scatterbrain 33 y/o achieves nothing and lives in a mess 

“The concept of “mental health” in our society is defined largely by the extent to which an individual behaves in accord with the needs of the system and does so without showing signs of stress.” - Theodore Kaczynski

I have ADHD and used to be prone to depression. What fixed it was the smallest successes. It’s very hard to climb out of a hole. I had to fight as hard as I could possibly fight. The more you accomplish, the better you will feel. Keep accepting new challenges, and fight hard to overcome them. Change a lot of things around you. Even moving to a new location can be freeing. Adopt routines and add routines with the old ones. Always celebrate yourself for your accomplishments. I love routines that produce results, so that I can celebrate them. If everything is put away, celebrate your vacuuming to make it cleaner. Celebrate your dishes being washed, and your clothes folded and put away. It seems insignificant, but it’s highly important to adopt this celebration in your life. You got this!

He's just like me for real

I am keeping your cat in my prayers.

have you tried going without carbs for a few weeks, to see what it does for mental clarity? That means no sugar, pasta, rice, potatoes, alcohol.

I know. baby steps, that's it, thanx for putting this video out, that is success!

Jared, I think you are extremely talented. I was honored when we collaborated on a song together and we should do another one. I've got mental problems too and my apartment is a mess as well. 500 something songs is quite the accomplishment. You might want to consider seeing a pyschiatrist or therapist of some kind. I'm not doing it currently, but I find physical exercise to be a huge help with your mood. Just taking a walk can do so much for your mood. You're really loved. I care about you. Your friend, Brian.

Sorry about your situation. Being self-reflective like this and surviving as a human is a feat in of itself. I know we watch fiction and exalt this vision of what a strong person is, but we really are all strong for persisting in this world we were born into, which can be amazing but also very hard and filled with suffering. Think back on your past self and how often you dived deep into introspection like this. That process of looking inward and identifying your problems is a HUGE step towards change and growth. Don't undervalue what you've done so far. The music thing is awesome. Being depressed and doing nothing for so long taught me the value and joy of putting effort towards something. Willing to give your energy up to create something is a beautiful thing. I still fondly remember art I've created even if barely anyone got to see it. I was where you were years ago and what helped me make those changes I wanted was to re-learn some things properly. Learning how to learn, learning what proper focus is. Breaking down problems to their smallest components and then throwing my full focus at it. Its NOT TRUE that humans can multi-task. The key to getting things done is ultimate focus on the smallest piece of a problem you can break down, doing that over and over. There really is a zen you find when you're deeply focused on one thing. I'm sure you've experienced it being in the zone making music. If you can master that you can pursue anything and learn anything. If another human did it, you can do it. Truly I say this, its never too late to change. I course corrected around your age into a wonderful career. I know people who went back to school in their 50s and became successful. Many inventors and others of fame didn't get anything going until they were into old age! There is something to be said about everything we experience in life, you just need to be mindful and try to learn from everything. You look pale, so I'd say try to get more sun, try to eat healthier (Keto like diet), and try to exercise a little more too. I know its cliche but honest to god it really makes a huge difference if you've been inside and depressed for months. The key is to just be consistent and remember the little steps add up and eventually it tips over and you literally feel like a new human. There is hope to find in that I think.

It takes a lot of bravery to make a video this honest. It takes immense inner strength to confront oneself honestly. All in all great video, love to see stuff like this. You are right, people need real people in their lives, not the clean and sparkly "influencers" sucking our souls and wallets dry

I'm Only halfway through This and Your Being to hard on Yourself, Your Talking about It and That is Great, We Are Not Perfect, None of Us Are,We all Have Demons to deal With and I Think Your a Sweet,Kind,Talented Person,You Should be Proud of Your Writing, Took me almost 3 years to Write one Song..Always here if you want to Talk,Dont Worry about a Mess it Will Be There in the Morning,😂,Keep Rockin 🖤🙏👍

Suffering myself from mental problems I perfectly understand what you're talking about! Music helps me with my bad feelings and depressions! But sometimes we need real help! I have been for years in therapy and 2 times in hospital for 4 months! The hospital stays were the best thing that could happen to me! I've been taught so many things about how to handle the bad times and it gave me the time to find back to myself! Maybe you should consider to ask for help too! Wish you all the best! Hope you will find your way!

Love you Jared.

I just stumbled across this video Found it interesting and decided to follow. Appreciate your honesty.

I was 22 still living with my parents. Scared of everything. That's the main thing, fear, that's is the enemy. ADHD doesnt make you anything, YOU make these choices. "The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps." Proverbs 16:9. Love to you ❤

Great episode, Jared… For myself… I start small, and clean acounter or the table. I get overwhelmed when I have to clean the whole room… So I start small and then if I’m up to it clean the floor, maybe… You’ve got this bud!

Been there. Just start your 500 songs playlist and go tidying up. Calculate time in songs played. Start running 2 to 3x weekly, it's an active meditation activity. You must break the cycle with small gradual steps by creating new trivial habits.

I feel like you could be the next toby mguire spiderman. You sound just like him haha. Routine is key to adhd. You need it and even if you can't do it keep doing it when you can.

A lot of this sounds familiar to me, I think you will be fine. These thoughts you are speaking are intelligent positive thoughts. It's not how many times you fall it's how many times you pick yourself back up. Most things people do are guided my fear or love. Chose love and stay positive my friend. And I love your music !

