by age 8 my dad was out of my life entirely. my mom would feed me lies about him. she made me believe that he was the one who abandoned us. with no one around to protect me, thats when the abuse started. I’m all choked up i cannot talk I’ve got a fucked up brain, fucked up thoughts writing songs was my therapy. I wrote the first verse and chorus while still living with her in october 2016. Thought i was okay but then i guess not I hope you know that this is your fault shame, anxiety, depression, self-doubt, anger...it was piling up. something had to change. so after 8 years of being apart I messaged my dad from a secret email address. (It would have been very bad if she found out.) he got me a secret phone (i put my best friends picture on it just in case) and we began planning my escape. Want you to feel bad when you go to sleep Hope you’re sad when you remember me Hope you’re feeling bad for all you did to me And hope you lie there in your misery the plan was to begin living with him full time by march, which felt like a long 5 months away. Hey little girl - You never believed there’s a ghost inside of you But it’s hidden too deep would the hopeful, happy, ambitious woman inside of me still be there when I was finally free? Hey little girl - You never imagined you’d get a little older You’ll get abandoned Hey little girl - You know smoking kills You don’t really care cause you love how it feels Hey little girl - You’re falling apart You don’t really care ‘cause they broke your heart abuse -> rebellion -> breakdown. this was the whole song at first. so I posted a clip on instagram as a failed cry for help. but less than a week later I got worried that my mom would see it and took it down. then in dec 2016, with 3 months still to go, my mother let it rip in front of the house, for all of my neighbors to see. bruised and crying I ran to my neighbors house and called my dad “we need to do this now”. my neighbors harbored me for a week while my dad prepared to get custody, as he did later that week. I will never forget the feeling the day I saw the police serving my mother the papers. a warm rush went through my body as she screamed in disbelief. within weeks i was on a beautiful beach vacationing with my dad for new year’s, when I found my song on RU-vid, but under another person’s name. who the hell is Quinn Quinn? for those of you who don’t know, this girl on RU-vid named Quinn Quinn ripped the audio from my instagram and reposted it as her song. it went kinda viral, on musically too. I was angry and helpless. who fucking does that? whatever! my only defens was to finish the song and post a video of me singing it in front of the piano. by this time, i’m free from my mother, which is why the second verse and bridge come from a whole new perspective. I’m fighting for all that I have lost It’s my time to show who's boss I’ve waited in the dark too long I’ve got this now, so just stay strong at 16 I finally had a chance. It was time to start going after my dreams. (I still tell myself this every day.) I know you won’t believe until I’m up on stage Make me bleed when you don't get your way in the mornings she would claim to not remember what she had done. “i hope you wake up and realize what a good mother i am to you" she would say. what a fuking joke. I hope you're scared when you remember me I hope you lie there in your misery Peace out you miserable bitch. Been in and out of recovery Remember when I could hardly breathe Sat in front of mirrors thinking to myself Can't get any clearer, what I’m doing to myself its been five years and i’m feeling okay. “You got this...you’re good” i like to tell myself. but sometimes it gets tough and i go back down to feeling like shit. I know i need to forgive her in order to fully move on, but its hard right now. i hope my story helps children and adults around the world recognize the dangers of child abuse and parental alienation. remember, there’s always someone you can go to for help. I just wish i contacted him sooner. - soph
Honestly, it's so hard to believe people would *actually* do that. I can't even begin to imagine how horrible that was. Not to mention the girl who literally stole your song. Love your song though, it's wonderful. The backstory to it though- I hope things are better!
I've been abused and used by my brother and well he drowned me and my sister. I treat him nicely and all I get is a slap, a punch, a kick or an elbow to the throat. But it's hard to believe this, even though I do. This is also my favorite song. It's sooooo good!
Your story is so upsetting. Parents r supposed to care for u and make u feel loved but instead they made u feel misery. Your story rlly inspired me. My mom hits me as well and she also thinks shes some brilliant amazing mother. Im happy u r free from ur mother now!!
It’s hilarious that parents say we’re to young to feel pain, be tired, depressed, feel love, know our sexuality.. we are, but that just shows Society is a messed up thing, but it’s even funnier when they ask what’s wrong like they think they can fix something not many people ever feel, they say get off our phones cus they could live without them, well they didn’t have to live through raping, depression, bullying, and so much more, we’re to young for a lot of things we feel but life’s not fair in that way, if it was... every one would be in heaven but no.. we’re down here in hell where every single day we wonder if we matter, make a difference or even exist as far as I’m concerned
I’m flipping ten and I feel this pain because my friends say I’m too young to know that your lesbian.. they say it’s a phase and I’m so scared of my father I can’t even look him in the eye... and they say I’m not depressed when I really am... I wonder every day “am I enough, how am I not useless... and they say I’m only ten... I’m too young...
