That's good....I always fear that I accidentally propagated negative stereotypes or that I put out false information despite my research....but I'm glad it felt relatable c: You are valid and you are strong
im living in your walls there are bugs in your skin buried deep far under you must scratch them out scratch them out dig them out now there are bugs in your skin
haha, sorry, I just love immersing the audience in how terrifying life may be hehe....30 years from now I'ma watch this video and forget that I put in a jump scare and it'll scare me too haha
What i find crazy looking at artwork done by people with Schizophrenia, is how similar it is to people who take lots of acid and create art under the influence. I had a mate who went off the deep end a little taking acid and some of his art is remarkable close to what i've seen from schizophrenic artists. The more months that went by, with him using almost daily, the more abstract and harder to comprehend they got until eventually we had to intervene after maybe 6 months of this. Don't know if this means much but it's just something i noticed.
@@curseyehamewho LSD has a rapidly rising tolerance taking it more than once or so a week wouldn’t really do much let alone months on end and while psychosis may be caused schizophrenia may only be brought on to someone through psychedelics if they’re already predisposed
That means a lot to me that you said that! I spent a lot of time recording footage around my college campus and editing sound effects and then distorting the sounds and the video to make it as terrifying as possible. I'm glad it hooked you in :3
This is good, I really like just about everything. The only thing is, maybe talk a tad bit faster, and level the audio in some parts of the video, besides technical stuff, I loved it
I think art is a really interesting way to document change. It definitely gives you a more personal look, over something like a journal entry or account. Also I'm really glad that I've found your channel. Your videos have been really interesting!
Good job! This is one of my favorite artists. One thing though: when he says “ego crucifixion” he’s saying that his ego is dying. While the term “ego death” is mostly used when talking about drugs I think it fits in quite well here. Crucifixion is a slow painful death, his feelings and sense of self is slipping away as his symptoms worsen.
I turned this off after a minute or two. So poorly done. So unnecessarily melodramatic. Listening to this guy struggle to keep his voice slow and monotonal for creep effect was already too much. It's just disrespectful. He's completely missed the humanity of Bryan and his experience, and therefore any possible lesson. Even though he ends up reading Bryan's own incredible words from his diary he still misses it! There's a ton of fascinating material to respect here but this guy captures none of it. Brian was so lucid in his self-examination of his last break. We're lucky he journaled it and that his brother has shared it with us. Even as he deconstructed, and lost his sense of self- or rather any delineation of himself and the real world from the chaos of his unbridled imagination, Bryan was still conscious and mindful. Even prosaic. Imagine that space he was in. He must have felt so alone and afraid. It must have been agonizing and relentless. Apparently it was unbearable because eventually he decided the only way to mute the hellish clamor was to take his own life. And he likely knew it days or weeks before he did it. This video is just a lazy shuffle for clicks. Pseudo highbrow creepypasta. Here's a much better (and non-exploitative) mini doc on Bryan Charnley's last days here, by Blind Dweller ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-A9gYgHkizSI.html In fact, that's probably where this guy got his idea to make this video.
Inaccurate diagnoses aren't very uncommon, I've been diagnosed as autistic as a toddler and schizo effective bipolar as a teenager, and I don't see or feel any symptoms of anything other than anxiety especially in crowds and occasional depression. Always seek a second opinion with things like this
Schizophrenia comes in many different forms, and there is no one way to experience schizophrenia, so it's okay if you don't entirely relate to Bryan's experience with his schizophrenia because that is his experience with the illness, not yours. For some, schizophrenia is more disabling, and others can learn to live with it and recognize what isn't real and ignore it. Just make sure to keep following up with your doctor or therapist and maybe even bring some of your concerns to them about where your diagnosis doesn't quite make sense.
Theory ( a wacky one): I believe the eyes that always watch him are those sets of eyes in the angels, the ophanim. Since he described Jesus a lot and says a lot of his religious views I think the eyes and the machine are the communications of Jesse or angles themselves. And the crowd of people in the art around him are the angels telling to come to heaven and stop the suffering that was cast upon him. I know it’s a wacky theory but it what I thought during the video
It's 9:41 p.m. I'm already lying down at bed at the pitch black room. I just want to understand the topic until the intro got me. Well I guess I'll be back tomorrow morning (⊙_⊙)
Great content, very well researched and narrated. You mentioned that this video started as a school paper; I'm curious as to what are your fields of study, and what you plan of getting more specialized into. I study neuroscience, psychology and sociology as a hobby... as you dig deeper, there's the realization of how the human consciousness can be a beautifully terrifying concept (or terrifyingly beautiful, if you're the 'half full' type). Kudos for your talent and effort, keep up the good work!
i feel like a content warning in the beginning could have been used for flashing images, but the video is already very interesting on its own. great editing and thanks for raising awareness on this mental illness, but keep in mind those who also want to enjoy your content without being affected.
I agree with the people who feel they are being watched by someone else but no one can control any scizophrenic. I paint what scizophrenics and those who suffer from related disorders think and feel like. He was a gifted man and despite society loved him people misunderstood his gift. Thanks for this video. Kind regards from Ásgeir in Iceland....
Watching this months after it was published, It's helping me understand some stuff about myself! I suffered from a period of mental illness in my teenage/early adult years in which I suffered from delusions, intense paranoia, a feeling that others could read my mind and thoughts, and the feeling that I would be attacked by everyone around me if I acted in a "weird" way. I can remember drawing pictures in my sketchbook of weird, zig-zag lines creeping towards the center of the page, and birds/people watching me constantly. I would not consider myself Schizophrenic, and have not been diagnosed as such, though my Grandfather and Uncle have both been diagnosed with it. It really makes me wonder about how I could have had a transitory experience of these things, and whether there is a name for a short-term version of this issue that can come and go throughout your life. I certainly now have sophisticated coping mechanisms for the extreme paranoia and delusions, but listening to this video has left me with open ended questions about my own mental health. Thanks for the hard work you put in to making it :)
Thank you for sharing! Yea, there are other conditions similar to schizophrenia like schizo-affective disorder, and then there are conditions that can cause delusions (like bipolar) or substances (like psychedelics). There are many possible explanations to find out why you had those experiences, but finding a therapist can help give a good explanation. I know that when I went to see a therapist, everything in my life started to fit together and make sense. but I am glad to see that you are showing the world that you have healthy coping mechanisms and that you are making it through in one piece c: I'm proud of you dood!
I was going to say, that it could possibly be Bipolar Cause I know how that was, especially bold colors and static. Now i got a diagnosis, and just doing the best I can to help myself. So I say get yourself checked out and see what's up
How the hell you don't have even 1k subscribers ?! You are so good man and deserve moooore !!!! I subscribed and I wish you'll make more of that content ❤️
Man, I'm such a loner (by choice), listening to blues and metal every day, training, learning, having a decent job, few things make me afraid of being alone but vids like this and stuff like everywhere at the end of time sure do... The brain is fragile and can go wrong anytime
I'm sorry if I'm offending you in anyway and I don't know much about your sexual orientation, but I can assure you, there's no such thing as a "cute" schizophrenia...
