Leo did an amazing job. This movie is by far the most accurate depiction of someone with severe OCD, of any movie that I've seen. It is constantly being shrouded by torment, and fear.
Leo himself has OCD. So not only did he do an amazing job, but it must have been hell for him as well, since OCD does not care if the compulsions are acted or not, the damn thing *will* latch onto it.
@@neinei454 I just hope you make it somehow work in your daily life. I feel so grateful for not having it. I imagind it is like having an headache inducing frustration of not having the world EXACTLY how you want it to be/look. It must be like a battle against reality. I am very sympathetic to people with your condition.
it's true that most people see OCD as this sort of idiosyncratic, "qwerky" personality trait, whereas in actuality it's a mental illness that can potentially ruin sufferers lives through discomfort, anxiety and introverted behaviour; it's refreshing for work in the creative arts to depict it as an affliction rather than something harmlessly eccentric
Having full-blown OCD and having compulsions are both drastically different issues. OCD is rampant in this film, and I would imagine that it showcases it very well. Compulsions, on the other hand, can be defined by certain idiosyncrasies such as having things in a certain order. I have compulsions about some things depending on what they may be. Certain things have to be put in a way that doesn't make me feel uncomfortable. If I am doing something where I know that I will feel a compulsion, I will always do that activity the same every single time. The job I have is fantastic for my compulsions since it's repetitive and dull. I don't really have much of a boss, so I am free to do what I want, when I want to do it, as long as the job is done at the end of the day or in a timely fashion if an order is made and needs to be shipped quickly. I can lay out my tools, my parts to what I produce, and I can assure you that if you see me do it today that way, I'll be doing it the exact same way 6 months from now. I have figured out how I like to do things, and I feel uneasy if that process is hindered. What I have are compulsions, and they are nowhere near the extremes that actual OCD can present itself as. Thank you, Supergangsterish1 for pointing that out. It aggravates me that it has become "cute" for someone to claim they have OCD. I have learned to deal with my compulsions, but I sure would be a whole lot happier if I didn't give a damn, or feel a sense of general unease about how things are at times.
@fellini fendi Good luck with your therapy, my friend. I hope that it does you some good. I am in therapy myself and it does me a world of good to be able to talk to a professional about the things that I have a difficult time dealing with in my life. If I can give you one shred of advice that my therapist assured me of it would be this: If you go in and they immediately want to put you on medication, get the hell out of there ASAP. You need time to find out if they are right for you, and they need to find out if they can help you. If on your first visit they already have a 'solution' for you and it's medication, they're definitely not the right folks for you. Again, good luck!
I wonder if I have a much more subtle variant of it. When I socialize, every perceived mistake will be replayed to me later that day, and the only way to snap out of it, is to say a mantra like, "stay focused", "control", "control yourself", etc. I can only sleep if I visualize a shield around my property, as if it's going to block the negative thoughts. It's not even a fraction as destructive as Howard's issues, but it is disruptive and annoying. I shouldn't need mantras to function, but the universe is indifferent to what we want.
I suffer from the same thing as Howard did. It has put strains on my relationships. It definitely had a hand in ruining my last one. The current girl I am with had great hygiene. Not to my impossible standard, though. I have come so far. I did this by convincing myself that germs will not always be harmful. Some bacteria is good. It will strengthening my cell DNA, so I have a better immune response to it. That, and I know I need to live in a world with people with poor hygiene. It is unavoidable. I wipe down my area with disinfecting wipes and spend time there. My girlfriend will come flop down her dirty phone in my area and it bugs me so much. She through some paper work she wanted me to see on my keyboard once and I felt pretty disrespected. I just took the time to think of it from her point of view. She does not hold the same standard as me. She will never understand my illness and all these discomforts will lead to growth. There was one time I got so bad that it made me physically ill from stress. I never want to go back there. I told myself it is time to stop this shit. I am ten times better now. My life is so much better. OCD will own you, if you let it. A lot of thought and studying of genealogy helped me get passed this. My desk is my one clean place now. I have comfort clothes set aside to not contaminate it with the outside world. The funny thing about this all, is that I am kind of an extrovert. I am a goofy disorganized person. My MBTI personality is ENTP.
