That's really awesome that you're working on overcoming your fear of connection! It's a common feeling, especially for Gen Z. There are also some great online resources specifically aimed at Gen Z on overcoming social anxiety and building connections.
Loneliness in a relationship can be incredibly painful. It's a feeling of isolation and disconnection even though you're with someone. We're here to listen. You can also find resources online or consider talking to a therapist who specializes in couples communication.