*Sigh* I'll touch base on any controversy related to this video in my next video. Because this is a sensitive topic I'll speak on it (rather than comment) so there won't be any further misunderstandings
OH MY GOODNESS!! I just found your channel today. Subscribed! :) I have 50+ years of narcissistic relations under my belt. Soul murder I can relate to. I was nearly destroyed. Staying close to God was all that saved me. In the process of learning and healing, a work still very much in progress.. I became led spiritually to biblical truth unlike any biblical teaching you have ever heard preached in any church. Mind blowing!!!! Please please please, check out Jonathan Kleck on RU-vid. This knowledge and understanding, ALL backed by scripture, clarifies many of the things you were alluding to in your spiritual walk and journey. I think you have the eyes and ears to SEE and hear the truth he presents. His teaching does not come with opinion, but with physical evidence proving origin and agenda of our very real spiritual battles. Thank you for sharing your insights and God bless you!!!!!
Can a scapegoat be a narcissistic at the same?? Like a parent being the scapegaot of his own family (mother and siblings) and a narcissistic towards his kids.. Thanks your videos are really amazing!
U did great!! No need to explain anything!! It either resonates or doesn't. NEVER find the need to clarify anything u do in these videos. This whole video all the info made all the sense in the world!!
We must not react or absorb but rather respond by transforming negative to positive or just praying silently 🙏 May God bless all beings~ May God heal all beings~
SHOUT OUT TO EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU THAT ARE GOING THROUGH NARCISM, OBSTACLES, AND TRYING TO OVERCOME NEGATIVITY. I LOVE ALL OF YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. NO MATTER HOW HARD IT GETS YOUR HIGER SELF, GOD, AND THE UNIVERSE IS WITH YOU. IM WITH YOU. YOU STRONG PEOPLE ARE WARRIORS AND HAVE SO MUCH COURAGE TO KEEP PUSHING AND EXPERIENCING THIS JOURNEY ALL OF YOU PEOPLE ARE INSPIRING ME AND MANY OTHERS. ALL OF YOU WILL OVERCOME THIS. I LOVE YOU ALL SO SO MUCH PLEASE HAVE THE STRENGTH TO KEEP PUSHING. HUMANITY AND MYSELF NEEDS ALL OF YOU THAT ARE GOING THROUGH THIS WE NEED YOU BECAUSE ALL OF YOU BRING LIGHT, STRENGTH, AND COURAGE DO NOT GIVE UP. WE ALL NEED YOU AND EACH OTHER DO NOT FORGET ALL OF YOU ARE POWERFUL CREATORS YOU ARE POWERFUL DONT LET ANYTHING GET IN YOUR WAY YOU CANT BE STOPPED BY NO NEGATIVITY IN THIS LIFE TRUST AND BELIEVE YOU ARE THE ONE
Thankyou my brother!! Encouragement is sooo essential to those of us going through it. but 'God works ALL things together for OUR GOOD'! And 'even what the enemy intends for evil, God works it together for OUR GOOD!! And also, leave room for God's vengeance....He will take care of what the narc has and is doing. just keep loving (not enabling) because LOVE never fails!!!!
I’m an old soul, and I know the narcissist spirit is an enemy that has been around since ancient times. I see right through their meat suit, and many times I’ve wanted to call them out for exactly what they are: a demon. Doesn’t matter how nice they wanna act, they do not fool me.
Meh, but when you call them 'a demon' you are cutting out the human element. They are humans. This is human behavior. It's fine to label it as 'a demon' if you are referring to the behaviors. But when you ascribe hype spirituality to this and remove the fact that they are humans at the end of the day, you're setting up yourself to be better than them. You're not. Narcissism is something you *fall into*. It's a pit. For some people it's easy to climb out of. For others it's a black hole. But never, EVER forget that you can be down that black hole as well. Because the moment you forget...is the exact moment that you're in the black hole and don't realize it.
I broke free from my narcissist Mother, sister, husband and in laws. Life has is so refreshing and liberating without them. Yet THE LORD JESUS CHRIST is a divine HEALER and DELIVERER !
This video really spoke to me. My mom was my narcissistic abuser and I distinctively remember being 9 years old and wanting to kill myself because I thought that my mom would be happier if I wasn’t here (due to the abuse) and I remember a voice telling me not to because when I got older, I would have a great life. I also feel like I know my purpose early in life. I do tend to feel like a “chosen one” almost. With all of the things I’ve been through, I could’ve easily turned out to be just like the rest of my family, but I’ve always had a mind of my own and Ive always known that something was off about them.
They hate it when you go to church,when you're praying and fasting..when you're obtaining spiritual information and when you share your dreams and visions.they hate it
My narcissistic family made me a better, stronger more compassionate person! God chose us to fight these demons because we are warriors! Our family is too weak. (They know not what they do) We must guard our hearts like God told us. God bless you! Hugs!!!
I experience that predator-level feeling of them wanting me dead too. It feels like I am out in the jungle with them and they are looking to trap me to eat me alive. It is horrifying! No love lost here...
The Jezebel spirit will always reveal itself often you can hear their true voice it's the voice of a beast. These people don't want to let go of this spirit they feel it gives them power
So true.. the way they laugh, their fake cry.. And yes, they are afraid of being without it, and think the rest of us, regular folks are "sheeple", they are the evolved..
honestly anyone who grown up in a Household like this, ( including myself) know that we learned how to swim with sharks. They taught us everything we need to know in reverse :)
I am a psychotherapist and try to implement spirituality in my treatment. Personally though, I had a sociopathic father and a narcissistic mother. This Jezebel spirit really hits home!
I TOTALLY AGREE. I HAVE LOOKED AT A PERSON AND SAW A COPRA"S HEAD RAISED AND READY TO STRIKE. AT TIMES I HAVE DREAMED SEVERAL TIMES THAT SOMEONE WAS CHEATING ON. WHEN I CONFRONTED THE PERSON, THEY LOOKED AND SOUNDED SHOCKED, BUT DENIED IT. I FINALYY HAD TO HONOR MY DREAMS AS WARNINGS.
great! try hypnotherapy. the most effective therapy form that i know of. theres a great book written by thorwald dethlefsen about hypnosis leading you back to past life memories. it is very nicely written and there is a chapter for professional therapists like he was.