I knew a boy who liked to draw, He drew pictures that nobody saw, He was most artistic late at night, In the bathroom out of sight, He kept a secret no one knew. His drawings were different, no paper or pen, But needed a bandage now and again. We stood by the river under the stars, He rolled up his sleeves and showed me his scars. He felt embarrassed and looked down at his shoe. Then I rolled up my sleeves and whispered "I draw too" _I forgot who it was but its called "I draw too" (EDIT 2: I did not write this poem/song, I just wanted to clear that up!) Edit: Ok guys, I've seen comments saying "I draw too." I'm late, I just saw this after a year, but guys, cutting is not some beautiful art. Please listen. It is a beautiful poem, but you are a beautiful person. Don't let anyone take that knowledge away from you. I know a girl who I would consider pretty, but is downright nasty. And I mean, bullying nasty. It put me in a dark place for a while because I was already struggling with some private things, and yes, I have also 'drawn' once or twice. Still, please listen. You are beautiful. Go and look in the mirror right now and stare directly into your eyes, whatever shade they might be, and say to yourself; "I am beautiful." Don't look at what you think are flaws. Because you know what? The most beautiful person I have ever seen had a disability, but their smile and eyes just made you want to go up and hug them. You guys, throwing up your problems won't make them go away, either. You can't chase them away with a bottle of beer or a handful of pills. You can't cut them away from your body. You can't starve them away. I know you might have heard this before, but please TALK TO SOMEONE. If you just are not comfortable around your parents or think they might not understand, maybe start a chat with a teacher. ("I've been really stressed out lately, and I was wondering if I could just talk to you and ask some questions?") Either way, please do not self-harm in any way... Physical or mental. Because for me, when I was upset, my form of 'drawing' would be to write hateful words to myself on my arm in marker. Self-hate is NOT good for you. Please talk to someone. If they don't help, don't get discouraged. It took me a while to find the right person, too. I believe in you. If no one else does, just remember that one random stranger. Please don't think that suicide would end the pain, either. You'd just pass it on to someone else. If you think no one cares, think about this; every single person who has met you, ever, will wonder- could I have done something about it? Or, I knew her, I could have helped. Or, I saw her crying, once. I should have done something. Even the people who have insulted you will wonder every day if they were the cause of a murder. It is not ending your pain, it is extending it, giving it to everyone you have passed. Your pain will be in the shadows that people stand in, the ghost of your pain will haunt anyone who brushes past it. DO NOT DRAW! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!!
hey Amelia umm i sing and i wanted to know if i could send you a record use ur poem so that kids like you, me, and that boy could know that they aren't the only ones feeling this way (i like 2 get consent before using peoples creations and im glad the you survived ) your anoyher battle survivor know that there are other kids who r glad you survived you are OUR role model.
i found this song like 4 years ago and I use to listen to this because it sounded cool, but i slowly realized that i was relating to it more and more :(
This hits too close to home. I’ve been fussed at because I’ve had in depth conversations with people 1 or 2 years older than me because we’ve experienced some of the same things. But because they are older and a bad influence so I lose electronics and just lose any happiness I had.
Its too true i first meet soemone at my school and ahe knew my pain right off the bat and she had the same problem and we became friends for a little i had to move schools so i havent seen her seans
@@andreapineda8760 are you kidding me I knew a six year old who committed suicide becuase her dad elft and she was raped when she was five she was from Africa but just becuase she was hung didn’t mean she had seen some shit
I’m pregnant right now at 18. I may not have been prepared for this. But my kids will never know the pain of this song or other like it. I will be nothing like my parents. My kids will be loved and brought up right. They will be listened to and understood. To my future kids. I love you. I’ll always be here for you.
this is the kind of sickness that isn’t excused at school this is the kind of sickness that no one ever notices this is the kind of sickness that goes unnoticed *until it kills*
Even when it kills it will pass in a day even for the family believe me I know. I lost my brother to drugs and my family and friends dropped it by the end of the day well 3 years later it still haunts me
You cant tell anyone because they wont understand and ur scared to and u lie about ur happiness even when they are saying they will help but u have hard that to many times till u just stop believing that they will..
kiffy greene it might take other families more than a day to drop it like mine it took my dad like a week to drop the fact that my uncle committed suicide and two years for my dad to get over a friend who died of cancer
I was in the hospital for 5 months recovering from slitting my throat then stabbing myself multiple times. I'm glad I'm with my fiance now. The last 5 months we're horrible without him.
I told my mom about my depression. She didn’t believe it. I turned to self harm. She saw them and I broke down. She said I was doing it for attention. I will always remember those words Edit: Wow I didn’t expect all the responds. I am so sorry that some of you related to my story.
maybe once ask your mom 'if im doing this for attention, then where's my attention?' because people with depression tend to get ignored/avoided, so if were doing it for attention then wheres our attention?
Don't worry darling everything will be alright just hang in there even if you feel like giving up. I may be young but as a suicidal person who had lost many people I once loved, it's hard. You'll reach the end of your battle one day and find happiness ❤️ -a friendly stranger :)
I love it when your parents or parent says “it’ll be fine we can help each other grow” BUT ALL THEY DO IS TEAR YOU DOWN THEY SHOUT AND SCREAM AND ASK WHY when all you do is help them
This reminds me that as a 10 year old, the way you feel isn't really ever taken seriously. Like "you're to young to feel depressed". Remember everyone feels pain. No matter they're age.
I was 9 when my depression stared hitting really bad and it has only been going downhill since then. I am 14 now and only just got medically diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. Really wish my voice was heard all those years ago so I could have gotten the help I needed sooner.
It also hit me hard, when i was smaller i was happy when i turned 12 i got abandoned im just a waste of space in my home, i rasied myself to hide my emotions and pretend to be happy
When GEN z become parents, let's promise to be the best parents the universe and multi verse has ever seen. We will understand our kids and wont put them down when they go through sh*t
The fact that alot of adults don't believe that their children are having depression is shocking. Some adults believe that children are doing it for attention and that some adults don't seek help. Thousands of children are dying from suicide and adults still blame the children for not telling them. How toxic can this environment be?
And this is why I as a medicated depressed person I want to try to help when I have kids of my own, I think I would even help any children that would come to me, if they are ever feeling this way. But as someone who has gone through therapy multiple times in my life I can understand why it would be hard for kids to get help even if the parent is helpful. I was told that I had long term depression that I mostly likely had since I was 5. I wasn't given the help I needed until my senior year of high school, so the toxic environment runs deep, but this is my personal experience, other people could have had better experiences than me.
Hmmmmm.... No because ghosts don't speak. Don't tell me that it's the little girl! Little girls don't have voices like that. BTW and TBH so many idiot kids down here.
