the pain of recalling memories of an empty life (playlist) 

TIMESTAMPS / (author/s) 00:00 fading over time (scapes.) 03:16 snowfall (øneheart/reidenshi) 05:17 on something to which i won't admit (fading language) 07:50 time slows down (nowt) 11:07 broken air (exist strategy) 13:30 dear friend (repulsive) 17:05 what doesn't hold is bound to break (fading language) 23:09 let the sea take it away (nowt) 28:00 oktagon (ibi) 31:52 for a new meaning 'slowed' (nowt) 36:23 reverence (exist strategy) 39:17 i'll wait for you (exist strategy) 41:29 winter fingertips (monosleep)

For all those here in their late teens/early 20s thinking they've done nothing with their lives. We're still learning. We have such a ways to go. Our lives have just begun and just because you don't believe you've made a difference doesn't mean you haven't. You may have no idea how much you mean to someone else. At the very least.. all of you have made me realize I'm not alone in my own feelings.

We didn't realize we were making memories, we were just having fun - Winnie The Pooh

STOP PLANNING! STOP TRYING TO GET EVERYTHING UNDER CONTROL! Wake up, do what feels right, give it your all and go back to sleep. It's as simple as that. Don't complicate your happiness. Happiness is hidden in simplicity. (ooh 6k likes, I just posted my first song on my channel, lmk what you think)

They didnt notice you were crying They didn't notice you were sad They didn’t notice you were tired They didn’t notice you were alone They didn’t notice how attentive you were They didn’t notice how sweet you actually are... They didn’t notice how you actually try to make others smile They did notice you failing grades They did notice your unattractive They did notice the mean side of you They did notice all your mistakes They did notice all you flaws They did notice that you weren’t good enough for them. But you stayed strong You kept going on You never gave up on hope You never let them take you down And you know they wasn’t good enough for you And that’s what make you stronger

Isnt weird how in the end we all just die and everything we ever owned, everything we ever knew, everything we ever said, experienced, felt, smelled, heard, everything just stays here. It doesn’t go with you. That first love you never told anyone about, that first kiss you never told anyone about, those little secrets you have never told a soul, they all just cease to exist with you. Life is so tragically beautiful it hurts. I’m so peacefully depressed.

At the age of 53, as I write, I am thinking of how I have deeply hurt everyone I love. The nothingness of what I have accomplished. Being disabled I am tired. I sleep more than I am awake. Addicted to the dreams that I didn't make. To the chances, I didn't take. The pain in my heart is a constant ache. I am grateful for this life and those I did forsake. Just wish I could make the voices in my head be still.

100 reasons to stay alive: 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favourite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favourite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you like you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek). 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping in clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64.Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theater. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. Pray (if you are religious) 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realizing that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on Christmas morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look on this moment in 10 years time and realise you did it. Ps : Never forget you are a beatiful person 💕 Life is so beatiful so live, live like no one else exist, live for yourself, don't care of bad people, you are strong, i love you 🫶🏼

It’s been a while since i have been crying like this. Yet i am somehow happy about it. I read through the stories of strangers and suddenly i don’t feel that alone anymore.

The darkest patch of night sky holds galaxies unseen just as a the soil beneath our feet is home to more bacteria than there are stars. Don’t discount times that you see as empty, there is always something

the worst part is not remembering the memories in your life until someone recalls a memory and it all comes back, the memories flooding all at once.

I'm 27 years old and i still feel as helpless as 11 years old me, nothing changed i'm still looking at my reflection in the mirror and telling her it's going to be okay. Nothing changed except my features are getting older. I don't know how long i'm going to keep fighting, i don't even know what i'm fighting for. Everything seems meaningless to me.

Life as he knew seemingly passed him by He became an inessential piece in his own play He couldn’t live but he couldn’t die He was home but he felt like a stray

you know your at that stage of life where you feel nothing like you don’t know what the hell is wrong with you just a blank thought in your head like you can’t even cry to empty yourself that’s how I feel

I'm gonna be 22 this year... I feel like nothing has really changed since I was around 13. It feels like a one very long day. I still can't get over many things, can't let go, can't move on. I'm honestly suprised I've made this that far. Edit. And now I am 22 heh

So young yet I already feel tired. Living the same day everyday and always trying to make sure everyone around me is happy. Sometimes I forget to even care about my own mental health. As I cry at this moment, my tears fall emptily from my eyes. I just want to rest for a while.

you dont realize how alone you are until you sit back and look at all the people you've lost. it really feels like i have no one, i dont live near my family and i dont have friends anymore. its funny, my biggest fear was always being alone and now that i am i dont know what to do with myself. i dont know how to make friends or be social and it hurts to know that i may have already lost the best and only friends of my life. someday i hope I'll be able to overcome this, but for now I can sit in the comfort of my room in the middle of the night listening to this music and reading everyone elses comments knowing that im not the only one struggling. stay strong everyone, we can get through this.

