the "gifted kid" is slowly going insane // playlist 

hi! I hope this is a safe space for you to vent so pls don't apologize for it 💛 TIMESTAMPS 0:00 are you satisfied - marina & the diamonds 3:14 oh ana - mother mother 6:12 how the world works - Bo Burnham 10:23 pale machine - Bo en 14:30 murders - miracle musical 18:12 bang bang bang bang - sohodolls 21:09 oh no! - marina & the diamonds 24:07 bad apple - Alstroemeria (jubyphonic cover) 27:44 goodbye my Danish sweetheart - mitski 30:00 happy pills - weathers 33:21 useless child - kikuo Playlist on Spotify provided by @Icarus (thank you!) open.spotify.com/playlist/6bKTXyyqQR9tHkRfw7kwt0?si=qACUuToNS66A51ZyRBPHQg&dl_branch=1 Pls support me on my other channel :) ru-vid.com/show-UCxkm4z5nlje3gZDdbHYpAQg

"you're born clever" thanks "just study harder, and you'll be smarter" oh haha uh

"your not living up to your potential" " you're a genius and you fit beauty standards why are you depressed?" ' your so mature for your age' ' why can't you get this concept I thought you were smart?' fun timezzzz

“What happened to the girl who was rushing to get everything done ahead of time?” You killed her. I hope you’re proud.

My mom thinks she’s doing something by not comparing me to other people but instead comparing me to my younger self and when she was my age, it’s actually just as damaging (at least to me) “ *But when you were younger you could make friends easily!* ” “ *You’re not the same, I want my little girl back* ” “ *Why are you always in your room and alone now? When you were a kid you were so much more talkative* ” “ *You know when I was your age I was friends with everyone, how come you can’t do that?* ” Yeah I got it, I grew up and I’m not what you expected anymore

"She's first of the class, continue like this!" "This year too she is!" . . "What?! You're third now?!" "I'm disapointed of you" I don't see what's wrong for dropping 2 damn ranks lol

honestly at first it's fun, and then when ur older you burn out and suddenly you don't know how to study...

When ur the “gifted kid” and the sibling who has to do everything right so you slowly go to the “dumber” classes and skip and in general become a delinquent without ur parents noticing but they’ve lowkey gave up on you (it’s funner this way trust me) edit: bro this kinda blew up- just to clarify I enjoy living this way because it’s more fun

starting with "are you satisfied" is a power move

this comment section is amazing,i feel so understood and not judged,i can't talk about how i feel to anyone irl so this playlist is nice,thank you

as a classified “moderate” gifted child w an iq of 142, ive always had pressure put on me to be the “best of the best” by my incredibly gifted family of draft athletes, architects, and entrepreneurs. they’re pushing me to become a UN diplomat or a government journalist and i’ve always gone with their demands up until the start of the pandemic. after i came out as queer they gradually began to lose respect for me and said that “our family doesn’t need people like you” . after 8 years of nonstop working i began to feel the effects on my mental health. i was diagnosed with OCD and my grades declined. now i feel like everything’s gone to shit.

the most annoying part of all of this is that there are people out there that genuinely think that 'gifted kids' not only don't deserve empathy but deserve pain just because they are gifted

I still firmly believe that I would have been so much better if they never told me or my mother that I was "gifted", I would be better with my mom knowing me as the average kid with 80 - 90 grades that likes to draw and stuff like that instead of her thinking that I'm a 100/100 student and a genius or something like that and that "can do so many good things" and other lies I can't remember right now

POV: It’s like everyone is so proud that you are a perfect child but it just starts to become a expectation and you start to become hard on yourself and start crying in the littlest of mistakes and always make fake dreams that everyone still thinks your the best. And everything just starts feeling fake

!!!VENT!!!! I am a gifted kid myself, and to be honest, I actually think this is all my fault. All my life, I've never had to actually study, and I just answered the questions with my common sense. Most gifted kids burn out in high school and college, but I'm burning out in middle school. I can't focus on anything for some reason. All my life I never had to actually worry about time management because I would end up getting the motivation to do it last minute, perfectly. But I don't have that anymore. I don't know what happened. My parents know this, and they think its because I'm "watching videos". No im not. I'm literally putting on music. They always assume im doing something bad. Im trying to be perfect for them. They're telling me that this is for my future, but I think that its just for your reputation as a parent. Really, the only person that has actually believed me and appreciated me doing my best is my mother. Even though I never get so see her during the weekdays, I still love her so much because she works just as hard as I do. But the thing is, I always get distracted by something, no matter what I do, and I can't help it. I don't know whats happening to me. I always cry every time I think about the past, the little girl in elementary school that was a straight A student and got along with all my classmates. I have one week of school left. I really hope I can do this. If I were to spit these feelings out in the public, especially in front of my dad, he wont validate it. He would try to one up me by saying he had to walk miles to school when he was a kid and he has to go to the library every day to study. I really wish that he would just validate my feelings for once. Ive tried telling him before, but he always told me to work harder and just keep studying and reading. He loves me, and I love him, but i dont think he understands the fact that this is harder than you see it. Especially if you always get distracted with something. If I dont have my phone, and there isnt any youtube tabs or music on, I'd end up playing with my skin and scabs. I take a bath almost every 5 daysbecause I never have the time to do it regularly. I'd say i wanna die, but that would obviously hurt, so im trying to shift instead. I'm only 12, and thats why most people like to tell me im overreacting. I hate this. They would always talk about how they had even worse experiences in highschool/college. I get really stressed to the point where the tips of my fingers would be ice cold and i dont know why.

