The Honesty Diaries : Finally Fighting Back 

"Mental illness doesn't choose its victims based on how worthy or not they are to feel sad" is something so brilliant I had to come back to it after the video. Found this video relatable, soothing, uplifting.❤

THIS is the kind of brave, real content I wish more RU-vidrs would make ❤ thank you for putting this out there Gabbie!

Thank you for posting this. A lot of us have trouble even getting out of bed every day, and it's helpful to see you pushing through.

Loved this so much! I’ve had depression and anxiety for 10 years, I’m 28 now. I resonated with everything you said, thank you making me feel less alone 💗

This is absolutely by far no shadow of a doubt the BEST video of all your RU-vid career, the honesty is well appreciated and so much needed in the current times, well done gab x

I’ve always been a silent watcher and watched since the velvet ghost days when you still lived in Sheffield. But I just wanted to say thank you for this! I’m really struggling with my anxiety and depression at the moment but I finally plucked up the courage to contact my doctor last week and my medication has changed and this week I planned to just go to work and then stay in bed the rest of the time, but this has encouraged me to push myself and not just let the depression get me. So thank you so much for this! Keep your head high and know you aren’t alone! It’s so lovely to see things finally coming together for you 🤍

Gabby I literally cannot tell you how much I relate to you. I’ve also had a gastric sleeve + loose skin removal + other accompanying surgeries. I’m 25 rn and the last year was the worst of my life, after struggling with depressive tendencies from my early teens that reached a peak last year. I took a hiatus from work, and was honestly at the lowest of the low. I am still going through it now, in therapy once a week and everyday is a struggle. Thank you so much for this video, I am also in Brighton and have always hoped to meet you. Sending lots of love to you, from someone who seriously knows how you feel 💚

Didn't think I could enjoy your channel more, but THANK YOU for making this video! Your honesty is so brave and so appreciated 🙏 Sending you lots of love ❤ x

I don’t usually comment but I appreciate you sharing this. I like how you put it together and found it very relatable ❤

This is such a powerful video Gabbie I’ve watched you for years and have found your journey such a comfort ❤ I did the washing up while watching your video and feel a lot better! You deserve nothing but joy and good things in life and you have a lot of love and support behind you, this video will help so many people xx

Gabby this video really helped me. I’ve been having a rough time at work this academic year (I work in education) and I truly resonate with everything you’ve said here. You’ve got this! Keep your head high girlie, you’re brilliant💕

Gabby, I’ve been watching you since you started quite literally. I know no matter what anyone says, depression knows no bounds. I struggle with this myself and people like you who have always uplifted my mood when I’m lonely & playing videos like this when I’m cleaning are what get me through. They motivate me to get up and do something even the tiniest of impossible task. You’re doing an amazing job, life is hard no matter what opportunities and blessings we have. I hope making videos & chatting about your journey through this will help in the future ❤

Ive been going through depression and anxiety since i was 13, im 27 now and the past few weeks I've been just struggling so bad and it's been so helpful and comforting to watch this video. I didn't realise how much it would affect me until the clip with you talking to cam made me cry because it was so relatable. And I'm just so grateful that you spoke about this and shown this really vulnerable side. Just honestly thank you gabby 💕

Thank you so much for this video! I’ve been a silent watcher for many years and never commented, but I loved this video, both the content and the way you put it together. Such an important topic and I loved your perspective on it 🥰 Re: singing, just wanted to say you have SUCH a beautiful voice, and a few weeks ago I literally searched for an old singing video of yours because I remembered how stunning your singing is when I was watching another one of your videos. You can do it! 🥰

Gabby I can relate to you so much! You are not alone, I completely get where you are coming from, I am someone who has always been terrified of therapy!! 💕 but I started my first session two weeks ago and it helped me so much so this is just the start of my journey too, I am wishing you all the best with your journey and hope you come out of it a lot stronger!! ❤️ xx

