The Son of a Schizophrenic Mom Who Believed Her Hallucinations

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Chris is the son of a schizophrenic mom who believed her hallucinations and delusions were real. When he was a child, she would constantly tell him things like "There are demons around you, feasting on your soul." Now an adult who is diagnosed with schizophrenia, Chris struggles with the same delusions that his mother once believed, but is in treatment and trying to live a fulfilling life. Chris wants others to know that every person in this world is worthy of help and recovery.
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17 апр 2024

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@christragesser_ Месяц назад

Thank you.

@SpecialBooksbySpecialKids Месяц назад

Thank YOU Chris for sharing your story. I know it will help many out there. For those reading this, Chris told me that if there is enough interest he may make his own videos. So feel free to subscribe to his channel (that left the above comment)if that is something you would like.

@trapsfortroubadours Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing your story, I struggle with mental illness and hearing stories like mine help me feel so much less alone. Sending love your way ❤️

@Brycesaggiebabe Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing your life struggles and the things you have experienced. Much love and respect your way. Keep on working on yourself becuaase you are worth it. You are worth working towards the best life you can have.

@oskarlibelle1769 Месяц назад

Thank you sir!!!

@ebonylea5200 Месяц назад

Thankyou for sharing Chris! You are most definitely not alone

@CourtneyMarie-ep6ez Месяц назад

He’s only 20 but he doesn’t speak like a normal 20 year old would. He speaks as if he’s 40 and wise. I hope he knows how great he is.

@courtneywilt7105 Месяц назад

Wisdom doesn't always come with age...It comes with experience. Some people are just given much more experiences much sooner than others.

@skyofthelivingdead 24 дня назад

He had to grow up fast because of his situation.

@elliotrobles3618 22 дня назад

that’s what i was gonna say

@PAPPADASH 20 дней назад

No CAP, he's got RIZZ

@sensisensei5201 10 дней назад

People who have schizophrenia are very good story tellers

@AutisticWizardd 14 дней назад

You can hear the pain and trauma in his voice, the avoiding eye contact, the hunching over. I feel so bad for him.

@cv6442 Месяц назад

If you see this, it is not your fault for wanting a dog. Period. 💔 I hope you are able to get a service dog that helps keep you grounded during any delusions. Your dog will always have your back, you wont have to worry. I'm so glad you have your hope back. You deserve a beautiful life. 💜💜

@Cutie_Arii123 20 дней назад

Yes! I hope so too!❤❤

@ruthyaya Месяц назад

his parents created and left him a whole world of problems. hope this guy finds a way to turn his pain into purpose rather than continue the cycle of trauma and pain.

@Moonbunny55 Месяц назад

He definitely has what it takes to succeed! ❤

@MiauxCatterie Месяц назад

can't you see he already is

@Phawnreath Месяц назад

I can relate to this so hard. My entire Viewpoint of life is so much different from others and it's always been so difficult to talk about. I've always been ostracized from society because of the way I think. But the way I think is based off of the life I've lived. I feel his pain.

@just.a.hot.potato Месяц назад

And I don't think he is quite understanding "both parents".

@szeszi21 Месяц назад

Very wellspoken and articulated thoughts. I hope that his apparently high intelligence will help him to work through the hardships he's facing now. Being a young adult is not an easy period for many of us but that's when we can learn the most about ourselves. Hang in there Chris, you will put these things behind you.

@anxious_and_avoidant Месяц назад

oh man, i'm only 3 minutes in and heartbroken for this man. i hope he finds peace through sharing his story. he's not alone in any of his struggles.

@mollyislovely Месяц назад

My heart is so broken as well. I feel terrible.

@EveryEditz9112 Месяц назад

Same

@BlueAlien2 Месяц назад

As a child, it’s impossible not to buy in to a parent’s interpretation of reality. I am deeply sorry for your loss. You were not responsible. I’m sorry that you have to live with that. I am sorry you just can’t relax. Kindness to you.

@melykm4051 Месяц назад

He's still so young. He still needs a mom 😭

@OligoST Месяц назад

Alone but not alone. Although there are people out there who can relate, nobody is exactly in his shoes and nobody is better equipped to overcome the struggle than him.

@findyourpassion8722 Месяц назад

This young man is more self aware than majority of adults. It’s good that he is out of the toxic environments. May he find happiness and true laughter.

@kirstron2390 Месяц назад

This sweet, extremely intelligent man has gone through HELL as a child and he STILL is being empathetic and non judgmental to ANYONE in the family…you are a gem and I hope you see this. I don’t know you personally, but I can say you are extremely strong, smart, loving, patient, kind…you are not what you’ve experienced. You are so much better than that. ❤

@mareikekeller9688 Месяц назад

"Your delusions are real and fake at the same time." That's a perfect way of putting it. I am so happy that you had such a good experience at the hospital and that you have found a therapist you feel you can trust. That is so hard. Not only because good trauma specialist are rare. You also need to find the courage in yourself to trust them enough so they can help you through bad phases. I wish you all the best.