I wish I wasn’t “gifted” and a perfectionist sometimes. When I failed my first test a few weeks ago (in math, I’m in 10th grade) I had a breakdown. Luckily I was at home when that happened, but it was still pretty bad. I felt useless. I was supposed to be smart, so why did I fail the test? I hate how so much pressure is put on us just because we’re “smarter’’ than everyone else. We’re still human beings. Human beings have limits. I also feel awful when I get a question wrong because of this

Man, this playlist hits differently as someone who was once told “the only good thing about you is your intelligence” :))

❗(TW: mentions of self-harm and suicide) It was so stressful being the "gifted kid". Especially when it came to mental health. When I first expressed how I felt, most people looked at my grades and said, "Well, your grades are good so what's the issue?" Then when my grades dropped, people were quick to say "You can do better. What's wrong with you? Why are you like this?" All of a sudden, people like me started harming themselves and dying left and right. Even then, grades were the main priority. We were given school counselors who barely helped and pep talks but no actual form of therapy. Sometimes I find it surprising that I made it this far. I'm turning 20 next month but I didn't think I'd make it past 15.

I’m surprised that “All Eyes on Me” isn’t part of this playlist! That song is pretty much the soundtrack to whenever I’m having an existential crisis as a former honor student, staring up at the ceiling and wondering where it all went wrong, and where do I go from here

"How could this happen to you two? You have such good grades," - my counselor to me while I sobbed after my friend had attempted.

Reading all these comments made me realize how well we all did. I was the teacher's pet, constantly asked for homework left and right, never wanting to ruin my school reputation. Afraid of disappointment. Friendly with all teachers, friendly with all people whether bad or good. Studied, isolated in my room until I cried out of frustration. I used flashcards, tested myself over and over, expectations overflowing. 4.0 GPA, high-achiever, yes to everything asked of staff members. But hey, don't get me wrong I did have my closest friend supporting me and the teachers were kind, but I realized that I didn't do it for myself. I did it for others. In order to not fail their expectations. As one said in the comment section, you show them you're talented at a young age and they're amazed, amazement turns into expectations, expectations turns into standards and then anything less than that is a mistake. And I'm tired. So now entering highschool, even as my relatives may be angered by my actions, I'm doing what I want and feel like. I haven't given up on my grades but I'm not pressured anymore by anyone other than myself. I am taking my own path and it is hard but I love this feeling I've taken upon myself, it feels refreshing. You who is reading this should too...

As a gifted kid who pretty much gave up on caring about their mental health, as well as schoolwork, this hits home. You know how everyone always calls you so mature? oh you are so mature for your age! you always read books, you are amaizing! But i'm tired, i wish someone would compliment me for my personality, and i wish i could belive it, i'm so god damn tired, i'm done. and sorry for any mistakes, my english is not that good

Was the ‘gifted kid’ when I was younger. My mom abandoned me, my grandma died of a stroke, then I got into a physically/emotionally/sexually abusive relationship. It caused me to give up, but because I did, everyone was so angry that I wasn’t doing as good as I used to. The more they yelled, the worse my grades got until the school put me in the alternative school. I graduate nearly a year early. Finished the online personal finance class in a single day by passing the pre-tests. Just because I’m ‘smart’ doesn’t mean I am capable of being pushed so hard towards being something I’m not. I dunno, but parents need to let their kids breathe.

Let me guess, you do everything they want and it’s still never good enough. They hate what you look like. They don’t care what you like and want. They just care about stealing the happiness you do have for themselves and transforming it into venom to use against you. They love to point out the very things they know you’re insecure about and degrade you for them. They like to laugh, talk and act like nothing ever happened as you sob your eyes out, and they play victim and bring you down if you don’t just get over it. Yeah.. me too, I’m sorry.

Everything is so dam good at first, having them compliment you.. then after a few years, not being able to maintain that you'll just get negative comments and eventually gets ignored... you get disappointed in yourself too... then during the transition between the age, you snap. a rope is the only thing that helps you. hell... what a journey.