I had a coworker take a boneless wing from my plate once without asking, i looked him in the face and said, "don't ever touch my f**king food again" and mostly everyone else on the table took his side, unbelievable
@@rammbostein They be sheep and don't know the codes for interaction. Burn their phone numbers and never speak to them again. For your own piece of mind.
im glad they took the time to include the "Show me all the blueprints" part, the way Howard in the beginning just mumbles "blueprints" under his breath, then it evolves to trying to quietly slip the word between buffers, or casual emphases to appear more natural and gradually just becomes the desperation of having to repeat it nth number of times until it goes away. this proves to me they atleast bothered to go through the actual behavioral manifestations of OCD, going beyond the usual "washing your hands until they bleed", because it shows that everything, absolutely everything needs to be in order, either corresponding to a number, or without a certain inflection, or even the number of times you look at something. thats how physically and mentally tiresome the experience of OCD is.
Exactly, that scene was so true in my case. I have to say or repeat something a number of times, and people just think I"m crazy. I've experienced going to the shops and every single time I have to get something from the shelf, I need to take the 3rd item. If something goes wrong, I rearrange all the items back on the shelf and go again to take the 3rd one out.
i don't know if this is how people who aren't familiar would view it, but i can SEE the moment his brain tells him he needs to say it again and his hesitation and internal calculation of how to hide it. and once he's fully submersed in the compulsion and he can no longer do anything to mask it he just starts walking away panicked, still doing the compulsion but needing desperately to get away from the social situation.
Coming from someone who suffers from pure OCD which involves experiencing intrusive thoughts, the best thing you can do when you experience an intrusive thought is to not obsess over it, not by trying to push it away, but by letting it swim around in your head, not reacting to it but not trying to get rid of it either. This is hard to do at first, but I have found that this has helped me a bit, and I hope it helps others too.
Thank you so much for telling me this!! I believe o have ocd I have recurring thoughts that won’t leave my head but what I’ve done is trained myself to welcome it and say bring it on and let it do it’s job and just relax with it.
Yep apparently he’s making next movie with Marty Scorsese about hh holmes Americas first serial killer. Can you imagine a serial killer Di Caprio? Gonna be insane
I hate it when people casually say “I’m, like, sooooo OCD” when they describe themselves as being hyper-organized. They DO NOT have OCD, it minimizes what people with clinical OCD have to go through and when they make it seem like their so-called “OCD” is something positive, it can lead to less funding for OCD treatment, resources and accommodations.
I agree on a level. I have pretty bad OCD driven by anxiety and I know that OCD can be all different “flavors” for everyone . And it most certainly can develop from perfectionism into a larger issue. So some people who are perfectionists are that way because of OCD but obviously not all but I get what you’re saying. It definitely comes in different severity’s for different people as well.
I think that's being too sensitive. People make all sorts of exaggerations. When people call themselves punctuality fascists, they are not actually professing themselves to be disciples of Benito Mussolini. Language has become too much of a minefield (and by saying that I don't mean to insult people who have lost limbs to landmines...).
As a person with OCD, I think this is the most accurate depiction of OCD ever (in my opinion even better than Jack Nicholson) Leo is mesmerizing in this role. One of the best performances ever
The only thing I find inaccurate about this scene is how he puts the soap container on the sink. I would think he would keep it in his pocket since the sink is probably dirty.
There was virtually no mental health services, he was also surrounded by a bunch of "yes" men and was an extreme germaphobe. His legacy lives on though.
@Greg Hubbard Doctors used to prescribe a variety of medications for illnesses they didn't know a lot about. Same thing can "kind of" be said about today. However, they'd hand out amphetamines and tranquilizers like they were going out of style.
