The truth about where I have been. 

Wow. I don't even know what to say. This is the first time I have been online since I posted this video and just started reading your comments. I had to stop because I am crying the "ugly tears" from the outpouring of love I'm feeling right now. I don't know what I was expecting but it wasn't this. I can't thank you enough for your kindness, prayers and support. I promise I will come back and read every single word once I catch my breath. I love you guys so much. Thank you. 💕💕💕🤗😚🤗💕💕💕💕

I'm sending healing prayers to you. Bless you Sandy. You are a beautiful soul.

So sorry to hear what you are going through Sandy. Like you said, not knowing is the hardest part. As many others have stated, once they are sure what is wrong, treatment plans show great promise. You have a very large cheering section, and although we can't be there physically for you, the outpouring of love and prayers for you and your Mother is a powerful thing. Stay strong and do what is needed to battle, and overcome crisis you are facing. Much love and prayers for you both.

Hello beautiful Sandy you've always look so well groomed I must've been blind not to notice that you done some reactions sick in bed that's what you get from a 70+yr old. Sandy please please don't worry about us and that you concentrate on getting better for your mum and family that's the most important thing that you can do. Don't worry about us we will always be here for you now and in the future and thank you for letting us know how you are in such detail I don't know how you managed to do that I would have been a blubbering all over the place. Hang in there lovely lady you are so strong in telling us all about yourself in my book your an absolute star we love you so much.😕😘

God be with you & your mom. One day at a time. Let the sun enter your life.

I know you already know how much we care. You've always been so sweet and kind and you've made my life better because you were there looking for ways to brighten everyone else's day.

I remember that the first time I caught one of your videos was when you first discovered Angelina Jordan. And you kept at it doing twofers of Angelina and your wonder and joy was delightful. You have a beautiful way of expressing your viewpoints and thoughts and your absence has been a confusing distress to me. I want you to know that your star shines bright and that with whatever lies ahead you are not alone. Those of us that have been blessed to know you through your YT channel and the heavenly hosts from above are with you. Bless your heart and please have my constant prayer for you.

Sandy, I'm so sorry. My situation is similar to urs but I only want to give u this advice that I refer to mentally, from Mr Rogers: always look for the helpers. In ur case, there are professionals who can help with transport or another rehab stay...with ur sweet personality, everyone will want to help u find solutions... even in this dreaded 2020 nightmare we r all facing. Just ask for help or advice or someone to listen to u cry. Uve been strong enough and deserve a helping hand...or 30. U had the courage to make this video, please keep us updated if only saying it's a good day...or not a good day, and nothing more. But we Dears are called dears because of our kinship and caring. We r only human so we can't do it all by ourselves

Missed you a lot. I feel for you and will think of you and send positive vibes and healing towards you and your mom.

So sorry for your health problems and your Mom’s condition. Hopefully you can be treated for Lupus or whatever is going on and will feel better. It’s always worse not knowing what the problem is. Once you know, you can battle it. Just knowing makes it easier to deal with. Best wishes to you and your Mom. Bev

So sorry to hear this - it's never easy to share such personal information. Love your reactions and have missed them. Best wishes for a speedy and full recovery.

My heart is breaking for you! You were the first person I listened to doing a reaction. I had to subscribe to your channel, I had never done that before. I love your smyle. I always ended my comments by saying "keep on smylyng". You are now in our prayer circle. Today I cried for you. I don't cry often. I'm a 69 year old biker that holds a place for you in my heart. I hope you can get better, and your mother also. I am a cancer survivor myself. I had bladder cancer 7 years ago. Please take the time you need to heal. We all love you very much. Please take care! : * )

Lupus is what I was thinking before you said it. I also have a mild form, same symptoms. I was diagnosed a year ago. I hope you respond to meds as well as I have. I’m sorry to hear about your mother. I know 2 people who had kidney cancer...each had different types. Both are doing well years later. You and your mother are both in my prayers! Please keep us updated!🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷

As someone who has had ME/CFS for over 30 years, I can relate...loving hugs...