@justins3810 Месяц назад

Probably the crap medication making him worse. Doctors are idiots when it comes to mental health

@deathbydeviceable Месяц назад

It's the only way man can experience the unseen. Once you believe in religion heart mind and soul there's no escape from it. The only thing you can do is wait for the second coming in a very dark room

@cameronschyuder9034 Месяц назад

@@deathbydeviceableI wouldn’t exactly classify religion as the same as delusions. For one, not every theist practices because they’ve experienced a “personal spiritual experience.”

@PookieEST2001 21 день назад

@@cameronschyuder9034religion is a delusion. You think some deity is sitting there, judging BILLIONS of people, deciding who goes where? Did you know that schizophrenics who ARENT exposed to religion have much more manageable symptoms? There’s schizophrenics deep in the Amazon rainforest, on remote islands, in remote mountain villages…and they don’t hurt people “in the name of god”. God is dead.

@AnnetFaber-bn5bf Месяц назад

He says he feels younger than he is, yet carries old. An intelligent man with language-magician skills. I hope he continues to fight and overcome his worst symptoms and learns to feel again. When I listened to him telling his story, I heard not only a public speaker but also a writer.

@doramericyavuz Месяц назад

Exactly what I thought. He's a great story teller although the story he told wasn't so great. Wish him all the best.

@heathersha Месяц назад

Yes, yes, yes! An amazing speaker and sharer of stories. I love how you said "language magician" because that is him! I was spellbound, intrigued, heartbroken, and completely connected from the beginning.

@25nickpro Месяц назад

Please consider writing. You have a way with words and a powerful story to tell!

@simplyshirene8833 Месяц назад

Same here. The way he tells his story pulls you in and you listen intently

@marmackerel Месяц назад

My thoughts exactly! He is great with words and i feel he could become a writer if he isnt one already

@hanney91 Месяц назад

Your tribe is out there. We can’t all be your friend in person because we are spread all over the world but just know you are not alone… we get you… we love you.

@leighleigh8725 Месяц назад

NO ONE SAYS NO TO DUMPSTER UTERUS LIZZZYYYYY

@f8ofk8 Месяц назад

Thank you for saying this, Hanney. ❤❤❤

@sleepydreamdealer Месяц назад

Such a kind words. Even whispered from the other side of the world, they reach and warmed the lonely soul.

@Estherbethe1... Месяц назад

✨🔥💖🔥✨ 🤜🤛

@KillTheDeadMonkey Месяц назад

❤

@stephaniesellers4315 Месяц назад

His final sentiments have me in tears. What an incredible gentleman. Thank you for allowing him to share his story, Chris.

@maksymiliankisielewski344 Месяц назад

Dear brother I have a severe schizophrenia but I come from a good familly. I just want to say you are an inspiration how you overcame your problems. You are one good guy. Wish you all the best in life and God bless ❤❤❤

@seatherny_y Месяц назад

I was diagnosed extremely early as a schizophrenic. (As a child) I would say my schizophrenia is pretty severe as well but I'm healing. I'm glad your family helps you 😇

@fungustheclown666 Месяц назад

@Christine19205gold So have autistic people, but there's lots that were properly treated by their parents. I think its because mental illness can fuel neglect and abuse, and while autism isn't a mental illness, it can cause a lot of mental illnesses. My mom is who I got it from, and she has comorbid NPD or ASPD or BPD (doctors never knew which one it was) from childhood abuse from her undiagnosed autistic drug addicted parents, and she also abuses drugs and has OCD. It all created an unhealthy abusive situation, and it repeats over and over. It's the same with schizophrenia. The thing is, all these things do not automatically cause abuse, they just make it more likely as their sense of morality is skewed. I actually developed some of her OCD rituals for a long time, thankfully I don't have it much anymore.

@user-wg4ie9pb3x Месяц назад

@Christine19205gold : you've shared an anecdotal belief, not a fact.

@ronniebattle1310 Месяц назад

Jesus Encounter Ministries RU-vid channel

@RealMoonmen Месяц назад

@@user-wg4ie9pb3x Uh, that’s not an anecdote bro. Nothing is being referenced to from real experience, it’s just a blank statement which a lot of people resonate with “A lot of schizophrenics have bad childhoods”, didn’t even say “all” either. You are more likely to experience a bad childhood when you’re maturing with a mental illness.

