Sometimes (I'm schizoaffective)/All Of The Time (I'm human) 

Love this video, it really humanizes it.

It must be SO hard and exhausting to have those voices and still be able to function normal in front of others

Amazing news everyone! Jonny has just been announced as the winner of mental health charity Rethink's Janey Antoniou Award for his dedication to ending stigma attached to schizophrenia and for his hard work raising awareness! Janey was a very inspirational lady and the award was set up for someone who has followed in her footsteps and is dedicating efforts to challenging those awful misconceptions. I'm sure you are all very proud to hear this news! XXX :o)

the glass of water part is literally what my bpd rage feels like

I was diagnosed with scizofrenia when I was 14 and never in my life have I felt more seen. My mother didn't understand until I showed her this video. Thank you 😊

My brothers have it, I work in a psych ward now. In my experience, patients are mostly highly intelligent, creative and sensitive. Schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder is GROSSLY misunderstood by the public. It's our duty to educate the masses. All they know about it is learned from news headlines of a very small number of tragic incidents. Schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder is way more common than thought. ❤ Thanks for this video.

This is me on a daily basis

Hi Jonny, i just wanted to say that i really liked your video. It explained things extremely well, and i'm so sorry you've had to deal with this horrible illness. I've also been diagnosed with Schizo-affective disorder (depressive type), and i know first hand how difficult it can be. I hallucinate every day, and my paranoia sometimes completely takes control of me. But i carry on. It is a real pleasure to see someone trying to spread awareness of this disease. I hope you can find some happiness :) All the best, Robbie.

I also experience those intrusive thoughts, like wanting to jump over a table, kick a door, or slap someone's face. They are usually quite unprompted. I don't have schizophrenia or a schizoaffective disorder, but I do have ASD, Tourette's, OCD and anxiety. I find myself relating to a lot of the symptoms of schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorders.

Thank you so much for uploading this! I've been trying to find an accurate representation of Schizophrenia/ Schizoaffective Disorder to use in my presentation for psychology and this is absolutely perfect. You may not hear it a lot but I appreciate you talking publicly about this and letting use take a tiny look into your life.

Jonny you are all kind of awesome. I decided to hang out on your channel for a bit today and talk about a pick me up mate! We who live with Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective Disorder - Depression - Bi Polar Disorder can go through the gambit of thoughts and emotions. The only difference in the symptoms you showed here was instead of hearing throw the glass of water and throw it - my voices love to tell me someone is going to do that to me or worse. I hate the paranoia because it makes it so difficult to go outside or live a "normal" life. Thanks for giving us that voice and making it known that we are people too.

Thank you for this !!! You humanized us !!! We aren't monsters, yeeeaaa!!!!

my son has schizoaffective disorder as well as extreme anxiety and depression (of course). I sent him this video because he didn't believe the doctor when he said he was schizophrenic. After watching Jonny and how his day is, he believes it. He said it was scary how accurate it is. So thank you for creating this video. It has helped us more than you know.

Just stumbled upon this video. It's amazing and really shows what it's like living with this illness. I can relate so well! Thanks for this.

First saw at livingwellwithschizophrenia and it's really a great video! I feel a little better informed, my heart is a little bit more open and now I know there's much more to see and learn. Let's go!

I think your videos are very informative, creative, and helpful to people seeking support. Thank you for taking the time to create and share this.

This is the best video on youtube. I love how you showed that besides your illness youre still you. And it is not an illness that define who you are. I know how you feel.. those voices ugh sometimes it is really exausthing. This video helped me realize that i am still a person. Thank you. Love from Portugal.

This is the first time I've seen my experience externalized

Absolutely loved this video! As a mental health advocate myself, I really appreciated this video and it definitely taught me something new! Kudos for raising awareness and helping break the stigma! You're an inspiration for others to follow :)

Thankyou man. Its comforting to see someone experience some of the same things, and its nice to see you seem alright

Thank you for this. I was diagnosed 4 years ago when I was 14. It took me awhile to convince myself I'm not my diagnosis. This video made me speechless man.

