Yeah it’s like feeling empty is just pure and amazing and it just becomes a craving like after u eat u would give anything in the world to feel empty again and then when u do feel empty it gets frustrating because then people try to take it away from you . I feel really messed up . A normal person isn’t supposed to feel this way . A normal person shouldn’t be thinking like this they should be looking at the life ahead of them they should feel excited for life because life is awesome but somehow I’m just not feeling that . I don’t know why I came out this way what really happened in my life so I could turn out like thus . I never used to care about how I look I used to be such a happy child but then I realized it just all disappeared. I’m trying to disappear. It’s like I’m this burden on everyone and I hate existing I feel guilty for being alive so since I can’t die because I don’t want to hurt my family then I wanna take as little place as possible . My teacher found out that I’m not eating much and making myself sick so I’m seeing the guidance counsellor. But they’re all clueless it’s like they think if they ask me a question I’ll tell them the truth . And it hurts me so much how sometimes they actually belive me . I have a friend struggling with an eating disorder as well . I’m trying to help her as much as I can . But sometimes I’m just drowning and no one notices .
Umm sorry for that I’m rambling on,I’ve ive never done this before 😂 but can someone share their opinion and experience? Maybe we can work on it together
That is perfectly normal ed stuff. Many Eds aren't really about the weight, the weightloss is more like a symptom. It is more about control, or not growing up or a cry for help like in your case.
"Don't tell me to eat" If I had a choice, I would never want to go through this "Don't tell me I'm pretty" You never said that when it mattered "Don't tell me I'm ugly" You've said that a lot of times, I know you're right "Don't ask me why" I don't know either "Don't remind me of my old self" I miss her more than you, every single day "Don't call this a phase" It's not a fricking phase, it's my life, all of it "And please please don't ask me to get better, try harder" I'm trying harder than I want to, harder than my body can take, harder than anything you can think of. Please just make the pain stop I'm tired Really.... November 💖
I’m proud of you and I know it’s difficult to get through this but you will. I’m sure you’ve got plenty of people telling you to try to get better. Don’t focus on it as an illness. You’re not ugly. You are fucking gorgeous. But it doesn’t matter what I think. What matters is what you think. Remind yourself everyday that you are amazing, you are pretty, you’re going to get through this hell and you have so much to live for
@@ninas2985 Oh I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I know exactly what it feels like but we can't give up, not when the light is so close! Just hang on bestie, we're almost there
@@mayanatashapirzada3551 Thank you so much! I wish my own family and friends had said this stuff when it mattered, but again your comment brought a smile on my face today. Thank you for that 🥺💖
watching these calms me for some reason. i feel like i can relate to the characters and what they say so strongly. it comforts me that i’m not alone with my eating disorder. if you are struggling please stay strong, i’m so proud of how far you have come already, recovering is with it i promise. i know it’s difficult but i love you so much and learning to love yourself is all you need to do
@@matthewmiller7237 firstly, I'm so proud of you for wanting to tell ur mom. When telling her I would go out like shopping or something like that because its less awkward than being at home. Hope this helps!!
@@rosepowell2840 i dont even want to tell her im just doing it because my teacher said my weight is to low and that i have to tell my mom or go in to treatment
Yupp, I'm bulimic and I fast, vomits and use laxatives and exercise, I keep down very little, and after a fast if i want to binge I purge after so the whole ''you'll gain after you fast when you eat again'' doesn't really works to tell me.
I am so sorry that all of you need to go trough that, you are sooo much more then those stupid numbers, i hope you can recover and see yourself the way others see you, ik how hard it is, like too hard, but it doesnt mean you should give up, bc theres no point being skinny in a grave and if you think about it, you are gonna die if you continue, and you are going to be so mad at yourself if you eat, as you see both situations are bad, but this one when you die, is 100% that is gonna end like thar, but if you try to recover, there is chance that you will be better, with help you can do it i really just hope you can get better, i hope everyone can get better ❤
This makes me so sad. Once you start you can’t ever stop and it’s so hard to keep doing this. It’s like an addiction where you’re only happy if you hurt yourself
You will never feel sick enough. Your goal will always go down and you'll never feel accomplished with your Ed. I've known people who'd died from anorexia. Their goal always lowered until their bodies gave up, it started with "I am sick enough when I go inpatient." and ended with "I am sick enough ones I nearly die and get revived last minute in hospital." These women died and felt never sick enough to recover. If you are struggling even the slightest bit then you deserve help and are in fact sick enough!
