The only true freedom is the end of me and my life ||  

Speaking only for this person/ Letting go of the illusion of control does feel like an end to everything. Nothing to attach to. Or identify with. But a sense of universal love and acute awareness of suffering.

Hopefully we can all chill and life will unfold without any hindrances

I like how the wind is unseen but still exists its like how life unfolds without anyone controlling it. The graveyard is a reminder that everything is temporary and passes quickly. Thanks Suzanne.

I love you. I wish I could give you a hug. This happened to me in 2019. Isn’t it awesome becoming free? You freed your mind and now your living a different way of life in a different realm of reality

As always, thank you Suzanne. Sending you love and warmth. ❤️

Can't lose anything, nothing was ours to begin with❤

Thank you Suzanne

Please don't kill yourself babe you're so precious 🥲

Dear Suzanne. I love to hear from intelligent people like you. I feel sort of at home, understood. Thank you very much for your work and insight 🤓🥰

Thank you Suzanne, whatever words are spoken a great relaxation of the body happens hearing them ❤

your "non-message" is very profound, dear suzanne, and here ist great gratitude for it! you have a special gift for expressing the unexpressible! warm greetings from germany where the weather is pretty chilly, too!

Thank you for your work in philosophy. It is work. We don't think of it that way, but it is. It is a dialog, but also work. My only addition to the conversation/dialog is something Alan Watts said, which is [Use your spiritual canoe to cross the river, but don't carry it with you."] Dance, throw paint on a canvass, wash the dishes, sweep the floor-- that's the canoe left at the river's edge. Freedom is the dance, not the end. Much love for your work.

You (whatever that means) are so good at this! Thanks for being a wonderful reflection dear Suzanne.-

A Beautiful and Wise Soul. Thanks for sharing. 😀

I was struggling yesterday during breathing, I have a back injury. Sometimes, when I asusume the posture there is discomfort. I do not observe the numbness and discomfort, I am along with the discomfort. The birds and rustling foliage are always filling a bottomless container that returns that energy to the universal center with both the inhale and exhale. The universal center is the center of the body. This is the same pattern as things to scale. The center of all of what is observable is the same as my own center. Constant change is what is unchanging. No separation, just definition. This is the nature of ki. I think you are brilliant Suzanne.🥰

We are losing everything, really everything, I don't know if anyone is noticing. This is the apocalypse, a slow apocalypse. It's the frog slowly boiled but without turning back. One thing is to "forcefully" lose the attachments, another thing is to transcend them with your will. What is happening is a losing, a losing in the life of the whole humankind. Nothing is ok, not everything. It's not ok to "lose care" for things... We are losing ourselves... My only hope is to die in peace because this is not life anymore for me..

Ive been leaning towards buddhist philosophies alot lately. It sounds like ego death, the old you has died and you kind of don't really know what to do next, but tough times don't last. I believe that after ego death there just comes temporary apathy. Existentialism too, perhaps. At least, I hope 😅. I truly believe that whatever the true nature of the divine is that it/they have my back and that things will go full circle for me. Wish you well

We have a physical life, a body and a mind, for a purpose. Just enjoy life, we all have desires, goals and wishes, we want to manifest, that is why we are here.......! Just manifest from the soul but do not identify with the desires and wishes, they are just ideas and you can not claim the outcome either, just dare to experience, surrender to the soul and accept the outcome and adjust, be creative too. When we leave the body we will start a new adventure, boundless and aware, the infinite reality. I find a lot of people confused, just accept that this episode is a reality now, our physical Life with a body and mind which need full attention instead of spacing out floating around and telling our selves "it's just all an illusion" , the fact is that it is and it is not....some people can't get used to this dichotomy and get lost.

I just feel very in fear rn as I'm losing everything that my mind grasped onto making whatever this is feel solid and concrete and it's so terrifying. I feel like I maybe in the last stages of whatever this is but honestly I don't know.

