So... Where Have I Been? An Honest Chat. 

one like is one hug for Eve! xxx *sending hugs*

I think your hair looks really pretty!! I wouldn't worry about it too much :)

“Someone who drowns in 7 feet of water is just as dead as someone who drowns in 20 feet of water” One of the hardest parts for me with my mental health was comparing myself to others and feeling like I’m not ill enough to receive help but I promise you, that’s far from true. Mental health has been the hardest thing I’ve been through and will probably be the hardest thing I will ever have to go through. I’ve been diagnosed with BPD, OCD, depression and adjustment disorder. It’s so difficult because the one thing that makes us humans (our mind, personality and consciousness etc) is what mental illness takes away. I was barely recognisable at my worst, almost a shell of a person. In terms of education, it’s cliché but mental health comes first. By the time I finish university I will be 2 years behind my year group. And that was hard to deal with considering the first thing people saw me for was my academic ability. I’ve just finished sixth form after 3 years and to be honest I never thought I would have been able to get to this point. My mental health has been at its worst throughout my time at sixth form: I had 2 admissions to a psychiatric unit and my mental illnesses quite frankly almost killed me on multiple occasions. And coming to the end I am so glad I still fought to get my a levels despite everything. Sure I’m only going to have 2 and the grades are nowhere near what my past self would have been capable of but now I know that that’s irrelevant because I survived and that’s all that matters. Wow this comment turned into an essay and a half. I do apologise!! You’re so brave for posting this and I really hope things get easier for you. Just know that things can and will get better, I’m living proof of that x

Proud of you always & love you so much💗

As someone whose struggled with their mental health for years, including having to drop out of university because of it, my biggest advice to everyone is going to see the GP. It took me years to finally admit to myself that I needed medication. Having now been on it for several years I wish I’d done it sooner! The stigma around anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medication sucks.

As a former Oxford student, I really really sympathise. I'd never really struggled with my mental health to the extent that I did when I was there. The combination of constant deadlines, constant pressure to do well, and constant criticism if you don't, is very very difficult to deal with for a young person, especially when none of that gives you time to relax and de-stress. I used to feel guilty even taking half a day off because it would put me so behind on my work. The mentality there of 'unless you're actually dying, you must do your work' is so so unhealthy, and I think it's one of the biggest reasons why students there have bigger problems with mental health issues than any other university in the UK. It made me feel like I had to somehow glue myself together and get through even at my absolute worst moments, because I wasn't allowed to fall apart. I had a very similar journey to you with mental health in my first year and my heart goes out to you. There are lots of support groups for women at the university on facebook -- if you want me to add you to any of them let me know :).

I don't think you should feel like you owe us anything. The majority of your viewers understand the difficulty of life, and whilst it's appreciated, you shouldn't feel pressure to say anything because ultimately everyone wants what's best for you. It's very sad to hear what happened to you but I'm glad you're on track to getting better.

Any video of yours is a blessing, but your mental health should always take priority over youtube and your subscribers 💕 don't ever hesitate to take a break from yt if that's what you need x

I’m having to hold back tears watching this, because I know exactly how you feel Eve. I also started at Oxford in October (I actually saw you on matriculation day, but I didn’t have the guts to say hi!)- I was doing English at Wadham, and found the whole experience to be utterly horrific. My mental health declined so severely over the first 6 weeks of Michaelmas, to the point where I wasn’t sleeping, wasn’t eating, and I was barely leaving my room, crying all the time and feeling constantly anxious. In the end, I decided to leave Oxford as it wasn’t the right place for me to be, and it wasn’t worth putting myself through all of that for the sake of a degree that my heart wasn’t in to begin with. I know how unbelievably tough an environment the Oxford sphere can be Eve, I hope you’re doing better now xx

Girl no!! Your hair looks lovely there’s no need to apologise💕

This feels like an OG Eve Bennett style video sat in your bedroom and I am here for it!💗 Hope your ok Eve, we all support you

Honestly one of the hardest things about mental health is realising that even though people may have it “harder” than you, doesn’t mean that your problems or issues have any less value ❤️ it has taken me a while to come to that realisation and honestly hands up to you for posting this raw and honest video, sending love

Look after yourself this summer, Eve. You are so wonderful for carrying on through such a tough year. Lots of love xx

I’ve basically been live commenting but hearing you say “I’m gonna be proud of my results no matter what” makes me so so happy, I know you’re still struggling but this just is showing how much you’re grown and that you have many happy days ahead!