Sandy, I love you and my heart grieves for you. At least you may be on the road to some answers. My sister in law has had lupus for over 30 years. Back then it was very hard to diagnose and people thought it was all in her head. Fortunately different medicines really help. You may also want to ask your doctor if they have checked for heavy metal poisoning. I have had cancer and The American Cancer Assoc.has ways to help your mom. They can even offer rides to chemo in some instances. Thank you for sharing. Know that many of us will be lifting up you and your mom in our prayers,

Dear Sandy I am so sorry to hear this real hope you feel beter soon 💕 I will pray for you 🙏

Please stay safe and healthy, don’t try to push yourself. When you mentally or physically can’t handle too much you need to set priorities and let go of a lot of stuff. It’s not good to hold on and keep pushing yourself, which will almost certainly result in more problems. So if you need(ed) a pause you could just tell us and leave RU-vid as long as you need. It’s really hard to hear you are/were having a hard time. Don’t know much about your work or other things in your life, but hope you can take it easy and focus on your health first. ❤️💪 Miss your reactions, but health comes first obviously. I can even wait half a year if you needed it 🙏 Lupus seems to be mostly temporary and symptoms show up slowly so I hope eventually the symptoms disappear. Hope your mother gets through her situation as well, seems like you are in a real hard situation. You need time to pick yourself up and figure more things out. Try to keep yourself calm, I don’t think stress and fear cope well with your health.

I have enjoyed wattching your channel for awhile. I hope you get to feeling better soon. Thoughts and prayers for you and your mom.

Bless your dear sweet heart. What a great burden you are bearing. Prayers for you and your mother, and sending love and hugs to you! God bless you! Hoping for answers to your health issues and treatment toward cure! Sending love to you!! ❤️

Thank you for sharing with us. I am praying that you're and your mom get well. My sincerest thanks for everything that you do for us

Thanks for that, must have been hard. Will add you to my prayer list. Mom too. Love your reactions.

I have been in your position, twise. You are nothing less then a HERO!!

Sending you a virtual hug and love from Norway XXX My wife went through the same as you...she couldn't physically move, she had no strength at all. I took her to the ER where they found her blood pressure was really low. They didn't do anything else there other than send her to our primary care physician for more tests. The results came back...absolutely no vitamin D in her system. She has been taking 4000 mg a day for 18 months now, and although she has good days, she still struggles with very low energy levels and feeling weak. She also found out that she has hypothyroidism which is an autoimmune disease. Keeping fingers crossed for you that you'll soon have a brighter better life :) XXX

I know you're scared and have a feeling of dread and you're extremely sick and tired and unwell, but the main thing right now is finding out why. Once you know why you're feeling like this, then you can get treatment and make adjustments and hopefully feel the change quickly. Add to how you feel, your Mum also being sick.... it's really just not fair. 2020 has been so cruel and harsh to everyone, but i know you can make it through it. Just take it day by day and not stress over unimportant things, like making vids. I know you enjoy doing it and we enjoy watching them, i just found your channel a few weeks ago and really love your AJ vids.... but you and your health have to be #1 for now. You do know inside when you're just not feeling right, when it's not some cold or 24 hour bug.... you just know it. You know something doesn't feel right inside you, so you have to find out as quick as you can what it is and get treatment. As for your Mum.... i'm very, very sorry. This world can produce such beautiful things like Angelina Jordan's voice, but then be cold and cruel like this. You can get through this though, you seem like a very positive and strong person and you have one of the best smiles i've ever seen.... you will be showing it off again soon. Stay strong and take very good care of yourself and very best wishes to your Mum. Also, don't feel like you're letting anyone down on here either, because you're not.... we all understand. Go put some AJ vids on repeat and relax to them and get some rest.

Sandy, i am praying for you and your mom. Have faith and hope dear one.

Thoughts and prayers, from Joe in WI.

You also look beautiful. Because you are. You’re a beautiful person, and I mean inside and out. Remember that. Hang on to hope and find a moment of joy every day. My prayers are going up and I get it. Just hang on. Rest in God. He’s got you.

