the reason why I have no friends 

I have no friends too. I realized that I could either choose to have fake friends or be alone. I chose to be alone.

A truly strong person is often alone because he/she doesn't need validation from anyone else.

My father used to tell me, “In your life you will have hundreds of acquaintances, but you’ll be able to count your true friends on one hand.”

Finding a true friend is very rare these days. Everyone is mean

I have no friends either and I spend every day of my life alone. Most of my family members have all passed away and I just don't have any desire to get out and socialize. Same with dating, I never had any kind of good luck when it came to relationships so I finally gave up and have gone at it alone for years now. So I definitely know what it's like to be an introvert. One valuable lesson I have had to learn the hard way is that people will always and forever let you down. In the end the only person you can ever truly depend on is yourself. I feel that's all the more reason why it's good to be alone. That said, there's nothing wrong with living life on your own terms and going at it alone. Keep doing what you do. Your content is great!

I live in a Scottish city and I have one true friend but many acquaintances. The more I learn about people, the more I love dogs. Something that resonates deeply with me is a quote "it is no measure of good health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society" ~ Jiddu Krishnamurti

Friendly people don't always turn out to be friends and being alone is not always the same as being lonely. We're all a little bit different and some of us just need our solitude.

"Apart from my lover, I don't have any friends". Well if you have a friend and a lover , you are not alone or lonely.

Thank you all so much for your amazing comments. I’m very touched and read every single one of them. I’m doing my best to answer them all. I love you, Tribe 🤍

“My struggles to control and manage myself, they play a huge role in how much energy I have available for relationships” - That statement right there really sums it up for me. I can really relate to this.

I couldn't live in isolation, but I'm starting to realise that friendships are so hard. In my case I care a lot about my loved ones, including my friends, but they just don't ask how I am, how I'm doing etc and I'm starting to feel tired being the one who's always asking these questions. They are good people, but everyone is just in there own little bubble being busy with everyday life. I'm so disappointed that everyone I know wants just superficial relationships...

The more I watch and learn about you the more I'm convinced we are cut from the same soul fabric. It's really incredible. Souls like you are what I'm searching for. Peace and love from Pennsylvania USA.

A wise older woman once told me "It's none of MY business what you think of me" Keep being wonderful you!!❤

I cut all of my friends out of my life about a decade ago when I got ill. I went into complete isolation and locked myself away from the rest of the world. Like you I started to feel so alone around other people and I was so tired of being hurt by others. I'm a huge giver, and I just found that everyone I met never reciprocated. Getting ill time and time again I just pulled back and decided to be alone for a while. I wasn't expecting this phase to last a full decade but here I am. I completely resonate with what you are going through. I adore animals, and nature but I've never been a huge fan of people. I just want to send you some love all the way from Australia and let you know that you're not alone, and there are others like you going through the exact same thing. Maybe we are all part of the same soul tribe. 😊❤

I think the older you get, the more you realize who your true friends are. At some point you come to the realization there are very few people, if any at all that you can call friends.

I've been a loner for years and haven't had a real friend for about 20 years now. I was bullied and picked on a lot in school, been let down many times by people, and I used to think I was an introvert. But then when I finally found a place for a while where people respected me and were kind, I realized that I love people and I love socializing, it's just that I have so much fear of people because of stuff that I went through when I was young. I still feel like I don't fit in with most people, and I still haven't found a close friend. But I don't consider myself a true introvert anymore. If I spend time around people who are positive and respectful, I feel full of energy and like it recharges my batteries. I only feel drained by negative people who don't treat me right. I'm really sorry for the difficult experiences you had...I know it makes us stronger people, but it's so painful in the process. I hope someday you find that good and loyal friend that we all long for.

I love being alone. And we’re all friends here😊

I live alone in the woods. I feel I heavily invested my life in others for many years. This came with great personal rewards and great personal losses. At 62, I'm convinced that we are all here in a classroom. We all came here to work on personal goals. This makes for a lot of confusion, social dissidence and judgement. But the most harmful judgement to us is the judgment we levy upon ourselves. It seems to me that we cannot love others until we first love ourselves.

Friendship is not about having friends but being a friend.

