The HOLLINS PORTER Podcast #2 We share the life and death of Jessica, Jay's sister

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TW: we discuss mental health, domestic violence, drug and alcohol use, cuckooing.
In loving memory of Jessica Ann Hogsden, a daughter, sister, mother and loyal friend.
Special guests are Jay's mum Paula, and Jess's bestfriend Jayde.
We delve deep into Jess's life, the good the bad and everything in between. In the second half of this podcast we discuss the last years of Jess's life and the events leading up to her death (very raw and emotional).
Please seek help if you need it, don't suffer in silence. If you can please also donate with the link below.
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@paulahogsden6208 Год назад

Thank you everyone for your comments. It’s been a hard struggle, still is. All our family have been affected by what happened. Miss my baby girl. Molly misses mummy. It’s all wrong all I can do is carry on fighting for justice for Jessica and for Molly ❤

@bethanprecious Год назад

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@mandyvaughan6849 11 месяцев назад

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@mandyvaughan6849 11 месяцев назад

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@emmaC874 9 месяцев назад

I lost my bestfriend to suicide 7 years ago. You are such a brave and strong woman. Never change ♥️

@laurenpowell4382 9 месяцев назад

Thank you so much for talking about it and getting your story out there……Im a young female living alone and have been struggling with similar problems and this has really helped opening my eyes before it’s too late, I have never lost anyone so I can’t imagine what you’re going through but I do know that speaking about it and putting it out there is extremely strong and I really hope that it helps your grieving process…💓xx

@theunknown6066 Год назад

Something special about your little girl in this video, she has a great awareness of people and their emotions. As soon as nanny started to cry she was quiet and observant and sat quietly next to her, really special little girl x

@sasha8796 2 года назад

This honestly breaks my heart, and the fact I can relate so much all I could do is cry throughout. You are all so inspirational to sit and share her story, all the whilst promoting a fantastic charity 👏

@beautybyashtaylor 2 года назад

absolutely devastating. just watched this episode and i’m in tears. so awful what your family has gone through and you did so well telling jess’ story. love you guys, you’re smashing it x

@abbieyoung4463 2 года назад

You can tell how hard this is for everyone but especially jays mum! What a women and how strong she stayed 🥺💜 Your so loved Jess💜

@BS-cv7mw 2 года назад

I am so sorry for your loss. I was heartbroken watching this episode of the podcast but all I’ve got to say is, your mum is a superhero, hats off to her! What an amazing woman❤️

@charliepacey12345 2 года назад

My heart broke watching this. I’m so sorry you’ve been through this. And hats off to all of you, especially your mum, what an inspiration to many and a strong woman she is!

@jasminelxuise 2 года назад

This video broke me, thank you all for showing your journey as a family. I hope you get the justice you deserve one day. You’re all so loved❤️

@TheZone2009 2 года назад

Heartbreaking! Thank you all for being so brave an sharing something so personal, raw and painful with us all 🤍 sending love to all of you! x

@lauriemclelland9381 2 года назад

Don’t think this was the best video to watch at 36 weeks pregnant. I’m crying my eyes out I’m devastated. You’re so strong for sharing your story with us all xxx

@sophiedaley2672 2 года назад

Thank you all so so so much for sharing your stories and being so honest. Was so moved by this ❤️

@daniellabrizzolara9676 2 года назад

I'm really sorry you all have experienced this. You are helping so many people sharing the story. Sending lots of love ❤️

@tayaphillips3076 2 года назад

This is absolutely heartbreaking. Thank you so much for sharing your story, you’re all so so incredibly strong 🤍

@emilygilbert9264 2 года назад

How amazing is Jays mum. Strong, brave & just pure. I have a daughter myself & I couldn’t imagine going through it. Crying with you. I feel like your mum talking about this will help her. She seems so angry & broken. Jess was definitely sitting with you guys during this. Well done for just being so brave. All of you.🙏

@broganfox3856 2 года назад

An Unbelievable raw, honest, open video. Love to you. Your mum is an absolute queen. X

@GurlLuvinBoy 2 года назад

Absolutely heartbreaking story! I’m so sorry for all of your loss! Such a wonderful and brave thing to share your story with the world! Amazing family 💜💜

@rachwood5375 2 года назад

Sending so much love and support. Important subjects cover in this podcast. Raw and real, thank you for sharing Jess’ story. It should never stop being talked about! X

@amylouise170 2 года назад

This is so so heartbreaking 😭😭you’re all so brave and strong for sharing Jess’ story sending you all lots of love

