I thought to myself "oh, I have some time to kill, let's watch a Kravin"...and now I'm wrapped in a blanket, eating pie and crying. This is a beautiful game. Thanks for playing it, Kravin, and thanks for making it even more special by sharing a part of yourself to go with it.
The way this game peels back its layers is incredible. You start out analyzing Coda along with the narrator, and then by the end you're analyzing the narrator, but with that comes the ultimate realization that your analysis of "Davey" is in a lot of ways similar to his own analysis of Coda. Both this and The Stanley Parable have this way of reaching out and grabbing the player and indirectly forcing them to confront things based on their own thoughts during the gameplay. It's seriously impressive, both on an emotional, experience-based level, and on a technical game design level as well. I appreciated your unique take on the game; I can't relate to your specific experiences, but I deal with mental health issues as well and the game really spoke to me on that level, but it also made me question the way my mindstate made me perceive it. Really fascinating. ... buttassbutt
So, I've been watching your stuff for a very long time, but I don't think I've ever left a comment on one before. But this... I can't not leave one. I've struggled with depression for a majority of my life and I cannot even begin to tell you how many times it was treated like "sadness" or something that will just poof away like magic if I think happy thoughts. For a very long time, I felt alone in it. I felt there was something wrong with me because no matter how hard I tried, thinking happy thoughts didn't make it go away, ya know? And it still gets treated like that. Like it's not an illness. Like people should just...get over it. I'm really, really glad you played this game. I'm glad this game was created. I'm glad you left that moment in of your face capture where you start to lose it because it's hitting way too close to home, showing me it was okay for me to lose it too. And I guess I just wanted to say, whether you see this or not, that I'm glad you're here. Making content that makes you happy reaches other people, sometimes in ways that's hard to explain. At the end of the day, I can sit down, watch one of your videos, and smile. Thank you.
I come back to this video every couple of months or so and I feel like I'm picking up more and more details with every watch. For example when it comes to the scene on the stage. Davey says that Coda's "solution" to his anxiety problems is to back away. But the player isn't withdrawing because they want to, they're being instructed to do so by the person guiding the performance. Davey also compares that to the stairs game from the beginning. How "reserved" Coda was and that it can be a "slow climb" to get to know him. But I think it says more about the endurance of the player and especially Davey than it does about Coda. You're supposed to be rewarded for your efforts, that's what the room at the top is for. But Davey doesn't believe in putting effort into socializing, he likes to do things quickly. Same with the maze in the first game. He wants to skip over the "tedious" parts of getting to know someone for his own convenience instead of acknowledging them. I think it's genius how subtle it is at first. But when you eventually find out what kind of person Davey is, your whole perspective shifts. I'm also starting to think that the game full of notes was kind of a passive-aggressive thing too, especially with the typewriters at the end. It's like people want him to talk and be more extroverted so he spills it all into this game and writes down his random thoughts in abundance. As if to say "here it is, what did you expect"? He made hundreds of "playable games" for Davey out fo pure spite, so maybe that's something he would do. But there are so many possible interpretations for this game, and that's what I love about it. The meaning of art is always in the eye of the beholder, and that's why you can't get to know the artist through their work...
I was watching the first part of the game thinking "This is weird." Eventually, I started to see what it was about. This game, one of the most beautiful and heartbreaking things I've ever known, shows us the very essence of depression and human nature. As one who previously struggled with depression, I was in tears. This game showed me what I had felt. How I felt empty and worthless for so many reasons. I was desperate for approval, and wanted peoples' admiration. The narrator reminded me so much of that time in my life. Thank you so much for playing this game. And to everyone who's experienced depression, and to everyone in general, know that you are loved and you are worth so much. Don't ever doubt that you are worth everything. Because you are worth everything and so much more. Love, Mia
I make a habit of watching LPs of this game when people I follow play it. I'm only a little ways through your LP- but already I'm enjoying watching your preconceptions. Of course you agree that games should be playable... but you didn't stop to think about _who Coda made his games for._ He never showed them to anyone, so they were only ever for him.