My mother used to look so attractive when she was younger. As the years go by you can just look at her face and see the evil it's crazy. She'll be talking to you all strong 1 minute then start crying and then in no time she gets back serious and cold as ice, it's absolutely scary watching her act all these roles in 1 encounter.
Reminds me of ther man in the bible who was so crazy and violent they put him out in the desert in a cave bc noone could be around him. Jesus delivered him and he became perfectly normal again.
I hear the shakiness in your voice, Ive been having visions since I was little & I felt these things around. They use to torment me in my sleep. Narcissists are willing vessels for demons. Some are just weak minded people & emotionally crippled.
When I felt like it would never end, I would put my hands together in prayer and ask God to deliver me from evil and he did! I'm not even religious, but prayer is powerful, so use it!
Following Jesus Christ overcomes these negative spirits - couldn't do it without Him. "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind."
I agree 100%. If you read scriptures this woman is practicing things that is direct opposition to scripture. She reads terot cards the whole nine yards. If she does not repent and find Jesus she will not enter the Kingdom of God. Leviticus 19:31 New International Version (NIV) 31 “‘Do not turn to mediums or seek out spiritists, for you will be defiled by them. I am the Lord your God.
Andrew Harbison nah !! Gtfo with that. I rebuke your ignorance ....just like the narcissists that abuse in the name of God or Jesus ... no way will I allow your words to procreate the very same energy we are trying to stand against.. I support her message and forgive your stupidness 🙌🏻✊🏻
I've watched my mom's face change many times. The only way I can describe it is it's like her eyes go black and her face contorts and she suddenly is a different person.
It's scary, isn't it? I had a colleague who was a covert narcissist, she got scared of who she became when the demon in her popped up even though it was only for a few seconds. It's like she knew that something was wrong with her.
Sometimes it's like other entities staring out of their eyes, like looking through a window. There's a book "People of the Lies" that addresses the spiritual evil to this all. It's a spiritual problem, pray against these things and RUN!
Everything is that deep. Exactly. Every event in your experience is like a piece of a layered cake. It all consist out of mental, emotional, physically and spiritual layers. And once we accept that and look for that, we can heal fully
Sister..your so called "ramblings lol. are my truth..I am a lightworker and spiritual teacher who has needed to go no contact with my entire FOO and move countries for my own survival and healing..I now believe my borderline narc mother who now has advanced dementia was/is overshadowed by a negative entity...I am recovering from soul murder...my ending will be a different story to my beginning..rise up all spiritual warrior's and warrioress. ..remember who you truly are and do not allow disordered sick people to destroy your precious life..the only problem you ever had is that you are TOO beautiful. We need to grow a large pair and shine our lights. May you never be broken again...much love strength and blessings to all here..xxx
This was me. I willingly internalised all of the abuse throughout my childhood. I was bad, broken, unstable, difficult to love and my parents were doing their best with me. I believed it all. Then when I was 17 something awful happened. It was an incredibly messed up abusive episode. A serious spiritual, psychological, emotional attack, followed immediately with a smear campaign that followed the narrative that I deserved what happened and caused the issue. And I knew I didn’t. They told the people that I loved that I was a liar. And I knew I wasn’t. They tried to use my spiritual nature against me, told people that I was mentally broken because I wrote poetry and fiction. Tried to convince me that the fictional stories and characters I was writing was never fiction, that I deep down believed in princesses and fairies and other fantasy magical beings. Tried to have me institutionalised and I knew if I let them do it I’d be stuck for life. After that I couldn’t bring myself to swallow the bs anymore. They had all their cards for years and they completely overplayed their hand for the sake of a ridiculous smear campaign in an attempt to ruin my life. They might have gotten some people on their side, but they lost my loyalty for life.
I THINK THATS WHY THEY HATE US...THEY STILL FEEL THAT FIGHTING SPIRIT IN US, WE ARE UNBEAKABLE BECAUSE WE HAVE SUFFERED THE MOST....AS ARTHER SAID "YOU MADE ME WHO IAM, I BLESS YOU"
OMG, once again, you’re telling my story. At age 46, I’m in a breakthrough realizing the toxic patterns of my life’s relationships and where it all started. Thoughts of suicide started in my early teens. They stopped when I moved far away for 15 years. After returning to my hometown it was like whiplash right back to my teens. Back in conflict w my narcissists, the thoughts returned. As the Black sheep/scapegoat (which is the exact word I used without even knowing it’s a narcissistic ‘thing’) I found myself wondering if they had consciously hated me enough to be deliberately driving me to eliminate myself to free them of the burden and expense of caring for me, and get sympathy. Which is so unthinkable I would have never shared that insane thought out loud. It occurred to me yesterday morning, and I happened across this video last night. Thank you for validating me. As a narcissist super-magnet, It’s long over due and much needed. After a recent phone call to my parents to offer help w something, I wound up being accused of calling to start a fight. I requested they acknowledge my feelings and apologize for the childhood wounds they inflicted, even if they were only out of ignorance. I was mocked and ridiculed. We wound up screaming. After we hung up I texted that I felt worthless and was visualizing suicide. They never even replied. I could have done it that day. They never even checked on me. But I was able to observe my feelings rather than react to them, and it was the confirmation I needed to see that they don’t care. Super painful. But on the road to recovery I found your channel. I applaud your bravery. Thank you for sharing your knowledge & experience and for empowering me to believe in my ‘light’.
You're testimony is similar to mine, I'm know it hasn't been an easy walk. I moved away at 14 and the way life had it, natural disaster pushed me back at age 40. You definitely are correct about reopening those childhood wounds, feeling like you were thrown back in time. It reminded me of how much emotion turmoil my parents put me through. It reminded me of exactly how much of an outcasted, black sheep I was and had been my entire existence. Just the other day, I told my Mother she has to rebuke certain dreams I've overheard her brag about and she turned the whole thing around on me! How she thinks I'm a demon and a narcissist! I've realized also that no matter how old you get, this injustice still hurts like hell. The brighter side is, I know GOD is preparing us for something great. He's teaching us not to pay attention to what we can see because it's not Real, we must keep our eyes on the unseen things because they are eternal. GOD BLESS you and keep your head up, the storm is nearly over.
Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.” Psalm 27:10 "When my father and my mother forsake me, the Lord will take care of me." Psalm 9:9-10 “The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble. Those who know Your name trust in You because You have not abandoned those who seek You, Yahweh.” Isaiah 43:18-19 “Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”
Kim Gow Oh, Hey Kim...jump to conclusions much? Try re reading that and consider I was talking about the possibility that DURING MY TEENS, when I was a CHILD and LEGAL DEPENDENT, in other words UNDER AGE, and not able to LEGALLY WORK OR RENT, yes, my parents supported me back then. and it occurred to me after returning TO SUPPORT THEM (thank you very much) that my emotional state AS A CHILD might have been by design because they resented the burden of raising their own CHILD. Have I managed to simplify & illustrate the concept clearly enough for you? And thank you so much for you compassionate understanding. It’s really great to expose my deepest darkest to what is supposed to be a supportive community. Btw, nice playlist. I love how you have collected other people’s work to share as a representation of who you are. Just out of curiosity, have you ever tried sharing anything vulnerable and authentic publicly? Or is the fear of judgement from hateful ‘randos’ hiding behind blue screens too scary?
Everytime I tried to connect with my family my feelings we're invalidated, and my immediate family is huge!!!I used to be the scape goat...Now I'm the Escape goat😎😎..thank for you videos and everyone in this community it has helped me a lot with the woman I am today👌🏾💯🥺🥺
You can't win this fight without God! Jesus and the Holy Spirit!...nothing else can beat it, i have seen this with my own eyes...a 76 year old man transformed from a Narcissist into a Loving father in front of my own eyes after some REAL Holy Spirit filled people prayed whilst putting their hands on him and in Jesus name delivered him from the Narcissistic Spirit that Ruined him and his familys life.
I saw the black spirit go into my narcissist body too. Very scary & at the same time, life changing. At the same time I saw that, I heard a voice say” if you stay you will be dead”. After 12 years I left & have done the no contact since then. Thank you for this video! ♥️✌🏽
There was a black spirit around the one i was with too. How have hings been in these three years since youleft? any paranormal activity? have you remained no contact?
I have dealt with demons and narcissists separately before but I never noticed this connection. It fits so well that I am suprized that I missed this! Thank you for the clarity and insight!
I really enjoyed this talk. It really resonated with me and was quite uplifting, especially when you talked about how we each have a purpose and something good waiting for us on the other side of narcissistic abuse.
I have overcome narcissistic abuse and can recognise the signs of abuse in others so easily now. Also working as a coach and therapist for anyone that has endured those people. Fully living my purpose like you are. Everything you say here is so true. I am the highly spiritual person and have left the family.
First time I have heard this “black sheep” analogy and it resonates with me highly. My father is a narcissist but he is getting much better with age. For all the wrong he did to me throughout my life and the wrong he did to my late mother, I still forgive him and love him. Things that have happened to me in life has convinced me of spiritual warfare. Narcissists are frequently being presented to me to teach me life lessons. Now that I know how to approach and deal with them, I’m filled with optimism and renewed energy. I could listen to you talk/ramble all day! Peace and light to all.
So deep. I felt my lover feeding off of me while I was asleep. I woke up sick the first time in years and he was skipping around so elevated. I won’t be seeing him again.
Once literally told my mother she had forever tried to kill my soul...looked at her eyes and nothing there, going on three years no contact, been going it alone found others and i am cool with it
I'm proud of you @Sam I really am I've confronted mines and recieved both the fake tears and fake "I love you"s and also experienced the "it's all in your head, you trippin" and it never gets easier it seems...hopefully I gain the courage/strength to do the same💪🏾
@@Cookiecomunity it's not easy with a toxic evil family in time you walk off and cut off . Very few like us, and we are just us, not superior but def not ordinary, it's never easy, the path of the righteous has never been...we sure as hell ain't shrinking for their comfort...keep going
@@sammalone9079 “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it." Matthew 7:13
I'm so hurt it's crazy he wanted to know EVERYTHING ABOUT ME I MEAN EVERYTHING I FOUND IT WEIRD HE SEEN THAT I WAS FORGETFUL SO HE STARTED PLAYING MIND GAMES WITH ME
Thank you for this. I was feeling in the dumps the last last few days about my narcissist family that I've cut ties with them, especially my mother, but higher self always reminds me of the bigger picture. And this just confirmed EVERYTHING! Thanks sis! 💙
Inanna Lilith I have bad days like that too, I haven't cut ties with my family but I feel guilty for not spending time. But just think that you deserve better and it helps!
Me too. I feel alone and isolated like a Lioness with her claws out. But I always have growing up in a household that you always had to be on emotional and mental guard for some dumb shit to pop off 98% of the day. Wild thing is, I joined the Army at 18 to get away from it all. I know now that I should have stayed away but I went back to that house every chance I got. Traveling far and wide to witness more of their bullshit..blind and not yet awakened. Got out the Army in 2011. Narccisst parents didnt understand what I went through and called my anxiety and PTSD (that I thought began in the Army..began at home with them and I didnt realize) an excuse. Doing alot of spiritual work these days and have just been through a huge spiritual awakening after a domino effect of attacks from different narcissist family members one after another until everyone I had ever known had been cut the fuck off and out of my life..this all happened after leaving a state where I lived with a narcissist ex for 6 short months where I found out was using cocoaine. Its been so much. Afghanistan had nothing on the war I just got out of. but nothing hurts worse than my narcissistic mother kicking me when I was at my lowest. I called her to just hear her ask me if I was ok after I moved away from the ex. She said "I told you so." To this day I dont know what that had to do with anything when I have never in my life been around anyone using cocaine to know he was hiding it from me. When he started picking on me and trying to start shit with me over nothing I didnt pay any attention to it because my step father did that for sport to everyone in the house. It was seeing his eyes all glassy and fucked up looking that made me question him. He admitted it and then it was worse because he wasnt hiding it anymore and by then putting holes in the walls and breaking doors I was locked on the other side of trying to get away from him. Then finding out that my mother was a sneaky emotional manipulator and narcissistic is what broke my heart. The only person Im in touch with is my 14 year old brother still in that hell house. Smh the anxiety I feel when I think about him there is alot. I check on him often but its like poison knowing my step father (his birth father) is picking on him for fun while mom is emotionally manipulating him and the middle child my brother is the one who is a second version of my step father with how he knit picks our baby brother and how they never got along like that. Its soooo toxic yo. Im shaking just speaking on it but its the truth of my poisoned ass family. Smh. Sad thing is? Thats just the immediate and the ex. The uncles aunties grandparents everyone is poisoned from whatever happened years before any of the grandkids were born. We are all spread out in Jamaica, US, Curacao and England and its the same poison among different groups of family members. Its so sad. So sad yo. The jealousy green and envy I have smelled and seen from blood I expected love from? It will do something to you. I became darker than what I was already raised to be but now Im between understanding my light and my gifts that I kept hidden from the world and the dark energy I used to be afraid of.