I am so happy I found your channel. It gives me great comfort as an introvert who loves time alone, nature and animals. I love your home and your choices. You are not alone! Much love ❤️

Most relationships now days are based on materialism and vanity finding something real is next to impossible......... I also wanted to thank you again for being born into this realm and sharing your experience with the world 😊🙏

I did the same thing years ago. Stuck in the USA, where freedom is just a word nothing else. I avoid modern days as much as possible. My health has turned back the years and I feel at peace like when a child. This iPad and this message is as far as it gos for me. Thank you.

Better to be alone than with the wrong people who stress you out x

Your video is aesthetically so pleasing to watch and your story truly is relatable to many people I am sure. Real, genuine friendships seem so hard to form nowadays and it saddens me at times how easily people can disregard something so valuable and meaningful...

I love your frankness, vulnerability and willingness to share with other introverts. Thank you❤

Well done sister for being the beautiful lone wolf you are. Our hearts are with you, love from the fellow lone wolves ♥🐺

I like people that enjoys being alone. Those are the best type of people for my being

you are so brave to share such intimate topics. the truth is that there are many people just like you. i wish i could go to the woods too. moving through recognition and into action is the most scary thing. but it is rewarding. fear has held me back , my entire life. spiritual awakening is a daily journey. i too get very tired from social interaction. bless you lone wolf

I used to work in open plan office with 40 other people every day. I never felt so lonely. I know exactly how you feel but there are kind people out here ❤

I’m 90 percent introvert and 10 percent over the top extrovert. When I meet a like minded person I can get carried away because I have years worth of conversations and ideas I want to get out in the short amount of time I usually have with these people!

I don’t have any friends either & I realized my disconnect with ppl is from my childhood trauma repeating itself in my adult relationships 😮. But therapy has also helped me to realize to pour into myself what my family didn’t give me so that leaves little time for me to care about others. Being “selfish” has saved my life. I used to be a doormat just for ppl to give me the time of day 💕

I absolutely love being alone. ❤ I don’t have any close friends anymore. Been hurt so many times that I’m not looking for friends anymore. I have my husband and children. ❤ Blessing to you.

I needed this.. It's lonely indeed.. a man at 36 without a single person I can relate to.. I have people around of course, and those who care about me.. but it's somehow comforting knowing I'm not alone in my feelings.. even if you are a long way off and unlikely to ever meet, I will think of this encounter in my evening meditation.. thanks for not being afraid to share your self.. I'll use it as inspiration along my journey to grow and keep moving forward even when I want to stop..

I see so many people speak of having no friends, but truly I feel the real issue is that people aren’t finding MEANINGFUL friendships rather than just not finding any at all

I'm another LONE WOLF myself, your story is completely familiar to me. I now have no family left or any friends left except for my pup dog. I live in the country, SOUTH DAKOTA, BLACK HILLS TERRITORY & am standing strong against the problems of the world. The human condition, I don't know what to say about it, I don't like it myself & only deal with people when absolutely nessecery! STAY STRONG, you have the strength in you, if you didn't you would never have made it as far as you have. GOD BLESS, GODSPEED TO YOU. FEAR PROFITS THE MAN/WOMAN NOTHING! WE WHERE ALL PUT IN THIS WORLD AT THIS TIME FOR A REASON. Thanks for your insight and thoughts, it means a lot to me and I'm sure others as well.

I hear you, sister. Every word you say is describing how I live. I don't know why I am like this. I try to find someone who will fit into my world but my world is different from almost all others. I live alone because I cannot live with anyone. I feed the stray animals and they are the ones who make my heart ache because they are so innocent. I see old ladies on the street begging and I give them money because they are alone too. I have worked all my life but after the first few jobs, I began to work alone because I did not fit in working for others. My aloneness has given me strength and I think that is the purpose for all who live this way. I have learned to do so many things because I do not want anyone to do anything for me. I will do it all myself. Sometimes, I ache for a human touch but I realize that if I surrender to that I will be crushed under the heavy weight of humanity. Humanity is lost. I want to help them but they cannot hear. They are deaf and blind and don't know where to go or what to do. Someday, they will grow past where they are now. When? I don't know. But where will we all be then? Maybe alone and far away. Or maybe we will find a different place to live by then where things are different. Jesus was alone even though he had followers and friends. Mary Magdalene loved him so he was lucky in that regard. The hardest part of being alone is that one has to be alone to do it. Isn't that strange?