1:21:10 - the 'unguessable number' dial-puzzle in _"Codas final Game"_ (after the invisible 'impossible maze' ) (The Bible - JOHN 15: 16-17) _"16) You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit-fruit that will last-and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17) This is my command: Love each other."_
Thank you for sharing a part of yourself with us MrKravin. Know that you are loved and that through every single struggle that exists, there are solutions though some take longer than others to discover.
I came here today in search of another game to play, did not expect to get hit right in the feels. This is all so relatable. Thanks for addressing your personal situation so openly Kravin, it made me feel less alone.
I like how the game pulls you in and then just out of nowhere gives a wake-up call. In our case, I think the depression gay people feel is the fact that, especially growing up in the South, you're basically taught you're not a thing that should exist. You're a mutant. You're flawed and your wiring is flawed, and as such, the inherent void of incompleteness starts growing, even after coming out of the closet. At least, that was the basis for my depression; why I locked myself away from everyone. And why I looked for anyone who could take my mind off of my own flaws. It happens so often to gay people, it's textbook, and it shouldn't be that way. There's a quote from Catherine Tate that helped me out and sort of reminded me of who I was. _"Please don't ever sit in your room and lock yourself away because you don't think you're good enough."_
+Lanedude I'm not gay but I had some similar experiences. I grew up in the South in an abusive household where I relied on said abuser for income so I couldn't just report him. Living for years with someone calling you a worthless pos you start to believe it eventually. I hide away from society too, and have a hard time getting out of bed even for stuff I enjoy. I never made friends since I felt that they'd either be abused too or that it was something about me that was the reason for my stepdad's rage. I also have several unfinished games on my hard drive... mostly rom hacks but still. Most of them deal with the fact that video games were one of the few places I could succeed.
+Lanedude I totally understand. As a gay guy, I felt I couldn't open up because no one would understand. You're taught that it's not a normal thing, right? Every movie, tv show, commercial or hell, the existence of almost every human being is a constant reminder of heteronormativity. Every waking moment worked towards making you feel a little bit lonelier in the world. I'm glad things are changing a bit.
Really good comment. Thanks for voicing that angle. You almost excuse your culture (well, mine) for its homophobia so that it's easier for you but it actually sucks.
Also,don't be embarressed to cry MrKravin. I think it's cool when a guy shows his emotions,plus it's a natural human thing. We all have to cry at some point.
*Thank you* for being brave, for sharing a big part of yourself with us, for making me feel less alone, for not hiding what many people are afraid of letting others see. So thank you Kravin from the bottom of my heart and the deapth of my soul!!!!! I send all my best wishes and the biggest hugs I can give over the ocean and far away to you. It is good to see that there ARE people out there that understand what depression actually is. Sadly they are almost always those, that have suffered themselves. I loved that you showed the picture with the two circles. Although I think the sself-loathing-part was waaaaay to small. I dont think I know a depressed person that doesnt hate themselves (when having a period of severe depression at least). I cried so hard during this video. I shed a few tears before (when I watchedc other playthroughs) but somehow it hit me so much harder with you "by my side". I am diagnosed with severe depression and I battled against it my whole life. Since my husband left (after 12 years -.-) I am a 33y old single mom of a now 10 y old daughter and she is the only reason I am still here. She is such a joyfull person and has no idea whats going on inside me ^^(thats good) but I know I won t be getting better unless I live because I feel worth living for myself. So, still some way to go. I have professional help and I am thankful for that. I hope your years of therapy have been good for you. Ok, I rambled on long enough! So to end on a note of what I intented to say (and have said, but wanna repeat cuz....yeah, I just wanna): Thank you and may your days be bright and warm!
Wow. This was super heavy. There was a certain point where I started watching the game less and watching your reaction more. I could tell your entire tone had changed while playing this game. Thank you for allowing that rawness to show. We all deal with things. Mental Illness/Depression/Anxiety are no joke. Definitely proud of you for fighting so hard. I know you didn't say all of this looking for validation, but I thank you for being as real as you can. One foot in front of the other. Keep on shining.