Im just seeing this now but, this describes me so so much and actually makes me glad this exists. I live with this daily and it really kills me sometimes. But to show people that we're human like everyone else, just a little different brings tears to my eyes.

Thank you so much for posting a video that isnt just words explaining what it is, but showing a daily example 🤗

Really love this actual depiction of the illness. Keep up the great work! Much love from Louisiana

Ty for sharing, I'm sure it was difficult. You're paving the way for others, ty so very much.

thank you, i really needed this right now. this is tearing me apart.

Thank you for this amazing video. Very good quality👍

God despite not being schizophrenic the intrusive thoughts part hit on such a spiritual level for my anxiety disorder. It can be difficult interacting with others and working when all I can think of is how I could be disruptive despite _really_ not wanting to be (while never acting on it as well). Thank you for sharing your story!

Such a great video, Johnny. I think you are just incredible.

Really great video. Very relevant, very accessible! You are making great steps forward in enabling people to understand the nature and consequences of our mental and emotional distress. Thank you!

Thank you for your important work! 🙏 This is very helpful.

This video is so wonderful, I’m not sure if I’m schizophrenic/schizoaffective or if it’s just psychosis from Major Depressive Disorder but I experience life really similarly and also it’s so nice to see you talking about grandiose delusions because a lot people think delusions are all paranoid.

This man is such a good teacher. The best mental health teaching sessions I had when I worked in the sector were run by people who knew their subjects from the inside.

with my PTSD i get very paronide...I recently started a new job...& have to leave at 6am so its dark...If someone is walking behind me i think i'm going to get attacked or worse...In the past i've had thoughts where someone will come & kill me....every single sound makes me jump or i think something bad is going to happen...but we can't live in fear forever...keep up the good work Jonny...you are something special x

Such a great video! Thanks so much for sharing! In college I took several classes that focused primarily on schizophrenia. My professor was very passionate about the rights of people with schizophrenia, and not allowing the disease to define who they are. She discouraged us from referring to people as "schizophrenics", and instead advised us to call them "people with schizophrenia". She is a wise and compassionate woman, and I learned a lot from her.

Great video, superb way of explaining a sometimes complicated subject! Thanks for making this.

I grew up with a schizophrenic mom. She had paranoia schizophrenia and heard voices. She also lived in delusions i.e. thinking she was married to Walt Disney. I always wondered what the voices may sound like. Thanks for providing a tiny window into that, it helps me understand it better. 👏

I'd say you are braver then most! Thank you for sharing your life in such a revealing yet upbeat way

I love this video I dropped a tear it’s like someone finally understands how I feel on a day to day

Such a simple and human way of fighting stigma and stereotyping. Thank you!

Good video! Describes schizo-affective well. Glad I found it, this instantly made me happier. Some days I'll feel off for a bit but I know I'm not irregular, I don't feel out of place at all!

This was a truly inspiring video, I stumbled upon it while doing research for a paper I am writing about how media contributes to the stigma of mental health, I myself have depression/anxiety and I have days where I feel like no one understands. But you are 100 percent right we are all the same just human :]

Jonny BenjAMAZING! Yes thank you very much!!!!! This was worth the wait my dear!!! This needs to be shared because is absolutely fantastic - that's our lovely member of the human race Jonny! Your creativity & thought has woven something very special & powerful - kicking #Stigma & advocates of stigma where it hurts- with integrity and truth. This is education, inspiration & endearing - High five beauts!! Your beautiful persona shines through - it's one of the best things I've watched in my life!

I have bipolar and not many people get me. My boys have autism and I find that only people who have the patience bother to get to know us all. This video is a really good and simplistic explanation about a serious illness that is unbelievably misunderstood. I just hope in the future the media becomes more responsible when reporting mental illness and cognitive disorders. But I doubt that day will come.

Thank you so much for putting this up. I nearly cried when I watched it. I have the dx as well, and you put into words things I cannot.