Me: reads title* Me: Wow, perfect for me

!vent! So when I was younger I was a really gifted kid I was above everyone I got praised a lot by people around me except my own parents it was always “i expected that from you” “it’s nothing special I expected that” and all they told me was that they expected that from me and because of that I started having expectations for my myself at a very young age to the point if I didn’t reach that expectation I was beaten myself up to the point I started selfharming (not really that serious like just hitting myself and banging my head) at a very young age. My parents always bragged about me and started putting their expectations of me on other people and let me tell you this my parents can’t keep secrets like they tell everything to everyone it really hurted hearing people say I didn’t expect you to score that low, that they were disappointed in me and started comparing me to their children, cousin, nieces and etc. I didn’t even know some of these people. I started getting really competitive I wanted to meet everyone’s expectations to the point I missed out in my childhood. My family isn’t the smartest and me being the gifted kid they wanted me to be the best and better than my siblings. My cousins don’t like me because they always got/get compared to me even if I am there so they don’t really like me. I started to get panic attacks before going to school. I started getting scared of test like I would sometimes even throw up if I had a big test that day. In my household there is no such thing as being sick unless you are a really high temperature and even then they hardly believe me being sick. I had a hard time making friends so I was all alone most of the time. I started getting really exhausted like mentally and physically and my grades started to drop because of this but not really that bad until I got send to a school full of smart people and that’s when everything started going downhill. I was seen as the dumb kid in my class my teacher didn’t like the way I thought (probably because of my undiagnosed autism and adhd at the time) they started calling me dumb. My parents started getting really mad at me and I just gave up I didn’t have anyone who really cared about me as my personality. My class didn’t like neither did anyone else and I started selfharming (cutting) but the fact that my parents knew and told me that this isn’t an excuse for my grades. I got pretty much mentally abused by my parents (I wouldn’t say they physically abused me but sometimes they did). I attempted suicide I told them what my parents did and nothing changed my therapist told me that they do/did it because they care about me. Me and my siblings still don’t really get along but I do have a friend and online friends. My grades are still dropping I’m still depressed and my dad is getting more mad at thing I do my mom doesn’t care anymore so Ye that’s my life ig :)

I learnt to speak 2 languages at the age of 3. Threw my own pacifier away as soon as I got tired of it. Decided to become a scientist. Skipped grades in the english academy. Perfect grades, model student. But it wasn't enough. "You are amazing" "Take a break" "Relax, you are doing great" But I'm not enough. Drawing. Singing. Dancing. Coding. Streaming. Writing. "I should start archery and martial arts." "I haven't learnt to play an instrument yet." "I don't know enough about culture." "I need to develop my social skills." I need more. It's not enough. I have so much to learn, so much to do. I'm wasting time. I don't have enough time. I need to be perfect, I need to be the top of the top. I need to be one in a million. But I shouldn't need to, should I? It isn't normal to be like this? But if I'm not perfect, what else do I have left? I have nothing. Nothing but the fake fantasy of perfection. Nothing but wanting to be the impossible. I can't run away from other's expectations because they don't exist. The only expectations that ever pressured me were my own.

graduated three years ago top of my class, now im a burnt out twenty year old working in a laundry being hounded by dissapointed relatives because im not who i was years ago

Through junior school I was constantly told how smart I was, I was told I was gifted and talented from the get go. I never had to study, I naturally got good grades so I felt no need to put in any effort. Only now when highschool is genuinely getting hard, do I realise I don’t even know how to study. My grades are dropping through the floor and the mental effect it has is honestly indescribable.

I had been called a gifted child all my life. When I was 15 I had to leave school because of anxiety and depression, feeling like marks were the only reason all my peers and family liked me (+ sexual and general trauma caused by my father). I have been medicated for two years now and I am back in school once again thankfully, although I had to change to another institution since being in my last school gave my PTSD. // I have had struggle with mental healt since I was 9, I almost left school during that years too since I couldnt be there without crying, at the end I did all my HW in my house and went to take the needed tests accompanied, I was so afraid of taking time for myseld back then Edit: Also, sorry for my bad grammar. English is not my first lenguage :")

As the supposable “gifted kid” in both my class and in school, this really hit close to home. Since everyone saw be as the “smart kid” I got crushed by the pressure of doing all of my assignments. It was a new school year well, and one of my only friends was in another class with her best friend and the rest of my “friends” found new ones and hung out with them instead. B/c of this I got really depressed and developed anxiety, the only thing I had to cope with was anime & games, but then my mom and grandma tried to say that they were the cause of me being so “anti-social”. It really wasn’t. But I just couldn’t be the one to break it to them that they were the majority of the reason. Once my birthday came, no one even said “Happy Birthday!” to that day except for the lunch lady. On top of all of this, I’m only 11 and have no idea what I want to do with my life despite everyone pushing me to become and artist or something. And being the youngest of six, I got verbally and physically abused but only verbal abuse by the grandmother and mother.I have gotten better, but my mom still has gotten the fact that I need to take my time with things and she shouldn’t push me so hard.