The first video I ever watched of yours and one I still come back and wind down to sometimes. I remember finishing this and looking up videos because I was left in disarray after it ended and this was the purest most relatable reaction I found. 💞
You're not alone in feeling this way towards this game, it hit me ridiculously hard too heh. Thanks for playing this, and for everything you do. Love you.
I don't post to youtube videos that often but this is one of the few times I wanted to. I'm a therapist and I do my best to give the space to talk and to help clients come up with the best ways to manage their depression (and codependency which this game does an amazing job of conveying) and I have often told my clients to watch this video and take notes about what parts resonate with them. I want to thank this video game creator who I believe should be in an art museum and I want to thank you Mrkravin. I have had struggles with all of these things myself and at times have found myself incredibly lonely (even surrounded by family and friends) and I feel that the video game would not be the same without you talking about it. When I am doing my best to get my documentation done and schedule my clients I often have your videos on in the background and personally I feel like am there playing it with you. You walk a fine line between knowing what to say to others while playing video games and knowing where you need to stop in order to maintain your privacy and safety. Thank you for making these videos. If you ever feel like venturing out of the horror genre I would love to see you play some games that people would say are bordering on not being games and going into the realm of experience. Horror games are great, don't get me wrong and at the same time it would be great to hear your take on games like the Stanley Parable, Ico, Shadow of the colossus, papers please, Kentucky route zero, and Celeste to name a few. In any case, I hope you and everyone that is important to you are doing well and keep doing what you do. I see one of the most kind, thoughtful, and funny people I know really helping people, by which I mean you. Thanks.
this is the most powerful game i have ever seen, thank you so much for playing this. personally i struggle with depression and anxiety and other shitty things. stay strong, kravin, i can see how gentle you are.
See a lot of people in here talking about the struggles they've had in life and such. Which is a strangely wonderful thing to behold, as most people hide how they feel by all means necessary. I've got my own bag to deal with but I've generally felt shitty and lonely for a long while now, but ever since I started living alone a couple years back it caught up to me. Going through motions of therapy, taking meds that knocked me out, losing jobs, every day I felt like I woke up underwater. When you only have yourself left to turn to, you start echoing out your mind to yourself, so I can relate with that. I wrote myself songs or letters on a whiteboard in my kitchen, just asking how I was doing. I think I stumbled on your channel whilst looking for a 2spoopy game to watch, as that's how I chew through a lot of the time I spend by myself. You were accessible, and I couldn't see straight through you at a glance. And I feel what you have here is a forum for people who feel a sense of solidarity with you in watching your videos, the lack of bullshit, like you're someone you could be good friends with, you know. I also appear to have digressed somewhat but I'l close with that you're doing a great job and you are a valued person. Not assuming you need the reassurance but it's nice to be told anyway. X
Hey MrKravin. Its been 8 years... but this is still one of the videos of yours that pops up in my brain every now and then. Your discussion and opening up still hits me in ways I cant quite explain. Love you and love your work man.
Shit, I nearly cried at the end with the puzzles, I can actually feel the meaning a lot more than I would normally take at heart, but the thing about depression, is it can't go away with just a few words, there's work to be done and sometimes it never get better. It just keeps growing until eventually you would find, that you have nothing else to do, and you're stuck surrounded by the endless struggles of problems and the feeling of immense, depression gets the better of you, and you have nothing else to do I have Anxiety, sometimes a feeling of isolation, boredom, and trauma
One of the best gameplay videos I've ever watched, if not the best. You're not just showing another person's work, you're putting a bit of yourself in it, through your reaction and opinion. You're not stealing or taking anything away from the game, you're adding to it, a bit like the lamp-post. Except here, the narrator added it without Coda's consent. He shared his games behind Coda's back. Davey Wreden gave his permission. Hell, he released it to the world. I'm happy to have stumbled on your video thanks to Davey Wreden's game. Keep up the good work.
i have two games that pulled my strings in a similar way the whole way through: Presentable Liberty and The Static Speaks to Me. i have been struggling with a particular type of depression since i was around seven years old (called dysthymia) which wasn't really properly diagnosed until i was 14. these three games in a way made me think of how i was been my whole life: lonely, stuck in a small space and wanting to reach out for help but something not letting me do it. so, thank you for playing this and opened up, even if just a bit, with your viewers, you're an amazing person!