It doesn’t get easier you just become stronger

Most likely no one will notice this comment, but I come here every afternoon and evening. It helps me a lot with depression and my anxiety. I am nobody and I have no future. I am happy that even if my name will be forgotten before I even say it, I can at least be a part of this community. For me, this music is compassion and another world at the same time. Edit: Thank you all so much for your kind comments. You gave me a lot of hope. I appreciate your help. Many of you have written that you have similar problems - to those who are struggling with it, but also to everyone else, I wish you the best of luck on your life's journey, healing and happiness. 💕

I had a pretty nice childhood. We never had much money but that was made up for with love. I was told I was a very bright child. I had a lot of friends in kindergarten and that continued at school too. My light just grew dimmer with each change. I miss this childlike innocent friendship. without any worries. People used to be free and could concentrate on the beauty of life. For example, on my last day of kindergarten, we vowed to remain best friends. We never saw each other again then. same at school. I never managed to keep my friends even though that was always what I needed most. My light had long since gone out at this point and I thought it would stay that way. but then I met the love of my life. That was the first time I felt real and right again in 8 years. The day I met her I cried myself to sleep because I was too overwhelmed with myself. the next day I felt wonderful. For the first time in years I was able to look at the beauty of the world again. It's been 3 years since then and my inner light has started to shine again. please dear people who see this. Don't fall for the illusion of beautiful nostalgia like I did. it draws you under its spell and doesn't let you move forward. you can do it. I firmly believe in you.❤ I hope everything is legible, as I had to translate from German into English. I just felt that I had to pour my heart out in my native language.

I've been unhappy my whole life. It doesn't get better. I felt worthless when I was 11 and I still feel worthless approaching 27.

Ngl, this is truly my biggest fear Slowly feeling life leaving my body as I recall memories of my life and realize that... I achieved nothing, and I'm about to die... alone I am sincerely so afraid about this I am only 25 but, I feel already so old... I suffered already so much, is this life ? I don't want it, I just have hope now, the hope that, somehow, I'll find sense in all of this, maybe someone, or something to dedicate myself to, but... Idk man, I'm just so tired, I pushed myself to my extreme limits to be the best that I could become, but it hadn't been enought to keep her, and not even enough for me to actually like or love myself, for who I am I feel so trapped, my mind has become the most inextricable prison, a labyrinth from I cannot escape, not anymore I'll keep fighting, until the very end, I just hope that, "the thing", that I'm looking for, will not show up too late... Stay brave everybody, thanks for reading...

Just a while ago, I was sitting alone at a playground, on a swing, trying to recall happy memories, but nothing came. Nothing bad, but nothing good either...there are many memories I've lost.

I'm 26 and get waves of loneliness.. music helps me escape the pain.

Im tired. Im sure many others are as well. So listen to this, think about life, sink into the depths of despair if you want. But after your done, take a day to lay your weary head to rest. We don't know why we continue on, and its a painful unrewarding path we walk. But when your feeling lost, you will always have the peace of sleep to numb your pain. Try and enjoy a nice soft bed and dream of a place where all is right, where you belong, and where you aren't alone. Maybe when you wake up you'll feel a bit better. Im proud of you for not giving up yet, even if there's no reason to keep going, you've kept on day after day so I have to say good job. If for nobody else, im proud of all of you out there so keep it up if you can.

I can appreciate every single one of my memories. What seems empty to others might be the fullest to someone else.

I might be late on commenting on this video and maybe nobody will see this comment, but I come here every morning and afternoon because of my depression. This calming music helped me a lot. I just wanted to say thank you for letting me through my tough times. (Sorry about my grammar...)

The only time I really feel at peace with myself is when I drift off to sleep. I don't like waking back up. When I do, that calmness that I once felt was now gone. I was back to the same old routine of waking up to every day being the exact same. I enjoy closing my eyes and taking time to dream, because *It's an escape from reality.*

I have learned in my life that relationships are fleeting nothingness. Not any specific relationship but all of them. This may not be true for everyone but it is for me. I am truly and entirely alone. Time and time again I have tried to reach out, form bonds, depend on others. Time and time again, I am discarded or abandoned. I give chance after chance. Only to find out I never mattered to begin with. I have no one to blame but myself. For I am all that I have.

The worst thing is one day every thing, every emotion ends and becomes a memory. And you are probably the only one who will carry this memories... alone

There's certain memories I wish I could erase but I'm afraid I wouldn't be the same person I am today if I never learned from those mistakes.