@millename Месяц назад

Oh boy, he’s just 20... Basically still a child! Hopefully he will have a good life ahead and everything will be under control ❤

@user-p6-3561 Месяц назад

20 year old is a man

@devonmunn5728 Месяц назад

Younger then me too (I was born in 2000)

@BrownGeorge-pw2xo 8 дней назад

I suffered severe depression and mental disorder years ago as a teenage. Got diagnosed with schizophrenia. Spent my whole life fighting schizophrenia. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

@CARIBBEAN_365 8 дней назад

Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.

@JanetRichardson-mq5es 8 дней назад

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them

@SusanaGomez-mp8sk 8 дней назад

YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

@Edennnn926 8 дней назад

100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma

@AlexanderMales-gh8bm 8 дней назад

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

@pamigreenway Месяц назад

He's only 20? This man has taken a lifetime of unimaginable pain and turned it into compassion and insight. What a rare and unique person and I wish him the life he deserves from here on out!

@obelisssk Месяц назад

This man is absolutely incredible. His ability to survive and be resilient is awe inspiring. Much love to you, and I hope you can find peace and joy in this life.

@KerrieBerrie Месяц назад

Right, how is it that someone who was shown so little compassion all his life can have so much kindness and compassion for others? I feel like he has every reason to be an angry and mean person but instead... such a testament to his strength of character.

@Moonbunny55 Месяц назад

How does a child end up with the burden of processing family dysfunction ALL BY HIMSELF!!?? What a warrior to make it as far as he did and continues to value life despite the cards that were dealt. Hang in there dear soul, you’re gonna get where you want to go. Sending love and many blessings to you ✨💖✨

@apparentlyasun Месяц назад

unfortunately children ending up feeling like they have to address the burden by themselves is pretty common in dysfunctional families. especially when the adults can't/won't be able to sort out their own problems in a healthy way, and especially in cases of generational trauma : (

@ozziefriez8351 Месяц назад

@@apparentlyasunTHIS! Being the one to bear the burden of not only my traumas but my family’s as well has led me down a very difficult (hopefully eventually rewarding) path.

@Gee-xb7rt Месяц назад

@@ozziefriez8351 one therapy used is called Ideal parent figure protocol. The issue is children are hardwired to bond with parents, only when parents don't validate their children it leaves the child thinking its their fault, and there are a number of paths a child can take to try to win their parents validation, be smarter, more entertaining, more pleasing, more accomplished, but of course the validation never comes, and the child keeps blaming themself.

@fritzfxx Месяц назад

By definition, the vast majority of those from dysfunctional families have to deal on their own

@asiyaheibhlin Месяц назад

I am one of many that I know who are doing the same thing. It seems to be a theme in my generation (born in 1995). My conversion to Islam had aided a lot of that, as well as years of therapy, and logical application in my daily life (helps me balance out my emotional state when I am constantly using logic on tasks like debating, writing essays foe fun, problem-solving, etc.)

@christina8663 Месяц назад

7 minutes in & I'm mesmerized by how he speaks. I mean I could be totally wrong but he sounds like he would be a great author or poet. What I'm trying to say is he has a way with words. I wish him the best! 😊

@cassandrabuitron427 Месяц назад

Chris has a novel to share. He was gifted with storytelling. Thank you for your honesty and your bravery. As a mother, my heart goes out to you. As a previous mental health professional, this should be mandatory viewing.

@thejerk9154 Месяц назад

My mom same. I was diagnosed at 18. My mom still goes too church and believes everything in her head. She would beat me. Lock me in my room. I left the house at 18 and now we dont talk at all. The struggle is real. The people in my head will never stop and i wont either. I wish you all the strength u need too get through life. It isnt always fair.

@Inquisitor2024 Месяц назад

❤

@Uglyoldhag Месяц назад

My heart goes out to you. X

@Mo29577 Месяц назад

❤

@GD-xc4wg Месяц назад

I talked once awhile ago with someone who had schizophrenia. He said he had to accept it, go therapy and he had medication for it and he was doing way better. He was living with someone who also had mental health, like colocation and working too. Courage to you too ❤

@Apple_45 Месяц назад

How did u end up moving out on ur own? I’m 19 & have persistent depression, OCD, and social anxiety. All the symptoms of these disorders along with living in a narcissistic family makes me fearful of what I’ll do if and honestly when my parents kick me out. I have no support system and don’t know if I can survive on my own.

@bmary8283 Месяц назад

This young boy is so strong and courageous. The final message really got me, instead of saying something about him, he focused on us who have watched the video, he focused on giving strength to us, he made the last message a message to us. You really have a big and kind heart. I wish you the best life ever 💙

@annataymond9529 Месяц назад

It would be so weird to not have any idea how much of what you were told or remembered actually happened, and how much was hallucinations/delusions. Especially with the stuff about abuse from the other parent. That’s insane, I can’t even imagine.

