Struggling with food | VLOG | LiveitlikeLauren 

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People in the comments are discussing weight. Weight fluctuations show how clever our bodies are at adapting to keep us alive and yet somehow we feel bad about it. I became 'obese' through comfort eating but that weight gain kept me alive through tricky times. I later got Crohn's disease and rapidly lost 6 and a bit stone through starvation yet somehow my body just about kept me alive. I then gained back 10 pounds in recovery and for the first time in my life I was told that my weight gain was a good thing, which really changed how I view weight. My body has been put through rubbish whether by myself, Covid, Crohn's, dysautonomia, HSD(likely Ehlers Danlos) etc. and yet somehow the rest of my body compensates to keep me alive. I have so much more respect for my body now. ❤

I feel lonely and sad today, so glad that your video just came up. ❤❤❤

Oh Lauren , thank you for being so honest and real. I can relate with so much. It's so hard when struggling. Take care and ❤ x. Tell us all Lauren

Don’t underestimate the draining effect of all this grey, wet weather. It is demotivating. This too will pass Thankyou for vlog Xx

I'm struggling, too. Diagnosed with diabetes last year...lost 50 lbs...50 more to go. Went on a sugar and carb binge for about a month...feel awful and so depressed and ashamed. Trying to get back on track. I have food obsessions that make it difficult. Love from the USA

“Tell us all Lauren” I am in the same place and it would be so comforting to hear your thoughts but at the same time don’t want you to feel pressured or triggered xx

I’ve had depression my entire life. I remember being depressed as a young child. Once I found the meds that worked for me I’ve accepted that I will need to be on them for life. I accept that it’s part of my make-up. However I understand that’s different than your situation. I can imagine that you feel grief over how you used to be. I hope that you find what works for you (meds or not) and find your happy baseline again.

Here in America, we call it a swimming suit, swim suit or bathing suit. When I was a child, my family was very poor, as were many people with large families and our "baths" were taken in the local river where are swimming for fun doubled as a bath for the week. Hence the term 'Bathing suit". We actually took a bath in the river while wearing our swim suits.

Lauren, I love your honesty. I feel all you feel. You make me feel sane. You’re a saviour xx

Please do tell us all Lauren ❤️ you don’t realise how much you’re helping people, you’re amazing watching you is a form of therapy for me you calm me I don’t know how to explain it m!! Sending love! Love you lots!

Don’t care where your videos are filmed I would watch you talking from inside a cupboard 😂🤣❤️ just love watching and listening to you. Have a good week you lovely human being 🥰

Yes I feel you! I listen to like 7 hours of YT a day to drown out the noise of my brain! & videos like yours really help me get through that brain noise..if that makes any sense! Sending love Lauren you’ve got this ❤ anxiety is a biatch

Yes I’m really troubled at the moment . Mind won’t stop . I have a lot of stuff going on . I pray for solace . I’ll pray for you also . You’re amazing Lauren ❤️❤️

I have binge eating disorder. No diet or therapy has really done much. I started a GLP 1 a year ago. I don’t give a rats about being thin . I care about at being healthy enough to be there for my family. Not get diabetes. I’m off my antidepressant. I will never be what the others think of as slim . At 60 years old I live alone. And a have a feeling of freedom around food . I feel like I can breathe again. This isn’t a suggestion it’s just my experience. I think you are an amazing woman. Be kind to yourself. You deserve the best ❤❤❤

I overate yesterday too and felt so bad with my body afterwards. I don't blame myself for what I do as I've been dependent on food for as long as I can remember. This lack of love inside, I don't know how to cope with it. Thank you for sharing anyway and for letting us know the way you feel, especially after overeating. It makes me feel less lonely..🙏💖🌸

I never thought I would come to love Tuesdays (previously the most obscure day of the week) until you moved your vlogs to Tuesdays. Love you! ❤