It can be dangrous when misunderstood. At first. Its as if with this, without guidance... you are walking a tight rope and on both sides is danger. Danger of falling deeper into the illusion , danger of misunderstanding. Having said that once the cat is out of the box there is no going back.. Theres a transformation. But like you said it changes nothing and at the same time everything. Its a mind fuk lol. But its beautiful. I wish i could talk to you. This is lonley and hard alone. Only a few people on youtube that have truley seen who they are what they are. Im working on strengthening the vibration of me. awareness so that the monkey mind cant keep bringing itself into fear and anxiety. It almost like i havent fully let go. Im holding on to something. Ive seen my true self but im in two worlds. Medical problems keep fear in my mind but at the same time I know im going to ok because im immortal... Eternal... I need to let go. I love you sooo much. This is very well said You are amasing thank and you for your words you are very appreateated.

I feel this so much. it almost feels like controlled nihilism, but not quite

oh my, I was freezing just watching you. Hope you went straight home and had a good cup of hot tea. Thank you for your videos, I like it very much how you put everything into words. 🙏❤️

How beautiful ❤️☺️

You are the embodiment of a relative perspective of objective reality (over time) (through experience) subjective awareness is created.

Thank you, Suzanne, for another helpful video. You're right: hardly no one talks about this, sadly, but you are ! Love it, love you!

Thank you Suzanne, it makes me glad that you like to talk about awareness and existence that we find ourselves in. I like to talk too! Though talking removes you from the mystery of life, it does however set up an internal vibration that does not stop and will eventually become your own self evident realization. So talking does actually serve a purpose. All roads lead to the mysterious ocean of perception; the "dark sea of awareness". As you journey across you eventually arrive at the true Self, to Being, and Becoming. Which brings me to the title of your video. If you meant the end of your phantom-self, you are correct! As you probably know that there is only one true Self, the Self of Creator. when the One became the many, we all began as a little Piece of that true Self, a Spark of the Creator. So we do in fact have a Self! It's that part of us that never changes, which is the ultimate frame of reference for all that does change. Because the true Self is not a thing, and has no attributes, it cannot become an object of knowledge, which is the domain of the first attention, the mundane awareness of every day life. Spirit and we are non-conceptual Entity's, and we are a mystery unto ourselves, at this point. Well Suzanne, unfortunately this has to flow like a monologue because we are not present with each other, I just wanted to give you some things to take back to your laboratory to muse upon, as you have given me ideas to contemplate. Just one more thing. One of the natural effects of aligning with Spirit, is a non-patterning natural field of awareness. You go with the flow, concerned with unfolding awareness rather than cultivating a world view. Many blessings to you Suzanne... signing off, gently down the stream...

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There is nothing to be free from, the dream is your divine Will. You can't control your own Will; you ARE Will.

Sincere appreciation is here for this account - Tat tvam asi, Thank you

This weather reminds me of Seattle

❤️ Yes!

Another gem Suzanne- thank you ❣❣❣

What an extraordinary find! I haven't found anyone who talks about this. Teachers talk about many things, they bring up the 8 fold path, the 5 aggregates, the 4 noble truths, the hindrances etc, and these provide a wonderful roadmap for us to investigate , but this talk of what happens, what can happen with identity and a kind of breaking down of the self (which I feel acutely and has often been strange and disorienting). it is a relief to find you. Thank you, I will listen to other videos of yours. I suppose it was the right time for me to find this. :)🙏

This is so crazy and indescribable. I’ve only told two people a little bit and I could tell they were like wtf are you talking about and I didn’t care. Idk why I even told them. I have zero desire to try and describe this or tell anyone anymore.

Ok ❤

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the end cracked me up. 🤩 but when you said it's all ok, I realized I don't trust that. thanks for showing me.

Thank you suzanne nice expression? a deep real happening ? good presentation and nothing ( in the highest sense of that) i will remember this david

Want to mention that your talks have become part of a post-meditation, pre-sleep routine for me lately. It does seem to me that you've come to a similar place as to the aranhats (of therevada buddhism). I'm an astrologer btw... would be so interested in looking at your natal chart, what transits you were having when this was unfolding.