I just want to love myself and feel like I'm doing one thing right and starving myself is way better than binge eating. But its hard for me to starve and I really want to.
I have the opposite problem, I can never seem to stop binging, and sadly, when I'm struggling with my depression, that's all I really want to do since for a small manner of minutes it makes me feel okay but after I feel even worse. I've bounced back and forth with my weight, and I'm far from what I used to weigh on a scale, but lately I've gained some of my old weight back.
I also binge eat a lot. And scared of loosing all my progress and gaining weight back. I hate myself and food for a second makes me feel good until I realise that I'm eating too much and I feel so terrible like I should just dissappear.
I never understood eating disorders I never understood why people wanted to be so skinny I was always mad fun of for being to thin as a child I hate it I never saw skinny as beautiful Until I realised there is so much more to eating then that not all people starve themselves for beauty
Eating disorders have nothing to due with losing weight, as weight loss is only a symptom. Not everyone with eds want to be stick thin. It's about control, and coping with serious shit going on in your life or trauma in your past.. it's a distraction, sort of similar to substance abuse. Eating disorders are diseases, mental illness... it's a plague of your thoughts
I hate when people say ”Do you think being that skinny is beautiful?”, or ”Nobody likes a skinny girl”.I do , I like to be skinny. I know I am ill, but being skinny is the only thing that I can do right.
Doctor asked if being skinny ran in my genes I said yes and she was like “oh ok I was just making sure you weren’t anorexic” and it really caught me off guard. weight is something I’m highly sensitive about so it brought me a lot of grief. I held back from crying. I don’t want to be so skinny but because of depression food seems gross to me and I have to force every bite and I get so sad. It’s like something in my brain is telling me that the food is poison. And because of stress I’d wake up throwing up everyday back then. ): now I don’t throw up but food is still a chore and a constant struggle.
Idk if I had an Ed, but I’ve always cared about my weight and what I eat. I’ve been starving for 1 week, I lost 5 kilos… since then, I love my body and I hope that everyone who is watching this video will love themselves 🥺💓 you are beautiful! remember this 💓
I’m not positive but I believe you might. No matter how much you lose or gain I want you to know that you’re beautiful and amazing. Please don’t continue starving.
Honey this is not healthy...🥺 this could become addicting rlly quick and then u might end up in an eating disorder... please PLEASE don't do this to urself, ur beautiful, and even if u wanna lose weight, which u don't have to, but if u want to, do it a healthy way! But starving urself can make it so much worse u have no idea...please please don't do this to urself
it makes me feel like a horrible person to say this but I wish I was Eli. I'm aware that she was very sick and in fact nearly died but its something about it that makes me attracted to the idea and I don't know what it is.
Maybe it's the fact that she's validated for her disorder and gets to freely vent and be seen as sick by everyone? You're not a horrible person for wanting life to be easier by having people validate your ED.
No no, I totally get it. That whole movie was sooooo glamorized. When I went into treatment I expected it to be like that, haha nope. The truth is not pretty
Exactly. While watching the movie I didn’t feel scared and it didn’t make me think “I need to get better” it just motivates me because the idea of being as sick as her is what I want even though I know how bad that is
The thing is my parents always told me I was fat and made jokes about my weight and made me do sport to lose some weight and now I’m here scared of losing control
People how are controled by anorexia tends to believe that they are in control, but they're not. Ana takes control off their life in an away that they just notice that when the things really stop making sense. Don't let ana fool you making you feel that the decisions you're doing are your on choices. (I am not a native english speaker, so my english maybe not sound very clear, but I hope you understand what I said. You're strong ( •w•)o♡, keep fighting).