I dont understand why some parents get mad at their children by being depressed. My parents yelled at me for cutting myself and my dad even said "if you really wanted to die then sure ill hang you myself!" While i said "then do it its not like im useful" my mother slapped me across my face after that they acted like i didnt have depression and suicidal thoughts. But til this day im still carrying it .. Update: Thank you all so much for all of the lovely messages down in the comments i really do appreciate it. It makes me happy that even strangers care about eachother, i know some of you suggested to call 911 on my parents but i love them too much to even do that..not to mention its actually my fault for being useless around the house. So today i talked to my friends about...leaving and going somewhere else which they didnt took seriously of course we laughed about it then i began to get silent, then started crying. Of course the moving away part has another meaning. Im sure all of you know what i mean. I began to cry and they tried comforting me with hugs and affection. I told them i wasnt sure yet..we were just outside my house then one of them suggested i should stop crying or my mom will see, of course i trusted them and told them about how my parents treated me. And even sometimes they can hear me crying and screaming inside of my house because of them, but of course nobody called the police or anything.. i dont know what to do, now with all this online school and quarantine going on everything is harder...i stopped myself from cutting as i sign i would change and so that i wont get myself in trouble. can you please give me some advice on how i can cope with this? Also this is not a cry for help i am onlu sharing my experiences with you. So for the next few months i will be updating this comment to share more ... November 8, 2020. 10:09 p.m. Guess ill be updating whenever something bad happens? I guess so.. Anyway, earlier today I woke up at 1 p.m I don't know why but I kept waking up late mostly in mid noon. My mom was cleaning and I had to get up since we share the same room I saw her. After a while I went out to do my regular stuff but then my mom mentioned the modules..that made my head ache just thinking about it but still I went to get them while working on the modules I became frustrated and without thinking I grabbed a bunch of worksheets from weeks ago and torn it my mom saw and began ranting about it telling me that I still am being able to pass them. I didnt knew what to do but I replied the opposite of what she said in a harsh tone she started screaming at me and i cried silently still she can see my tears pouring down but she didnt give a shit. I heard her voice crack and I knew she was really upset and was about to cry and that made me guilty..she grabbed my hair and pulled me back in our shared room and threw me on the bed telling me to sleep..of course I couldn't sleep, while trying I can still hear her saying insults at me like "if you arent interested in learning then you should've told me so that we didn't have to waste money on you. Just get a job as a maid so you'll be more helpful, though you dont know anything about cleaning so I guess you're pretty useless" and ect. It broke my heart I cried silently while thinking about my death and I know sooner or later ill go back to cutting again but more deeply. I know im a coward and I'm scared of dying but sometimes I just wish I had someone to do it for me. I'm really sick of everything im ungreatful and useless they gave me the life some people wish to have but im here being a total brat...I remember what my mom said; "quit acting youre not the victim here, We are! You're making our life harder and I could just die of high blood pressure because of you" im already writing a bunch of goodbye letters for them.."im sorry in bad luck.." November 19 2:22 pm I'm scared, I really am I do don't know what I'm doing with my life my mom found out that I slit my tighs Earlier. She ran to our room and started shouting non-stop. She got out and a few seconds later she came back holding a knife I started screaming and crying I was sure that my screams can be heard outside, my baby nephew cried because along side me, she kept threatening me about her killing me instead and her cutting my body into pieces instead of just slicing it. When she left to buy groceries I tried taking multiple pills for me to die from overdosing but I was too scared my heart bearing became rapid while I swear and cry a lot, I was still gripping on the bottle while crying...later I decided I'd take it I was about to swallow them all at once but I was too scared to so I took them one by one..I took three at the time then decided to make up my mind. I could feel my stomach bubble but not enough to hurt and my body felt weak and heavy I kept crashing on the floor when I tried to stand..I'm really scared and tired I just wished I wasn't a coward. I knew that pain was the last thing someone feels before they die, that's why I was scared. I was scared of pain I had enough I just wanted everything to go back to normal. I wished I didn't have any feelings I wish fear ,sadness,depression,disappointment, anger and all of the negative emotions never existed. I kept talking to myself in the mirror, I'm alone. The neighbours didn't give a shig. They only thought of it as normal since me and my mother faught a lot. But earlier...I screamed 10x louder and weeped harder. I wish they would understand I wish this pain in my chest would stop...but I knew that..the only burden that made me feel this way was myself..I wasn't good to them I knew I wasn't a good child and my parents had enough of me, I just wanted to leave and maybe they'd be happy! They can go ahead and sell my things I wouldn't care. Instead of a proper funeral go and throw me in the lake or dig a diy hole. Just to make you happy. I'm not your first propriety since I know I'm not loved that much l, even though I've been fed to and kept safe. Bad luck follows me everywhere and has been stuck with me ever since. I'm not pretty, or smart. But I do know I have a heart. I kept being kind to those who hurt me but if they crossed the line I knew I had to do something else. I tried my best to help her but I was focused on my phone, talking to my friends because I know that they'll make me happy. I focused on my talents and I kept working on my modules to keep up but I kept failing them. I got 1/20 last time and I broke down. I don't know what to do anymore God I could make a book out of this in wattpad.. December 16, 2020. 11:43 a.m I did it, I finally escaped my God for Saken house. I'm now out my best friends house. I came asked her if she could let me stay and she did and I came by when it was about 2 am. It was dark a and I had to walk towards her house which is a real exersice, when I was almost there there car pulled up and the color was white, I didn't have my glasses on so I thought it was the police. Turns out it was just a taxi helping me reach my destination for free, thank you. Now I'm scared. What if my mom takes me back? I don't want that December 27, 2020 9:25 pm: (Day before my birthday ) So earlier I decided that I would learn how to skate since I have a longboard that had been laying around for years now. I took it for a test drive and I felt happy that I could be able to skate, our street was empty and it had a almost smooth road it was almost perfect. I skated for a couple days before this and earlier my long board went haywire and flipped itself making me slip and fall in the process. I had almost broke a bone but I still managed to make it back home and tell my mother what happened. She scolded me and told me it's all my fault that I did such stupid things and that I could never achieve the success I wanted in skating. She planned to burn the board and told me to never skate ever again. I cried. All I wanted was support, is that too much to ask? Is it so hard to care for someone you have birth to? Why is it always have to be like this. Is people deserve love and support, don't think we're only human and can handle it unconditionally like we don't get hurt. I miss the time where everyone is happy and have their problems solved easily, but as life goes on everything becomes shit and hard. I know I'm failing in life like I'm failing my grades, I don't know what to do. I swear I'm trying but I was told I'm not trying my best and should do better. I'm sick of it. I really am... May 13. 1:19 pm I kind of forgot about this..but theres a bunch of horrible stuff happened in the past few days. I cant start on where, but as i scrolled down to see my past memories it just made me realize how of a horrible life ive lived . Anyway, i think i might have corona. Im not sure yet but the signs are there. Heres why i think i have the virus, me and my 2 friends were going to my other friends house to do our assignments, of course we we had permission. After we spent time and did our work, i felt weak. I felt like i was always tired and my breath was heavy, im sweating even when people thinks its cold, and i get cold easily when a fan is pointed at me. I have diarreah and i pee a lot more, headaches and body pain. I get rashes everywhere at my lower half body abd i dont know where it comes from. I didnt put any thought into it until i got a call from my friend saying that she was positive, i told my family about it. They didnt mind, as long as i dont go out anymore, yeah its reasonable but why let it slide? Im practically dying. But maybe im just overreacting?...