@DannieJ312 Месяц назад

Thank you so much for coming forward with your story and allowing Chris to interview you. I know there are others watching this who are or were in your same shoes. What an incredibly heartbreaking life. I’m so very sorry for all you’ve gone through.

@DannieJ312 Месяц назад

My brother in law is paranoid schizophrenic. He gets it from his dad. He also believes he’s the one Revelations is talking about as well but he came up with that on his own. Medication has helped tremendously though.

@rawlivingwithdisabilities Месяц назад

I think Chris is so respectful ❤ he let him talk freely no questions or interruption..its like a therapy session

@noeliarocio4367 Месяц назад

Life can be so unfair! He's clearly a very smart, eloquent and interesting person, and it makes me sad that the adults around him were the worst kind of people. Best is yet to come! I truly wish him a future full of love, understanding and happiness

@aminabouali4630 Месяц назад

I love the way he narrates. Such a brave intelligent man.

@kathymorris4553 Месяц назад

My daughter has same diagnosis. I’m so sorry your childhood was so terrible. You’re doing good and I’m so proud of you. Remember the past is the past. It is was it is. Stay busy, have a good support system. Be grateful, be happy today is a good day. I would like to be your mom.♥️

@federicav794 Месяц назад

What a wonderful boy! A big hug from an italian mother

@gas-lyghtchristianson-ashl5041 Месяц назад

You Italians always find a way to say it

@federicav794 Месяц назад

@@gas-lyghtchristianson-ashl5041 ❤️

@shoozu Месяц назад

Right?! 😂 @@gas-lyghtchristianson-ashl5041

@HairwayToSteaven1 Месяц назад

Out of the all the turmoil that Chris has gone through since an early age, a well spoken and humble young man has emerged like a phoenix. Stay strong and thank you for sharing your light

@binxwaxcap7832 14 дней назад

"Because I have hope now" always keep holding on to that hope

@baluchon2505 Месяц назад

For him being only 20 years old, I am baffled at the intelligence with which he speaks about all of this. He must have thought about it so much and tried to analyze it so intensely. Admirably resilient person.

@jeffreyerickson6766 Месяц назад

What an insightful and caring man he is.

@porcelainegg Месяц назад

i can listen to this guy speak all day, i feel comforted by him , i don’t feel alone.

@Prettymapleleaf Месяц назад

You aren’t alone ❤

@aliciakowalski 2 дня назад

He is such a strong and courageous person for sharing his story. And his message at the end had me in tears. Thank you for opening yourself up and sharing your story

@Marniuhhh Месяц назад

Its very courageous of Chris to his story openly to all of us. Very moving. I hope he finds some assurance or peace from opening up. I wish the best for him.

@vivienleigh4640 Месяц назад

I used to work with "in-patients", a closed ward, I was in my early 20's and it was one of the best experiences of my life. I felt safe surrounded by people that didn't, couldn't, fake it. It was genuine in lack of a better word. I felt at home. Thank you Chris! You're one of my heroes. Thank you for staying alive and tell your story. What a beautiful gift, precious. So happy that you've met a therapist that you trust

@high62609 Месяц назад

I've been an impatient and had some wonderful people who helped me.

@saidraalien6837 Месяц назад

The mood and tone of hospitals is something that always made sense to me .

@melindawargowsky8176 Месяц назад

How brave is this young man? I’m grateful he’s in an environment where he feels safety and comfort, and that he has a therapist with whom he has connected and bonded. Wishing him a peaceful and happier future.

@boundlesslife Месяц назад

Chris, thank you so much for sharing your story. I clicked on this video so quickly, because I have been struggling for so long by myself. I grew up in a chaotic household with my schizophrenic mother. No one told me that her paranoid delusions were not real. No one even acknowledged that there was a problem. I was always walking on egg shells and had no idea what the next day would bring. I remember being forced to sleep at friends' houses, because my mom told me that the mafia had hired a hitman to murder us in our sleep. She was convinced that aliens communicated with her in the middle of the night through the smoke detectors. Even though I was a perfect student who never did anything wrong, she accused me of selling cocaine, and countless times she reminded me over and over again that when my parents finally caught me selling drugs, they would disown me and never speak to me again. No one ever comforted me. I had to figure out for myself that the delusions were not real. I have C-PTSD and cannot afford therapy, so I am just trying to get through each day at a time and find a sense of peace after so many years of fear and despair. Thank you so much for sharing your strength and your words that we are worthy exactly as we are. I recognize how difficult it is to find vulnerability, connection, and compassion, and it takes true strength. I am sending you my best.

