For 18 weeks, you carried a stillborn baby boy inside of you while still trying to grow another. Then you had to deliver both. You are truly the strongest and most remarkable woman I have ever heard of. I am so sorry for you and your husband's grief.
I’ve walked in your shoes. My girls had TTTS, It was devastating. If you ever need to talk feel free to reach out. Sending much love to you and support.
Angela James Wow, you are just wow. Thank you for saying this Angela. I never tell myself this or think like this. You have such a big heart, thank you for sharing your love with me during this time ♥️
That was such a wonderful birth your husband is so sweet he probably is an excellent husband but you can just the love when you watch this video congratulation guys I just subscribed to your channel and I'm looking forward to getting to know you
I was born with my twin sister that was still born just like this. The hurt never truly goes away. Im currently 18, and have her foot prints tatooed on my shoulder because she is my guardian angel. You baby boy will always be there watching over you and his brother!
Bre wright same here.. I always felt alone when I was younger until my mom told me I had I stillborn twin sister. You found the right words for it.. a pain which is always there.
I was pregnant with twins and went into labor at 22 weeks. They told me they couldn't stop my labor and I had to wait it out. My water broke the next day and I lost my little boy and girl that day. I was the hardest thing I ever had to go through. Walking out with your arms empty and hearing the new born babies cries was heart breaking. Over 2 years later, lots of healing and I am now pregnant, 23 weeks with a little girl.
The exact same happened to me 2 years ago and it was the most hardest thing I ever had to go tru. It takes a lot of healing. I miss my twins every day...I now have a 5 month old baby girl and am blessed.
I was a twin also. My twin sister died few days before I was born. Her name should have been Carolina, and I named my first daughter Carolina: I told my sister to live the life she did not lived through my daughter. I want to tell you this, that maybe can help you: in my life I never ever feel alone, loneliness is just something I don’t know, and I think this is because I spent eight months with my twin in my mother’s womb. Somehow she is still nearby, with me .... So far I wish I could have known her, I think my life would have been very different. You are a great and perfect mother, I am sure you will never forget Billy, and do tell this story to Frankie because he needs to know. Take care, un abbraccio from Italy ❤️
I always knew I was a twin.No one really believed me.Then one day mom ,younger sister,and I were talking in kitchen.However we got on the topic of childbirth, who knows.Mom said she delivered a small second placenta [hours later] after giving birth to me.I burst out crying! I knew it was a boy, and to this day reach behind my right side to my back to grab his hand,,,,,,that is not there anymore. One night after praying about the pain felt by this,I named my twin Michael.
I hate pressing "like" i don't LIKE that you lost one of your children, what i LIKE is your bravery through it all. You are beautiful and so are your boys!
65roses93 Thank you so much for your beautiful words and for explaining your like. I completely understand. I did the same thing on someone else’s video about Stillbirth. I wanted to support her and let her know that she is doing great but I don’t like the situation at all. So reading this makes so much sense to me. Thank you so much for all your love and kindness. It means the world to me ♥️
It's a "like" because there aren't the words to describe it, and because there isn't a single click option that could possibly come close. I think, in these situations, the like is for the story the person was brave or kind enough to share with us; stories we would otherwise never know. It's a heart-breaking situation, and "like" is all we have on a platform like this that lets us show that we are there, we have watched and we, on some tiny level, feel their story and appreciate how much courage it must have taken to edit and give to the world.
Diane E Thank you Diane. I still find myself going through these motions everyday. I look at Frankie with love and joy and then I look at him and dream and long for his brother to be beside him. My heart is so full and so broken at the same time.
That very intimate moment with your husband at the end was so real and special and it truely effected me, thank you for showing it. You didn't have to, but you did. It shows how you can truely be as happy, and as sad as sad can be, right at the exact same time. Mesmerizing. I hope and pray you're all healing mentally, physically and emotionally.
As a midwife I really want to say that what you have shared here is powerful, you are helping families understand that it is possible to keep going through this unimaginable heartbreak. Stillbirth is such a taboo subject and by sharing your story hopefully it will help others to share and work through their own grief. As a mother, my heart breaks for you and having to find out that news on your own, if i could go back in time to pick you up and hold you in my arms i would. You will get through this. You are a strong mother of 3. R.i.p Billy xxx
Thank you so much for such a beautiful and uplifting message Mel. There was so much unknown going into this and my mind was racing with anxious thoughts leading up to it so reading this reminds me why I have done it. I hope that families can watch this and it can answer some questions or offer them comfort in someway. It is absolutely incredible the community that is coming together by starting this channel. It’s so good to see something positive come from our loss.