My dear Mr. Kravin, I too suffer from depression and have been to therapy for it and have learned to manage it. Thank you for opening up the discussion and letting your viewers know that it does get better. Big hugs!
God, this game hit so hard. That part with all the notes to Davey had me bawling. I take medication now and I'm in therapy, but I still struggle a lot with those thoughts (hating myself, seeking validation). This game was amazing and I'm so glad that you played it.
MrKravin, thanks for playing this. I have really bad depression and I think this game put it into vision perfectly. I haven't cried like I have in such a long time and put some odd sense of hope in me I haven't had in years. Seriously. Thank you.
I've been watching your videos for well over a year now, can't believe it took me so long to reach this one. The game was amazing, like peeling layers of an onion, and your playthrough took it to another level. Thank you for sharing your honest emotions. It was difficult, but also beautiful, to watch. I've struggled with depression and anxiety too, and I understand. *virtual hug*
This video is almost a year old and I just stumbled upon it now. RU-vid recommended John's playthrough and then I had to watch yours too. It was really touching to me too for many of the same reasons it was for you. I spent a day processing this game since watching it. I definitely learned a lot more on my second watch (your playthrough after watching John's playthrough) and this time it's sunk in a lot more. I hope you played through it a second time. Just so you know, your work really does help get me through the day. I love your videos and am so glad for you, John, Minx, and others in your play group. I am proud of you and want to thank you for all that you do. :)
I have pretty intense anxiety and depression, and this was amazing for me to watch. Thank you so much for this video, how you handled the topic, and for sharing a bit of your struggle with us. Thank you.
Great review! This game is trippy as hell. All of the little mini-games are like fever dreams. Super eerie. I've suffered from depression/anxiety for most of my life, and this game does capture the isolation, emptiness, hopelessness, and sadness. It also seems to capture how awful the mundanity of life can be and how you can just feel numbness.
I am glad you played through this game. The emotional journey it takes you throughout it is simply incredible, and I know it's definitely one that will stick with me for a while. Depression is such a serious illness that is hard for many to grasp at times, especially for those that have not experienced it first-hand. I have struggled with it most of my life, and I know many other that have as well. Thank you for opening up to us in sharing your personal side and your struggles with depression. You're an amazing person, and I hope your days have brightened. :)
Thanks for your great walkthrough of this game. I started watching a walkthrough on another channel and that person (not naming names and btw he's great at other walkthroughs) didn't seem to take the game too seriously and didn't try to understand what it really was about. You filled in the blanks. Depression is not something you can 'just fix'. Just because someone tells you that you're a good person doesn't mean that it will 'reach home'. You have to believe it yourself. It's rare that games/their creators try to touch this subject. Personally I don't think the game is a perfect representation of depression per se, but it is able to trigger emotions.
+Penny May Yeah, I've seen some letsplays that are great, the youtuber really interacts with the game, is moved by it, and they really connect. Like two nerdy girls (I think), who really dislike Davey in the beginning and feel like he blocks their enjoyment of Coda's games and then come around after Coda's final message to Davey. They start out "hating" Davey for the exact flaws he identifies about himself., but then love the game and it's narrative. I've also seen some who were only laughing and joking the whole time and checking their chat and not trying to interact with the game. It sort of diminished my connection to the game.
Fuck man, fuck. I was diagnosed with persistent depressive disorder (PDD) back when I was 11. We’re talking 18-19 years ago at this point, and that’s coupled with a high functioning autism, making communication even harder than it is for the average person. I feel like you managed to talk about it far more eloquently than I ever could. I consider myself lucky. 90% of the time I can go through the day and manage to not hate myself, or doubt my actions. But every so often, it hits hard. It led me to fucking up attempts at college three different times, one of which ended with myself in my older sister’s apartment bathroom with a slashed wrist. If she hadn’t come home early... I wouldn’t be here now. I guess what I’m trying to say is basically what you said in regards to living with depression. But it’s so important, so vital for people to understand depression. To understand the signs. To understand ME. I wouldn’t wish this shit I have to live with daily on my worst enemy. Now I feel like I’m just rambling. I can’t think of any way to put a nice “bow” on my thoughts. I guess I just want to impress how much YOU, the reader matter. How much I matter. How much we ALL matter. Now if only it was easier to unquestioningly believe it.