@rae7864 Месяц назад

What an amazing, strong, smart young man. He deserves so much love, kindness, respect, and HAPPINESS.. i really hope he can get help, some really good friends, a partner. Just live a happy life. Id love to be this mans friend ❤

@norapeterson6331 Месяц назад

"I wasnt just a person that was tolerated" Speaking of the people he met at the hospital. That was heavy. He was more welcomed and "seen" by them than with his own family. Well, those were/are very smart people, because this guy is very worth knowing ❤❤❤

@pechblendae Месяц назад

I have flashback myself listening to Chris. My mom was schizoaffective and had mystical delusions as well. I’ve been lucky to have had a loving Daddy who saved at least a tiny part of my mental sanity. All my heart goes out to you, Chris. All of it.

@joyful_tanya Месяц назад

My son, also named Chris has schizo-affective with delusions. He's right now not speaking to me because according to him I am not his mother. 😢 I will be here when he remembers I am. He has a supportive partner who lets me know he's ok. His delusions tell him that his bio father is El Chapo and grandma is Jessica Lang. Can't make this up. My heart breaks because there isn't anything I can really do except love him from afar.

@LiClan Месяц назад

@@joyful_tanyasorry to hear that. I was a very disobedient son with many regrets that I must live with. Please don’t be too hard on yourself as it must be very upsetting for you. I hope and pray for you and your son ❤

@joyful_tanya Месяц назад

@@LiClan thank you very much. I'm trying not to be hard on myself. It's been hard, but it's getting better.

@MercuricChloride 27 дней назад

@@joyful_tanyaI'm also named Chris and schizoaffective lol, what a crazy occurrence with people named Chris huh? But I hope your son gets out of his delusion that you're not his mother, just show him lots of love and empathy and hopefully things get better for you

@joyful_tanya 27 дней назад

@@MercuricChloride thank you very much Chris. He's blocked me for now but I will be here when he's ready. His long term GF let's me know he's ok. 🫂❤️

@gabriela_rose4827 Месяц назад

Beautiful, I’d love to be a friend with someone as kind, sympathetic and well-spoken as you!!

@jazhillstaten Месяц назад

Hands down my favorite episode. I have learned so much. Thank you.

@jeremiahallyn4603 Месяц назад

I hate that this young man had to deal with so much at a young age. I hope that he can move on from it and have a happy and fulfilling life 🙏🙂

@allylabar21 Месяц назад

I so badly want to give him a hug! I want to show him the proper love of a mother/family, just to show him he is loved and cared about and make sure he gets what he needs. 😢❤😊

@annagustavsson9969 Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing your story and sharing hope! You are so well spoken, what a thoughtful and beautiful soul! Best wishes from Sweden!

@theresekirkpatrick3337 Месяц назад

Goodness you have been through so much. My cousin experienced terrible things as a child too. Her mother wasn’t sane or kind. Blessings for a full recovery. You deserve happiness, security and peace.

@TheNomadicSunny Месяц назад

chris, i relate you are not alone. my partner is a T1D and i’ve been traumatized over and over again through saving his life over his T1D lows- waking to him seizing beside me(we live in a van) and it’s been so tough. as shitty as it is i am glad to relate to someone

@TheoRae8289 Месяц назад

it's amazing what a moment of no longer feeling alone can do.

@Nikki-mx3fv Месяц назад

I'm not afraid of you kind Sir. I was raised by a single mother, who worked as a psychiatric registered nurse. She has bestowed her knowledge onto me. So I understand. Your words at the end floored me and made me cry because oddly those are the words I never hear but truly needed to. Thank you for that. I don't believe it quite yet but those words can help me to put one foot in front of the other for tomorrow. Never underestimate the power of your words. Thank you again. You are appreciated.

@messitup Месяц назад

I'd like to give Chris a big big hug!

@melissabarravecchio5577 Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing. I struggle with another taboo mental illness and I related to this a lot. Props to you for pushing yourself out of your comfort zone. Keep going!

@val_smiling8474 Месяц назад

I am so sorry. No child should have to go through what you did! You deserved much better! I'm proud of you for reaching out to help (therapy, medication, interactions, telling your story...) It is such a brave thing to do! And uncharted territory for your family line... Yet you're doing it!!! Keep going! I hope you continue to have more and more hope! ❤️

@ravenmmarlowe Месяц назад

Sending so much love your way Chris! My dad has schizophrenia and it led him to being really violent towards me throughout my childhood. I always try to lead with kindness and empathy, but I think that the experience resulted in me having a subconscious fear of people with psychotic disorders for a long time. I’ve worked hard to educate myself and become an advocate for people with schizophrenia but it’s a continued journey for me. Stories like yours need to be shared and I’m so grateful to you for speaking out against the stigmas surrounding schizophrenia. ❤

@petunia2008 Месяц назад

Chris, I am so deeply sorry for you... I wish you only peace and joy. Sending lots of love from Poland.

