I had never had... broooo
everyone always asks why i love winter so much. it’s quite simple actually. i can relate to how silent it gets when it snows, and the leafless trees and grey skies. winter is the only time i don’t feel like my heart is constantly about to give in. i always feel so trapped and alone. winter lets me escape, being alone gives me comfort. if someone tried to help i’d push the away out of fear. but right now all i need is someone to be there for me. not out of pity, but because they know about the sleepless nights and constant heart ache i go through everyday. i just need someone to understand. my only supply of comfort has gone and now i feel more alone than ever. i spend all night crying and then i’m too tired to do anything during the day. to think all this pain and grief i’m feeling is all over a youtube channel makes me feel stupid, but it’s true. i never realised until now how much they helped me stay on track and happy. but now it’s just constant pain and grief that won’t go away.
I always like to think of this as a calming song :) think about it like its 9 pm, its summer and it starts raining after a long hot week. Try to enjoy these small things that can make your day
TW WARNING!!!! POV: You stand at the edge of a cliff looking down at the water. The water swirls below you. you are the last person left on earth. you step forward, the rocks tumble down to the swirling waters. you shut your eyes, and step off the edge. as you slowly fall, the world spins around. all your memories flash inside your mind and you fall down towards the deep, cold waters. the water touches your back, it's cold and soon it reaches past your head. as you sink, you have the feeling of relief and pain, as it all fades away. The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. I did not resurface.
The fact that I'm going to be 18 in 4 years is killing me. My mom won't be around forever. I won't be a kid forever. I can't live in this world alone. I just can't. I have no clue what to do. I don't know how to live. I can hardly keep myself up long enough to eat and shower, I cry every single day, and the fact that I'm going to have to leave this room soon and risk my life outside is too much to bear. I promised I'll take it before I turn 20. Ever since I was 7-8 I've been saying I'll never live past 20. The deadline just keeps marching closer and I'm scared. I can't do it. I don't know how to. I was supposed to be the kid who rose above the rest of my family. I was supposed to be the one who graduated and became rich but I can't. I can't risk dying from someone elses hands. I just KNOW once I get out there someone is going to rape, kill, or kidnap me. I can't risk it. I don't want to. I can't live alone because I'm fucking terrified to. I can't even stay home alone for long. Oh god what am I going to do? My family can't even pay attention to me and can't afford to keep food on the table. I'm terrified.
I felt that a little too much. for some reason, I always felt like I would never live past 24. no reason, because I always imagined having kids and growing old with someone. but I just... i dont really know. my brain just tells me that I wont... if that makes sense
you will make it past 20. you are strong, worthy, and loved. i know it seems impossible now, and i know you’re probably tired of hearing this, but it does get better. just take it one day at a time. ❤️❤️❤️
This comment made me sad :(. But all I’m gonna say is don’t give up. You have a wonderful future coming your way. You are worthy, loved and super strong. never forget that❤️❤️
POV: you are sat on a bridge, smoking a cigarette whilst watching the water flow beneath you. You can only think of him, and if life would be worth living knowing that you will never experience his presence again. And although you hurt, the sound of the trees rustling, the water washing over the rocks, and the smell of the fresh air clouds over your pain, and brings you a moment of relief. The pain isn’t gone, the pain will never be gone, but just one moment..it’s heavenly.
Up with your turret Aren't we just terrified? Shale, screen your worry From what you won't ever find Don't let it fool you Don't let it fool you Down Down's sitting 'round, folds in her gown Sea and the rock below Cocked to the undertow Bones, blood and teeth erode With every crashing node Wings wouldn't help you Wings wouldn't help you Down Down fills the ground, gravity's proud You barely are blinking Wagging your face around When'd this just become a mortal home? Down Won't, won't, won't, won't Won't let you talk me Won't let you talk me Down Will pull it taut, nothing let out
Im so used to backing my feelings to the bottom of my lungs that when I breathe i want to cry. so now when i need to cry. i can finally let them go. when im all alone, not troubling anyone.
do you ever feel like everythings too real like honestly we‘re all so irrelevant and nothing matters if you die your gone and if your sad it wont matter cause in a hundred years nobody will know you existed and everyone you love will be dead. We‘re all so small yet in our minds we‘re so big
words can't describe how i felt at the cemetery in February. my mom walked me up to his grave, she left me alone to have time to talk to him. i stared at the firm words marked under his name, "a loving son, uncle, brother, husband, and father." that was the first time i hadn't seen him in eleven years. i covered my mouth as tears streamed down my face. i miss you a lot dad, i'll be up there once it's time.