1. Your hair looks beautiful and so do you and those eyebrows are PENG. 2. Don’t ever feel like you have to be tell us why you took a break. It’s your channel, and whatever you do we’re here to support you. 3. Your mental health comes first ABOVE EVERYTHING ELSE. Sometimes the hardest thing to do is ask for help and acknowledge that you’re not ok. And leaving school makes you realise who’s gonna actually be there for you in the long-run. But there’s also people who will be there for you and want the best for you who make those other people don’t matter. Ive lost people from school and that I’ve known for YEARS.....but I also gained the most supportive people during that time. We all go through difficult points in our life and it’s all about how to cope with it. You’re doing amazing Eve, thank you for being honest with us and congrats on completing your exams!❤️ Enjoy your holidays! You deserve it. From a fellow worrier/warrior.

So much love 💞

So proud of you for getting through these tough times, we support you whatever you choose to do. It is so hard to admit things to ourselves sometimes but you are so strong. Have an amazing holiday x

It takes so much strength to ask for help when you’re struggling, and I’m honesty incredibly proud of you for doing so. Sending you lots of love and I hope you have the fantastic summer that you deserve! 💕

Thank you for sharing it and no matter what happens you’ll always be an incredible role model. Especially after this video where you have showed that nobody is perfect and everybody goes through problems and struggles, it’s just about how you penultimately deal with them.

Taking control of your mental health is different for everyone but at the end of the day it comes from within and that's the most painful but STRENGTHENING thing I promise you. Love you girl x

Danke für das ehrliche Video! Diese Ehrlichkeit in Bezug auf psychische Probleme ist so wichtig! Werde gesund, kümmere Dich um Dich und genieße den Sommer. Ich wünsche Dir alles gute für Deinen Weg! Du schaffst das und ich hoffe Du fühlst Dich bald besser!

Thank you so much for sharing- I am about to start year 13 and have been watching your videos for a while, and not that I would want you to ever feel lo this, but it’s reassuring to know that even the strongest people can struggle and it’s not a weakness. I hope you have an awesome summer and break, v well earned, and year 2 isn’t ready for the come back of Eve! 💛

I can resonate to so many of the thing you've said, thank you for doing this. I reached out a year and a half ago now and like you said it is the most freeing thing. What you said about ppl waiting for u and being like I knew, I specifically remember when I first did talk to someone (a counsellor at school) she was like its pretty apparent that at this point you've admitted there is a problem and you need help telling people and i vividly remember her saying that 'the people at home will be relieved because they will know somethings been wrong and they'll just be happy your getting help' and i had a conversation with my mom that night after she'd called her and she was like i knew something was wrong but couldn't help if you werent open to admitting it. Its really helped me to hear you say these things, you're so brave. Thank you

I'm so proud of you for getting help and also for sharing this and showing people that it's okay not to be okay. I wish I could hug you rn and I'm so sorry I couldn't give you my time in Trinity bc I was my own stress ball ❤❤❤

you're such an inspiration, thank you so much for everything. i hope you feel better soon x

I just wanted to take the time to say I am so proud of you for reaching out and getting the help, the most difficult stage of recovery is admitting you need help! It's onwards and upwards from here Eve

Appreciate you being so honest. On a lighter note - you hair and skin are glowingggg🤩xx

You’re doing so well- hearing you discuss mental health makes me feel better and less alone with my own anxiety which is so important. You’re probably one of the realest influencers i follow and I’m so grateful that you’re willing to take care of yourself through breaks when you need them ❤️ I’m starting A-levels in September so I obviously don’t know that much about uni but please please please take time for you and relax this summer! Xx

Well done for getting the help you needed! That's super brave! You're hair is looking stunning and I'm looking forward to your videos over the summer xx

thank you for this, 💛 i felt/still feel these things, glad to know I'm not alone . Take care of yourself Eve!