Thank you for being so honest and brave. Truly inspiring. I’m currently battling post natal depression, anxiety and PTSD and your video is making me want to clean the tip that is my home and mind. Thank you x

Thank you for making this kind of content! I also suffer with anxiety and depression and a lot of the time there's nothing particularly wrong with my life. I feel like I don't really allow myself to get help and do the things that make me happy because my mental illnesses are more 'functional' so to everyone else I don't appear to be doing that bad and I have so many things to be grateful for. You've inspired me to do more to fight my issues. We can do this 😄

Just when I thought I couldn't relate more to you. You were one of the first youtubers I started watching back when I was 14. I am now 23, almost a decade of following your life and watching you grow. I also had my first depressive episode when I was 14, and I just realised this recently. It never made sense for me to struggle with depression, because I too have my dream life and am extremely blessed. Watching this video made me tear up. Thank you for speaking out, for growing into such a beautiful person helping countless people online. I am obsessed with watching you fight depression back, helping me do the same. Sending so much love (& serotonin) ❤

I just wanna say that i'm so proud of you and your honesty! i have been here since the early days of your youtube career, and i've seen your ups and downs (the ones you wanted to share). thank you for being brutally honest about your depression and the guilt that comes with it, not only the guilt we feel when canceling plans and how we affect our loved ones - but the guilt of feeling ungrateful for our "privileges" of having a somewhat good life but still feel this way. i really enjoyed watching this, thank you 🫶

thank you gabbie for the upload!! i may of cried a couple of times bc you explained how i feel daily too. you're so inspiring and i've been wanting to find a real video like this with showing how difficult it is for people living with depression and you smashed it. thank you for not making me feel alone and showing me that i can also do it too 💓💓

Gabs this video is so bloody honest, can’t thankyou enough for showing what it’s actually like to have certain thought processes. ALSO OMG your voice is beautiful xxxx

Gabby, this video had me in tears. Your honestly and vulnerability is what sets you apart from every other RU-vidr I watch. I always find myself watching your videos when I’m struggling because you show life in a real way. So thank you, if all of your past could only be seen how I see you, as an amazing person with a kind heart and a vibrant soul! ❤ xx

Thank you for being so vulnerable and share this with us, theres so many people who are affected by mental health and its so important to talk about it so you don't feel like you're alone and you are definitely not alone Gabi ❤not being able to explain why you feel a certain way is definitely one if the hardest things, especially for people who have never been affected by mental health it's a feeling you just can't put into words ❤️ you're doing amazing

Thank you for this video 💜 I've been dealing with my depression lately too and have been putting things off especially around the house. When you said cleaning the kitchen helped, I decided to pause the video and go clean my kitchen, which had started to get dishes piled up, and it definitely helped and made me feel a little better. Sometimes you forget that you can do everything a little at a time and it can help💜

This video has really helped me. Thank you for sharing your struggles. It’s so tough, I feel like mental health as a subject is constantly undermined and disregarded. But it is up to us all, as humans to make sure it is talked about and this is a perfect example of it. Thank you Gabby ❤

Thank you for posting such a raw, open honest video and for being so brave💕 I relate to ‘why am I sad when I have so much to be happy about’ mental illness truly does not pick & choose- This has massively inspired me to start fighting back too💕

This is going to help so many people, we often think we’re alone in our depression and anxiety. It’s good to know other people understand and relate ❤

I love the way you filmed this, it so so different and real, I teared up when you started talking about your mum and how it is a dream that she only wants what's best for you. You and Jane are so close, and it really shows! I have struggled with depression and severe anxiety for over a decade, and this past year has been especially tough. This video was exactly what I needed to start getting back on my feet and set some more realistic goals for myself! I would love to see more videos like this from you, I have been a viewer since you first moved out of your mum's and it is so refreshing to see another side of you. I feel like you are my friend