I hope that everything gets better for all of you. I was a gifted kid too, grade school was perfect, all teachers and students loved me. Then middle school came and I started having problems making friends, my mental state was bad and I was continuously getting bullied, I didn't care about grades anymore, I just couldn't wait to get back home everyday even though it wasn't perfect there either; I remember the day my dad openly wished he didn't have me because of an F, still confuses me to this day. I was having breakdowns mid-exams, not answering in class, not focusing with any teacher even on my favorite subjects. Now, I just finished highschool with a 86%, mother didn't like it and wishes I got better, her disappointed tone is clear when she talks about it to others. But I'm very, very proud of myself. I have come so far. At one point you need to isolate yourself from your parents and become your own caregiver, they'll still be there, but you'll need to become what you want as a person without them. My relationship with my parents isn't bad and I have older siblings, but I really admit they messed up. It doesn't matter now, I have finally grown up. I know I will never be that girl. They still put the pressure on me. But I'd rather never tell them it's their I don't listen anymore.

People tell me im talented and smart, And I dont wanna be. Its not always a gift, people expect so much from me just because they think I can always be what they want me to be. I wanna be a normal person, who doesnt have so many responsibilities.

Whenever I don’t meet my own expectations I get anxious of what everyone would think and I always think stuff like “I wasn’t like this before” “I’m not as good as I was before” and it just makes me contemplate my existence ig

thank you for giving me motivation to do my homework

sometimes i blame myself for trying too hard back then, i should've just taken it easy so that people wouldn't be too disappointed in me. but i really liked the academic validation because i'm not even passionate in anything else, and there's nothing else i'm good at. and honestly people were bound to be disappointed in me, because i just work too hard, i'm not smart. i want to rest so bad but i can't take my mind off of things i'm supposed to be doing. i'm tired of being so scared of what's going to happen tomorrow.

vent when I was in elementary, everyone was ALWAYS having high standards for me. It was always my problem if something happened if I was there. I could never be the one to not understand ONE thing because then I would be called "dumb for a gifted kid" This was the whole reason I'm slowly going insane now. Everyone has to be satisfied with me. I just wish that I was never a gifted kid. My parents always said I was a big crybaby for CRYING ABOUT MY BULLIES. I never ever let myself think that it was okay to be me. I always thought that people were laughing at me, talking about me. I never went to sleep happy. My friends left me when I went to gifted classes because I was just a selfish know it all to them. I ran away for a week and when I came home nobody cared. They just sent me right back to school. I always heard the sentence "I'm not mad, just disappointed in you." It never made it better. " You're gonna let me cheat off your papers right?" " Omg she's crying because she got one question wrong? What a baby." "What happened to the smart, straight A, gifted student I know? Now she's just a 'mature' failing whore from all her friends." This "whore" was that gifted student. She was killed. You killed her. She's gone. It's because of you.

I just want to cry, every day. I can’t take it anymore

It's sometimes terrible to feel almost everyone around me in school wants me to fail. I was a kind of kid that looked dumb. Like, when I was really young, I'm so good at talking and writing but that was it. No more. And everybody considered me 'Dumb'. I often stared at a empty space and think with myself and I talked nonsense. That time, no one wanted me to fail. Actually kids around me were kinda kind to me. But one day, I went to hospital and found out actually I'm very smart. Doctors suggest getting a special education but my parents refused. In the middle school, (7th grade) Suddenly I'm so good at almost everything, always getting A+... I don't even did my best... I study alone without any education except for school. Now, everyone is shocked and wanting me fail, saying, "You always looked so dumb.". If I answered one thing wrong, people immediately laugh and make fun of me. Even if I'm top1 student in my class and Top3 in entire school, they just dont want to admit and say mean things. And adults say, "You are gifted... you can act more kindly and exemplary." Teachers dont like me very much because I'm a weird kid with good grade, never easy to train. I'm different with all the other Top student around me. Other top students are confused like me and looks at me, maybe thinking "Who the hell is she? She was never with us. How so sudden?" I was considered to be dumb, I do weird things, I don't have perfect dream like Doctor or Lawyer... my dream is on art side. Everyone around me is looking at me weirdly and wanting me to fail. It's so sudden change and I'm confused...

For me, I didn't chose being the "gifted kid". None of us did. My family put so much pressure in my to succeed and always be happy. It has gotten to the point where I use every moment that I have free to just relax, and this does cause some problems. I have semi- panic attacks every bad grade a get (even if it's only a few). My family sometimes argue to me because of said "laziness", which causes me to use the same tone as them, which causes them to be mader and argue a bit more. (Even tho they don't say it alot) sometimes hearing the phrase "I'm disappointed" or "You aren't the same" hurt so much Thx for reading my vent. Have a wonderful day!!!

I just realized that i base my intelligence in grades and compliments

**Vent** Wow, this was like a punch in the face. I recently peaked, and my grades are slowly going down (👍) and I’ve been so worried about why I can’t focus, I don’t read, I’m falling behind, I’m getting lower and lower test scores, I have regular breakdowns over homework, I don’t sleep and I’m losing it. I got one of the highest, if not the highest, scores on my mock SATs (didn’t take my real ones) and now I can barely do school. I’m worried that I’m not going to be able to get high enough grades on my GCSEs, and I won’t be able to get into a good enough college. I’ve tried telling people that I’m falling behind, and stuff like that, but no one believes me. Because I was ‘the gifted kid’. So much fucking pressure, always so much pressure. I’m losing it and I don’t know what to do. I didn’t know this was a normal thing, so at least I feel a bit better about that :) Does anyone have any advice?