This was so brave of u to post. I really relate to the struggles you mentioned in its video and hope you're OK xx

So happy you're back!! and your hair looks fab tbh! xxx

Thank you so much for sharing this Eve, this couldn’t have been easy to talk about. Please don’t compare your struggle to others by the way! You are allowed to have lows and feel awful without having to justify it as “other people have it worse.” You are amazing and I’m so happy to see you on the mend. Hope you have an amazing summer 💛

Literally feel the same way right now. My mental health has been a huge problem for me this whole year and it has caused bad outcomes. Knowing this makes me feel less alone. Thank you for this 💕💕

i’m SO proud of you. you deserve the best always and seeing how strong you’ve had to be is truly inspiring. the fact you’ve realise yourself that you weren’t okay and were strong enough to actually ask and get help is something to be so proud of, it isn’t easy but you’ve taken such a huge and important step towards getting better

Eve, I completely understand you. I just finished my GCSEs and revision didn’t feel possible because my mental health was so low. I have anxiety and I know that my exams have not gone as well as my parents want but I could only do what was good for me. Try to stay smiling because it will get better and grades don’t define you xx

I also relate to university friends being really there for you. In my experience, my university friends SAVED me and were so supportive and there for me in more ways than I can count. I'm so glad you had that support as well.

This one hurt to watch, but it’s good to see that you’ve surrounded yourself with good friends 💗 P.s your summer makes mine look beyond depressing, just working 24/7 😭

thank you for being so honest eve, i went through a stage in school where i can really relate to how you are feeling (blaming myself, feeling down and not keeping on top of things) it took me a while to get help but i promise it gets better. As someone i look up to you’ve made me feel so much more less alone xxx

I am so glad you are getting help and it's getting better. It's so hard to admit to yourself that not everything is ok, especially if you're used to everything being great. Oxford is a very intense uni, and you may have been putting pressure on yourself to do as well as you did in your GCSEs and A levels. I had similar pressure problems with the jump from GCSE to A level and these last two years for me have been hard as I beat myself up about not being able to be as good as I was at GCSE. The grades I get in August are going to be the ones I get, and I can't change that. Like you, I didn't even think I was able to sit my exams this year and I just felt like a failure. But we, and many other people made it. Keep working at getting better, I spent some months talking with my school counsellor which helped, and now I'm much better. I hope your personal situations resole soon, you have a lovely summer, and have a much more enjoyable second year! lots of love xx

Your hair makes you look so mature but in like a good way hahaha ! It looks amazing and you look like a cool young adult x

I hope the summer is a nice little break for you. I myself have also had a tragic first year experience, I could relate to so much of what you were saying 😔 I wish I could make all the bad stuff disappear for you, (from what I was feeling the first year, I wouldn’t want anyone to ever feel that, so I hope things will start looking up for you) 💗

You are so so strong. Take each day as it comes, I completely understand what it feels like, keep going, you’ve got this girl 💛

I’ve only recently come across your channel and this video has resonated with me so much. I have had a lot of problems this year as well and it was only when I double failed an exam (having never failed anything before) that I finally asked for help. It’s a long slow journey but I feel so much better already and although nothing is fixed yet I’m working on it and taking time for myself. My biggest thing is trying not to feel selfish for needing to take time out for some self-care and recharge but we’re all working on ourselves together and I am so glad that you are on a more positive journey now

I’ve been in a very similar situation this year... Started uni in September and I’ve just felt like crap since, constantly wanted to just drop out, ive struggled with my mental health, struggled to make friends and literally cried every night at uni, it’s awful. I seriously struggled during exams.. and failed one, something I’ve never done before as I’ve always been an academic person, so that wasn’t easy. I’ve realized my home “friends” aren’t really my friends and yea.. just hoping this years uni goes better

You’re so brave to be doing this Eve, everyone has a time in their life where they struggle with mental health. Your doing insanely well and I wish you all the best 💗