I never seen stillbirth as being a taboo subject at all. The public has great sympathy and empathy for a mother’s pain and grief in a terrible, heartbreaking situation like this, I’ve never heard anyone blame a mother for something like this unless maybe it happened through drug taking or similar. I’m interested hear what you’ve experienced to make you say that it is taboo.
@@llddau its not about blaming anyone. Think about when you walk down the street and see someone who you knew was pregnant but has no baby with her. You ask where the baby is? And she says that the baby died. Suddenly you have put yourself in a difficult position. Some people can continue the conversation with sympathy and without awkwardness but there are many many people who suddenly dont know what to say. And that conversation will be uncomfortable and generally they might try to find a different conversation topic because they dont know what to say. Now imagine your contact list who all know what has happened. Some will call but others will avoid for the same reason. Stillbirth becomes a taboo because people dont know what to say or even where to begin. What this video does is start the conversation, helping people to ask questions and talk about it. Breaking the taboo. But it works both ways. Women find out who their friends are at times of great distress. The ones who will answer the phone and the ones who will send a card. To keep their circle of friends mums and dads stop talking about it to stop everyone else from being uncomfortable with the subject. So the parents cant talk and the friends wont ask leaving this great pain inside
My cousin’s first son was stillborn, and she went on to have three beautiful healthy children. But Hunter will always be her first and is remembered by us all as our forever angel.
I delivered a stillborn son at just under 36 weeks. It amazed me how perfect he was. He was beautiful. I can’t even begin to imagine the emotions you and your hubby went through during this delivery 💔
Omg. The way he’s looking at you is just melting my heart!! He’s like in awe your his mama you can see just the pure unconditional love coming from him
Marissa Orlando Awww thank you for saying this Marissa. It was the most incredible feeling seeing how quickly he became content in my arms. He’s a mommy’s little boy and I couldn’t be happier about that ☺️♥️
You are seriously the strongest women ever. Not only did you give life, but at the same time you had to navigate the feelings of mourning the life you just lost. So incredibly sad and beautiful. Your strength is mind-blowing
Just came here from your “tragic news” video and I am SOOO happy that the second twin stayed in full term🥰🥰 I was crying 5 minutes ago and now I have butterflies🦋💙
I don't know how anyone can give this a thumbs down. You are so brave and thank you for sharing you and your family's story. Take all the time you need to grieve, process and heal. What a beautiful family
Right? I find it so baffling when people actually go to the point of disliking a video. Even if it isn't your cup of tea, why would you go to the effort of being deliberately negative? I will never understand that logic.
I don’t even look at the thumbs down, EVER !! There are are way too many LOVELY people on here, who are pure blessings from the Lord . And I adore y’all ! I lost an adult son to a genetic disease and I am so broken. So I can’t imagine what you moms have gone through losing sweet little tiny ones . I am crying so hard right now. Frankie is so sweet and peaceful . Blessings from California 💐🦋
My darlings, I’m 77 yrs old, I am a granny of 21 yrs old twins , boy & girl I am so sorry for your loss, please accept my most sincere condolences I am crying so hard watching this miracle that just happened, the birth of your baby Take it one day at a time
My heart breaks for you. Having had twins myself I can't imagine the heartbreak and pain of losing one. You are so strong, bless you and your beautiful family x
I had a set of twins when i was 19 years old. The doctor's took them 6 weeks early, 1 of my twins were born a still born they weighed 6.6 and 6.9 long was 19 inches and 19 1/2 inches. This was 36 years ago there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her. Her name is Jennifier Windi my other daughter that lived named her second daughter after her twin sister and she spells it the same way I did. It still hurts to this day losing her. I am crying now as I text this out. I know my family has a special ANGEL in heaven watching over us. God bless and best wishes.
Same thing happened to my mother so when it comes around to my birthday it’s a little difficult for my parents. The only thing I have to say is that he will always be in your hearts and that is enough.
Thank you so much for sharing this with me, Julia. My heart feels for you and your parents. You are so incredibly right though, he will always be in our hearts. The most important place if he can’t be in our arms. Sending you so much love ❤️
When it happened twice to my mother and my surviving sister and I were only 19 month apart, but passed as twins until were were teenagers it gave my mom great joy. My sister and I have always wondered what our twins would have been like.