Hey Lauren, you are doing the best you can. Don’t ever beat yourself up over being a human being with frailties! We all fall off diets, get lazy and get fog brain at some time. Just keep going. You are never a failure! Big cuddle back! 😊👋🏼🇨🇦

Tell us all lauren! I am trying to get back into moving my body more as well. Ive gained tons and have always been overweight, now obese. But im also scared to lose weight since my larger size has made me invisible which feels safer after an abusive marriage and divorce. But im not healthy at this point and cant do what i want to do. Thank you for sharing and being you. 💗

I understand your fitness regime mindset. I have just started going to the gym and it’s mentally draining just getting ready to go there. Once there, I enjoy it, but it takes over everything, the run up to it in the day and going after work. I think when you start to feel and see the benefit of your hard work, it gets easier to carry on!

I definitely understand trying to find the balance between obsessing with fitness and not talking about it at all. I've been on the same journey. I've been taking it one day at a time. I started with walking and I've been adding new things to help me progress whenever I feel like I need them. But giving myself constant grace and knowing it's not about reaching a size, it's about being mentally and physically healthy ❤ if anyone comes at you in the comments you have an army behind you. Humans are free to grow and ebb and flow. Life would be miserable if we didn't. Sending love 💕

Tell us all Lauren - we are your friends and here too support you

I always wondered how those little tiny roads in England worked when two people tried to go northbound and southbound at the same time….turns out it’s not magic - it just doesn’t work very well!! Hahaha. Thanks for keeping us company, Lauren. I love seeing you pop up in my feed. ❤

you are one of my favourite channels on youtube and thank you for being so open about your struggles. makes me feel like im not alone in mine -especially about my body hatred

Hi Lauren, I really did understand about needing the noise off and seeing glimpses of who we were. Also love your idea about selling prints. I would definitely purchase one. You have such a good heart.❤

I call it a cozzie! I'm Scottish but lived in Africa where we all called it a cozzie. I feel your food struggle ❤

I too am keeping things very nice like you . Thanks for keeping me motivated . I am 66 soon to be 67 years old … you make me So HAPPY . So Glad I found you … you’re awesome .. Thanks for being real . 💕

Rooting for you Lauren! I remember when we were doing diet bets! How crazy was that?! That seems like a lifetime ago. I've come to realize that our health journey is a lifelong process. My old habits have come back to "haunt" me. I still enjoy working out. I love the feeling of what my body is capable of doing. I love feeling my heart beat and my lungs filling with air. What gets me is my diet and as ive gotten older i find it very easy to put on the weight but feel like it's 10 times harder to get it off. Oh midlife! I now work as a nurse and with that, i get daily reminders of what will happen if i dont get my bad habits under control and just how important mobility is. Food is definitely an internal struggle but i keep moving forward. i refuse to stop. I wish you all the best and just want you to know im rooting for you in this journey we call life. ❤ Rob (shoe charm)

As hard as it is to see you struggle, it is reassuring and oddly comforting to know those of us also struggling are not alone x I too look forward to a life without medication/mental health issues. All we can do is be kind to ourselves and take it a day at a time. Sending healing vibes your way, Lauren. Hope this week is better for you x ps tell us all Lauren!

I’m off on tuesdays so it’s nice to be in the middle of chores and see your videos pop up ❤ I think using your voice is key to keeping your sanity and humanity. I love you and your videos, tell us all Lauren ❤

Tell us all, Lauren! I’m right there with you in so so many ways. I look forward to every video you put out and I’m always so happy to see your face and hear what’s going on in your world.

Aw Lauren, I can relate so much to you. Love love love your honesty and your weekly vlogs, I wish I could give you a hug too. I don't think you realise how much you help alot of us. As we obviously don't talk about our issues, but listening to you a like therapy. Please keep up these fantastic vlogs. But also look after yourself first ❤❤❤❤

that moon 🥹🌔'swimming cossie' is so much cuter than saying 'bathing suit'. stealing that! thank youuuuuu

Tell us all Lauren! ♡ I love the hour long vlogs & seeing your gorgeous self!