Sending you so so so much love!!! I know exactly how you were feeling, I was in the same situation these past few months. Academia is so tough. Mental health is so so important and takes a while to 'fix' and get better, but once you're better you'll feel so much better than ever. You're not alone, thank you so much for sharing

Thank you for making this video, I really appreciate you sharing all of this and it was extremely brave of you to do so - I'm praying for you that you get a full recovery mentally and that you can use this summer to rebuild and refind yourself again, you deserve an amazing summer. This video was very relatable for me, I've just finished my A2 exams, and honestly felt like this describes how I've been feeling the last few months. This was a real help for me Eve

i love you you're a true inspiration. not academically - you're the kind of person i aspire to be. smile kiddo, you're doing fab

Eve you look amazing!! We're all here for you baby! You are so strong and will get through these tough times ☺️❤️

Hi Eve, As someone who has experienced something similar in the past, thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I have always felt that my identity is one defined by grades and academia as it is my clearest "talent" and a topic that I could easily channel all of my energies into. For so long, I worked myself into the ground for the same reasons as you - the desire for control and a feeling of being ungrateful and wasting an education that so many people are deprived of. I couldn't understand why I was stuck in a rut that was too deep to climb out of when I should have all the resources I needed. I remember feeling so powerless to almost feel robbed of my brain, the one asset I was defined by. And of course, each person is independent but one of the things that have helped me most was hypnotherapy. My mind kept wavering but this was the one thing my brain could centre on and feel some sense of achievement from doing very little. Also, I constantly felt like I was wasting time by being down but from my experiences, and seemingly yours also, you find your closest friends and a far greater understanding of what's important. You are so strong and such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story: not only to educate us about mental health but to normalise and allow others to accept and come to terms with the same issues. You are never alone. Love, Holly.

Thank you for sharing this!! It’s so important for people to know that it is okay to not be okay! Asking for help and admitting there is a problem is the first step xxxxx

Hey Eve You are so brave for posting this video- I admire you for being able to admit that you don’t have to be perfect as that takes some serious strength. Keep on going- I know how harsh mental health can be when it gets to you. You’ve got this girl ❤️

I’ve had a similar situation in my second year of university. I struggled throughout my first year but in second year everything was so much harder and there was so much more work I couldn’t cope. It took me having a full mental break down to admit I wasn’t ok but I eventually sought help, got a diagnosis, got medication and put myself on a waiting list for therapy. It’s been a few months now and I’m doing so much better. It’s still hard sometimes and sometimes things will build up again but struggling does offer perspective and things will get easier as time passes.

Wow, what you just described is exactly how I've been feeling and how I always start feeling when I'm in a bad place. I've never heard anyone describe it so spot on: The constant extreme worrying, trying to talk about it but also trying to not admit (to other people or yourself) that you aren't on top of it, feeling annoying and overly dramatic, feeling like you're not in control, being scared of how you're feeling, inability to concentrate, feeling like you should be happy but you're not, your brain feeling loud somehow, beating yourself up about everything all the time, all of those things. My brain feels weirdly itchy or like it's filled with static and I can't turn it off. In the past, these feelings were what made me self harm to try to feel in control and to silence all the noise etc. Thankfully I've got better coping mechanisms to turn to now.

This is so so so brave of you Eve! During my whole A-Levels I learnt that mental health is not granted and that to be in a bad state of mind is nothing unusual or nothing uncommon. I always thought that to be ill mentally is the same as being crazy and I would have never imagined it to be so easy to loose control over that part of your body, but it is. Therefore I understand all your hesitation and worries before you’ve admitted it to anyone. I never did and I don’t know if I ever will be able to speak out loud, so I think it is so brave of you that you did and I am glad to see that the response it not like you’d imagine it beforehand. I just feel like my problems are minor and that there are people with real mental health issues so I somehow don’t have the right to question my own mental health as well. I always thought that it is stupid of me to feel so low when everything was perfectly fine but it’s like a basement in your brain that you’re trapped in and can’t find the stairs to come back up again... mental health is way more complex than physical health I think..