Interesting. Thank you! I can relate. I was just thinking the other day, "I deserve nothing and I deserve everything, and I sat in the middle of that...total nothingness. great video, thank you for sharing.

It's a struggle to articulate feelings and beliefs and I appreciate your efforts 🙏🏼 Many of these experiences precede language/word-thought and are challenging to 'talk about'. Energy Matter Particle Wave Past-present-future Time Samsara Feel your breath 🫁 Keep struggling 🤟🏼

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So appreciate these simple, honest talks about the dismantling process. Rings true on so many levels here. Inspiring in a comforting sort of way… 🙏😎🫥

The personisms dissolve, but there is no ONE there to care 😊🙏❤️

In 1998 when I was only 25 years old I was playing around with binaural beats and I created an experimental track. When I listened to it, it put me in an altered state and knocked me out for four hours. During those four hours I was in a different place and I wasn't in the dream. I was watching as a third party, no body. In the dream there was a utopia like society. A lot less people on the planet. But all of the people who were left were young and they didn't age. One was a skateboarder who skateboarded on the sky. And there was an asian woman who was very old, but young looking. She was like 250 years old. They celebrated her birthday one day, everyone loved her. She was like Mother to them. But she was bored. And in the dream she went into the closet and just "left". She didn't want to be alive anymore because she was bored. And I remember in the dream everyone was hurt because she left them. When I woke up I didn't know who I was for about ten minutes; I completely lost my identity and it was terrifying. But it came back soon after. All I can say is I remember that character and I was going to write a story with her in it. But she was wrong about her decision to leave because she didn't realize that she was there for everyone else. Her just being young and alive for so many years, giving wisdom to those who were newer than her, was her purpose. But she couldn't ride the bull. I'm just saying, at your level of spirituality, maybe you came back here to help others and you have to stay here. Just saying. It's not that long. Don't get bored please. (If I am off base forgive me, but if you are the woman in that dream I have to say this.) Don't leave. Finish the contract.

gratitude for sharing this & it variants, all in such a lucid way

"freedom" too never exists, no one to escape from, and nothing to abandon.

🍑💨📢🎶👃🏽💕 umm Suzanne keep warmth coming

You are the space in which identities arise - always! For god sakes we are here to embody love in our very biology! These old spiritual paradigms are outdated.

I love the aesthetic of chilling in a graveyard. I'm sure the dead wander after Enlightenment.

Thanks for your videos. I hope you didn't catch cold!

So clear.. thank you 🙏

I really enjoy you talks. Thanks! Jeff

I beg for God's forgiveness, for I am satan. In my Pride, I have imagined myself separate from God, and in so doing have created my own Hell. I pray for my sin to be undone, I pray for redemption, absolution, and the atonement. I was wrong to imagine myself special and apart from God. God help me. Amen.

What is s moving me these Days is, how to not be tricked into returning to prison planet, when crossing over to be aware I don't have to agree to anything or anyone,it's personal,,I am God 🙏 creating this reality and the next without any constraints

1:09 when “ the brain is no longer taking ownership of everything” then is nothing in control? Was the idea of individual control an illusion? Thank you Suzanne for these talks. 🙏🏽

Thank you for talking about the body

Thank you so much I do appreciate your speaking but please be warm, Love

I can relate to losing a certain form of persistence. I wish we could retain both of the powers of before and after at the same time.

Yes,it's biological. What you share reminds me of U.G. krishnamurti a lot.

There is no end there is only transition and to exit the current for the next is a complete waste of the entertainment WE made for ourselves. Go with the flow.

Cute thumbnail!

Identification with the created = death. Identification with the creator = life.

I literally just went through an exorcism. God bless.

It can be quite scary to the ego, at its core realizing it has no control. Especially in a dissolved state where the ego defenses are peeled and the only thing there is a fear of death. All of its fears and plans are to avoid life and death. So strange that it is programmed that way.

Stay warm

Yup, that's about it.