I have social anxiety. I have also a small number of friends. But when I’m alone, I’m at peace. You are an inspiration. Thank you.

Nice to be alone

My heart chakra is disturbed too. The green of Germany is bringing me healing and balance, and deep breaths to this space in my body. The other day I just let myself be hurt right there in that place without thinking about why or how. It helps to witness the pain with honor, giving it space. Sending you lots of love from my heart to yours 🌿🤍🌿🌿🌿

I don't have friends either but it's a been a journey as to why I don't have them. As a kid , I'd have negative self talk and think that no one liked me. As I got older I realized that I thought that because I felt uncared about and excluded by my family. But as I got older I changed the narrative. I made a conscious decision to be careful who I let into my life because narcissistic energy vampires seemed to search me out for the sole purpose of using me throughout my life. I need to still gain the confidence to pick and choose my friends moving forward but at least I am protecting my peace, which is important to me.

People are often nasty to others not because they are unhappy or hurting but because they simply enjoy being unpleasant and hurtful to others. It is a truth and it is best to accept it. Your video is very beautiful. Wishing you a peaceful day, greetings from Scotland.

I am 59 now and have mostly been a loner most of my life. I feel everyone has their very own reality, especially people who are very independent. I feel a lot of people, from very early on, develop a dependency to groups/ideologies. I believe this comes from a survival instinct, as we are pack creatures, who have survived in this way for ions. I also believe that many of these people see loners or people who are very different as inferior or losers etc., These ideas boost their moral/self-esteem, thus their happiness and survival. I prefer to limit socializing and choose my company wisely. I don't attend family gatherings. I don't dislike my family. I just hate the materialism and thick judgmental mind set they have. If you're not married/don't make lots of money than you are an unimportant no body. It is so ruthless/thoughtless and dam right hateful, even if it isn't stated openly, it is slapped in your face by the way they treat you.

I love my German Shepherds more than most people. Dogs don't judge you, abuse you, torment you or bully you. Dogs make the best friends.

Baby I also have no friends, sometimes it feels so lonely but also so peaceful. I love being alone but it is not easy and not for everyone. I love your vidoes so much. You inspire me alot, because of your videos I was able to make changes in my life. I'm so thankful to you. Thank you for everything 💖💖

As a solitary individual, I very much relate. I am always inspired by how you share your story in such an open and honest way, it is very courageous of you. Wishing you much love friend.

I have lived alone for 72 ye ars by choice. “Alone” is a gift; a skill few understand nor want to due to fear. I experienced pregnancy alone and raised 2 children alone at all levels. Besides God, I am my best friend💜. You are a kindred spirit.

I can’t say how many times I’ve watched this, it is so healing, and your words wash over me and rest like a mantle on my shoulders, a coat of comfort. I have this same ongoing conversation inside me, but you’ve portrayed it here so beautifully, thank you!

I do NOT hear pessimism. You are an inspiration. Hearing you share about your emotions, thoughts and all you share in your videos is endearing You are my kind of human. You don't belong to this harsh world......... you ARE here for a divine purpose and must keep moving forward until you do go "back home". You have so much to share and teach us. THANK YOU

You described exactly how I feel, I have always felt this way since I was a little girl and I still feel this way at the age of 61.

This was a beautiful and brilliant presentation and I thank you for it. A wise man once said: the only thing worse than being alone is being with someone who makes you wish you were alone!

You are a skilled storyteller and vidiographer connecting consciously to thousands of us -- you are not alone.