You're important Sandy. Prioritize regaining your health and getting your beautiful self to the place it needs to be first so you can be there for your mom as well. Am so very sorry for what you both are facing and hope you will find the strength to stay positive, stay safe, keep your faith and never let yourself be overwhelmed in these challenging times bc they will pass. Stay strong, healing prayers, big love n hugs💜💜💜

I am so sorry to hear this. There is a way you can take control of your autoimmune disorder and feel normal through diet. The book 'The Wahls Protocol" by Dr. Terry Wahls is excellent. She is in recovery from an autoimmune disorder and is functioning normally now. Her story is incredible. Best wishes to your health. Xxoo

So sorry to hear about all you are going through. We will keep you in our prayers. You take care of yourself and your mom and don't worry about anything else right now. We'll be here for you when you get better.

Stay safe, strong and optimistic. Life has highs and lows. Unfortunately sometimes it seems the lows pile on. Fingers crossed and positive thoughts for both you and your mom. You have a large virtual support group here. I hope your physical support chain is equally as impressive. Just know you are not in this alone. No matter we will always stand with you

Sandy, I hope to our God that you find relief from this awful awful condition. And please know how much every one of us fans do really 💘 love you. There are things I feel urged to share with you about Lupus however the most important information I will tell you is above ALL else listen to your physician.

Oh Sandy I'm so sorry to hear what you are going through. Please be strong and stay positive. The most important thing is to take good care of yourself now. Listen to that healing voice that you love and be comforted by him. Hope to see your lovely smile again when you get better. 🙏❤

As a person that has went through that except in the reverse order, mom died, then shortly after my dad died, I know what that does to you but I was not sick myself. Take care of yourself and get yourself better. You will find support that can help you with your mom till you get able to do it yourself. My thoughts and prayers are sent your way and i sure hope they can make you feel a whole lot better. All your fans are with you and here for you, even if you just want to vent, we are here. Take care and here is to seeing you soon.

Prayers to you, and to your mom. 🙏❤️

Ron from Boston wishing you the best. I follow you regularly, but your health takes priority.

You're really going through it aren't you honey...my best advise is..Be Still and Let God....you are very much loved by so many of your fans.. we're your friends and family and we love you...Beverly from Tennessee

Sandy please remember, and know that you are loved. My prayers, and good thoughts go out to you sweet lady.

Yr loved by us all S. And you inspire us. Praying for you and yr mom. Much love 😘

We are all here for you and with you. We are part of your family, of love and support. I believe in the power of belief, faith and positivity. They may be for you the best medecine. Keep your eyes on Him who saves!

Hi, Sandy, don't be discourage. You are such a great person, I will pray for you and do novena for you to get well soon. Have hope, faith and love, God will give you the recharge energy for you. I will be thinking of you in my prayer. Take care n stay strong.

Sorry to hear Sister..... dont worrie about us you take care of you and mom ... mainly you ... i keep all my friends and family in my prayers and know that you are a part of that my friend/sister .. here in Hawaii we all brothers and sisters ... so keep your head up my sister and think positive.... you and mom are in my prayers xoxoxoxo

Sandy I am so very sorry that you are ill.... I hope you find out what it is !!!! God bless

We hung out for a bit while we were waiting to get in to see Dimash and someone just posted a picture of that so you were already in my mind. I'm sorry you're going through this right now, Sandy. I'll be thinking of you and sending healing thoughts.

Chin up. There have been many advancements with lupus. Love your reactions and hoping all goes well for you and your Mom.

Hello! Just saw this video for the first time as I was re-watching your reaction to the wonderful Diana Ankudinova. I scoured your catalogue of songs to find another Diana reaction and then discovered this video. First off, you have been through so much. I am sorry to hear of your situation. Certainly nothing you asked for. As soon as you mentioned your symptoms I thought to myself ... sounds like lupus. Just to clarify, I don't have it but I know 2 people who do. Yes, it sure does cause fatigue and weakness. I'm sure you will know when to back off any activity when your body tells you to. I can only wish you the absolute best. Please keep doing videos to keep social contact but do less. We will understand! The fact that you got 6,000 views from people who care enough to watch this video is encouraging. You seem like such a nice gal and a great daughter. I wish you and your mother all the very best. Please kerp us updated. May God bless you!