I have an interesting kind of random thought I would love to hear your throughts on: inner monologue/voice. Do you think that the ego is essentially the inner voice? I like stream of consciousness better. Not everyone has this, which to me is mind blowing because sometimes I hate that inner voice where certain thoughts seem to come completely out of nowhere it is frustrating. But just the fact that most humans have an inner voice is kind of strange when you really think about it…

"The seer and the object seen are like the rope and the snake. Just as the knowledge of the rope which is the substrate will not arise unless the false knowledge of the illusory serpent goes, so the realization of the Self which is the substrate will not be gained unless the belief that the world is real is removed." -Sri Ramana Maharshi

Very curious to know if empathy is reduced. Looking at your videos it doesn't seem to. You are doing a world of good through this channel. Deep gratitude. An answer would be much appreciated.

i know there are some things you mentioned resonate with me and some things don't resonate with me at tmies but that's not what i'm here to talk about i also to talk about that i do crushes falling in love on most people i find atractive that i think it's my type we have our own difference preference there are some i don't have a crush on at all that is not my type i know some have crushes and some don't have no crushes at all that's ok i want to be honest with you i also want to i have a crush on you too suzanne because i just think you are beautiful to me in my opinion i don't like the used these labels but i'm going to used it anyway to play around in this story i also know these labels are just a story too these labels don't actually exist i know i having a crush on some american, some indian, some spanish, some french, some asian people like korean, chineses and japanese people i usually have a thing you most asian people more because i think they look adorable to me don't get me wrong i do have a huge crushes on some indian, american, spanish, french people as well that i do find most i think that looks adorable to me that's just my opinion i also want to let you know that the only thing i do resonate what you just said on this video is that everything is free to be and express this body is so free to be the way it is because i also think that's the true freedom too not to care what other people think

Its ironic that your camera falls over @5:50 when you said it doesn’t matter what’s appearing 💜

Yah, the care about desired outcome of relationship is going away :)

innocent victims of circumstance and coincidence, be gentle with yourself.

I can not grabb an ideal in the solidify World when there îs a me,,,,,,only as a ilusion ,,,and when îs gone ,,,,i am fully prepare to accept ,,,,nothing,,,,!

Always pleasant to listen to your posts.Please wear a heavier coat in the future😉

They is nothing that can be reely lost, thé lost of me seem to be appaning when i tkink that they is somebody here reely. I love to speak about all that stuf, and that havé nothing to do wit a Me. They is just THAT , an this is completely, on speak able, but THAT speak. LIFE crazy, all those words have no begining and no end . 🙏🏼💙🤪🤪🤪🤪 sory for my inglish

We are riding on the infinite spiral of Consciousness. Constantly changing forms, yet the Eternal Witness remains. That is what everything & everyone has in common, some call it "Source" "God" "Awareness". From amoebas & bacteria to higher order organisms such as humans and beyond, it is this shared Consciousness which remains the true self. Consciousness + Object = Experience, where Consciousness is the observer, Object is the physical, mental & emotional perceptions. When Consciousness & Object interacts, Experience is created. Subtract either Consciousness or Object, and there is no Experience. We assume a rock has no experience because it is merely an object without Consciousness. Conversely, we experience pure Consciousness when we go into deep sleep. In deep sleep, there is no object, only Consciousness. Deep sleep is not the absence of Consciousness (which is what materialists believe), but rather the absence of objects. Consciousness remains. How do we know this? When we wake up, we have a recollection of dreams with intermittent periods of blankness. Something HAD to Experience/observe this blankness. That one doing the observing is our true nature, Eternal Consciousness.

I'm finding it hard to imagine how it would be if I'm not concerned and worried about my kids especially when they make bad decisions or are going through something. Is it possible to detach from your own children....?

So how does the illusion of self finally go? Is there a process that you guide or you can recommend? There's many years of awakening here already (20+) and the end of the self still hasn't shown itself at almost 70 years young.

I have to say, Suzanne, you were very cold in this one.

