The 6 Signs of High Functioning Depression | Kati Morton 

Does anyone else watch these videos and feel like they connect with the symptoms but then tell themselves that they don’t have depression because they don’t have it as bad as others and that they don’t want to admit to it. This might have not made any sense but if it did let me know I’m not alone.

The worst part is when you suddenly feel positive and decide to actually change. Like cleaning your room,taking care of yourself,have a healthy routine,do something productive.But then you just end up in bed thinking of how depressed and incapable you are to do any of this. Im so tired of this cycle. EDIT: To all the people who find this relatable, im sorry. It sucks because its so easy to feel alone. We got this.

I thought this was just called being dead inside...

Sending all of my love and strength to each and all of those reading this right now.

I like how she was talking about concentration and I wasn’t paying attention and I had to repeat it

The 6 signs in summary: 1- avoiding social situations 2- feeling extra irritable 3- constantly tired 4- struggle to concentration 5- using unhealthy coping skills more and more 6- constant worry about past or future I literally have all these signs and symptoms for 5 years :)

1. avoiding social situations 2. extra irritable 3. constantly tired 4. struggle to concentrate, struggle to follow along 5. using unhealthy coping skills more and more 6. constant worry about past + future

The fact I related to this video 6 years ago and just rewatched it feeling the same speaks a lot...

It feels like you're on fire and running on a treadmill. You have to keep going, even though you're in pain. And that's how I feel since almost 3 years.

me: *has actually been diagnosed with depression* also me: do i really have it tho

I’m going to be honest when you said “ they might look completely fine but inside there exhausted and tired” I broke down

I'm so depressed that I don't even wanna treat it anymore. Just want it all to end

The whole “worrying about your past and future” thing really got me. I worry about my future every second of the day and I’m exhausting myself.

I'm almost 40 and I've experienced all these symptoms since middle school. I always figured that's just how life is.

i can't even read books anymore when that was my most favorite thing to do.

I was diagnosed with dysthymia many years ago by a therapist. I’ve tried everything like counseling and medication. Nothing worked except for exercising witch gave me some relief, but didn’t solve the situation altogether. 😢. Today I’ve mostly given up and accepted the simptoms described as simply part of me. Hope you all have better luck. Cheers….

Dont forget the TERRIBLE symptom of “brain cloud”-when you can barely form sentences and stutter alot. Sometimes i’ll forget what im saying while im saying it or i struggle to get the words out SMH

At $180 per hour therapy isn't even an option for the majority of people.

me: **fits all criteria and relates to every point she makes** also me: “i’m probably just faking everything, i don’t deserve to call myself depressed i’m just a shitty person who wants a disorder-“

Wish there was a therapist like her she seems to be well educated and understanding to my situations

"If you have it for more than 2 years" *me 15 years later* erm.

I’ve suffered with this since I was 17....50 years come September. MAN I’m tired. I pray for all of you. Please pray for me 😢

I added this to my watch layer playlist, forgot about it, and found it 2 years later, after ive been diagnosed with dysthymia.

People really need to listen and heed your words. I have lived with this as long as I can remember and yet only heard of dysthymia about 15 years ago. I'm 63 and this has crippled me more than the diabetes that I have struggled with for 50 years. Please seek help as soon as possible. It only becomes harder with age.

This is my recommended I think RU-vid is trying to tell me something

I'm 37 and I've felt like this my entire life. It's not depression for me, it's just my natural state. I've never known happiness so I don't know what I'm missing. Like a person who was born blind.

Is it bad that I can’t remember the last time I haven’t felt depressed? Like I’m happy sometimes but I always feel it in the back of my mind, it’s just always there. Edit: update Hey you guys! Thank you for the support and sharing your stories in the replies. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and I went to therapy and took meds for a couple months before quitting it all together. I’m doing better but I think that’s because I’m under a lot less stress than before. I’m still working on getting better and my memory is still eh but I’m improving and that’s what’s important :)

Wow! I feel like I’ve been living like this since childhood. ❤️ I’m currently working on healing my inner child. Art, music, nature and journaling have been helping me. 🙏🏽

wow I thought all those symptoms were just my shitty personality..