Amazing video. I shall now be watching all of the ones on your channel, as I've only just found you. Thank you for making them. I'm off to spread the word :-)

What a great job you did ♡ I see people sensationalizing symptoms and I feel like "I'm not like that, if that's what it's like to live with psychosis, then what do I really have?" I know everyone is different, but they make you feel like the only exception or make an image like we're aliens

A random educational youtube video sent me to hear and I'm just commenting hoping the algorithm will pick this up again. Its awesome

Great video man - some members of my wife's family are schizophrenic and I'm trying to understand it. This has been the most informative video so far!

This is so interesting. Makes me believe many neurodivergences are part of a common spectrum. Some of the things you describe resonate with my experience with ADHD (like intrusive thoughts and messiah complex), others with a loved one's life with Borderline Personnality Disorder (the paranoia).

Thank you for sharing this video. I found it in your blog. I share the video with family to help them a bit with what I deal with. I know its been years since you posted but I hope you post again.

Awesome video! I never really thought of my thoughts as voices but this does explain (point out) how thoughts feel when I'm being bombarded with them. I have schizoaffective bipolar type myself. I thank the Lord for meds, if I had to live with rapid cycling every day, I don't think I could go on.

Happy new year and congrats on the MBE Jonny. Your story has given me hope. I have been battling with this awful condition and was losing hope. All the best mate!

This explains it all so well. Thank you so much Johnny.

This video is amazing! Well done!

Honestly thank you so much. I hate so many of those 'schizophrenia simulation' videos because they're not realistic and dont actually give you any kind of idea of what living with these things looks like for the *people* who have them. They're also always so exaggerated and negative? This is such a refreshing video to see and relate to as someone w/ schizoaffective bipolar type.

Im glad I found this, this is EXACTLY how I feel and things I have to deal with

Great work Jonny. Human beings all have their problems to overcome most of us just undiagnosed and therefore 'unlabelled'.

Thanks Johnny for uploading sharing

Jonny I loved how you made this video, the editing, the explanations, the examples. Fantastic work. :)

This, this right here. Thank you.

I love this video with all my heart. That laugh at the end made my day!

I stumbled across your video via another channel that highlighted it, after my search of " Beatles first live performance paris 1963 " ... I'm laughing because why, what?!? Anyways, first I'd like to say awesome video. Second, as a person who ended up here by not searching for anything to do with the topic... I can say that you are just like everyone else from my experience. You describe a lot of things that I can can completely relate to, and my inner monologue is not only my biggest critic, but can sometimes boost myself quite high. Lots of conversations with myself or what I would deem critical thinking and self debate throughout the daily grind. I think the world may be just overly obsessed with incessant need to label or categorize, when in fact we're just humans with varying levels of these beautiful yet sometimes misunderstood complex operating systems called our mind. Cheers 🥂

I love this. It shows that everyone is a human and like you said our brains just work differently. But we are all human beings no matter how deluded we get and how much we believe them.

Jonny, this is really good, still trying to understand my son's illness but things like this are invaluable! Thank you x

Thankyou so much for this video!

Thank you so much for this video.

Also, I agree with Matthew. This video is a lot more explanitory than the last. You also seem a lot more natural. Will definately be showing my friends this, which will also be an excuse to see that smile again xP

Amazing video, thank you!

We are humans before the identity we built on this life or the conditions which somehow seperates us. We even see our own reflection at times in someone else's eyes. It is important to remember we are not that different. The glass of water thing pops sometimes in my head as well lol.You really have some guts to expose your deepest feelings. Great work as usual. Take care.

LOVE this video!! THANK YOU for creating it!

Hi Jonny I really hope you are feeling better now, I have a son who is 24 and suffering with schizoaffective disorder and has the same feelings and thoughts as you do and I support him as much as I can through this horrible illness. I keep strong and positive that one day they will get a treatment that doesnt have so many side affects and my son and you and many many more poor souls can lead a relatively normal life. god bless J xx

Brilliant, best explanation ever. Until this I had no idea what it meant to have any kind of mental disorder.