@hopereay9259 Год назад

This is so raw and emotional! You’re all so strong❤️ Little Rosa is the cutest and you can see how caring she is, when it got to the point of explaining how/when she died, nanny crying and rosa sat quiet and observant! Also don’t apologise for her noise, we love Rosa 🤍

@leahwyncoll7813 2 года назад

All of you are so incredibly brave for talking about this. Thank you for trusting us. I’ve been bawling my eyes out throughout the full video, I can’t even begin to imagine how painful that must’ve been for you all to go through that. I hope your mum starts to heal soon, what an INCREDIBLE woman she is. Mollie is going to grow up and realise how truly amazing she is, and how amazing her mummy Jess was too. Sending so much love to you all

@rosie-vieharris9965 2 года назад

Literally cry as soon as it started.. the pain in your mum face :( I really hope she heals and this helps her.. I have a girl and couldn’t imagine the pain. Xxx

@emmaoloan2396 Год назад

I have only watched this, and I really think you guys are all amazing. I loss my mum due to cancer and then also had to help my father deal with his depression and alcoholism after this, I was numb. This was something we had to deal with throughout my mother living as well. After seeing this it has gave me so much comfort because I know its not entirely the same circumstance but you are all so strong and have dealt with the situation in the best way, by using your amazing, relatable platform to express how devastating substance abuse, addiction and trauma affects a person, family and friends. I can't thank yous enough for this and I don't doubt you have helped so many people with this video

@maggiecorbould9018 2 года назад

I am so so sorry for your loss, this podcast broke my heart, you are all so so strong, please keep those smiles on your face, keep struggling through, you are all loved by so many people ❤️

@TheHaylz88 2 года назад

Don’t apologise for your daughter, that’s real life 🥰 Remove the microphones and it’s just loved ones talking about loss and getting through that. Really enjoyed this, so honest, raw but so so sad. Sorry for your loss.

@mollythomas9518 2 года назад

Broke me heart the whole way through you are all so strong. I love that you keep your daughter in even if she doesnt understand fully that she knows your sister and her memory will live on with her

@rebeccac3442 2 года назад

Crying for days. Just sent you a message on Instagram but wanted to say here too. You are all incredibly strong and thank you for sharing this. Your mum is incredible and her strength is outstanding and honestly deserves so much credit for how she’s handled everything. Lots of love to you all xx ❤️

@issy1026 2 года назад

This was hard to watch but loved it so much! You’re all so strong and your mum is amazing💗

@owenmcdaid6083 2 года назад

I never usually get really emotional watching things but I have to admit I've sat here and absolutely sobbed. Not only is it saddening but it's infuriating how bad people can treat good pure people and get away with it. I can't even imagine how hard the whole situation was for all of you. Especially that amazing mother of yours. She must be the strongest person ever to go through everything she's gone through and she keeps going for Molly and you guys. My heart is hurting for you guys but I'm absolutely positive that Jess is in a much better place without anymore more pain and negativity.❤🕊

@kelm6927 2 года назад

You guys are so brave. Your mum is the most incredible woman - you must be so proud to call her ‘mum’. Look after each other xx

@kayelawson4518 2 года назад

Really informative, what a strong lady your Mum is and your dear Sister. Thank you for sharing xx

@Shannxmurray 2 года назад

This hit me right in the feels. God bless you all! Absolutely incredible people so so much love to you all

@mathildagillitt6843 2 года назад

Wow, what incredible people you all are, for speaking up about something that must’ve been so so difficult. I feel so deeply for you all and I’m so sorry for your loss❤️

@SKM_OX 2 года назад

This has got to be one of the most rawest things I've ever watched, but to say how proud I am off a family that I don't no is an understatement! Jess would be so proud of how strong you are even though u don't feel like it, YOUR MUM IS A HERO AND I HOPE SHE SEES THIS ❤️ ❤️

@SKM_OX 2 года назад

Your all amazing and your all sooooooo fukin strong ♡

@georgieramsay 2 года назад

I’m so looking forward to watching this. Just over a month has passed since I lost my sister to same circumstances. I’m so thankful for this podcast! You guys are great 🤍🤍

@jayportergaming 2 года назад

Georgie I am so sorry for your loss and I hope this helps even if it in a small way x

@georgieramsay 2 года назад

@@jayportergaming thank you so much Jay! You know how it is, but listening to you speak about Jess just reminds me so much of my sister. They’re still with us though, always 🤍

@georgieramsay 2 года назад

@@jayportergaming your mum is a superhero. My heart goes out to her, I couldn’t imagine how it feels to lose a child x