@@islandboy4445 I’m just like that. It’s funny because I’m only very germaphobic when it comes to things that I know are dirty. I’m like very OCD when it’s comes to public restrooms door handles, toilet seats, garbages etc. I don’t really have a problem touching things that I know other people touch like atm machines and such. Once I’m like out of a restroom I’m fine. It’s only things that I know are dirty like toilet seats and stall doors and faucets etc. I’ll have to use a paper towel to turn the faucet off and open the door when I leave. At work I have to take out garbages and I often get garbage on my hands so when I’m done I’ll have to immediately go to the bathroom and wash my hands and wrists before I touch anything else. I’m just like how Leo is during this scene when someone walks in on me or comes out of the stall, especially if it’s someone I know and I’ll like quickly rinse off all the soap and try to act normal because I don’t want people to think I’m weird.
How Leo never won an Oscar for his spectacular performance in this movie absolutely baffles & bewilders me, as he basically became Howard Hughes. Amazing! Mesmerizing! And one of the top ten greatest & most powerfully immersive acting jobs of the past two decades. Leo is transcendent!
This is my everyday life I was diagnosed with OCD at the age of 3 and it's been an ongoing battle. Those of you that suffer from this disorder I wish you the best of luck we're in this together.
The same way you diagnose somebody that's 20. Children often show signs of obsessive compulsive behaviors but that differs from a disorder in the severity of the symptoms. It is true that children may grow out of these tendencies so I understand your confusion. I wish I would have grown out of mine.
One of my experiences with ocd: when I was a teenager I had to touch the top two corners of a doorway when I passed through it. During a fire in my highschool I was pushed through the door and didn't get to complete this little ritual. I stood in the parking lot fidgeting until we got cleared to go back in; I ran ahead of the other students so that I could touch those two corners.
He didn't deserve the Oscar for any of his previous roles except Gilbert Grape. And at that time he was probably too unknown for serious consideration. Every other time he's been snubbed, there's been a clear forerunner. Revanant was mostly an apology award. He's a good actor, but not at the level of the greats.
It's because he's so thin he looks that young. The suits don't fit him right because that was the style at the time, it definitely makes him look way younger, but hughes did wear suits like that. He was rich, so he had them well tailored, but not always. That "boxy" look makes it seem like he's ill fitted to the suits, but that's how it was at the time. It was a bad decade for suit design. In this it just makes him look out of place and even younger. I think the issue is more that Hughes had a lot of grizzliness to him, which they didn't add to Leonardo. They needed to work on the face makeup to take away some of that rosiness and replace it with some lines. Instead he constantly looks freshly showered, which doesn't make sense, and his hairstyle is wrong too.
I've had OCD since I was 9 years old. I've lost years of my life to this disease. I'm in college now and it's pretty much ruined that too. Take it from me when I say this movie accurately depicts OCD. It destroys your soul and makes you into a husk of your former self.
Im a person who had anxiety and i want to tell you Guys just don’t give it attention, i know it’s hard but just let those feelings be there. The Brain is so powerful but you can control it, just one day at a time
As someone who does not have OCD but currently studying about it, Call me a loon but to be honest with you guys I feel like I need OCD in me because I’m always forgetting to do things. When someone tells me something to do I listen to them but at the same time I don’t. For example, my mom tells me to find something and when I can’t because I quickly forgot what she said, she is going to get angry because I can’t find that certain thing, or before she goes to work she tells me the most basic thing to remember but as hours go by I forgot to do that specific thing, so when she comes home she gets angry and says something like “didn’t I tell you to do this before I left to work”. And when that happens I feel angry about myself because of my memory loss. Basically what I’m trying to say is, that if I had OCD it probably help a little but I sound stupid when I say that because who would be crazy enough to ask for a disorder. Absolutely no one. At least with you people who have OCD you guys check and check and check things multiple times just to make sure, while I’m the guy that thinks oh yeah I did that, (when I actually didn’t) or when someone tells me to do something, I should repeat it in my head like I have OCD or something just to make sure I remember 100% in my head I get it right. Or who knows, maybe I just need my ears checked.
Not really. I never watched the movie. This clip poped out in my recommendations for some reason. You know, OCD is not about circumstances or to wash Your hands really good. It is about things You make up in Your mind which force You to do that. He may be triggered by uneven potato on a plate and ignore covid19. This shit is crazy.
