I'm more than okay thank you! I hope you're good also, I'm planning on returning to RU-vid in the coming months! Should be really fun & I have some art to show everyone
@@AlbinoFawnArt I just watched this video and had a look at your channel and saw you hadn’t posted for 3 years. I got very worried about you, so I’m very happy to read this! 😊
I got diagnosed with schizophrenia 19 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting this deadly disorder. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
I would like to know from those who have solved PTSD and anxiety, if they have solved it definitively and how to understand what quantity of psilocybin to take and when, for how long. And can you really heal without having an addiction? Thanks to everyone for helping me understand, I want to understand if it's something that can help me solve the problem (I have c-ptsd)
You’re very self aware, which is one of the most important keys to mental health recovery. I promise, everything will get better if you push through. Time heals.
It can be the meds, but a blank affect is an indicator of schizophrenia in itself, as is over sleeping. And honestly for any of you who haven't dealt with this get the F out of here with your anti-medication bull. This disease destroys people's entire lives, it truly is one mental illness where medicine is absolutely 100% *needed* to bring a human being back to life. I've seen patients STARVE themselves to the point of needing a feeding tube from paranoia, seen patients hide magic markers inside their own torn open surgical wounds, seen patients cry in terror because life for them is what we see in paranormal horror movies......you DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS AT STAKE HERE. Stop, for freaking real.
I want schizoaffective. If you have something that you really want in your life, spend lots of time thinking about it. The more you think the more ideas will pop up the more creative your gonna start to get. Your subconscious mind doesn't care if your vision is crazy. It doesnt care if you dont know how to do it. When you see a thing clearly in your mind, your creative "success mechanism" within you takes over and does the job much better than you could do it by conscious effort or willpower. A different psychedelic from a different planet every nanosecond. All sorts of dreams are possible. The human nervous system cannot tell the difference between an "actual" experience and an experience imagined vividly and in detail. Synthesize "experience," to literally create experience, and control it, in the laboratory of our minds. A vision is a very emotional image, the most powerful image that you can come up with for yourself at this time. This vision will become like a hallucination in other peoples mind and this could be the cause of them creating extraordinary things.
I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia as well. I was 24 when I was diagnosed. I can relate to everything you say. You are so strong and brave for sharing this. Makes me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you 💛
Skitzopheria is BS. People that they say are skitzo are actually just tapping into the spiritual realm. Skiitzo is just an explanation by doctors cause they don't know how else to explain it. I thought I was until I started recording the voices and got them on tape. I then realized I was hearing souls of humans that passed on. Especially my loved ones...I now xan hear my loved ones who have died of overdoses. Skitzophrenia is a lie. Made up by doctors
My wife had it too. She refused any real treatment and I know first hand how terrible it was for her. She was a bit older than you, 35 and had a kidney transplant also. I lost her last year to it. Sorry to subject that part to you but just DON'T give up.ever! You're stronger then you think. Always ask for help, even if every part of you says not to. Pray, sing, paint...whatever it takes, keep fighting it. Good luck to you kiddo and may God be with you.
Hun I think u r amazingly brave to put this video up! Thankyou for being so brave and explaining to us what it's like. It must be hell to have your brain function like that. You are amazing to have to deal with that. Never forget how amazing you are :)
I have a child diagnosed with autism and anxiety and sensory issues. But he's still too young to figure out what else might be wrong. He's very violent and has said his brain tells him to kill ppl and himself and stuff and when he was younger he said there were two men in his brain telling him bad things, now he describes it as a good brain (blue) and a darkness brain. I don't know if he's bipolar or has schizophrenia or something or if it's just a way of describing his difficult thoughts at his age level. He doesn't say stuff like that when it's quiet and calm for him, I think it's when he's overloaded sensory wise. But at this stage I can't tell. So as a Mum of a kid with problems like that I really feel for you and think you're wonderful for telling us your story cos it helps us to understand it and get rid of the stereo types of someone who struggles with what you do.
heal urself I know this comment isnt for me but it struck a chord in me. The child is very sensitive and it can be hard to understand if people around the child are not. As we grow older we disconnect from that sensitvity. Its within us all,but some of us cant. The tone of a voice we feel deeply, we feel peoples energies-we feel everything. As I said this is actually our natural state of being but in a world that has become very hard it can be painful to have it. If you can truely understand how sensitive the child is the suffering will naturally leave. When we are sensitive because we feel everything deeply we can become angry,frustrated. But remember not to treat that,its a by product if such feeling. Be as gentle as can be,love deeply and look into what it is like for a sensitive child. Beyond any diagnosis . Your child can live a more incredible life than most because they are tuned in,but the sensitivity needs to be nurtured. X
No and yes! Our brains are apart, but you can feel bad energy and i swear its the devil or evil. Good visions (Gabriel) is definately god. God bless man!!!