Thank you so much for this video. You make so genuine and honest content. And you're doing so good! Depression is so so hard to live with. I had a hot long shower and did my skincare (I rarely do my skincare, it's one of those big "depression obstacles" for me) today, right before I watched this video, and started smiling when you talked about how much it can help. I instantly feel better after a shower, it's just so hard to get in. I really hope this turn into a series, but of course I would rather see you depressionfree. Lots of love

This totally resonates with me. I often think I should feel happy, but just feeling burnt out, exhausted, and down. Something which gives me a good boost, is the martial arts classes I attend, and the rewarding feeling from helping integrate some of the shy, shut down little kids - my speciality! Well done for pushing through xx

Absolutely loved this video. The topics, the honesty, the homey chill vibe the way this was filmed and cut. Even though its a tough topic and I am struggling myself - this video made me feel so relaxed and calm. Would love to see more videos like this!

Thank you so much for sharing your journey, Gabby. Your honesty and vulnerability make your content incredibly relatable. It's comforting to know that even someone I've admired for years faces similar struggles. Your authenticity creates a real sense of community, and it feels like we're all navigating this together. Remember, you're not alone, and your openness is helping so many others, myself included. Sending love and strength to you and everyone in this amazing community. 💙

I relate to this so so much. It was so helpful so see someone also “have it all” and be so grateful yet struggle with their mental health. I have been experiencing the same feelings and it makes me feel guilty for feeling the way I do and like I just need to fake happiness because I “have nothing to be upset about”. This video just shows that the little achievements and small wins when you’re struggling really add up ❤️ I’ll be watching this multiple times especially when I need to know I’m not alone!

I’m so proud of you ❤ I have so much more that I want to say but I can’t find the words and honestly you remind me so much of myself that it would feel like I’m projecting. I admire your strength and resilience so much, I always have. Something I’ve learned from a lifetime of depression and anxiety is that its always cyclical - things will be bad until they aren’t and then things will be good until its time for them to be bad again. Knowing that my next period of feeling at peace in on the other side of whatever depression hole I’m in always helps me to push through. Things will get better because they have to. I hope that this rough period doesn’t last much longer for you. I have faith that your willingness to be vulnerable and push through the discomfort of doing things that you know are good for you even when everything in you tells you to stop will help bring the brighter days back to you soon. Thank you for sharing, I’m sending you so much love ❤

You are such an inspiration, I resonated so much with so much of what you said! You are incredible💕

The regret of feeling like you haven't reached your own potential is so difficult to deal with, but I truly believe you are reaching new heights professionally and most importantly mentally right now, because you are allowing yourself to be 100% you in the way that you are right now. That self-nurture in moments of sadness and doubt will help you (and everyone watching including me!) stay true to yourself in the long run. Thank you for being so vulnerable, it really helps me be honest with myself too 💌

Thank you so much for being real and vulnerable, you have no idea how much speaking out about this helps❤️ you should be so proud of yourself x

This is exactly what I needed to watch. I've never struggled with depression but since having my two wonderful children (twins) I suffered quite severely with post natal depression. This video has just given me that little bit of lift....if I get a little bit of a lift I take that as a win. Thank you for making my day brighter. I love your vlogs but this hit home and I not only loved it I appreciated the time and effort this must have taken. You're a beautiful soul. X

This was so refreshing to watch. I myself have suffered with my mental health since I was a teenager so I know just how bad it can feel. I would love a series of this 💗

Gabriella thank you for being so raw and honest ❤ this video has really helped me as my anxiety has been awful recently but I know I will get through this, I keep telling myself at the moment I am surviving but in the future I will be thriving 💗 sending love 💕

I loved this video so much ❤ I am struggling in life right now after getting out of a long-term bad relationship that changed me and made me kind of forget who I am, and eventhough I do also have things to be grateful for in life, it's tough right now. This video really motivated me to let go of the past and at least try to take baby steps to move forward and improve my life to feel happier. Sending so much love to you and thank you for this video 🫶🏽🥹