There is no I, so there is no loss. Just back to before we thought there was an I

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In reality, life is beyond the four possibilities. Not real. Not unreal. Not both real and unreal. Not neither real nor unreal. Not one. Not many. Not both one and many. Not neither one nor many. Not self. Not non-self. Not both self and non-self. Not neither self nor non-self. Any concepts we have about the basic nature of reality are incomplete, inaccurate, in fact block our direct experience of things as they really and prevent us from being truly free.

I’m wondering if this existentialism is connected to trauma. I know mine is. The loss of ego during psychedelics explains that their are levels of consciousness that we are not aware of. I waited decades to go to therapy, and I’m barely beginning to accept some aspects of this reality. We have seemingly accepted this simulation and you may be finding the correct programmatic sequences to break from it through sober thought. Some of us (me) are really only looking for one thing to make me “whole”. So far, I walk with this disconnection, while duality holds the the proverbial switch board. Life is unwarranted and lifelessness in existence is inevitable. It seems like a test, and I’m aceing by noticing.

End of my life with a background of the cemetery ☠️☠️☠️

But how are the evaluations of "sucks" and "amazing" being made? I feel even that goes out of the window. Or at least it mattering.

What happens if a small but powerful group of people wants to remove you from this planet because they see you as a 'useless eater' using up THEIR resources, is it ok to go with the flow of that? Surely there comes a time when going against the flow is the natural thing to do, like a salmon swimming upstream to breed to preserve it's lineage.

So, do you ever feel inspired, guided by your Presence or have a sense of Knowing about anything?

Suzzane, you have reached Enlightenment, you are now over analyzing everything in a Feedback Loop. NonDualism IS a form of Dualism. Now just enjoy the WoWei Ride for the next 50 years, You are young and healthy and attractive and the Elon Musks of the world would trade all thier wealth for another lifetime of youth and Time. just my opinion. Im 50 years old, everything I own fits in one room, even though I earn 100$ an hour. I throw away every thing I own every ten years. I own one pair of shoes, pants, shirt. I look like a homeless guy, bad hair cut, never look in the mirror because Depersonilization Issues related to Nondualism (and Autism, which naturaly makes Nondualism easy). No friends, No family (i apostated from evangelism) I spend my life in rumination over non duality. Now Im an old man who lost his youth and time distracted by Timeless concepts. Detacted from Materialism and Self and Ego to a clinical psychopathic degree. But thats not a Good Thing, I feel youre too old Mentally, because this is the Stuff that the elderly quietly Realize. Time to Party and enjoy the Impermanence, it has more Value because it is temporary.

Why do you like this cemetery ?

With all do respect, divine one, I think you are wrong. It is not "nothing". It is EVERYTHING. You are confusing nothing with everything. The Absolute does not have the ego that humans do. You are very close to The Absolute, is my theory. You can be ANYTHING, you know what I mean?

What do you mean by ‘nothing is happening’?

So what was the point of having the personality? And why is the personality created without its consent? How is it not worse than animal experiments?

What a strange subset of people. How many are there like these in the world out of 8 Billion? Scientists should study and document their stories.

In past videos where you reference “the radical message”, are you referring to any particular book?

nooo don't do it suzy

Why are you so certain free will and spirit don't exist? If we have those things then we have to balance our non-duality with our individualism.

Sometimes I worry about you. It seems to me that maybe you’re assuming that all these spiritual and self discovery things are going to save you from previous drama or the pain of every day existence. But has some other people have commented who have more experience than me, I suspect that life continues on afterwards similarly to before, with some minor modifications, or less attachment or less turbulent emotions. No one thing can save us not even spirituality I worried that you’re going to find that at some point these practises stop working because your brain becomes used to them, and they become somewhat effective but less intense buy a lot, and then you’re going to try even harder to find more extreme spiritual methods or self reflection, and be frustrated why it’s not working and maybe have a breakdown.

Life take care of itself...is something i cant understand So when you choose to abuse someone are you saying is "okay" nothing really happens???! In some people this spark arise from within and there is a space were inner transformation begin, but in this world are also demonic forces and they choose to be in this way, and that is not okay! And that is why we experience this corrupt experience of life that is of the ego and separate from god...