@@gugugreene8533 Hi sis Yes, it's hard breaking cycles, but please understand that's why you're here is to do just that. I know it's easier said than done but us victims will get through it.
I’m at the beginning of the video and you’re so right. That’s spiritual attacks but, we don’t let that stop us. If the devil says stop, we push harder! In the end Jesus Wins!
Wow my father, a narcissist also told me to commit suicide and no one would care or miss me. This was right after my mom died when I was 18 years old. I was so devastated and didn't understand how he could say such a thing to me but now I get it!
I will never forget seeing the jezebel spirit in my ex-narc. (I didn’t know what it was until this video, but I have no doubt now that’s exactly what it was.) He normally had like hazel eyes, but in this instance his eyes were black. It was about a week or so before I left him. We’d had a fight and I was not being emotional like I normally would be. I was holding my own, because in the past I would normally apologize for every little thing even when he was the one who had wronged. In this instance, I was steadfast and unshakable. I wasn’t letting things continue without an apology and an acknowledgement that his actions were wrong. (He screamed and yelled at me, and slammed the basement door in front of his 8 year old son, which he had never done before. I also told him he needed to apologize to his son, which I highly doubt he ever did.) This somehow broke him and I will NEVER forget that dark, cold, blank stare. He walked away from the situation so I never did get my apology. Over the following week he tried to bait me over and over, until he finally point-blank asked what was wrong and I told him I no longer wanted to be in the relationship. He told me that night to sleep in the basement despite there being no bed to sleep on, just my recliner. Again, the cold, dead stare so I slept in the basement and moved out the next morning into an Air BnB.
I started spotting the Jezebel spirit, my friend has it.... She is very manipulative..... She had influence the whole squad they are all blindfully following like her flock of sheeps
Self responsibility is the new rich. A soul contract is between Two people. I think we all chose our parents. I'd rather think I chose it and keep my power than give up my power and belive I'm a victim.
@@antoinettewynne8822 I had to have some help from some close spiritual friends because my energy was so low and I struggle with doubt and fear. I got me some rose quartz, amethyst crystals, white sage smudge, prayers, meditating on love and light, and doing shielding work on myself and property...me and my friends asked for our guardian angels to help protect us and help cleanse my bloodline and I took salt baths also tearing up any spiritual soul contracts (I don't know if that real or not but I still said out loud that I declared myself free from any contracts). I hope this helps. Don't be afraid to ask for help from people that you know have your back and are spiritual because sometimes this stuff is hard to get rid of...Mine was old and powerful and I couldn't do it alone and it took awhile and a lot of work. Good Luck and much Love❤❤❤
You are SO right!!!we are the ones God put in the family to fight this battle!!!like you said,the curses and the bloodlines,I am the most spiritual one in my family and I feel like the whole burden of my family is on me!!!they are clueless!!!
Thank you for this video. I come a family which has suffered alot of generational abuse/curses and I'm trying my best to break them by maintaining positivity, trying to personally develop & change, but I keep coming across ALOT of blocks from financial, love, friendships, workplaces etc. It's incredibly exhausting & I feel like I'm at breaking point and loosing my Faith.
I was there as well, almost had a nervous breakdown. As she said, we're here to help and with God, Divine, Universe, NOTHING is impossible!! Continue on your path of healing and DON'T GIVE UP! This is a great start, be bless🌼
Check what exactly your "faith" is based upon. If it's not based upon the Truth (Jesus Christ) in His entirety, you have open doors for demonic attack and oppression. You will know when you are following the Truth in His entirety when you can claim these promises in His Word for yourself in your life: Isaiah 26:3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee; because he trusteth in Thee. Isaiah 32:18 And My people shall dwell in a peaceable habitation, and in sure dwellings, and in quiet resting places Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” 2 Cor 3:17 And where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. Proverbs 13:21 Disaster pursues sinners, but prosperity is the reward of the righteous. Psalm 37:5 “Commit everything you do to the LORD. Trust Him, and He will help you.”
Thank you for your work. I was raised by a narcissist. I’m the black sheep and was the only one in my family who pushed back and rebelled against her abuse. Of course, I was further punished for it. I’ve also encountered MANY narcissists as a teenager and adult. Many have told me that I have great presence, but after all the abuse and confusion, I’ve lost my spark for life and have felt like giving up. Your video has uplifted me and inspired me to keep pushing. You’ve reminded me that I’m here for a purpose and I can’t let those bastards get the best of me. Lol thanks again 💕
My mother is sick always put down my talents .. someone said they loved my braids and ofc she had to put her 2 cents in “yeah that took 4 days long time you know how she is” like what does that have to do with my nice braids she was obviously trying to put me down... then tried to figure out my money because I started working again she gets defensive and wants to start problems she fears of me being independent after this year I’ll be on my own...
My mother was/is the same way. I remember when my sister moved out she told me when I get old enough to move to leave and never go back. And till this day I haven't been back... Best of luck to you!