Sorry to hear about your and your moms medical issues. I take care of my mom too. It's difficult. You are a very kind and generous person. I hope you have the support you need, as you go through this journey.

I couldn’t tell when I saw you. Feel better my love. You are in my thoughts and prayers

I have watched all of your Angelina videos (some quite a few times) and I enjoy so much experiencing them with you that I feel I know a small part of you and it's very beautiful and kind. Thank you for bringing me that joy. Hang in there and push through 2020! It's certainly been a tough year.

I'm so sorry for your health. Please be safe and have know there are people who love and appreciate you and hope for the best1

So sorry about your situation. My daughter has had lupis for 30 years and after medication is able to function very normally. I have also been a care giver for older family members for many years and there are some things that you have no control over. Just take one day at a time. Will keep you in my prayers.

Ow geeze. Yours is the one channel I've relied on to take me on the Angelina journey. I have a daughter 26yrs who has all the same symptoms plus narcolepsy & cataplexy but what you describe is on par for us to now recheck her diagnosis. Thank you for putting yourself out there, you might have given her a chance of getting correct treatment. Again, thank you.

Please stay safe and get that help. It is treatable, so we are looking to the bright side, hoping the best for you.

So sorry for your struggles and the feelings of uncertainty at this time! I enjoy your reaction videos. "Smylyface" is a great tag because you've always seemed to have a natural, innate smile on your face which I believe can come only from a sweet and loving spirit within. I'm a Christian, and I just now took a few moments to pray for God to help you in your days ahead with His power, grace, mercy, lovingkindness, and wisdom, as He has done for me time and time again through the dark valleys. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers! In Christ's Love, John Battles

I have a couple family members that have lupus. You can live a long time with lupus yes you will have your bad moments with your kidneys and things so you can live a pretty normal life. Do not be afraid. You are one of my faves Worry will make you sick and I know it's difficult not to. But please wait until you have all the facts and you can address it head-on like I know you will. Also don't be afraid to ask for help for yourself and your mother. We all love to be Superwoman but sometimes we just can't . one of my faves so do what you got to do to yourself

Dear Sandy! I am so sorry for your health. I wish you all the best.

I am so sorry for your pain And your struggles. No one knows the future! Lupus is manageable. You will learn to live with it to the best of your ability. God knows your burdens and never asks for more than you can handle-even thought seems so, in the moment. Have you re-examined your Priorities? You can not be there for your Mother, unless you take care of yourself first! God Bless

Be Safe Dear Sandy! My thoughts with You! ❤

Hugs and hope heading your way. Nothing I can say that hasn't been said or thought of. I know all of your "family" out here is sending all the love and positive vibes we can.

Sorry to hear that! You can't take care of your mother if you don't take care of yourself! That's why it is not selfish or a question of guilt - you have to take care of yourself first! I wish you and your mother all the best!

Sandy that was so heart breaking,but you sound like a very strong person. God well only give you what you can handle put your faith in him he is your strength. My heart and prayers are with you and your mom.... All things are possible with Christ..... Hang in there you have tons of people who love and care for you..... God bless

That leaden exhaustion and super low vitamin D is something I've been struggling with since December, but it's been getting better in the last month. I'm so sorry you've been going through this for such a long time, but thank you for trusting us with your story. I hope you have had tests for covid, mono and fibromyalgia to rule them out and help you find some effective treatment.

Dearest Sandy, I'm praying for you and hoping that your road to recovery leads you toward the knowledge that many have loved you because of your videos, I'm new to your channel and you are my primary go to for my fix for the Wonderful World of Angelina, also I've found the Wonderful World of SmileyFace. You are a blessing to me! Over 25 yrs ago I had an autoimmune disease ( Good Pastures) and of the 7 people in Oklahoma at the time I was the only survivor because of prayer thru faith in my Lord; May both you and Mom dip your feet in the Pools of Siloam, Much LOVE

It's been 2 wks now since you so bravely shared with us this tsunami of troubled waters you're struggling through. I hate it for you! I'm so blessed to have found the dearest person to explore the world of Angelina with. You are as comforting to me as her music is. You are so loved ♥️.