It feels so unreal to watch this video and feeling like you're telling MY story. I am going thrugh similar things from what I can take from the video. Thank you for sharing, I hope you will find strenght to hold on and get better. Love

Don't worry about uploading regularly, take a break if you need ♥️♥️ :) your health should come first!

I’m so proud of you to share this on your channel and getting through the hard times. I relate to this so hard because I suffered from really bad depression for a year and half from yr 10 to yr11, and I was feeling so empty for the whole year. I also felt like I wasn’t loved by anyone and I didn’t want to talk about it with anyone when internally I was screaming for someone to help me, and it was absolutely horrible because it got to the point where I wanted to be anyone but myself. On top of it my personal circumstances added so much to my anxiety, that I couldn’t go more than a few days without having a breakdown. I wasn’t in the place that i could get help, and my friends were also not there for me when that was the time that I needed them the most. It’s so hard to get through it and learn to cope, but I’m sure we are tougher than anything :).

You are amazing Eve. You are an inspiration to so many people, and even more so after this video. I have mental health issues and I had an interruption from university between my first and second year. I have still yet to make progress and even get a diagnosis so I am not sure what to do next year i.e. take another interruption, study part time, or full time again. You aren't alone in juggling university with mental health issues, and sometimes time off is what is needed so don't be ashamed to slow things down if that would be the best thing for your mental health. Mental health can impact so many things in your life, including your physical health, so it should be high in your priority list. I was very high achieving and a perfectionist years ago at school and at the start of university but I am learning to accept that what is best for me may not be the best for someone else, and that I will get to where I want to be in time. There is no rush and life is not all about achievements - learning to enjoy the little things in life and appreciating what you have can work wonders and bring light back into life again. Sometimes slowing down is what is needed to see the light again.

I am sooo proud of you and your strength for reaching out. I wish I had you beautiful, gorgeous hair.

we love you eve🥰🥰 you are truly a role model, and I’m not talking about exam results! hope you’re okay xx

Eve, my heart goes out to you. It sounds like you've been through hell the last few months, and honestly nobody other than you is entitled to understand the full extent of your circumstances. From what I know of Oxford, it's a really difficult place to be at the best of times, let alone when you're struggling with other factors (funnily enough it's why I decided against applying, despite having the grades and adoring the city I struggle with quite severe anxiety and feel like the pressure cooker environment would not be a positive experience for me). I hope you continue to feel better over the summer, just know that the hardest part really is starting the journey to getting help, and it absolutely will get better from here! Have an incredible summer, you deserve it wholeheartedly xx

You are a fabulous lady! I went through a similar experience where the people I thought would be there for me weren't and it really really sucked at the time. About 2 years has now passed and I now see it as a blessing! Knowing who your real friends are can be really freeing and it allows you to focus on the people who love you ❤️ put yourself first, be patient with yourself and take it one day at a time! You've got this x

Awww, eve I'm so proud of u and when u cried I started to cry, I'm just glad ur getting help and that u have freinds and family who are supporting ull We all understand and I'm just glad ur ok xx I love the person you've become xx

taking life at a pace that is suitable for you is not failing, it'll save you in the long run removing the pressure of feeling like everything must be taken on at once and completed at once. you've got this

alles alles gute meine liebe Eve❤️ i really respect you so much for this, you are such a genuine person, and being someone that worries far too much too, this makes me feel I am not alone in this. You already seem to have grown so much! Du bist ein Herzensmensch, ich fühle mit dir xxx

I love you, a lot. This video is so important. For you and for everyone watching. Thank you for being raw and sharing your experiences. Every time someone opens up it allows others to relate and the world becomes a more open place. Maybe people do have it worse than you, sure, but that doesn’t eliminate your struggles. You are sick enough, and you are allowed to let your guard down. You and I are extremely similar, I struggle to admit when I need help. I’m very much a work through it person. Like you, I am learning how to let my walls down and admit that I’m not okay. It’s okay to cry and be vulnerable to seek the parts of you that need to be fixed a little bit. Fucking well done, Eve. I have so much respect for you for this, thank you for sharing your story. I wish you the upmost joy during Summer, beyond that in your second year of uni, and in your recovery. It’s time to put yourself first, and I’m ready to see how you grow as a person. ❤️🌻

Love you so much Eve! Glad you finally you got help. 💛 you deserve all the happiness in the world.