Let me kno how you are doing i really wanna kno ok because i care about you even tho i dont kno you there is a purpous for everyone but how can i help and its not because your suicidal its because i dont want a world without you in it
Evelynn Houck of course it’s weird I’m numb to emotion but no matter what try to comfort people we all go thro bad stuff and I’m sorry to say sometimes life doesn’t get better but talking helps and I genuinely care about how you are doing both of you
Evelynn Houck I’m always here to talk like I don’t know you but I want to be your friend you seem like such a good person and the people have been through a lot are usually better people because of it
I physically cannot put into words how much this song means to me. For perspective, I'm 14 now. Ever since I was 9, when I heard this song for the first time, I understood what the words meant. And it hurt that I knew that feeling of familiarity. It hurts more that I still have that feeling. Since hearing for the first time, I did SH, had been in toxic relationships, diagnosed with mental disorders and moved to a new place. So many nights I would spend in my bed, crying myself to sleep over how I'm not good enough. Then, in summer of 2022, I went to Camp Sweeney. It was the time in *years* that I felt normal. I went the next summer, excited to be with friends all over. I went this summer as well. And even after all this time, I still remember hearing this for the first time. I still remember the way I knew the feeling of being abandoned, the way I cried at how accurate it was. I've been clean of SH for a year now, I've gotten over my relationships, worked on myself and gotten used to change. "What's the meaning of this monologue??" You're probably asking. Well, it's a *thank you* for someone. It's for YOU, Sophie. Thank you for making this song about your past, your emotions, your challenges, and helping me overcome mine. I'm not doing the best mentally, but I'm definitely getting better. Alright, I'm sorry for blabbing for so long :') Just-.. Thank you, Sophie. I love you (platonically) so much. - J.W 8/9/24
That’s true-ish. It’s actually family that’s keeping most people alive, people love their family to much to just, let them go Edit: alright my family doesn’t except me for being Non-binary and being poly. But I know that they still love me.
Parents don’t realize their kids thoughts, their depression, their anger, or their pain until it’s too late. Edit: thank you for all the likes. To anyone who reads this, live life like there is no tomorrow. You can do whatever you put your mind to. And no matter what, NEVER put your life on the line because of someone or something ur going through
I lost my best friend coz she wouldnt talk to anyone untill it was too late and i was the one that found her but it really was too late and i would never forget that day and that is what has caused me to be like this and i have tryrd many times to join her but i was not successful 😭💔
Thats my situation rn.. My parents call me useless and pathetic all the time my mum sometimes hits me so i told my head of yr that i didnt wanna go home i was actually planning on running away cuz my friend said i can stay wiv her but then her mom said theres no where for me to sleep and thats why i told the teachers. im still living here with my parents rn im not okay i dont wanna be here.. My parents used to get hit by there parents as well but worse but then if ur parents did that to u why the heck would u do that to ur child. IT HURTS SO MUCH!!
I know how it feels....... I used to think I was the only person in the world who ever got hurt, or only got to see there dad on special acasions, but I know that's not true..... Today is the 4th of July my 10yr anniversary of my parents getting a divorce, and I found out a week earlier that there was a way that I could spend my 4th of July with both my parents...... But then my dad planned a vacation to Tennessee....... All I did while no one was watching was cry because I thought that I would finnaly get to spend time with both my parents like all of my friends...... I was so heart broken.... Even though I loved the vacation and all, I will have to here about my friends stupid summer going to Florida with her mom and dad...... She is my best friend but she doesn't now how much she kills me every day talking about how her mom AND dad grounded her, or how her mom AND dad went shopping for shoes but couldn't find any that they liked in there size......
Ikr it’s crazy how strangers understand you more than your own parents! This is the reason why kids are always on there phones cause that’s the only place where people understand them😔
When I listen to this song, I like to imagine I'm talking to my younger self when life was simple and happy. Before the depression, before the confusion, before the trauma...
This is why I say society is fucked up! They want you to be yourself then bring you down and hate on you when you do. No wonder everyone is a fake anymore!
For me life is a game where we have to survive but we survive to learn and do what we like to do not to be a fucking fake person that thinks like all "normal persons" The normal persons are there humans who tried to become what they want but didn't so they forgot who they are
My skin: im pretty My heart: im broken My brain: im smarter My soul: im dying My lips: im beautiful My wirst/arm: im not My life: get off me My death: hello..wanna have tea?