Thanks so much. I found out I have schizoaffective disorder and you know how people confuse that with DID or Dissociative Identity Disorder I have that to it's just not really that severe. but yeah you helped me I was in a depression and you knowcked it right out of me

Courageous and Point well made!! Good on you!

Great clip, Jonny. CONGRATS on your Rethink award!!

Well Said! Wishing you All The Best!!!

bro really talked about having depression and schizophrenia with the happiest silliest background music

Thank you for posting this! As someone that has OCD, I do sometimes get intrusive thoughts as well. So I know how you feel. Let me assure you that I've found constructive ways of dealing with it. Other than that, I hate Mondays too and like to draw and bike. :)

You have done such a good job here

Nicely done video, short and sweet!

Thank you so much for this video

Thankyou Johnny.

Brilliant, It's a good awareness video and teaching for people that don't understand it

oh man I have intrusive thoughts exactly like that too but I've never told anyone about it and all sites i have visited call it an ocd symptom - and I know I don't have that - but I never connected it with my schizoaffective. thank you!

The delusion part....my brother! Although I never wrote letters. Stories and songs mainly. Fake it until you make it lasted me til 47. Went far enough off the reservation, I was on another continent. Finally am getting some help. Had to get rid of alcohol once and for all. Psychosis still persisted so I’m going for further treatment. I’m co-morbid with BPD, so it’s a long road ahead. Stay safe!

Hey man! This is an amazing video! I suffer from unspecified psychosis as of rn and I’m trying to get as educated as possible on it

I thought I was crazy, turns out I'm just human.

Want to share with you all the fantastic news that Jonny has won a mental health "TWIM" Award for the "Vlog" category~ Comments included "SO well made, such strong messages...exceptional content" ~ Very delighted to see this wonderful achievement for such a sweet-hearted and altruistic man- Jonny we're proud and we love you for being adorable you! XXX

Loved this video, Jonny 😁

Thanks for making this

I love this! I have depression and have suffered with suicidal thoughts it's so hard

Beautiful. I had a very close friend who was affected with schizophrenia and she, very sadly, ended her life this month... goodness... four years ago. Feels like yesterday. Anyway. I have a lot to say, but I'll keep it short- thank you for making this video. You're very brave. :)

brilliant video, thank you!

You are a true inspiration!! you are human! :D

Awesome video. I have skitophrenia and this is exactly what it's like. Recently, I came up with a therapy that helped me so maybe it might help someone else. As you're hearing the voices get to a quiet place, close your eyes and imagine a radio. Then imagine the voice coming out of the radio. Slowly turn the volume of the radio down until all you hear is silence. Now I know this simple but I haven't heard anything since. Also I want anyone reading this to know you are not alone in this struggle. One my favorite scriptures is 2timothy 1:7 "For God hath not given us a spirit of fear but of power and of love" We can overcome this.

Well done with coping with the disorder Jonny and your MBE! ❤️

Benjamazing news- a number of celebrities including Stephen Fry have RT'd this on twitter :D as have many kind-hearted people- the response has been incredible & it is an absolute delight 2 see this being embraced! This is what we want the public 2 see- a representation of schizophrenia with integrity, not the twisted version that the ignorant churn out! End Stigma- Stand Up For Schizophrenia

Overwhelmed " no mountain is so great it can not be moved pebble by pebble " Teachings from my grandpa

thanks for the video man. I've had this disorder for many years and I'm just now self aware of the illness. I didn't want to belive I had it for a long time. now I am taking latuda and many diffrent types of vitamins. I take omega 3, 4 times a day and a b3 multi in the morning and a potassium supplement in the morning. I know what you mean when you feel parinoid. it's the worst part of the entire illness. I've recently lost 240 lb in 11 months because I thought I had cancer or a brain tumor and I thought the doctors were lying to me. I am doing everything in my power to get it under control. you are an inspiration sir. thank you so much.