Lauren, I’m so glad that you’re able to talk . You are doing great.You are a beautiful and amazing person.Always remember that. Things will get better.xx

hun you can tell us all but only in ur own time when ur ready, ive been binge watching all your videos over and over again and you keep me going you so relatable and down to earth love watching you, keep that chin up hun xx

Lauren you are incredibly amazing and inspiring being. Thank you for continuing to share your life and journey (all the good and challenges). I completely understand your struggle. You are making progress. No matter how small or big. One step in front of the other. Keep doing you, girlie! 😊

I'm glad to have found your videos. I am from Florida. And I have also been on weight loss struggle my entire life .

Awhh bless you , you know your so brave to record yourself when your feeling most vulnerable don’t be so hard on yourself sending you lots of love and strength take care ❤

Thanks for the cuddle! I agree when you have a platform you have the opportunity to make a difference. I'm glad you are not staying silent. Let's have the discussions

Tell us all Lauren! ❤ also just wanted to add I often watch your videos in 3 segments as they are so chilled my 3 year old usually falls asleep whilst feeding while I watch them! It's become a norm so I stop it and pick up next night to do it again, slightly frustrating for me as I want to watch whole video at once but bonus that it gets her to sleep every time so thanks alot! 😊❤❤

Tell us all Lauren, the summer yellow dress looks fab and your hair at the end lush.😊

tell us all lauren! as always thank you for being so open and sharing with your life!

Never thought that other people had the loud noise in the head where they can’t listen to anything else. Lauren thank you for being so honest and helping others feel less alone. ❤❤

You are certainly not a bad person ❤️ you make me laugh all the time, I look forward to your videos and think you’re amazing xx

Struggling with food and binge eating too. Gained 5lbs in the last 9days. Such a struggle.

Tell us all Lauren. I hear you. I'm struggling at the moment with exercise/food to try get a healthy balance... 20 years later after an eating disorder. Still in recovery. It's so hard. So I love you. I'm listening. ❤

Love your vlogs, always watch but don’t always comment. However just wanted to help your algorhythms (spelling?) and say that you are so honest and relatable. It’s so refreshing. Have a good week. Xx Tell us all Lauren xx

Tell us all Lauren. ✨💐 And just a word of encouragemnet, Ive always really struggled with finding balance between healthy eating and movement. The pendulum always swung way too far in one direction or the other, until I was diagnosed with ADHD and started medication. I discovered that a balanced mindset around what I wanted to acheive fell naturally into place and my eating and movement happens without much effort at all. All this time my brain was just trying to find more dopamine. And it was so powerful it could overwrite my 'willpower' to get what it needs. All that to say, what ever the underlying reason is for your struggles, be kind to yourself, It may not be a lack if discipline but its likely your brain and body is trying to find peace/comfort/balance in the ways it knows how. So thrilled to hear youre seeing glimpses of how great yhings can really be. I know they will be.

I just wanted to say I love your videos, and your are an amazing woman!! ❤

Tell us all Lauren , btw your skin and your hair is looking beautiful 🤩

Thanks for sharing your struggles. It makes a big difference.

Decompressing in bed after a traumatic night, my dog broke his leg. He’s gonna be fine but nice to watch Lauren who is ‘all of us’ and makes being real a real thing it’s ok to be.

Realiziam is the best, and you're the best at it, and that makes you pretty damn special in my book. Hello from us in Alaska 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

Enjoyed this lovely relaxing vlog Lauren…just put my face on to face my public lol😅 and had you on to listen/watch. Hope you’re feeling ok lovely and having a good week . Yes, tell us all 😊😊xx

tell us all Lauren. Your skin is beautiful this week - you are radiant

Hi beautiful I'm going throw the same thing Im trying to get my happy self back . recently I've done a 3day walk for my charity and i feel so proud of my self. No matter how low you feel you should always be proud of who you are xx❤❤

Lauren you are so brave and kind to share your private thoughts looking at a lot of the comments you are supporting and helping a lot of other people which is a special gift.bye for now

Thank you again for sharing your life with us. I like your videos on a Tuesday. Tell us all, Lauren.