@@Julianametzger to everyone in the comment section: Let us form a group to stop this from ever happening again......gen z's only but gen alpha's can join aswell my email : Lhikawolf@gmail.com
I talk to myself as a way to express who I am and parents think I am weird and brother thinks I am mental but it just helps me with life it like another best friend in my head that just listen to me and does not judge
little girl: what’s on your arm? me: they’re battle scars. little girl: you fought in a war? me: yeah. a long and hard one. little girl: that’s so cool! can i get one? me: no. please do not ever get any. but i’ll tell you what. whenever you see someone else with battle scars, i want you to hug them. okay? can you promise me? little girl: yes. i promise. a few days later we went on a short shopping spree. suddenly the little girl let go of my hand and ran up to another random teenager teen: why are you hugging me? little girl: because.. (*points*) you have battle scars just like my babysitter. the teen looked up at me, and i rolled up my sleeves to show her. with tears in her eyes, she said one thing to me.. teen: my war is far from being finished right now, but i am not done fighting. she bends down at eye level with the little girl teen: thanks for giving me the strength to keep . you are forever my war hero. ⚠️ this is not my story, but i saw it somewhere else and decided to share it too because i want you to do the same to anyone with “battle scars” ⚠️ I need everyone to pass this on.
Room:I'll be hear to hide you in your worst times Bed:I will be here for you when you're tired Pillow:I'll be here for you to catch your tears Dream:I'll be here for you to hide you from reality Music:I'll be here to comfort and sooth you Mirror reflection:don't worry when you cry I'll be here for you and not laugh Stay safe everyone 💓
Not when you constantly feel like someones watching you. When you get that feeling, its like you can't be yourself. You feel the same when you're around people. (At least for me.)
this is actually the most depressing comment section i've ever seen. edit: oh my god it just gets worse.. this comment section makes me cry more than the song called Dead Mom
cant say the same for me......i listen to these types of songs as i can relate so i hv seen many comment section......also guys, b strong and dont giv up hope...who know, mayb latr on u might get someone tht loves u truly....do u really wanna miss tht?
6- "I want to be a doctor" 9- "they are calling me smart! I should be a teacher!" 10- "yeah right just call me stupid because I got a B+ and call me fat because of 30 kilograms." 11- "Im tired of this shit. 35 kilograms and still fat. I just want to be dead. Why did you not put me up for adoption if you are gonna tell me that and not let me have my freedom."
3~ “I wanna be a big hero everyone knows!” 5~ “I want to go back to Mexico I don’t wanna be here” 9~ “Why did he betray us, I loved him” 12~ “Why do I feel so alone, why does everyone think I’m fat and ugly” 15~ “Just let me die already”
i rely don't like how u loved because someone when u love them they actually maybe don't love u maybe they love someone else so i rather be alone but its ur decision.
and then that "stranger" becomes an online friend who helps you through so much shit and your parents find out you havent met them in person and they dont want you talking to them (my parents have done this many times and is why i dont have my phone)
@@heartsfromcatie and thats the thing that parents never seem to understand. sometimes people we meet online as strangers become friends who are there for us when nobody else is :(
@Amelia Helms I feel you but if I'm eating too much they say your getting fat and if I avoid eating they say why are you so thin your Like a paper and if I say it is because of what they say they will just judge me I feel Like a puppet in this house hold
My mom tells me “everybody has bad days. Your fine” but then strangers who I’ve never met can relate to me more than my own mother. They will talk to me. My mother won’t.
Thats my situation rn.. My parents call me useless and pathetic all the time my mum sometimes hits me so i told my head of yr that i didnt wanna go home i was actually planning on running away cuz my friend said i can stay wiv her but then her mom said theres no where for me to sleep and thats why i told the teachers. im still living here with my parents rn im not okay i dont wanna be here.. My parents used to get hit by there parents as well but worse but then if ur parents did that to u why the heck would u do that to ur child. IT HURTS SO MUCH!!
I’m currently laying in my bed on Christmas night, 2am, it’s pitch black, I’m my room, staring up at my ceiling, balling my eyes out as I replay all the family fights today.
Oh my god, I’m so sorry. My parents would argue nonstop when I was little, and I would cry almost every night until they got divorced. I remember them having a huge argument in the car while we were driving our Christmas tree home about 2 years before they got divorced. The argument continued for almost the rest of the afternoon and I hated it. After they got divorced, I started visiting my dad during the summer and on most holidays, so I got to see both of my parents. They still argue over text sometimes, but at least I don’t have to hear it anymore. Trust me, family arguments are horrible, but it’ll get better. Now, I still get sad sometimes, but it’s much better than before. It’ll get better. And I might not know you, but I believe you can get through this.
I'm so sorry. I totally understand, my family can't seem to keep it together either. You'd think the holidays would improve the situation, wouldn't you?
I'm here for you. Maybe not physically but if you need to vent to anyone or you want a distraction from anything bothering you please let me know, I'd love to talk about anything like your favorite TV show even. I just know what it's like to feel alone and I don't want you to feel like that. Love you ❤️
@@cjkrunk7649 oh.. I dont get to see my real dad anymore.. I have a step dad that i hate so fucking god dam much, he hurt my mom infront of me once they were in a fight and he was on top of her trying to idk... I didnt understand and i was scareming a them to stop and its his fault and her fault that i am depressed not only that its school too.. I just wish i could have a good life with a perfect happy family... But it wont happen ...👀
This song never gets old no matter how long you listen to it for. As long as you relate to it you never stop listening to it. I first discovered this song when I was in around third grade and now I’m going into eighth and I’ve been listening to it on repeat whenever I feel sad and I relate to it so much I’m so glad you made this song it has helped many people
Here’s a story to read while listening. So i’ve had crippling depression for years but never cut. So people never believe me. A few months ago i saw on tiktok (i don’t have it anymore because of mental health reasons) that listening to music thats the same mood as what your feeling is one alternative to cutting. Once i saw that i realised that i was doing good for myself without even noticing and so are you. And people who make these kinds of songs are saving lives just by telling stories
These songs are lifesavers for so many people, and I never realized. Thank you for sharing this story and yes, there are people who notice you, so don’t ever feel like you are forgotten.