To the person reading this, I just want to take a moment to remind you of your incredible worth and the unique light you bring into the world. Life can be challenging, and sometimes we forget just how special and resilient we are. No matter what you're going through right now, please know that you are not alone. You have a strength within you that can weather any storm and a beauty that goes beyond what words can express. Embrace the journey, celebrate the victories, and learn from the challenges. You are a masterpiece in progress, and every step you take is a testament to your courage and determination. Take a deep breath, believe in yourself, and know that you are deserving of love, happiness, and all the wonderful things life has to offer. Your presence makes a difference, and the world is a better place with you in it. Wishing you a day filled with kindness, joy, and a heart full of love.

At the time of writing this I am eighteen. As I'm lying awake here at three in the morning, I've come to relize the current state of my existence. My entire life I've been told again and again that I'm so "gifted" and that I "have so mutch potential", But over time I've come to the understanding that none of this is true. I feel as if I've wasted my whole life struggling to live up to the unreasonable expectations of others. I'm a tired, confused, anxios, perfectionist, mess. Ever since I graduated high school I've been lost, originally I thought that somehow graduating would make my life easier but now I feel as though it was the only thing I really had to keep me busy. The days blur together, It's like somehow the time I have alone is both infinite and nearing it's end simultaneously. I want to do more with my life, I do, but it's becoming increasingly difficult to pry myself out of bed each morning, I wish sometimes that I could lie here forever and silmply cease to exist. no pain, no loss, only blissfull internal silence. Thats the worst part of it all the noise. I'm not sure if it's HDHD like my friends suggest or just my overactive mind but I feel that I don't controll the flow of my own thoughts. All thoughts are muddled by the constant static of a million others all vying for attention. This has the unfortunate side effect of making any motivation i can muster a fleeting commodity. I want to be a voice actor, I know it's a bad choice of carreer for someone who can barely hold a normal conversation but all I want is to make others laugh. With that I'm on the verge of falling asleep so I'll make this last part quick I understand that This entire comment will most likely seem unhinged or frantic to most, And that is primarily because it is. This is not so mutch a story of my life up until this point as it is the resalt of my writing down thoughts as they come and go. I hope you can gleam some understanding from my gargin and thank you for taking the time to read this.

Back in 8th grade, I lost one of my friends from church to cancer. A year later into my 8th grade year, I lost my grandpa. The last time I got to hang out with him, we were eating Ice Cream, having conversations. My mom and dad told me he passed a couple days later, and next day at school I broke down in the hallway and started crying, my friends at that time gathered around and gave me a hug. I’ll never forget the kindness of my math teacher who gave me a hug telling me that I’m ok. And then, I lost a long time friend of mine. One of my dogs had passed away my first year of high school, she was in so much pain before she had passed, she could barely see, hear, or walk. We said goodbye to her in our home, we figured it would be better for her, and I had to say goodbye to her.. she was a sweet girl… Every day, not a day goes by when I don’t think about them. I’m already in tears now.

There are many people, mostly men, who lay on their death beds at the end of their lives with this terrible pain. Their life became empty because 90% of their waking hours were spent working. Every work day is a carbon copy of the last one, and the next one to come. These repeat experiences are simply deleted from our memory, because they contain nothing new. Consequently, at the end of life, many hard workers will only feel like they lived 10% of the time they were given, because quite literally, that was the only time they had that meant anything. The only time they got to live. Even the slaves of ancient times had more time to live their lives than we do now, in the Western world. Don't let this go on - change your life before its too late.

Something that might help is going to an animal shelter and applying to walk the dogs. The dogs are so grateful to being walked outside. It's also rewarding to help the ones who are scared at what's happened to them. Everyone that has a pet should have a plan in place to make sure they will be taken care of and not abandoned.❤

I want to rest, I want to cry, I'm tired of everything, I'm afraid of other people's ridicule, once they make fun of me about my shortcomings it immediately feels very painful, I'm depressed, I'm so scared that I rarely interact with other people, I just want to be perfect which is not has shortcomings, So I just want to rest forever

this mix is powerful, its been getting me through some tough times... my heart got broken right around christmas and i've never felt this lonely and lost.. 3,5 years of my life i gave my all to this girl and in the end I got nothing to show for it. I made a song about it to express my feelings and help people going through the same thing.. Lonliness hurts and I hope to inspire people to use heartbreak as a motivation for their passion. Dropped the song yesterday, to anyone taking the time to check me out and join me on the journey to success, I will forever be thankful. Right now it means more than anything💔🙏