That moment when you've been depressed since you were 12 and you just learned to live with it throughout your teenage years.

With dysthymia it’s like depression is just another part of your personality. You just don’t expect you’ll ever feel as you know you should and everyday just blends together and feels very bland.

Prayers for everyone dealing with this…you’re NOT alone!! Don’t Ever Give Up!!! You are worthy…WE ALL ARE!!🙏💜❤️‍🩹

Some of us want to go to therapy but can't afford it...

Does anyone kind of make up routines every day so you can be “perfect” and basically starve yourself, study and do exercise all day. But only do it for one day and then feel like shit for the rest of the week.

me telling myself that I'm not depressed, just lazy, then beating myself up over it, having extreme mental breakdowns, anxiety attacks, all of it. yeah im totally fine.

I am really glad I found this video. I have dealt with these symptoms for the last seven years. After I lost my leg I was told that I had PTSD and that I should join a support group. I quit going because it seemed like everyone there was feeling sorry for themselves or living vicariously through others. I have been prescribed several different meds The one thing that has helped me is nature. I love all animals helping them has really helped me.

Sitting here with tears streaming down my face. I’ve felt this way since 8th grade. I’m almost 21 now. I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t feel like I can be fixed.

I read fanfiction, sometimes for 8 hours a day, just to feel like the emotion the characters in the story feel. When I'm dealing with my own life I get anxious, hopeless. Tired all the time and hating myself for who I've become, for wasting previous time. I can never share my most inner thoughts because people will judge me for them.

Any time that I've tried to talk about my depression, people always get angry and tell me my problems are nothing compared to theirs and I should just get over it.

This showed up out of nowhere for me today. Not the dysthymia, but the video. I checked off almost every box on this and it explains a lot. I'm 67 and realize this has been my default setting since I was a teenager, for a variety of reasons. I have so many unhealthy coping mechanisms that I'm not sure where to start, but I have to start somewhere. Thank you for sending this bolt of lightening into my life. 🥰

At least, now i'm function high at something :D

Diagnosed when I was 9. To me it feels like always having homesickness, but never knowing what or where I’m homesick for or if it even if it exists. The other symptoms seem to stem from that constant feeling. It’s exhausting. Anyone reading this who is unsure as to whether to seek help, my advice is to absolutely give it a try! When you’re feeling hopeless, it might seem like nothing will help you, but the right combination of treatments is possible!

I feel embarrassed for being depressed.

Yes I all those symptoms have had Depression all my life. This narrows it down.

Found myself crying as you mention the list of symptoms, idk why, but I felt understood for once.

When you zone out and can’t concentrate on a video about Dysthymia because you have Dysthymia

Feels like it's always going to go away tomorrow but never actually goes away so I just fall deeper into not caring about anything

I think my husband has been very depressed for the past year and a half since his dad died and I didn’t notice because I was busy with my own errands and stuff. The thought that I didn’t notice and haven’t been there for him is making me depressed, like this dark cloud is over my head and I’ve been transported to an entire dark realm. I feel so much guilt and so much sadness for him.

Another possible symptom: Frequently, "not feeling well." headaches, stomach, ect

I'm at a stage now where I cant really feel sad anymore. I dont have any tears left to cry. Now I'm just numb, broken, empty. I dont care about anything anymore.

I felt this way for 2.5 years until my endocrinologist finally increased my thyroid medication, and these feelings finally went away. It was hell! The worst part was everyone kept telling me I'm fine and should just stop complaining.

I have had it all my life and it led to chronic alcoholism which almost killed me. I got help and have been sober for 10 years. I don't take medication or anything for it I have found that fellowship with others like myself (A.A. in my case) has been an enormous asset to me. I have re-wired my brain to perceive reality differently. The first few years were hell but it paid off.