This video was absolutely incredible. Thank you for posting x

I’m blown away by this video, the editing, the message & honesty. This is incredible 💖

You are so strong Gab truly this takes so much resilience and courage (and intelligence!!) You’ve got our support and love behind you. Lots of love 💖💖

I love how raw this is, I feel this so much as I have so many periods of time where I have imposter syndrome and my depression and anxiety. So thank you for making this 🤍

It’s so true when you feel sad for no reason and it’s incredibly frustrating when you don’t know what’s wrong. Thank you for sharing, it always good to know that I and others aren’t alone when we have these feelings

This is such a powerful video Gabby, thankyou💗 I have really been struggling with my anxiety and depression recently. I relate to how you have been feeling alot. This has helped more than you know, thankyou💛

Me & my mum watched this today and we were blown away by it, so beautifully edited and could feel the frustration of that beautiful voice waiting to be unleashed but its like the anxiety has put chains around it, one day ill be buying a theatre ticket to see you i know it!❤

You’re incredible and have always been a favourite to watch. I have suffered with anxiety for 12 years and I’m only now just starting to live. You’re amazing and keep going! Your worth everything and more ❤❤❤

I needed this video today. Just spent the whole weekend isolating myself and cancelling all my plans. Relate so much ❤️

What a breath of fresh air this was ❤thank you for being so vulnerable and speaking about this. Currently going through my own rough patch and i definitely do isolate myself, without even realising it. Always makes me feel better to spend more time with my family

Your honesty and vulnerability in this video is incredible. I explained to someone once that my depression doesn’t understand logic-I *know* my friends don’t hate me and I’m not alone and things can be better but my brain just refuses to believe it. It’s a disconnect that is so difficult to describe and experience. Your clip talking about being lonely and not knowing when you’ll see Cam again is so relatable too. I find it so much easier to pull myself through tough times mentally when I have something to look forward to, whether it’s a trip, an event, a holiday, or seeing a friend, it’s so much easier to convince myself to keep pushing through to get to that thing. Anyway, sending you lots of love and gratitude for sharing your experience ❤

I’m so proud of you and I’m sure so are many other people, for fighting back. And tackling one thing at a time is such a great idea. And it’s okay to still have down moments. In regards to you getting lessons, I currently have stage fright with my singing and you getting lessons made me think maybe I should because I haven’t sung in awhile.

I'm going through a rough patch as well. I can understand you so much. I know what it feels like to be anxious, to only lay in bed, having your notifs off, not wanting to know about the world or let the world know about you thinking that the only safe space is your bedroom and bed. I've been following you since you first launched your fruity phone case and used your Bourjois Healthy Serum Foundation and you have been the only creator that I have kept up with. I cannot thank you enough for this video! If you ever decide to take this community into the next step I will keep supporting you. Lots of love Gabi!

Loved the video ❤ thanks for the honesty x

Ah please make this a series! X

Really enjoyed this video, Gabbie - the honesty, and 'realness', and the focus on your passion and goals... Well done for taking the time and stepping out of your comfort zone, you've done amazing!

This video was a breath of fresh air! I'm in a really good place now but last year was really low. It's so important to talk about this.

Gabby you are so articulate, any subject you talk about makes me want to listen! I've just cleaned and sorted my kitchen with your encouragement, only 5 rooms to go. ❤

I absolutely LOVED this video. Please make it a series! 🧡

Oh I needed this thank you for sharing 🤍

Loved this so much! Honestly such a great video - I myself struggle with mental health so this was such a helpful video for me! X

One of the best videos on YT. This is content which is so blinking important and especially now. In the world we live in where other people's lives are what we hope or want to be like, it's important to know even though on the outside your life looks incredible but you are still a human and can still struggle. Thank you ❤️❤️❤️