To everyone who feels like he/she is at the lowest right now. Its ok. Its ok to feel that way. For a while. Don't let this consume you. Please don't give up. Keep fighting, because your life is worth it, your happiness is worth it. I've been in dark places and felt like I will never ever be happy again. I got cancer, lost my dreamjob and my gf at the time broke up because she couldnt handle being with me in my current state. I went through cancer treatment alone, tried to find a new job that makes me happy for years and never wanted to be in a relationship again. And right now I'm sitting in my hobbyroom, listening to this playlist thinking about my way. I'm drinking my favorite Whisky, on my lap sleeps my little dog, in the background I hear my wife snorring and the only light in the room comes from the Babymonitor I use to look at my 15month old son. My life is probably far from perfect, but its so much more than I ever could have asked for. If you ever feel like noone loves you, please remember this text and know that I love you and I know that you will get back to your place in the sun.

The song at 03:36 reminds me of the excitement of going to the city, the eucalyptus trees hanging over the highway, the steep winding roads of the Blue Mountains, the beauty of the city lights, the grandness of the Sydney highways, but it also reminds me of returning home, seeing the lights of the towns I'd pass through on my way back, seeing the almost hypnotizing lights of the cars going up and down the highway going up the hills at the other side of the valleys the towns all grew in here. Those were the best parts of my childhood. That was when I was most happy.

I’m 34 years old with a very bad learning disability! When I was younger, I had big dreams of becoming of a writer one day and I wrote many stories on my PCs throughout the years. I feel like my life is incomplete, and that I’m a burden to everyone, even though they don’t treat me as such. Over the course of the years I’ve developed a bad memory prematurely, a part of me fears it may be early onset dementia…The s scariest thing I can think of. My ability to recall upon memories is quite limited. But I do cherish the good memories that I have, and wish I could recount the others and stop being haunted by all the bad/negative ones. I’ve been struggling to write these past few years, and can’t seem to draw upon the correct words I need to keep my stories going. As a writer, that’s soul-crushing. I have all the time in the world to write, yet, most of the time I simply can’t. I fear what the future may hold for me, but I’m trying so hard to give positive memories to those around me for when the day finally comes I can’t recall any of my own.

"I went into the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life... to put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived." - the dead poets society

I feel like I'm in slow motion and life is just passing me by...

As someone who's been broken by 20 years of life, I feel relatively grateful that I have no nostalgia for my childhood, nothing to remember back on fondly and yearn for, for all I remember is pain, both physical and emotional. But even now, deep down, I can't help but feel a certain indescribable sorrow for experiences I never got to have, friendships I never got to make, memories I never got to store. A happy, carefree adolescence consumed completely by anguish and rage. I guess what I'm trying to say is, I don't miss what used to be, but grieve what could have been. As jaded and embittered as I've become, as broken as I am, I still hope that somehow, one day, I'll find the peace I so desperately need. The happiness that dreams are made of.

Even though I'm only 16 years old and I've got a long journey ahead I somehow feel the pain of recalling the lost memories like my childhood days in the park, with my old friends, my old school, and the amazing memories I've made with my parents during the vacations. Even though I have everything at the moment, I feel alone for no reason, whether in an empty room or a room filled with people I know. My mom always teases me if I'm in love with a girl for fun, but now I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever find true love or just love. Every day I wake up at 6 am to try and change my habits to start a healthy routine for myself but I always fail to do so and wake up at 9 or 10 am. That feeling you get when you fail to do something consumes you like a plague.....But never forget that everyone is here for a reason like how mine is for the happiness of my family and that thought just pushes you to never give up on your dreams. This playlist when I heard it at night really hit me deeply and I thank the person who made this. It is truly depressing that there are people in this world who think they have no purpose......Pls, do not give up no matter where you are or what kind of situation you are in. Never say that you're tired, your body always has the energy, It is your mindset that makes you sad and feel alone. Fix it and become the best version of yourself.

Oh god, the title of this video just called out my life. I am young, yet feel so old, spent, empty, all of that without even moving, i have never had experiences like other normal people, going out with friends, drinking, going somewhere, falling in love, everyone says that "the time will come" but.. does it really? Why does being 22 feel so.... Void? At this rate, many, myself incluided, will die alone, the only way we can be. Under silence, rain and the Everlasting notion that we where really never here.. because, who can say otherwise?

Sometimes I wish I could erase some memories bc remembering how good/bad it was back then hurts so much.