From the intro I could feel it totally resonating with me. From birth, I was always the loner. Nothing around me even inspired me to walk or move myself from the spot I was put (my mom told me that, and that it made i very easy for her, but after a while, at an age where most children already walk, I was still quietly just looking around). In school no one ever knew how to get through to me, and even though I slept or dreamed away during class, I somehow had taken it all in. Most teachers were always angry I didn't do anything, no during class, not at home, and no even bring my books or note down anything or pay any attention or obeyed anything they told me to (that just got ME angry), and frustrated when their punishments had no effect, or the opposite of what they wanted. When I did talk, I always outsmarted them so they got even more frustrated while the class laughed. When I did an exam, not even knowing which one I had to do that day, I succeeded most of the time, by quickly filling in what I knew from just taking it in somehow, and then sleeping or eating mandarins and drinking tea until I was free to go. I dropped out of school with severe depression. People always gathered around me (after a childhood of being bullied but often showing the bullies they had messed with the wrong person) and groups fell apart when I left, but I never felt part of the group. After doing some jobs, knowing I would never be happy that way and that following the directions of grown ups would lead me to their miserable life, I quit and was ready to end my life if anyone forced me to go back on that path. Now, they labeled me with "ADD" and "Autism Spectrum DIsorder", stil implying that it has to be me who is "wrong". But the good news: I wasn't even allowed to work anymore. I live a vegan straight edge "poor" life in a forest I bought, with dangerous dogs I adopted, and while I was thinking whether or not I would tell part of my story here, you said you live in the mountains in the Pyrenées, which is where I bought another plot of nature to go live in starting this spring. But from your accent I suppose you live in the French part, I'm moving to Spain, from Belgium, where I may or may not have to flee because of conflict with local governments, depending on how they react to my latest reply on an ongoing conflict. As you said, animals and trees are my best friends, some humans as well. I'd never hurt any living being if I can somehow avoid it. I've learned to fully love myself and listen to myself over anyone else, and have had so many amazing experiences, ranging from deeply spiritual to what I was almost made to believe was "supernatural". But how can they be if simply connecting with nature and being true to my own nature gave me those powers, visions,... Oh well, I've probably written too much already, so I'll keep it at that, wishing you the most interesting experiences, that upon reflection and in retrospect or while experiencing them, may have brought/bring the most valuable lessons, helping you become the best version of yourself without being held down by humanity's sick society.

I am 65 now, but have always been an introvert, so what you said in this video all makes sense to me. I possess a limited amount of personal energy for dealing with others, and have to escape from social situations and "recharge my batteries" on a regular basis. Sometimes I flair up with a large amount of social energy, become the center of a group for a time or "the life of the party," which often confuses people when I pull away and hide for long periods afterward to recuperate. Of course, they think my pulling away is because I don't like them, or that they have done something to anger me. Only a very few people in my life - often introverted to some degree, themselves - have understood that my nature is within me, not a reflection of themselves or others. I was lucky in my 30s because I found a therapist who knew how to help me - not to "cure" me and make me a permanent social butterfly, but to help me understand and accept myself as I am. I complained to him that, after a week of working in a very social setting, I essentially collapsed each weekend, often sleeping for 12 hours a day, experiencing vivid dreams and even afraid to go out of my apartment to get groceries and do other chores. I simply asked me if I felt better beginning the new work week after my personal hibernation, and when I admitted that I did, he smiled and told me that, therefor, I had already discovered and was doing the right thing to restore myself. This was very freeing. I also told him about my vivid dreams, which sometimes were disturbing and involved people I worked with or knew elsewhere - I wanted him to interpret my dreams and tell me what they "meant". He simply said that he didn't subscribe to the idea that dreams were to interpreted, but rather that they were the method used by our own minds in healing - in other words, the dreams themselves were the way we heal, they "do the work" as we experience them. This allowed me to stop worrying about disturbing dreams, and let them go, evaporate, knowing they had helped me and were not to be interrogated or picked about for "hidden meanings". Recently I've been reading a book called The Overstory by Richard Powers which I think you might enjoy. The 3rd chapter, titled Adam Appich, is about a young boy of a similar nature to ours and his struggles within his family and with others. When he discovers a book titled The Ape Within Us that opens the door to his own nature, and the inner motivations of other people - a parallel of sorts to my experiences with my therapist - his world blooms and he discovers his path in life. Fortunately, there's a lot of Overstory left to read, which I'm greatly looking forward to. Thank you for your video... I've subscribed to your channel and will watch your other postings.

A great and important message. Sick of everyone around me telling me "But, something is wrong we all are social beings.."...pfft..

Lots of people don't understand melancholics. They don't see the beauty in sadness and reflection. The depth. It scares them.