@shannonxx7369 2 года назад

Literally sobbing at rosa cuddling your mum jay what a beautiful strong family. Rosa and your new baby girl have some amazing strong role models in there life to look up to and cherish, they are so lucky to have you all💖 sending all my love to you all xxx

@courtneyeastwood3180 2 года назад

This is such a brave and such a vulnerable video/podcast, thank you so much to you and your family for sharing your story 🤍

@laurenwillis8386 2 года назад

You are all so brave speaking on this subject! I watch your content, love your family & I send my love to you all❤️

@leahburton9063 2 года назад

Such an emotional watch but my god I have such respect for your family. Jess would be so proud of each of you for telling her story. Also little Rosa making sure her Nanny was ok, made my heart melt 💛🥹

@sarahridley942 2 года назад

I cried way more than I expected to, watching this. Love you guys!

@laurendoyle8047 2 года назад

Please do more podcasts!! I love listening to them when walking / running! You guys are really entertaining and relatable!!

@graciedormer8956 Год назад

You should defo start a petition and keep fighting for justice for Jess❤️you are all so strong and your mum is so inspirational to stick up for what u believe xx

@itssoraya277 2 года назад

You are all so strong 😔 i was in tears watching this your mum is an incredible inspirational women❤️❤️

@EmmzaBromley 2 года назад

Lovely you can all share this as talking together really makes you feel stronger as a family. Watching this was really sad and touching because I lost my twin 5 years ago and I really feel all of your pain and hurt, sending love ❤️ the grief feeling never goes away but it gets easier to manage over time xxx

@jayportergaming 2 года назад

Sorry for your loss x

@lucyelizabeth8328 2 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss and that you’ve all had to go through such a massive trauma. My heart goes out to you all. I’m also sorry that you’ve experienced such hardships with social services. I’m training as a social worker and honestly I am so passionate for making a difference. I just want to tell you that the people within my care will be treated as an individual. Unfortunately there are so many processes and underfunding happening, no excuse at all, but I hope to bring change so that no one has to experience the trauma you all went through to such extreme levels. ❤️

@slotssnstuff 2 года назад

You're all such warm hearted, lovely people. Jess would be so proud of you all to carry on her legacy. Your mum isn't wrong to question her reality, (what, if, etc) it's completely normal. Sending you all my love

@jodiediane22 2 года назад

Wow what a woman your mum is. I’m so sorry to you all for what you’ve been through, thank you for sharing Jessica’s story with us💖

@IslaLennyNelly4ever 2 года назад

Thanks for sharing ❤️sending lots of love to you all! Xxx

@shanice6856 2 года назад

Your mum is an absolutely amazing woman, she did all she possibly could and i hope one day people with mental health can get justice and the social services support that they need, you all shouldn’t have had to do this alone it makes me feel so sick that the services aren’t doing enough to help people affected by mental health and abusive people they need to be taking it more seriously bc bad mental health is a killer.

@Hgeorgia 8 месяцев назад

This is so powerful. You should write Jessica’s story as a book. It would be so incredibly helpful for other people going through the death of a child and similar situations with taking custody of a child. There is so much dialogue that could be had with you telling your stories. Thank you for sharing Jessica’s life and her story. I grew up in a home with domestic violence and agree with how much trauma you carry through life. You’re all so incredibly strong.

@meganrosemakeup_ 9 месяцев назад

This is so unbelievably sad, I am so sorry for your loss. It's disgraceful how our 'safeguarding' measures that are supposedly there to 'protect us' let so many vulnerable individuals down. Things need to change ❤

@elliebeardshaw6839 2 года назад

Absolutely broke my heart listening to this. God bless you all ❤️

@charlottesaunders900 2 года назад

Your mum is a superstar, everyone copes different and you are all doing amazing

@caitlincosson521 8 месяцев назад

I have just dontated. You were all so open, honest, and vulnerable, and that won't have been easy. Sending love ❤

@nylarehman8445 8 месяцев назад

Absolutely heart wrenching I’m so sorry for your loss May god bless your family and give you strength in this hard time ❤️

@katebaker7828 2 года назад

The love you have for your sister is so beautiful. I’m so incredibly sorry for your families loss. You’re all strong, but your mum’s strength is amazing xx

@amyagresta8315 2 года назад

This was lovely you are all so strong and I’m so sorry for your loss

@xxxxxcjm Год назад

Followed you on TikTok for a long time and finally watched some of your videos on here. This video is so powerful. You are all so brave x

@vodkadave69 Год назад

Wow,well done Jay and family for talking about an emotional subject. I hope you get looked after and get the peace you deserve 🙏🏼

@stephx7054 2 года назад

You are all so strong, my thoughts are with you all♥️ I hope speaking about it helps you to heal 💗