I love reading these comments truly helps to feel less alone

I'm 20 years old, and I can vaguely remember the good times, but I hear the bad memories like they're on a loop. When I was 12, I was told I was diagnosed with scoliosis, which is when your spine becomes curved and shoulders are misaligned. For the next couple of years, I had to wear a brace for my back and shoulder. After I was done with surgery at 18 years old, everyone went back to their old selves. Everyone wants from me, is to be what they expect of me. I just wish my life wasn't so dang messed up like a shattered mirror.

don’t do this to me bro, I can’t deal with this rn 😭😭😭 there’s times when your playlists are so hauntingly hurtful that I can barely bring myself to listen to it and sometimes it is so beautiful and it makes me feel at peace.

It would be cool the see a playlist on the theme of "Entering in the Old Basilica of Saint Peters in the Middle Ages"

When u think it's done , remember that your heart is still beating and u have another chance

I’m 14 years old, and honestly, my life seems to be like I’m living the memories of a slowly unraveling tragedy. Don’t even feel like I’ve got legs to stand on and there’s not much more left in me to be honest

We may all feel alone here but we all know this feeling. What if us meeting each other here, in this feeling, is our way of finding connection?

Loneliness. Heartbreak. Regret. Tears. Anguish. Pain.

I died when I was 16, then life after that loses its colors. Before I turned 17, I see life as beautiful, dramatic and exciting, I really am looking forward a lot to what life would bring, but living life till my 16th felt like a memory, cause everything felt really special , my self is telling me to cherish it cause I know I'm gonna miss this, it felt like when you know you've already been into this moment, you just came back to know the feelings you've missed that you have forgotten how to feel. Myself is telling me to get a hold of those feelings I might not feel anymore. Now, I'm turning 20 next month and I just don't know how to be Happy, I don't feel anything except being numb. Everyday I live my life asking " So, What would happen next?". I'm trying myself to be happy and excited, like eating my favorite desserts, reading my favorite book and rewatching my favorite movies back then and it got me happy a bit but not for too long. I'm still figuring how I'm going to survive. And to everyone let's keep on fighting this emptiness, you're not alone, we all got this!

Listening to this at 3am while laying on my bed and it's windy outside is such a vibe. Stay safe everyone 💜

Being empty is also important in your life. Doing nothing sometimes does more things (in good terms) to you than normal working days. Try to do just nothing for one day just like this. 1. Play a soothing playlist which can sooth your emptiness just like this playlist. (I recommend nobody's) 2. Let it play for the whole day on repeat. You may change to other soothing music playlist too. 3. Do you daily requirements like eating, freshening up. Apart from these do literally nothing. 4. If possible stay in your room that whole day. Try not talk to anyone. Don't do any exercises or anything. Just be there in the room just like that. 5. Quit social media for that day. Notice the difference.

I lost all my close friends and I just wonder what went wrong we were so happy but gradually I realised I can't do anything about it you can't stop anyone in your life. Everytime I recall back the memories I feel so sad but I'm just getting used to it. I don't know if I'll make any new friends or will remain be like this all alone and empty.

"Death isn't scary... what's really scary is... being all alone..." - Takemitchi Hangaki

this music is really helping me to get through cleaning my messy depression room. In February this year I fell excruciatingly unwell because of a chronic illness, which led to me becoming entirely bedbound for many months. I became allergic to almost everything, and spent most of my time starving in my messy bedroom because I could barely eat without pain. I was later diagnosed with Mast Cell Activation syndrome, a rare immunological condition that causes anaphylaxis to random things. since my diagnosis, i have improved slightly and have found some foods i can tolerate but I'll never be able to go back to the person I was before February. whilst I'm cleaning out the mess I've left behind from my many months of suffering, i also have to let go of things i once loved that now bring me pain. including items that hold memories, perfumes that remind me of my partner, old paints that i used to make art with, and the earrings that my grandmother gave me that i'm now allergic to. I feel like I'm slowly letting go of the person i was and embracing the person i am now that I'm chronically ill, but it's tough cos i really wish i could go back...

i really wish you make a video like “you’re in antarctica” with these sounds like, deep sea, snow, like seaworld sounds

Live your life. Show love to your people. Make memories. Don't sit and watch everything happen. Get up. So many days I could've spent with my Mother.. But all I did was live another life that I enjoyed more. I stayed in my room everyday and played video games. the amount time I could've spent with her.. now all I think about is her peeking in my room to see if I'm awake.. Life is too short to live many all at once. Might aswell enjoy the life that is real, the one that matters. Do not take time for granted. It's a burn that never heals.