@Amandapanda888 Месяц назад

Thank you young man for your message at the end of the video. I’m going through an incredibly hard time right now and have lost a lot of hope but your message gave me light in my heart. I hope for a better future and life for you as well. Keep pushing through because you are loved!

@YadisThantos Месяц назад

thank you for being here and sharing your story, you are beautiful, i wish you the best and hopefully a good and supportive environement and life.

@marag1568 Месяц назад

What to say about such a story… this is beyond heartbreaking. Yet, despite your pain, you are so composed and wise beyond your years. Please remember that you are not your family’s mistakes - you are anything but. You were/are a young person seeking comfort from a family that neglected that affection. What you’ve taken from all this tragedy is amazing. I’m 23, and could only hope for this type of retrospect and wisdom when I’m much older. I’ve experienced struggle, but if I had to deal with a fraction of what you’ve been through, I don’t know where I’d be. You are incredibly intelligent, resilient, and kind. You’re special, and despite all the cruelty that’s been bestowed on you, I think your fight will take you far. Thank you for sharing❤️ sending you love and well wishes

@marag1568 Месяц назад

And for the record, you have such a great voice, such a specific way of compelling storytelling. I think you could write a fantastic memoir - and that’s saying a lot considering 1.) how young you are 2.) this is coming from an English teacher (if that actually means anything lol)!

@LaPimposa Месяц назад

I wrote to him: i would like to improve my english with you! He could be an excellent english teacher. I am an italian native speaker. So i totally agree with you

@jezstyles2233 Месяц назад

English major here! 1. Your comment was beautiful! 2. I totally agree! Chris has such a beautiful voice, sound wise and syntax wise. Chris should definitely write!! Doesn’t have to be a memoir (since it may need to take lots of time and could be traumatizing; not everyone needs to share their story and be an activist or whatever) but writing can help with anxiety and provide an amazing creative outlet that can be a safety net for people to go to rather than negative self talk, etc. it definitely helps me through any frozen state I find myself in. ❤

@marag1568 Месяц назад

@@jezstyles2233 thank you so much, and YES!!! Great points - you’re absolutely right!! Writing of any kind is so healing (I can attest) and whether he shares it with anyone or not, I’m sure he’d have such a captivating voice!❤️

@ivonned32 Месяц назад

You can do it Chris. You have brought your issue to your consciousness now. You are aware. It will get easier and easier with time. Dont loose hope on your self! You are exceptionally intelligent. 🙏🏾👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽✨✨✨

@traumaannellama Месяц назад

This channel always speaks beautiful truths! Thanks for giving these wonderful souls a platform!

@Sonnenspinne Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing your story and thank you to the makers of this channel for doing this.

@seto02 Месяц назад

This was heartbreaking man, you deserve all the love in life. Your finishing words really touched me thank you for that!

@Moonbunny55 Месяц назад

Me too! It was straight from his heart! 💖

@TheBriZone Месяц назад

This is one of Chris's most important videos. Raw and real. Just like the disease of mental illness. Thank you gentlemen both for your bravery to speak so bluntly online. Chris, you have a purpose in this life. You are very intelligent and so young. I believe you have the ability to do real good in this world. God loves you, dont be afraid to express your beliefs. Thank you for sharing your story. Many will benefit. ❤

@patrikpass2962 Месяц назад

Thats nice to say. But wont this comment make his illness of grandeur worse?

@MercuricChloride 27 дней назад

@@patrikpass2962how is it grandeur exactly? He isn't putting himself on a podium

@patrikpass2962 27 дней назад

@@MercuricChloride Chris told us he has problems with grandeur trough a religious context and she is implying that he is special and she mentions God.

@MercuricChloride 26 дней назад

@@patrikpass2962 doesn't mean his entire disorder is grandeur based. Delusions are episodic

@MercuricChloride 26 дней назад

@@patrikpass2962 but I do agree that the OP of the comment we're under shouldn't have told him to openly share his beliefs

@LuciaCeardi Месяц назад

Bless you for your bravery in sharing your story. YOU MATTER! ❤

@pinipinella Месяц назад

Thank you so much for your kind words in the end. I’m crying 🥲. And thank you so much for sharing your story

@brazelton24496 Месяц назад

As someone with recurring major depression and a daughter with a schizoaffective diagnosis I hear you, I see you. The positive path you have chosen will, I hope, bring you a better life than you have had.

@TheNordicharps Месяц назад

I am a retired psychiatrist. I have met so many like this very intelligent handikapped young man. My heart goes out to him. I hope he gets all the help he needs. ❤

@GeekGamer666 Месяц назад

Out of curiosity, why did you feel the need to use the word handicapped in that sentence? Intelligent young man is still accurate.