I never thought I'd expect myself to be perfect, I always thought I loved myself. I was always so good at everything, I always made people smile. But then I don't know what happened, I started failing and I couldn't do it anymore. It was hard to concentrate, to motivate myself to study or do homework. I'd even cry every time I thought about school. Not just in school either, while doing art or music or anything I needed to be perfect. I'll probably never be good enough

Yeah I'm that one burnt out gifted kid. From elementary up to the end of senior high school I was always on top of my class. I was so popular due to my 'intelligence'. Everyone knew me and wanted to be friends with me. My family was always proud of me. My friends used to boast about me. I was that kid that every other parent wanted their own child to be like but as soon as college hits It's like I've completely drowned. As of now, I'm failing my major subjects, barely passing my minor subjects, I suck at reporting now etc. Earlier I just got scolded by a major sub professor and made me sit down so she could take over and discuss my report. It was humiliating. Honestly, I'm one step closer to actually ending this hell. Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you. I'm diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder so hooray for me ✨✨✨

I’m a senior this year, I’m graduating early at 16 and I’m currently enrolled in a technical college so I’ll graduate with an associates degree in Psychology. I have 5 months left of high school.. I have NEVER hated myself more than I do right now and the only thing keeping me afloat is the achievements I’ll have added onto my name…the meaningless tags are simultaneously the only thing giving my life meaning. I’m homebound as of now and I’m on various medications for health problems and problems related to depression and anxiety. Ive gone countless nights without sleep, staying up doing work, and it took a awful turn on my health. I can’t sleep peacefully now…I’m always worried. There’s always something I can do even when there isn’t. I don’t wish this upon anyone, the constant feeling of failure lurking around every corner, it makes existence unbearable..

i am so burnt out and i _am_ a gifted kid, and this quarter of my school year has been so hard because I swear i have depression or just ALOT OF depressive thoughts and feelings. I hate school because of another big thing that's traumatic, but whatevs. This quarter has been filled of people expecting me to be that smart and witty guy ALL THE TIME AND PERFECT EVERYTHING because I have never failed anything before. I was barely doing my work and i would miss basically all my assignments. it was so stressful and so anxiety-inducing ( also i have no friends and severe SAD ) And i guess it all got so overwhelming that I just mentally gave up- it was unfair and too much that it turned utterly useless. But now I think I'm recovering. A BIT OR NO

''wheres the girl that used to have only A's and B' and was sad when got a C'' you and online lessons killed her now shes a burnout

brushing my teeth feels like it’s such a chore. i don’t get why i can’t just get up and brush my teeth like everyone else. especially with braces, i’m supposed to brush my teeth more then regular, but i can’t even brush my teeth twice a day normally. ☹️

slight vent ive just realised whats happend i was the gifted kid, the golden child, i had to have high scores in order to please myself and parents everything had to be perfect, it lead to many burnouts and breakdowns but over lockdown i just crashed, i broke, it was all finally too much and my scores and reputation plumeted disapointing my mother especially it all went horibly but for once i wasnt stressed to the point of breaking and i feel much better in life and school

being the gifted kid my whole life just sucks. I always am the educated one, the smart one, the one adults use as example. I'm the kid who people call mature and smart. The one who never made a mess at home because didn't want to make a mess that my mother would have to clean. I'm the one who's childhood finished when I was 5. I was the one who had to know from a early age the dangers of being a girl. I'm the one who can't cry in front of other people no matter how close they are. I'm the kid who's emotions are slowly becoming a huge snow ball of anger, of violence. I don't wanna hurt people, I don't wanna hurt anyone. I just wanted to be a kid, to play to be loved. Every day I make jokes about my life but in the end as I take a step in my house it all comes back, the facade falls. I am constantly keeping a facade, so that I don't upset people. Being what others want me to be is more important than my own life, happiness and sanity. I don't even want to start on my relationship with my mother, it's not bad but she is more of a close friend than a mother. And now being educated, smart and mature isn't enough, I now need to be beautiful, feminine, attractive. I dont know anything anymore.