i listen to this song every night and it gives me this strange comfort, like when i look at a grey sky or when it thundering, i find comfort in depressing things 🙂
I cheated on my ex when I was an immature kid, worst mistake of my life, it haunts me every night because I think back to how perfect and nice she was to me and it breaks my heart, it honestly haunts me
@@midnightlatte hey, it’s me again. i had to get a different account because i lost the password to this one. thank you so much, i really appreciate it. you guys are so nice, thank you. i love you. (sending to all the people that comforted me throughout this period in my life) TW- i’m still having problems, but it’s just mental health now. it’s been going on since 2022 and now it’s 2023. it’s been hard, but i’ve been trying to get through it. my family problems are still there. my dad hasn’t spoken to me in almost a year. i miss him so much, but there’s not much i can do. he’s missing out on all the things i’ve done and that’s his loss. on the other hand, my mental health has never been worse. stress, school, overthinking, anxiety, and just sorrow have filled my evenings. i stare up at the sky, wondering how i’m going to survive this void. it’s so hard, but i try my best. when you read this, i don’t want you to worry. ill be okay. life is just so hard and sometimes it gets so bad i don’t know what to do. i love you, thank you for showing me what kindness can bring to one persons life. again, i really appreciate it. write back, please. - mars
I'm stuck in the middle of caring about him and hating him right now. he's not the same person i met when I was 7 years old. now he cares more about his abusive wife than his own daughter. how father-like of him.
For everyone here in the comments, I want you all to know that you’re loved and you are cared about. I love you, I care for you and I know that right now it may be hard but the pain goes away someday, I promise you. Don’t be afraid to ask for help, I’ll be right here. I love you, stay strong my love.
This song makes me feel like I’m walking through a lone road lit with silver moonlight while soft cold wind grazes my face and no one is around. I’m with myself, trying to seek the unknown. I don’t know where I’m headed, but there’s this weird restlessness in my heart, as if it’s trying to tell me something, but I’m unable to understand. Weirdly enough, even if everything is so overwhelming, it’s sinisterly peaceful. This chaos inside resonates with the calm outside my body. Everything seems to be talking to me. The wind, the moon, the flowers. Everything is trying to tell me something. “Don’t let them fool you.”
I’m done with everything. I feel like that people don’t even want me alive anymore..I want to just quit everything and restart because I feel like everyone else is moving but IM the one who is ALWAYS stuck in everything and I can NEVER seem to let go. 💔
At this point, I can't feel anything but my own thoughts. It's constant. I ignored the signs and now I'm stuck... No one understands me. The feeling of being alone structs me at every living moment, but this video helps me relieve my senses from my conscious.
I feel numb, like my face is all red and puffy from the tears, Im looking at the ceiling, in the dark, wondering how it all went wrong. I lay in my bed helpless, and soon enough I fall asleep.
Imagine: Your families are enemies so y’all are supposed to hate each other, but when you see him your heart skips a beat and you can’t help but think why life has to be this way. You are never allowed to speak with him or be seen with him. Ever since you were a child you remember your parents telling you to stay away from him and to always try your hardest to be better than him.But at the end of everyday you still find yourself thinking about him and wishing that you could just talk to him and be in his arms. As the years go on, you find yourself wishing more and more that you could be with him forever. When your parents are fighting and after you’ve had a long day, you always go to the same place in the middle of the forest where you play this song and dance by yourself. One day you go home after school and see your mother and father screaming at each other and throwing things, you start to cry and run to your spot in the forest and fall to your knees crying. You didn’t notice the tall figure sitting by the music player. You look up and see him. You stand up, wipe your tears and ask what he’s doing there. He says he was coming to talk to you and then he heard screaming. You decide to open up to him and tell him everything. He says that they always new you were special. He got up and hugged you tight. You embraced him feeling warm inside. He tells you how much he loved you ever since the first time he saw you. Y’all both started crying again and y’all started dancing in the pouring rain. You were finally happy.
This song reminds me of the time back in 2013 when I was grounded all I had was my tv and my DVD player and all I did was watch all twilight movies in the dark while it was raining I’m now 22 and I’ll never forget about those times the time I felt pure empty
i’m lying here, head on my pillow, as if it’s his chest, crying, while it’s slightly dark, nothing but my blue LED lights, with this song playing faintly. While he’s on his game, telling his friends he isn’t a simp, or that it isn’t that serious. I’m so touch deprived and i just wanna feel loved. it’s like he’s on my mind 24/7.