Let’s be honest, when our parents and “friends” weren’t there..who was? Our electronics : Anime : Social Media : Online friends : Music : Anything that comforted you :
Society: Just be yourself You: *happy* Society: Ew why are u so happy, the world is not perfect You: *sad* Society: Why are u so sad, other people have it worse than u do You: *looks nice* Society: U try way too hard it's sad You: *wears sweatpants and sweatshirt* Society: Ew do u even try on yourself You: I think I have anxiety Society: U will be fine ur just overreacting You: I think I'm depressed Society: Omg ur so needy for attention it is gross You: *cuts* Society: Really ur acting stupid You: *kills themselves* Society: Omg u will be missed bby, fly high, rip, you will be missed WHAT IS WRONG WITH SOCIETY, ITS NOT THAT HARD TO BE KIND
Age:3: Im going to be a princess! Age:7: Will they miss me if I ran away? Age:9: Why are people scared of me? Age:11: Leave me alone, your going to leave me anyways
If you haven't noticed the Scars on my hips Or the fake smile on my lips Or the forced laugh I've adopted Or the way I don't care about the things I used to love Then DONT YOU DARE stand at my grave and cry How can you cry for someone you didn't even know
If some one cries at my grave I will rise up and tell them to laugh cause there is no need to cry I’m happy when they are I’m not selfish I’m selfless. I’m kaylee lamb and I’m only 15 and I won’t let anyone I care for cry or die
They didn't notice you were crying they didn't notice you were sad they didn't notice you were alone they didnt notice how beautiful you are they didnt notice how sweet you are they didn't notice that they are hurting you they did notice your falling grades they did notice all of your mistakes they did notice your flaws they did notice you are not good enough for them
*"Why cry if you didn't even help me when I was suffering? You stood there and laughed at me. You didn't even bother to ask what's wrong. Now I'm dead."*
I thought suicide before but there is a reason why I kill myself. No not because I love my parents but because I want to help my siblings so they don't feel the same way i feel.
Trust me it doesn’t fix any thing it just causes the people in your life more problems my brother committed suicide in 2013 it controlled my life for years because of an act he did
There will always be someone to love and care about you, even if you don’t know it. And, who knows, maybe the person who cares the most is the one you least expect.
The only way I stay strong now is by knowing that there’s someone out there who’s gonna love me, that I’ll have a future with, it’s how I smile everyday. It’s nice to think that there’s someone waiting for you who loves you they just don’t know it yet 💖
When I first found this song I only listened to it because it sounded pretty. A couple years later I became pretty depressed and started cutting myself especially with coming out and stuff, and today I was scrolling through listening to jack stained and I come upon this! Thank you for making this song, even if I'm not into the genre anymore I still love the song. So no matter what's happening in your life just know that there is a better ending that you have to wait for, ALL lives matter❤💛💚💙💜
6: “I want to be a princess!” 7: “I want to be a teacher;” 8:“I want to be an artist!” 9: “I want to be a singer!” 10: “I want friends.” 11: “I want a good life.” 12: “I want to be like the other kids.” 13: “I want look better.” 14: “I want to be enough..” 15: “I want to be accepted..” 15: “I want to end it all..” Edit: I never thought this comment would get so much love and likes as it did. These past few weeks I have been struggling with severe depression, and just from some few nice words from people on the internet I have been able to become more positive and well, happy. For all of you that relate to this comment, please know there are people that are here for you along the way, and things will get better even if you can't see your life going anywhere. There is hope, and light and just be strong along the way of whatever you may be going through. 💖
5- "I wanna be a doctor!" Everyone- "You can do anything!" 6- "I wanna be an actor!" Everyone- "Thats a great job!" 10- "I wanna be a singer!" Everyone- "Were so proud of you!" 12- "I wanna be dead." Everyone- Edit: Thank you so much for all the likes and comments with your stories💞 Stay strong💙 Also for anyone wondering I’m 13 but I was 11 when I wrote this
Well heres some of my story, my dad left when I was five, I get to talk to him on Saturdays, I’m depressed, have anger issues.... and well I don’t want to tell the rest.....😰😔
Hailey Forvour yeah I'm 14 and want to be dead... but I can't. I have to stay here and look at for my sister. I couldn't do that to her. Or to my mom or friends... but my dad would deserve it.
This bring me so much nostalgia,it makes me remember how i had too fend dor myself and ive gon into depression and the always try too team up on me no matter how much love i show them.
It’s sad that people/parents tell you “you’re too young “ “it’s that phone!” “You’re just confused, not depressed” “you’re fine stop being over dramatic” No, it doesn’t matter who you are and how “good” your life is, you can get depressed. I don’t want to die, because I’m afraid of death, I just don’t want to exist. I get told I’m over dramatic and attention seeking when I say that and it makes me sad people would just dismiss others feelings like that.