(my vent) ever since i started school, i was the gifted kid. i was always in higher level and gifted classes. i had a 4.0 and straight A's for 10 years. i was the best of the best in my family. at first my family was proud of me for this, until it became an expectation, a standard. anything lower than an A was unacceptable and my parents would make absolute sure i fixed it. from then on i never got a lower than a 90% on ANYTHING. i also was always told "you're going to med school when you're older", or "you're gonna be a doctor" "she's gonna be our money child" "she's the smart one". they never asked what i wanted to be or do or how i was doing. so i just went along with it and strived for what they wanted. i craved the praise from my family. anything to make them proud of me. i wanted to be validated. if anyone ever asked what i was gonna be when im older, i'd say "well my mom wants me to be-" so on so forth. i got my first F when i moved. it was a really hard time for me. at the time i was figuring myself out and adjusting, but it broke me. i stopped eating, drinking, i became washed out and tired, layed in bed all day, begging for anyone's help. seeing that F on the report card made me completely lose my shit. my parents lost theirs too. i was in extreme trouble. my family didn't look at me for weeks. my little sister became the new golden child. she is EVERYTHING to my parents. she's the new shiny favorite. and i still am jealous of her for that. i started getting drained. i'd put so much effort into my school work that i lost myself. and it hurts, even now, always hearing "what happened to the smart little girl?" "i thought you were smart." "you disapoint me." "i hate you." "you're dramatic and lazy" "grow up and pull yourself together" "why can't you be more like your sister/cousin/friend/anyone" everything you should never say to a child was said to me since I was 10. and still is. from then on, i stopped. i became a new person; suicidal, always anxious, desperate for validation or reassurance from anyone, desperately hanging onto even a C grade. i, in fact, told my parents about all of these thoughts i just listed - they didn't care. i'm 16 years old, a sophomore in high school, and I'm a straight D student. my parents only cared about my grades, never my mental health. ive never hated a person in my life as much as i've hated myself. i'm so fucking sorry if you relate to any of this.

I've listened to this playlist 5 times, and it's now burned into my soul, it is y e s

I love how all the playlists about gifted kids start with are you satisfied by marina 🤣✋ i already knew what it was going to sound before opening it

Another masterpiece that goes straight into my heart 🙏🏻💙

Being gifted is like a curse. It lead to high expectations from elementary school teachers and being lonely. It lead to emotional breakdowns daily until I hurt someone when I wasn't myself. they hated me for hurting an innocent peer. I cried. I hated myself. Though I have accepted it, it still lingers in my mind. "you used to be so social when you were younger!" is what my mum used to say. Grade five with the pandemic. It hurt. All the work. No help at all. Isolated. Alone. I was diagnosed with depression at least a year later. Many things wrong happened. I don't actually remember well. Diagnosed with ADHD just last year or something. I still have a lot of problems. Losing people I loved to cancer. I HATE cancer. I'll never forgive myself. This playlist has songs that fit perfectly. Thank you.

I wasn't ever the "smart" kid, one day I simply was classified as gifted and was given a new expectation. My average grades were C's and B's plus the occasional A. Going to school full of those kids was fun for the first year since everyone was so nice and I still didn't care much for grades. But a few more months in I started getting breakdowns and noticing how horrible my grades were compared to everyone, I didn't understand why I was gifted. Why me? What did I do? After that, I started to feel inferior and less smart than everyone, and my parents could not get over how overdue everything was. I started getting hit again, and started hitting myself as well, I hated everything to do with my intelligence. Eventually, I got better, my grades and myself. But I will never leave that part of me that judges everything, and strides with caution instead of the confidence I used to have before I was told I was "gifted". My parents were so proud of me, and their expectations went up like most of you. I don't hate myself anymore and I am much more mentally stable. I just wanted to rant about this for a sec, I hope you guys know you're valuable and you will always be good enough for someone, even if it isn't yourself.

isn’t being a gifted kid so LOVELY? I just LOVE freaking out when I dont get above eighty percent on a quiz. It’s AMAZING when I think I’m a disgusting failure when Im not perfect right away.

im gifted with red hair, everyone touches it, its annoying, then im being touched at school. I would yell at them but they wouldn't listen and continue to touch me, but if i hit them or anything ILL be the one getting in trouble

ah everyone join in the Burnt Out Gifted Kid Anthem with me! 106% "Good job, kiddo, keep it up" raising your hand for every question 98% "try and bring your grades up, kid" panic attacks in school bathrooms for every wrong answer 93% "your grades are slipping please pay more attention" doubt over every question's answer 86% "...." shaking hands before every test 75% "youre shooting youself in the foot kid" im trying please- 70% "youre gonna need to cut this extra curricular" study study focus study study studygodpleasestudybetter- 60% "sorry but to pass this year you need to take this extra course" sleeping in the back of class 58% "im dissapointed in you-" alright 45% "god whats wrong with you? you used to be so smart!" breaking down mid test 30% "idiot" sorry 29% "what do you want me to say? go back to studying" ...

to all the other gifted burnt out kids that peaked in elementary-middle school, i love you :)

being a smart kid in school is unexpected. everyone’s standards are SO high. I get one question wrong and then ppl are like “I thought you were smart”

"The gifted kid" + "the golden child" = teenage insanity

I was the “gifted child” every mom wanted to have as a daughter. I was the girl they use to compare their child to. I was that girl whom everyone looked up to. And now, I feel like I’m way behind everyone else. I always wonder what went wrong.

Hearing the sentence “I’m not mad, just disappointed” doesn’t comfort me more at all, it just makes me feel like a failure. Just say you’re mad. I’d rather have you be mad than disappointed in me.