My heart goes out to you for everything that you are going through. Please don't worry about RU-vid. Your health and emotional well being are more important! Try not to worry about tomorrow or the future and just take it one day at a time. When you reach out to people, you will be surprised how much help will come. You are a beautiful soul. Keep the Faith and please hang in there! Sending you much Love and healing energy!

My thought s are with you Sandy. You are young, smart and beautiful. You are on the right track. You're a strong women and will get stronger once a proper diagnosis is made. Take care of yourself. Chin up love, brighter days are ahead. Dave

Thank you so much for sharing this with us Sandy. You're on our prayer list. Along time ago, my ex-fiance had lupus, I remember she was on kidney dialysis then she got a kidney from her brother, & they put on these meds she made it through (by the grace of God) & she's been living with Lupus & the kidney transplant for over 45 years. She had to stop smoking & drinking to make herself better & she would go up & down until she stopped doing her vices. She used to say when she woke up in the morning she felt like she was run over by a truck all the time, but that got better too. I love how sweet & gentle & kind you are. I love that smile of yours. So I'll just keep praying for you & I do think you should take it easy & don't worry about us, we'll be just fine as long as you're taking care of yourself. When you do get better, let us know asap! So we all can cheer you for you \{*o*}/ So now go & take care of yourself & God bless you & your family. I wish I could give you a Hug, so I'm sending you one ]--{^-^}--[

Sorry to hear your condition. Hope you get better. Loved your reaction to Angelina Jordan.

So sorry about your ailment, Sandy. Many prayers with the hope of a quick recovery. All the best to you and your family!

Praying for you and your mom that you get the strength and support to get through these difficult times. 🙏🙏🙏

Even though I’m subscribed and supposedly be notified, I just found this update on your health issues. I also so your much more recent short clip that you are coming back. I’m looking forward to your return.

I am so sorry to hear what you have been going through. The uncertainty and anxiety of medical conditions for both you and your mom are stressful and can seem to be overwhelming. It is of primary importance that you focus first on getting yourself feeling better. Feelings of guilt are understandable, but are not productive and need to be pushed aside if possible. Also remember that you are never alone. There are programs and people ready to help. Do not be afraid to ask. Medical centers have support teams and palliative care specialists who are there to support you. We on this site will be thinking about you both and sending positive energy to help the healing process. You are an exceptional woman and daughter. Stay strong.

I'll add a prayer for you feel better soon. I have a couple friends who have lupus. They have both figured out how to live with it and I hope you can too. My hearts cries for you and your mother. Bless you both.

Sandy thanks for allowing us into your pain...its a very courageous thing to do. Know that you have many thousand fans praying for you and your mom. Whatever energy you have needs to be focused on you two.

Sandy, I have watched all your reactions on Angelina Jordan because I very much enjoy your company, I also have medical problems but I forget about them with you. I see you have a lot of followers and hope you can feel the love and support we have for you! - Get well and keep in touch with, as Angelina said in a song, "the good and the bad" ...

Dear Sandy, I'm so sorry. Sending you positive healing thoughts. I hope things get settled and you're well again soon. Lots and lots of love from England.

Hi dear, I'm sorry for all these time you have been suffering uncertainty, doubts, stress,etc. Please take all the time you need for you and mom. You don't have to be stress by stress to react videos, you're not commited to it. You and your mom first. We are going to wait for you every time you need. Let's see what the new tests tell you so you'll be able to start getting better. But please forget and cancel concern for not reacting. Everything is gonna be alright, you'll see!! Please stay safe, and don't go climbing mountains 😋 Keep in touch when you want. Love from Barcelona. - Spain. ❤️

So sorry for you. I hope things work out. Sometimes we are handed more than we can deal with....but we try our best.