Gave me the feels. And considering I am at work, I think I will have to keep me door closed for the next while. From having to cope with depression of my own, it really does hit close to home, and I am really glad that you opened up to us. *big hugs* and I agree 100% with that graph, the left side was exactly what I had most of my friends and family told me what it was like, so I am glad that you shared that because I think most people do not understand. You just made me love your videos even more. :)
This game was one hell of an emotional roller coaster- I have some personal issues including depression and social anxiety (that is so limiting and crippling in daily life, I took a while to write this comment because even this isn't something I usually do). I could deal with this game pretty well, I was doing fine... until I saw that you were having such a hard time with it. I'd teared up a bit by the end but when you opened up with us your viewers and about 'being ok with yourself' I had to wipe away some tears and take a breather. That bye at the end of this video broke my heart a little.
I've gone through multiple playthroughs of this game, and it's so incredible to see how Coda is trying to explain to Davey that he isn't actually feeling sad through some of his games, like with the Housecleaning Game, where Davey even comments on how Coda had seemed to be grossly happy in real life as well, something which Coda probably had done, purposefully to try and convey the message that he wasn't depressed. Oh and the Stair Game, where Davey comments about how Coda doesn't care about seeming cold or distant, since he knows that he is not, even if it would take people a long time to realize it... it would seem he was right, but sadly once Davey did realize it, it was already too late. This game is fantastic, _these_ games are fantastic. I highly recommend going through it multiple times, if anything then just to look at how Davey were at the beginning, since it is so very interesting to observe him, when you know what's actually going on.
Oh and also, I just really like how the game gives off a good feeling of events happening outside of the world of the game, like with comments on how Coda was acting around Davey in real life and such, really makes it all that much more powerful!
I'm really glad that you played this game Kravin. I can imagine that it has hit right in the feels and it really meant a lot to me and a lot of others probably too that you were also able to see what I was seeing in this game. We all have our struggles and all we can do is our best and hope for a good outcome. Keep rockin those vids! :)
The infinite maze at the end really described the hoplessness that depression brings with it. It shouts so loudly WHAT'S THE POINT! when everything seems such an effort. Thank you for your honesty MrKravin. Please keep battling. Here in Ireland 57% of people think someone with a mental illness cannot be trusted and would not offer them a job or a position of responsibility. I have battled depression/social anxiety most of my adult life.
What an experience... Thank you for taking us through this one, MrKravin. I didn't feel alone watching this with you going through it with all of us. Thanks again...
It's really cool. I think this game appeals and relates to people differently. I didn't actually play it, I just watched people play it and it hit close to home too. Anyway dude, I'm glad you played this and that you're happier now. Found you recently and am never gonna give you up!!!! Go dude!!!!! You're cool.
I completely understand what you're saying. Everything in the game felt so familiar to me and it was hard to watch and process at times, especially the narrator's truth in the end. Dealing with people who don't know what depression is or what it feels like...how desperate you are to break free but everyone around you is just going on in life while you're stuck in slow motion. Sometimes it's less draining to just disappear.It made me tell my best friend, who deals with the same thing, that I'll always be around when they need me. If this is true...I hope his friend finds him and accepts his apology.
I know that experiences like this can have phases of emotions that follow. My initial reaction, moments after it ended, was that I was frustrated. You're made to feel all of these things, experience a "progression" of this internal conflict, and then to have it torn into something new. I could connect to how the narrator believed Coda felt through his games. Now I don't know what to think. Kudos for eliciting this kind of emotion. Maybe in a couple days I'll have a different perspective.