@@hobbygaertner420they never said anything about her suffering, weirdo. Just her appearance, most likely. Stop willingly misconstruing what someone else is saying so you can justify being rude. Stay classy.
I’m so sorry for everything you go threw , it sounds so exhausting and hard , I could never imagine having to deal with all that. You are so pretty , I hope things gets easier for you
I’m so sorry you’ve been struggling for so long. Please hold onto the people that love you dearly, at the end of the day they are the ones that keep us going. I love you! 💛
I wish I understood more about schizophrenia so I could truly empathize with people who suffer from this terrible disorder. You seem like a very sweet young lady and I wish you the best. Stay strong.
Sending good vibes and love your way! My husband, my sister and both of my aunts are schizophrenic so we deal with it a lot in our family. Don’t forget you’re not alone in this!!! we are all thinking of you and praying for you sweetie!!! Stay strong love, you got this!!! Xoxo❤️ To those of you who think you know what you’re talking about and have suggested that she doesn’t take her medication, shame on you. you have no idea what this completely incapacitating disease does to the individual or their families......
You are so amazingly brave for sharing your story because it does sounds scary what you deal with. I wish you the best of luck with everything, stay strong
This is the most genuine video I've seen about this subject so far. You are a very strong person! :) I wish you the best. Things will get better! :) I hope you are reading all these nice comments :)
Wow this is horrible I really want to hug you rn :( I’m very very sorry that anybody would feel like this. You’re so brave, it’s incredible. I hope you get better :)
It's great of you to tell your story, there's not that many representatives for schizophrenic people. You probably made some of people feel alot more normal and related to not to mention less alone in their struggle. Good luck in the future
What I've always wondered is if you hear the voices like another person/being telling you whatever or like a stream of conciousness...like random taughts and conversation with yourself...btw i have so much respect and admiration for you for just being able to get up and go on after all of the things that you have experienced...I really just want to hug you and be your friend...you seem so lovely x
🥺 I’m so sorry you have to deal with this. I just want to go and be your friend, give you a hug and protect you from everything. Things will get better love, it won’t always be so hard. Things will get easier, take it day by day. You got this. Also, random, but you give me heavy Alice in wonderland vibes❤️ you are so adorable.
You are an amazing young lady to have the guts to talk about your condition so candidly. Just know that you are not alone. I have always thought of myself as a manly man and I literally lost it about two minutes in and cried more than I've ever cried in my life.
Thankfully I dont have schizophrenia but my best friend does snd my mother was severely bi polar/manic depressive with bouts of psychosis and I am so so sorry, beyond any words I can express, for anyone living with this horrible disease. I wish you peace and contentment with all my heart. Just know that there are people in the world that love you and want you to be happy. Remember that you are worthy of love, you deserve to be happy. Find something everyday to be thankful for, even if its just comparing two bad things, be thankful for the less bad option. Practice gratitude everyday. Be as positive as you can. Train your brain to be happy. I'm routing for you. Be strong 🙏
I wish you all the strength in the world, really it most be horrible to deal with this and i will hope that one day it will get better. Until then i will pray that you have at least a few days where the voices and hallucinations aren't as bad. Courage and lots of luck to you
I've always suspected that schizophrenia is your frequency tuning into another demention. Kind of how you have the radio dial half way tuned to one station, but still hear the other. Like she said, she feels like she's in a different universe.
@@LoreleiSiren277 I have it. Got the diagnosis 4 years ago. And it is more or less. The thought on how a sixth sense could be understood today rather than how it was perceived long ago is quite different. Chemical imbalances isn't really the entire reasoning for this happening. I'll agree it might be a reaction within the process that's taking place. But if chemical imbalances is all the psychologists have to go on after decades of knowing about Schizophrenia then it has failed to acquire really any satisfying confidence. They would rather create test medications than to actually research it thoroughly. After hundreds of years of this phenomenon one could possibly presume that this might be just an actual function in the body. Though if I should be one to talk about this within a realm of psychological correctness and to come up with a more scientific approach I would say this is a more Subconscious factor that is taking place here. One does not have to be unconscious in order for subconscious influences to occur. So seemingly there is a sixth sense, to say the subconscious is that sense. And also to say that "schizophrenia" is a very ultimate form of subconscious influence. If you were to think that the subconscious is only limited to moving the body and talking for the person while one is blackout drunk or when one is sleepwalking, you would have to highly reconsider your contentment. Let me ask you some things. How much control do you think you actually have over your body? When you make eye contact with an attractive stranger and the moment becomes awkward, Do you scratch your head knowing it's not itchy? Rub your nose real quick and look away? Something close like that? And you would be making those reactions willingly? I doubt that would be the case. And so it's unwillingly then.. And you don't have a problem with that? You just shake it off or seemingly try not to think about it, Right? Just like those who have voices in their heads, you have things within yourself that seemingly can't be controlled. Only difference is that they have a stronger influence and you don't, least for moment. If you accept your mind you can be capable of anything.