I can relate to this on so many levels, and its so sad, Im sorry you went through this. A narcistics mothers biggest fear is her child becoming independent, your mum knows you are stronger than her and will succeed so much more in the real world than she ever did, and she cannot bare the thought of seeing that. Im 26 and share a room with my 24 year old brother( its sick, i know) and when i talk about moving out my mother gets angry and says things like ' dont even bother, any property agency will scam you so you might aswell stay home' . Like what do you say back to that? But i pray for you to gain strength in your situation x
@@feathersofdxhlia8122 my dad was and is like that. I was moving out of the house (while pregnant) and my dad was taking the stuff I was loading out of the house back into the house
I am on the same page. I'm the scapegoat of my covert narcissistic behaving sibling targeting me as the main target since my birth. I have felt my entire life a spiritual warfare. I am awake now. My pc and phone freeze up when trying to accomplish important related tasks. This is spiritual I agree without a doubt. Yes, I also experienced the suicide push when I woke up. They rather you dead than to expose them.
I'm so glad I discovered your channel. You're the very first person I listen to who is adding the spiritual dimension to the topic of narcissists. It's extremely interesting and relevant. I feel like I'm being under spiritual attack currently as I keep going ahead on my spiritual and faith journey away from toxic relationships. A few days ago I was attacked in a dream by the Jezebel spirit, she was raping a man in front of my eyes, it was horrifying. I have been having creepy nightmares after that for the past few days. So thank you for discussing about this so freely, it really rings a bell ! I definitely want to hear more.
I sense my deceased love ones. I hear their words though me, everyday, if I need it. I feel their love. They are with me 100%. I feel safe because the people who truly loved me are always with me in spirit. God provides this gift to the sensitive empathic black sheep. Thank you for these videos.
I went no-contact with my family when my son was born. He’s become an AMAZING adult! Being an ancestral abuse cycle breaker is a difficult path but totally rocks!
Thank you, thank you so much for posting this video. My widowed mother is a narcissist. She leaves wreckage wherever she goes. Everything that you're saying is resonating with me. She operated most effectively under the guise of being a "Born Again Christian", she instilled in her 3 children a core terror of God and disobeying your parents because "disobedience is as witchcraft". She'd break us down through religion. It was a very effective way of controlling her children. Sorry, I'm repeating myself. As kids, as teens, well into our 20s we belived disobeying her was equivalent to disobeying God. It was so intensely destructive. Growing up in South Africa we were so very isolated by the systems that were in place and falling apart around us. It further enabled her to isolate and control us. She homeschooled us. It was horrific. A phrase that echoes in the back of my mind is her yelling at me after I'd disapointed her or embarrassed her, she prized her delusional, grandiose self image. She'd say this in a low growl or just very cold and factual, "What the fuck is wrong with you? Do you have shit in your head?" She'd follow this up with a slap to the back of the head or some other form of physical abuse. When my dad died, she'd remind us every chance she could, that we should have died with him and all we could hope for in this life was imminent death and or "The Rapture". She didn't bring her children up to live, she owned us, she brought us up to die. I got away age 21, I immigrated to Scotland, were my father's ancestors are from. She followed me there and manipulated me and my sister into helping her get a student visa in Scotland. She moved in with me and my boyfriend for 8 months when I was 24 and having that that break from her between 21 and 24 opened my eyes to everything that she really was. An evil, narcissistic, jezebel. Who had abuse her 3 children and used them, mercilessly, without respite, with fervour and animalistic aggression. She caused so much disention in my home, my adult home, between myself and my boyfriend, between my siblings. I realised that she was controlling and perverting the communication between all of us. Every bit of information and communication was relayed and twisted through her. I called her out on it. I got to stand up to her once and for all. I'd fought with her countless times before but as a helpless child and confused terrified teen but now, as an independent adult I got to tell her that she was a terrible and destructive parent and I was never going to have her in my life again. I've kept my word and I helped my sister get away from her this year. I won't step foot in a Church these days, I have experienced first hand how easily organised religions can be devastatingly misussed and perverted and further enabled abuse. Religion strips children of power and reason and same holds true for homeschooling. They isolate and enable abusive narcissistic parents. I'm sorry this was such a long rambling response to your video but you have no idea how much this has helped me. So, thank you. And last thing here, do you think that jezebel spirits/ narcissistic behaviours are enhanced through spiritualism? As far as I can tell, narcissism seems to flourish under these conditions i.e. organised religions, spiritualism and in countries and communities that hold dear to their organised religious groups, spiritualist groups and ancestral worship. Any thoughts on this? All my love and support, Jo
I have not sat with idolatrous persons, neither will I go in with the hypocrites. I have hated the congregation of evil doers; and will not sit with the wicked. Psalm 26:4-5 Let us go forth therefore unto Him without the camp (the false "church/christianity" system), bearing His reproach. Hebrews 13:13 And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, My people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues. Revelation 18:4 But the anointing which ye have received of Him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, ..1 John 2:27- “Depart ye, depart ye, go ye out from hence, touch no unclean thing: go ye out of the midst of her; be ye clean that bear the vessels of the Lord.”Isaiah 52:11 The 501c3 "tax exempt" preachers have no light and no enlightenment, so they can only preach some clichéd doctrines and theories. God commands us to COME OUT OF HER! Revelation 18:4 The religious harlot (fake church system full of freemasons, witches, warlocks and serpents/narcissists).