Beautiful work! Enjoying aloness is not a weakness but a sign of a strong soul

I resonate completely. My only and true friend is my dog and chaos of social life drains my soul..its sad how long it takes me in the morning to get out of bed and face another day in a corporate job that does not even pay well..stuck in reality that isn't my own..too scared of breaking the cycle because my nervous system does not recognise anything else anymore..thank you for sharing, beautiful as always. Rumi's quote is my favourite ever❤

Thank you so much for sharing your creative and introspective self with us, your are brilliant beyond your young life. As usual your videography is way better than anything else on You Tube. Love what you do.

I am a guitar player. Sometimes it brings me a lot of joy. Sometimes it gives me no joy at all. Depression and happiness seem like two separate existences. I experience both.

As soon as I saw you walking through the snow and you started to describe your life I was transfixed. Subscribed immediately to this beauty of your life and soul. I am alone too and extremely introverted and always a lone wolf myself connecting to nobody (not even family). We are different souls and have the courage to be free from ego based connection based on a fake sense of joy.

This is going to help so many other people because most people won't show vulnerability, that's got to be a good feeling ❤️

Great content! Prayers and Positive vibes 🙏

Amazing! I can relate personally in every aspect. Thank you!

You’re not alone when you with trees. All life has consciousness and you can commune with them. I’m sorry you have isolated yourself because you have given other people’s opinions about you, power over you. When opinions don’t matter you can be around anyone and not worry about things. It took me ages to learn this, but I feel so much better now. I didn’t come to earth to be alone so I worked hard to find my happiness inside me. Clearly you’re not ALL alone because someone is filming you.

I love your Films/Docs. They are "not" videos. You are a Filmmaker, a Writer, a Poet, a Sigma. You're Films/Docs are worthy of being submitted to Film/Doc Festivals. Also, write books. They will help people. Lastly, "you" are your best friend. :-)

I do resonate so much with most of your feeling! You are not alone Vanille

This is so beautiful. Thank you for opening your heart and sharing your life with us.

There are many more people such as yourself... you are not alone. It seems like myself you have learned to embrace the suck of being who we are. I'm new to your channel so I don't know enough about you but on the surface I would say if you haven't yet you soon shall learn to love the lifestyle and will eventually become fiercely possessive of your privacy. I know I am , and will eventually fade from society and become nothing more than a long ago memory of the few that had passed me by , a meer ghost or fabled person that is no more... Smoke of a long dead fire.. gone on the breeze never to be again

Hi, your video popped up among others and the title made me click on it, happy I did! Talking about toxic people, a few months ago I ended a couple of friendships (I've known them for 30 yrs) cos they're exactly as you described them: miserable people who want others to feel as miserabke as they are. They're the cause of their own problems but want to do nothing to solve them, as it's easier to vent their frustration on others. I don't miss them to be honest, they've changed for worse. I have very few friends now and I love it that way, no interest in hanging out with new people.

Sending respect and appreciation from Canada. Love your videos, thanks for making them, one day I will book a healing session with you.

i want to share with you that I found your channel in August. I was in a deep struggle to find housing and just exited a very toxic relationship. I was on the edge. Really dark place. Too close. I found your energy healing video. You were genuinely the spark to recovering my resolve. I can not say I am an expert in energy healing. I just know that whoever you are it is YOUR energy. Not cosmic but authentic. I want to tell you how much it really meant to me. You profoundly helped my life in a moment where I felt like everyone would always be gone. You are such a beautiful, incredible, admirable soul.

I've always been the gay ,fem, skinny, white boy. I grew up in conservative Texas. Also, I was adopted by a Vietnamese family. I was bullied and made fun of my whole life and never had a friend that didn't turn on me. I joined the military to find some but just found more discrimination and crippling loneliness. Now I'm going at it alone. I'm leaving the military in 2 months, And Im much happier! I meditate for at least 1 hour a day and in a big way I. Feel as though us loners are connected in a special way. In a way, We are all there for each other. In an isolated but beautiful way. Thank you for sharing. You have a gift in poetry and videography. Keep going. Next time I meditate I will send positive energy to you and your partner. We all may be alone, but we are all alone together. ❤️

You are a healer , your story is very healing .

I don't know how your video came to be in my feed, but it is beautifully made and genuine. I love the honesty and can relate.