You are beautiful no matter what the scales says! :) I'm sure everyone in your surrounding wants you to be happy! And even though you might think that you are happier if you look like Ellen, you will not be happy at that weight either. I've been there. I know how you feel. Your happiness is NOT determined by your weight! Please seek medical advice :)
I am watching this after my recovery girls if I could you can. seriously these videos only made me feel worse so I got rid of them. I am almost in a healthy weight right now and i can make sure it's possible to get rid of everything anorexia bring in. I was 14 years old when I started
It's so bad when it's a constant battle between anorexia and bulimia. For one of them I hate feeling full and the other one I hate the awful feeling not of being full, but doing absolutely anything to make myself throw it all up to be empty again.
I don’t have an eating disorder (at least I have never been diagnosed with one) but I can’t beat the thought of eating-so I don’t. I go at least 5 days eating nothing and then my mum makes me eat. So I do. Most of the time, I just eat a very minimal amount because I don’t want to consume calories and gain weight. But today, she made me eat again and once I had started eating, I couldn’t really stop. I didn’t really ‘binge’ but I had more dinner than I had hoped to have and a few cookies. I was just so bloody hungry but from that alone, I’ve already gained a kg again and feel horrible, guilty and fat. I don’t want to ever eat again.
Ive been the same way... I think its got the signs of an ED so I think if I were you Id talk to someone you trust about it. going 5 days without food is nothing small, especially if you do it out of a fear of gaining weight. trust me, it can get much worse if you continue the cycle.
I REALLY WANT TO STARVE MYSELF TOO BUT IT'S SO HARD CUS IVE GONE FROM FASTING TO NOT BEING ABLE TO FAST.I BINGE EAT.I HATE MYSELF SM SO MUCH.I JUST WANT TO STARVE AND KEEP GOING WITHOUT FOOD.
I just met a friend who has ed, just like me. We relate with eachother, I love them but I know it's not good. What we do is not good but I'm not able to stop myself. I don't want her to go through this more though, I want her to feel better, to be better but I don't know what to do. How do I help them? I really want them to get better, it would break my heart if they get hurt..
I can't relate to this but I haven't been eating a lot for breakfeast. Then, I would skip lunch. And eat more than I can take after coming back from school. Then, I'd feel full for the rest of the day. Idk what this is, please help me clear up what i'm doing. Thank you.
hey, guys? could we not make this a proana comment section? i'm sure there are people here trying to recover from ed. please don't trigger the addiction. thank you.
Weird....when I feel ugly and fat I come here and watch, it makes me feel better?? I don't even know but I just feel the emotion cry myself...skinnyyy....so skinny
This past days, I hate myself for eating. Caused I gained a lot after this quarantine. After eating I always get guilty for myself. That's why sometimes I hurt myself for eating..
I eat and the next day starve myself and keeping doing it again today I ate too much I ate two meals and a pice of candy I ate myself for that idk what to do anymore I jus want to be skinny not fat
People been through had eating disorders skipping breakfast lunch dinner you stop eating that not normal damage your body and starve to death people pick you bullying you make fun you don't listen to them not listen haters out there mess their lives Tell them is my body positivity not change it's your fat and skinny girls and women have shapes and sizes both equal beautiful
Suan kendime soz veriyorum artik agzima tek birsey surersem mutfaga adim atarsam bi kere bile yemek dusunursem 43 kilo olana kadar herseyi yapicam suan 61 kiloyum ve bu rakamdan da kendimden de nefret ediyorum tek istedegim o kiloya ulasmak artik gercekten yoruldum, belki yanlis ama bunu kesinlikle yapicam.
I can't relate in anarexia and throwing up... Im just here because i enjoy them qnd i eat way too much, i watch it to trigger myself not to eat so much.
Hey darling, please don’t try to trigger yourself, u may hate how much your eating but please don’t force yourself to have bulimia or anorexia, there’s other ways for u to lose weight that don’t include harming yourself
Whoever is suffering from anorexia, I hope you heard, you are not choosing between fat and skinny, you are choosing between life and death. Bones don't look pretty, death is not pretty, hunger is not pretty. Pretty girls don't starve. We are here for you.
@@hikikom exactly. It’s funny when people who don’t have eating disorders go and say things like this as if they’ll be the ones to save us because it’s just “so simple”
@@vera8280 right they have some saviour complex It's just like other mental illnesses like depression you can't cheer someone up or cure them This my 5th relapse it's like My ed is the one whose controlling me