Yay!! Been waiting all day to see your lovely face pop up with a new video 🥰

Did you know that it takes the brain 20 minutes to tell your stomach that you’re full so by the time you feel full you’re already way too full which is why so many people overeat. You are NOT a bad person!! I’m a therapist by the way and what you said about some therapists was hilarious! I have had so many clients tell me that they’ve had therapists who seem to do the job just to hear themselves talk which is a shame but I’m so glad that you have a good one who actually listens to you. I would definitely buy one of your pieces of art!! Please do this! Lauren tell me all!!! 💕💕

It’s 4 June 2024 Tuesday and you have Made my Day .💕 You are R Ray of Sunshine 🌞 …. Love you and your Family …

I don’t comment often, but I’m still watching after years. We are so glad you post these videos. Your journey is so relatable. You can do whatever you set your mind to because you have done before! 💪

Hello Lauren, do tell us all. I personally find it an interesting topic, but that could be I'm also going through the same. I'm still learning to process my health, fitness, body without being consumed by it, an all or nothing kind of mentality. Have a good week!

It’s not the food (that’s the symptom), it’s the emotions (when the tools to deal with them isn’t there, tied to development psychology), to cope individuals find different strategies to numb their emotions and feel better. It gives a quick fix and the mind feels calm, and ok again in the moment but longterm it harms the individual. This symptom/tool can be anything that gives the wanted effect. Some run too much, some eat, some starve, some work, some gamble, some do drugs etc. It will be ok, it’s a matter of learning coping mechanisms that wasn’t taught during the formative years! It’s often tied to parents not knowing either, cause they in their turn didn’t have the tools to mirror and regulate their child’s emotions. The parent must hold the emotions from the child and mirror and intepret them in a correct way for the child to learn. It’s all tied to implicit and explicit memory and development to the brain halves. The beautiful thing is that ne can learn these things outside of their childhood, and it’s never too late to learn even though it’s a process that takes time and can feel painful ❤ Can you find a psychologist that understand these complex things? Pills do lots and can help people, but pairing it with psychology sessions for at least a year helps most people so much. You’re wonderful, Lauren, and I hope that you will feel not only better but that there is an ease and joy more often. You deserve to feel ok and I’m certain you will get there❤

Tell us all Lauren 😊 Thank you for your vulnerability, your videos always help me feel not alone. ❤

Youree not alone,I'm 33 and feel exactly the same. I call them bathers and im from wales x

I had the most absolute shit week last week. Got a bad performance review at work. It just makes me feel so less than. Makes me hate corporate life. Anyway your videos are always a welcome invitation to just relax and realize we’re all human and we are all whole and enough as we are. ❤

Tell us all Lauren and thank you for being so transparent.

Loved your new earrings… sending hugs xxx

Tell us all Lauren . Hope your feeling better Lauren it’s horrible feeling that can’t be bothered and empty feeling . Your such a fighter with your mental health sending hugs . ❤

Your literally so pretty! Hope you have a lush week ahead x

Lauren, tell me all! I never suffered from hayfever until about 10 or 11 years ago in my late 40's early 50's. I find that weird. I'm suffering from really watery eyes at the moment.It's so annoying. I love Charmouth and any part of the Dorset coastline. I'm lucky enough to live in Somerset, so I'm not far away from the Jurassic coast. I'm struggling at the moment to motivate myself to do anything, and then I feel incredibly guilty that I haven't done things. The lino cutting art looked like a relaxing thing to do. I am so pleased you have a good relationship with your therapist. ❤

I love your driving videos. The scenery is so much better than the California suburbs where I’m at. I’m going through a bad patch right now too. Summers always depress me, go figure. Your vlogs help.🥰

Yes that area of the world is so upsetting and I think most of us are feeling the pain as a collective! 😢 I would love to see your artwork and it’s a brilliant idea raising money to support the people who are hurting so much right now! You’re skin is looking so fresh and vibrant right now so you are doing the right things there hunnie. Keep it up 👍

Love that I caught you on a Tuesday! Hugs from North Carolina! 💕

I'd be happy to hear about your working out journey! I've been struggling with consistency of my workouts, too. It feels so stupid when you work out and constantly think that you're gonna quit, it's just a matter of time. Such a demotivation!