I used to follow you back in the velvetghost days, and coming back to this video felt like seeing an old friend. One thing about you is that you somehow manage to perfectly convey your feelings in a way that really resonates with me - I struggle too with anxiety and depression so I know how difficult it is to push yourself through it and not cancel the things you’re worried about. You’re doing great, being open and honest is the best way to tackle it, in my opinion. Glad to be back ❤️

This was such a refreshing video and thank you for being so vulnerable. ❤

I loved this video! I'm currently struggling with post natal depression, a lot of what you said really resonated with me 💗

100% relate to this at 26. At 24, I was ready to start truly doing the things I dreamed of, but then things went upside down. I was already feeling behind in life and also my own life, not just expectations, so trying to start again and keep going has been a massive struggle. Balancing taking a break vs. achieving goals. Seeing the late 20s and 30 somethings on youtube starting new stages now has given me so much hope. The honesty of people's journeys is invaluable. I am so grateful. Now at 26 I am getting to a place where I can see that life is still possible, it's not too late and I can be happy! It's going to be a new journey, but one nonetheless❤

I’ve always appreciated how real you keep it. It’s brave to share your journey online. It’s definitely what I needed right now as well. Feeling very lost rn ✌🏻 Take care x

This was a very brave video to make. I remember once a close family member said to me ‘why are you depressed you’ve got nothing to be depressed about’ and in that moment I shut myself away from everyone and never spoke about it, which in turn made my mental health the worst it ever was. You’ve got this 💪🏼 xxx

Thank you so much for being so vulnerable and honest 💜

Gabby, you are a true inspiration! This video is SO brave and it’s really helped me as an anxiety and depression sufferer..I resonated with everything you said, so thank you for this video. You’ve helped me and many others feel less alone with this and please know you’re not alone either! Sending lots of love ❤xx

Definitely make this a series!💚 loved it

So good too see you back and this different style of video. Its good to show the other sides of life, feels like a support network for one another. To try and help one another

Thank you for sharing this video. it's made me feel i'm not alone in the depression battle. This video has really helped xx

I’ve had a really hard week… so this video has helped me. Thank you. I have a plan now thanks to you. Keep on keeping on ❤

thank you for this, i am so glad this came on my page after years of not watching your genre of content. it helped me get off my ass. the right video at the right time ❤

This was such a nice video!! ❤

Ah Gabbie I love this real content from you, it's so reassuring and I'm sure will help many people struggling right now. I've been a subscriber for nearly ten years (wth!) but it's so good to see you singing again! Hopefully lessons builds up your confidence ❤ lots of love x

Gabbie - Thank you so much for making this video, I know it will help so many. I’ve watched you since you started here on RU-vid and I am honestly inspired by your growth. I wish nothing more than happiness to find its way to you and stay in your life always. Lots of love 💗💗💗

I can’t tell you how much I needed this video today, I’ve been subscribed to you literally since you started. I feel like I’ve grown up with you, and now I feel like I’m on a new journey with you ❤

ow gabbie, this video spoke to me so much. i was getting a bit teary eyed watching because i've been struggling with depression for years aswell now and am also in a long distance relationship. i was relating to your feelings so much. sending you all the strength on this journey of getting better and being kind to yourself. we will get there eventually! thank you so much for being open and honest and sharing these moments with us ❤

Hit the nail on the head You've been an inspiration for years hun.you are more than enough.thank you for this video ao many people needed this from you and appreciate it. Well done for sharing such a difficult subject big hugs

Honestly thank you SO much for this video. I've been struggling so much lately x

This has been the most inspirational, refreshing video I have seen on RU-vid in a very long time 🩷 I really hope there’s lots more to come in this series, not only for the benefits of your own mental health but for all of the people you’re unknowingly inspiring to fight back 🩷 I’ve been watching you for years, back in the day I owned every single thing from your primark collections, and I just wanted to say I have NEVER been more proud of you, keep going you beautiful soul 🩷

This was a very good and helpfull video. This would be a good series for other people and yourself. Stay strong girl! I know what your going through