Opening up about depression is hard. Its hard to be like "yeah i need help" i mean, how do you even start a convo when you have no idea how the other person will respond. I cant even tell me my family as im affraid they will start worrying too much which will make me more anxious. I tried telling a close a friend "Im not happy" "What you got to be unhappy about" he says casually "....nothing, im just tired" It gets awkard and its stressing enough for me to even talk to people. Never mind open up. How do others open up?

Had it since I was 21 .. 46 now and it’s so tiring, on ongoing battle which i won’t let beat me, I have felt suicidal many times but what would that gain???... I’m scared of dying and living, I’m stuck in between and worry constantly and am lonely in a crowd of friends, it’s horrible but I’m too mentally strong to be beaten, my sympathies and love to all other sufferers xxx

Depression is like a shadow. It’s been a part of me my whole life.

I watched this because I've noticed that since middle school my mental health had deteriorated and I was really hoping that I was overthinking everything but it almost all lined up too perfectly. Not going to diagnose myself though, but it's definitely a sign that something is wrong. I know I have a early childhood trauma but it just doesn't feel like that's the root of the problem since I feel like I've moved on.

It’s kind of sad that I need RU-vid to have someone to relate to when it comes to this. However, it’s still better than having nothing at all. Just sayin.

Over sleeping is another possible symptom. It's my only escape

Anyone: how are you? Me: “immediately annoyed”

Hey you - yes, you reading this right now. I'm cheering for you because you are an amazing person. You were a thought in God's mind before the creation of the Universe, and that thought still makes Him incredibly happy. Never doubt your worth as a human being.

What we need is to live in a society that recognizes mental illness as something just as harmful and real as physical ailments, deserving of funding and support. Hopefully someday soon that will happen, so so many people suffer from this, too afraid to reach out or simply not able to afford treatment.

it’s actually scary how i relate to every single symptom...

I think I have this bc I can force myself to get up to go to work but that's all I'm doing with my life. I wake up, go to work, come home, go to sleep. I don't want to hang out with friends. I don't want to leave the house on my days off.

And until you're able to see your therapist, exercise! It almost brings tears to my eyes thinking of the state I was in before I recently started a daily exercise routine and where I am now.

I’m thoroughly convinced that if someone says they’ve never been this depressed before, they have to be lying. It doesn’t make any sense to me that this is a mental disorder because it just feels so normal.

I don’t want to reach out. I feel like I’m just making a big deal out of nothing. My life is fine

I’m tired of being dysthymic. I can’t remember the last time I felt ok. But I get up and keep going.

Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

This is how everyone feels right? Like, this is just life, no?

Telling everyone "I'm fine & faking a smile", so you don't have to discuss it.

Dysthymia kicked my creativity to the depths of darkness. It's like I never was.

Thank you so much. This feels the most accurate to my life sitch. Social media's gone crazy today with everyone saying they're autistic, adhd, anxious and depressed. Dysthymia is something I've always been subconsciously aware and running from much of my adult life.

The thought of "getting better" makes me feel guilty. I don't deserve to be better. I put myself here.

aight once she started listing the symptoms i felt increasingly attacked after each one

hello. my name is Ainsley. i have depression and anxiety. this started when I was 11 years old. when I was this age, I was scared to talk about it with my mom. my mom is super kind, and I love her, and she would except me no matter what. I was also scared to tell my dad. we where super close. he loves me and I love him too. my parents love me and I love them, but I was still scared to tell them. one night, I told my mom how i felt. however, I acted like I didn’t know what was going on. I told her I felt angry, bottled up, trapped in my own mind. she told me to listen to nice music, and to clear my mind. all I wanted was to talk to her. she didn’t get it. she was very smart, and trained to be a therapist, but what she told me to do made me angrier. every night, I was choking back tears, but I didn’t know why. I didn’t know why I was so sad. that’s when I first discovered I had depression. I later did get diagnosed with it. I was about 10 when I suspected anxiety. I use to be very outgoing not scared of anything, courage’s, talkative, and fun. around these anxious times is when I started doing a lot of dance. I got scared to go to dance and didn’t want to see anybody there cause I thought they would judge me. I also would lay in my bed for hours thinking about what I can do to make friends. I was stupid and made the decision to bottle up my emotions. soon, I got a journal. I wrote in it a lot. it’s was my way of therapy. I am much older now, and nobody know about it, but I got much better. I am still ‘too hard’ on myself, and yes, I still show symptoms of anxiety and depression. but I think it’s gone. The point of this was to tell you it DOES get better. And that you are to loved and too amazing to leave.♥️