Thanks 4 allowing this 2 exist.My mother is narcissistic,jezebel spirit.Narcissistic family tree.I have survived by the luv of God.U, this is describing my life 100%.Thanks please continue.😀🐦🔮
So real, my sociopathic narcissistic sister, was always jealous that i was me, creative and all and was my prime abuser. Once we slept in the same bed (I was a freshman abroad and was just visiting home and no longer had my own bed) she got up earlier than me, I stayed in bed, i semi-consciously heard her leave the room, and next thing? I couldn’t move, and when I look up, there is this tall nasty ass looking demon female with greyish skin sitting next to me on the bed, where my sister was at, and try to cuddle/choke me with her long arms. I woke up terrified, showered, prayed traumatized for a lil while. This was when I was starting to escape from her control. timing matters Another time, a narcissistic i used to date and I felt asleep in his arms, and I had paralysis again and saw two miniscule demons, one clinging to his sex and one other to his lap kinda threatening me. In the morning I left so awkwardly, almost ran out of the room, even thou we was staying at our mutual friend and we could’ve just chill out there. Again, it was at a time, where I was starting to want to leave him cause I was super confused about his manipulative acts. Those demons show up when they feel like the bond is weakening. I have several episodes like that with other friends that ended up betraying me, now im very weary of who I share a bed with, and if whatever is revealed to me, I listen and leave. Also I believe myself attract sex demons, I think many artists do. I noticed that more ashamed and repressed I am with sex more they hold power. More I learn, trust myself, act safe and respect myself without complying to anything my partner wants, express my desire, their ‘power gets more ‘shy’. Also when I get closer to God, have full on creative energy and is ready to materialize ideas, they get on the way and I get obsessive with dark or sex thoughts. They don’t want you to be great and live at your fullest. Anyways thanks for that video you’re a boss, sorry for the long text, I’ve been wanting to talk about that but nobody understands
With your sister, that’s a grey. Search it up and read about it in the Bible. Pls remember some ppl have demons while others ARE demons. Our body is just a vehicle and like a vehicle, you don’t know who’s in it and how many ppl are in it. Very scary. May the Anointing light of Yah protect you.
@@victor-zi7bu I agree but they aren't "people" using the vessels (bodies) they are all demons. This is why we must repent and turn away from our sins and be filled with the Holy Spirit. Then there is no room for these demons.
Yoo, the veil of the spirit is thin when you're sleeping and in the first few minutes when you wake up. Thanks for sharing. I wonder if there's a way that I can cast it away from my mom. In high school I asked a priest to come to our house to pray for my mom. Her bipolar side came out and became extremely combative. She kicked him out of the house and punched me in the face. Then later on she made me go to catholic classes to get baptized and I refused. Idk what wouldve happened if I followed her spiritual path bc I'm not catholic (But that's neither here nor there). Stay woke yall
💯agree. 2020 spiritual connection/Holy Spirit Empath I am I feel others pain. 23 years together with my husband he is a narcissist. Didn’t realize this till 3 years ago. Thought at first I was supposed to help him but I have learned I can’t help someone that doesn’t see a problem with self. He told me not to preach or teach him anything. He doesn’t care about the truth. So I learned to control my emotions so he doesn’t turn them against me. ❤ is everything to me. 2 kids together protecting my kids. My dad is narcissist my mom was codependent Empath. She passed 8 years ago. I love unconditional my kids animals but I have always felt I don’t get same love back from my husband cause it’s conditional love. He is a programmed worker 60/70 hours a week. Money is everything to him. I am black sheep in my family. I am trying to break free he has threatened to divorce me and make my life hell. It can’t be worse than staying with him the past month no sex cause he thinks sex fix’s everything I told him we tried this for 20 years doesn’t fix our problems. I am stronger than he thinks. This is the purpose to make us stronger mentally. Thank you for sharing.
Wicked spirits follow people home from their narcissist's home. Practice deliverance on oneself, their home, posessions, and children. Interference is infestation. Protect what's yours by learning how to put wards around your home and or angels of protection. Speaking from experience as my mom's family demons used to live in her room and the only thing that kept them away from me was St. MICHAEL prayers and a cross on my wall. Thank you for the insight on black sheep. I'm one and incredibly spiritual and a traditional cajun healer woman. You're a very brilliant soul. At my breaking point after suffering narc abuse from family, catholic elders, boyfriends, bosses, and lastly friends, those oppressive spirits tried to get me to kill myself too. Deliverance was the last thing that freed me. I'm subscribing, you are so right. I saw the black mass enter the back of my mom right before she would begin beating me. After she hit and hit and hit til she passed out, she'd wake up with no memory of what happened, gather me up in her arms, cry and say she never wanted to turn into her mom. You know what? She sold her soul to that wicked spirit because she made a choice to perpetuate the abuse and those monsters tore her life apart. Her health failed at 40, she lost her marriage, and now she's stuck in a chair. Very wicked woman.
So sad....that anyone can birth a child. Im sorry for you..i so had a mother with evil inside her. Cool tho how such nice people can come from that. The light is still out there....we must be warriors.
I can see that too. The black eyes. I have reconice that in narcistisch people. I’m gonne read about the jezebel spirit. It al make sense to me now. You are so right. When i was young i don’t feel that a was home ( earth) and i know that i was ment to do something bigger. I still don’t know what i have do do, but i trust the angels & spirits that they gonne lead me to it. I wish i know this 30 years ago. I also know i am a lightworker. I love to help people. I also feel the energie of people, das, pain, happy, down etc.. i use to think that these feelings were al mine. Now i know better. Namasté. You are such a beautifull soul. 🙏🏻🦋💜
I used to think my mom was psychic. Back then. She’s religious (works in the church). She would have dreams about me & would tell me. Growing up I was kinda scared cause I felt like she could always see me or had control since she was so “close to God”. This is wild. I’m spiritual not religious. Going thru my journey just found out my moms a narcissist. I gotta gtf
My mom is the same! She has worked in the church as a "nurse" and claims to be gifted in prophecy. Now that I know she is a narcissist, I question her ability. I don't like that this person under demonic control can know so much about me, things I don't tell. I've been praying for protection and telling God to block what they see about me. Especially after going through mental turmoil from narcissistic abuse. At one point I questioned if witchcraft was being done to me.Dealing with a narcicists is truly a war on the soul.