Honestly it’s so refreshing to see someone like Eve talk about mental health that students struggle with during their studies. I really wanted someone to upload a video about this matter so thank you eve 😭❤️❤️

I watched this last night in full and I couldn’t help but cry with you. You are perfectly entitled to feel the way you do! I truly hope your road to recovery remains steadily inclined... Even though it hurts me, I genuinely like seeing this raw video from you. A totally different, honest perspective - so thank you 💗✨

eve, you are so brave. to come out and tell us that youre struggling is a very big deal and its hard but im so glad youre getting help and that you have a good support system now. youre such an inspiration. to do a lengthy video like this and just be so raw and human is so relatable. theres so many of us students that are struggling emotionally, and i really want to thank you for using your platform like you do. youre potentially opening up so many conversations and helping so many people. it really is admirable. thank you for this xx

I admire your bravery to share this online, Eve. I went through a similar situation with my mental health during A Level exams last year. I relate to you a lot as I have always been academic and had high expectations for myself, so I understand how it comes as a shock to people around you. I'm pleased to hear that you're receiving help and I'm looking forward to see all your exciting holiday photos/videos! xxx

First of all I just want to mention how utterly gorgeous you look! Secondly from being a long-time subscriber I have even noticed the changes myself. Although it has always been clear to see you fighting to be the bubbly and motivational Eve that you are known for, it was never right. Watching your uni vlogs this year was so clear that something was just not right. Im honestly so glad you have reached out for help as that is the hardest thing to do. Being someone (similar to me) that fights being perfect and controlling, constantly putting effort in, for you to admit you need help it just so powerful and brave. I wish you all the best with your future as you've worked so hard for it and your health is a priority know. Good luck and I cannot wait to see more YOU again :)

I've been there and luckily like you got a family and friends support to get out of that place in my head.. it takes so much of you to fight it and sit to your exams at the same time, you are such an inspiration! Hope you get better and happier xx

I'm praying for you girl♡ you are so beautiful. It's okay to feel the way you feel. I'm glad you have taken time to care for your mental health ♡ you are so important! Xxxxx

OKAY YOU HAVE NO IDEA FOR HOW LONG I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOUR COMEBACK! WELCOME AND CONGRATULATIONS ON COMPLETING YOUR FIRST YEAR IN OXFORD X

So glad to hear you’re feeling better xxx happy you’re back! 💕

Its so so important and great that you’re posted this and shared your experience, please know that. It’s so important we all talk about mental health and know that anyone from anywhere can experience mental health problems. You’ve helped so many people by highlighting this.

I’ve been watching your video for a while and I’m a new subscriber now!! I’m so proud of you for everything you’ve done this year! I just want to let you know that it’s totally okay to feel that way (I’ve been to that state of mind, and I totally understand how horrible it feels), and I’m super glad that you got the help you needed💕 Enjoy your time traveling during the summer! I’m especially excited for Berlin! I really hope that your life will be much more better from now on, and I’m very much excited for what your future holds❤️ You inspired me so much in this video since my mental state has not been okay too. xoxo

Missed you so much. It has been a rough few months for you but everything is looking up for you. Excited for your future videos and well done for opening up to us all. Excited to meet you at SITC xx

Eve i love you so so much honestly💙💙 you have helped me so much and I hate to see you so down. Thinking of you xx

This is so brave of you! You should be SO incredibly proud of yourself! You owe no one an explanation but it is inspirational that you have done this! I hope you are ok and you are getting in control we are all here for you!