Started eating my weed insted of smoking it, worked wonders for me my man! Cut back on the drinking when eating even. Keep your head up, life is tooshort to give up! We are proud of you bud! I started from nothing, if I can then you def can! Hit me up if there is anything I can do for you! Best regards Odin.

My house is 10 times worse than your place. I guess I have the same problem you have.

You should write more man. Like a book. I do. I hope my kids read it and realize how much thought I put into every decision. You should keep this up man. This path of finding yourself.

JESUS CHRIST loves you and desires you to turn to HIM and spend time with HIM

Keep going Bro, the cleaning and tidying is an important step. Now it looks like an impossible task, but it is really only 1 full day, so do it in little steps BUT DON'T STOP. Once that is done, it will never become such a task ever again if you just spend 5 mins. This will improve your surrounding and help clear your mind.

Tis the way of the warrior the riotous path

Life isn’t a straight line…believe in yourself, do what feels right for you and don’t let peoples negative opinions affect you. God put you here for a reason…enjoy the ups, grind through the lows, and join the rest of us poor slobs, whom are looking for a meaning to life, just as you are.❤

Psilocybin greatly helped me. I grew it myself. No need to trip your balls of either, a small dose will do.

Hang In There! Take Action One Step @ a Time In The Real World To Change Your Circumstance, Getting Started Is The Hardest Part!!!

There is so much crap in the world today which doesn't help.

man spring clean that johnn clean your room. swear itll make you feel a little Better.

Great video! I was very depressed and apathetic for my teens and early 20's until I realized I was severely intolerant of gluten. Cutting out gluten turned my life into technicolor within 2 weeks of being off gluten!! Now almost 15 years later, if I even eat a bite of gluten, the most intense feelings of despair, apathy, with anxiety and hopeless sets in! It also helped me tremendously with neurodivergent tendencies (toe-walking/ataxia, awkwardness, sensory issues) so much to the point that I think I was neurotypical the whole time and that gluten was making me neurodivergent if that makes sense. Also supplementing with methyl-B12 (activated form of B12, not cyanocobalmin which can't be metabolized by many people) and methyl-folate! Something to consider!

God bless !

Have you ever tried body doubling in order to work on a task? I found that just doing one stupid section like the table where your keyboard is helpful. Just put all the cans in the corner. But the deal is (that you make with yourself) is that can't put soda cans there anymore. Also watch hoarders and that helps me clean.

you are not alone

500 songs is alot. Thats something

I think you need to go to the gym, do a water fast once a month 2 or 3 days, cut the junk food and sugary drinks, this will help your clarity, also i would suggest talk to your doctor if he could prescribe Attentin, it works amazingly for ADHD, i was were you are, i'm not completely out of it yet, but i've been to the gym every other day for over a year, had a 1 hour eating window per day, started a cleaning business, almost finished taking my Motorcycle license, don't sit most of the day infront of your computer. Make goals for 2 years in the future, and do everything right now that will most likely get you to your goals in 2 years.

Nothing makes me more scatter-brained than when I let my house get messy Maybe hire a maid to get caught up & then do your best to stay on top of it It makes a HUGE different in mental clarity/stability

I did not need this recommended to me just so I feel attacked

Hello, Bandit, you are courageous enough to post your situation on the Internet. You are being way too hard on yourself. This negative thinking is not easy to overcome but you need to start doing things daily, and you will see the difference.

real.

I'm glad I'm not the only one ..

Just level up. Get pissed off and make a change bro. I know you can!

I think you’re too hard on yourself. I’m glad you’re now realizing that. Try not to think about it too much. Everyone….no matter our circumstances, goes through several emotions.…treat yourself with compassion! You got this!

pretty cool music

Curing procrastination is as little as realizing that starting to do something is the hardest part, and that once you're doing it, it's not longer difficult.

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First thing you need to do is cut to 10% body fat to remove brainfog

Become a robot that only makes good decisions for yourself, and then eventually, your conscious will follow. You’re acting like a loser, and you’re not one. Things will always to be hard for us neurodivergent folks. Only thing you can do is become even harder. Win or lose, it’s only your choice.

You’ve done it all before, and you’ll do it again bro. Try another method, learn what else don’t work, one day you’ll find the right thing. Plan A, screw the house, that’ll come when you want it. Like the day you want a bird round 😂😂😂.

Hey brother :) I just turned 30 and relate to what you've been through. Do you believe there is a God?

You are broken. It took me ages to realize I'm broken too. There are mental problems that are eternal, and will be there forever. In my case, it's basically Aspergers (not a """superpower"""", it fucking sucks). I'm 28, have a decent career, but can't find love due to my disgusting creepy-weirdo personality. It's over

You need to clean up your joint man, 0 chance of making progress when you live in absolute chaos.

Please look into catholicism ❤ it changed my life and i think it'll change yours too

Jordan Peterson helped me

Kratom helps

Depression and adhd is a social construct.

I have something similar Anyway From the river to the sea, Palestine will be free

Wanting to achieve anything is a fear of lack, just sit down on the beach and do nothing, what are you trying to prove. There will always be someone with more achievements than you so take it easy on yourself, success is enjoying life, not how many achievements you accomplished. 🙏🏿🪷