Why would he go crazy, it would not affect his OCD symptoms one bit. Seeing people around him washing their hands more and keeping their distance would make him feel a tad better if anything.
The part of him repeating the words makes me cry because I have been there. In my worst moments I had people repeat things they said to make sure I had a good thought when they said something. I feared it would set my bad thought in stone. It's such a horrific mental illness to go through, but here I am, doing much better, so don't lose hope people. I really was stuck in my bed for almost a year due to OCD, and you will get better. Ask your doctor. Zoloft really helped me, I didn't want medicine, for my whole life I refused it until I couldn't function anymore. Lol. It has changed my life.
@@saullandiof5768 Yes, but sometimes you are too far gone to even attempt that, so medication can help. I used to be so against medication until 2020 and my friend totally told me to just try it because she was so worried about me...she told me of her elderly neighbour who takes zoloft for her ocd, and it changed my life. I am against over perscribing medication, anti-depressants have nothing to do with ocd...so people getting prozac and whatever else, thats way too heavy of a drug imo. but i couldnt function, i was holding in pee all day, not getting out of my bed at all...all because of ocd. i couldnt even type or go online and click things. lol. it was absolutely insane. but exposure response is a good way to nip it in the bud, i did that for most of my life until i couldnt anymore. something bad triggered me. i burnt my finger and the hospital journey got me all anxious and i got scared it would be infected or i'd die...and i think it really brought the grief of losing my mother to the surface and a friend i knew was dying...so my ocd just totally took over my life in 2019. funnily enough covid didnt worry me at all lol. people think its all about fear of disease and germs but its totally internal...your brain in endless cycles. they call it magical thinking.
I hate having OCD. You can look at coworkers laughing and having no worries. While you battling inside and thinking "why can't I be free and happy as them". Everyday.
My obsessions take *many* forms, but Covid-19 made my contamination OCD go nuclear. Going back to work after working from home for 18 months was a living hell...trying to work out where other people had touched surfaces, cleaning door handles...worrying about every cough or sniff that happened in my vicinity...washing my hands until.they were red raw and painful. Life was a living hell.
That ‘’show me all the blueprints’’ scene reminded me of a habit i used to have. Whenever i would play this game subway surfers (it’s a game about running, jumping and collecting coins, the usual) my brain convinced me that i had to play 10 rounds of subway surfer in sets of 10 (basically 100 rounds) where the goal was to collect exactly 111 coins and then kill my self (in the game lol), and repeat that for 10 more times in sets of 10 If I failed at getting exactly 111 coins, or an ad played in between games I had to start everything over again at round 1, set 1. If I didn’t complete the 10 sets, my OCD told me someone i love will die. Now I was 100% convinced that someone would die if I failed. I think I played the game for 4+ hours til I actually completed it. Oh boy that was not a fun experience, I had to start over at least a 100 times, at the end I was literally crying while playing the game which made me die even more, which meant I had to start over again and again and again..... Moral of the story is OCD is not some funny, cute, personality trait, it’s literally hell inside your mind. Getting constantly trapped in endless cycles of pain.
There is nothing quirky or light about it. It _is_ hell. One of the few aspects of my life that has not been taken over by the illness is in fact video games, so hearing someone else's account of it having such a profoundly hurtful impact on them is disheartening. I know it's not my fault, but I am sorry that that was your reality; I truly do feel for you. On a lighter note, I hope that things have either improved or that you have the opportunity to improve them. Knowing that myself as well as others suffer with things like this frustrates and saddens me.
@@Ascertivus Thank you for your kind words, and encouragement! Thankfully my OCD has lessen over the years, and I can play video games without it affecting me, it’s still here but I guess you can say I’ve learned to live with it
Thank you for sharing this. Numbers are my Achilles Heel in the real world and, in video games, I've caught myself combing entire virtual worlds for *anything* hidden. I literally had to find every little secret, turning the game into a chore, rather than entertainment. If I didn't do it, I was convinced that I wasn't enjoying the game or playing it properly and it would be a disservice to the developers who had worked on it. It became an oxymoron. It was a disgusting feeling and a waste of time. I'm so happy that you're doing better these days.