Thank you so much for opening up, I know when I was struggling with mental health before like getting diagnosed or getting medication these types of videos really made me feel a lot better to know I wasn't alone, so I bet that this video is helping so many people

Ok now I'm watching the video, eve honestly I know this is really hard to hear, but it will get better. As you were talking I literally felt like you were telling my past two years. For me, things that helped (because I don't like asking for help, I prefer self healing) were meditation (my favourite app is stop, breathe, think), bullet journaling and with anxiety and worrying (which I have seriously struggled with) it helps to run or exercise to get rid of unnecessary energy. Obviously these things don't help when you're at your lowest but on the road to recovery these helped me. Just remember for everyone that everything, even the worst things, happen for a reason. God has a plan for everyone. Things have to get worse before they get better. Everything will be okay in the end; if it's not ok, it's not the end. ❤️

So proud of you eve!! Your mental heath is the most important thing and should always come first x

I'm so proud of you, Eve! I have watched your channel now for many years and have always looked up to you because of your honesty in situations such as this. I, myself, have struggled in a battle with poor mental health for many years and completely understand how hard it is to finally admit you need help to get better. You are so brave for talking about it (when in reality, you shouldn't have to share these private aspects of your life with the internet but you choose to anyway, which is amazing). Through you doing this, you have again shown how strong you truly are and I'm so glad to hear you are getting help - nobody should go through this alone. You are such an inspiration person and you should be so proud of yourself ❤️

Hey Eve :) Thank you for uploading this really honest video explaining what it can be like to be a student whilst other personal things are going on and mental health is difficult. As a second year uni student myself and someone who has depression and anxiety, I really related to this video and it was so refreshing to hear someone else talk about their struggles. You should be so proud of yourself for opening up about this and for seeking help because that can be so hard to do. You are such an inspiration. I'm so sorry that some of this year has been so rubbish for you but I'm excited for all your holiday plans and I hope you take the time and rest you need to start healing. Sending hugs xxxx

Eve friends wise I feel the EXACT same. I have just finished my a-levels and throughout year 13 I’ve felt I can no longer trust even my closest friends, my very best friend since year 7 left me for another group and heart broken isn’t even tho word. I keep asking myself why me? But as much as I don’t want it to happen to you, I am so glad we share similar experiences. I’m feeling super lonely so far this summer, so if you ever need anyone to talk to, I know I’m just a random fan out there, but I believe talking to someone going through similar things is a great way to let things off of your chest. I’m sorry this is so long but writing this I feel is the only way to let my feelings out there 💫 Sending my love xxx

Eve I hope you're well, stay strong you're amazing. Going to LMH open day tomorrow x

Thank you so much for sharing this. You don't understand how many people this will help. And you will get better Eve, well done for getting help. I've gone through something similar this year and all of those realisations are hard but you're going to be okay ❤

Thank you so much for posting this! I went through something similar this year (I'm a first year student at Cambridge) and being honest about it with my friends/family and in a video helped me a lot - I hope it does the same for you and I wish you all the best

I'm going to Uni this September, could you do a first year advice video? Maybe explain how you dealt with leaving home and living alone? Also maybe some dorm tips? Only if you have time X

I was just thinking how nice your hair looks :) but make sure that you take as much time from yt as you need... Have s good summer!

Thank you for sharing, this is so inspiring to watch and I hope you start to feel better soon xxx

I am so proud of you!!! I am so proud that you sat your exams with all of this going on! You are so strong and inspiring, thank you so much for sharing, I relate to a lot of it and you are making a lot of people feel like they're not alone xxx

mental health should always be a priority💛it’s okay to put yourself first!! hope you’re okay💛

Please be proud of yourself because everybody else is so proud of you ❤️❤️ Love you eve ❤️😍 Stay strong 💪🏻❤️

I’m so glad I watched this video. I’m two years younger (in my first year of a Levels.) I don’t know what happened but I suddenly all these things in my life began to build up and I became burnt out mid way through the year. I started to feel completely unmotivated that some days I couldn’t even get out of bed. Messages, emails and any other form of contact felt too overwhelming to reply to. Workloads were too overwhelming to cope with but I could just keep up with it (with multiple extension of deadlines). I got so frustrated with myself that I felt so weak and tired constantly without having any way to control it. I just recently seeked help and I know how it feels to finally break through and get it. Now I’m trying to get back on track and refresh for next year. Thank you for being honest so people like me don’t feel alone :)

This whole video. Wow. I was thinking same eve. Same. And have so much love and appreciation for you. You’re not alone in this journey❤️