What an incredible video..... What makes it even harder when you reach out to your medical professional and they pass it off. That's on the same level when you have a "trusted" friend to tell you that you are ungrateful for all of the blessings in your life and just to get over it.

Something that plays a big part in my depression is feeling lonely and constantly wanting a hug or comfort

The hard part is identifying most of these symptoms but not all and thinking "oh I dont experience it as bad as she describes so I must just be sad"

Wow this is totally me! I was diagnosed with clinical depression back in 2012, but I could still get out of bed and put on a happy face and "perform" when needed, so I was confused. Dysthymia fits perfectly. Completely drained 24/7 and it never ends.

Realising that I identify strongly with all 6 symptoms immediately overwhelmed with emotion. I don't know where to start trying to put myself on a healthy path.

reading these comments has literally made me start crying, hi hope all who reads this (yes you there) reaches out to the people around you for the help you need and deserve. no one deserves to be kept in there own cell by themselves

To anyone reading this, I promise it gets better. I've been as depressed as anyone can be. I've been so depressed at times that even getting out of bed seemed pointless. I've been suicidal soo maaany days. I know how much the feeling that no one cares enough hurts. I know how you can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely. I know the feeling of being empty and numb to anything, literally not knowing what joy or happiness even feel like. I know the feeling of extreme heartbreak when you just love a person so fricking much, but they just don't feel the same or even acknowledge this feeling of yours. I know the feeling you get when your parents constantly let you down whenever you need them, simply passing by looking like they don't give a shit. I know the feeling we feel when everyone, and I mean everyone, feels fake. I know how much it hurts to feel like there is no end to this. I know the feeling that nothing seems to make sense. I know the feeling of wanting/needing to cry but you can't even do that. I know the feeling of constant pressure from everywhere. I know the feeling of being afraid. I know the feeling of not feeling safe, not even in your own bed. I know the feeling of being weak. I know tge feeling of giving it your best and its still not enough. I know the feeling of gradually losing interest in everything you once loved. I know the feeling not understanding how the world works anymore. I know the feeling when we are just hurting so bad, and are trying our very best buy just can't do it. We don't know how to do it. We don't even know what it is. All we know is that we are just hurting. I know the feeling of questioning ourselves. I know the feeling of needing just any kind of approval. I know the feeling of needing a friend, just one friend. I know the feeling of everything seeming like its a dream. Like your awake, but your just not you anymore, your just observing everything, even yourself at times, never truly feeling anything. I know the feeling of people counting on you so you try to help them because you know how it feels to hurt, hoping that someday someone might actually help you, but no one comes, not even the ones that seem to care about you, not even the ones that you helped and have always been there for. I know the feeling of questioning yourself. I know the feeling of trying to convince yourself that all of this is normal. I know the feeling of trying to remember the last time you felt anything, let alone happiness. I know the feeling no energy, no will. I know the feeling of hate towards everything and everyone. I know the feeling of guilt. I know the feeling of having to parent your parent. I know the feeling of trying to convince yourself that tomorrow will be better, but it just never is. I know the feeling finally feeling something but then your so afraid of it, so afraid of losing it, that you do. I know the feeling of finally starting to open up to someone just so they can leave after one mistake, or after you've said something they didn't want to hear. I know the feeling of being always tired of everything. I know the feeling of feeling that it can't get any worse but it does. I know the feeling of being empty, I know the feeling of relapsing. I know the feeling of being alone because no one gets if. I know the feeling of just wanting to stay in bed. I know the feeling being shook to your core. I know the feeling of sudden panic out of nowhere. I know the feeling of wanting to die. But I also know that it does get better, and this isn't some kind of false hope. It really does. It's slow as hell, but it does. I've suffered from borderline depression, severe anxiety, adhd (mild), and emotional abuse for several years, (and I still am) but I'm still here fighting. We need to know that we are not alone.✊ Even though you may not believe it, or might not even like it, but we are not alone. ✊ And please know that we need to stick together, its make it that much easier, to have a shoulder that you can lean on. So please if you are sad, if your are scared, if you are in need of someone, please know that I am too. Please just like this so others can see it. Like it if you wanna help me, like it if want to be helped. Reply with what YOU feel, or reply with a ✊if you want to help me and others. (P.S. I swear to you, i am not doing this for the likes, ((FUCK THE LIKES!)) I'm doing this because I need support, I need to prove to myself that someone cares just like I truly, honestly, genuinely, whole heartedly. care for you)

