The gift of losing... the heart shatters open until there's no me and you (Clip) 

words will never capture nor accurately describe that there was never anyone to suffer anyway the suffering is but a mere thought. mental programming running being controlled by nothing or no one just like a computer the programming necessary for the computer to work. we take the program personally, make it our own rather than realising it’s just what’s running without anyone controlling the program. from the time we think we’re thinking about this nothingness it’s just mind creating a story about what is and it usually seems to shift into utter despair at the thought that it has absolutely nothing to do with any of this. but when that personalization of thought appears to be gone. all it is, or supposedly becomes is this beautiful empty thought dancing. which you can’t help but feel awe and beauty at that it’s even occurring. the thought that it’s messed up just doesn’t even occur any longer because there’s no longer seeing what’s appearing is either right or wrong. it’s just what’s appearing being perfectly what’s appearing. to feel that shattering that despair is perfectly natural that loss of a sense of control. and even though mind says to feel that way is not okay. it is absolutely mesmerizingly beautiful apparently who knows 🤷🏽‍♀️

Your fears and questions around awakening only hurt when you think about them before awakening. when you finally awake, they don't hurt anymore... At least not in the way you think they would. Nothing really stays the same after awakening... Calculating stuff from an angry\scared\frustrated\impatient standpoint for example is just another thought loop that has its origins somewhere inside you. Awakening is waking up to truth, and going into truth you surrender to it not knowing, simply because it is the truth. Truth is valuable because it is the truth. Truth is the most fulfilling thing there is, no matter what it turns out to be... When you sign up to know the truth you sign up for something you don't know and can't can't know until you're in it. so trying to "guess it" is a fool's game. But, to give you something, nothing hurts as much as living outside the truth. NOTHING. I hope that answers your question:)

That's the horror of it, but it's the truth.

There’s the option of taking drugs and pretending there’s god, meaning, love, occasionally. Illusion yes but feels real at the time. And is some time off from the heartbreak of ‘reality’. There seems to be a relative cost to pay as things are even bleaker by comparison but at least there was joy and connection for a time.

@@r7mangm313may I ask…how can you be sure you’re at ‘truth’? And that everyone’s truth is the same?

A whole spiritual movement based on ‘you’re fucked’ 😂

I like Suzanne's message generally, but take it all with a pinch of salt.

@@mannutdutd no one is fucked

mmmm.... i simply cant find the sadness in her words. life is still here.... and all the possibilities within it. i think shes trying to really convey that, you cant control anything. but it doesnt mean that life isnt already inherently beautiful, and right here... for you to experience. "moments" do happen still... she chooses words in a interesting way. bc life is insanely alive... and your apart of it, so you will have beautiful moments, especiallly if you let go of control enough to be fully aware of whats happening.

It’s Super Great for me to hear! Super Direct Relief. Super Grateful, Yay, Love this message 🌪️💔🌟😔💥❤️🕊️☺️🥀

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maybe? who would even know? (don’t mean to be cheeky by that question but as in it’ll appear as it appears, and it can be anything as every body/mind appears “different” it could be yes or no) it’s just free to be as it is without any story. it can’t even be labeled as anger any more it is intense sensation that we have been taught to view as anger to label as anger based on markers which may or may not even occur. when that attachment to it seems to fall away it is just the naturalness arising. can’t even identify it as anger anymore it is just free expression of whatever.

How can it feel to a person if it’s been pointed out that there’s no person? 🤔