GIRL I FEEL THAT SO MUCH I notice things I say or do and I’m like “um why do I feel like I’m becoming my mom a bit 😐” Getting older should be seen as a beautiful thing!! Getting to experience life a different way throughout your time on earth is so cool and I’m trying to enjoy every moment that I can!
Grayson… I literally felt like I was TALKING TO MYSELF BABE, not saying I’m you or youre me but this feeling is sooooo… yucky ! Also BABE JUST LITERALLY WENT TO THE DOCTOR TO SEE IF I HAD PMDD.. cause it’s so crushing.. and feels like I can’t control anything !
I so feel you on wanting to be more and doing more in general, feeing extremely down when nothing is accomplished or happening at all. As long as you keep your mind distracted and focus on what's important it'll be alright. And failure is the greatest teacher of them all.
feel u so hard w the aging thing, im turning 25 in a few months and also feeling......so weird about it......think the halfway to 50 thing is whats tripping me up also this yr i also was finally like im not shaving my legs anymore. over it. big fan
omg me too, but it’s next month. i feel so young in a way esp bc of covid. i felt embarrassed that i was so scared/shocked to be turning this age. i know it’s not old, but it’s older than i feel?
@@ethereal_astronaut YEA i do feel like covid has left a lot of ppl feeling weird and younger just bcuz we essentially missed out of two+ yrs of living life normally/how it would have been without it, think its a very common feeling among a lot of ppl
i relate so so so so much on the wanting to be diagnosed thing. recently got an adhd diagnosis but ive been struggling with emotional dysregulation, splitting and executive dysfunction. it's pretty awful, makes you feel like you're insane. but anyways i hope the coming weeks are better for both of us and i hope your car troubles get resolved!! also relate so hard on your hobbies becoming labor bc of perfectionist tendencies tht end up sucking the fun out of it (bc ur constantly feeling inadequate and ppreoccupied. it ends up really exhausting you. don't know how to end this comment lol. im so happy im early, i love your channel
I moved earlier this year (just across town, not very far) so I feel you on decluttering before moving. I've been in my new place for about 5 months now and I still want to keep getting rid of things. I used to have a collector's mentality as well for anything I was into but it just results in so much stuff that doesn't matter and all of it stresses me out now!!! I don't like minimalism in terms of the stereotypical beige/gray/white etc but I definitely prefer clear surfaces, not a lot of clutter, not a lot of "extra" stuff in sight when I'm in my apartment (I love colors and having art on my walls but just not physical clutter). Also re shaving, personally I still shave but like once a week max lol (once-ish per week during summer and like mayyybe once a month during winter, sometimes I just like having smooth legs), my skin gets irritated if I shave more frequently even if I am exfoliating and moisturizing. During covid I grew out literally all my body hair when I wasn't leaving my house but I didn't love how it felt, so a happy medium of shaving less frequently works for me :) I wish more people would just do what they want with their body hair and stop judging what others do, it's all personal preference & comfort!
Hell yes to no shaving!! I haven’t for a couple years and I love being natural. A light trim is all I need. I’ve also grown to find it attractive on myself and other women/fem folk. I enjoy playing with my leg hair and saving money on razors!
I don’t want to say that i know exactly how you’re feeling cuz i don’t…but im an 18y/o that just graduated and i leave in a week to move halfway across my country for university and damn near everything you described is how i’ve been feeling. like i’ve just been at the highest point in happiness (prom, graduation, parties) and then when summer hits it’s like BOOM. no one cares anymore because you have to grow up and start adulting! it’s scary. i see my parents more and more in me everyday through my actions and i can’t wrap my head around telling people that i wont be a teenager anymore. just wanna be forever young🥲
@@sabor3541yeah totally! i’m not super knowledgeable about haunted/possessed items but i’ve had experiences where once i’ve gotten rid of a bad energy item, my bad happenings disappeared with it
I just turned 30, cis female, and I can confirm the idea of aging is much freakier when you’re going through your early 20s than it is when you start actually getting into older years. And yeah, we are very much like our parents whether we’re okay with that or not
Stopped shaving my underarms with regular razors and started using clippers instead. Cut ~way~ down on the irritation I’d get there. Never happens now. Also now only shave my legs when the hair makes them uncomfortable. Like, they get itchy, and that’s when I shave. It’s so much more comfortable and relaxing to not think about it.
last year I sat in a restaurant with my friends and I order something my mom would always order and I always hated when she ordered it but in that moment I was craving it, also I was doing more things she would do so that's basically when I realised I'm becoming my mother
I get you :((( I have no idea if you've already read these, but for feminist literature I looove the thoughts Virginia Woolf shares in "a room of one's own", and regarding capitalist productivity one of my favorite books on that topic is "how to do nothing" by Jenny Odell. they're really popular books but just in case, I'll leave this comment here!!! they're essays/non fiction
i understand soo much of what you’re saying. im seeing my mom in myself and that freaks me out for some reason, im about to turn 23, life is so weird and i can’t tell if i’m where i’m supposed to be even though i know there’s no such thing really, and coincidentally my cat also might be needing eye surgery too
I really hope the car troubles turns out alright 😭😭 I can't believe there aren't any buyer protections or something with like hidden issues?? Cause like the battery dying cannot be something that was advertised like ?? Wtf
hey Gray, I just want you to know that I started watching this podcast, ate, realised The Patterns™, had a big breakdown and I finally came back to finish the podcast.
9:52 relate to hard lmfao😭 like no i am not cooler than any1/trying to sound that way. my brain just sucks. i would rather have no thoughts (head empty)
Sorry you’re having car troubles! I finally (hopefully) got over mine with my 2006 Mazda. I still don’t have A/C though and it’s brutal, especially as I live in the desert. I’m holding off on next summer to fix it as I cannot afford anymore repairs. I hope y’all get yours sorted out soon so you have some weight taken off your shoulders.
Yo I’ve kinda been feeling the same. I’m 23 turning 24 in October and I just graduated college after 6 years. And like now I have to be an adult and I’m terrified because…. I don’t want to!!!!! And I’ve been struggling with mood swings and anxiety and depression and I pretty sure I have undiagnosed autism and my meds clearly aren’t working and I’m kinda losing it a little bit
mercury recently went into to retrograde and i’m noticing it’s veryyyy hard on everyone i know.. even people who aren’t into astrology n stuff seem to be having a hard time so u are definitely not alone
As an artist same with the bouncing from art piece to art piece and I havent finished my art in years thats Ive been in a total slump 😮💨 I'm not diagnosed with adhd but this is one of the main things that makes me think that I am
Say, if you're looking for some female-fronted grunge-ish music, check out Skating Polly. They're originally from your neck of the woods (Oklahoma City, to be precise,) and they're one of the best bands out there.
i’ve also been feeling shitty, in a slump, wondering if someone put a curse on me lol. also been having car problems, no job interviews, my dog died, a relative also died, my bf’s cat died, my 2 only friends have been ignoring me, & my house has been having crazy electric & plumbing issues 🤪😬✌️
that sounds terrible, i hope you're okay bc going through life's tribulations alone is so mentally and emotionally exhausting :( ig this half of the year is testing all of us.
@@boolowoertheenappydreaded5359 thanks, i'm doing ok since i do have support but it's been a rough few months. hope things look up for u the rest of the year too
girl no fucking way i was subscribed to you when this channel was created n back when graysons projects had like 1k, youtube actually unsubscribed me from you this is so crazy. I MISSED YOU HELLOOOO