Definitely the deepest game I've ever seen. Depression is such a hard issue to deal with because it can only be fixed by the person who is experiencing it. You have to change the way you think and it's not easy.
yes I am 2 years late, but this game is powerful and wonderful in its own ways. it opens the eyes of people who don't understand or can't relate. I struggle w my own personal depression and am off and on consistently, and I can't really explain how, but this expresses how I feel/felt on another level. I'm glad you played this and of course I don't feel anyway about you getting emotional. bc dealing w it is hard. but thanks for playing. and I enjoy watching your videos :)
This was incredible man. I'm uploading this game soon, but I can see you've been through so much more and lived this game so much more than me. I subscribed and am definately going to watch more of these man. Keep going!
kravin I hope you see this but I won't expect it. this game spoke to me big time. my wife has depression and all the repeated talk of "solution solution" and the narrator talking of the feelings of failure, I connected with that. before the talk of the projection I connected and knew what it was like. feeling such a drive to be the solution, to help be there like some hero. when you kept saying "there's no fixing it, just talk to them" that hit me deep. I know full well my wife will never be "normal " her disability, as well as my own problems, can only be coped with....but there is no "cure". I get so fixated on the idea of having her just be happy like a normal person I drown in feelings of failutr, which create a spiral of her feeling bad about my failure and getting worse which makes me blame..myself and hate myself. this game was so powerful of an experience. it's hard having depression, and it's hard trying to be there for a loved one with depression because you're so lost on what you can do and the feelings of helplessness spread. I understand what you're suffering through kravin as I watch it first hand every day in my wife. Just like "coda"s games...you just have to move forward out of the darkness and keep opening those doors.
Hey so this comment really struck me... If I'm honest I think the term _cure_ there, being that it's off of this whole medical, pharmaceutical, selling-drugs-to-people paradigm, is _really_ something to be condemned; both psychiatric institutions and psychiatrists alike (like Ben Levine) have and still do condemn this cures/endless-cycle myth.... I am speaking for myself here but it doesn't do to use that term at all, not in relation to any kind of wellness anyway, and now I think I'll just let the top comment articulate hammer it home better than I possibly can: `Anyway, (Kravin's) right; there's no "fixing" depression. It's an ongoing journey of self-realisation and acceptance, and we have our good days and our bad, but for the most part it gets easier as you gain insight into yourself.`
This was such an amazingly deep and touching game, I had to share it with my SO since he's a programmer and I'm glad I did, because he loved it too. On a side note, +1 more sub and good luck with hitting 20k soon!
*SPOILERS, etc* I had a little trouble taking this game at face value (which is my problem, not the game's) so I didn't react to it probably as much as I should have. But what I did get from it was validation. I mean, I'm somewhat isolationist like Coda. After uncomfortably seeing the whole game scurtinise Coda and project brokenness onto him, it was validating to have him basically say 'No, I'm cool with who I am.' I mean, it's not like he didn't have issues - I know I do - but he *didn't need fixing*. The creator was projecting his own insecurities, and that... is sad, but also reassuring for me. I think the maze was a great metaphor for depression and the confusion of navigating relationships and social interaction. I think many of us get lost in that maze in one way or another. The narrator was completely lost within his, but I guess admitting that to himself is the first step to navigating it. And yeah, depression is a whole range of negativity, anxiety and doubt, and it's sad to see it reduced to "sadness". I mean, just the other day I posted on one of your more recent videos accidentally limiting the concept of Post Partum Depression by saying that the character in question didn't necessarily suffer from it, but in that case what I think I was trying to do was point out that we sometimes go through mounds of horrendous shit that *doesn't* get acknowledged because it doesn't adhere to a particular diagnostic label or common ideas of what depression is. Like, we can't even realise *ourselves* that we're depressed and so we can't even take the steps we need to deal with it; we just try to bury it and deny it. Anyway, you're right; there's no "fixing" depression. It's an ongoing journey of self-realisation and acceptance, and we have our good days and our bad, but for the most part it gets easier as you gain insight into yourself. I'm glad you're at the point now where you realise you don't need external validation, because being freed from that is... well, it's not something that you suddenly become immune to, but it can be a tremendous relief to just realise you can be content with who you are without needing to impress others. I appreciate you sharing your experience with us.