You are an inspiration!! Like you, I live in relative solitude in a small cabin in the woods. I love nature and animals and don’t feel compelled to socialize. People will always be critical if we don’t conform to their lifestyle - they’re just philistines who don’t have original thoughts. I think you’re very brave and enjoy your views, especially your healthy cynicism!! 🥰

"I wish to be alone , or with those who know things others don't know." Rainer Maria Rilke. Such a beautiful poet. "let everything happen to you, Beauty and terror, Just keep on going, No feeling is final." Also Rilke. His letters to a young poet are extraordinary. For many years Lou Salome was Rilke's Muse. After she'd been the Muse to both Nietszche and Mahler. She was the femme fatale incarnate. I seem to be developing an idee fixe with Rilke. But that's okay.

You are brave in sharing your vulnerability and you have an amazing heart. I resonate a lot with you. I'd really like to have you as a friend

I stumbled across your channel by accident as it was in my recommended. I love your channel. It’s very healing, and very relatable. My husband and I talk about living off the grid at times. I just subscribed and hit the bell for all notifications. You’re so inspirational.

Wow! You have achieved a lot of insight for someone your age! Being separate from the world is where you will find real growth. I’ve lived my life with few friends and admire your bravery. It’s time for us to help heal others with the truth of what we’ve found ! Remember you’re never alone ! You have soul sisters who love you on here! Thanks for being brave enough to bare your soul ! That is what artists must do. Stand naked and unafraid. If the world judges harshly it’s because when you hold the mirror of truth in front of them, they don’t like what they see in themselves. But don’t let the monsters scare you off the path! Touché !

You're not the only one.

I just found you and I feel so connected to you. I can so so so relate. You are amazing. You are pure light. Thank you for being vulnerable so that you can really help others. I am on a journey and not as far as you but I hope one day I can be. God bless you dear sister. I wish there were more ppl like you in the world. Then we would feel less alone.

Your message is universal and delivered with such a warm and inviting aesthetic. I love everything you're doing. Thank you!

Thank you for your honesty. I am 36 and trust me - a good friend is hard to find. Thank God for books.

Completely understand. I’ve always found friendships to be a massive struggle & have faked it in the past. For a long time, I just can’t nurture, trying to please, the emotional involvement etc. & ultimately I know I’m just not a good friend. We are social creatures so the question ‘what’s wrong with me?’ has popped up plenty in my life & look around, many ppl are so natural in making friends & there is no stress about it- I can’t say I’m not envious. For me ‘no friends’ is not a choice, it’s like I’m hardwired this way.

You are just more spiritually advanced than most people....I too have similar inclinations

Just found your channel and I loved loved loved your vídeos! I feel like that sometimes and the world doesnt get it. I'll continue whatching! Thank you for sharing your toughts ❤

Vetdante, yet again you deeply inspire me. I am so much older than you and it took me a long time to realize that I too no longer am willing to waste time in shallow relationships. If I don't take time to fill up my own tank then my nature of also being a lone wolf begins to disappear. And you said it so well as for those who do not understand you, yes they try to make you feel as miserable as they do inside. You are being true to who you are which resonates with so many of us watching you. I live alone... I have no friends nearby...but I continue to reach out to those animals in need or even a human being if they're willing to have a conversation. Please continue to share the beauty of who you are with all of us because your energy is bringing all of us new life. Your films are so beautifully made and the most helpful thing I watch on RU-vid.

I find it so refreshing to meet an individual on the internet who is a survivor and conquerer. Just love it that you allow yourself to be true to yourself, not to be manipulated and not to be what is expected of you. Instead, you basically free yourself, even if you go against the mainstream. As far as friends are concerned, I believe you will only be able to count your true friends on 1 hand, and you may find that you may not even have 5 true friends during your lifetime. It is life, and it is what it is... Thanks for sharing these beautiful views and surroundings. What a lovely and serene place to stay at.

I discovered your channel last night and had to go through them all. You've been through a lot and still, as wounded, you found the power to stand and find your way, and turned towards the ones that hurt you to save them too, through your precious words. I'm amazed! Will continue to watch and support your channel. 🙏

What a great video, lots of self-reflections. I know other who feel like you about humans, who can blame you. Keep strong!

Maybe you don't need to look for people similar to you; we will find you, thanks to algorithms. Although I enjoy being alone, my limit is about 5 days; then I must go among people, even if I do not speak to any individual. Must be something inside that pushes us to connect with others. This is your first video I have seen, but I connected immediately. Thank you! You seem to me to be a lovely person.

