Testosterone and bottom dysphoria 

Me too. My bottom dysphoria has gotten so horrendous. I didn’t get it very often or particularly badly before T. I’m 4 years on T now. It got gradually worse and then last year suddenly plummeted even further (around the time I switched to a preference in men, I’m bi and it fluctuates) Still trying to get top surgery. But I don’t want phalloplasty because I know it wouldn’t be enough for me personally. I’d just be dysphoric about everything it isn’t because I obsess over detail. So I’m kind of just stuck and feel utterly hopeless and resigned to the fact my body will always make me sick. My only real hope is that stem cell penises will be available in my life time.

I am going through the exact same thing now. Felt like u took the words out of my mouth. I'm glad I'm not alone though.

Yeah im similar to you. Before starting transition I didnt think not having a dick would be that big of a deal to me. Im too squeamish and scared to get that operation. However, since being most always perceived as a man, my anxiety rose significantly and I feel discomfort in public, especially in locker rooms or restroom but in general too. I dont mind as much when Im alone -its not ideal but I can deal- but when im at work for instance the thought of 'being discovered' is always at the back of my mind.