It feels straining being the gifted kid because everyone EXPECTS you to be hella smart and or talented, plus have such high grades. And when you wanna take a break they ask "whats wrong? Youre literally gifted, you don't need to study hard anyway" and it just makes you think you shouldnt or dont deserve a break 😀

im literally failing every class except English, which is the ONLY class I've never failed at in all my years in school. my parents refuse to acknowledge I might have ADHD and god I'm in fucking shambles. I can't focus and missing work just keeps piling up and all i want is so just disappear. there's no way i'm going to college like this. sorry mom and dad, but you raised a failure

you show them that youre talented at a young age and theyre amazed. amazement turns into expectation. expectation turn into a standard. and from that point on, anything less than that is a mistake

"You're gifted" "youre smart" "youll be fine" "you'll probably do better after you study" lies all lies. Im failing now due to the words you've told me. Thank you. :D

"Where did the smart girl go?" You killed her. You fucking did it. Congrats.

Being the gifted kid in elementary school sets such a large Expectation but then as soon as Middle school/high school hits it just goes downhill.

i was so proud i was a gifted kid. now that everyones expectations were high for me, my expectations are high for myself. i never study. i start crying whenever i get a single question wrong. edit : dear everyone who is relating to me, i love you. i hope you know that. i hope all of you get better soon. i still feel this way, but im trying to overcome it. please get help.

I am a 15 year old in Korea. I was always top of the class in elementary, and I still kept a good streak in middle school. Straight As were not good, they were standard. This year is my last year of middle school(the system is kinda different here) so I am prepping for high school. I love science so I decided to take the exam for a science major high school. While prepping for the exam I kinda lost track of my middle school studies and I ended up getting a C in Chinese, which is barely a passing grade. I didn't think much of it; I hadn't studied. It wasn't an important class anyway so I had dropped it. My mother didn't take it well though. She knew I was prepping for high but she was still disappointed. And I know she's gaslighting me into thinking I'm a failure. But I wanna tell you guys out there, whether you failed in school or not, even if you fell short of everyone's expectations, YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE.

I’ve personally fallen from “golden child” and “gifted kid” to “family disappointment” :)

oh, so you are/were the "gifted kid"? -everything came easy to you as a kid -you need reassurance now because you cant tell if youre doing good at anything or if youve messed up -you never had to study because you knew everything and you never had to do homework because you finished all your work in class, so now you have trouble studying and doing homework -doodling on your work and realizing you have to turn it in, then frantically erasing it -lets be honest, you gave up at some point, didnt you? you just stopped paying attention and doing your work? -you can make up excuses on the spot. -throw yourself into other realities (books, movies, shows, media, shifting) to avoid your responsibilities -you zoomed through books as a kid and now you can barely read -screentime of 7+ hours -probably got access to social medias too early in life ily all pls get a drink and a snack sometime soon

Is it strange that the gifted talented kid is now a burnout with depression and the one no one notice is now a high achiever with flying colors and also grow many talents ?

I was always called a "gifted" kid, graduated high school at 16, getting into a Master degree in a prestigious university in my country. I am having more trouble keeping up with the pressure and workload, slowly going insane with the deadlines and suffering from impostor syndrome I'm sorry for venting here...

Being academically gifted is a curse I wouldn’t wish upon my worst enemies. Few school systems are designed to continue providing constant intellectual stimulation while not overwhelming their students. This is why “former gifted kid syndrome” exists. This is why you go from devouring books like a monster that can never be satiated to struggling through a single paragraph. You weren’t given the stimulation you needed to sustain your giftedness, and it atrophied like any unused muscle would. I’m so sorry they let you down.

"I don't understand this at all, I think I'm going to fail" "No way, you're so smart, you'll probably be the top of the class" *fails* "What happened, I thought you were smart?"

I was a straight A student, until last year. I was told anything other than an A was unacceptable and she was right- I still got honor roll, but my mom wasn't proud of me "You should've gotten your grades up" she was surprised when I crumpled it up while we were watching my sister's awards ceremony. she was still disappointed in me. she's been more proud of me, but only cause of my success in theatre and school. If I was failing she'd kill me. I believe that emotions get in the way of work now nobody cares how I feel they just want my money in the future I'm their "401k" I'm their money child but... i don't want that I don't even know what I want... when someone asks me what I want to do, my response is "My mom wants-" and when she finds out i'm nb and lesbian I'll be the family outcast... they'll hate me

it's so fucking nice seeing people who went through the same shit as me, being pressured from a young age. hope y'all are doing ok

Im eating frozen microwave mac n cheese and baja mtn dew at 3 in the night blasting "are you satisfied through" my bluetooth headphones so i'll go deaf. This is it. This is the peak of giften kid burn out.

Once i heard "are you satisfied" i was immediately drawn in TYSM

Being the “gifted kid” for me is different. Everyone never leaves me alone, Everyone expects me to be happy, Everyone won’t give me space, Everyone always depends on me for everything, I’m getting so overwhelmed, Everyone thinks I’m so perfect, I’ve been have panic attacks because of it.