I don't know whats worse, having to keep your feelings locked up and pretending you;re okay.. or realizing nobody notices because youve done it so well.
it’s always my fault. i complain about having no friends. but it’s all my fault. my fault. my fault. my fault. why wont the pain go away. why??? why wont it go away.
i don’t think i’ve given up, or that i ever will. i just don’t have it in me to continue, like i’m too exhausted and i can’t catch up. and nobody’s questioning it. they’re all just fine leaving me behind.
I used to cry to this song when I was younger, I felt too much but now I don’t feel anything. I never thought I would see the day when I would say I wish I could feel too much again
first and last song my ex ever sat and spoke to me with. she was a trouble case, mental issues the lot but I loved her. when I went into hospital I listened to this every single day and when I finally got out she didn’t love me no more. she was over me. and I hurt everyone in my way after that. I appreciate the edits, they keep me humble :)
every one wears a mask u may not see it but its a mask of emotions people may seem fine on the surface but we have layers the people that seem the most happy have the most layers of emotion they are hiding their pain. it feels like your drowning like rain clouds we holds the water till it cant anymore and finally lets it all out. and it may seem like the rainy days wont stop but there's an end to every storm. i myself am that cloud and i hope we all release that rain and become light and peaceful again 🥺😕
hi if you need a sign to stay, here it is ! stay babe. you're hurting so much right now but there will be better times. some things will change & some may won't- but you'll learn to deal with them. you're worthy & you're enough. don't go. stay.
this song strangely comforts me. like a wave of sadness and cold hits me in a good way, the type of sad when someone is leaving but you’ll see them again. it feels like hell at times living in my head but this helps me ground myself instead of floating away again. i feel myself getting bad again and forgetting more stuff. hopefully i don’t get too bad again and do dumb stuff
I’m so miserable i don’t know why this is happening to me I have no reactions anymore I’m emotional but emotionless I feel like I’m drowning it hurts it feels like I can’t breath it hurts so much I really feel trapped as if I was in a large pool and I can’t swim today is my birthday I got so many happy birthdays but I was still emotionless my life is so sad I can’t take it anymore it hurts I feel like I can’t breath it’s hard to take breathes
This song makes me extremely happy. When I listen to it, memories of my best friends and I flip though my head like a really slow slideshow of the best moments of my life. I don’t know what I would do without my family and my chosen family. This song reminds me that I’m whole :)
TW: I want to spend the whole day with her, tell her how beautiful she is and make sure she knows that I am really in love with her. Then I'm going to call my dad and tell him I love him one last time before writing my goodbyes to everyone else. I'll set the folded up note on my bed and quietly leave the house, knowing exactly what way to go so I can get to the bridge with freezing waters beneath. I'm going to listen to my favourite songs as I walk, knowing that this music was once keeping me alive and happy. I'm going to stand at the edge of the bridge once my music is finished playing and let go, feeling the cold air on my face as I take my last breaths. This is how I want to go.
@@user-sk5sm7yc1v you have a whole new life ahead, all the new people you will meet and love, all the new memories. this pain is only temporary and i know it feels impossible but please hang in there. everything gets better eventually. i love you and i hope you are safe. Annabel
Hi, are you okay? Please talk to someone about this, even me I’d talk to a stranger to help out. Don’t make a permanent mistake, think about how your family will handle it. You’re not getting rid of the pain, you’re just passing it onto others :/
For people who haven’t felt this comfort it’s like a dream. It feels like you have no responsibility, no burdens, no worries, no anything. Everyone need and deserves comfort like this.
some times it’s ok to just rest, sit down and cry it out. I have been pushing away the fact that I am unhappy and I need time to reset. I have depression, ocd, adhd, tics, ptsd, and no motivation to be here anymore but I love my family, future husband/wife, future kids, future house, shifting, the food I get blesses with, and everything I am meant to achieve so I will try my hardest to stay. Everyone please know that it gets better, that is honestly one of the biggest motivator for me right now bc the last time i had my long depression stage I didn’t want to be anymore but when i got out and was happy i knew that things always get better. Kiss your battle scars, expect your flaws, that boy or girl is not worth you bringing yourself down, go outside, talk to yourself, talk to someone you love, drink water, watch your favorite movie, get into shifting (it honestly has made me a lot happy) i love you so very much and i am sooo fúcking proud of you! 🖤
Sometimes nightmares may become realities but even they get tiresome sometimes. Its better to feel tired and hopeless than knowing people are crying while looking at your guys old messages