@@TraustiGeir Thank you for sharing, I hope things are easier for you now. It is a very disgusting feeling, you are so frustrated with yourself for putting yourself through this, you begin to heat up and sweat and you just want to leave your head as your torturing yourself with whatever habit you have, I know that feeling well. Knowing there are others who go through the same pain as me just reminds me that we need to stick by each other. Sending love your way
I’m so sorry that’s so hard, I’ve either had germophobia or ocd this video really calls me out and just reminds me of how sad it was lol to be having at the time I hear you
That feeling of being trapped, just wanting to move on once you're done, but OCD keeps you there and torments you. It tries to fix things with compulsions despite it never even being a real solution to the constant anxiety... just eating away at your energy.. and just when you think you can ease your mind from it, its there, hidden in every little thing you do. it plants itself in every motion and every action, trying to soothe you but failing every time. It will try to compensates for its failure to soothe until it overwhelms you and your entire life revolves around it until it dies down, and you wait until it rears its terrified head around the corner and envelopes you again and again... a never ending cycle of torment and anxiety
Watching the blueprints scene is really eye opening, I suffer with OCD and just the other day I repeated the same sentence over and over simply because it didn't sound right to me...something didn't click until doing it for around 5 minutes. Luckily I was on my own but seeing this just shows me how ridiculous it looks.
Same!! I mean, I have OCD and I tend to repeat things until it feels just right, but I didn't know other people with the same diagnosis did it too!! I actually feel way better now, even though I've realised how silly it must look for others.
I used to have OCD and went through a LOT to overcome it. It's absolute hell... it's like being imprisoned by your own mind. You wash your hands a thousand times and still fear they're dirty, you check a dozen times whether you locked the door or turned the stove off. I was actually lucky. At its very advanced stages it nearly impossible to cure. The movie does a pretty good job of portraying it.
An ideal chocolate chip cookie needs a soft doe, and each bite should contain a hint of chocolate. These days all you can find is a crumbly miserable cookie jam packed with chocolate chips.
Had OCD when I was kid and this movie came out around the time I was going through the worst of it. Let me tell you, watching this movie was very emotional because of how spot on it was in its portrayal of it. The repeating of certain sentences, people touching your food, how you yourself touch certain things. It was so spot on I could hardly watch at points. I thankfully never had the issue of washing my hands probably because I generally don’t like water that much but everything else, crazy stuff.
Coming from someone who has OCD this is accurate. For me it's not so much of germs. It's more of organizing and counting things. When I get into one of my episodes it's very hard to get out of or feel satisfy that everything will be okay. Having OCD is very frustrating. I try everyday to get my self to stop.
I have Pure-OCD which is more thought compulsion based than physically compulsion based but I've had symptoms of the latter when I was younger. I eventually got over the physical compulsions, and I'm confident that someday I'll get over my thought based compulsions as well.
I used to have mild tourettes where i'd clear my throat constantly, it sounded exactly like Leo does in the movie. I still do it sometimes. But I forced myself to supress it or stop it a while ago. Now im dealing with the thoughts behind it like you. I know the struggle, but i'm working it. it'll get better :)
I'm 33, and I've been struggling with true medical OCD since I was 12. everything about this movie is real, accurate, and describes the true madness of the Illness.
Wow. This whole sequence showing the progression of his OCD is brilliant and for me completely relatable. I have Autism and part of my Autism includes OCD, and I’ve found myself doing a lot of the same things that he does here. Having severe OCD is no joke. I don’t have the exact same type that he has (his includes being a germaphobe), but I do have to repeat myself and I have a lot of obsessive behaviour, as well as a need for things to be a certain way daily and a knack for noticing things that to other people would be insignificant or unimportant.
Sort of. OCD can be practical or completely impractical, depending on the person, situation, stage of recovery, etc. Notice how there are used tissues and towels everywhere. Some are probably legitimately unsanitary and dangerous, while many are likely completely wasted.