One ❤ sistar 🌟. You made my heart feel tranquil, thank you 😊. I'm new to your channel and just wanted to say hi from a fellow lone wolf , although I live with my wolf, Major the Belgium malinois shepherd. I live in my converted 7.5 ton horsebox, on a farm in 🇬🇧. I have aspurges and have never fitted in , always battled depression, drugs and narcissistic scumbags and I too prefer nature and animals, 2 dogs , 2 cats and six chickens and they are my life , my friends and my family, all I need . I have 2 human friends who I truly trust, they are like us so , we all are fine and happy seeing each other in the flesh a couple of times a year, for the most part it's talking on the phone. I'm in a better place now than I've been for a while, trying to break my own cycles like you , trying to be good to myself. If it weren't for Major in particular I don't know that I'd be here , he was stuck with a narcissist, chained beaten and starved until I met him , saved him , gave him trust , love and respect and he has given it right back and has completely stolen my heart. He's always there for me, guarding and protecting me, even though all he'd learnt was pain , anger, gaslighting and hunger, he took a chance on me and it has paid off for both of us , plus with a maligator guarding the door I've never slept so soundly. Plus when you have a maligator, people tend to leave you alone so , magic, I love being alone and not having my energy completely drained from other people and their drama's. I've subscribed and I'm looking forward to your tranquil nature and presence, you are beautiful . One ❤

Thank you, Verdant, that was a great video. I don't know where you find the time to do chores, to live and create such videos; but I'm glad you create these little oasis moments. They give time to let thoughts drift away like fog rolling down a hill…

Your not alone . Many of us feel this same energy run through our veins . Sending you love 💕

You’re videos are such art! I love them and it’s incredible you spend so much time in Mother Nature, I will do this soon. The next time I move I will certainly be amongst the trees! Sending you love and light. And you can never truly be alone, especially with all those trees, just give the one that calls you a hug and they’ll zap any lonely out of you as well. Also, you are an empath so give yourself some peace. Hidden within are many psychic abilities, you just have to learn more about you! I believe in you! Your journey is just beginning! 🎉❤

Beautiful video! Very relatable too. I experienced a spiritual awakening over three years ago. I find that I spend almost all my time alone. People's energy drains me. I think how you are living is amazing!

I just found your RU-vid channel, I love your films, the solitude,and your peaceful lifestyle.

This was beautiful and healing. Thank you for sharing. I look forward to more. "I'll be back, my pack." Classic. Much love.

I have to human friends that I can trust . You are never alone ! Someone is always watching over you whether u see them or not .

Watching the video I was reflecting back to my childhood and all the time I spent by myself. I am GenX and I was one of the kids who was expected to go outside and not come home till dark. I learned to be quite self sufficient at an early age. While I certainly had friends and would hang out with them, I would also spend a lot of time alone, exploring by myself. Looking back, those are some of my favorite memories. I can't help but think those times were a precursor to the life I live now. One where I choose to spend a lot of time alone. I am content, rarely lonely or bored. I love the freedom it affords me. My favorite days are the rare ones where I wake up with no obligations to anyone or anything, well except for the cat, and wander through the day doing whatever I feel like at any given moment. Talk about freedom. Like you and many others I'm also an introvert who has to recharge after spending too much time around other people. I had to spend the entire day today with other people and by the end I had nothing left. I was wiped out. There was a time when I struggled with my introverted nature. I took time to explore my personality traits and now I embrace being an introvert. This is me, this is who I am. I cant help it if some aspects of society think of us as "weird". Whatever man, let them think what they think. Like you said they are probably in a place that doesn't allow them to comprehend the world from our perspective. One lesson I had to learn is that it takes fortitude to live this way. You have to come to terms with yourself one way or another or the demons will come after you. If you've been there you understand. Head nod to you. You have your fair share of strength already my friend. I imagine a lot of people here do. Like everyone you've struggled, but look at the experiences those struggles have allowed you. The insight you've gained. You're living a life you want and on your terms. You have my respect for your hard work. I wasn't like that at your age. Hell, I'm still working on getting there. Thanks again for bringing us along on your unique journey. You risk a lot with your authenticity and yet you still create beautiful, thought provoking content. You're a bright spot in this effing world Vanille.