You look beautiful. For what it’s worth: my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 renal cell carcinoma in early March 2020. Stage 4 because it spread to her spine. Kidney cancer, in other words. The Mayo Clinic treated the spinal tumor with nuclear medicine proton therapy and removed the kidney. She is now cured. CURED. I tell you this because there may be a positive outcome in store. If you ever want to talk, we should share contact info. I’d be happy to listen and encourage you. God bless you, Sandy! And you are, indeed, beautiful. Jeff

May you have a speedy recovery and continued success. It takes courage to share such a very personal story. May I add that you are my favorite reactor, especially your Angelina Jordan's videos! Again, please get well so we can continue to enjoy your reactions!

Thank you for sharing with us what you're facing up. I hear you and in many ways I relate with you. As many of us has said to you, ask for help and remember you can't do it all by yourself. Wish I could do more to help you, but from Portugal I'm just including you and your family in my positive thoughts chain. Big hug and tons of love. ❤❤

Oh my, my heart goes out to you. Your reaction to Angelina's 'Stay and You're Always On My Mind' hooked me on watching reactions. Sandy, you just ooze class and compassion. You're very gifted. And you are truly a gift. Your determination inspires me.

My heart goes out to you and yours. I'm sorry that you are having such a hard time of it, and please take care of yourself as best you can. Love and support from Canada.

Thank you for your honesty and integrity for this situation and love to you and your family

So sorry to hear about all the stress in your life. Just remember that you have lots of friends through your channel that are here to support you through this trying time. Stay strong and do what you are able to do to get through this. We all love you.🙂

My dearest Sandy, please take care of yourself ! As much as your reactions are loved and enjoyed by us, you have to be your number 1 priority. Lupus is a very crippling syndrome. I am so saddened that you are going through this. You are the best daughter that any parent could ever hope to have. My thoughts and prayers are with you. My heart will be with you always.

Thank you for baring your soul, where are you now in treatment, you know we are all praying for you. If you hit a brick wall I would suggest you have your doctor send your records to the MAYO Clinic in MN. BIG OLD HUG HONEY !

Tons of positive thoughts Sandy! Hope they find the cause soon and you are on the road to recovery.

First of all, thank you for being so courage to share this with us. I personally subscribe to reactors i like/love their personality too. You have more than 20 000 that like who you are, thats something. Many people care about you and wish you all the best(even those who dont know what too say, i almost didnt replied because my english is so bad). Love and Big Hug from Norway!

take heart Sandy. I have enjoyed listening band watching your comments on Angelina Jordan, she is an inspiration to all of us, and through her beautiful voice you can make it. I too have many problems, , one of which I have to sit in a wheel chair, owing to a mistake made by a hospital here. -I listen to Angelina, and my depression disappears- I feel good again God bless Sandy and get well soon. Chris. /Denmark)

You and your mom are in my prayers. Have enjoyed your videos, especially as you discovered Angelina. Don't want to be preachy if you are not so inclined but I will say this. None of us can know what our future holds but all of us can know Who holds our future.

Thoughts and prayers for you and your mom

You are loved from Iowa. Sending you as many hugs as you will need. Just try to breathe. It helps at times.

I am so sorry. Please take care of yourself and get a caregiver for your mom. I will keep you in my prayers and hoping it gets better for you and your mom.💌Hugs!

I’m so sorry to hear this. Wrapping my. Heart around yours to give you peace during this time

From Slovenia I sending you all good wishes for your and your mother health...be strong hun...whole world praying for both of you

Sending you so much love and wishing you all the very best of care and health. Know that your followers love and care for you. Take care lovely lady. Xxxx

Praying for you Sandy. 💗

My thoughts & prayers are with you & your Mom. May the angels watch over you.

Hallo smylyface my great grandmother always said " God doesn't put more on your shoulders than you can bear " 🙂 but you are carrying heavy loads !! ... And I am afraid that you take your responsibilities a little too serious regarding your mother .... It may sound harsh to you but you just have to find help outside yourself for both your mother and yourself !!! You are simply not strong enough at this time to take care of both of you ... And I am convinced you will be okay 🇩🇰 best wishes and we all hope to hear from you as you get results from your tests