You both are incredible people. I cant even begin to imagine your heartache but miracle at the same time. May your life be of the fullest joy and may Frankie live an extremely wonderful and full on life for him and his beautiful angel twin brother Billy by his side always along side him. I was never supposed to have children and was blessed 14 years ago with twins. It is a special and amazing thing. Although you cant see Billy, Know that he is right beside Frankie at every bath time, every pooy nappy change, every nap time and every I love you. I wish you both and your children nothing but sunlight, wishes come true, happiness and love for the future. xxx
My heart is broken with you. It was very powerful to give birth to your twins through natural birth. I can see feelings of joy, deep sadness, love and respect for you and your strength run through your husband. I wish you a lot of strength and the comforting certainty that you will one day be united. God bless your family
This just broke my heart. I am so sorry about your loss. It is clear how much the two of you love the twins. Thank you for sharing your story. It was heartfelt & so very loving. Rest well little angel.
I’m so sorry for your loss, take the time you need to grieve. I can’t even imagine the emotional battle going through your head to be so happy to have a sweet new baby but so incredibly heart broken to not have both babies with you Here on earth ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Prayers and hugs to you and your family
Mama. I've walked this road. My daughter just turned 6 on the 2nd of January. Her brother passed away at 22 weeks gestation. I anxiously awaited every single week that i could have a tiny bit more hope that she would survive birth and life on the outside. I made it to 39 weeks 2 days and then was induced. I went through so many emotions and i still feel them when i think about it. I was meant to see this video though, so i can be an encouragement to you. The pain does not go away, but it changes with time. It won't be sharp and nauseating forever. You have my love and prayers.
This is extremely emotional for me, I too carried twins and lost my sons twin at 4 1/2 months pregnant. I never got to hold or see my sons twin sister, I wish I had that closer. We found out she had a heart defect that runs in my family, my eldest brother passed at 4 days old from the same condition. Your son will always have a connection to his guardian angel twin, my son feels the connection still and he is now a very healthy 28 year old man. Love to you and your family!!!!
My sister miscarried a twin (boy) a bit into her pregnancy and right at her 7th month the placenta separated w/ baby #2 a girl. My sister had to wait in the ER and be transferred 3 hours away to deliver her daughter knowing she was coming home with no baby. Your takes me back. I’m so happy, you’re blessed with a beautiful family. God bless little Billy. I’m sure you will catch glimpses of him in Frankie. I just want to send you and your husband a big hug. You’re strong and precious.i look forward to watching future videos to celebrate all the love your family shares.🤗💙💙🕊
Amazing moment when you hold your baby for the first time and they look at you and cling on, it’s heaven on earth something I’m blessed to have experienced when I had my daughter 17 years ago. Sorry for your loss and congratulations on your baby
Dearest Caileigh, My daughter was a twin. I lost her sister in my 18th week. I had never heard of TTTS until then. As a young mother blessed with twins, you just never expect that something can happen that can cause the loss of one and many challenges to another. My daughter was born at 37 weeks. However, she had many challenges ahead of her. Early integration, learning support, speech therapy. We moved to a school district with the some of the best services available at the time. I have a beautiful 27 year old that has a job, drives is socially active and is surrounded by a loving family that was there every step of the way. Keeping an open line of communication with doctors, family and friends is so important. A good support network will make you feel so much better. I know exactly how you feel right now. Know that you are in my prayers and that God must have made me come across your channel for a reason. ❤️ Leslie
Stories like yours are so painful to watch, I've been crying this whole time but I'm so glad you decided to share this painful reality. I can't imagine the anguish you and your family must feel, I'm so sorry. Billy's life was short but he touched more people than most.
This is so touching to me, as I celebrate my eldest sons' 21st birthday next week, we always remember his twin brother that didn't make it. It was the hardest time in my life as a young new mother. My son had died 4 months into my pregnancy and I gave birth to them both at almost 8 months. Very bittersweet, life and death, together.
Angela Day Thank Angela. Billy is definitely apart of our lives still and always will be. I want to make beautiful things for him and place him in different areas of our life in beautiful ways. I have some Daisy’s to plant for him, so we can watch them grow and smile thinking about him ♥️♥️♥️
Mina Lina Thank you Mina. I agree with you 100%. I wish so badly that this wasn’t a thing. That no one ever had to experience it. It breaks my heart thinking of how many more will. I hate it so much.
Teresa Reade I am so terribly sorry to hear this Teresa. I hate knowing that you have been here. I don’t know how my heart will heel right now but your words are very comforting reading that it will. Thank you.
Thank you for sharing something so vulnerable with strangers.... that last clip was so tragic ,yet beautiful at the same time. How insane is it that joy love and sadness can be shared in the same moment at the same time. Life is beautiful that way. You’re a very strong and smart woman... remember that when you don’t feel like it..❤️
I cried so much watching this... your children are so lucky to have the strongest mother in the whole world. You deserve every happiness that you could possibly achieve.