I so relate to this weeks vlog. Thank you for reminding me I'm not alone. Love you bunches, mean it 🤗 😘

Silence is the refuge of the wise sweet Lauren

Thank you for Sharing everything with US . Your Amazing . Have a Great Night . Enjoy Life Lauren Mae 🩷

We call it a bathing suit or swim suit in Canada. We also use one piece. 😊

Oh Lauren. Your amazing! Your doing amazing! Don't put so much pressure on yourself. I hear the overwhelmingness in your voice. I know it because I do it too. Please read all your beautiful comments and know how loved you are. You are worthy of being happy and healthy. It is ok to just be and sometimes not accomplish anything in a day. ❤ PS in New Zealand we call them Togs......and TELL US ALL LAUREN

Lauren you are such a sweet person Wish I lived near you - I have / had a love hate relationship with food and probably always will have - going to the gym is amazing- swimming is great for you - be proud !!

Lauren life is not only short and fragile but also unpredictable. You have it for who knows how long - and at least you recognise what needs to change for your wellbeing. It wouldn’t therefore make sense for you to not make that change even if it affects work which is just one element (albeit very important) of you. 🤍🩷🩵

Lauren I enjoy your vlogs so much. I wanted to say how lovely you looked in that yellow flower dress you wore over your swimsuit ❤ You brightened my day 💛💛🌼🌼🌼

YOU, my love, are such a wonderful person. YOU are genuine and very relatable & that's only one of many reasons I ❤you and your vlogs. {{{Hugs}}} from Lori in Seattle, WA

Tell us all Lauren 🙌 love listening to your process and growth, very inspirational. We are all on our own little journeys big or small! The world is in a chaotic and uncertain place at the moment , so I bet we all feel the same.

Tell us more Lauren.....you are such an inspiration to to so many of us. You will never know how any lives you are positively impacting by just being real....thank you! ❤

Thank you Lauren ❤

The only way I manage BED is to make sure I eat at every meal, even if I don't feel like it, and focus on nourishing my body with protein and micronutrients. It flares when I am not prioritising nourishment - there's power in recognising that the binge is a response to your body chasing what it needs, it's not a weakness or failure on your part, it's your body and brain wanting more nourishment.

You are AMAZING X tell us all Lauren xxxx

Rain makes me happy I love it

Hey Lauren, I’m on the same anti depressants as you and my anxiety has gone through the roof today…thank you for being on RU-vid 💋oh and tell us all xxx🥰

Please don’t hate me for saying this. Your life would change if you lost weight. You are beautiful inside and outside but I worry about your health. Anyone who has struggled with weight knows that being overweight takes over your life.

I don't know if it's weird or a wonder.. but literally i see myself in you 110%. And i wanna cry and give you a huge, warm hug! Love yourself because no one will do it for you!! ❤

Lauren tell us all please!!! I love the Tuesday videos ❤️🙏

Hi Lauren , love your vlogs , been watching for a while now but don’t normally comment. Tell us all Lauren ❤️

I noted how many times I get truly hungry in a 16 hour day (empty stomach, hunger pangs) and it was 8 TIMES!! every 2 hours! obviously I can't eat that often because the min I'd be consuming is 2400 cals so I have to stay hungry half the time to stay a normal weight. hang in there girl, I get you!

In Ontario Canada we just call it either a swimsuit or bathing suit. Yes bathing suit sounds very old fashioned.

You tell us exactly how much you'd like to share with us and I will be grateful for it ❤