Howard’s type causes worst problems like today oh let’s not get any germs shut down everything no one work no one shop no one go anywhere stay inside then we kill all germs meanwhile the inside dwellings of mold and stag net air make way for more viruses to the weak immune system and the money value melts away in value because everyone’s brain went numb to start with
When he looked at the doorknob in the bathroom I went “oh my god no he’s gonna be out of towels” I definitely don’t have OCD but I have a lot of obsessive and/or compulsive tendencies and I absolutely sympathize
9:25-9:30 was JUST brilliant on Leonardo's part. It's those nuances (clears throat) that makes a damn good actor imo. Most people can read lines but it's magic shit like that, that makes it good acting.
quote: "‘Leonardo di Caprio voluntarily walked into OCD for his job. Yes, that’s right. After his role in ‘The Aviator’, Leonardo developed OCD for about a year. To put this in context, it means that he sensitised his own amygdala. That’s how plastic the human brain is. Then, after getting treated with mindfulness, he again re-wired his brain to cure his OCD. He then de-sensitised his amygdala. His experience was like a switch to alter his brain - on-off, on-off. Self-directed neuroplasticity. Conclusion? NEVER tell youself that anxiety is lifelong’"
I have suffered from OCD my whole life. It got the worst when I was going through puberty, around 14 and 15. It got so out of hand that I had to quit all sports and leave school for a while and seek therapy. After a couple years, I could control it. I am 23 now and I remember having all the same urges displayed in this movie, but I don't feel them anymore. I don't know if I have conquered OCD or temporarily blocked it out, but I struggle with a fraction of the thoughts I had in my teens. I hope this never comes back like this again. I remember being trapped in rooms because I couldn't open the door, washing my hands until they bled, and checking to make sure I shut off the lights or locked the doors multiples of times. I cannot say how these urges went away, but eventually they did. I hope that gives hope to others with this disorder because it can be absolutely terrifying.
@R1ZZ3N - You are extremely fortunate. If you were able to conquer your OCD without any meds and/or something like cognitive behavior therapy, I would say your serotonin deficit seems to have naturally resolved itself. That is a blessing. For me, started as a young boy, was bad until high school, when it seemed to be less severe. After high school while in college it got bad again, and it's been that ever since (about 25 years since college).
@Shannonm75 - I did not know that about Leo and his post filming OCD. That neuroplasticity you referenced is the key factor in the failure or success of cognitive behavior therapy (CBT), which is probably the most common non-medication treatment sought by folks battling OCD.
No joke, this gave me anxiety watching it because it was like I was viewing myself with a good amount of the stuff he does. I've never been diagnosed with OCD, but this video is making me think that perhaps I should look more into it. I realize that it's only a movie, but it really makes you think.
Hughes was completely alone with his mental illness, at that time nobody even knew what ocd was. He was a wealthy man so he could have had the best treatment and carry on a normal life without the constant torment in his head until the time of his death.
One of my favorite movies but also so heartbreaking seeing how and watching this thing take over his mind and sadly ruin his later life truly heartbreaking
I had this in 7th grade. Had no idea what it was or what was wrong or anyone who could help. I beat it all by myself, the physical parts anyway. The GUILT I experienced was excruciating. I remember watching this movie in the theatre over a decade later and thinking, "This is just like what I had when I was 13." Good job, Leo.
i’m so grateful that my ocd isn’t this severe. i have obsessions more than i have compulsions and its typically about the outcomes of events or conversations, i also sometimes repeat certain phrases that people say or i make up or reread sentences to the point where i get anxious (i repeat or say them over and over in my head or out loud)
I sometimes have these intrusive thoughts, although they dont take over me. I dont have the germ thing, more like I'm repeating a phrase or a word, or an idea in my head over, and over and over again.
GreedAndSelfishness Same man, I have POCD (I think it’s POCD, my therapist just diagnosed me with regular OCD and ADD but I have a feeling it’s POCD) and it’s the worst thing ever.
