Terminal Lucidity | Ajahn Brahm | 1 December 2023 

Also at one point I felt so guilty for allowing her to be given this medicine, so thank you for showing me this is ok. It's a relief to my mind.

All the very best wishes to you and your family John - big love and in sure you did your best by your Mum and I hope u r ok one year on xxxxx R xxx

Stay strong❤

Wishing you well in navigating your loss 🙏

​​@@johnstone6476my father died of lung cancer two months ago. However, they didn't give him morphine, because it's almost impossible to legally get prescribed potent addictive drugs in my country. Instead, they tried to relieve his pain with ibuprofen, ketorol and all this useless garbage that doesn't work. That was horrible. When I close my eyes, I can still see all that unimaginable and totally unnecessary suffering my father had to endure, and it breaks my heart... I wish we had access to morphine, this is the best thing you can do in a situation like this. So don't feel guilty, you don't know what it looks like when a person is seriously ill but he doesn't have access to the drugs he should be getting. I can assure you it doesn't look pretty - at all.

In lay life you can be whatever you are/want/identify with. As far as I know Hindi and Buddhist teachings say nothing negative in regards to sexual identity, who one chooses to be with, rather the focus is on intention. If you are to become a monk, sex is not something that you would be concerned with in any manor with anyone straight/gay/bi or otherwise, so it does not matter what you were during your lay life, should you decide to follow the path of a monk, sexual preference would no longer be relevant.

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Other humans re not designed to consistently give us happiness. We all have free will to do what we please. Even if you were happy in love with someone.....it's not sustainable long term unless you share a value system (i.e. your will is in generally similar direction). Don't make your happiness dependent on others. Relationships are there for us to play with one another. But we essentially must be able to go our own way. Otherwise, we are not sovereign. Like children without a mommy....no self-deternination.