" dude, you were so smart before. " i was, what, 2 to 5 to 7 ? " you can't just say you hate him because he touched you a bit. " you're 10, he didn't even bat an eyelash at you. " this is why nobody likes you around, you're so pessimistic. " hm, i wonder why. " maybe like, shut up next time ? " alright. " don't talk about him when he's not around. " oh, but you can do that when I'M not around ? oh, sorry, i see where i stand on this makeshift pedestal you created. " you're so selfish, do you know that ? " mkay. " she's a good friend. " she pretended to like me, harassed me about it for the rest of the year til school ended. yeah, she's a really good friend.

Gifted Kid Poetry (feel free to write some poems in response) Etched margins of black and white Impresses all that see Imaginative mind, curious and talented Success. Achievement. Perfection From treats to labor to standard The pedestal you stand on grows high Peeking over the edge, the floor nonexistent If to fall... would you...? Dread. Worry. Obsession Do not fall else blood stains your clothes Your body grows away from purity Please love you, please be enough

Getting Excessive praise for your talents. Making you purely believe that it's a gift. From this it splits to two: • The kid who overwork them selfs in order to keep their image standing, cursing them self for getting anything lower than perfection. slowly but surely breaking the over flowing dam that is their sanity. • The kid who didn't get to build a work ethic due to people calling their achievements “natural” talents, and so beat them selfs up internally for being “stupid” by not achieving basic goals. thinking they've regressed. Both are: - Burnout. - Self critical. - mentally unhealthy. - idealistic. - Resourceful. - distant. - Prideful. - perfectionists. - Afraid. Those aren't gifts. They're curses.

“It’s not a race to the bottom.” “You’re not wearing pajama pants to school you’ll look homeless.” “You can’t wear fishnet, it will make you look like a prostitute.” “Where’s the rest of that shirt? Have some decency.” “You’re at the pool, wear a bikini, not a sweatshirt.” “Why don’t you go for a run, you’re getting lazy.” “You’ve been working out too much, it’s unhealthy.” “You’re not eating enough.” “Do you need to eat all that? Are you actually hungry?” “Take some time to read, you never read anymore.” “You’ve been spending too much time reading.” “That’s too much makeup.” “Do you want to put on some concealer to cover your acne?” “Take a break.” “You’re lazy.” “She’s reading a 600 page book every day, all you read are comics.” “Don’t bind and wear masculine clothes, dress like a girl.” “Those girls clothes are too revealing, there are standards of decency in society.” So what exactly do you want from me???

here's my "gifted kid" expirence -had fun in elementary -was popular because of my intelligence -grew to think I was on top of everyone else -middle school (7th grade specifically) hit like a truck -struggling to get work turned in on time -always expected to get amazing grades -turned to my comfort character instead of other healthy coping mechanisms to deal with problems -never developed good study/work habits because I never had to I hate school 👍

When you’ve been “the gifted kid” and “the sunshine child (being happy all the time)” you just feel so drained. You feel like you’re going insane but you feel like you can’t ask for help because you taught yourself to mask your negative emotions. So now you hold it in all day and only let it out when you’re positive that everyone else is asleep

when you realise that these playlists make you find strangers that understand you more than your family :)

Bad grades don't mean you're stupid Bad habits don't mean you're doing something wrong Bad responses don't mean you're a failure, they just don't understand and maybe want to help/ support you but don't know how. Bad improvement/no improvement doesn't point to you doing something wrong. Something went wrong, but you are still you. And YOU. CAN. DO. THIS. I Believe In You

Nah cus when you don't realise how hard u where pushing yourself even outside of studies until you breakdown and litterally can't do itt anymore, and the only thing u can do is pick up your shit and do it all again

The smart kid in our class slipped up one time and the whole class was shocked and making “disappointment noises” from the on, she never slipped up and was always top 1. Must be so hard for her :(

"When you're 10, they call you a prodigy. When you're 15, they call you a genius. But once you hit 20, you're just a normal person."

When I'm feeling like I haven't reached my full potential, Uncle Iroh comes to me, speaking words of wisdom: "There's nothing wrong with a life of peace and prosperity." Stay healthy, friends.

I give up on literally everything that doesn’t come to me naturally I feel so pressured to do everything perfectly I genuinely fucking hate the pressure school puts on me

“Your gifted” “Keep on the good work” “Good job” “You will be fine!” “U don’t need a therapist amor” “I’m so disappointed in you” “This isn’t like you” “I can’t believe you did this” Well I’m sorry mom (btw my downhill started in 5th grade and it still continues)

Is it just me or do other "gifted kids" have the same problem; not being able to distinguish between romantic and platonic attraction Edit: I figured it out! I'm aroace (though that's just me)

Something someone said to me that really really got me deep: “Just because you’re carrying everything so well doesn’t mean it’s not heavy”. It just…wow I guess.