I dont know how many "it is what it is" I have left in me man

So many comments are also true. So many of us don't share a lot of things about life but you're right when we leave here we take nothing with us. I wonder we get to have our memories in heaven. Thank you god bless everyone

Я потеряла свою семью, жильё в котором уют создавала,….. в душе пустота … ваши ролики успокаивают душу возвращая память о ней…это волшебно …спасибооооооооооо

bro im sixteen years old, i don't how i ended up here. i don't feel entitled to say that i've been through many things in this life, but when adolescence arrives it's very difficult to deal with things, one moment u have no idea of ​​anything, at another time u just see that nothing was like the fantasies i imagined when i was a child, i don't like feeling empty being so young but ik, one day everything gets better, ig

Loneliness has been with me for as long as I remember. In the end, it became my dearest company in this confusing world we lived in. For long I had lost myself. I could no longer relate with the one I was, even through memories and photographs that were left by the hands of time. Holding on to the self-love I once found prevents me from unnecessarily dying as a coward. I still constantly living my life day by day while figuring out how was it to breathe again. Wishing one day the path that would lead me to serenity come and show me the way. Although I know it's not enough but Amy if one day you cross over this and things haven't changed a bit, I know you've done your best in that tranquillity. Just don't die!

It makes me think of when I was a child. Everything was much more relaxed, and I didn't have to deal with stress and responsibilities. I miss growing up with my mom and dad. I wish I could go back and experience it all again.

I just thought I'll reveal my situation here. I know it's insignificant compared to what the world is suffering right now. I used to go to a school in my country and I had a nice bunch of friends in middle school. As I was aging into higher grades, I noticed I wasn't myself anymore. Everyone was in their own worlds of friends and success and none of that was ever about including me in their worlds. All of a sudden my performance dropped and I still remember one of my ungrateful teachers saying that I was good before but now I had been labelled....a low performer. I got fed up and became silent and basically went to school and came back like an autopilot mode in an aircraft. No interest in studies, no socializing, no other interests. I thought the best thing to do is to end it all and leave this world; like anyone would care....nearly 5 years later here I am all alone to myself and a big introvert, but no plans to ever revive what was lost because memories are dry and unfeeling as sand, prickly as thorns, and venomous as even one drop is enough to disturb your happiness. Now the only thing that keeps me happy is my mother. She has seen me all the way in my life but recently I'm just pained by seeing her hair becoming white. Sigh... If only I never went through such a mess. But still I'm grateful for youtube so that I can cry all alone and no one will ever know in this world.

the darkness is part of life. we forget about it in the light but when times get hard we remember our old friend

A great place for an old man to cry in solitude 😢

I just want to thank everyone in this comments section for opening up about their life. You opening up about your problems makes others realise that they arent alone. And also a huge thank you to everyone supporting eachother and saying words of kindness. You're all beautiful and no matter our differences, i consider you all a friend. No matter where you are in your life right now, wether you're young or old, you can still make the best of your life and i wish you the absolute best in doing so. Stay strong, treat yourself as a friend, and keep going, no matter what. I believe in you.

Since I first listened to this playlist, I have felt the must to hug everyone in my life. No special reseason needed. Onlyy this amazing playlist that really hits those who can feel and understand the title.

There is something unexplainable about that pic in the video.. It reflects darkness,loneliness, mystery,hope and combined those with that music,feels like im actually there.

I'm 18. At the time of writing this, I just finished my Final Exams for my first semester at uni. Me and this one girl in my history class sit next to each other and we engage in conversation every now and then. We'd both consider each other friends. I was going to ask for her phone number today as soon as we finished our tests, but she had finished long before I did. I quickly finished the rest of mine, and went to try to talk to her. By the time I had finally gotten ready, she was nowhere to be seen. I don't know where she went. I wanted to try to stay in contact with her over my winter break, but i guess that's virtually impossible now. We're off for 3 weeks, and I doubt we're going to have the same schedule next semester. I don't know what I'm trying to get at here. This Playlist is basically where my mind is right now. Cold, almost hopeless. I must confess I do have feelings for her, but I don't care about that right now. I just want to be someone that she considers to be a good friend back. I want to hang out with her, or just get lost in a deep conversation with her, I really don't care. There's this thing where I just enjoy being around her. She's an amazing person. She's pretty. She has the nicest blue-gray eyes. Her laugh is my drug. I just try to make her laugh a bit whenever we talk, it's a little tee-hee giggle. She's smart, she's considerate, and wants to be a teacher. Her ambition inspires me. She's just an amazing person who I just really enjoy being around, and I'd really like to be more than just a friend who talks to her every once in a blue moon. Maybe I am a coward for not taking initiative. I am afraid of talking to her about things in front of other people, I'm afraid of talking about personal stuff in general around other people. I want to take this chance, but I am scared that history will repeat itself. This same thing happened around the same time last year. There was a girl in my Spanish class who was great. We talked a lot, we were good friends, and i confessed my feelings to her the day we went on break. She didn't feel the same way, and proceeded to date 3 other guys within the span of 4 months. We drifted apart, and that feeling i had had gone dormant. It wasn't until i met and got to know my history friend that this feeling was still alive. She had brought it back, and i am so fucking scared of losing that feeling and going through that whole experience again. I want to take initiative and talk to her, i want to make the moves, but it's that damn feeling holding me back like a string puppet, whispering in my ear"do you really want to do this?" I don't know how to go about it . If i see her again next semester, I'll try to talk to her. I just want to make my move without the whispering in my ear. I'm sorry for writing this long story, i tend to ramble, but i really needed to get that off my chest. I have few friends, and even fewer who would listen to what i just wrote. I barely see them, but i just had to get it out. If you made it this far, thank you for reading. I know this isn't therapy, but it feels somewhat therapeutic to write my experience for anyone to see. I hope whatever you're going through, you stay strong and hold your head high. That's all we can really do, huh?