You are a VERY STRONG FAMILY. I cried when you both were sharing a kiss and crying. You gave Billy all the love in the world and he helped his brother along. I lost my oldest son in 2018. I know our grieves are not the same, but the pain is. You have all my prayers to be a healthy happy family with your angel.
Frankie was so calm and peaceful listening to your heartbeat, keeping your heart safe and warm against his cheek as it broke for his brother Billy🥺💔 There has never been a more bitter-sweet moment...My deepest condolences....Many blessings to you all and may Billy soar with the angels💕
Ferret Island I felt his peacefulness also ! Precious beyond words . Billie will be waiting at those pearly gates years from now when his twin meets him and the Lord ! 🦋 🏰 👑
Hi Caileigh! I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My mother went thru the same thing with my identical twin sister, Dorene. From the time I was four years old, I sensed that there was someone missing in our family, so my mom told me about her. After more than 50 years, I still feel her presence.
My twin boys turned 16 months old today. Every day is a blessing. I can't imagine your pain to gain one son but lose another on the same day. Sending you my love. Frankie is such a sweetie.
What a cute little guy congratulations. I love his name he has a good name. Sorry for the loss of your little boy may he rest in peace. And to MamaBear you did great.
You two handled this very emotional and happy-sad moment beautifully. Your crying kiss to each other, while your son Frankie was on your chest, said everything with no words. I was a twin whose sister died when my mom was about six months along. She too carried and delivered her at the same time I was born. I often have wondered if I will meet her someday but I don't have an empty feeling. My mom never did beyond the first few months, either. She had made peace with it by the time of my delivery but it was a tough time right after we were delivered. People didn't really know what to say and she didn't know anyone with the same experience. I'm so thankful you are helping others in your situation and letting them know they aren't alone. I wish you guys all the best.
My heart went out to you watching this. I experienced the exact same thing nearly 33 years ago, but things were very different then. My boys were identical and born 1 minute apart. He will forever be a part of your family like ours son is. We just don't have the joy of having him here with us. Our had a son and they name him after his uncle which is so special. Blessings to your family x
Frankie has these cool birthmarks from the way that the blood flowed and didn’t flow while in the womb and because they shared the blood sauce, to me, they are Billy’s marks ☺️♥️
Please know that this old grandma's heart is reaching out to you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss, and so bittersweet for the little boy you still have. I am sending love, healing and peace your way. *HUGS*
My Mom lost my twin brother and carried me to term. Your story makes me think of what my Mom went through. Thank you for having the courage to share your experience. It provided another step of healing for me from the grief of losing my twin.
Heartbreaking, I'm crying tears of great joy and great sadness all rolled into one for you. Congratulations on beautiful Frankie's arrival. RIP beautiful angel Billy 💙💙
This is one of the most emotional posts I have been privileged to watch, you are an amazing lady with a beautiful soul. You and your husband together sharing this experience brought the tears to my eyes, I could feel so much love in the room. Many congratulations to both of you on the birth of your gorgeous baby boy, I can't imagine the emotions you must have felt giving birth but you did it with such dignity I just had to reply. God bless to your little man with the angels now and all my very best wishes to you and your family. I have just subscribed look forward to future posts (UK)
Same thing for me. My son’s twin died at 20 weeks. Giving birth was the most blissful and sorrowful day. My son is almost 3 and it doesn’t get easier; I’ll always wonder what little baby B would gave been like, what my son would be like with his brother, and whether or not I would’ve gin in to more kids (twin girls were just born in 2019). Love to you and your family. ❤️
I'm so sorry you had to through this, a friend on mine had the same happen with one of her tripplets, its heart breaking. Congrats on safe arrival of your sweet baby boy and angel.
Thankyou for making this video! As a midwife I’ve been with a few families as they have birthed their beautiful babies. You are Billy’s mum and you carried him beautifully, he only knew warmth and love while he was in your uterus and you felt him move and kick around. So much love to you! Xx
I just saw your video. It made me cry. The ultimate mixed emotions of being so happy to have a living child and at the same time being so devasted to have a stillborn. I am so deeply sorry for your loss and grief on the other hand I wish you all the happiness in the world. I know your son is no longer with you but he will always be an angel in your lives. God Bless.
The emotions in this video are intense. The emotional moment you and your husband share after your sons birth is incredible. Thank you for sharing! Billy will always be watching over you and your family!