The Aviator was not only a great movie but an honest portrayal of someone with a mental disorder or simply, people with some abnormality in the brain. They can do great things, but can't help themselves with smaller tasks. Outwardly great, but I'm sure the daily struggle is unbearable at times for them.
what helps me with my OCD is to imagine that there are 2 of myself and instead of repeating the same phrase over and over, all I say to myself is I tell my other self what I want to say and my brain realises that I have said what I need to and the urge to repeat it subsides. hope this helps anyone with OCD and on the other side when it comes to objects what I do is map out my area in my head and when I get the urge to check on things I do it quickly in my head so I do not need to physical get up and check things.Also if this does not work and sometimes it does not then I would grab my head and yell it out loudly what I want to say or do and convince myself that it is okay and I have done it, and if that does not work then I will lay down somewhere and convince myself that it does not really matter as one day I will die and all this that I am doing with my OCD ultimately does not matter but I have to keep saying this for quite some time before it goes away, best you can do is keep busy at all times and not let your mind be inactive.
As someone with ocd this is the most accurate on screen portrayal of it.. ever. This movie actually triggered me into an ocd fuelled panic attack, DiCaprio did a fantastic job
@@KAHHHH8548 Hahahaha. Isn't it funny to judge how people feel? Shouldn't we tell them what to do? You're a pretty strong person behind that mobile phone or computer, congratulations.
@@Christrulesall2 ° not % Now, you must repeat the entire process from the beginning. Repeat it from the beginning. Repeat it from the beginning. You must repeat it from the beginning.
i haven’t even watched this movie but as someone who experiences similar intrusive urges (i’m not saying obsessive compulsive disorder since i haven’t been diagnosed by a professional yet so i can’t say for sure) watching this made me very anxious, only because of how relatable it is and the little things that may have stressed him out made me feel pretty much the same way and i had to stop the video a few times. very lovely preformance! :)
For some reason the only part that stood out to me back when I first watched it (I was maybe 12 or so) was when the guy asks him for a towel and Howard refuses.
I first started to realise I had a moderate/semi harmful level of OCD during Covid. Every repetitive behaviour and intrusive thought ive had in the past suddenly all started to make sense within this new context once my doctor and therapist identified what it was... I washed my hands so much and so intensely I created painful, dry crusted splits in my skin which would bleed and take days to heal... While my OCD kept me alive, safe and "well" during lockdown it was still an awful experience when it came to tryin to maintain a possitive mood outside of that obsession with health and safety. I already had Autism so this was just intensifying things.
I dont have this but I remember when I was younger I had to go up the stairs with exactly 7 steps and walk 5 more steps to get to my bedroom, turn the knob with my right hand and take 2 steps to lay down in bed otherwise my whole family would die. Went on for a few months but thankfully it stopped. Cant imagine people who go through this, my heart goes out to you.
I always open the bathroom door with a paper towel. If no towel I use my sleeve. I don’t blame him for not wanting to touch a door handle. I see WAYYYY too many people not washing their hands.
OCD is a serious illness. It’s not a quirk. It’s not “everyone has a little OCD”. It is constant like anxiety and is distracting and makes it hard to get stuff done or to feel at peace with any situation.
I truly didn't understand this properly when the movie premiered. Now, having been diagnosed with this disorder, I don't think I can fully express my gratitude for this film's existence. Leo did an outstanding job!
I've lived with *EVERYTHING* this video portrays up until the 6:28 mark for every single waking second of every single day of my life for 18 years now since I was a child. I *HATE* my brain.
My heart hurts for this man and others who suffer this. I have anxiety, mostly surrounding social conflicts bc of CPTSD.. so, I understand a glimpse of the way it feels to know it's irrational...but not be able to help it.
OCD, depersonalization, germ phobia, hair pulling, paranoia, etc, all come from high amounts of anxiety. It starts as normal anxiety and then progresses into hell.
Obsessive - Compulsive: meaning you can have obsessions (thoughts) or compulsions (actions to quell the thoughts). The top comment about plasticity is not true. Leo had mild OCD and got it under control but let it get worse for the part in the movie.