I'm so tired. My life felt so empty. Since my cats death, i do not feel so attached with life anymore, he's what's kept me hanging on..i miss him everyday and wanted to reunite with him immediately. He was my light, now that he's gone I can feel the darkness surrounding me once more

hey to you reading this (: whatever brings you here, wether it's to fall asleep or to relax from something stressful, i just wanted to let you know that everything will be fine. If you're going through a hard time right now, it's okay to remind yourself that this is temporary, and there are many good and relaxing days to come. If you're about to sleep, i hope you will have the most beautiful dreams, and the most peaceful sleep. You are an amazing person and the world is lucky to have someone like you in it. I hope only good things, love and strenth will come your way. Goodnight (:

Even though i feel sad sometimes, I find this channel so intriguing. It makes me feel intensely and I like that

For anyone listening to this playlist as I am... YOU ARE NOT ON YOUR OWN! No matter what your age, no matter if you have friends or not, no matter if you feel loved or not, you are living your life through the emptiness of these songs and I am proud of you for hanging on, I really am. I’ve been through so much over these years... not just in my life but in myself. I just get lost in fear of being left behind and fear of letting everyone down by not being the person I once was/ should be. And I KNOW you feel the same in any regard if you are still reading this but I just want to be that person who is really proud of you even if you are not of yourself! Life’s complicated and it will get harder to find will power but that just makes you more of a trooper.

“let the sea take it away” is one of the most beautiful pieces I’ve ever listened to

snowfall makes me feel so empty everytime i listen it..

I don't wanna grow up. I'll have to move away from my home to study aboard and I know that soon my usual routine will be interrupted and I'll probably never come back to it. I love staying in my bed knowing I'm home safe with my dear family, reading books in my dim room with the smell of lavender sleeping spray imbedded in my bed sheets from last night, my siblings coming in to annoy me from time to time, dreading doing my homework and then going back to listening to music and reading while stuffing my mouth with different kind of snacks I can get my hands on. I know I'm growing up. I know I'll have to leave it all someday. This thought always haunts my mind but I push it in the furthest corner of my mind and I just enjoy the remaining moments while I can. Then some nights like these I remember and I start hurting. I love my family so so much. They have given me so many opportunities, every word that I read, every deep breath of peace I do is all thanks to them and their hard work. Soon it'll be my turn to work but I don't want to. I don't know what to do with my future and I'm lost. I went through this routine for so long but lately the feeling like you're nealy at the end of a journey is creeping up on me. I'm suddenly aware of time and that I'm no longer child. Exams are around the corner and I'm finally in the stage of life I've dreamed and dreaded of at the same time. I thought I would be so cool that I'd be in the 9th grade and then I dreaded my exams 5 years prior, but now I feel nothing towards it. I want to continue being a child in my parent's home. I don't want to grow up. It's never enough.

I've started a journal recounting my earliest and favorite memories. I was so happy growing up, I get so warm and fuzzy remembering her giggles and awkward kid moments. I want to be her again

I am 16 years old, the last years of my life were absolutely empty. I wasn't living, I was just killing time. No friends, not close to relatives, I have never shared my feelings with anyone in a long time. I just didn't have that spark that would help me move on. But recently this spark appeared and, oh, I felt so warm inside. I decided to really do something with my life. And I took action, I finally had hope. I found someone with whom I want to share my feelings. It was nice. For a while... But I lost it. Again. I can't cry anymore, I can only laugh at how naive I was for thinking that she felt the same way as me. Well, nothing has changed in the end, I'm just in the same position where I was a few months ago. So I'll just keep killing my time.