I can relate to this so much. I feel like such a coward being afraid of dieing, yet wishing I wasnt here. I sometimes wish I was just never born. when I was ten I felt like shit but didnt think it was depressed or anything. Thats also when the anime and reading addiction started, so I guess I was able to cover up my sadness with that, but then I noticed that when I didn't have that around, I was fucking tired. When I was 10, I lost all motivation, but didn't think much of it. When I was 10, I stayed in bed all day reading wattpad and watching anime. When I was 11, I figured out what I was feeling that whole time was NOT normal.... I figured that out by first, seeing other people around me oh SO happy. second, I let go of anime, reading, tv and anything else that kept me away from feeling emotion for just a little, and I felt like dieing. thats when I noticed that I wasnt as happy as I thought I was. Thats when I figured out that that "happiness" was just coming straight from fictional characters and stories. Now the only thing I was a little bit of motivation for left is volleyball because it reminds me of anime, so I can do something active that I like and that keeps my mind off of my mental stability. Now whenever I talk to people that are in my class, a lot of them seem so happy. I was talking to myself once and said 'I wish I was never born' Forgetting that other people actually like their life. Someone heard me and was concerned and asked ' What did you say!? That you were never bored?' Luckily they thought I said 'bored' so I just went along with it. I'm also lesbian, and I don't feel like I can tell anyone because I'm afraid someone is just going to say that shit to me too. There are so many things I couls say that happned to me, but I don't feel like wasting someone's time. Now I'm just spilling my life story to some people in a reply area of a comment on a song thats really good. I hope that anyone who reads this has a good 24 hours, and hopefully more. ♥
People think just because were so young doesn’t mean we don’t feel this way Dumb@$$: just think of the people who have it worse than you Me: thank you for making me feel worse When Roblox is there for you when your friends aren’t My reason for wanting to 😭🔫 One depression two curiously that’s it
One time I was tired of hiding my depression caused from my parents I was scared to tell them Im like maybe they'll help me but I knew they were gonna say your not depressed 😒🙄 I'm healing myself and they act like they did it...
I know how that feels. I pinned a person at school in the corridor after having enough of them bullying me and I regretted it so much after as I normally am not like that and don't like hurting people
My mum says “why didn’t I cut my throat “ when I broke a mug. I was angry and decided to break one of the mugs she bought for me last year December to get the anger off my chest. I wasn’t doing it for attention as she thought I was doing it for. I told her point blank I’m not going to cut because of her, I would cut for a friend but never her. She was like if I had cut my self, she would wait till someone came in the house and told her I had died. Why would u say that to ur only daughter. Well I don’t care, as soon I turn 18 and have enough money to rent a room , I would move out Thanks for listening y’all 😔🥲🥺👉🏾👈🏾😅
I remember listening to this exact video over and over when I was younger. I never really understood the lyrics, (I didn't know what they meant) but hearing it now, I'm realizing now that I used to think it couldn't get any worse. I thought I was sad back then. But little did I know that it would get worse. Not being able to cry is worse than all the things I used to cry abt.
Reasons why you should stay alive. 1. We would miss you. 2. It's not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There's so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you've battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won't regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you've always wanted to do? What about the things you've planned, but never got around to doing? You can't do them when you're dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that's still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won't be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You'll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You're preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You're gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you'll never hear their voice again... 19. You'll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you'll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it's for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don't even know you and I love you. 57. I don't even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won't be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU'LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it's up to you to find out what it is. 65. You've changed somebody's life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that's perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody's life. 70. If you end your life, you're stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn't exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you're proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn't commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. The new season of Sherlock 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn't seem so great right now, literally anything could happen - From someone that cares about you
I Read All Of This! These Are Very Good Reason's Why Not To Commit! Sis: *Has Fake Depression* Me: *knows It Because She Always Thought Of Herself As A Psychopath* Also Me: * Shows This To My Sis* Here Lady! My Sister: Oh Hell No!!! Me: Pfftttt
Little boy: “Are you an angel?” Girl: “What?” Little boy: “My mom told me those who have marked wrists are angels.” Girl: “I’m not an angel” Little boy: “Of course you are! Mom said only angels hurt themselves because they don’t like life on earth. The world is destroying them so they try to return to heaven again. They are too sensitive to the pain of others and their own.” Girl: “You know your mom is very wise.” Little boy: “Thank you. She is also an angel, but she already returned home not my words, so credit to whoever wrote this
for all the people that are sad: Your skin is not paper, so don’t cut it” “Your neck is not a coat, so don’t hang it” “Your body isn’t a book, so don’t judge it” “Your life is not a movie, so don’t end it”
hey little girl i know that it hurts but put down your blade, and let go of those pills hey little girl i know that your hurting and hurting yourself will make it worse hey little girl trust me, it gets better but it takes some time so please be patient edit: for those who read this, you are worth so much more than you think, even if you feel that you are not good enough, you are good enough. i love you guys another edit: i know you tried your best, and you are still trying to hang on to life even if you give up. im proud of you for still staying, please dont go. i know that everyone may show theyre pain in different ways and is hurting for different reasons. but trust me, it will get better when you realize theres so much more to life. i might not be able to help you, but keep in mind that when theres shadows, there will be light.
isnt it funny how parents never believe that we were depressed. In their eyes we were just lazy. but in our eyes our world was falling apart. in their perspective they had bad kids and wanted a replacment. but in ours, we just wanted our parents to undertand because we love them and we just want to be loved by them.....
Thats my situation rn.. My parents call me useless and pathetic all the time my mum sometimes hits me so i told my head of yr that i didnt wanna go home i was actually planning on running away cuz my friend said i can stay wiv her but then her mom said theres no where for me to sleep and thats why i told the teachers. im still living here with my parents rn im not okay i dont wanna be here.. My parents used to get hit by there parents as well but worse but then if ur parents did that to u why the heck would u do that to ur child. IT HURTS SO MUCH!! I dont feel loved by my mom..but i wish i was she said she regreted having me
We are all suicidal kids telling each other that suicide isn’t the answer Edit: Thank you guys for all the likes, and it saddens me to know that so many people can relate. I originally posted this comment over a year ago and I can honestly tell you it gets easier. The pain you are in now won’t last forever, even if it feels that way. I believe in you, and you matter!! You matter so much more than you know!! 💗
They say we are too young to be depressed Too young to be a feminist too young to know our sexuality too young to have anxiety too young to be suicidal too young to have an eating disorder and they're right we are too young (not mine) Edit: Everyone saying we aren't too young to know some things, I totally agree. I was just commenting on the fact that society has forced us to grow up too fast. If you have decided something and you are sure, then you go be that, go do that, go stand up for that. Go be you and make your life yours. 🖤💙🖤💙🖤💙🖤
@Navaya Acuff Adults say that they control every single last thing about us. But if they keep at it were not gonna be of any use without being told what to do. We no longer will be the ones living life
@@Dakota_The_Apollo_Kid I wish I had a parent like yours my mum is supportive and all but my dad just wants me to become a lawyer to help him with money
it makes me feel like my soul is talking to me . I love this song Thank you🙏 for making this song it makes me feel like theres someone out there who can understand me the best of best.❤
My mom says this all the time. It gets so annoying. They say that I'm depressed because I'm in my room all the time when in reality that's what helps me the most.