This is an absolutely beautiful style of video. I'm sending you a big hug for the bravery it has taken you to film this and put it online! A massive pat on your own back girlfriend!!! Well fucking done !! 🧡

As someone who’s fortunate to never of massively struggled with my mental health Ive always found it hard to admit when I’m a bit down or struggling a little. Recently I’ve been in a slump but this morning had a clean the flat dance party and messaged a friend (we’ve decided to share our small wins and celebrate them) This video came at the end of a good day and makes me think tomorrow might just be a good one too! Loved it💕

I loved watching this video ! I loved watching you evolve through the years, you can be proud ♡

I don’t normally comment but this was just a truly amazing video! You should be so proud of yourself for battling through and seeing things that will help but also sharing it here as well! You will have helped others without a doubt! ❤

This video has been lush; i would love for this to be a series. Super proud of you 🫶🏻✨🐚

This was a really REALLY good video. In telling of the steps you are taking to help yourself, those steps I took as advice for me. My gosh I needed this. Thank you! Thank you for sharing because it gave me some new perspective on things to try to help with my depression. Keep up the good work! Btw, I love your voice and hope we get to hear more of your beautiful singing!

Thank you so much for sharing❤ I really resonated with having so much to be grateful for but still struggle with mental health. Being vulnerable can be hard and scary, thank you for showing this side of your story.

amazing video, thanks so much for sharing Gabbie ❤

I am tearful as I relate so much, I have so much to be grateful and thankful for but my mental health destroys me and I struggle so much (especially with the circumstances we are dealing with now, myself, my husband and 2 kids). I'm literally crying at the screen, needed to hear some of this so much and as the viewer said below ''mental illness doesn't choose it's victims on how worthy or not they are to feel sad'' that's something I will be keeping in mind. (by that I mean writing in my journal as a reminder) I look up to you so much and have been following you for years. You're an amazing person and deserve so much. I hope things get easier or are at least manageable for you on your bad days.

I appreciate these kinds of videos so much. People as you are making a difference in the world. ❤

Really good video. It’s horrible to see you gojng through a dark time with depression but honestly well done for fighting it and also for sharing your journey too! Missed hearing you sing ❤️ you are looking amazing right now! X

currently relapsing into a depressive episode too, (which tooke me a while to accept) and this video is making me feel so seen, and understood, it's also very helpgul, thanks Gabbie ♡

I’ve watched you for years and love your content. I met you very briefly at the airport once when you were travelling home with your mum, you were both lovely btw. Shoutout to Jane!! I now fly as cabin crew, my dream job and despite loving what I do and having what could be said is a “good life” I have had mental health struggles since my childhood. I’m currently in therapy and getting a better understanding of it all. What bugs me is when I speak to others about how I’m feeling I’m often met with “oh but you’ve got your dream job you SHOULD be happy” and yes I’m happy that I’m doing what I love, it’s fantastic, I’m very lucky but I’ve worked hard to get where I am both professionally and personally. It’s not perfect but I’m not striving for perfect anymore. It needs to be sustainable within myself and I feel no shame in taking a day for myself when I need to. It’s cliche but you would rest a broken ankle so why don’t we rest our minds when they break? Like yourself I’ve been pushing myself to stop shying away from certain situations. I’m still giving myself the grace that it’s okay not to be in situations that negatively impact my wellbeing. Being around certain family members and a handful of others does affect me so that’s my right to back away! Thank you for being so real and I wish you the very best with all you do! 🙌🏼

I think when you have depression for so long you grieve for all the things you lost along the way. I constantly grieve for who I was before and all the opportunities I didn’t take. Your video was so relatable in a heartbreaking way! I’m so happy to see you fight back.

I woke up in a funk this morning (anxiety due to stomach condition) and honestly the shower tip and cleaning tip helped so much. Went on a walk, cleaned up my emails and phone and ended up having the best Tuesday. Thank you for this, you're such a lovely soul xx