I always felt unhappy. I couldn't die on my own and didn't need a will. I had nothing to say. I was just scared for tomorrow, a month and a year from now. I wanted to die because of my family, but I'm afraid I'll let go of the accumulated resentment. I'm a survivor of a violent family. I am a single woman with a large age gap with my parents. I had dementia and had to quit my job and protect my parents. Last year, my parents died three months apart, and I collapsed under a lot of stress. All that was left was a sore body and heart. But now it hurts. I was confident until my father passed away, and I was left with only a scar. I'm in therapy, and it keeps crumbling. But if you look at the video, there's a life like that. It's cool. I envy you. You can learn a whole different life. Thank you.