So this is gonna be weird. But this playlist inspired me to write a poem 😅 hope you all enjoy: Memories of an empty life Fading over time…if only I could just escape it. Escape the snowfall on something which I won’t admit, I can’t admit without the shame. What is there to say? It was my “I love you” And It was your “I wish I loved you back” Still time slows, yet stretches on and on and on. As all good things come to an end. my whole life longing fades. For of course what doesn’t hold is only bound to break. So let the sea wash it away. It doesn’t serve me anymore. In hopes that a new meaning, washes upon my shore. In hopes that maybe one day, just merely existing, won’t be such a chore? Yet still I’ll wait for you, with everlasting reverence. My dearly beloved, your winter fingertips forever haunt my dreams.

There's so much to learn, to know...to get through. Then finally you figured it out. The sudden feeling of total emptyness hits you and you wish you know nothing. The sheer pain of being lost, no longer part of this all. The illusion of togetherness fades. You realize you're just a lonely traveller while time is going slow. Painfully slow.

I am so so thankful for your rain sound videos! I lost my boyfriend of 7 years in a tragic motorcycle accident earlier this year. These have helped tremendously with falling asleep again. Letting go of anxiety before bed is an issue I am sure I’m not alone in, thank you from all of us! ❣❤❤

"the pain of recalling memories of an empty life" the pain just unreal i can't bear with it

35yo and feels like life has reached the end of everything good that could come out of it. Recalling memories of younger times when I had hope for the future and everything looked so full of possibilities is a bitter sweet feeling, but gives me a slight sense that those days could come back sometime.

i listen to this song as tears fall down my cheek. I know these tears are the last of emotions I shall ever show again. Because even when I feel my heart hurting, screaming, crying. I feel the pain of it aching. Everyday. But I can't seem to show emphaty to anyone anymore. Because when I needed that love, understoodment, that true love no one ever gave me it. Even though it might hurt to not be able to show any of my emotions to anyone anymore. But now I won't hurt them with the bitter, bitter, truth. The truth the pain I was to young to go through. And now I'm here sitting on the edge of my bed. My heart aches. I've never had the space to show who I truly was. To anyone. So to who ever amongst all people here, don't let emotions take over you. To the point you start feeling them on wrong moments. To the point you get drastically sad when people around you are happy. And happy when they're sad. When you get mad at little things, out your anger on yourself. When you can't seem to show anyone emphatically you support them. Because I've been there once. A child. A child crying for understoodment, a child hurt so deeply. Just told to deal with it. And now I slowly feel my emotions go numb. Does it hurt? Not anymore. But I think it's best to do whether what's better for others then for you. Because I know I won't be able to heal the people I've hurt with my bitter words. I am so much of an mistake. I do the wrong things to cope. I touch myself until I pass out crying. Because well, what else shall I do. Crying as I can't stop myself. But either way or another. This was and is my story so far. Thank you for reading all this.

The filter used in the video is actually kinda accurate on how I recall my memories with that high particle or fuzzy effect thinking about certain parts of my childhood, more predominantly the gloomy ones.

"Dad is getting old" Yet I've not achieved anything in life that would've made him proud

Music is a language you don't have to write or understand to experience. That's why everyone flocks here when they're upset, we all *get* that feeling. I don't have a sob story I feel is worth sharing right now. I'm just 19 and I feel that this is, in the literal most sincere sense, deep.

I feel like I'm losing my ability to create drawings/art. I guess it's a mix of ADHD, addiction problems, and my fear of failure. But it feels like the root of the problem is deeper than that: an emptiness in my heart, reflected by the emptiness I see around me. No creative idea feels exciting or worth creating anymore. It's all just lacking something . . .

I don't live i just exist

It's okay to take breaks and focus on yourself from time to time :) you don't have to overwhelm yourself. You can take breaks from studying\ work\ etc when you feel like. I love you all. Everything's going to be okay no matter what's happening in your life right now. I've been experiencing tough stuff that I thought it's over for me and I almost gave up on life but thankfully I didn't. 3 years ago, I never imagined my life could get this much better. Keep fighting, it's worth it, I promise.

I dont know How much longer I can stay here, I'm afraid to tell a single soul, but I can't resist anymore, I don't feel safe with myself anymore, thank you so much for the remix I liked it. ❤️‍🩹🌻🇧🇷

It’s already playing for me

To everyone. You don't need to change the world to change or make a difference. It really does only matter, the impact you've made on the ones you love and the ones who love you. Don't be afraid to express any emotion, you have the excuse, you have the scars. Just let them fade, we all know they don't heal, but the pain goes away. When it gets too hard, shut your mind off, if you can't shut your mind off, shut off the world. Quiet yourself. Breathe for a moment. Close your eyes. That feeling in your chest, just let it be. It's a many great things, that feeling. Feel. Breathe. It's not your fault.