@MM-sq6my 2 года назад

What a great podcast, your mum's a warrior, God bless you all 🙏

@izzy2946 2 года назад

heartbreaking story, you guys are the strongest. so sorry for your loss❤️❤️❤️❤️

@lucyhulley5801 Год назад

i’m so sorry to your whole family 🙏🏼 this has hit me more than i thought it would and i’m so sorry she got let down by so many people 🤦🏽‍♀️ i hope her little girl is doing okay 🤞🏽

@abbiebennett7526 2 года назад

This was so sad to watch, you are such a strong family and jess would be so proud of you all💛💛💛fly high jess x

@aforavabyava-jane6417 2 года назад

From someone who was abused by my daughters dad for years, who’s also in a debt relief order cause of him, thank you for doing this! Thank you for telling the world something so hard, and letting everyone know how difficult it would have been to have a baby while in that situation! I managed to get away from him, and we’ve been free since my daughter turned 2, and she’s nearly 6 now! But it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done! I’m so sorry you lost your sister, but she sounds like she was one of the strongest women on earth ❤️

@paulahogsden9916 2 года назад

💕💕❤️❤️

@Jess_387 2 года назад

Thank you and your beautiful family for sharing this with us, there are no words to even describe how much this means to not feel so alone with having no justice, and experience with the social services. In a few days, it will have been a year since I lost my close friend and her son to domestic violence (we're both stabbed to death). This has honestly been the toughest year of my entire life going through something like this, and this podcast has honestly really helped to let out those same emotions you guys are feeling, and realising it is OK to greive and be sad. I truly send lots of love to you and your family, and thank you again for being so honest.

@jayportergaming 2 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss 💙💙💜💜

@anishajaved7849 Год назад

Such a tragic and real life story, it’s really sad that people are going through life in such a hard way I pray for everyone who is having a hard life at the moment and pray they seek help and manage to get through it. Thank you for sharing your personal time and sorry for all of your loss 💔

@stephkirkman972 2 месяца назад

I've just watched this and it's so heartbreaking. I am so sorry to you and your family that you went through this and that a young, vulnerable woman was a target of horrible people and lost her life to this. It is horrific they haven't looked into it more and people haven't been prosecuted. People are shocking. I hope you are all now able to grieve. This was a very touching podcast. It is lovely to see you all together talking about this. Thank you for sharing this. I am sending lots of love and hugs to you all xx

@annazrelli4954 2 месяца назад

Thank you so much for doing this video. It helps so, so many people. Poppy and Jay are a remarkable couple and loved by a nation 🤩

@jomorley2489 2 года назад

Such an emotional watch 😢, love to u all

@charismuirhead1895 Год назад

I just want to give you all a hug. You have so much strength and I can’t imagine how you must be feeling. I hope you can all grieve and always remember that she will forever be watching over you and protecting you all ❤xx

@rosietalbot9650 2 года назад

You are all stronger than you know. Rest in Peace Jessica 💛

@jamesshelley6478 Год назад

So sorry about your entire families loss. Your sister sounded like an amazing girl but needed help. The world failed her bless her, you all good yourselves amazingly ❤️

@ellaox 2 года назад

This was lovely but so emotional, social services , police etc really need to take this more seriously it made me angry hearing how the council and police treated your family i don’t blame your poor mum. She’s so strong you all are , sending you all love thank you for speaking about it & raising awareness 💗

@paigelea499 2 года назад

Sending you all so much love❤️

@meganmarriott6512 2 года назад

So sorry for your loss what a beautiful women Jess was sending so much love to you all xxx

@gerrijaques2496 2 года назад

Must of been so hard to record this. Heart goes out to you all… But I have to say - Rosa stealing the fruit from the glass has had me in stitches 🙈😂

@rebeccapike3995 2 года назад

I think you all should be so proud of yourself, telling her story so others can be aware, she will be looking down on you all with pride and proudness, and your mum for fighting the way she did to keep molly, she is one of a kind! This made me cry and not many things do, people grieve in different ways. Never fill or be made to fill it was your thought, as it wasn’t..!! 💗💗

@lucys5231 2 года назад

I have been looking forward to this one I can't wait for the one with the coles xx

@paulmatthews3626 2 года назад

A very heartwarming vlog guys

@sarahplumb4459 2 года назад

I follow you guys on Tick tock and your so brave to talk about your sister you would have raised loads of awareness by doing this I’m thinking of you all x

@hollypitt7899 2 года назад

I love this !