You look like you're doing really well!! Keep it up and just take care of yourself. And good for you for being open about what this is really like for people, so many don't understand what you have to go through.
Nice room I like your style I have Schizoeffective disorder, :( I used to think I was Evil but then realized I was thinking of horrorbile Violence without knowing or wanting to
@koffinkat666 as long as you continue to be influenced by satanism you are gonna be schizophrenic and depressed. The devil simply just doesn't give any comfort or hope
Great to hear your voice. Please read up on the medication you are taking. I've never been on percribed medication, but once I took what I thought was ecstasy it literally made my vision, thoughts and emotional actions become like a movie. I knew it was not real. It took 12 hours before it left. It made me realize how people live with this all year long. The best advice is eat healthy, drink healthy (no tap water) exercise, keep telling yourself you can use this to become stronger. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger. You will feel better and will give you strength. You need to rise above it. Make it your challenge. I will pray for you young woman. God bless. You have to fight it...
bugs kind of hallucination is the one terrifies and disgusts me the most when i hear them from schizophrenics and i also get proud of them to actually going through such a nightmare!
My grandmother was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia at age 20. she used to call the police all of the time thinking that someone was in the house. this caused a lot of trauma for her two daughters and husband. Later in life she would say that "hatchet men would come and take pieces of here at night" but when she took her meds she said that it was only a dream. this issue can sometimes be detected by an MRI .. showing the shrinking of the front part of the brain. remember always that life is just but a dream and one day today is always going to be a memory tomorrow. You are alive and that is what you should love about yourself. and never give up. - Churchill This is not a subject to hold lightly. it's vital to many, many people even my family.
I think you're very brave for coming forward to complete strangers about your experiences. It takes guts to do that. I think I have undiagnosed schizophrenia. My psychiatrist says my hallucinations, delusions, and dissociative episodes are uncommon for someone with schizophrenia and that it's more likely to be my autism spectrum disorder (ASD). Has anyone else had a similar experience with the mental health profession?
Aloha and Mahalo. Stay Strong. And understand how special you are. Thank you for explaining your experiences. I can completely relate and i understand how challenging juggling your condition on top of life is. Your story will help many others take consideration and time to get to know you and others like you. Everyone is unique in their own way, fighting a battle no one knows about, until you spread awareness. Love One Another.
You are so strong for sharing all of this so candidly with people. I think you will be a great help to many people who see this. I wish you all the best in life and in dealing with this condition.
hope you're doing well... i'm 23 and had severe psychotic episode 3 yrs ago and suffered with symptoms ever since... love the way you communicate it's very therapeutic for me to watch and relatable. love
I look at you and see how exhausting this life has been. 20 hours of psychology and never once did a professor take us through a daily journey of someone with your condition, I am very thankful for your strength to paint a vivid picture for me and those of us who are privileged. Here’s to finding a fucking cure tomorrow. And if not, then the day after, or the next one, or the next. You’ve just gotta keep going a little further and hang in there, you will find your peace.
Hi there, sorry that you're going through some troubles, I have a friend who deals with schizophrenia too, I was wondering if wearing shades would help you as it's been recorded that blind people don't develop schizophrenia, so maybe if you have less visuals when you're upset it won't be as bad for you. A dog might help to reaffirm what is and isn't there for you and maybe someone to talk to when you're having bad times, I think music is a useful tool along with drawing what's scary and depicting stories to connect that back to reality to help. It's also good to talk to the voices and be critical of what they say to you, ask them why they believe those ideas, joke to them about it. Medicine is important and a good diet can help, I suffer from panic disorder but taking magnesium and growing my own food really helps along with a routine where you do things you enjoy, It may seem bad but you have control and I do hope you have more better days, you're doing great.