You are heaven sent, thank you for validating my entire life, soul and purpose. I have known since a small child having divine spirit and disernment that I was different special, gifted, the black sheep, called for a very high and special purpose. God gives his biggest battles to his strongest soldiers. And these battles/life traumas experiences should have killed me but it actually is true for once it truly has made me stronger. Like they say when you think you have been burried (in dirt, in darkness) you have actually been planted. ( Our roots will run so deep we shall not be moved but stable and able but we must water/feed/heal ourselves our souls and enjoy the light inside and from above that will shine and grow us into our true divine and higher selves. Reborn, evolved, prepared and walking in our purpose. It is like nursing school there are tons of heavy prerequisites to qualify and prepare you before you can apply to the real program. The pain was for gain and Our real journey begins . I thank God already to see the other side. Like wow Surviving what we have been through really does make us stronger, being in the darkest places allows us to fear not and shine our light where it is needed most. I am more than certain this shit has prepared me for the real world of spiritual warfare. Evil won some battles but wont win the war.All praises to The Most High God for showing me that all things work in divine order and glory to complete his will and we have walked with the devils kin are not ignorant to his devices. We can not go into battle without knowing and recognizing the enemy and his tactics! Even the devil masquerades as an angel of light and comes to kill, steal and destory. We can see him from a mile away thanks to our preparation we can not be decieved. I Cant wait to heal and fully make it to the other side, not a victim a survivor, not dead but alive, not broken but prepared ,not to suffer but to heal, not worthless but worthy, not in vain but for a reason, not forever but for a season, not to hit rockbottom but to fly skyhigh not captive but free, not helpless but capable and not bound in darkness but with God in and guiding me . use your power authority and dominion to crush the enemy (in whoever and wherever he is) .. From what we have been through its hard to imagine what is to come (scary) but I know God works in mysterious ways and I am beginning to understand that it all aligns with my purpose and will of God !!!!!! Love you family
"Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the powers of the enemy: And NOTHING shall by ANY MEANS hurt you" Luke 10:19
I'm so proud of you, the fact that you managed to speak up about this, after all you've been through. My hands are shaking the entire time I'm listening to you talk, the pain in your voice is so clear and I really admire your strength. To everyone going through this war: you can do this. (Okay this message is turning out very long but maybe someone will benefit from it) A lesson from experience: The moments when you feel like you have no value and no future and nothing to offer? When you know that it's not true but you find yourself believing those words? Trust me, it's not your soul telling you this. If what you're hearing and feeling seems chaotic and unclear, if it doesn't make sense and you feel like you're crazy, if because of these thoughts you suddenly feel like happiness (in any form) is too far out of your grasp (it's not!!), if you find yourself going in circles and looping around a thought with seemingly no way out and any conclusions from this thought defy logic, it means that whoever is speaking doesn't know their way around it either. I'm talking about arguments with people, so gaslighting (family members, partners etc.) As Well as the intrusive thoughts you may get when you feel overwhelmed or stressed. What I'm saying is: You have the power to learn how to recognise the chaos, and draw a line between your mind and that mess. Once the storm has less space to occupy in your head, it starts dying down. If anyone wants me to explain something further, I will gladly do so. It looks quite chaotic now but maybe it could help.
Your videos are so on point. I have noticed these things my whole life and have been reeling from this abuse both at my mother's hands and at the hands of my ex-fiancee. Having only in the past few weeks learned about the label "narcissist" makes such a HUGE difference. This spiritual video correlates so perfectly with all that I have observed my whole life. Thanks for being strong enough to break free and share your flame to those of us who are barely flickering. Thank you so much. I hope this sticks for me.
Wow Ive never been over come like this before. I feel like A lightbulb just came on and my soul just woke up. I’m literally crying! I literally think I’m having an awakening watching your videos ❤️❤️❤️ THANK YOU SO MUCH
I wanted to say thank you so much, you actually will never know how much you have made my day. This video is what I needed today, came up on my feed. I’m glad you incorporated the spiritual warfare and discuss how it’s around. I pray everything keeps going well. And thank you so much you are a lovely soul
Thank you for combining a psychological with a spiritual perspective. The way that I’ve seen/felt it before, and that other people have described it (including the narcissists themselves sometimes) is that I have a “light” inside me, which narcissists are attracted to, which they want to either possess and keep or stamp out and kill. I’ve been tested a lot in the last few years, and I feel like my light has been dimmed - sometimes I wonder if it’s still there, and what happened to it. It’s still there, but right now I feel like it’s just a pilot light, and I have to carefully protect it before I can let it burn up as big as it used to be. ...Maybe I’m just rambling into the void now. I just know I need to do a better job protecting myself, both on a spiritual and psychological level.
This rang true for me. Literally the experience I've been having with my manager, when I'm not the butt of the joke, he puts me on a pedestal and tells everyone how great I am until I walk around happy then another unnecessary, sick joke is shot my way. And I had a dream where he was trying to pressure me to adopt a snake and I kept refusing which enraged him. This is so crazy!
Narcs put you on a pedestal so they can knock you off it. And they repeat the process to keep your guard lowered. It's called "intermittent reinforcement." One of the many tricks in their little black bag of wickedness.
Snakes in dreams represent the spirit of divination. Which is knowledge of destiny and occult. They can even supposedly tell the future. If you ever dream of a snake(Pythons specifically) wake up and rebuke both the snake and person in the name of Jesus. They are everywhere
Really needed to hear this now narcissistic family and ex and what's bad as old as I am I'm just realizing all these years why attract narcissistic or negative energy people both of my parents were narcs and I also experience emotional abandonment at an early age pushed away when I wanted a hug now I'm seeing how I was trying to get that love from my parents I do the same in relationships, mostly all my friends and people I attracted were like them or negative now I just pray to God to bring positive people in my life I've really feel down lately a lil lonely because I cut people off I'll be 44 in October wish I would've not wasted time trying to get love from the wrong people and I'm an empath too and never fit in with my family, had a suicide attempt as a teen no one in the family called or asked why or at least how u doing and they all were there and witnessed me trying to take my life this just pretty much felt like a throw away sorry for rambling just had to get that out and say thank u for this video because I feel drained from arguing with a narc tonight, ❤❤ thanks again
Now, how cool! I love how you explained how you've interpretated being surrounded by Narcs, over the years. I can relate to much of what you said, & then, what you said about "Gray-rocking", (plus all my experiences with Narcs, over the years), it finally made perfect sense WHY Joseph "hid himself" from his brothers, to weep, those two times (in Genesis 42 & 43)! Thanks, girl, for sharing your light!