@laurawilson4077 2 года назад

Sobbed my heart out all the way threw 🥹 your mum is an inspiration wow and one strong strong women ❤️ so sorry yous all had to go threw this 💔 Absokute love you all yous are amazing keep shining 🥰❤️

@hannahprentice1584 2 года назад

I love you all. I’m so sorry this happened to such a beautiful soul 🤍

@Harriet-tc8ly 2 года назад

I have seen your tiktok live about Jess’s sorry and always wanted to rewatch it. The whole thing is absolutely heartbreaking. Sending lots of love to all of you! Your mom is unbelievably strong & this will have helped so many others without you realising 🤍

@TB-md1uj 2 года назад

Absolutely amazing family and I’m so sorry for your loss. As someone who works for the ambulance service and the police both operationally, a lot can be learnt from this. Sending love x

@paulahogsden9916 2 года назад

Thank you I’ve now got a petition to change the way closure orders are enforced. Proper support for the victims. Perpetrators need to be arrested and charged for ignoring a closure order. I’ve put a link up .

@TB-md1uj 2 года назад

@@paulahogsden9916 absolutely agreed

@eliza-dp4nq 2 года назад

Even if she was a ‘junkie’ the police had no right to treat her with any less respect or care. They of all people should know the multifaceted problem that drug addiction is and the factors such as trauma and lack of help from the authorities, all that lead up to a horrific event like this. RIP Jess ❤️

@courtneyjones2174 2 года назад

Social services are and will always be absolutely useless. Having social services in my entire childhood up until I was 19. My family struggled with things like this and there was never any help given. I totally agree new laws need to be put in place and more funding needs to be used for things that are actually important.

@nollaigdrohan81 Год назад

God this is so heartbreaking. You are all so strong 🤍

@elliewaters2951 2 года назад

Heartbreaking , sorry for your loss x

@edwardfarmery9749 Год назад

Absolutely heartbreaking ❤️❤️ such a strong family ❤️❤️

@merc1009 2 года назад

I just wanna say how sorry I am for your loss , she seems like she was an angel on earth and I strongly believe hell is on earth and she was to good for this world 😒❤️ stick together never lose your close bond keep her name alive well done for doing this your helping so many people and reminding people they are not alone love to you all ❤️❤️

@xoGullysMumox 2 года назад

Oh your mum :"( bless her heart I can't even imagine the heart ache xxx

@laurenroe1938 2 года назад

Ive sobbed all the way through 😭 felt your pain and can relate so much, we lost my sister 13 years ago to cancer 😭 no parents should have to lose a child, I couldn't go on if I was to loose one of mine 😔😔 hope your mum can heal and grieve properly soon xxxxx

@jayportergaming 2 года назад

💜💜

@sarahandley9648 2 года назад

Paula!what a strong incredible lady you are! My heart goes out to you and your family. Molly has such a great role model to look up to ur wonderful, she will grow to be a powerful young lady 💪 Jess will always be with you watching over you , jay and molly 💛 keep going darling your stronger than you know

@Hollie789 2 года назад

This is so so sad. A failure in the justice system once again. I cried the whole way through this and I wish you all the strength you need ❤️ , this is heartbreaking! Well done to you all for this raw video and saying it how it is you are all so so brave. Also well done to Paula you are phenomenal for giving up your life for your granddaughter. She'd be so proud of you, good on you honestly fair play! Im so sorry for your loss. Justice for Jess 💛💛xx

@rachelriley6632 2 года назад

Sending your mum and you all Jay Big hugs.. Its awful how the system haven't supported you all.. It also hit for me when you said it hits you hard and became real when you realised mollie was at home and you had to tell her. 💔 Telling my 9yr old daughter her daddy passes in October was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.. Her scream haunts me 😢 Sending all my love to mollie your mum and you all Jay, big hugs xx

@craigbrown6117 7 месяцев назад

I feel your mum's pain my partner suddenly passed away in 2020 and to this day I'd say I'm still grieving stay strong guys x

@shayjames5487 8 месяцев назад

So so sorry for your loss, you can see the raw emotions and anger towards the law they fail us sometimes and that is shit! Molly is lucky to have a family like yours especially your mum who has fought for her! ❤❤❤ mental health is no joke. Rest in peace Jess. I hope you have found your happy place ❤

@kellyannmarley4451 9 месяцев назад

This abs broke me😢 such a strong loving family! Use are all so lucky to have eachother and grieve together she would be so proud of use all, always going to be a beautiful angel looking over yous❤😇

@glitterprincess533 Год назад

I'm very sorry you all went through this. Its terrible it had to come to jess dying for them to do s bit more. But the treatment was unfair and they should of cared and be there and support her and make the boys have an order for do what they were do. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ 🙏