Memes solve everything. I have anxiety which isn’t related at all to schizophrenia but man oh man did I make a lot of friends through memes and even got rid of my anxiety. Now I don’t really know how many friends you have and ik that won’t exactly help with your condition but just know the weirdest things can help. What will help you? Just keep on looking my friendo. Also it’s pretty cool that you uploaded this to let idiots understand schizophrenia and it doesn’t make you insane. (Catatonic schizophrenia is whole other story tho, that one is kinda creepy though really sad)
poor you baby, i have ocd because of something bad that happened to me and it was a bit my fault. it's been almost 4 years and it's in my head hauting me in every second. i'm watching your video to understand it muhc more and to educate myself though i will never be a doctor unfortunately.
Sounds like pure torture of the mind! Poor thing, sorry for your suffering, I hope one day soon you become cured and have no need to take medicines to function! All the love!
i suffer from schizophrenia and anxiety and recently I've been hallucinating a women in the corner of my eye or when I'm in the bath or washing my face or walking so it sucks and when I wake up i hear voices or when I'm eating , normal stuff. in my situation I try and ignore them but when they get really bad it scares the hell outta me .
I wish you the best and I'll be praying for you. I also suffer from this horrible disease. Best thing you can do is to Keep talking about it. It has more power when you try to ignore them and act like its not there. Do as much research on this as you can. There are new amazing meds and techniques coming out. Hey at least we don't have this disease in the early 40s or 50s. We would have been thrown away but now we at least have a chance of some type of normal life. Stay strong!
My Nan had schizophrenia very bad and so did many other of my family members. I myself have many mood disorders and am failing school completely right now because of it. I'm not being negative or saying i'm in the same boat completely but i try to understand schizophrenia as best i can cause so many of my loved ones have had it. Please if you need to use nicotine like many people with mental illnesses vape and don't smoke cigarettes, my Nan died at 51 because of and one of my other family members had an heart attack. I have high functioning autism so it's hard for me to socialize very well because of it so i often lock myself away for a bit. Anyway i just wanted to say your not alone and i'm sure i'm a lot like you in many ways. Please just remember to live life the best you can and if it's not good enough for some people then fuck em.
You are an incredibly strong person I have so much respect for you. I’m so sorry this happens to you. You are giving people that go through this comfort, you’re the light in the darkness.
You and your friends deserve a civil service award seriously the magnet and the glass idea is practical for using seat belt buckles for breaking the glass on windows good job you genius Heroes...
As an outsider it seems like your mind cannot make the distinction between reality and fantasy so that the fantasy seems real and potentially terrifying. I wonder it it's some legacy thing in the sufferer's brain from evolution, because it seems quite primitive - and by that I mean paranoia as a form of a defense mechanism from predators etc
I have absolutely no malicious intent and I am open to people educating me on the subject and correcting my thoughts on it as it is interesting to me. Starting in the forums of RU-vid is a legitimate starting point. I did a tonne of research on toxic narcissism for example, starting on RU-vid forums and watching videos and then reading books on the subject later on as I've known someone for many years who only recently I discovered had that particular condition. There must be a reason behind why schizophrenia exists and I'm interested in knowing why; toxic narcissists for example have no borders and people who are like that can be found in different, countries, cultures, genders and races - the same I believe could be said of schizophrenics. With toxic narcissists I believe it's a primitive/ legacy survival mechanism gone haywire at the expense of others where the person with such a trait does not view other people as a normal person does, can be utterly cruel, deceptive and devious and cannot feel true love or empathy for example. There has to be a reason why Schizophrenia manifests itself in people and pervades across different groups.
you are so sweet.. an amazing human.. I'm sorry you have to go through this.. i wish their was a cure that would help you get through it easier.. this breaks my heart :/
This video just came up as recommended to me. I noticed it's been a fair few months since you uploaded...7 to be exact, & I thought I'd type this in hopes that if you needed to, you'd see it. I just wanted to let you know that you seem like such a dear girl & you did a very good job explaining some of your life experiences up to this point. In fact, I'm SURE there's someone out there, struggling with mental illness, feeling less alone for having watched this. I am hoping you're finding yourself healthy & well & I wish you nothing but the best. Btw- don't EVER pay any mind to those voices telling you things like you're worthless! I am fully aware of how absolutely real they are to you, as I am a licensed therapist, but they are most certainly NOT correct! You are a sweet & valuable young lady who deserves happiness & health & anyone or anything telling you otherwise is just WRONG.😊❤
It sounds like the mind is stuck in limbo between processing reality and generating dreams. Aldous Huxley talks about this in his book "The doors of perception." But how to snap out of this? I do a spot of Astral Projection and when my body is going into paralysis I hear voices, but they quickly pass. The dream mind is switching on and when complete I continue consciously into a dreamlike reality, minus the voices. If there was some way of completely snapping the mind out of that hypnagogic state... I know that certain foods can prevent you from Astral Projecting and some foods aid it. I wonder too if a patient was able to completely go into the Astral, then consciously come back would there be a reset in the brain? Whatever circuit in the brain that allows that process to happen may be reset. The brain might say, "ok, we are now back in reality... release hormones XYZ to keep us there.." Like turning something off and on again, as the IT Crowd would say. Hmmmmm!