What a freakin' superhero! Receive the worst news ever, continue raising your daughter and doing everything you could to keep your healthy boy growing, birth Frankie and then after only a couple minutes with just him you birthed his brother. I can't even imagine the heartache you and your husband have experienced. I hope the little bit of time you got to spend with your angel is able to ease even a fraction of the pain. Frankie and Willow will always have a little angel with them now. Take care of yourself as much as you do your family, your health and wellbeing are just as important! Nothing your audience says will be able to take the pain away, but I'm sure I can speak for the majority of people when I say I'm so sorry for the loss you and your husband have experienced ❤️
I cried with you watching this video..I'm so sorry that you lost your little angel baby. I know you will always remember him and talk about him with your son, enjoy your beautiful son.
He is gorgeous!🥰 I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how sweet and also how bitter this must have all been. Your angel is watching over his brother and his mama. The greatest gift in life is love, and your angel was loved. That’s the best thing you gave him.
It's hard to share the heart break. But someone needed you to. They needed to know that they weren't alone. You brought peace to some hopefull family that might be struggling. 💕 Thank you
dear Sellars family, with tears in my eyes I watched your vlog breathlessly and my heart broke .... a beautiful boy was born, Frankie, already looking at you with big eyes and no matter how small he is, he also knew what was coming .... ..... I have so much respect for you, what a mixed feeling you have had with this birth. Happy with Frankie and deeply sad about Billie ... I wish you a lot of strength, being able to be happy with Frankie and the loss of Billie. deep respect for you, really! big kiss from Monique (from the Netherlands)
this just appeared in my suggested videos to watch and it was my first time discovering you and your channel. i know i’m a bit late to everything but i just wanted to say that your strength and resilience is so inspiring. you are a real life wonder woman- a true superhero, and i hope you know that. sending so much love to you and your beautiful family ❤️
Navigating grief is hard but I cannot even imagine how difficult it must be to navigate the grief of losing a child while also navigating the joy of gaining one - it must be so confusing and difficult and I am so sorry for your loss but so thankful that you chose to share your story so that others may not feel so alone as they navigate the same feelings. What an amazing family.
May God comfort you and keep you. You’ve walked such a heartbreaking journey. Thank you for your authenticity and sharing. You are precious, and so is your beautiful family.
Frankie is such a lucky boy to have such loving parents and to have his very own soul mate guardian angel to always be with him and watch over him 💙 such beautiful boys, Frankie will always be a twin, never let him forget it ❤️
I’m truly sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine the pain and heartache you went through and continue to go through. Prayers for Gods healing and peace.
you are a strong woman, rip to the little one. im an identical twin and i couldn’t imagine the pain your going through. *in this life we will never truly be apart, for we grew to the same beat of our mother’s heart.*
13:48 is the moment where I broke down.... the moment kisses turn to tears. You and your family are so brave, I am certain that your son is watching over you from the heavens.
I cried so much at the end. You are both so strong. I'm so happy frankie was born happy and healthy. He will always have his baby brother with him throughout his life.
I liked because you're strong, capable and helping so many mothers in similar situations. You are a momma bear and I am so grateful that you atleast have Frankie. Billy is your angel and Frankies angel
Frankie is beautiful you done so well. I'm so sorry for your loss, I went through the same thing only it wasn't twins. It broke my heart when people congratulated me on my pregnancy for me to then have to explain my beautiful baby boy had passed away. It is the hardest most painful experience for anyone to go through and you were so brave especially to share this video. I truly admire your strength you, your family and little Frankie are in my prayers xx
Diane Mortimer Hi Dianne, I am so heartbroken for you and the unbearable pain that you have gone through. The feeling that you describe became a very common one for Caileigh and I also. So much so that we essentially avoided leaving the house for months in the late stage of the pregnancy (and since). It felt like every time that we did leave the house we were taken back to square one by having to explain the situation to someone else. Of course people’s intentions are good, but it’s little comfort at the time. I wish that I could offer you more comfort, but I wanted to at least write to tell you that you aren’t alone. We are both left in tears over and over again as we read peoples messages of support and similar experiences, but it also brings us comfort knowing that we are all in this together now 💛
This whole time I thought the kissed referenced was a kiss to the child. But when I tell you my eyes filled with tears... I'm so sorry for your lost and I hope you are able to live a full, happy life an honor of Billy... 💔❤
Thank you for sharing this. I have had two healthy children and thank God everyday. You and your husband are amazing and strong. I know that your story will help other women in the same situation. Your children are beautiful. Cherish them always. Love from the UK x
Congratulations on the birth of your son! He’s absolutely beautiful and I wish him health, happiness, and good fortune in his life. My condolences as well for the little one that was lost, and I wish your family all the best during your healing process.