This was a genuinely wonderful watch, it's so nice that this medium *can* express actual Humanity and sincerity of emotion. (not just corporate sponsored 'lego' storylines that refer to nothing, beyond their own selves.) Excellent vid man, moving and very enjoyable. :)
That speech in the in between room is rough really to me thats how it feels for someone with emotional dependency and when you loose that person you clung too its really hard to get past it. I'm glade this game let people know that dependency problems is a hard internal struggle for people who have it.
Hi MrKravin, I know nothing about you or video games.... however, I watched this entire video, and I was completely with you and your thoughts the whole way through. While the game itself was phenomenally unique and provoked feelings and emotions within me, the pivotal moment where I cried, was when you came through with your personal and honest experience. This was really great and thought-provoking, and I too, need to gather my own thoughts.... I did want to offer some positive feedback and encouragement though, from a non-gamer, but another human with feelings and struggles.
Absolutely amazing game. I think they did an amazing job with this subject which is often exploited for plot purposes. Great playthrough MrKravin and I look forward to your future ones. :)
A.) How are you doing today, dearheart? B.) Thank you so much for sharing this experience with us. Watching it unfold as a game and as a story itself is moving and powerful and makes the player face things they may not even have known about themselves; it hits home in *so* many ways... and watching you experience this, that you shared your reactions and your feelings about it with us, speaks volumes. So, again... Thank you.
dealing with depression is tough, it's hard it's not easy to cope with. you feel like shit you feel like everything is your fault. you're always tired and just wanting to be alone and need a hug. sometimes it helps when people say good things cause you actually believe it for a second but then you start feeling like shit again.
Late to the party, I know.. I relate to the narrator. Having been in a situation where you are repressing the way you feel and the way you are, to encourage someone else and push them in a way you might think would make them a happier person. To find out what you have done was not asked for, not wanted and wrong, divulged to you in such an abrupt and shattering way. It destroys you and causes such a horrible chain of thought. I've wrestled with such thoughts of guilt and self-loathing for a long time. Since, I've learned my lesson on my wrongdoing and that the other isn't interested in amends, they simply wish to go their own way. In realising this, after 3 years, I finally went mine, too..
I love you so much kravin and this game touched me so. thanks so much for playing this game:) I really appericated it . school is hard for me social wise and I get picked on because of my looks. your always their to brig. a smile to my face ... thanks :)
Depression really does suck,especially if you try so hard to hide it from everybody and put on a fake smile. If anyone hides their emotions,don't. It hurts so much. Tell people how you feel,please. Because I lost my boyfriend thanks to my depression,and it'll probably be a while ( A VERY LONG TIME ) for me to ever get over the demons that devour happiness. Just don't put on a fake smile,give a real one.
I really loved this gameplay and I can totally relate to the depression issue. I suffer many mental health issues. It must have taken a lot of courage to share about your own issues. @MrKravin
What if the two guys are actually the same person? Like, a part of him wants to make games just because it comes natural to him, and the other part feels like he needs to show these games to other people to know he has worth, but in doing so he feels vain. I loved the concept of "is it ok, putting/not putting solutions into the games?", also really liked the playthrough.
Whew... that was a rough, beautiful ride. I often worry about "lets players" with things like this. What happens when it ends? What will you do when it's over? How will the different people react when there are no more positive (or even negative) comments coming in?
I don't know how to express what I want to say other than I want to give you a big hug. And what Seiko and oweeos and a bunch of others already said. #LOVEYOUKRAVIN
Mike, I know that the point of this whole thing was that external validation is not important, and please know that I an not trying to offer you any form of said validation, just know that I care about you. You have a network of people behind you but, you and your videos mean a lot to me and I just wanted to say thank you. Also, although I am no professional, and honestly I have my own demons, but I want you to know that if you ever just want to vent, I'm here. Thank you for everything you do. Thank you for being you.