@theboujieproletariat Месяц назад

Exactly. Disability has no correlation to intelligence! @@GeekGamer666

@YuokoII Месяц назад

@@GeekGamer666 I'll be bold to assume that its professional deformation

@lovingmayberry307 Месяц назад

@@GeekGamer666 That might be typical language in his country.

@user-gf1xg5zd9l Месяц назад

@@lovingmayberry307Handicapped isn’t a medical term. His English is good enough to know that is an outdated term.

@alsolima3358 Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing your story. It will definitely contribute to increasing social visibility of mental health issues.

@mamakim1698 Месяц назад

What a lovely man. Really heartbreaking story. I can relate to a lot on the feelings he has struggled with and how his life has panned out. Trauma is complex but there's hope and even though it took a long time, I'm thankful for feeling completely different after yrs of therapy. A good therapist and a drive to push through the bad days is essential and this guy seems to have that quality. Good luck to him. ❤️✨✌️

@WishAtElevenEleven Месяц назад

I love that this channel sheds light on a wide variety of serious mental illnesses that are usually not talked about.

@aldekorea Месяц назад

Very well worded man! Thanks for your message! And best wishes to you!

@mariamurmis4915 Месяц назад

You have had such a hard life. I admire your commitment to heal and your strength and intelligence. I wish you the best! May you find happiness and peace.

@B0bCat11 Месяц назад

Hey Chris, you strong af. Thanks for sharing all of it.

@melissah1953 Месяц назад

Im tearing up. This man is a good soul who did what he had to. Reminds me of my own childhood and its not okay but I would do it all over again ❤

@HamEggsButteredToast Месяц назад

Kudos to Chris for his incredible ability to reflect and put his thoughts and feelings into words. I can't imagine how difficult and painful it must be to process and work through your history. I'm rooting for you, you're doing great. Also kudos to SBSK Chris for his ability to sit and LISTEN, guide, encourage and let people take control of their interviews, and meeting everyone where they need and want to be met. I'd say you have a gift, but I know it's also a beautifully, intentionally honed skill.

@marinschuldt101 Месяц назад

This man is amazing!! Wise beyond his years!!! His message hit home with me...he is brave and just A special human being. Wonderful soul ❤️☺️💝😇

@monaminchau4798 Месяц назад

Chris, you are a normal person in most aspects. Your childhood experience is hopefully not “normal”, and I am so happy for you that you have found a way forward. You can take pride in how much you accomplished as a child and adolescent, even though that was forced upon you so early. That inner strength and resilience can take you to a much happier future. Believe in yourself and be proud of yourself. If you are not “normal”, you are certainly not inferior, but better than many of us!

@Burkwood Месяц назад

What a smart young man. I'm really glad he realized he needed to open up. As someone who has isolated myself because of my depression, I've had to make that same decision, and it has really helped. To let your pain out into the world and not keep it wholly as a part of yourself. I wish him health and peace.

@ivpetr4544 Месяц назад

All the best to you too 💙

@heathersha Месяц назад

What self awareness! What clarity in the sharing! I am feeling with you my brother, and sending love. Your story is only just beginning, and you have worlds of love, joy and healing waiting in the golden light of each moment. Thank you, thank you for sharing. Believe in yourself because you are amazing and worthy of every wonderful and beautiful experience. 🙏🏽💫❤

@PaulaValentine-pi6jp Месяц назад

Such a truly inspirational story. You are not alone. You are worth it. You deserve to be loved and live a happy life. Thank you for sharing part of your journey with us.

@sarahbattle6208 Месяц назад

Thank you for your testimony this is probably one of the best episodes I’ve seen on this channel

@gamersguide_1 Месяц назад

Getting to know people facing these struggles but still going is truly fascinating!

@daviboiify Месяц назад

You really have such an incredible understanding of when it's time to just quietly listen to a story. It's such an underrated quality in interviewers. I love watching you interview people. This must be the least I have ever heard you speak, and yet this is one of your most captivating videos. You have true talent.

@dcnunez100 26 дней назад

"That I have hope now" - Yes! This so touched my heart 🥰 You are not alone. In my prayers. Sending love and support from Southern California ❤️

@jaderinehart7179 Месяц назад

Thank you for sharing this story! I've been following this channel for a while because I'm an aspiring mental health professional but this episode hit very close to my heart, I've never seen a story as similar as my own and it's so relieving in a way to know that there are other people who have experienced similar trauma as you. For context I grew up with a father with undiagnosed schizophrenia that revolved around religion as well for around 10 years and it was extremely difficult, especially because for a long time I was undiagnosed with autism among other things. I'm so glad to see that after it all there is still happiness in the world for people like me and Chris.