You're an amazing person. Not so long ago your issues were perceived to be so bad but nowadays people with mental health issues are much more accepted. Keep up the good work I wish you all the best! Stay classy!
Such a precious little angel. Darling, You're just so... gorgeous. Not a bad bone in her body. I wish you all the luck in the world. You're stronger than you'll ever know. Keep taking your meds & remember the condition tends to get less severe as you go through life. Hopefully you'll be able to stay out of hospital & live a normal life - you're such a little gem. You only deserve the best you poor little thing... apologies for being so patronising but I just had to leave a comment as you've taken my breath away tonight Emily. You take care.
You said you hit people in the past because the voices told you to. When the voices speak and tell you to do things, is it like you have no chance to refuse to do as they say? Do you do it because it seems reasonable? Does it feel better when you obey them? Can you now, or do you think it will be possible in the future, listen to them but essentially ignore them as if they were a radio station playing in the background? In my case I'm diagnosed as autistic and it does seem that autism is almost a cousin of schizophrenia. Many overlapping symptoms, almost like schizophrenia but without hallucinations outside moments of extreme stress (apart from autism specific issues like an inability to connect with people and the obsessions, for example). I write fiction and do a lot of freewriting, and many of the stories that come out when it flows make some of the characters or situations like belonging to schizophrenia, as if the schizophrenic symptoms were happening in my subconscious but I am not conscious of it.
Kivalt I can't speak for everyone, but in my experience it's not about trusting the voices or anything like that. It doesn't feel good to obey them at all, but it "keeps them happy" for a while so you can feel like you've done the right thing but then you realize it's not.
I suspected something like that, that the voices are abusing the person and that you have to placate them until they start again. As if they were an alcoholic, violent parent.
Kivalt I suppose, I'm not sure what that is like since I've never been alcoholic, but I understand the concept. If you look at it from a religious perspective, it's similar to the devils whisper. Another thing to compare it to would be like listening/talking to your doppelganger..
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Hi, that's a beautiful relation. Yes, voices are like an alcoholi-violent parent tellling you to buy cigarrettes or giving you alcohol to fall asleep. Then wont stfu unless you obey and it is so painfull. When you lie, when you do stuff you dont want to but just want to be quiet for a while. Most of the time I feel like it's my seld talkin inside my head but it will be so painfull to know that its me making my self be this way.
I can ignore some voices, but some telling me i have to do things or else my mom and sister will die or someone will cut off my legs while i sleep and i get very scared and i must do what they say....
I dont mean to be disrespectful or anything but she seems so dead inside, i wonder if its just because shes sad from the topic or if its the medication. im only just learning about schizophrenia and i feel so bad people have to go through this.
Dibidibidis MyNameIsMinho Yeah she looks exhausted and maybe a bit depressed. I'm glad that she made progress though and I bet she'll continue to get better over time (:
Dibidibidis MyNameIsMinho it's the meds and the schizo that slows down soeach because she has to do more thinking than you. And her life isn't always so happy go lucky.
Its the meds...serquel makes me like this. Luckily not on it anymore, so a bit better as current meds not as strong. BUT has always been worst side effect for me
i want to hug you #nopedo :) i have autism and sometimes the environment sound reaches level Airplane. If this happens i go into myself and my brain makes a voice out of the monotonous airplane sound because i dont understand the expressions behind the maginal looks on me. Sorry for my grammaticle errors iam from germany. Do something creative, paint, mold, ask for a pet. if you concentrate everything 1 point there is no room left for the voices in your head. i wish you gl, you will do it you are a cute girl.
wow, you're unbelievably brave and strong for doing this, so hang in there, so many people learn to manage this illness, nothing to be ashamed of, this isn't your fault. i know it's not the same thing but i tried to quit smoking about 20 times before i did, so the key is to realize every step you take in helping yourself is like building blocks, you may not see the progress sometimes but it's there, the key is to never stop trying until it becomes something you aren't afraid of anymore.
Was really hoping you weren't American, wish granted People, this isnt about beauty...the comments are halfway useless This shits real- Have you had any dental issues? PANDAS can do some crazy things to young minds (convinced its all around an issue)