"And everyone around you just seems to be frustrating and annoying" Hearing about it already makes me so annoyed-

I’ve learned the hard way to keep it bottle up and work it out yourself. No one I’ve ever told has helped me, they either rolled their eyes and said It’s all in my head or would just scold me for all my mistakes that I’ve apologized for over and over or I took accountability for. People truly just don’t care and are selfish enough to show you by action. For some people, we just have to accept we are in this alone and we have to be our biggest cheerleaders during low times. No one will get you up but you.

funny those symptoms just describe me from the age of 14 to today. even if I had dysthymia, my mother would just get indignant and go "what do you have to be sad about." like it would be a burden for her, not me.

This is literally the crisis of our culture.

Interesting, she described most of my life ever since adolescence. More than a decade ago.

Thank you, Kati. Thank you for vindicating the pain I'm going through. I have been at the receiving end of emotional and mental abuse from a narcissistic sociopath of a mother. After decades of having my relationships sabotaged and gaslit, I'm building boundaries and getting help from the VA. I don't think I would have considered reaching out for help because for so long, I've been told I'm just a terrible person. Again, Thank you for sharing your professional knowledge. No doubt, I'm not the only person you are helping with these videos.

See for me I have headaches everyday, I’m constantly tired, I have extremely bad social anxiety, I’m irritable, I have really low self esteem, and I cannot concentrate at school when I’m listening to the teacher, reading or working on things & I worry so much about everything. It’s never gotten to the point where I have gotten suicidal thoughts but I still need help

Depression is Cancer of the Soul.

When you've had all the symptoms listed for as long as you can remember and just assume you were just super moody by nature :l

I’m only in my first year of college but I’ve been feeling this way since beginning of High-school, I’m always exhausted, I wast my money on take out all the time, I drink every weekend, I don’t have concrete goals in life, and I always feel like I’m acting a character in social situations. I just cried for the first time in months which led me to this video

I wish I could afford talk therapy with a professional, whenever I talk to someone about my thoughts it gets used against me or I'm completely disregarded.

wait... what does having so much energy feel like?

this is gonna get lost in the sea of comments, but sometimes I feel like if I admit I have depression, people don’t take it seriously and think it’s a joke. to me it feels like wanting to do everything in life but not knowing how to reach it. sometimes I wanna say something but can’t seem to say it and so then I end up being the odd one out in a group. I try to force myself to socialize, but it’s so hard and tiring that I just want to give up. it’s also very hard to become close to people so I feel like I’d be uncomfortable around a therapist. the solutions to this seems so easy, and I feel stupid. I try to do them but it just feels like I’m stuck in mud.

I know Weedborn has the greatest CBD supplements around.

I’m not trying to self diagnose myself... but by 1:40 I was convinced

i don’t think i’d say I have depression, but for atleast the past year I make up excuses to friends so I can just stay at home. I much rather be in my room all weekend, even though I really like these people? I also find myself just waiting for it to be night time so I can just go to sleep. Some days I don’t want to get up at all. I don’t really know what it is, but this video was helpful.

This is so important because dysthymia gets hidden or overlooked all the time. Thank you kati