@kileygaither9302 Месяц назад

His message at the end made me cry. Such a beautiful soul, thank you for this. I see so much growth in your future

@MicahAngelOfficial Месяц назад

Thank you for your courage in sharing your experiences, Chris Tragesser. You’ve been incredibly brave through traumatic events that were never your fault, & they never should have happened to you. You are worthy of safety, peace, stability, & support in every area of your life. I hope you continue to share your creativity & your healing insights with the world. Your story is powerful, helpful, & validating for many people. I’m very glad you’re here. & thank you, Chris Ulmer & the SBSK team for creating this inspiring channel + organization. ✨

@LM4210 Месяц назад

So articulate and smart for such a young man. I wish you the best of life as you work through the trauma.

@AmericanMeiling Месяц назад

That poor baby 💔 the Trama he endured , yet still speaks so calmly about her ... The avoidance of the medical community and extreme beliefs mixed in with a horrible mental disease ... are indeed a deadly mix 💝 I am grateful he acknowledged her sickness and his own .. he can get the help his mother never got ... Just imagine how many cases are hidden in history 💖 I hope he finally gets many True happy moments ... You are Amazing

@mgxbreu Месяц назад

Thanks for your kind words, Chris, you also deserve compassion and forgiveness. Im glad that you have hope now. When I started having hope for the first time all of my life changed and it was thanks to my therapist, too.

@alxee1203 18 дней назад

So well spoken, self aware, and likeable. Thank you for sharing

@ClaireNief-uy5un Месяц назад

Such a brave and kind soul ❤ I think your eloquence and storytelling are riveting, thank you so much for sharing your past and putting yourself out in the world

@blairariavanderkamp3405 Месяц назад

I am so sorry that you had to live and grow up like that. I'm proud of you for fighting and living a fulfilling life.

@justins3810 Месяц назад

Mothers like this do tremendous amounts of mental damage. My mother is nuts and always has been. She has since disowned me and turned my entire family against me because of her sick delusions. This is so sad.

@moomoocowsly Месяц назад

I used to think the same as you until I learned about generational trauma. It's only ever possible to blame the individual themselves when we're ignorant of the things they experienced that made them the way they are. Often those things are never shared and end up simply lost to history. Disorders like this can potentially go many, many generations back, being passed along like a curse.

@justins3810 Месяц назад

@@moomoocowsly Are you excusing her from turning my family against me because of her own sick delusions? Sure her mother was nuts too but that doesn't make it ok for her to take my kids away and turn everyone against me. She's a great faker indeed. My ex wife now benefits and my kids are gone.

@karyne826 Месяц назад

@@justins3810Maybe you need to turn to professionals to help you manage your own mental health issues. Break the cycle.

@justins3810 Месяц назад

@@karyne826 I'm sorry. I am irritated beyond what you could imagine. The mental health system is a laughable and these so called "professionals" are some of the dumbest people alive. I know this from experience.

@melykm4051 Месяц назад

@@moomoocowslyno. You bleed on your therapist not your kids. Millennials are breaking generational trauma. Because frankly we love our kids more and didn't want to ruin their lives like our parents CHOSE to do when they chose not to get help and take accountability. Being abused is not an excuse for abusing. Stop

@pipwolverine 19 дней назад

This was incredibly powerful and moving. Thank you for sharing your story so candidly.

@user-cs2cg9yd1w Месяц назад

That was amazing to listen to your story. May you continue to grow and share hope. Beautiful.

@artemishunter4242 Месяц назад

Tears streaming down my eyes just how sad and how much sorrow is in this man had in his life. I want to say that someone is thinking about you and loves you and wishes nothing but the best in this life. Keep working on yourself and doing good in this world we NEED people like you.

@mollyislovely Месяц назад

Seriously bless his heart and I hope for the best in his journey. I’m proud of him for wanting to continue. I wish them all the best in life.

@Bjanec91 Месяц назад

Wow, this was such a good video. He is so well spoken, and confident yet calm. I really loved what he had to say at the end especially; I needed to hear it. Thank you for sharing your story with us, Chris!

@ms.communication8464 Месяц назад

Thank you for this interview, Chris! You are very worthy. Thank you for your messages to us.

@hamilcross Месяц назад

oh this hit me like a ton of bricks. my maternal grandfather was suspected to suffer from schizophrenia (hard to get any kind of diagnosis when you’re dirt poor and live in an age and culture in which mental health discussions are taboo which he did) and and often took out his anger physically on my grandmother and their children, my mother included. he took his own life in her childhood as a result of his mental health. she and subsequently i have had to deal with the lasting repercussions. i dealt with a mental break around the age of 21 and spent years trying to work my way out of it but thank goodness i feel more in control of my life than i ever have with the support of doctors, friends and family. it’s still such a tricky topic for us to discuss and i can see how it continues to trickle into my mom’s actions and reactions to things. peace be with you and your mother.