@@summerhardwick689 I agree phones block out the world around us and provide u with people who care and music so it helps calm us down and let us forget for at least a few hours.
*"People say that I deserve better, but,* *no one is willing to give it to me..."* Edit: *At some point,* *You have to realize* *that some people* *can stay in your heart* *but not in your life* ❤️
To everyone out there, I know you might be sad, or scared, or angry, or a combination of all these things. That's ok. It's ok to not be ok. You've made it through so much, and I hope you see how much you're worth. Sometimes, you just need to take a deep breath. You've made it so far, and you still have so much more to go. Even if you doubt it, you are amazing. I really hope, one day, you'll be able to enjoy your life. And if that's not now? That's ok. It's small steps. Getting out of bed in the morning. Making sure to eat when you need too. Getting help if you need it: no shame in that whatsoever. I'm proud of you for making it so far. Just keep going. From, Leanna, a stranger on the internet who cares.
I have no idea why no one responded to you, thank you so much for caring about random strangers helping through stuff that no one could imagine! Your a amazing person ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for this ❤ I have been very depressed and started thinking about my mistakes all the horrible things I did and want to end it all but your comment is amazing. It gives me strength when everyone around me just ignores my pain, my misery and all. Thank you for your inspiration to keep going in life❤❤
That line hit hard My best friend( who I trusted with everything) abandoned me even after she knew about my dad doing the same thing and my mom who just doesn't care.
I'm suicidal but don't cut. But you can still tell, especially with the fact that since I was eight I've been fantasizing about stabbing myself in the chest, and my main stress reliever is whispering 'I want to tear my face off' repeatedly
The worst thing ever is when your best friends joke around saying "haha this homework is so hard ugh DEPRESSION" when you actully have depression but they just don't see it, so you secretly die inside.
Thank u someone understand in life. Right we would get bullied and no one really cared about us people so. They wont miss us when we go away there understand what they did wrong.
Look I really want to you know 2 but the only reason why I don't is because I have people in my life that really let's just say I have earthly possessions think about everyone and everything even your pets that you know could you live knowing that they'll never see you for a very long time are the thought that you might never see them again because we don't know if heaven and pet heaven is connected so really think about it before you do it please my friends and my pets are the only reason why I'm here even though I know they're not real friends it still feels nice.
Here's another one don't cry when i'm gone cause you didn't notice not when I cried not when I was told to die never so is it worth it to cry over something you didn't care to think of?
I feel you... I hurt every day putting on a fake smile every day just to know now that it never help hurting yourself jus to see if you'll get better nothing helps. Be other people I don't even know understand me in every way... So I stay alive a little longer..
@@ccwlf9873 I feel you midnight I know you but I feel you try getting a cat or some type of animal to tell everything they do understand you and you can trust them not to say anything ;) only helps to know that anyone knows trust me I got to cats and they're loving and they've never left my side only downside is you'll miss them like HELL when they leave
16 y/o girl: . . . 4 y/o girl: - runs up and hugs - My mommy says your an angel. 16: Wh- No, I’m not. 4: Yes you are! The cuts on your wrist say so. 16: tell your mommy she’s amazing for me. 4: I can’t. 16: why not? 4: Mommy was an angel too.
@@nicole.4295 Most people who have cuts specifically on their wrists have self harmed. Self harming is a habit people with depression or other mental illnesses pick up. We pick them up as a means of relieving our mental stress or a way out of the pain our brains give us. Us with mental illnesses are angels because we're struggling and we're still staying alive, despite feeling dead on the inside.
I never thought I'd listen to this song with a small smile on my face while remembering all the pain i felt when i was just 11 years old At least now i know i made it through that pain, and im better than i was Yes im still a mess, but atleast now i have something to look forward to This song go me through so much, while i hope no child has to relate to this song like many of us had, i know atleast some will. And maybe it can be their reason to keep going just like it was mine
I'm 12 years old suffering from anxiety depression and bi-polar disorder, this song helped me through so much tysm💗 Update: Hi everyone, im doing somewhat better, i moved and i have a great group of friends :) things have gotten better
Creepy Creeper music can be very comforting. It’s nice to know that there are people who can relate, and sometimes (for some people) that can go a long way.
I thought it said “when a person dies” for a minute. I lost my best friend when I was 12 suicide. Still not the same. We grew up together. Broke down for a minute
“Hey *little* girl you know smoking *kills*, don’t really care cause you *love* how it *feels*” children and teens have started smoking, taking drugs, cutting or causing then any happiness or pain to take their mind off the real pain their experiencing and this isn’t good! I wish there was a way to get all parents to listen all adults so they would stop ignoring us. But it wouldn’t work.
I’m a kid 12 my uncle died of suicide my grandma died of a failed surgery my grandpa was killed my auntie cause a fight with my mom ... physically my moms is so sad in despair of screaming and sobbing almost every day in just a week what can I do now I’m alone I have no friends on the internet or in irl and yet I still live and hate the idea of ending my life because I know there’s people who need me and I need them like my mom
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