So true. Since young around nursery age, I could feel that something is wrong with my mom. I would voice out those issues that I felt weird and wrong but my mom would quickly and immediately shut me down through punishment or making me feel guilty. But I just couldn’t tell what was wrong until years later my Brother who is the golden child told me that our mom is a narcissist. I could tell that my role as a scapegoat/black sheep was determine from birth. Is a strong itching feeling that resonates deep inside of me.
I found this video just in time! I was raised by a covert narcissistic mother and I have siblings that are also narcissistic! I have had many spirits come through my life that have inflicted their abuse on me I found this video just in time! I was raised by a covert narcissistic mother and I have siblings that are also narcissistic! I have had many spirits come through my life that have inflicted their abuses toward me. This Friday I am going into a discovery court process for a car accident! I believe that your video has helped me to see that the opposing lawyer is more than likely going to have a Jezebel Spirit and they are going to sniff out that I am an empath and try to manipulate that! You giving me this awareness has empowered me to stay strong and in my truth! I so appreciate this from you! I’ll keep you posted on how it goes!
IT's such a good video and such a good perspective. So accurate...I have come across so many narcs, from family, to boyfriends and spiritual teachers. Spiritual teachers are the worst: they abuse and trigger u covertly and u don't know why you are always the one with the problem and they are so "responsibly" and "self-reliant"...meanwhile...meanwhile they leech..i have had the demon too, leading me to almost suidicde and it's like it talks through my lips, they almost move physically without my permission
I came to this video because in another one of yours, you said a quick line about suspecting that narcissist parents can sense which of their children are the most sensitive/empathic/here to heal, and then from early on they begin the scapegoating... I can 100% confirm this is true. Both my little sister and I are Capricorn Moon-Neptune conjuncts in the 8th house and we both bear the brunts of my mom's inability to manage her anger. She is always in constant denial of her anger (Aries 12th house.....) and will terrorize us when we express independent thought/inclinations. Our oldest sister is HELLA Golden Child, to the point where now even though she's insecure and miserable, she's at this point totally brainwashed into the narcissistic toxic scheme of gaslighting and blaming me and my lil sis alternately. Growing up I took on the role of the Mascot/Scapegoat Child to save my little sister, who has always been the outright Scapegoat/Family dumping ground of toxicity and denial. I left home because I hated being the scapegoat, when i got out into the world I felt myself shift into a Lost Child role. Anyways, I just thought it was interesting that your analysis lines up with our experiences. Moon-Neptune is a CLASSIC psychological and empathic sponge placement... put those two in the 8th house and you've got a recipe for toxic absorption and scapegoating, because we can see the SHIT that's going on, and you KNOW my gemini ascendant ass is OUTSPOKEN about the fucked up shit that's going on!!! I call it out every mf time I see it and the result has consistently been my mom, my older sister, and my dad (enabler) bringing me through emotional tripwire and psychologically cornering me until I lash out, then they can dismiss the truth I'm bringing light to because "I threw a tantrum." Bullshit.
First off this comment reminds me of my own sister because she can relate all of this back to zodiac in a way I can’t but also I came to this video because of that same comment 😂
Thank you so much for this. I've been in very bad place for some time as I'm stuck back with my narc parents & will be here for a while. This give me strength to endure and hope & purpose fulfillment to look forward to. I am working hard to achieve something but it is been hard working in such environment. And your vedio really helps. You are truly blessed to have endured so much & come up spreading wisdom & sheer relief to some of us. Thanks again.
I can't find your video on here that was so helpful. You nailed for me the dynamics of my family. Wow. I have tried repeatedly to be heard and understood and they reject me. They gang up on me literally and isolate me. The bully culture is accepted for them. Not for me.
I Grey Rock 🪨 my mom 👩🏾she used to get pleasure from emotionally tormenting me for her own amusement. I finally found all this out and now I grey rock 🪨 her and protect my sanity
Yes! I’ve seen the black eyes.... it was like my ex’s eyes would get big and I’d fall into the blackness like a deep cold hole I even told a friend there was a demon in him I could feel it
I love watching your videos, you articulate your experiences, thoughts and feelings very well. ( I kinda like the rambling too ) I work with teen girls in crisis, most of whom have run away or have been removed from their families. As I help them on their journey to recovery, I often point them in the direction of helpful healers and light workers on RU-vid because for young women, it’s advice that they consider to be relatable. I have found that encouraging already traumatised girls to go to appointments with mental health professionals often makes things worse in the early stages of their recovery. What works is love, compassion, acceptance and holding space for them whilst they process trauma. Thank you for all that you share. Blessings 💞😊💞 xxx
I started to watch this back when you first posted it but it wasnt the right time. Now I am getting down to the nitty gritty of healing my distorted feminine and whatever is still trying to drain me is rearing its ugly head because I am starving it. I have been having dreams of my mother and me getting into arguments. One time she even sprouted wings and her eyes were glowing red like a demon. I have been learning to control my emotions lately and I think whatever this attachment is, is getting starved because i will notice wanting to steal someone's energy, and I won't allow it anymore, so then i will have these thoughts of cutting myself or hitting myself in the head, which is VERY unusual for me!! I hear in my head "I HATE MYSELF" over and over again which, again, is very unusual. I think it is trying to get a rise out of me because it is hungry and needs some kind of negativity. I had an AHA! Moment and remembered this video. Thank you so much. 🙏 I too had a narcissistic mother, and then a narcissistic boyfriend
Omg girl same i have aall these negative voices in my head and i thiught they were me i was soo mother effing confused like i wanna die or i wanna kill my self or like...what else im a prostitute or im not smart.
I hv seen it in front of me, this person shape shifted and became gray like a dead corpse! A dark entitity and at that time i grabbed a crucifix nearby, just because it seemed the right thing to do! At that moment this person started schaking and trembling, grabbed the crucifix and threw it away! Then this person came back to the normal skin colour and told me that didint know why she had done that! It was a hell of an experience! This woman is one of the most powerful narcissist i hv ever seen, and the mother even more than her! Yes there is a spiritual dark force around them! They are as humans deeply wounded plus a very dark energy attached to them!
